The dinner finished, accompanies the wife to wash dishes, later accompanied the children to play the little while parent-child game, after comforting the good children to go to sleep, he also returned to oneself room. 晚餐结束,陪着妻子洗碗,之后又陪着孩子们玩了会儿亲子游戏,安抚好孩子们入睡后,他也回到了自己的房间。 The wife is taking a bath in the room bathroom, the sound of water murmur, the check is popular itchy. 妻子正在房间里面的卫生间里洗澡,水声潺潺,勾得人心痒。 He lies on the bed, is resting the head on both hands, looks at the wedding picture hanging on the wall. 他躺在床上,枕着双手,看着墙上挂着的结婚照。 In the picture, oneself that time was young, the wife was in full flower. 照片里,自己那时还年轻,妻子风华正茂。 Lies down is lying down, 躺着躺着, He narrows the eyes to focus unexpectedly, 他竟然眯着眼, Also fell asleep. 又睡着了。 Also does not know how long rested, when he wakes up, all around, is black, he puts out a hand to try to find out in the darkness, turned on the lamp. 也不知道睡了多久,等他醒来时,四周,都是黑的,他在黑暗中伸手摸索着,打开了灯。 The bed, is that bed, however is only lying down oneself. 床,还是那张床,然而只躺着自己一个人。 silently, 默默地, He sat from the bed, 他从床上坐了起来, Is curling up own body. 蜷曲着自己的身子。 A lonely and cold feeling is raiding to him, 一种孤独和寒冷的感觉正在向他袭来, In the mind starts to reappear unceasingly some shatter pictures. 脑海中开始不断地浮现出一些破碎的画面。 Dark cloud, 乌云, Lightning, 闪电, Heavy rain, 大雨, Living room, 客厅, Sofa...... 沙发…… He felt more and more scant of breath, named „desperate” the mood is covering it, the body starts big goose fleshes. 他越来越感觉到呼吸困难,一种叫做“绝望”的情绪正在将其笼罩,身上开始起一大片鸡皮疙瘩。 He does not dare to go out of the bedroom, 他不敢走出卧室, Does not dare to open the door, 不敢推开门, He feared that cannot hear child's voice, 他怕听不到孩子的声音, Feared that cannot see own wife, 怕看不见自己的妻子, Fears to go down the staircase, 更怕走下楼梯, Sees on the sofa of living room...... 看见客厅的沙发上…… „Hū......... Hū......... shouted ............” “呼…………呼…………呼…………” The panting for breath sound, makes his brain even more blank to get up heavily. 沉重地喘息声,却让他的大脑越发变得空白起来。 Struggling, he is a thief probably is the same, is soundless shoves open the door, closes one's eyes, covers the ears, in the impression according to memory, broke in the study room in next door. 挣扎着,他像是做贼一样,蹑手蹑脚地推开房门,闭着眼,捂着耳朵,按照记忆中的印象,冲入了隔壁的书房。 „pā!” “啪！” Closes the study room door instantly, 关上书房门的刹那, He only felt in own heart a stone falls to the ground. 他只觉得自己心中一块石头落了地。 The muddy vision looks to the desk calmly lies down there fountain pen, 浑浊的目光看向书桌上静静躺在那里钢笔, As if found own backing. 仿佛找到了自己的依托。 He walks, 他走过去, Takes the fountain pen, 拿起钢笔, Opens the blank book, 翻开空白本子, Also puts out wife's book, starts to continue to copy. 又拿出自己妻子的书,开始继续誊抄起来。 He is absorbed, 他忘我, He wallows, 他沉迷, Except for copying writing, 除了誊抄文字, Other his point thoughts do not have, does not dare to have. 他一点其他的念头都没有,也不敢有。 No one urged him, but he actually treasured the time especially. 没人催促他,但他却格外地珍惜时间。 He writes quickly, the handwriting also starts becomes illegible, because in his heart, is impatient. 他写得很快,字迹也开始变得潦草,因为他的心中,早就迫不及待。 He has not noticed, 他没注意到, Own skin has started the fold to get up, elm bark that probably loses the moisture content, had not noticed, own eye socket has been getting down slowly hollowly, did not have to be 30-year-old he, the head had presented the big piece white hair. 自己的皮肤已经开始褶皱起来,像是失去水分的榆树皮,也没留意到,自己的眼窝已经在慢慢地凹陷下去,还没有30岁的他,头上已经出现了大片的白发。 The ink of fountain pen, 钢笔的墨水, Still probably could not use up to be the same forever, 仍然像是永远用不完一样, Has been able to write the character, 一直能写出字来, Also does not need to increase. 也不用去添加。 Writes writes, 写着写着, Writes day to bleach, writes about the day becomes dim. 写到天变白,写到天又变得昏暗。 That side the door heard the dings, he stands fiercely, opened the room door to walk. 房门那边传来了门铃声,他猛地站起来,推开房间门走了出去。 Stands in the second floor position, 站在二楼位置, He saw the following oneself wife to walk, 他看见下面自己的妻子已经走了过去, Opened the door, 打开了门, Has the guest to visit, 有客人拜访, It is said is wife's some iron rod female fan. 据说是妻子的某位铁杆女粉丝。 Children's laughter transmits again, 孩子们的笑声再度传来, They watch the animated cartoon on the living room sofa. 他们在客厅沙发上看着动画片。 Sees this, 看到这一幕, He grins, 他咧开嘴, Smiled. 笑了起来。 Even if he incomparable thin and pale, 哪怕他已经无比的憔悴, The split lip seems infiltrating the blood. 干裂的嘴唇仿佛在渗透着鲜血。 Writes, 写啊, Writes, 写啊, Copies to copy the next itself again, 一本誊抄完再誊抄下一本, He cannot stop, 他根本停不下来, Also is not willing to stop, 也不愿意停下来, Wrote forgot the food and drink, 写得忘记了吃喝, Wrote forgot sleeping, 写得忘记了睡觉, Except that hears the sound to have a look occasionally, 除了偶尔听到动静出去看看, Has a look at own wife, 看看自己的妻子, Has a look at own children again, 再看看自己的孩子们, Then comes back to continue to write. 然后回来继续写。 He is afraid himself not to write by some chance, 他害怕自己万一不写, Could not see them. 就看不见他们了。 Wife's scare story takes own family villa to write as the prototype, therefore in the story has the home, has her, there are children. 妻子的恐怖故事都是以自己的家庭这栋别墅为原型写的,所以故事里有这个家,有她,也有孩子们。 Under the desk lamp of study room, 书房的台灯下, Has person's shadow that bends over one's desk copies from a book, 有个伏案抄书的人影, The person's shadow is very frail, 人影很单薄, As if can give the penetration to the light of desk lamp him frailly. 单薄到台灯的光仿佛都可以将他给穿透。 The written character are getting more and more, the copied book are also getting more and more, 写的字越来越多,抄的书也越来越多, Gradually, 渐渐的, That young man is getting more and more thin, is getting more and more thin and pale, 那个年轻的男人越来越瘦,也越来越憔悴, When suddenly one day, 等到忽然某一天时, He copies a book, 他又抄好一本书, When puts down the pen, 放下笔时, The both legs are slender like two chopsticks, 双腿已经纤细得如同两根筷子, On the face only then a hard skin also pastes to attach above, 脸上只有一层紧巴巴的皮还黏贴在上面, In the eye nest, could not have seen eyes, only sees two groups of similar jack-o'-lantern same rays to past, is glittering...... 眼窝子之中,已经看不见眼眸了,只看见两团类似鬼火一样的光芒在流转,在闪烁…… He opens the door tremblingly, 他颤颤巍巍地推开门, Walked, 走了出去, He heard oneself wife's voice, 他听见了自己妻子的声音, Also heard oneself children's voice. 也听见了自己孩子们的声音。 All these, 这一切, Is that happily, 都是那么得美好, Then interesting to listen, 那么的动听, This is, 这是, Is insistence and hope that go on living. 是自己活下去的坚持和希望。 Does not feel the pain, is not tired, 不觉得苦,也不觉得累, What is bitter, what...... is tired? 什么是苦,什么……又是累？ The hand is supporting the parapet, he does not dare to walk, his merely silently looks, silently is listening, enjoys own years to be static. 手撑着栏杆,他不敢走下去了,他只是默默地看着,默默地听着,享受着属于自己的岁月静好。 At this time, 这时, He heard indistinctly, 他隐约听见了, Her wife, is crying. 自己的妻子,正在哭。 Their children, are also crying. 自己的孩子们,也在哭。 He gawked, 他愣了一下, Why? 为什么？ Why can cry? 为什么要哭？ Whole families, 一家人, Neat, 整整齐齐, Lives together happily, 开开心心地生活在一起啊, Why can cry? 为什么要哭呢？ He is somewhat flurried, is somewhat confused, his both hands grab the stair rail, one walks very much difficultly step by step downward. 他有些慌乱,也有些迷茫,他双手抓着楼梯栏杆,很是艰难地一步一步一往下走。 Next staircase, 下个楼梯, Regarding this time him is also a huge challenge. 对于此时的他来说也是一场巨大的挑战。 He is afraid himself to fall, 他害怕自己摔下去, Perhaps words that oneself fall, 可能自己摔下去的话, Will fall one group of powder directly. 会直接摔成一团粉末。 He is not the fear falls the powder, 他不是害怕摔成粉末, But was afraid no one to copy, 而是害怕没人誊抄了, No one continued to take to begin a stroke to write. 没人继续拿起笔写字了。 But he must get down, 但他还是要下去了, He must ask oneself wives and children, 他要问问自己的妻子和孩子们, Exactly what happened, 到底发生什么事了, Why can cry? 为什么要哭？ Finally, 终于, He moved toward the staircase, 他走向了楼梯, He pants, the camel the back, is not getting up, was trying to find out continues to proceed. 他气喘吁吁,驼着背,直不起来了,摸索着继续往前。 He went to the living room, saw the midpoint sofa position. 他来到了客厅,看见了正中央的沙发位置。 The wife sits in the middle, 妻子坐在中间, Children in both sides. 儿女们在两侧。 The wife is crying, 妻子在哭, The son is crying, 儿子在哭, The daughter is also crying, 女儿也在哭, Ground, 地上, Alaska crawls there, the surroundings, many amusement park facilities, many masks, have the capes, has the faces, has the shadows, there are all kinds of terrifying things to pace back and forth, is glittering. 阿拉斯加匍匐在那里,周围,有很多游乐场设施,还有很多面具,有斗篷,有人脸,有黑影,有各种各样的恐怖东西在徘徊,在闪烁。 mysteriously and inexorably, 冥冥之中, You can also hear do not know that many ghosts are wailing, is sobbing, is roaring! 你还能听到不知道多少亡魂在哀嚎,在哭泣,在咆哮！ This is sure, 这一切切, In the wife terrifying has presented the role, the scene, the item. 都是妻子恐怖里出现过的角色,场景,道具。 He did not think that has what strange, did not think that has anything at the worst. 他不觉得有什么奇怪,也不觉得有什么大不了的。 He opens mouth, wants to ask the wife, wants to ask the children, 他张开嘴,想问妻子,想问问孩子们, You, 你们, What to cry? 哭什么啊？ We are also living, we can also in the same place, 我们还活着,我们还能在一起, Very happy, 很美好啊, Not is that so? 不是么？ But he can only make the hoarse sound, probably the mosquito is the same, could not speak. 但他只能发出沙哑的声音,像是蚊子一样,根本说不出话来了。 In the wife eyes starts the drop to drip the blood, 妻子眼里开始滴淌出鲜血, In the children eyes is also same, 孩子们眼里也是一样, This, 这一幕, Let him scare. 让他吓坏了。 The wives and children climbed down the sofa together, 妻子和孩子们一起爬下了沙发, Crawls to him. 向他爬行过来。 He sees wife's both hands to grab his leg, is pleading, was praying, is weeping bitterly, 他看见妻子的双手抓着他的腿,在恳求,在祈祷,在痛哭, He sees the two children is also same. 他看见自己两个孩子也是一样。 „Dear, lets off me, lets off me, I could not bear, I could not bear this suffering, I really could not bear, let off me, asked you, dear, let off me, let off me ............” “亲爱的,放过我吧,放过我吧,我受不了了,我受不了这种折磨了,我真的受不了了,放过我吧,求求你,亲爱的,放过我吧,放过我吧…………” „Father, you let off us...... here is too fearful, every day the good pain, the baby is quite afraid ............” “爸爸,你放过我们吧……这里太可怕了,每一天都好痛苦,囡囡好害怕啊…………” „Father, asking you to let off us, I and younger sisters could not bear, really could not bear ............” “爸爸,求求你放过我们吧,我和妹妹都受不了了,真的受不了了…………” Looks under own body, 看着自己身下, Wives and children because of pain face of distortion, 妻子和孩子们因为痛苦而扭曲的脸, In his mind resounded thunderclaps in an instant, 他的脑海中刹那间响起了一道道炸雷, He staggers starts to retrocede, 他踉跄地开始后退, Is shaking the head, 摇着头, Does not dare to believe completely. 满是不敢置信。 Why, 为什么, Why, 为什么, How can like this, 怎么会这样, No, 不, Is impossible, 不可能, Is impossible! 不可能啊！ Originally ice-cold reality, 原本冰冷的现实, After using the happy gauze curtain to cover, a tall and pleasing to the eye misconception. 在被用美好的纱幔遮挡住后,给人一种美轮美奂的错觉。 The misconception, eventually is the misconception. 错觉,终究是错觉。 He crawled on the ground, 他匍匐在了地上, Both hands are holding the head. 双手抱着头。 Since these days, he has copied to write in the study room, has not gone out. 这些日子以来,他一直在书房里誊抄写字,根本就没出过门。 However outside world, 但是在外面的世界里, He still appeared before the person every day, the director in the factory assigns the worker to complete the order, even after the previous household management aunt has problems, he also looked for a household management nanny. 他仍然每天出现在人前,在厂子里指挥调派工人完成订单,甚至在上一个家政阿姨出问题后,他还重新找了一个家政保姆。 All these, 这一切, Is he does, 都是他做的, But he actually does not know, 但他却不知道, Also did not know. 也不晓得。 He only knows, 他只知道, When his wife and children implored to let off before him, 当他的妻子和孩子们在他面前祈求放过时, His whole person collapsed, 他整个人崩溃了, During falling into one type was blurred. 陷入了一种迷离之中。 Line of sight, becomes somewhat fuzzy, 视线,也变得有些模糊, In this fuzzy line of sight, 在这模糊的视线里, When he sees the new nanny aunt visits, sees on the sofa the wives and children's body, sent out the pitiful yell, on the tea table also left leeway „posthumous writings that” the wife wrote down, words when is the wife implored him to let off says, he according to an instinct, is copying wife's publication book same also to write down probably, sureproof writing down. 他看见新的保姆阿姨上门时,看见沙发上自己妻子和孩子们的尸体,发出了惨叫,茶几上还留有妻子写下的“遗书”,是妻子祈求他放过时说的话,他按照一种本能,像是在誊抄妻子的出版书一样也写了下来,白纸黑字的写了下来。 But this, in addition on the wife and children beforehand bruise, became him for a long time because of the evidence that the domestic violence maltreatment determines guilt. 而这,再加上妻子儿女身上许久之前的淤青,成了他因家暴虐待而定罪的证据。 Realistic and virtual dispute, 现实和虚拟的纠葛, Places in his mind crash, once again the times place was remoulded, in the prison, he has many time to ponder, straightens out own mentality. 在他的脑海里一次次地崩塌,又一次次地被重塑,在监狱里,他有许多的时间去思考,去重新理顺自己的思路。 Therefore, 所以, He to prison environment, 他对监狱这个环境, Very grateful. 很是感激。 Is a gratitude from the heart. 是一种发自内心的感激。 ............ ………… The vision of recollection vanishes slowly, 回忆的目光慢慢地消失, His corners of the mouth gradually outlined a curve, 他的嘴角逐渐勾勒出一个弧度, He attempted to have the life in the past, made him discover an astonishing reality, 他尝试过去重新拥有生活,却让他发现了一个惊人的现实, He exists, 他存在, But does not exist, 但又不存在, The surrounding person can see him, can speak with him, the prison leader also appreciates to him, the writing that he writes can also publish the prize. 周围的人都看得见他,能和他说话,监狱领导也对他赞赏有加,他写的文字还能出版获奖。 But he, 但他, Really exists? 真的存在么？ Was similar to a true spirit his sensation to oneself, 他感知到自己如同成了一个真正的幽灵, It is not that spirit of ghost, 不是鬼魂的那种幽灵, But everyone knows you obviously, 而是明明大家知道你, But you, 而你, Actually does not exist, 却不存在, This is a paradox, is suffering. 这是一种悖论,也是一种折磨。 He spent more than four years of time in the prison, thought through these things. 他在监狱里花费了四年多的时间,才想通了这些东西。 Front looks at the panic-stricken incomparable woman, 看着面前惊恐无比的女人, He opens mouth, 他张开嘴, Made one „breathing out” lip movement, 做了一个“嘘”的嘴唇动作, Then, 而后, Said slowly: 缓缓道: „Perhaps, I am know the method of using this pen was anything.” “或许,我是知道使用这支笔的方法是什么了。” „Is ............ is anything ............” “是…………是什么…………” The woman from Bridge of Helplessness looks at front man, has one heartfelt fear. 来自奈何桥的女人看着面前的这个男人,带着一种由衷的恐惧。 „That by oneself, became the role in writing story, rather than...... living person.” “那就是让自己,成为笔下故事里的角色,而不是一个……活生生的人。” Prisoner deep breath, 囚犯深呼吸, Face up by chair, 仰面靠在椅子上, „ Therefore, the matter so will be why smooth, you come out from underworld, can find me immediately, “所以,为什么事情会如此顺利,你从地狱出来,就能马上找到我, Is smooth, 顺利得, Probably was arranged to design the good plot bridge section, 像是被安排设计好的剧情桥段, is that so? ” 是么？” The women nod, 女人点点头, Yes, 是的, Too smooth. 太顺利了。 „Hehe ............” “呵呵…………” The prisoners smiled, 囚犯笑了, „ Very much is sorry told you, this story, my ability was insufficient, has collapsed...... “很抱歉的告诉你,这个故事,我能力不够,已经崩了…… Sorry, 对不起, Implicated you, 连累你了, With me, 和我, Vanishes together. ” 一起消失吧。” .................. ……………… In reading room second floor bedroom, 书屋二楼卧室里, Just helped Attorney secure who old daoist untied the fetter sit in the bedside, old daoist runs to scratch the safflower oil to go, after stretch/open Yanfeng was stopped by secure attorney, fell into the comatose condition. 刚刚帮老道解开束缚的安律师坐在床边,老道跑下去擦红花油去了,张燕丰被安律师制止后又陷入了昏迷状态。 But the breath is steady, the heartbeat also appeared, sleeps, it is estimated that can sober truly, all, are developing in the good direction. 但呼吸已经平稳,心跳也出现了,睡一觉,估计就能真正清醒过来了,一切,都在往好的方向在发展。 secure attorney thought that this is a little mysterious, lets ordinary ghost reincarnating into another’s body that just died, unexpectedly really made. 安律师觉得这有点神奇,让一个刚死去的普通亡魂借尸还魂,居然真的做成了。 Is cleaning the water drop on hair with the towel, while takes up that magazine. 一边用毛巾擦拭着头发上的水珠,一边拿起那本杂志。 Flips at will, 随意地翻了翻, In the magazine front half are the prison leader speech and deeds propaganda, 杂志上前面一半是监狱领导讲话和事迹宣传, Behind is the transformation sensibility and attainment that in the prison the criminal writes, 后面则是监狱里犯人写的改造感悟和心得, Looks that is also very interesting. 看着也挺有意思的。 Looks, 看着看着, Glanced through the last page, 翻阅到了最后一页, Un? 嗯？ secure attorney gawked, 安律师愣了一下, Has arrived at the last page, 已经到最后一页了, But probably was short of anything, 但好像少了点什么, Probably here should have an article, oneself have also looked probably, 像是原本这里应该有一篇文章的,自己好像还看过的啊, Actually disappears. 却不见了。 Is I, 是我, Remembered incorrectly? 记错了？ This is 2000 monthly ticket in addition chapters, 这是两千张月票加更的章节, But what is awkward, our monthly ticket 1800. 但尴尬的是,咱的月票才1800。 The brothers strove for powerful! 兄弟们求给力啊！ in addition of salt fish dragon ran up to front of the monthly ticket!!! 咸鱼龙的加更都跑到月票前面去了！！！ yīng yīng yīng! 嘤嘤嘤！