MSG :: Volume #6

#501: Inextricable last night

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The death was what kind of feeling, everyone will perhaps have the different ideas. Some people think that the death was the endless void, some people think that the death was the eternal tranquility. Numerous, always has this and that different realizing from experience in the issue of death. 死亡是一种怎么样的感觉,每个人或许都会有不同的想法。有人认为死亡是无尽的空虚,有人则认为死亡是永恒的宁静。林林总总,在死亡的问题上总是有着这样那样不同的体悟。 However this idea mostly can only be the conjecture, because was not everyone has contacted the experience of death. Was not everyone can after the death intimate contact, but can also survive by luck, shared own sense. 不过这种想法大都只能算是臆想,因为并不是每个人都有接触过死亡的体验。更不是每个人都能在和死亡亲密接触之后,还能侥幸存活下来,把自己的感官分享出去。 Most people came from regarding the experience of death oneself analysis, from books writing, or from own experience. However Jill is different, her present experience came from completely own, real incomparable feeling. 大多数人对于死亡的体会是来自于自己的分析,从书本文字上,或者从自己所见所闻上。但是吉尔不同,她现在的体会是完全来自于自己本身的、真实无比的感受。 The extrication, is not willing. This was she regarding the death, most real experience and feeling. The death took to her, puts down the extrication feelings of all gratitude and grudges rival in love. After she hugged the death, she actually discovers oneself innermost soul, preserves as human lives the emotion when present world. Although some emotions dissipated along with the death. However also some, actually after the death approached, becomes is unable to put behind profoundly. 解脱,不甘心。这是她对于死亡,最真实的体会和感受。死亡带给她的,是放下一切恩怨情仇的解脱感觉。但是当她拥抱了死亡之后,她却是发现自己的灵魂深处,还是存留有身为人类活在现世之时的情感。虽然有些情感已经随着死亡而消散掉了。但是还有一些,却在死亡来临了之后,变得更加深刻、更加无法忘却起来。 Living time, she was impossible to have any result sentiment deeply to bury this type in the most deep place of oneself innermost feelings, making it never possibly have to say goodbye daylight one day. When she entered into the death, this type by her deeply has been buried, in the heart sentiment actually follows her to arrive in the world of death together, was similar to the maggot of tarsal bone same is pestering her soul, making her taste not the willingly taste little. 活着的时候,她把这种不可能有任何结果的感情深深地埋在了自己内心的最深处,让它永远不可能有再见天日的一天。但是当她迈入死亡的时候,这种被她一直深埋在心底的感情却伴随着她一起来到了死亡的世界里,然后如同跗骨之蛆一样纠缠着她的灵魂,让她一点点地品尝到了不甘心的滋味。 This is one most painful taste, because a spirit of death not willingly will not have any result. But what is most laughable, all these are her choice. Because temporary gave up own life desperately, finally actually can only reduce to so the region, forever enjoys this regret the taste. This made in her soul the only consciousness start becomes manic. 这是一种最为痛苦的滋味,因为一个死亡的魂灵的不甘心不会有任何的结果。而最可笑的是,这一切本来是她自己的选择。因为一时的绝望而放弃了自己的生命,结果却只能沦落到这般境地里,永远享受这后悔的滋味。这让她灵魂中仅有的意识都开始变得狂躁了起来。 But starts in her soul manic restless, even already starts therefore to have the change the time. Suddenly appeared in her side together brightly, like was the mild water current, entire has wrapped her. 而就在她的灵魂开始狂躁不安,甚至已经开始因此而发生改变的时候。一道光明突然出现在了她的身边,像是温润的水流一样,把她整个地包裹了起来。 That is one type is mysterious, is unable with the feeling that the spoken language narrated. Regarding Jill of present only remaining souls, she even realized that in one type returned to mother to embrace the warmth. But along with this bright intensifying. This warm feeling also became urgent. Let Jill start cannot help but to send out the respite. 那是一种非常神奇的,根本无法用言语来叙述的感受。对于现在只剩下灵魂的吉尔来说,她甚至体会到了一种回到了母亲怀抱里的温暖。而随着这光明的加剧。这种温暖的感觉也变得紧迫了起来。让吉尔开始不由自主地发出了喘息。 Her as if also starts to present the strange illusion at present. Started to fluctuate from darkness and warm light of that death, the even more bright color started bit by bit to appear in her vision. She saw are more, looks like she living time is the same. 她的眼前似乎也开始出现奇怪的幻觉。从那种只有死亡的黑暗和温暖的光明开始变幻,越发鲜艳的色彩开始一点一点地出现在她的视觉里。她看到了更多,就像是她活着的时候一样。 Or present she indeed is living. She was rescued. From the world of death. But causes source that all these have, is standing before her at this moment is pressing her chest, is transporting the strength to her unceasingly Zhou Yi. 或者说,现在的她的确是在活着。她被救了回来。从死亡的世界里面。而导致这一切发生的源头,则是此刻正站在她面前的按着她的胸口,对着她不断输送力量的周易。 Just returned to Jill of world naturally also to see Zhou Yi. She at this moment like has not been one suddenly the person who revives from the stupor, was inquiring exactly had anything. The death was different from the stupor, she naturally knows that actually what happened on own body. 刚刚回到人世的吉尔自然也看到了身边的周易。此刻的她并没有像是一个突然从昏迷中苏醒过来的人一样,询问着到底发生了什么。死亡和昏迷不一样,她自然是知道在自己的身上究竟发生了什么事情。 Therefore she can only complex incomparably look at Zhou Yi one. Then has made the hoarse sound from own mouth. 所以她只能复杂无比地看了周易一眼。然后从自己的嘴里发出了沙哑的声音。 „Was you have saved me? Why do you want to save me?” “是你救了我？你为什么要救我？” „This should be I asked that you are right! Why you must commit suicide, in your brain is actually thinking anything damn thing!” “这应该是我来问你才对！你为什么要自杀,你的脑子里到底在想些什么见鬼的东西！” Heard the Jill issue, Zhou Yi cannot bear send out the angry interrogation immediately. Must know, if he comes again in the evening for two minutes, wanted to revive her is not such easy matter. 听到吉尔的问题,周易立刻就忍不住发出了愤怒的质问。要知道,如果他再来晚上两分钟,想要把她重新救活过来就不是这么容易的事情了。 Once loafed in the god of death of world has carried off her soul, he must resurrect Jill only to enter to the death state, sought for her existence to be good from the innumerable people of death goddess. But regarding lost Spiritual God strength him, wanted to enter the death the state to be how difficult. That likely goes at the result that is unable to return to again. 一旦游荡在世界的死神带走了她的灵魂,他要复活吉尔就只能进入到死亡的国度里,从死亡女神的无数子民中去寻找到她的存在才行。而对于已经失去了神灵力量的他来说,想要进入死亡的国度何其困难。那很可能就是一去在再也无法复返的结局。 Perhaps after has died, feels the fear. Perhaps had discovered the death cannot solve her problem. Therefore at this time, was facing the interrogation of Zhou Yi. Jill is actually lowering the head of stems from him to anticipate. 也许是死过之后,才感觉到了后怕。也许是发现了死亡并不能解决掉她的问题。所以在这个时候,面对着周易的质问。吉尔却是出乎他意料的低下了头。 „Sorry, I was too impulsive. Because does not want to open for a while, I made this foolish matter. I ensure this matter will not occur again.” “抱歉,我太冲动了。因为一时没有想开,我才做下了这种蠢事。我保证,这种事情不会再发生了。” „Should better not to occur again, because I am impossible to appear in your side at any time.” Lowering the head of Jill made Zhou Yi have the reason of disappearing fire reluctantly, on his mouth be forgiving was not saying as before, but actually gradually increased hand inside life strength. „You must know when your life was passed away for the Spiritual God my gracious gift. You are immortality by the God has blessed existence. Because cannot look on the bright side of thing for a while gives up such life, is worth really?” “最好不会再发生,因为我不可能随时出现在你的身边。”吉尔的低头让周易勉强有了消火的理由,他嘴上依旧不留情地这么说着,但是却是渐渐加大了手里面的生命力量。“你要知道,你的生命是受过身为神灵时的我恩赐的。你是长生不老的被神祝福过的存在。因为一时想不开就放弃这样的生命,真的值得吗？” „Had been blessed life?” Heard such words, on the face of Jill has actually shown the pitiful smiling face. „I have not known that really my life had been blessed. If I really am blessed. I will always lose why I most important thing. Zhou Yi, you is a God, can you tell me the answer of this issue? Why this is!” “被祝福过的生命？”听到这样的话,吉尔的脸上却是露出了凄惨的笑容。“我还真的不知道我的生命是被祝福过的。如果我真是被祝福过的话。为什么我总是会失去我最重要的东西。周易,你是神,你能告诉我这个问题的答案吗？这到底是为什么！” „Has sufficed, Jill. You think that you are very pitiful?” “够了,吉尔。你以为你很悲惨吗？” Is listening to the Jill words. Zhou Yi is one shouts angrily immediately. He held the Jill collar fiercely, has raised her whole person. 听着吉尔的话。周易立刻就是一声怒喝。他猛地抓住了吉尔的领子,把她整个人提了起来。 „Has a look at you are standing the lands. How many people here had died, do you still remember? You thought that you are very pitiful, do you have to think them. Has thought the person who these died lost anything, they are pitiful. To me, you are also living. They actually died. Compared with you, they are the pitiful lives.” “看看你所站着的这片土地。这里曾经死过多少人,你还记得吗？你觉得你很悲惨,你有没有想过他们。想过这些死去的人到底失去了什么,他们是不是悲惨的。给我记着,你还活着。他们却已经死了。和你相比,他们才是悲惨的生命。” „Ha, haha!” At this time, Jill cannot make any explanation to Zhou Yi. She simply does not have any courage to tell him, losing that oneself think is any thing. After the death was not willingly survives as in her innermost feelings, that type is being ready to make trouble by the emotion that she constrained crazily. However the status of live person is restricting her, letting her only to laugh, is shedding tears in the laughter silently, covers existence of that emotion with this way. “哈,哈哈！”这个时候,吉尔根本不能对周易做出任何的说明。她根本没有任何勇气去告诉他,自己所认为的失去到底是什么东西。死亡后的不甘心依旧残存在她的内心里,那种被她压抑住的情感在疯狂地蠢蠢欲动着。然而活人的身份制约着她,让她只能大笑,在笑声中默默地流着眼泪,用这种方式来掩盖住那种情感的存在。 In a piece of blood stain, being saved from death Jill crazily and is laughing hoarsely, the tears fall the cheeks with the laughter, this let she looked like simply pitiful like has folded the swan of wing. 一片血污之中,死里逃生的吉尔疯狂而沙哑地大笑着,泪水随着笑声滑落脸颊,这让她看起来简直悲惨的像是一只折了翅膀的天鹅一样。 Zhou Yi cannot understand her mood at this moment, but can actually feel that in her innermost feelings to be sad and pain. In the situation of this being perplexed, he cannot give her comfort in any spoken language. Therefore he can only sigh to hug her, has fed in her bedroom. 周易不能理解她此时此刻的心情,但是却能感受到她内心里的那种悲伤与痛苦。在这种不明所以的情况下,他不能给她什么言语上的安慰。所以他只能叹着气把她抱了起来,送进了她的卧室里面。 Looked like he had done was the same. He has put on Jill the bed, changes the pajamas for her, then looks for the hot towel to scratch to be clean little her dirt. 就像是他曾经做过的一样。他把吉尔放到了床上,替她换上睡衣,然后找来热毛巾一点点地擦干净她身上的污渍。 In this process, Jill looks like a fine puppet is the same , whatever he is organizing. Besides staring in a big way the eye was fixing the eyes on him, she had not even said including a few words. 在这个过程中,吉尔就像是一个精致的玩偶一样任由他摆布着。除了瞪大了眼睛紧盯着他之外,她甚至连一句话都没有多说。 This regarding Zhou Yi perhaps is a good deed, because this can make among them be short of the unnecessary awkwardness. But in this silent tacit understanding, Zhou Yi quickly has completed all these. After he tucked by the corner/horn, he has opened the mouth. Was saying to the Jill urging. 这对于周易来说也许是一件好事,因为这样可以让他们之间少了很多不必要的尴尬。而就在这种无声的默契中,周易很快就做完了这一切。当他把被角掖好之后,他才张开了嘴。对着吉尔叮嘱道。 „Rests well. If you thought really this city does not suit you, I allow you to leave. You do not need to put your body such heavy burden/shoulder pole, relax, I will not blame at this matter your. You have the life that the qualifications choose themselves to want, I have no right to prevent you, nobody has this right to prevent you. I hope, if, you can also , when I am a friend.” “好好地休息一下吧。如果你真的觉得这个城市不适合你的话,我允许你离开。你不需要把这么沉重的担子放到自己的身上,放心,在这件事情上我是不会怪你的。你有资格去选择自己想要的生活,我无权阻止你,也没有人有这个权利阻止你。只是我希望,如果可以,你还能当我是朋友。” Friends? This phrase made Jill distress at heart stronger several points. When she looks Zhou Yi sets out to leave, she is unable to control oneself behavior again. She put out a hand fiercely, held the Zhou Yi lower hem corner. Let his movement stop. 朋友？这个字眼让吉尔心里的苦楚更加浓烈了几分。而当她看着周易起身想要离开的时候,她再也无法控制住自己的行为了。她猛地伸出了手,抓住了周易的衣角。让他的动作停止了下来。 „Can accompany me to drink one cup?” “能陪我喝一杯吗？” Looks body that Zhou Yi suspends, really could not find any reason Jill only to find a such excuse. 看着周易暂停下来的身体,实在是找不到什么理由的吉尔只能找出了一个这样的借口。 But after Zhou Yi that wanted to reject saw that plea in her eyes, again is tenderhearted. Jill is not the patient, just by her who he resurrected is the incomparable health. In this case, he indeed has not let the reason that she drinks. 而本来想要拒绝的周易看到了她眼里的那种恳求之后,却是再一次地心软下来。吉尔不是什么病人,刚刚被他复活过来的她更是无比的健康。在这种情况下,他的确没有不让她喝酒的理由。 Moreover coming out that Zhou Yi also looks, what she results is the worry. Regarding this illness, alcohol perhaps is the only good medicine. Therefore he nodded, was saying to Jill sentence „waiting a bit”, directly walked. 而且周易也看的出来,她得的是心病。对于这种病症来说,酒精也许才是唯一的良药。所以他点了点头,对着吉尔说了句“稍等”,就径直走了出去。 A moment later, when he comes back. In his hand was taking two wine glasses. With one bottle has not opened whisky. Placed the head the wine glass, Zhou Yi just on but actually the liquor, Jill impatiently put out a hand, takes up one glass of liquor to pour into own mouth directly. 片刻之后,当他回来的时候。他的手里已经拿着两个酒杯。和一瓶还没有打开过的威士忌。把酒杯放在床头,周易刚刚倒上酒,吉尔就迫不及待地伸出了手,拿起了一杯酒直接倒进了自己的嘴里。 The strong liquor changes to the firing line that flows. Sneaked in her throat, making her whole person hazy several points. However she has not actually satisfied, but puts the cup, was saying to Zhou Yi. 烈酒化作流淌的火线。钻进了她的喉咙里,让她整个人都变得迷蒙了几分。但是她却并没有满足,而是把杯子一放,就对着周易说道。 „Comes one cup again!” “再来一杯！” Zhou Yi has not prevented her, but while carrying own wine glass, gave her to get up one glass of liquor once again but actually. With previous time is the same. Jill drinks immediately the strong liquor, then immediately duplicates to have the same matter. Zhou Yi in silent is also coordinating her, making her express the depression in innermost feelings with this way heartily. 周易没有阻止她,而是在端起了自己的酒杯的同时,再度给她倒上了一杯酒。和上次一样。吉尔立刻将烈酒喝下,然后立刻又重复起了同样的事情。周易也在无声地配合着她,让她尽情地用这种方式抒发着内心里的苦闷。 Until the bottle dry wines completely, the Jill whole person like is one group of water lies down on bed. Zhou Yi sighed, has stood. 直到瓶干酒尽,吉尔整个人都像是一团水一样躺在床上的时候。周易才叹气了一声,站了起来。 As, be only these many that the friend he can do, as for remaining, can only look that Jill can take easy. Covered with the quilt for Jill, Zhou Yi has planned to turn around to leave. But this time, Jill actually fiercely has been gripping his hand, making him unable that step that takes to leave. 作为朋友他能做的只有这么多,至于剩下的,就只能看吉尔能不能想开了。替吉尔盖好了被子,周易已经打算转身离开。而就在这个时候,吉尔却是猛地握住了他的手,让他无法迈出离开的那一步。 „Remains, accompanies me. On this in the evening!” “留下来,陪我。就这一晚上！” Full is wine taste Jill sends out this type to be completely insignificant in the Zhou Yi hear, hazy words. Therefore he wants not to think to reply. 满是酒味的吉尔发出这种在周易听来完全是无意义的,迷蒙的话语。所以他想也不想得就回答道。 „Jill, you drank!” “吉尔,你喝多了！” „I do not have, Zhou Yi. I know that I am making anything! Is listening to the bastard, only then this in the evening, I want this in the evening. Passed tonight, when you all these have not occurred.” “我没有,周易。我知道我在做些什么！听着混蛋,只有这一晚上,我只要这一晚上。过了今晚,你就当这一切没有发生过。” „That is how possible!” Zhou Yi really divided not clear Jill was saying that the drunken language was really this idea. Therefore he can only smile bitterly is returning to the covered passageway. „Jill, you should know, I have the woman who I love, I cannot betray them!” “那怎么可能！”周易实在分不清楚吉尔是在说醉话还是真是这个想法。所以他只能苦笑着回复道。“吉尔,你应该知道,我有我爱的女人,我不能背叛她们！” „I know, I have not made you betray them. I do not have all that the extravagant demands they have!” In pressing of alcohol changed like does not have bone Jill of viperous beauty from the Zhou Yi back to grasp him quietly, twittering was saying to him near his ear in a soft voice. „I want, only then this evening, only then this evening, you are me. This has sufficed regarding me. Do the bastards, you like me not being unimportant, I want you one in the evening, yes?” “我知道,我没有让你背叛她们。我也没有奢求她们所拥有的一切！”在酒精的促变下已经像是一条没有骨头的美女蛇一样的吉尔悄然地从周易的背后抱住了他,在他的耳边对着他轻声呢喃道。“我要的只有这一个晚上,只有这一晚,你属于我。这对于我来说就已经够了。混蛋,你爱不爱我不重要,我只是想要你一晚上,明白吗？” „My non- extravagant demands your love, I want you to me a child, making me pin on the future. Perhaps this is one has loved your woman to your only request, can't you give her to select the response?” “我不奢求你的爱情,我只是想要你能给我一个孩子,让我在未来有所寄托。这是一个也许爱过你的女人对你的唯一的请求,你难道就不能给她点回应吗？” The Jill words made the body of Zhou Yi immediately stiff, his brain also suddenly became numb. At this time, Jill has shown a faint smile, hugs him to pour above the bunk. 吉尔的话让周易的身子顿时变得僵硬了起来,他的大脑也骤然变得麻木。就在这个时候,吉尔已经微微一笑,抱着他倒在了床铺之上。 This is she can have his night only, is her only need night. Also therefore just, tonight became especially different.( To be continued.) 这是她唯一能拥有他的一个夜晚,也是她唯一需要的一个夜晚。也正因此,今夜已经变得格外不同。(未完待续。)
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