„Hey, Xu Le, eats meal!” “喂,徐乐,吃饭啦！” The sister-in-law stands in the stairway to above is shouting. 小姨子站在楼梯口对着上面喊道。 This yelled to awaken from just absent-minded Zhou Ze, 这一声喊叫将周泽从刚刚的恍惚之中惊醒过来, Bedroom that bedroom, 卧室还是那间卧室, Bed that bed, 床还是那张床, The wedding picture on wall as always, does not have the slight change. 墙壁上的结婚照还是一如既往,没有丝毫的变化。 Put out a hand, rubs own eye, Zhou Ze had turned around, opens the bedroom door, went down the building. 伸手,揉了揉自己的眼睛,周泽转过身,推开卧室门,走下了楼。 On the living room table, is placing the three dishes and one soup. 客厅餐桌上,摆放着三菜一汤。 A celery stir fries the beef, gongbao chicken, a cabbage stirs fry the fans, one bowl of green vegetables tofu soup. 一份芹菜炒牛肉,一份宫保鸡丁,一份白菜炒粉丝,还有一碗青菜豆腐汤。 Dr. Lin is standing in the table fills a bowl with rice, the sister-in-law has sat on the chair is impatient. 林医生正站在桌边盛饭,小姨子已经坐在椅子上迫不及待了。 „Certain people, do not have the conscience, the wife prepares food in the kitchen, oneself are unexpectedly leisurely above.” “某些人啊,就是没良心,老婆在厨房做饭,自己居然在上面悠哉悠哉。” Sister-in-law is eating while is swaying the body. 小姨子一边吃着一边摇晃着身体。 Zhou Ze also sat, Dr. Lin delivers in the chopsticks Zhou Ze’s hand. 周泽也坐了下来,林医生将筷子递送到周泽的手里。 „Later, goes home to eat meal.” “以后,回家吃饭吧。” Dr. Lin said suddenly. 林医生忽然说道。 Probably a gentle wife, is entrusting to the husband, probably, all usual, all normal, good influence of education. 像是一个温婉的妻子,在对丈夫嘱托,好像,一切如常,也一切正常,春风化雨。 „Un?” The sister-in-law stared in a big way the eye, “嗯？”小姨子瞪大了眼睛, Can Xu Le come back? 徐乐要回来了？ Does oneself elder sister request personally? 还是自己姐姐亲自要求的？ Zhou Ze had not replied. 周泽没回答。 The sister-in-law cannot repress, extended the foot to trample Zhou Ze under the dining table, 小姨子按捺不住,在饭桌下伸脚踹了一下周泽, Hasn't your fool, how said? 你这傻瓜,怎么还不接话呢？ My elder sisters asked you to come back to eat meal! 我姐姐都叫你回来吃饭了！ Under she wants to eat to you, 她愿意下面给你吃, You also not on own initiative? 你还不主动一点？ „Said again.” Zhou Ze was perfunctory one. “再说吧。”周泽敷衍了一声。 „Goes to that subdistrict to live, Ok?” “去那个小区住,可以么？” Dr. Lin opens the mouth to say. 林医生又开口道。 That subdistrict, refers certainly to subdistrict that the Zhou Ze ancestors lived. 那个小区,当然指的是周泽上辈子住的小区。 Obviously, Dr. Lin also clear Zhou Ze lives in own home, is together with the parents is not very happy, therefore, she is willing to go to that home with Zhou Ze, 很显然,林医生也清楚周泽住在自己家,和自己父母相处很不愉快,所以,她愿意和周泽去那个家里去, …… 一个, Only then she and places of his two people. 只有她和他两个人的地方。 The chopsticks in Zhou Ze hand tremble slightly, he can feel, actually before this woman has not overcome completely, psychological barrier that said that but she was being proceeded to look by oneself diligently. 周泽手中的筷子微微一颤,他能感受出来,其实这个女人还没完全克服之前所说的心理障碍,但她在努力地让自己往前看。 The life is muddleheaded, that has continued muddleheaded, moreover crosses well. 生活已然稀里糊涂,那就稀里糊涂地继续过吧,而且过得更好一点。 Many people have been full of the fine hope to oneself life, however the truly fine life does not exist, when the stars of some stars shines are young which bar possibly also in sits the stage. 很多人对自己的人生一直充满着精致的渴望,然而真正精致的人生并不存在,正如一些星光灿烂的女星年轻时可能也在哪个酒吧坐台过。 Investigates carefully, any perfect thing, the association/will has its slight defect in some time. 细究下来,任何完美的事物,总会在某个时间段有着它的瑕疵。 Grasps immediately, is the true meaning of life. 把握住当下,才是生活的真谛。 At this moment, Zhou Ze hesitated. 这一刻,周泽犹豫了。 Some issues, he has not gone to ask, because Dr. Lin is to make the sister-in-law shout oneself get down, rather than she comes up personally, what is undeniable, some Zhou Ze actually also fears asked that question. 一些问题,他没有去问,因为林医生是让小姨子来喊自己下来,而不是她亲自上来,但不可否认的是,周泽自己其实也有些害怕问那个问题。 Once tears to pieces the facial skin thoroughly, 一旦彻底撕破脸皮, Is the heaven compensation gave own gift in own opinion, 原本在自己看来是上天补偿给自己的礼物, Remove all camouflages, 撤掉了一切的伪装, Possibly becomes endured to look straight ahead by oneself some. 可能会变得让自己有些不忍直视。 Zhou Ze acknowledged oneself and most men are the same, like being good-looking the woman, merely, this time, he is somewhat afraid. 周泽承认自己和大多数男人一样,喜欢长得漂亮的女人,只是,这一次,他有些害怕。 In his mind, is inconceivable leaves lives when own family/home and Dr. Lin together sits together, in the dining table eats meal the picture. 他的脑海中,难以想象出在自己家里和林医生一起生活一起坐在饭桌边吃饭时的画面。 This feeling, 这感觉, Looking like oneself is a pet cat, was favored by the master, all your behaviors, including resistance, will become is more like will act like a spoiled brat. 就像是自己是一只宠物猫,被主人宠幸,你的一切行为,包括反抗,也会变得更像是撒娇。 „Does not need.” “没必要。” Zhou Ze replied. 周泽回答道。 Then clamped a vegetable/dish to send in the mouth, kept a serious look, swallowed extremely difficultly. 然后夹了一口菜送入嘴里,表情严肃,极为艰难地咽了下去。 „Isn't delicious?” Dr. Lin asked. “不好吃么？”林医生问道。 When she sees Zhou Ze to eat meal is very painful. 她看见周泽吃饭时很痛苦。 „Hey, Xu Le, you were act bashful the rack, Sir!” “喂,徐乐,你这是拿捏上架子了啊,大爷！” The sister-in-law was unable to continue watching. 小姨子看不下去了。 In her opinion, is Xu Le is bullying the elder sister. 在她看来,是徐乐在欺负自己姐姐。 Put down the chopsticks, Zhou Ze decided that did not force itself to eat, was saying to Dr. Lin: 放下了筷子,周泽决定还是不强迫自己吃了,转而对着林医生道: „Comes with me, said something.” “和我来一下,说一些事情。” Dr. Lin nods, put down the chopsticks. 林医生点点头,放下了筷子。 „Hey, you had anything unable to be in front of my to say!” “喂,你们有什么事情不能当着我的面说啊！” The sister-in-law panting in indignation say/way, she felt that she became the big light bulb, but she has not actually degenerated into the determination of big light bulb. 小姨子气呼呼道,她感觉自己成了大灯泡,而她却没有沦为大灯泡的自觉。 Zhou Ze goes upstairs, Dr. Lin also followed. 周泽上了楼,林医生也跟着上去了。 Two people stand in the second floor bedroom entrance, Zhou Ze have not pushed the door to go, he does not want to see that wedding photo again, always thought that Xu Le in wedding photo, is looking at itself. 两个人站在二楼的卧室门口,周泽没有推门进去,他不想再看见那张婚纱照,总觉得婚纱照中的徐乐,在看着自己。 But Xu Le, 而徐乐, Actually with, 其实和自己, No difference. 没什么区别。 Everyone is the tool, 大家都是工具, One is the high-quality tool, one is the low level tool, 一个是高级的工具,一个是低级工具, Does not need 50 steps to smile hundred steps. 没必要五十步笑百步。 „You said.” Dr. Lin looks at Zhou Ze, lowers the head slightly. “你说吧。”林医生看着周泽,微微低头。 Zhou Ze long time, the words in the mouth, actually do not know how hesitant should say, 周泽犹豫良久,话在嘴边,却不知道该如何说出口, Is the interrogation? 是质问？ Is the proof? 是求证？ Scolded? 是呵斥？ Cursed angrily? 是怒骂？ Also or, is mutual outpouring? 又或者,是互相的倾诉？ Actually, in the final analysis, matter had been done. 其实,归根究底,事情已经被做下来了。 The deserve to die person, died, 该死的人,都死了, By body of soaring, entered by oneself. 被腾空的身体,也被自己进入了。 Matter, had actually been close to the end. 事情,其实已经进入了尾声。 „We finished like this.” “我们就这样结束吧。” Zhou Ze opens the mouth to say. 周泽开口道。 When speaking these words, Zhou Ze has been staring at front woman. 在说完这些话时,周泽一直盯着面前的女人。 As if at present this gentle tall and straight woman, will tear away all camouflages in the next moment, oneself will press on the wall, taunted own considering resources bite off more than can chew. 仿佛眼前这个温婉挺拔的女人,在下一刻会撕去一切伪装,将自己压在墙壁上,嘲讽自己的自不量力。 Your merely my puppet, 你只是我的玩偶, Toy that I like, 我喜欢的玩具, In order to obtain you, 为了得到你, I spent so many thoughts, 我花费了那么多的心思, As toy, 作为玩具, Did you have to say the power of conclusion? 你有说结束的权力？ The brain of person makes up, 人的脑补, Is the most fearful one instinct. 是最可怕的一种本能。 Here bread contained too many too many psychological suggestions, looking like previous Zhou Ze is the same in the Wang Ke family/home. 这里面包含了太多太多的心理暗示,就像是上次周泽在王轲家里一样。 What Wang Ke eats is what meat, 王轲到底吃的是什么肉, Who knows? 谁知道呢？ Even if he analyzed a matter of psychological suggestion with you explicitly, but is this has a frank and sincere talk or is more exposed? 哪怕他明确地和你分析了一遍心理暗示的事情,但这是开诚布公还是欲盖弥彰？ Does not talk clearly. 说不清楚的。 Just like Zhou Ze present is the same, 正如周泽眼前的一幕一样, Listened to the Zhou Ze’s words, 听完了周泽的话, Dr. Lin merely smiles, then nods, Zhou Ze sees her eye socket some flood red, as if brings brokenhearted, she spent a lot of time to adjust oneself mood, elucidates oneself. 林医生只是笑了笑,然后点了点头,周泽看见她的眼眶有些泛红,仿佛带着一种心碎,她花了很多很多的时间去调整自己的情绪,去开解自己。 On just dining table, she decided to drop out the beforehand burden, tried and Zhou Ze is together, but Zhou Ze rejected, immediately afterward, she heard the Zhou Ze true bidding good-bye words. 在刚刚的饭桌上,她决定抛下之前的包袱,尝试去和周泽相处,而周泽拒绝了,紧接着,她听到了周泽真正的分手话语。 She lost the legal husband, even if her husband is also living, she loses the person who oneself liked, the person who because likes said that does not want to continue this fetters again. 她失去了自己法律上的丈夫,哪怕她的丈夫还活着,她失去了自己喜欢的人,因为喜欢的人说不想再继续这段羁绊。 She looks like a small boat, unceasingly vicissitudes in ocean waves. 她就像是一叶扁舟,在海浪之中不断地浮浮沉沉。 Listens to parents' words, listens to the words from family, listens to the Zhou Ze’s words, listens to the words of teacher, she is living strongly, living is also very strong. 听自己父母的话,听来自家庭的话语,听周泽的话,听导师的话,她坚强地活着,活得也很坚强。 The destiny, conducted making fun to her, 命运,对她进行了捉弄, Some things, rigid, has pursued, has overcome, but eventually, will miss. 有些东西,执着过,追求过,克服过,但终究,还是会错过。 „Divorce settlement, I will send tomorrow, do you agree?” Zhou Ze looks at Dr. Lin. “离婚协议,我明天送来,你同意吧？”周泽看着林医生。 It looks like the tourist to be away from the stockade to look at the tiger in zoo. 就像是游客隔着栅栏看着动物园里的老虎。 Very complex mood, 很复杂的情绪, So long as she does not have to reveal oneself true colors truly, 只要她没有真正揭示自己的真面目, This complex will continue to continue at heart in Zhou Ze. 这种复杂就会在周泽心里继续持续下去。 This after all, 这毕竟, Is a society that looks at the face, 是一个看脸的社会, She is also such attractively long. 她又长得这么好看。 Right, 对吧, When pulls out Xu Dachuan, his face pleats in any case, pulls out not the pressure slightly. 抽徐大川时,反正他一脸褶子,抽得没有丝毫心理压力。 But you let Zhou Ze now with a thing, pulls out Dr. Lin, 但你让周泽现在拿一个东西,抽林医生, Also real being able to get down hand. 还真下不去手。 „Ok, we divorce.” Dr. Lin raised the head, looks at Zhou Ze, „you can also start your new life.” “可以,我们离婚吧。”林医生抬起头,看着周泽,“你也可以开始你的新的生活。” Did you agree? 你同意了？ Did you really agree? 你真的同意了？ Did you really really agree? 你真的真的同意了？ Zhou Ze looks at Dr. Lin, 周泽看着林医生, For fear that the next instance, Dr. Lin gets angry directly, then acts to oneself, tells itself, the toy should have the consciousness of toy! 生怕下一个瞬间,林医生就直接翻脸,然后对自己出手,告诉自己,玩具就该有玩具的觉悟！ But Dr. Lin’s all performance, appear such nature, naturally must make Zhou Ze think that some are not real. 但林医生的一切表现,都显得那么的自然,自然得让周泽都觉得有些不真实。 She is the director, 她是导演, Meanwhile, 同时, Also is an actor? 也是演员？ „Xu Le died.” Zhou Ze opens the mouth saying that „and you do have the relations?” “徐乐死了。”周泽开口道,“和你有关系么？” Should ask that must ask eventually. 该问的,终究是要问的。 Dr. Lin nods. 林医生点点头。 In her opinion, the destiny seems like one game that makes fun of a native of Morocco, was her holds to read, brews this tragedy. 在她看来,命运似乎是一场捉弄摩人的游戏,是她的执念,酿造出了这场悲剧。 „ Actually, all these, possibly are my mistake, was I indulged in fantasy, made the destiny play such a joke. “其实,这一切,可能都是我的错,是我异想天开了,才让命运开了这样子的一场玩笑。 You said right, 你说得对, The present is to let the joke finished the time. ” 现在是让玩笑结束的时候了。” „Did elder sister, you cry?” “姐,你哭了？” The sister-in-law stepped onto the staircase at this time, seeing own elder sister to cry. 小姨子这个时候走上楼梯,看见自己的姐姐在哭。 „All right, the dust entered in the eye.” “没事,灰尘进眼睛里了。” Dr. Lin does not want to be seen oneself this by own younger sister, opened the bedroom door to walk into the bedroom directly, the sister-in-law stared Zhou Ze one, entered the bedroom with own elder sister. 林医生不想让自己妹妹看见自己这一幕,直接推开卧室门走入了卧室,小姨子瞪了周泽一眼,也跟着自己的姐姐进了卧室。 Zhou Ze let out a long breath, 周泽长舒一口气, At this moment, 这一刻, He felt that oneself is somewhat relaxed, 他感觉自己有些轻松, Probably unloaded a very heavy burden/shoulder pole. 像是卸下了一个很重的担子。 She acknowledged that 她承认了, She also agreed to finish, 她也同意结束了, Finished, finished. 结束,就结束了吧。 Oneself could not return to the life of ancestors in any case, deserve to die person, died, except for this woman. 自己反正回不到上辈子的生活了,该死的人,也都死了,除了这个女人。 But engages in introspection, 但扪心自问, Really the opportunity killed her to oneself, oneself really being able to get down hand? 真给自己机会去杀了她,自己能否真的下得去手？ But kills her goal, to vent anger merely? 而杀她的目的,仅仅是为了发泄怒火么？ Walked into the bathroom, 走入了卫生间, Zhou Ze skims to hold water in cupped hands to pat on own face, 周泽掬起一捧水拍在自己的脸上, The cool feeling raids, making the person mind also clear. 凉意袭来,让人头脑也变得清晰了一些。 Finished, 结束了, Finished, 结束了, Finally finished, 终于结束了, Oneself return to the bookstore a while, no longer pays attention to this „Xu Le” the status takes own any troubled, has prepared own day. 自己等会儿回到书店,不再去理会这个“徐乐”的身份带给自己的任何纷扰,准备过自己的日子。 Makes ghost messenger, 做鬼差, Is put on regular status, 转正, When of ancestors the doctor can crawl step by step upward, 上辈子的自己当医生能一步一步地往上爬, This whole life, 这辈子, Nothing but changed an environment, 无非是换了一个环境, But is actually the same work place. 但却是相同的职场。 Raised the head, 抬起头, Zhou Ze sees in the mirror behind oneself also to stand a person, 周泽看见镜子里自己身后还站着一个人, Is a sister-in-law. 是小姨子。 „You made my elder sister cry, she cried very sadly.” “你让我姐姐哭了,她哭得很伤心。” „Here matter is very complex, is not your child is understandable.” “这里的事很复杂,不是你这种小孩子可以理解的。” Zhou Ze takes up a towel, is scratching own face. 周泽拿起一条毛巾,擦着自己的脸。 Actually at this time, 却在这时, Zhou Ze was shocked, 周泽愣住了, Stopped oneself present all movements, 停住了自己现在所有的动作, Sister-in-law who he sees mirror, 他看见镜子里的小姨子, The head toward left side bend to an extremely exaggerating degree, is the degree that a normal person cannot achieve, 头部向左侧弯到一个极为夸张的程度,是一个正常人根本做不到的程度, Her face, with the left shoulder closely fitting in the same place, the whole piece face inclined standard 90 degrees, but the body actually stands as before everywhere straight. 她的脸,和左肩膀紧紧地贴合在一起,整张脸倾斜了标准地九十度,但身子却依旧站得比比直直。 „ I know that my elder sister likes you, “我知道我姐姐喜欢你, I know that my elder sister does not like Xu Le, 我知道我姐姐不喜欢徐乐, I know that the elder sister does not want to make the parents sad not be willing to destroy this marriage, 我知道姐姐不想让爸妈伤心不愿意破坏这个婚姻, I to let the elder sister am happy, 我为了让姐姐开心, Let Xu Le die, 让徐乐死了, Let you die came back again, 让你死了再回来, Let you turn into Xu Le. 让你变成了徐乐。 I made all these, the elder sister should be happy, 我做了这一切,原本姐姐应该会开心的, You, 你, Unexpectedly made her sad, 居然又让她伤心了, Hehe...... ” 呵呵……”