„Brother A’Le?” The younger male cousin looks at Zhou Ze on such crumb the drinking glass, looks that the Zhou Ze palm blood drops unceasingly, the whole person frightens subconsciously retrocedes continuously several steps. “阿乐哥？”堂弟看着周泽就这样捏碎了玻璃杯,看着周泽掌心鲜血不断地滴落,整个人吓得下意识地连续后退好几步。 „Brother A’Le, you are in need for cash the words, even, really even.” The younger male cousin feared obviously, when speech brings the little weeping voice. “阿乐哥,你手头紧的话,就算了,真的就算了。”堂弟显然是怕了,说话时都带着一点点哭腔。 They tie up a grasshopper in string, whom is far from from threaten anyone, naturally, his merely plan depends on this favor to rub a money to be colored from the beginning again. 他们是绑在一根绳子上的蚂蚱,谈不上谁威胁谁,当然,他一开始只是打算靠着这个人情再蹭点钱花花。 If compelled own cousin anxiously, 如果把自己的堂哥逼急了, Yes, his cousin is a chief instigator, he? 是的,他堂哥是主谋,他呢？ He is also a participant, even brings both sides together, the charge is not necessarily lighter than the cousin, as for that truck operator, was almost the killer. 他也是参与者,甚至从中牵线搭桥,罪名不见得比堂哥轻,至于那位卡车司机,几乎就是杀手了。 Therefore, he does not dare to compel too anxiously oneself cousin, he also feared. 所以,他不敢把自己堂哥逼得太急,他也怕。 Zhou Ze understands finally oneself after Xu Le reincarnating into another’s body Xu Le money why so few, the bookstore loss is an aspect, then on the other hand is because Xu Le spent most money at that matter. 周泽终于明白自己对徐乐借尸还魂后为什么徐乐身上的钱这么少,书店亏损是一方面,另一方面则是因为徐乐将自己大部分的钱都花在那件事上了。 Very absurd, 很荒谬, Very laughable, 很可笑, In the end, 到头来, Own cause of death, unexpectedly is such a result. 自己的死因,居然是这样子的一个结果。 Sat on the chair dejected, Zhou Ze looks own palm place is inserting the glass sediment, looks own blood kept dropping. 颓然地坐回了椅子上,周泽看着自己掌心处插着的玻璃渣子,看着自己鲜血不停地滴落下来。 He does not have to stop bleeding, has not felt sore, 他没去止血,也没觉得有多疼, Even, he finds it very interesting. 甚至,他觉得很是有趣。 Even if the satire that the outstanding black quiet pantomime cannot write to feel now? 哪怕是再优秀的黑色幽默剧也写不出现在自己所感受到的讽刺吧？ That he has felt very spiritless, 那个他一直觉得很懦弱, Very characterless, 很没骨气, Very waste, 很废物, Even is base and low is felt the somewhat pitiful man by oneself, 甚至卑微得让自己都觉得有些可怜的男人, Buys murder own chief instigator unexpectedly! 竟然是买凶杀自己的主谋！ All, get out of trouble, as if returned to a circle. 一切的一切,兜兜转转,仿佛又回到了一个圆。 Yes, 是的, You can say that the circle of karma is getting what one deserves! 你可以说因果循环报应不爽！ Yes, 是的, You can understand karma is foreordained by heaven! 你可以理解成因果天注定！ Yes, 是的, You can cheer the heaven to be perforated, comes out to mix, must always also! 你可以欢呼老天有眼,出来混的,总是要还的！ But these are the views of observer, in observer opinion, they anticipated that sees an evil the story to be punished the good person compensated result by an unprincipled person as the conclusion. 但这些都是旁观者的看法,在旁观者看来,他们期待看见一个罪恶的故事以一个坏人被惩罚好人被补偿的结局作为收尾。 This will make the observer feel that has the security sense very much, making them feel very happy, 这会让旁观者觉得很有安全感,让他们觉得很美好, Let them when having the dinner happy has two rice. 让他们在吃晚餐时心情不错多吃两口米饭。 However, 然而, Who can pay for the original life? 谁又能为自己原本的人生买单？ Zhou Ze lowers the head slightly, his body starts to twitch slowly, 周泽微微地低下头,他的身体开始慢慢地抽搐起来, The intense angry feeling starts to flood own whole body. 强烈的愤怒感开始充斥自己的全身。 Dr. Zhou, 周医生, Director Zhou, 周主任, Oneself walk from the orphanage, the thorn, step by step is not step by step easy! 自己从孤儿院走出来,步步荆棘,步步不易！ Oneself do not have the relations not to have the background, crawls by own strength in the hospital system by own effort forcefully upward, is scrupulously following own medical ethics integrity, while wants to obtain a bigger success and a higher position. 自己没关系没背景,硬生生地靠自己的努力靠自己的实力在医院系统里往上爬,一边恪守着自己的医德操守,一边希望获得更大的成功和更高的位置。 Oneself are trembling, cautious! 自己战战兢兢,如履薄冰！ Oneself crawled with great difficulty that position in that age, 自己好不容易在那个年纪爬到了那个位置, Oneself praise in the circle by oneself medical skill with great difficulty, 自己好不容易凭借自己的医术在圈子里扬名, How much sweat did oneself pay? 自己付出了多少汗水？ Late at night lies when the bed times to own drive and inspiration, 深夜躺在床上时一次次对自己的激励和鼓舞, Even, many time bit the tooth to swallow toward the belly in! 甚至,多少次咬碎了牙往肚子里咽！ No, 没啦, No! 都没啦！ Because of this bastard waste, 就是因为这个王八蛋废物, He discovered oneself wife to oneself unrequited loving, 他发现了自己老婆对自己的暗恋, His wife does not rest with, 他自己的媳妇儿不和自己睡, He puts in great inconvenience, 他委屈, His anger, 他愤怒, He is unwilling! 他不甘！ Why he will not reconsider himself to discard all dignity to work as this marrying in son-in-law on own initiative, 他不会反思自己为什么会丢掉一切尊严主动去当这个上门女婿, Why he will not reconsider himself to be looked down upon everywhere, 他不会反思自己为什么会处处受人看不起, He will not reconsider himself, 他不会反思自己, Also will not engage in introspection itself, 也不会反省自己, He venting the angry goal aimed at himself! 他把发泄愤怒的目标对准了自己！ If oneself really and your wife had any illegibile relations also even, 自己如果真的和你老婆有什么不清不楚的关系也就算了, But that time, have forgotten itself radically many years ago once had led that intern little moe younger sister! 但那时候的自己,根本早就忘了自己多年前曾带过的那个实习生小萌妹！ Oneself know nothing radically, 自己根本毫不知情, But on the way of getting off work, in own brings the cake and gift prepares to go to the orphanage to accompany the children to celebrate 61 traffic light crossroads, 但就在下班途中,在自己带着蛋糕和礼物准备去孤儿院陪孩子们庆祝六一的红绿灯路口, That receiving money cargo train driver, 那辆收了钱的大货车司机, Steps on the accelerator directly, 就直接一踩油门, Steps on the life that broke to pieces itself to strive for success to struggle with great difficulty directly! 直接踩碎了自己好不容易拼搏奋斗回来的人生！ „Brother A’Le, that I first walked, your taking good care body.” “阿乐哥,那个,我先走了,你好好注意身体。” The younger male cousin does not dare to continue to stop over again here, turns around to shove open the bookstore glass door to leave, he must take the father to go home, in addition Zhou Ze this situation, he also really fears that now stimulated some hipster to get sick is usually frail, but suppressed even him to feel the cousin of fear! 堂弟不敢再在这里继续逗留下去了,转身推开书店玻璃门离开,他还要接自己老爹出院回家,再加上现在周泽这个情况,他还真怕刺激到了这个有些文青病平时文文弱弱但狠起来连他都觉得害怕的堂哥！ „I must kill that fellow, kills him! With the money of her there receiving, kills his Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” “我要弄死那个家伙,弄死他！用从她那里拿到的钱,弄死他啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！” The younger male cousin still remembers that evening of six months, when the cousin placed in front of oneself to say these words facial features distortions several stacks of money. 堂弟至今还记得半年前的那个傍晚,堂哥把好几沓钱放在自己面前说这些话时的面容扭曲。 This was once laughing by oneself in the back, feels the bone to be soft, spiritless, even does not hesitate to play up to powerful people bolts the door the children cannot with own the cousin of being surnamed, 这个曾被自己在背地里笑话,觉得骨子软,懦弱,甚至不惜攀龙附凤倒插门连孩子都不能跟自己姓的堂哥, In that dusk, 在那个黄昏, Completely changed him in the image. 彻底改变了他在自己心里的形象。 Looks at younger male cousin's back, the palm that Zhou Ze bleeds, nail places grows, abates. 看着堂弟的背影,周泽流血的手掌,指甲一次次地长出来,又消退。 That black qi, keeps surrounding in the fingertip continuously. 那一缕缕黑气,不停地在指尖环绕。 Zhou Ze’s eyes, has the blood-color and black cruel gloss keeps interweaving. 周泽的眼眸,也有着血色和黑色暴戾的光泽不停地交织。 This is his personal enemy, 这是他的仇人, Murders one of the own chief instigators, 谋杀自己的主谋之一, He wants to keep forever this person, 他想把这个人永远地留下来, He wants Bai Yingying to treat as food this, the blood of suck dry his whole body, making him turn into one person to do! 他想让白莺莺把这个人当作食物,吸干他全身的血,让他变成一具人干！ But he, only walked, 但他,就这样走了, But Zhou Ze, from beginning to end, 而周泽,自始至终, Has not acted. 都没有出手。 Even stands to shout that „halting” does not have. 甚至连站起来喊一声“站住”都没有。 Sane, 理智, This deserve to die reason, 这该死的理智, This lets the person almost collapse desperate the reason! 这让人绝望让人几乎崩溃的理智！ Zhou Ze is clear, oneself cannot kill him. 周泽清楚,自己不能杀他。 Even if he does not haggle over the ghost messenger status, takes revenge other consequences that for oneself incurs, 哪怕他不去计较自己鬼差的身份,为自己复仇而引发的其他后果, Said, if killed him, 就说如果杀了他, That driver in prison knew how this does think afterward? 那个在监狱里的司机得知这件事后会怎么想？ Will feel are oneself is silencing a witness of crime? 会不会觉得自己是在杀人灭口？ Then, do oneself also want to go to kill that driver again together? 那么,自己难道还要再去把那个司机一起杀了？ Yes, the driver murders the own first killer! 是啊,司机才是谋杀自己的第一杀手啊！ Is that deserve to die scoundrel, at that night, has been staring at itself, then ran a red light in the traffic light crossroad hits on own initiative to him! 是那个该死的混蛋,在那个夜晚,一直盯着自己,然后在红绿灯路口闯红灯主动撞向了他！ Younger male cousin deserve to die, 堂弟该死, That driver also deserve to die! 那个司机也更该死的！ But if killed these two people, regardless of hidden arrangement what accidental/surprised with what way, 但如果把这两个人都杀了,无论用何种方式去隐藏布置什么意外现场, The police can definitely discover unusual. 警方肯定能发现其中的异常的。 When the time comes, a line was also clear! 到时候,一条线也就清晰了！ Actually, 其实, What matter is most essential, true spending buys the person of murder person, is present Zhou Ze! 事情最关键的是,真正的花钱买凶杀人的人,是现在的周泽啊！ He is the true chief instigator! 他才是真正的主谋！ If must take revenge, killed them, was equal to exposing itself. 如果要复仇,杀了他们,等于是暴露了自己。 They have destroyed the first life, 他们已经毁了自己第一个人生了, …… 难道说, Also wants, because they do ruin the reincarnating into another’s body opportunity that oneself have with great difficulty again? 还要因为他们再毁掉自己好不容易得到的借尸还魂的机会？ Ruins itself, 毁掉自己, Now the second life? 现在第二个人生？ Zhou Ze both hands make a fist, beat layer on layer/heavily on the counter. 周泽双手握拳,重重地捶在了柜台上。 „Bang!” “砰！” A dizziness, 一阵天旋地转, Zhou Ze body staggers, the whole person retroceded several steps, the back was pasting the corner, sat slowly. 周泽身子一个踉跄,整个人后退了好几步,后背贴着墙角,缓缓地坐了下来。 The hand of dripping with blood is covering own eye, 鲜血淋漓的手捂着自己的眼睛, Another hand unconsciousness blows on the ceramic tile is rubbing. 另一只手无意识地在瓷砖上刮蹭着。 You are very angry, 你很愤怒, But you do not have the means to vent, 但你却没有办法去发泄, This, 这, loser life! 艹蛋的人生！ This damn the natural justice is clear, 这狗日的天理昭昭, This simply bastard's general causal circle! 这简直王八蛋一般的因果循环！ my previous life, saved many people, helped many people!!! 我上辈子,救了很多人啊,也帮了很多人啊！！！ The Zhou Ze corner of the eye has the tears to drop, 周泽眼角有泪水滴落下来, Everyone, has oneself frail time, can do only, merely blocks from itself with the palm the eyes that burst into tears ; 每个人,都有自己脆弱的时候,唯一能做的,只是用手掌遮住自己正在流泪的双眼; Everyone , has itself to complain about the day to hate to complain way of the world unfair time, not everyone is the pure robot, can always , in meeting the time goes to analyze from oneself calmly. 每个人,也都有自己怨天恨地埋怨世道不公的时候,并不是每个人都是纯粹的机器人,总是能在遇到时候冷静地去从自己身上进行分析。 The Zhou Ze ancestors, think have not handled the matter of what owing heart, in his hands, the lives of many patients were preserved, the lives and families of many were given to save by him. 周泽上辈子,自认为没做过什么亏心的事情,在他手中,有很多病人的性命被保住,很多人的人生和家庭被他给拯救。 He has not gone to let matters drift, has not gone to collaborate, even if has extremely strongly crawls with the merit thoughts of gain of upward drilling upward, but he scrupulously follows the duty that are cultivating the behavior to be the doctor as before, therefore, oneself crawl upward, payout that the difficulty of faces and needs, is bigger than the person who other can lower the head! 他没去放任自流,也没有去同流合污,哪怕有着极强的往上爬和往上钻的功利心,但他依旧恪守着自己做人做医生的本分,也因此,自己往上爬的时候,所面对的难度和所需要的付出,比其他会低头的人更大！ A counter corner/horn, the sacrificial paper money falls on there, 柜台一角,有一张冥币落在那里, In the paper money that after should be that comes back, to burn late remaining. 应该是那晚回来后自己烧的纸币里剩下的一张。 Just like Bai Yingying said like that the sacrificial paper money that the deceased person gives, is equivalent to the good deeds done in secret. 正如白莺莺所说的那般,死人给的冥钞,相当于阴德。 Hehe, 呵呵, Perhaps is because the ancestors heaven looked oneself did good deeds is too many, therefore this whole life gave itself to compensate. 或许是因为上辈子老天看自己积德了太多,所以这辈子给了自己补偿。 „Rebirth” came back by oneself, has a beautiful wife directly, had a bookstore by oneself, even, to show his „just and incorruptible official” wise, 让自己“重生”回来,直接拥有一个美丽的妻子,让自己拥有一家书店,甚至,为了彰显他的“青天大老爷”的英明, Came out from underworld by oneself, when the soul does sway in the roadside will soon collapse to dissipate, 让自己从地狱里出来,魂魄在路边摇摇晃晃即将崩溃消散时, Bumped into by Xu Le that a petty thief wrong hand kills. 撞见了被一个小毛贼错手杀死的徐乐。 By oneself, was inherited the Xu Le’s life. 让自己,继承了徐乐的人生。 Let this original lord murder own fellow, pays in the God it seems like natural price. 让这个本来主谋杀了自己的家伙,付出在老天爷看来理所应当的代价。 But...... who also asked his Zhou Ze to agree? 但……谁又问过他周泽是否同意？ Is as, 乃至于, Makes present, 弄得现在的自己, Even takes revenge does not have the means to do! 连复仇都没办法去做！ That scoundrel, arrives at itself in front, said when buys ominously matter that kills that doctor, 那个混蛋,走到自己面前,说买凶撞死那个医生的事情时, Oneself can only sit there dejected, 自己只能颓然地坐在那里, Motionless! 一动不动！ The afterglow under setting sun, 夕阳下的余晖, Sprinkles in the entrance corner of reading room, 洒落在书屋的门口边角, Carries off today, 带走今日, Finally wipes surviving slightly warm. 最后一抹残存的微暖。 „Right, my here just developed new strawberry juice, you must first taste the taste, do I make the improvement again?” Xu Qinglang carries a wine glass to open the door to walk. “对了,我这儿刚开发了一个新款的草莓汁,你要不要先尝一尝口味,我再做做改进？”许清朗端着一个酒杯推开门走进来。 Sees to sit on corner dripping with blood Zhou Ze, he gawked, immediately puts down the strawberry juice to run over, squats down side Zhou Ze. 看见坐在墙角手上鲜血淋漓的周泽,他愣了一下,马上放下草莓汁跑了过来,在周泽身边蹲下。 „You how?” Xu Qinglang asked. “你怎么了？”许清朗问道。 „Why...... this not fairly...... fair of this deserve to die.” Zhou Ze muttered. “为什么……这不公平……不……这该死的公平。”周泽喃喃自语。 Xu Qinglang was silent, he does not know that Zhou Ze what happened turns into now this, Zhou Ze that this always he knows idles no matter when sanely clouds very much very much the poor business conditions are light. 许清朗沉默了,他不知道周泽发生了什么事情变成现在这样,这个一直以来他所认识的周泽不管什么时候都闲得很理智很云淡风轻。 Even during rigorous and mechanical, but also jokes with you once for a while, this is a very autonomy person, but the autonomy person often when meeting the attack collapses, no use. 甚至在严谨和刻板之中,还时不时和你开开玩笑,这是一个很自律的人,但自律的人往往在遇到打击后崩溃时,更加地无助。 When this time Zhou Ze, making Xu Qinglang as if see to be taken away parental ghost by little loli in the shop on that day. 此时的周泽,让许清朗仿佛看见了那天被小luoli在店里收走父母亡魂时的自己。 He did not complain fairly, 他埋怨不公平, Because Zhou Ze of next door is also a ghost, 因为隔壁的周泽也是一个鬼, But the little loli actually ignores his existence, then took away parents' ghost. 但小luoli却放任了他的存在,转而收走自己父母的亡魂。 Xu Qinglang sighs, 许清朗叹了一口气, Put out a hand to hold in the arms the Zhou Ze’s shoulder, let the Zhou Ze’s forehead by own chest, followed to echo to say together: 伸手搂住了周泽的肩膀,让周泽的额头靠在自己的胸口,同时也跟着一起附和道: „ Brothers, although does not know that what happened, but your present mood, I can the sympathize. “兄弟,虽然不知道发生了什么事儿,但你现在的情绪,我能感同身受。 No matter how great Chopin is, he too can’t play my sorrow. ” 再牛逼的肖邦,也弹不出咱的悲伤。”