„Who are you?!” “你到底是谁？！” Han Qiongzhi has turned around, shouts a question loudly. Cell phone end 韩琼枝转过身来,大声喝问。手机端 that Li Qingshan that m she remembers, addicted to drink ‚color’, easy to get angry and good to tease, will meet the pain, to fear and be guilty, but not ‚dew’ such weak expression. m她记忆的那个李青山,贪酒‘色’、易嗔怒、好戏谑,会痛苦、会恐惧、会愧疚,但绝不会‘露’出这样软弱的表情。 Even if in the deepest hopeless situation, facing invincible powerful enemy, must roar to rumble last fist, dies. 哪怕是在最深沉的绝境,面对不可战胜的强敌,也必会咆哮着轰出最后一拳,至死方休。 „Yes, who am I?” Li Qingshan is holding appreciatively wine cup, saying with a smile that self-ridicules: „Probably is the Lord and Demon God king of Demon Domain and so on thing!” “是啊,我是谁呢？”李青山把玩着酒杯,略带自嘲的笑道:“大概是魔域之主、魔神之王之类的东西吧！” That is all living things eyes he, has reposed all the gods of hope desire. But Li Qingshan, but is a mortal. 那是众生眼的他,是寄托了一切希冀愿望的神明。而李青山,不过是个凡人罢了。 The noise of ear bank ear-piercing buzz cry , is hard to neglect, ‚chest’ black ‚color’ rainstorm submerges all. 耳畔的噪音刺耳嗡鸣,再也难以忽略,‘胸’的黑‘色’暴雨淹没一切。 Han Qiongzhi that interrogation, moved ‚’ all peaceful, fiery red forms of this yard as if in flaming has burnt, the making person of sparkle cannot look straight ahead. 韩琼枝那一声质问,动‘荡’了这小院的一切安宁,火红的身影仿佛在熊熊燃烧,闪耀的令人不能直视。 His line of sight crosses her, along that motley loess wall to crawling thatched roof, crawling chimney, along that wisp of smoke from kitchen chimneys, until sky deep place. 他的视线越过她,沿着那斑驳的黄土墙向爬茅草屋顶,爬烟囱,沿着那一缕炊烟,直至天空深处。 The motley dirt wall as if mountain towers, the bushes are the sword and spear like the forest, the chimney are the summit this one city. This one city it, where has any smoke from kitchen chimneys curling and blue sky, clearly is the rocket soars to the heavens, ominous reactionary forces in the ascendant. 恍惚间,斑驳土墙仿佛高山耸峙,茅草是刀枪如林,烟囱是山巅孤城。孤城之,哪里有什么炊烟袅袅、蓝天白云,分明是狼烟冲天、黑云压城。 kacha! wine cup has cracked a slit, his facial expression changed. 咔嚓！酒杯裂了一道缝隙,不知不觉间,他神情变了。 Village ‚chicken’ called the sound of dog's bark, stopped completely, falls into the fearful deathly stillness. 村‘鸡’鸣犬吠之声,全部止息,陷入可怕的死寂。 The Han Qiongzhi show circle opens the eyes, is startled suddenly. His whole body is lending the formidable fearsome aura, sits well before the square table black ‚color’ form, imitated actually Buddha continuously to elevate increases, turned into one exceptionally steeply solemn black ‚color’ mountain, the sharp incisive mountain peak already broke through the horizon, how even if she looked up to again strongly, was difficult to sneak a peek at his complete picture. 韩琼枝秀目圆睁,陡然一惊。他浑身散发着可畏可怖的气息,端坐在方桌前黑‘色’身影,仿却佛在不断升高变大,变成了一座异常陡峭冷峻黑‘色’大山,锋利尖锐的山峰已然冲破天际,即便她再怎么竭力仰望,也再难窥见他的全貌。 So lofty, is unattainable, he changed, no longer was initially that familiar man, turned into her the unreadable gods. 如此高远,遥不可及,他已经变了,不再是当初那个熟悉的男人,变成了她所难以理解的神明。 „His pain, no longer is I can understand!” “他的痛苦,也不再是我所能明白的吧！” A Han Qiongzhi heart stabbing pain, is hard to return to normal for a very long time. Crazy is looking at him, his facial expression moves fast the vast desert, hidden is actually damping fearsome crazy ‚chaotic’ with killing intent, as if immerses in the dreamland that one slaughters bloody. 韩琼枝心一阵刺痛,久久难以平复。不禁痴痴的望着他,他的神情飘忽渺漠,却隐抑着可怖狂‘乱’与杀机,仿佛沉浸在一场血腥屠戮的梦境。 She blames should not scold him, wants to be a day of ordinary husband and wife obviously, chatted the past events to drink together, why cannot give his in a minute tranquility. Delivers him to tread the battle path again, goes to belong to his battlefield. 她怪自己不该责难他,明明想要做一天平凡夫妻,一起谈谈往事喝喝酒好了,为何不能给他片刻的宁静。再送他踏征途,前往属于他的战场。 „Qingshan, Qingshan!” An anxious sound awakens from the dreamland Li Qingshan. “青山,青山！”一个急切的声音将李青山从梦境唤醒。 He blinked, the dirt wall was still dirt wall, the bushes is still the bushes, here was not the battlefield, but was the hometown. At present is not the enemy, but is the love. 他眨了眨眼,土墙仍是土墙,茅草仍是茅草,这里不是战场,而是故乡。眼前不是敌人,而是爱人。 Han Qiongzhi makes an effort to sway his shoulder, although is both eyes with tears, is actually nipping mouth ‚lip’, as if some determination, gentle say/way: Right that „you said that this is your matter, I should not manage. Then eats quickly, when I finished, accompanies you to drink a happiness!” 韩琼枝用力摇晃他的肩膀,虽是双目含泪,却咬着嘴‘唇’,仿佛下了某种决心似的,温柔的道:“你说的对,这是你的事儿,我不该管。快接着吃吧,等我忙完了,陪你喝个痛快！” „Sorry, I was distracted.” Li Qingshan concentrates to collect the mind, shows a faint smile, fissure cicatrization of hand wine cup. “抱歉,我走神了。”李青山凝汇心神,微微一笑,手酒杯的裂痕愈合。 The village is ‚chicken’ calls the dog's bark and smoke from kitchen chimneys curling as before, like is anything has not occurred. Also achieved some tacit understanding likely, something, are not suitable go into seriously. 村庄依旧是‘鸡’鸣犬吠、炊烟袅袅,像是什么都没发生过一样。又像是达成了某种默契,有些事情,不宜深究。 Li Qingshan puts out a hand to delete the tears of Han Qiongzhi face, said with a smile: „Cries anything to cry, your man has not died!” 李青山伸手擦去韩琼枝脸的泪水,笑道:“哭什么哭,你男人还没死呢！” „Snort, died well also!” Han Qiongzhi is angry to say. “哼,死了也好！”韩琼枝嗔道。 This inauspicious words, to them, instead actually any taboo. 这种不吉利的话,对他们而言,反倒不是什么禁忌。 She of Military School family background, this „Life and Death” two characters will not have looked is too heavy. Just now is news that heard him dead in battle, was not necessarily able so mood out-of-control, only met prepares to revenge for him silently, became , then became, inadequate, then died, did not have anything at the worst. 兵家出身的她,本未将“生死”二字看的太重。方才算是听闻他战死的消息,也未必会如此情绪失控,只会是默默准备替他报仇,成则成,不成则死,也没有什么大不了的。 That makes a debut, high-spirited Young Man, inscribes in her heart was too deep. Suddenly is unable to acknowledge that and at present this desolate desolate man is the same person. 只是那个初出茅庐、意气风发的少年郎,在她心铭刻的实在太深了。一时间无法承认那与眼前这个萧疏落寞的男人是同一个人。 Moreover this change also stems from her accidental/surprised, thinks he is fierce ‚essence’ to enter, until posts with various gods, should high-spirited, is self-satisfiedly right. 而且这种变化也太出乎她的意外,原本以为他一路勇猛‘精’进,直至与诸神并列,应该是更加的意气风发,志得意满才对。 „What tribulation underwent, such man, will turn into so the appearance?” “到底经历了什么样的磨难,才会把那样一个男人,变成如此模样？” She suppresses not to ask. Returns to the kitchen , to continue to prepare the meal. 她强忍住不去发问。回到厨房,继续准备饭菜。 Li Qingshan is looking at her busy back, sighing of being quietly, he is one is not really willing to chant ‚recitation’ the person of complaint. The scar is not the glory, is only the scar, injured stayed behind trace. 李青山望着她忙碌的背影,悄无声息的叹了口气,他实在是一个不愿意呻‘吟’抱怨的人。伤痕不是什么荣耀,只是伤痕而已,受伤所留下的痕迹。 Naturally, calculates that is not shame. When just you ‚dew’ the scar looked to the person that hating your person only to ridicule your incompetent weakly, and from obtaining pleased. Likes your person being distressed for you, and even urges you to change other road to go. 当然,也算不是耻辱。只不过当你‘露’出伤痕给人看,恨你的人只会嘲笑你的无能软弱,并从得到快意。爱你的人却会为你而痛心,乃至劝你换一条别的路去走。 He is not already willing to be ridiculed, does not hope hurtful, is not willing to go to other road. Regardless of many pain are difficult, the path that he chooses this is, meets a cruel death certainly does not have the enmity and regret. 他既不愿被人嘲笑,也不愿令人痛心,更不愿去走别的路。无论有多少痛苦艰难,这都是他所选择的的道路,粉身碎骨也绝无怨悔。 At this time actually impulsive, wants to pour out to all her, is not willing her to be disappointed to him, wants to receive her gentleness and sympathy. 此时却有一种冲动,想将一切向她倾诉,不愿她对他感到失望,想得到她的温柔与同情。 „I was drunk probably.” Li Qingshan slightly drunk is deliberately considering, once thought that she and Chao Tianjiao have many similarities, now discovers actually completely different. Probably the maximum difference is, she remembered „Li Qingshan” the past appearance. “我大概是醉了。”李青山微醺的寻思着,曾觉得她与晁天骄有许多相似之处,现在才发现其实全然不同。大概最大的不同是,她记得“李青山”当年模样。 Even if has been through repeatedly the hardships, that is also he continuously the appearance that wants to retain. Now already started to change, perhaps should to each other have ‚junction’ generation. 纵然历经千难万险,那也是他一直想要保留的模样。如今既已开始发生变化,或许应该对彼此都有个‘交’代。 Suddenly raises the head the cup liquor tosses down, opens the mouth saying: „Does Qiongzhi, want to listen to my story?” 忽然仰首将杯酒一饮而尽,开口道:“琼枝,想听听我的故事吗？” „You said! I am listening!” “你说吧！我听着呢！” The Han Qiongzhi busy hand, then has continued without a halt, completes the end table dishes. 韩琼枝忙碌的手顿了一顿,然后继续不停,将一道道菜做好端桌。 The Li Qingshan sound is off and on, likely in difficult arrangement words: „You... Un... I have made one... Choice, to obtain a bigger strength, I think... I think will never make such choice, even if dies!” 李青山的声音却断断续续,像是在艰难的筹备言辞:“你…嗯…我做了一个…选择,为了得到更大的力量,我本来以为…我本来以为永远不会做这样的选择,哪怕是死！” Han Qiongzhi inclines the head and listens attentively, slightly several clearly become aware, somewhat doubts ‚being puzzled’, actually does not open the mouth to ask. 韩琼枝侧耳倾听,略有几分明悟,又有几分疑‘惑’,却不开口发问。 „I have never said with you, how I and Little An meet!” The Li Qingshan train of thought flutters about, actually since not said from all sorts of experiences of Human World Path and even Demon Domain, but since spoke all origins. “我从未和你说过,我和小安是怎么相遇的吧！”李青山思绪纷飞,却没有从人间道乃至魔域的种种经历讲起,而是讲起了一切的缘起。 Han Qiongzhi nodded. 韩琼枝点了点头。 „At that time when Crouching Bull Village, I initially saw you were much weaker, hey, was really miserable, did a lot eats little, but also was always bullied, but has not cried actually, gave back to itself to name to call Li Qingshan, why must the meaning was ‚buries the bone native place place, life where not Qingshan’.” “那时候还是在卧牛村,我初见你时还要弱得多,嘿,真的是惨,干得多吃得少,还老是被欺负,但其实没有哭过,还给自己取名叫李青山,意思是‘埋骨何须桑梓地,人生何处不青山’。” „I, actually also ‚very’ gruff, like that bull-like that I raise, does not fear death... However afterward I had met Little An, I have cried, although does not close my matter, however uncomfortable serious, has cried, that time I decided that how regardless of must help the She enmity, helping her look proficiently...” “我这个人,其实还‘挺’倔的,像我养的那头牛一样,也不太怕死…但是后来我遇到了小安,我哭了,虽然不关我的事儿,但是难受的不得了,哭了,那时候的我决定,无论如何也要帮她报仇,帮她找到家…” The Li Qingshan bleary eyes dimly, were saying verbosely, mentioned many past events, is actually mixing in Human World Path, Ultimate Bliss World and even Demon Domain experience all sorts, disorderly, did not have ordinary day nimble and efficient quite the same as, perhaps was really drunk. 李青山醉眼朦胧,絮絮叨叨的说着,说起了许多往事,却又夹杂着在人间道、极乐世界乃至魔域经历的种种,颠三倒四,浑然没了平日的爽利,也许真的是醉了。 Many years later, in Demon Domain most deep place, he has cried one time, for a child, has made a decision. 在很多年之后,在魔域的最深处,他又哭了一次,为了一个孩子,做了一个决定。 Perhaps the result of story, has been doomed at the beginning of story. Invariable he, has made the invariable choice. 也许故事的结局,在故事的开端已经注定了。不变的他,做了不变的选择。 Regardless of yearned that the freedom of hawk, he is doomed is only a cow, can only shoulder the heavy burden. 无论多么向往鹰的自由,他注定只是一头牛,只能背负重担。 „I must to leaning the mountain, not having other road to walk...” “我要到倾山去,没有别的路走…” Sun raises gradually, dish has chocked up the whole piece table, Han Qiongzhi sits in the Li Qingshan opposite silently was listening, is listening to these grotesque and gaudy bitter experiences, is listening to these remote past events, is listening to his painful choices, several wishes stand, closely hugs him in the bosom, throughout has not actually moved, but grasps the fist, to nip mouth ‚lip’, seems also making a painful choice. 太阳渐渐升起,不知不觉间,菜已摆满了整张桌子,韩琼枝坐在李青山对面默默的听着,听着那些光怪陆离的遭遇,听着那些久远的往事,听着他那一次次的痛苦抉择,几次想要站起来,将他紧紧抱在怀,却始终没有动,而是握着拳头、咬着嘴‘唇’,仿佛也在做一个痛苦的抉择。 Until Li Qingshan all lectures, she mentioned the wine pot and standing up suddenly, „gurgle toot toot” drank up the remaining liquor one breaths, then had the tipsy feeling, to look straight ahead both eyes of Li Qingshan wickedly, that manner as if must swallow his one. 直到李青山将一切讲完,她忽然提起酒坛、站起身来,“咕嘟嘟嘟”将剩下的酒一口气喝完,然后带着酒意、恶狠狠的直视着李青山的双眼,那神气仿佛要把他一口吞掉。 Li Qingshan was also startled, surprise is looking at her. 李青山也吃了一惊,诧异的望着她。 „I and Little An are different. What regardless of Li Qingshan turns into, has not distinguished in her heart. But I intent actually only then that invariable Li Qingshan. Even if knows that he is big ‚mixing’ egg, understands that is impossible to have any result, I am glad, never has the least bit regret.” Han Qiongzhi said fearlessly. “我和小安是不同的。无论李青山变成什么样,在她心都没有分别。而我所意的却只有那个不变的李青山。哪怕知道他是个大‘混’蛋,也明白不可能有什么结果,我心里都是乐意的,从来没有半点后悔。”韩琼枝昂然说道。 Li Qingshan selects nod: „I know.” 李青山点点头:“我知道。” „That leaves this World! Casually where dies, do not come back again, needs whose strength to summon them directly. That Li Qingshan that I know, never turns head!” “那离开这个世界吧！随便去死在哪里,都不要再回来,需要谁的力量直接召唤他们。我所认识的那个李青山,从不回头！” Li Qingshan deep is looking at her, she is similar to flame of one group of flaming combustion, clear(ly) ‚colorful’ sparkle made him unable to look straight ahead, but in the flame deep place, her double pupil, all was „Li Qingshan” form. 李青山深深的望着她,她如同一团熊熊燃烧的火焰,明‘艳’闪耀的令他不能直视,而在火焰的深处,她的双眸,全都是“李青山”的身影。 „All these, I, to you, am shackles!” “这一切,还有我,对你而言,都是桎梏！” Han Qiongzhi points at front food and wine, to point at itself, the pupil flashes through wipes to deeply regret that ‚color’, actually waving decidedly, throws off the full table food and wine in the place. Then has turned around, back to him: „You walk!” 韩琼枝指着面前的酒菜、指着自己,眸闪过一抹痛惜之‘色’,却决然的一挥手,将满桌酒菜掀翻在地。然后转过身去,背对着他:“你走吧！” Li Qingshan looked is breaking to pieces dishes of place, to sprinkle a meal of place, was she spends thoughts to do personally, has almost not moved, all ‚wave’ spent in vain. 李青山望着碎了一地的碗碟、洒了一地的饭菜,都是她费了心思一道道亲手做出来的,几乎没有动过,全都白白‘浪’费了。 Naturally, so long as he begins to refer, can restore the original condition all, but has not actually done, but is looking at her back, gawked some little time, said with a smile suddenly: „I understood. I walked.” 当然,他只要动动手指,能将一切恢复原状,但却没有那么做,只是望着她的背影,愣了好一会儿,忽然笑道:“我明白了。我走了。” Li Qingshan walked, left this World, had finished this journey. Since has chosen the path, must walk, cannot stay. 李青山走了,离开了这个世界,结束了这场旅程。既然选择了道路,必须走下去,不能停留。 Han Qiongzhi motionless standing in institute, only then shadow incline passage, until the solar western frontier and star-studded sky, such crossed this day. Her raised the head, is looking out that scarlet suddenly ‚color’ the nova, pours into the complete regard. 韩琼枝一动不动的站在院,只有影子倾斜推移,直到太阳西垂、繁星满天,这么渡过了这一天。她忽然抬起头,遥望着那颗赤‘色’的新星,倾注自己全部的心意。 The noise that beside World, that buzz called will be as before closely associated and forever not stop, Li Qingshan actually suddenly heard a familiar sound, special wishing: 世界之外,那嗡鸣的噪音依旧如影随形、永无止息,李青山却忽然听到了一个熟悉的声音,一个特殊的祈愿: „Hope Li Qingshan of her heart, is forever invariable.” “愿她心的李青山,永远不变。”