笔趣阁www.xbiquge.so，最快更新心魔！ His smiles...... cannot say is disconsolate or mournful. But is present Liu approving complex meaning that is difficult to understand. Therefore he did not know suddenly unexpectedly how comfortably- former Li Yunxin had the low sad time occasionally, he can accompany him saying that some words, were called him to be about to be good. 他这笑……说不出是惆怅还是凄然。但到底是眼下的刘公赞难看得懂的复杂意味。因而他一时间竟不晓得如何宽慰-从前李云心偶有低落难过的时候,他都可以陪他说些话、叫他快些好起来。 But now in this Old Daoist own heart also has many worries to be sad. Limit that if not for, can withstand to the average man unendurable, where will say in tonight and this time. Therefore is also speechless for a while, can only with Li Yunxin relative and vertical. 但如今这老道自己的心中亦有许多的烦恼忧愁。若不是实在难以忍受、到了常人可以承受的极限,又哪里会在今夜、此时说出来呢。因而也是一时无言,只能与李云心相对而立。 Separates a while, said: „Xin boy...... that you......” 隔一会儿,才道:“心哥儿……那么你……” „I, if thinks, I must work.” Li Yunxin sighed in a low voice. Walked two steps, sits in the blue stone, „I...... should not live probably again like this.” “我要想一想,我到底要做什么事。”李云心低声叹气。走了两步,在青石上坐下来,“我……大概不该再这样活着了。” How „like this lives” to live, Liu approves is not very clear. Actually most people not clear- “这样活着”是怎样活着,刘公赞不是很清楚。其实绝大多数的人也不清楚- They live, to this world. Regardless of the condition of surrounding environment or growth has not resulted in elects. Many people or have this and that idea and expectation, however must be restricted in the reality eventually. Every so often, a person after is very long becomes what appearance is not he himself can decide that but was the environment turned into what appearance him. 他们生下来、到这个世界上。无论周围的环境还是成长的条件都没得选。许多人或有这样那样的想法、憧憬,然而终究要受限于现实。很多时候,一个人在很久以后成为什么样子并不是他自己能够决定的,而是环境将他变成了什么样子。 These people......, the lifetime path was planned if as expected at that moment from the birth, one obtains the end shortly, where need thinks that „how should live”? 这些人……倘若不出意外,一生的轨迹自出生那一刻起就被规划好,一眼看得到尽头,又哪里需要去想“该怎样活着”呢？ Few lucky fellows, then stand above the peak since birth. Therefore can decide how the own future road should walk. But these people, still still had many fetters even. Present Liu approves before one year ago is among these most people one. At the present turns into the latter- he had glorious life and great power of exceeding the average man. Therefore can try to do the matter that some want to do. 只有极少数的幸运儿,生来便站在顶峰之上。于是可以决定自己今后的路该怎样走。可即便是这些人,也仍有许多的束缚。如今的刘公赞在一年前之前属于那些绝大多数人当中的一个。而今变成了后者-他拥有了超越常人的悠久寿元、强大力量。因而可以试着去做一些自己想要做的事。 Then for example today, repays a debt. 便譬如今日,还债。 As for Li Yunxin...... 至于李云心…… Old Daoist then knits the brows: „What meaning is Xin boy this saying?” 老道便皱眉:“心哥儿这话是什么意思？” Li Yunxin slightly silent a while, sighed: „I formerly, do not know why oneself are living.” 李云心略沉默一会儿,叹了口气:“我从前,不知道自己是为什么活着的。” „Mortal was involved by the passion, living is very indeed bitter. But knows why oneself are lives- lives for the parental parents, lives for the wife and children.” “凡人被情欲牵扯,活得诚然很苦。可是到底知道自己是为什么活-为了父母双亲活,为了妻子儿女活。” „Also some people said that wants, for live. But I think now, really only for lived...... also like me formerly, why did not know.” “还有人说要为了自己活。可我如今想一想,真只为了自己活……也就像我从前一样,不知道为什么了。” „Oneself...... are anything. Is a person, but also carrying/sustaining the hopes and emotions of many people. Whenever speaking of oneself this concept time, actually said is not bodies, but a standing net that on all emotion relations him and social relations comprised, and a point.” “自己……是什么呢。是一个人,但也承载了许多人的期盼、情感。每当说到自己这个概念的时候,其实说的不是一个个体,而是由他身上所有的情感关系、社会关系组成的一张网、和一个点。” „Without this standing net...... for example in this world only had a person. Then he uses anything to try to please itself...... actually nothing to try to please oneself.” Li Yunxin said in a low voice, „this point, I am know.” “如果没有了这张网……譬如这世界上就只有一个人。那么他用什么取悦自己呢……其实没什么能够取悦自己的。”李云心低声道,“这一点,我是知道的。” „I give a cursory look and gain shallow understanding in the world, does not care anybody. World vividly with me like as transient as fleeting clouds, but always also has chatty time. I should thank Ninth Young Master, to thank the benefit society actually, to thank south the Daoism wood to occupy...... if not, if these people asked me to fall into the critical strategic place, perhaps I will be sick of this world quickly.” “我在世上走马观花,不把任何人放在心上。人间繁华与我而言如同过眼云烟,可总也有腻烦的时候。我倒是该感谢九公子、感谢共济会、感谢玄门木南居……倘若不是这些人叫我陷入生死攸关的险地,也许我会更快厌烦这个世界呢。” „By that time...... perhaps only then commits suicide a road to be good to elect.” “到那时候……也许只有自杀一条路好选。” Old Daoist listened to these words to be going to open the mouth. Li Yunxin actually shakes the head to smile: „Alone. Has unbearable chill in a high position.” 老道听了这句话将要开口。李云心却摇头笑笑:“孤寂。高处不胜寒。” „Therefore...... ought to catch anything. The life is the vastness, the person is the this solitary one boat. Does not want to drift with the current, must give an anchor point.” “所以……总该抓到点什么的。人生是汪洋,人是孤舟。不想要随波逐流,总得给自己一个锚点。” Liu approved to listen to this saying looking pensive. Knits the brows to think, suddenly asked: „Xin boy...... the past did not have this anchor point?” 刘公赞听了这话若有所思。皱起眉想了想,忽然问:“心哥儿……从前没有这个锚点的么？” Li Yunxin smiles, reveals a white tooth: „What you asked was which past?” 李云心笑起来,露出一口洁白的牙齿:“你问的是哪个从前？” Old Daoist hesitant long time. Said eventually he wants to speak very long words: „Can say?” 老道犹豫良久。终究说了一句他想说很久的话:“能都说一说么？” At this time is the night. cloud Kaiyue the clear(ly), radiance was just right. Li Yunxin sat in the smooth blue stone, is bathing silent this moonlight a while, said: „Good. But must have the liquor.” 此时已是深夜了。云开月明,光华正好。李云心坐在平滑的青石上、沐浴着这月华沉默了一会儿,才道:“好。但要有酒。” Said this saying turns the palm, holds a silver pot. Puts looks on the stone, said: „Lonely.” 说了这话一翻手掌,托出一只银壶来。搁在石上瞧了瞧,又说:“还是冷清。” Therefore touched toward the sleeve in again, fishes out a red mud small furnace. 于是再往袖中摸了摸,摸出一只红泥小炉。 This stove is brings to warm up wine, very exquisite unique. Puts in the blue stone, with nearby white clothing Li Yunxin, as if a picture. 这炉子是拿来温酒的,很小巧别致。搁在青石上、衬着旁边白衣的李云心,仿佛一幅画。 He will point at a ball, then one group of no root fires burn under the furnace. In a moment, had some warm feelings. Liu approves to think , the jumping up blue stone, sits facing each other with Li Yunxin. 他将手指一弹,便有一团无根火在炉下烧起来。俄顷,也就有了些许的暖意。刘公赞想了想,也跳上青石,与李云心相对而坐。 Li Yunxin then puts out a hand a gouging on the stone, gouges two stones. Finds out the sharp nail to select again, pulled out inside spatially. 李云心便伸手在石上一剜,剜出两块石头来。再探出尖利的指甲一挑,把里面掏空了。 Also became two liquor. 也就成了两只酒盏。 He and Liu approves everyone one, actually not silver pot on forge warm. Both people like drinking cold wine, actually does not like the cold food. 他与刘公赞每人一盏,却不将银壶在红炉上温。两个人都喜欢喝冷酒,却不喜欢冷食。 „With you sits together previous time like this, is in Wei City.” Li Yunxin said, „that night, I must seize the shed dragon nine.” “上一次和你这样坐在一起,还是在渭城的时候。”李云心说,“那天晚上,我要夺舍龙九。” Old Daoist pours out the liquor for him, pours out the liquor for oneself. Holds up cup speechless- two people toss down. 老道为他斟上酒,又为自己斟上酒。无言地举起杯子-两人一饮而尽。 Li Yunxin smacks the lips, smiles: „Without being a drinking companion, became drank the alcohol to drown one's sorrows.” 李云心咂了咂嘴,又笑:“没有佐酒的,就成了喝闷酒。” Therefore put out a hand to gouge several on the stone under body, gouged four round azure pebbles. He looked at this pebble, put out a hand to put to the stove on. 于是又伸手在身下的石上剜了几下子,剜出四块圆圆的青卵石来。他看了看这石子,伸手搁到炉子上了。 Narrows the eye, to look in the middle of the steam and glimmer pebble slightly, said in a low voice: „Formerly had an old man. Drinks, eats like this.” 微微眯起眼睛、瞧着热气与微光当中的石子,低声道:“从前有一个老头子。喝酒,也这样吃。” Spoke this saying, silent for a long time. The face in the fire by small furnace was been sparkling slightly in the dim light of night turns yellow. Liu approves then knew, he uses such tone speech, to fall into so silent middle time, was the preparation recalls some past events. 说完这话,沉默许久。面孔在夜色里被小炉中的火光映得微微发黄。刘公赞便晓得,他用这样的语气说话、陷入如此沉默当中的时候,就是准备回忆些往事了。 He looks at the youth to be young obviously, actually many fleeting time may recall. 他明明看着青春年少,却偏有许多流年可追忆。 „I do not remember is the big time adopted. Seven years old or eight years old, or nine years old...... probably is a child time.” The Li Yunxin opens the mouth, lowly and said lightly, „these pasts and you had said probably- life experience is uncouth, in the orphanage grows up.” “我不记得是多大的时候被领养的了。七岁或者八岁,或者九岁……大概是个孩子的时候。”李云心开口,低且轻地说,“这些从前和你大概说过-身世俗气,孤儿院里长大。” „Is just like the charitable institution.” Liu approves the nod. “就好比善堂。”刘公赞点头。 „Afterward came an old man. At that time...... roughly and you initially same age. A one-eyed, the appearance is not gentle. The speech thunders probably...... always with the roar. But is not the ear is not good.” Li Yunxin puts out a hand to turn the pebble on furnace, as if in barbecue. The pebble was turned., does not say a word He put out a hand to twist a point to scatter from the side from the snow that on the tree dropped. Finally called- incited to make noise, as if the fat on meat dropped. “后来来了个老头子。那时候……约莫和你当初一样的年纪吧。一只独眼,样子一点都不慈祥。说话像是打雷……总是用吼的。可又不是耳朵不好。”李云心伸手翻弄炉上的石子,就仿佛是在烤肉。石子被翻了面儿,不做声。他就伸手从身边捻了一点自树上落下的积雪撒上去。终于叫起来-滋滋作响,仿佛肉上的油脂滴落。 „Elects some children. Cannot settle on. Asked me. Others said this child, the brain possibly a little issue. You bring are the burden.” “选一些孩子。都看不中。问到我。人家就说这个孩子,脑子可能有点问题。你带回去是累赘。” „Old man asked, the life can take care of oneself? Obedient? Said, but also is obedient, can take care of oneself.” “老头子就问,生活能自理么？听话么？就说,还算是听话,也能自理。” „Old man said that that this.” “老头子就说,那就这个。” Liu approves to shake the head, smiles: „Brain a little issue?” 刘公赞摇头,笑起来:“脑子有点问题？” „Wú. At that time thought that they were very strange. They also thought that I am very strange. I do not want to speak with them. No method understood why they always smile cry.” Li Yunxin shot shot his cup. The liquor line then selects from the silver pot, filled for two people. “唔。那时候觉得他们很怪。他们也觉得我很怪。我不想和他们说话。没法子理解他们为什么总是笑啊哭啊。”李云心弹了弹他的杯子。酒线便从银壶中挑出来,为两人又斟满了。 Is pinching cup silent a while, tosses down: „Brings to go back me. The giving a name character was called Li Si. Li Si of anybody.” 捏着杯子沉默一会儿,一饮而尽:“就把我带回去。起个名字叫李四。张三李四的李四。” „Old man is looks at the life. At that time over 60 years old, was not healthy. Before passed smooth, made several small wealth. Felt oneself are also the Grandmaster...... thinks that cannot call own craftsmanship to be lost. But loner, wants to look for a life hardly teaches.” “老头子是个看命的。当时六十多岁,身体不大好。之前过得顺,发了几笔小财。觉得自己也算是大师……就想不能叫自己的手艺失传。可是孤家寡人一个,想找个命硬的来教。” „Found you?” “就找到了你？” Li Yunxin shows a faint smile: „It is not I. Before looked for a very intelligent child. Understands to watch a person's every mood, understands to estimate the will of the people.” 李云心微微一笑:“不是我。之前找了一个很聪明的孩子。懂察言观色,懂揣摩人心。” Ability that „pitifully he told fortunes really not be considered well. Before got rich is the luck is good, catches up. Several big donors hold him, gave his some money. Floating, spends everywhere. Then the luck did not have, looks not accurate, is disappointed...... to think again raises that child and apprentice not to have the issue. Finally two people livelihoods became worried the matter.” “可惜他算命的本领实在不算好。之前发财算是运气好,赶上了。几个大金主捧他,给了他些钱。就飘飘然,到处花。然后运气没了,看得不准,再潦倒起来……原来觉得养那个孩子、徒弟没问题。结果两人的生计都成了愁事。” „What to do. Tries to find a good solution. At that time had the subsidy, said that in the orphanage adopted of physical disabilities, to many subsidy. Selects I.” “怎么办呢。想一个好办法。当时有补贴,说孤儿院里领养一个残障儿,给多少的补助。就挑中我。” Liu approves said with amazement: „...... Has such royal government, seriously was the luck of common people.” 刘公赞惊讶道:“……有这样的朝廷,当真是苍生之福了。” Li Yunxin smiles: „What thought adopts a child of physical disabilities. Raised this child unable to spend how much money, but can also gain. If can take care of oneself and smart like me, but can also serve them.” 李云心笑笑:“想的是领养一个残障的孩子。养这孩子花不了多少钱,还能赚一些。如果是个像我一样能自理、机灵些的,还可以伺候他们。” „Then...... I came out.” “然后……我就出来了。” „Then, that intelligent child died again.” “再然后,那个聪明的孩子死了。” „...... Died?” “……死了？” „In the summer, runs to play. Runs up to by the railway rail to catch the dragonfly, presses the nail. The car(riage) comes, does not tumble carefully on the railway rail, was ground the muddy flesh.” Li Yunxin said that „accidental/surprised. This matter, without means.” “夏天,跑出去玩。跑到铁轨旁边逮蜻蜓,压钉子。有一趟车过来,不小心跌倒在铁轨上,被碾成肉泥了。”李云心说,“意外嘛。这种事,没办法的。” Liu approves to purse the lips. Thinks, in the liquor the cup drinks completely: „Un.” 刘公赞抿了抿嘴。想了想,也将杯中酒饮尽:“嗯。” „Old man sad period of time. But was quickly good.” Li Yunxin gently snort/hum. Being able to reach an agreement is with a smile snort/hum, is only the unconsciousness air change, „, because thought from the beginning that child is intelligent, studying anything is quick. Gradually discovered that its practical knowledge not quick...... has not learned anything. Before the old man will say that clever words coaxes him. Pulls out, reveals the true nature.” “老头子难过了一阵子。但很快就好了。”李云心轻轻地哼了一声。说不好是笑着哼的,还是只是无意识地换气,“因为一开始觉得那孩子聪明,学什么都快。慢慢就发现其实学得并不快……没学会什么的。只是在老头子面前会说乖巧话儿哄他。一拉出去,就露了相。” „Some people...... discuss a request very high, the intelligence quotient is not high. Is this type probably.” “有些人……情商很高,智商却不高。大概就属于这种吧。” Old Daoist raised the pot, must pour out the third glass of liquor for two people. But in the pot makes noise, resembling was in the liquor froze some. Therefore with the magical powers, the silver pot gathering stove near, has not only roasted slowly: „Then?” 老道提起壶,要为两人斟上第三杯酒。但壶中哗哗作响,似是酒里结了些冰。于是没有用神通,只把银壶凑到火炉边,慢慢地烤:“然后呢？” „Then was I formerly and you says. Crossed. peaceful life Has the clothes to put on the food to eat. Old men originally me, when the dog same raises. The child died beat mercilessly me, planned to look for an apprentice again.” “然后就是我从前和你说的。过了段安稳日子。有衣穿有饭吃。老头子原本把我当狗一样养。那孩子死了把我毒打一顿,打算再找个徒弟。” „But I really silly...... he do not teach that child time, I am listening at the same time. Very easy matter, listening to one also to understand. Slowly I also know some will of the people, therefore spoke some words with him, causes a method. He realizes me stupidly not. Or although is silly, but has the forte in some domain.” “可我又不是真的傻……他教那孩子的时候,我在一边听。很容易的事情,听一遍也就懂了。慢慢地我也知道些人心,所以和他说些话,使点手段。他就意识到我不是真的傻。或者说,虽然傻,但在某个领域有过人之处。”