Near in mid June, indeed burning hot three hottest periods of summer, in the Zhenjiang naval forces military compound cannot withstand dry and hot. 近六月中旬,正是炎热的三伏天,镇江水师军营中燥热不堪。 Jurchen people, Han Shizhong already the north of the Changjiang River preparation had fought in the past, is assumed Zhenjiang by Junwu. Although the Crown Prince status is honored, but Junwu usually also rested with the soldiers in the military compound together, he does not assume privileges, when day heat the rich people with the ice piece temperature decrease that in the winter preserved, Junwu when the riverbank mountainside choose one also to calculate some cool breeze the houses, if there are the honored guest came, side by iced drank as the entertainment coolly. 女真人已至,韩世忠已经过去江北预备大战,由君武坐镇镇江。虽然太子身份尊贵,但君武平素也只是在军营里与众士兵一道休息,他不搞特殊,天热时大户人家用冬日里储藏过来的冰块降温,君武则只是在江边的山腰选了一处还算有些凉风的房子,若有贵客来时,方以冰镇的凉饮作为招待。 8 th in the evening just shortly after at nightfall, opens the window, the wind that in the river blows is also hot, Junwu prepared the simple meal in the room, prepared the ice sand, with entertain Elder Sister that catches up with. 初八晚上才刚刚入夜不久,打开窗户,江上吹来的风也是热的,君武在房间里备了简单的饭菜,又预备了冰沙,用以招待一路赶来的姐姐。 The such weather, rides the carriage that jolts all day all day hurrying along, regarding many everyone females, is the unendurable suffering, but these years the matter of Zhou Pei experience is numerous, many times have long-distance running, that evening arrived in Zhenjiang, but looked like the complexion to be obviously black, on the face was somewhat thin and pale. Washes the face, slightly took a rest, on the face of Crown Princess also restores in those days was resolute. 这样的天气,坐着颠簸的马车整日整日的赶路,对于许多大家女子来说,都是难以忍受的煎熬,不过这些年来周佩经历的事情众多,许多时候也有长途的奔走,这天傍晚抵达镇江,只是看来面色显黑,脸上有些憔悴。洗一把脸,略作休息,长公主的脸上也就恢复往日的刚毅了。 The task that these years the sister and brother shoulder is extremely heavy, under the Junwu jaw the pogonotrophy, covered up on the face the inborn naivete, the Zhou Pei nearby private affair was difficult have the person saying that wore the mask that then alienated gracefully solemnly and respectfully, the mask wore for a long time, often became own part. Combs the hair and wash the face from now on Zhou Pei complexion slightly obviously pale, look feel alienated by no means asks for happily, although was slightly gentle in own Younger Brother front some, but in fact alleviates are not many. Sees such Elder Sister, the Junwu association/will to remember each time more than ten years ago she, although that time Zhou Pei intelligent proud, in fact actually is also attractive cute, the present sovereign elder sister, difficult with touch on slightly again cute, the man excluding oneself looked at him, it is estimated that will only feel afraid. 这些年来姐弟俩扛的担子极重,君武颌下蓄须,掩住了面孔上天生的稚气,周佩身边私事难有人可说,戴起的便是雍容肃穆疏远的面具,面具戴得久了,往往成了自己的一部分。梳洗过后的周佩面色稍显苍白,神色疏离并不讨喜,虽然在亲弟弟的面前稍微柔和了些许,但实际上缓解也不多。每次看见这样的姐姐,君武总会想起十余年前的她,那时的周佩虽然聪慧骄傲,实际上却也是漂亮可爱的,眼下的皇姐,再难跟可爱沾边,除自己外的男人看了他,估计都只会觉得害怕了。 Regarding the tragedy of Zhou Pei marriage, the surrounding person sobbed. But at this time naturally does not raise, sister and brother several months of even a half year meets one time, the strength, although causes in together, but during words also unavoidable formulation. 对于周佩婚姻的悲剧,周围的人都不免唏嘘。但此时自然不提,姐弟俩几个月甚至半年才见面一次,力气虽然使在一块儿,但话语间也难免公式化了。 Does to exchange greetings slightly, the dinner is simple meat three elements, Junwu eats vegetable/dish simple, the sour radish strip gets food down, eats the sound. For several years Zhou Pei assumes Lin'an, does not have important matter by no means to take a walk, at present the war is about to begin, suddenly arrives at Zhenjiang, Junwu thought that possibly has what important matter, but she has not opened the mouth, Junwu does not raise. Two people simple has had the dinner, the drinking tea water, from head to toe white dress appeared figure frail Zhou Pei to consider the moment, just now opened the mouth. 稍作寒暄,晚饭是简单的一荤三素,君武吃菜简单,酸萝卜条下饭,吃得咯嘣咯嘣响。几年来周佩坐镇临安,非有大事并不走动,眼下大战在即,忽然来到镇江,君武觉得可能有什么大事,但她还未开口,君武也就不提。两人简单地吃过晚饭,喝了口茶水,一身白色衣裙显得身形单薄的周佩斟酌了片刻,方才开口。 „Zhenjiang, no major problem?” “镇江这边,没什么大问题吧？” This is polite opened the mouth, Junwu is only nod smiled: „All right, Han General already prepared going to war, on logistics, permits Guangting has 8000 rounds of shells not to arrive, I am urging him, Huo Xiang subordinate 30,000 people of these days cross the river, he was slow-acting, sends people to strike his, other had no important matter.” 这是礼貌性的开口了,君武只是点头笑了笑:“没事,韩将军已经做好了打仗的准备,后勤上,许光庭有八千发炮弹没到,我正在催他,霍湘手下的三万人这几天过江,他行动迟缓,派人敲打了他一下,其余没什么大事了。” Zhou Pei nods: „Yes,...... was all right well on these days.” 周佩点了点头:“是啊,就这些天了……没事就好。” „Sovereign elder sister comes suddenly, what matter doesn't know for?” “皇姐忽然过来,不知道是为了什么事？” „......” Zhou Pei is carrying the teacup, is silent, crossed one, „I received the Jiangning message, Shen Ruxin fell ill, heard that got sick heavily.” “……”周佩端着茶杯,沉默下来,过了一阵,“我收到江宁的消息,沈如馨病倒了,听说病得不轻。” Junwu in the heart then sinks, the complexion flashed through the dreariness of moment, but soon after looked at Elder Sister one, nods: „Um, I know, actually...... others feel the Imperial Family sumptuous lifestyle, but enters the noblestem deep as sea like that she from marrying me, without many happy day. This time matter...... has Dr. Zou to visit her, meets one's fate with resignation.” 君武心中便沉下去,面色闪过了片刻的阴郁,但随后看了姐姐一眼,点了点头:“嗯,我知道,其实……旁人觉得皇家锦衣玉食,但就像那句一入侯门深似海,她自嫁给了我,没有多少开心的日子。这次的事……有邹太医看着她,听天由命吧。” The at this time marriage usually was the life of parents matchmaker's word, small family/home small family long-toiling was bound by a common destiny, to the wealthy and prominent family wealthy and powerful families , the female got married several years of marriage not to agree to cause depressed and passed away early, by no means was any strange matter. Shen Ruxin had no family background, to Crown Prince your family place, behaved properly trembling, the pressure is big. 此时的婚姻素来是父母之命媒妁之言,小家小户胼手胝足相依为命,到了高门大户里,女子过门几年婚姻不谐导致郁郁寡欢而早早去世的,并不是什么奇怪的事情。沈如馨本就没什么家世,到了太子府上,战战兢兢规行矩步,心理压力不小。 Between she and Junwu, although is each other feels emotion, but the task on Junwu shoulder is too heavy, in the heart can have one to worry about is not easy, usually nevertheless was hard to care that careful this was also the normal state of this time. This time Shen Ruhua has an accident to be pushed, from all sides examined for two months, Shen Ruxin does not dare to ask favor in the Jiangning Crown Prince mansion, is only body and mind entirely injury, finally spits blood to faint and be ill abed. The Junwu person in Zhenjiang, nevertheless goes back one not to have the time continually. 她与君武之间虽然算是彼此有情,但君武肩上的担子实在太重,心中能有一份记挂便是不易,平素却是难以关心细致的这也是这个时代的常态了。这次沈如桦出事被推出来,前前后后审了两个月,沈如馨在江宁太子府中不敢求情,只是身心俱伤,最终吐血晕厥、卧床不起。君武人在镇江,却是连回去一趟都没有时间的。 „I heard this matter, thought needs.” Zhou Pei carries the teacup, on the face cannot be seeing the fluctuations of too many look, „this time that pure running water Yao Qifang who Shen Ruhua holds, has the issue, before Dou Jia, Chen Family who person Shen Ruhua commit a crime, I have to govern their means. Shen Ruhua, you, if must keep his life, first puts in him the army. Matter that the matter of Capital City, under the person spoke, I did.” “我听说了这件事,觉得有必要来一趟。”周佩端着茶杯,脸上看不出太多神色的波动,“这次把沈如桦捅出来的那个清流姚启芳,不是没有问题,在沈如桦之前犯事的窦家、陈家人,我也有治他们的办法。沈如桦,你如果要留他一条命,先将他放到军队里去吧。京城的事情,下头人说话的事情,我来做。” The corner of the eye of Junwu twitched, the complexion really sank. In recent years, he received many pressure, actually cannot expect Elder Sister is really comes for this matter unexpectedly. In room peaceful for a long time, the night wind blows from the window, already had some cool feeling, made the will of the people also cool. Junwu places on the teacup the table. 君武的眼角抽搐了一下,脸色是真的沉下去了。这些年来,他受到了多少的压力,却料不到姐姐竟真是为了这件事过来。房间里安静了许久,夜风从窗户里吹进来,已经有些许凉意了,却让人心也凉。君武将茶杯放在桌子上。 „Sovereign elder sister, such as the birch...... must process, I cannot think you are......, for this comes......” “皇姐,如桦……是一定要处理的,我只是想不到你是……为了这个过来……” Zhou Pei looks at him, the vision is usual: „I come for you.” 周佩看着他,目光如常:“我是为了你过来。” „I am all right, in recent years, so many things withstood, this/should offending also offended. The war nears......” he paused: „Boiled on the line.” “我没事的,这些年来,那么多的事情都顶住了,该得罪的也都得罪了。大战在即……”他顿了顿:“熬过去就行了。” As a result of the in the heart mood, the speech of Junwu somewhat is slightly strong, Zhou Pei then stopped, she carried the tea to sit there, outside military compound had the team to take a walk, the wind is blowing the flame. Zhou Pei indifferent for a long time, actually smiled flickered. 由于心中的情绪,君武的说话稍稍有些强硬,周佩便停了下来,她端了茶坐在那里,外头的军营里有队伍在走动,风吹着火光。周佩冷漠了许久,却又笑了一瞬。 „Shen Ruhua is unimportant, but such as fragrant is very important, Junwu, these years...... you did very well. our Dynasty stresses the civil arts over the military arts, to let the army can be self determined at the war, you protected many people, blocked many winds and rains, for these years you were very strong, carry the pressure, Yue Fei, Han Shizhong...... Jiangnan the outdoor shop matter, come the escaping people from north, many people can live to be lucky has your status resists hardly. Firm changed/easy fold/break words several years my didn't say, offends the person early offends the person. But such as fragrant matter, I feared that you one day to regret.” “沈如桦不重要,但是如馨挺重要,君武,这些年……你做得很好了。我朝重文轻武,为了让军队于战事能自决,你保护了很多人,也挡住了很多风雨,这几年你都很强硬,扛着压力,岳飞、韩世忠……江南的这一摊子事,从北面过来的逃民,很多人能活下来多亏了有你这个身份的硬抗。刚强易折的话早几年我就不说了,得罪人就得罪人。但如馨的事情,我怕你有一天后悔。” Junwu gawked staring, without the speech, Zhou Pei both hands holds the teacup peacefully the moment, looks to out of the window. 君武愣了愣,没有说话,周佩双手捧着茶杯安静了片刻,望向窗外。 „...... These years of Namtu, our sister and brother hearts were harder, others seem like the fear, actually has no other choice. Little Brother you know, after I get married, by no means is happy, I do not like the emperor's son-in-law, afterward processed him, others said that my heart is hard, in the eye only has the power, is going to work as the loner, when Wu Zetian. Processes Qu Zonghui time I not lenient, even today, I do not think that has what issue. However the time crosses like this, I every so often, wants to have the own family member...... my not to have.” “……南渡的这些年来,我们姐弟心都硬了很多,别人看起来害怕,其实是不得已。小弟你知道,我成亲后并不开心,我不喜欢驸马,后来处理了他,别人说我心硬,眼睛里只有权力,将要要当孤家寡人、当武则天。处理渠宗慧的时候我没有手软,就算今天,我也不觉得有什么问题。但是时间这样过,我很多时候,也想有自己的家人……我这一世不会有了。” Her corner of the eye smiled, flashes miserably passes, soon after supplemented one with a smile: „Naturally, I said that is not the father sovereign and Little Brother you, you forever are my family member.” 她眼角凄凉地笑了笑,一闪即逝,随后又笑着补充了一句:“当然,我说的,不是父皇和小弟你,你们永远是我的家人。” In the room is peaceful. Junwu in the heart also understands gradually, the reason that the sovereign elder sister comes is anything, naturally, this matter, said that can be very big, can be very small, was hard to measure, for serveral days, Junwu in the heart was also actually hard to think clearly. 房间里再度安静下来。君武心中也渐渐明白过来,皇姐过来的理由是什么,当然,这件事情,说起来可以很大,又可以很小,难以衡量,这些天来,君武心中其实也难以想得清楚。 He for a long time, soon after also can only say silent reluctantly: „If fragrant she entered the Imperial Family gate, she can endure. Even if...... cannot endure......” 他沉默许久,随后也只能勉强说道:“如馨她进了皇家的门,她挺得住的。就算……挺不住……” His soon after smiles: „Elder Sister, that also after all is only my nearby person that's all, these years, the nearby person, I personally ordered to kill, was not infrequent. Can't I to today, how waste all previous efforts...... everyone to see me?” 他随后一笑:“姐姐,那也毕竟只是我一个身边人罢了,这些年,身边的人,我亲自下令杀了的,也不在少数。我总不能到今天,前功尽弃……大家怎么看我？” „Perhaps matter you have not thought is so big. Perhaps......” Zhou Pei lowered the head to consider the moment, her sound became extremely low, „perhaps...... these years, you were too strong, sufficed...... me to know you in study that person, but was not everyone can turn into that person, if you before compelled the regret oneself, wants to draw back one step...... everyone to understand......” “也许事情没有你想的那么大。也许……”周佩低头斟酌了片刻,她的声音变得极低,“也许……这些年,你太强硬了,够了……我知道你在学那个人,但不是所有人都能变成那个人,如果你在把自己逼到后悔之前,想退一步……大家会理解的……” These words, Zhou Pei said extremely difficultly, because she herself also by no means believes. Junwu can actually understand mood, Elder Sister already arrived at the extreme, without the means retroceded, even if she understands that can only work like this, but before battle, she hopes own Younger Brother could the road of regret. Junwu detected indistinctly this contradictory state of mind, since this has been several years, Elder Sister reveals such indecisive thoughts for the first time. 这一番话,周佩说得极其艰难,因为她自己也并不相信。君武却能明白其中的情绪,姐姐已经走到了极端,没有办法后退了,纵然她明白只能这样做事,但在开战之前,她还是希望自己的弟弟或许能有一条后悔的路。君武隐约察觉到这矛盾的心绪,这是数年以来,姐姐第一次露出这样优柔寡断的心思来。 He then shakes the head. 他便只是摇头。 Zhou Pei then no longer urged: „I understand...... I sent people to take the best medicinal herb from Imperial Palace, already sent to Jiangning. The front has you, is not the misdemeanor.” 周佩便不再劝了:“我明白了……我派人从皇宫里取了最好的药材,已经送去江宁。前方有你,不是坏事。” The sister and brother then no longer mentioned this matter, crossed one, night dry and hot as before. Two people leave from the room, enjoys the cool air along the hillside blowing. Junwu remembers in Jiangning Shen Ruxin, two people are searching for mountain Jianhai fleeing from calamity to be on the way solid, get married for eight years, gathers little leaves many, for a long time, Junwu told oneself to have the great accomplishment that must achieve, before the important matter, the children personal relationships decorated. But at this time thinks, actually unavoidably sadness. 姐弟俩便不再说起这事,过得一阵,夜晚的燥热依旧。两人从房间离开,沿山坡吹风乘凉。君武想起在江宁的沈如馨,两人在搜山检海的逃难途中结实,成亲八年,聚少离多,长久以来,君武告诉自己有必须要做的大事,在大事之前,儿女私情不过是摆设。但此时想到,却不免悲从中来。 Coming of Elder Sister, then must remind his matter. 姐姐的过来,便是要提醒他这件事的。 „It is not everyone will turn into that person, draws back one step, everyone will also understand that...... sovereign elder sister, that person who you say has also mentioned this matter, the Bianliang common people are such, everyone can also understand. But by no means is everyone can understand, the misdemeanor will not happen.” Walked one, Junwu also mentioned this matter. “不是所有人都会变成那个人,退一步,大家也会理解……皇姐,你说的那个人也说起过这件事,汴梁的百姓是那样,所有人也都能理解。但并不是所有人能理解,坏事就不会发生的。”走了一阵,君武又说起这件事。 In the Zhou Pei eye flashes through mournful, nods. Two people stand near the hillside, looks at point lights in river. 周佩眼中闪过一丝凄然,也只是点了点头。两人站在山坡边上,看江中的点点灯火。 „North these years, I look at the thing that transmits often, every year Jing Ping di was being compelled these imperial edicts of writing, said that Jin Nation Emperor treats him many many good. For sometime, he was raised by Jurchen people in the well, the clothes have not resulted in put on, Emperor's Wife was working as his surface by Jurchen people, insulted in every possible way, he must look with a smile, knelt to ask Jurchen people to eat to the point. Various concubine Palace Maid, cross the prostitutes to be inferior that...... sovereign elder sister, in the past in Imperial Family person also vanity, Capital City looks down upon outside Prince at ease, do you still remember these Elder Brother Elder Sister appearances? In the past, I remember that you went to that time of Capital City along with the teacher, saw Chong prince's mansion Princess Zhou Qing in Capital City, others also invited you and teacher pass, the teacher also wrote the poem. The shame of Jing Ping, Zhou Qing is led going north by Jurchen people, does the sovereign elder sister, you remember her? Two years, I knew her whereabout early......” “这些年,我经常看北面传来的东西,每年靖平帝被逼着写的那些诏书,说金国的皇帝待他多好多好。有一段时间,他被女真人养在井里,衣服都没得穿,皇后被女真人当着他的面,百般侮辱,他还得笑着看,跪求女真人给点吃的。各种皇妃宫女,过得妓女都不如……皇姐,当年皇家中人也虚荣,京城的看不起外地的闲散王爷,你还记不记得那些哥哥姐姐的样子？当年,我记得你随老师去京城的那一次,在京城见了崇王府的郡主周晴,人家还请你和老师过去,老师还写了诗。靖平之耻,周晴被女真人带着北上,皇姐,你记得她吧？早两年,我知道了她的下落……” Zhou Pei looks to Junwu, Junwu smiles grieved: „Jurchen people leads her to the clouds the mansion, above humiliates in every possible way, was pregnant to the place, was sold in the mansion brothel to be the prostitute in the clouds, the child cherished for six months, was hit, miscarried, one year later unexpectedly has been pregnant, then the child was prescribed medicine to wipe out, two years later, one group of Jin Nation powerful official juniors go to the building, whose plays is inspired to compared with courage hits, her according to the table, sheared her ear, her person was insane, afterward was broken a leg...... dead three years ago...... she is lives. Long......” 周佩望向君武,君武惨然一笑:“女真人带着她到云中府,一路之上百般凌辱,到了地方怀孕了,又被卖到云中府的青楼中当妓女,孩子怀了六个月,被打了一顿,流产了,一年以后居然又怀了孕,然后孩子又被下药打掉,两年之后,一帮金国的权贵子弟去楼里,玩得起兴比谁胆子打,把她按在桌子上,割了她的耳朵,她人疯了,后来又被打断了一条腿……死在三年前……她算是活得久的……” Junwu is saying this matter as far as possible calmly: „Bystander mentioned Imperial Family, to mention the struggle on Imperial Deliberation Hall, stopped at nothing, Han of Emperor's Wife Lu Zhi, to be rivals for sexual favor to reduce the hands and feet, how cruel...... the sovereign elder sister can you want to obtain that week clear Princess to be treated the feeling of time like this? These things arrived at present, Jurchen people already came......” 君武尽量平静地说着这件事:“外人说起皇家、说起朝堂上的斗争,无所不用其极,汉高祖的皇后吕雉,为了争风吃醋可以将人砍掉手脚,何其残忍……皇姐你能想得到那位周晴郡主被这样对待时候的感觉吗？那些事情又到眼前了,女真人已经过来了……” „I know.” Zhou Pei replied. In recent years, these things of north, no doubt have certain dissemination limit in the folk, but to them, so long as has a mind, can understand clearly. “我知道的。”周佩答道。这些年来,北方发生的那些事情,于民间固然有一定的传播限制,但对于他们来说,只要有心,都能了解得清清楚楚。 Junwu looks at the river water of distant place: „These years, I actually feared very much, the person grew up, slowly understood anything is goes to war. A person to/clashes to kill you, you take up the blade resistance, has hit him, you must certainly finish a job the foot, you do not revolt, you must die, I do not want dead not to finish a job the foot, I do not think that such as fragrant died like this, she died...... some day I to think that will regret. But these years, the matter is I most feared that I have not told the person, the sovereign elder sister, you can guess correctly that is what?” He at this point, shaking the head, „is not Jurchen people......” 君武看着远处的江水:“这些年,我其实很怕,人长大了,慢慢就懂什么是打仗了。一个人冲过来要杀你,你拿起刀反抗,打过了他,你也肯定要断手断脚,你不反抗,你得死,我不想死也不想断手断脚,我也不想如馨就这样死了,她死了……有一天我想起来会后悔。但这些年,有一件事是我心里最怕的,我从来没跟人说过,皇姐,你能猜到是什么吗？”他说到这里,摇了摇头,“不是女真人……” Zhou Pei is then looking at him. 周佩便望着他。 Junwu silent long time, is pointing at that side river water: „Constructs the new moon two years, the army escorts me to escape to riverbank on, only found a boat, the guard delivers to embark me, Jurchen people killed. On that day tens of thousands of people the person were being killed river inside by technique row of speed belts, some people went all out to swim, some people towed others to be drown to death, had being tied down by care of one's family...... had a woman, lifted her child, the child is curled by the water, I stood on the ship can hear her time shout. The sovereign elder sister, you know my then mood was what kind of?” 君武沉默可半晌,指着那边的江水:“建朔二年,军队护送我逃到江边上,只找到一艘小船,护卫把我送上船,女真人就杀过来了。那天成千上万的人被术列速带着人杀进江里,有人拼命游,有人拖着别人淹死了,有拖家带口的……有个女人,举着她的小孩子,小孩子被水卷进去了,我站在船上都能听到她那时候的喊声。皇姐,你知道我当时的心情是怎么样的吗？” Junwu stared in a big way the eye: „I thought that...... rejoiced...... I lived, did not use.” He said. 君武瞪大了眼睛:“我心里觉得……庆幸……我活下来了,不用死了。”他说道。 The night wind has blown the hillside. 夜里的风刮过了山坡。 „The so many year, I remembers their eyes by the night, I was been ignorant by Eh, they were slaughtered, I felt not the vitality/angry, the sovereign elder sister, I...... I felt, they died, but I am living, I rejoiced very much, they deliver me to embark...... the so many year, I killed many people in the military law, I, I told with Yue Fei, countless people with Han Shizhong, we must defeat Jurchen people, I with them together, I kill them for the against Jin great undertaking. Yesterday I led Shen Ruhua to come, told him, I must kill him, I for against Jin...... the sovereign elder sister, I said several years of brave words, I remembered 2nd day to say every night, I alone practiced these words here, I am afraid...... me to fear that will have a person to jump at the scene, asked me, for against Jin, they must die, on the battlefield officers must fight a bloody battle, you yourself?” “这么多年,到夜里我都想起他们的眼睛,我被吓懵了,他们被屠杀,我感觉到的不是生气,皇姐,我……我只是觉得,他们死了,但我活着,我很庆幸,他们送我上了船……这么多年,我以军法杀了很多人,我跟韩世忠、我跟岳飞、跟无数人说,我们一定要打败女真人,我跟他们一起,我杀他们是为了抗金大业。昨天我带沈如桦过来,跟他说,我一定要杀他,我是为了抗金……皇姐,我说了几年的豪言壮语,我每天晚上想起第二天要说的话,我一个人在这里练习那些话,我都在害怕……我怕会有一个人当场跳出来,问我,为了抗金,他们得死,上了战场的将士要浴血奋战,你自己呢？” „On that day died everyone, is visiting me, they know me to fear, I do not want dead, only then a ship, I put on airs came up, why is I can come up? Now the so many year, I had said so many boast, I asked oneself every night, Jurchen people came again the time, could you shoulder? Can you bite the tooth? Do you dare to bleed? Sometimes I will take the blade, wants to shear a blade toward oneself on!” “那天死了的所有人,都在看我,他们知道我怕,我不想死,只有一艘船,我装模作样的就上去了,为什么是我能上去？如今过了这么多年,我说了这么多的大话,我每天晚上问自己,女真人再来的时候,你扛得住吗？你咬得住牙？你敢流血吗？我有时候会把刀拿起来,想往自己手上割一刀！” Junwu is saying, draws out a dagger from the waist, gesticulated toward the left arm. The Zhou Pei complexion fluctuates, two pasts, grasped the left hand arm of Junwu, lift his sleeves. 君武说着,从腰间拔出一把匕首,朝着左臂比划了一下。周佩面色变幻,两步过去,抓起了君武的左手手臂,掀开他的衣袖。 On the arm did not have the scar of knife wound, Junwu to smile: „Sovereign elder sister, I cannot start...... I to fear the pain one time.” 手臂上没有刀疤,君武笑了起来:“皇姐,我一次也下不了手……我怕痛。” „You and you......” the Zhou Pei complexion is complex, is looking at his eye. “你、你……”周佩面色复杂,望着他的眼睛。 „I most feared that day of Jurchen people killed, I discovered that I will also fear pain and fearing death, I feared that tens of thousands common people were one day pushed again together with me riverbank, I boarded that ship, in the heart was still rejoicing that oneself lived. I feared that I killed so many people righteously, near, to the own wife's younger brother clemency, I feared to the end I killed the own wife's younger brother righteously, by Jurchen people comes time, I am a coward. This matter I have not told anyone, but the sovereign elder sister, I fears every day......” “我最怕的,是有一天女真人杀过来了,我发现我还会怕痛、怕死,我怕再有一天,几万百姓跟我一起被挤到江边,我上了那艘船,心中还在庆幸自己活下来了。我怕我义正辞严地杀了那么多人,临到头了,给自己的小舅子法外开恩,我怕我义正辞严地杀了自己的小舅子,到女真人来的时候,我还是一个胆小鬼。这件事情我跟谁都没有说过,但是皇姐,我每天都怕……” „My anything fears......” “我什么都怕……” He, the vision is at this point mournful, in the eye socket already turned into the red, jaw actually already makes an effort to nip. Yes, in this world who did not fear that he is pampered young master that's all that being pampered since childhood that was born in the imperial family. Was afraid bleeding, the fear sacrifice, the fear is losing a battle, the fear experienced that all tragedies. Before the test of reality arrives truly, no one knows that oneself actually became what appearance. 他说到这里,目光凄然,眼眶之中已经变成红色,牙关却已经用力地咬了起来。是啊,这个世上又有谁不怕呢,他不过是个生于皇族的娇生惯养的公子哥罢了。害怕着流血,害怕牺牲,害怕打败仗,害怕经历那一切一切的惨剧。而在现实的考验真正到来之前,谁也不知道自己到底成了什么样子。 At that night, the sister and brother also chatted, 2nd day, Zhou Pei found Wenren Buer before departure, if the urging the front war were critical, must bring from the battlefield Junwu. She left Zhenjiang to go back Lin'an, but weak Crown Prince defended in this riverbank, continued every day every day surrounded the own innermost feelings with the iron stone. 这天夜里,姐弟俩又聊了许多,第二天,周佩在离开前找到闻人不二,叮嘱若是前方战事危急,一定要将君武从战场上带下来。她离开镇江回去了临安,而软弱的太子守在这江边,继续每天每天的用铁石将自己的内心包围起来。 10 th that noon, 18-year-old Shen Ruhua was beheaded to expose to the public in the Zhenjiang city, in the Jiangning Crown Prince mansion, four Madame Shen Ruxin physical conditions deteriorate day by day, struggles in the boundary of life and death, this is only the present in this mortal world insignificant life and death ups and downs. At that night Zhou Junwu sat in military compound one side riverbank, one has not gone to sleep throughout entire evening. 初十这天中午,18岁的沈如桦在镇江城中被斩首示众了,江宁太子府中,四夫人沈如馨的身体状况日趋恶化,在生与死的边界挣扎,这只是如今着尘世间一场微不足道的生死沉浮。这天夜里周君武坐在军营一侧的江边,一整个晚上未曾入眠。 At this time, north, Jurchen Wanyan sect Bi's east road vanguard army already leaves Xuzhou, is setting out in the Xuyi direction, from the Yangzhou frontline, less than 300 li (0.5 km) distance. 此时,北面,女真完颜宗弼的东路前锋大军已经离开徐州,正在朝盱眙方向进发,距离扬州一线,不到三百里的距离了。 Around Yangzhou, Tianchang, Gaoyou, the real province, Taizhou and Zhenjiang...... are centered on Han Shizhong subordinates, 800,000 armies including 100,000 naval forces is ready in full battle array. 扬州周围,天长、高邮、真州、泰州、镇江……以韩世忠所部为核心,包括十万水师在内的八十万大军正严阵以待。 The wuhan construction new moon ten years, 23, the Jiangnan war breaks out in June. 武建朔十年,六月二十三,江南大战爆发。