„I the matter that wants you to handle am very simple, if I leave later have the doctor or the nurse come the ward inspection, you only needed to pretend to sleep are OK.” Zuo Han has not held anything to Chen Ge: „Do not speak any a few words, no matter he asked your anything, you said that does not know was good.” “我要你做的事情很简单,如果我离开之后有医生或者护工过来查房,你只需要装做在睡觉就可以了。”左寒对陈歌并没有抱什么希望:“你不要多说任何一句话,他不管问你什么,你都说不知道就好了。” „So is simple?” “就这么简单？” „Un, moreover I came back, you remember that opens the door to me.” Zuo Han lies down on the hospital bed, no longer responds Chen Ge. “恩,另外等我回来,你记得给我开门。”左寒躺在病床上,不再搭理陈歌。 After dozen minutes, Zuo Han looked at one toward Chen Ge, then set out to get to the hospital ward entrance. 十几分钟之后,左寒朝陈歌看了一眼,然后起身走到了病房门口。 He opened a seam the door quietly, after seeing on the corridor no one, slips out directly. 他悄悄将房门打开了一条缝,见走廊上没有人后,直接溜了出去。 „This person is overly suspicious and fearful, his all sorts of symptoms truly and being killed paranoea is very similar.” Chen Ge sits up from the bed: „Do I want to help him?” “这个人疑神疑鬼,他的种种症状确实和被害妄想症很相似。”陈歌从床上坐起:“我要不要帮他？” Does not need to ponder with effort, Chen Ge has felt, Zuo Han leaves the nosing hospital so to be not simple tonight, this similarly is also to his one probe. 不用费力去思考,陈歌已经感觉出来,左寒今晚离开并非去查探医院那么简单,这同样也是对他的一种试探。 He does not trust Zuo Han, Zuo Han has not trusted him completely, in being killed paranoea patient eyes, the entire world is dangerous, is the potential enemies. 他不信任左寒,左寒也没有完全信任他,在被害妄想症患者眼里,整个的世界都是危险的,都是潜在的敌人。 Is maintaining the original posture, Chen Ge sat for dozen minutes in the bedside, Zuo Han still had not come back. 保持着原本的姿势,陈歌在床边坐了十几分钟,左寒仍旧没有回来。 He looks to stagger a seam door, is dragging that leg that wore a cast, got to the hospital ward entrance slowly. 他看着错开了一条缝的房门,拖着那条打了石膏的腿,慢慢走到了病房门口。 Opens the gate, Chen Ge looks toward outside, on the corridor of hospital is not a darkness, the corridor corner and nurse station there is turning on a light. 拉开门,陈歌朝外面看去,医院的走廊上并非一片漆黑,楼道拐角和护士站那里都亮着灯。 „Is completely different from the appearance of my impression Chinese medicine hospital, is really that gloomy dark midnight hospital I fantasizes?” “和我印象中医院的样子完全不同,难道那个阴森黑暗的午夜医院真是我幻想出来的？” Chen Ge has been able to grasp one to spend now, he will not think deeply any issue, so long as did not stimulate to the past memory, the brain will not transmit that type as if to be torn the same ache. 陈歌现在已经可以掌握好一个度了,他不会去深思任何问题,只要不刺激到过去的记忆,大脑就不会传来那种仿佛要被撕裂一样的疼痛。 „I recalled during the daytime when matter, has not had, before letting I am trying the recollection stupor , the matter, that ache will raid suddenly, this is very strange.” “我回想白天发生的事情时,并没有感到头疼,但让我试着回想昏迷之前发生的事情时,那种疼痛就会突然袭来,这本身就很奇怪。” „Actually does once memory mean what to me? Why thinks merely, I will feel sore?” “曾经的记忆对我来说究竟意味着什么？为什么仅仅只是想一想,我都会感到疼？” Took the medicine of large dose, body is very weak, but also by suffering of ache, but in such situation, Chen Ge is maintaining the ability of independent thinking as before. 服用了大剂量的药物,身体无比虚弱,还饱受疼痛的折磨,可就在这样的情况,陈歌依旧保持着独立思考的能力。 „To a certain extent, I and Zuo Han also very look like, he thought that in the world everyone is harming him, I thought that in the world everyone is deceiving me, did we really fall ill?” “某种程度上来说,我和左寒也挺像的,他觉得世界上所有人都在害他,我觉得世界上所有人都在骗我,难道我们真的生病了吗？” Is so similar to a symptom of mental disorder person, that is indirect was explaining oneself possibly are also the mental disorder person. 和一个精神病人的症状如此相似,那就是间接在说明自己可能也是个精神病人。 „Can realize oneself possibly get sick, this explained that I have the sickness to know the feeling, hasn't my self-awareness strength been weaken...... knows the strength?” Three characters that in the mind jumps bewilderedly made Chen Ge stare: „Knew that strength these three characters I why so familiar? This thing is very probably important to me, I need to know the strength, needs some to have thing that knows the strength!” “能意识到自己可能得病,这说明我还具有病识感,我的自知力并未减弱……自知力？”脑海中莫名其妙蹦出的三个字让陈歌愣了一下:“自知力这三个字我为什么如此熟悉？这东西好像对我无比重要,我需要自知力,需要某个带有自知力的东西！” The ache such as the tide raids, Chen Ge as if touched the beforehand memory, in the mind the innumerable memory fragments hit in together, sore he almost must faint. 疼痛如潮水袭来,陈歌似乎又触动了以前的记忆,脑海中无数记忆碎片撞击在一起,疼的他几乎要晕倒。 Chen Ge both hands hold the bed column stubbornly, closed tightly the tooth. 陈歌双手死死抓住床栏,咬紧了牙。 The jaw has bled, but he has not made any sound as before. 牙关已经流出了血,但他依旧没有发出任何声音。 „Why am I to knowing the strength three character impressions so profound?!” “我为什么会对自知力三个字印象如此深刻？！” The consciousness starts fuzzily, Chen Ge continues to ponder again, not only had a headache, he may faint directly. 意识开始模糊,陈歌再继续思考下去,就不仅仅是头疼了,他可能会直接晕倒。 Deeply inspires, Chen Ge was been strongly tranquil by oneself, he according to the breath method that Dr. Gao teaches, attempted repeatedly several times, the ache of brain alleviated finally. 深吸一口气,陈歌竭力让自己平静下来,他按照高医生教的呼吸方法,反复尝试了几次,大脑的疼痛终于缓解。 Several minutes time, the Chen Ge back had been moistened by the cold sweat, his body became weaker. 短短几分钟的时间,陈歌后背已经被冷汗打湿,他身体变得更加虚弱了。 „If I faint, another I will appear? Can I talk with him?” “如果我晕倒的话,另一个我是不是就会出现？我能够和他对话吗？” When Chen Ge prepares the hospital bed, on the corridor resounded the sound of footsteps suddenly. 在陈歌准备回自己病床的时候,走廊上忽然响起了脚步声。 „Zuo Han walks not to have the sound, should be the nurse comes.” “左寒走路没有声音,应该是护工过来了。” Chen Ge still remembers that Zuo Han words, he lay down on the hospital bed to start to pretend to be sleeping, to cross probably for more than ten seconds, 陈歌还记得左寒的话,他躺到病床上开始装睡,大概过了十几秒, The sound of footsteps stopped in the hospital ward entrance. The eye narrows the eyes, Chen Ge is staring at the door, he not anxious, has not felt any disturbed, at this time he discovered own psychological quality good oddness. 脚步声停在了病房门口。眼睛眯起,陈歌盯着房门,他并没有紧张,更没有感到任何不安,这时候他才发现自己心理素质好的离谱。 „Bang.” “嘭。” Some people knocked a door gently, footsteps sound, person left. 有人轻轻敲了一下房门,紧接着脚步声响起,门外的人离开了。 „What do you mean? Does 34 : 00 am runs over to knock the door, then leave? Is this practical joke of nurse?” “什么意思？凌晨34点跑过来敲一下门,然后离开？这是护工的恶作剧？” Person has not come, but this also became most let a point that Chen Ge confused: „Who is the person of knocking on a door? Nurses? Zuo Han? Doctor? Other patients in hospital?” 门外的人并没有进来,而这也成了最让陈歌迷惑的一点:“敲门的人是谁？护工？左寒？医生？还是医院里的其他病人？” Also after a while, the hospital ward gate was shoved open, Zuo Han was cold a face to walk. 又过了一会,病房门被推开,左寒冷着一张脸走了进来。 „Smooth?” “顺利吗？” „This hospital is very big, is the comprehensive class hospital, we in the third ward are only very small part.” Zuo Han arrives at the Chen Ge bedside, put out a hand to gesticulate: „Compared with the words of pillow the hospital, we probably in this corner.” “这座医院很大,是综合类医院,我们所在第三病区只是其中很小的部分。”左寒走到陈歌床边,伸手比划了一下:“把医院比作枕头的话,我们大概就在这个角落里。” „Do you have the confidence to escape?” What Chen Ge cares is this point, the bewildered knock made him have an urgency a moment ago, as if here dull was long, will have a not better matter to happen. “你有信心逃出去吗？”陈歌更关心的是这一点,刚才莫名其妙的敲门声让他产生了一种急迫感,似乎在这里呆的久了,会有更加不好的事情发生。 „No.” The reply of Zuo Han is simple: „Corridor mouth is installed with the monitoring, our buildings have three nurses and two nurse 24 hours nurse, leave the front door of specialized hospital also to cage, whose body the key does not know on.” “没有。”左寒的回答非常干脆:“楼道口安装有监控,咱们这栋楼有三位护工和两位护士二十四小时看护,离开病院的大门也上了锁,钥匙也不知道在谁的身上。” „Key?” Mentioned the key, in the Chen Ge mind has delimited a lightning probably, a he as if being drowned person grabbed a straw suddenly: „I need a key!” “钥匙？”提到钥匙,陈歌脑海中好像划过了一道闪电,他就仿佛一个溺水的人突然抓住了一根稻草:“我需要一把钥匙！” „Right, without the key, we cannot run.” Zuo Han thought that the Chen Ge tone is very strange, he did not have to continue with Chen Ge to exchange again, returned to oneself hospital bed. “对,没有钥匙,我们根本跑不出去。”左寒觉得陈歌语气很奇怪,他没有再继续跟陈歌交流,回到了自己的病床上。 „Don't you sleep?” Chen Ge discovered that Zuo Han wears the clothes and shoes as before, is sideways to lie on the bed, the meaning that a point must rest does not have. “你不睡觉吗？”陈歌发现左寒依旧穿着衣服和鞋子,侧身躺在床上,一点要睡的意思都没有。 „I do not want dead in the sleep.” Zuo Han closed the eye, he hides a hand in the bosom, the palm as if hid anything. “我可不想死在睡梦当中。”左寒闭上了眼睛,他把一只手藏在怀中,掌心似乎藏了什么东西。 Blade? Does not look like, should be some type of sharp thing, does he get so far as from outside? 刀？不太像,应该是某种锋利的东西,他从外面弄到的？ According to the doctor said, Zuo Han is a patient who contracts the serious being killed paranoea, such a dangerous fellow, grasps the suspicious article and in a hospital ward, thinks to feel fearful. 按照医生所说,左寒是一个患有严重被害妄想症的病人,这样一个危险的家伙,手持不明物体和自己在一个病房里,想想都觉得可怕。 The reason told Chen Ge, he should fear, but his heart had no mighty waves to be honest. 理智告诉陈歌,他应该恐惧,但说实话他内心没有任何波澜。 Changed a comfortable posture, Chen Ge closed one's eyes to fall asleep. 换了个舒服的姿势,陈歌闭上眼睡着了。 ...... …… The opening the door sound gets up, Chen Ge opened the eye slowly, the dawn of out of the window according to his body, his comfortable stretching oneself. 开门声响起,陈歌缓缓睁开眼睛,窗外的晨光照在了他的身上,他舒服的伸了个懒腰。 „Such life is good, so long as I did not recall that these bad memories, I seem like with the normal person have no difference.” “这样的生活挺不错的,只要我不去回想那些糟糕的记忆,我看起来和正常人也没有什么区别。” Chen Ge has turned head, Zuo Han still lay on the bed, he falls asleep until the dawn probably. 陈歌扭过头,左寒仍旧躺在床上,他直到天亮好像才睡着。 „Good that it seems like you rested last night.” Dr. Gao stands in the entrance, he has not gone to look at Zuo Han, but arrived at the Chen Ge bedside directly: „Last night did you have the nightmare?” “看来你昨晚休息的不错。”高医生站在门口,他没有去看左寒,而是直接走到了陈歌床边:“昨晚你有没有做噩梦？” „No.” Chen Ge shakes the head, in his mind in that face and reality of Dr. Gao the face superposition of Dr. Gao, was were perhaps many, the two mutual contradictory memories of looking really had the trend that started to fuse. “没。”陈歌摇了摇头,他脑海中高医生的那张脸和现实中高医生的脸重合,或许是看的多了,两种相互矛盾的记忆竟然有开始融合的趋势。 In the mind seems like the strengths to change his understanding slowly, making him see clearly the reality, helping him strip these aches. 脑海中似乎有一股力量在慢慢改变他的认识,让他看清楚现实,帮助他剥离掉那些疼痛。 „This explained my treatment effective.” Dr. Gao is very gratified: „Today I do not make Xu Wan continue to give you to deliver the food, you have stayed in the sick ward were very long, should go out to take a walk, this has very big help to the recovery.” “这说明我的治疗还是有效果的。”高医生很是欣慰:“今天我就不让徐婉继续给你送饭了,你已经在病室里呆了很久,该出去走动走动了,这对康复有很大的帮助。” „Goes out to take a walk? Can I go to that park to have a look?” Chen Ge comes the spirit immediately. “出去走动？我能去那个乐园看看吗？”陈歌立刻来了精神。 Dr. Gao cannot help laughing: „Are you want to look at that Haunted House female boss? This is not perhaps good, you can only move in the hospital temporarily.” 高医生哑然失笑:“你是想要去看那个鬼屋女老板吗？这恐怕不行,你暂时只能在医院里活动。” „Good.” “好吧。” „I go to take the armpit to turn to you, wait a bit.” “我去给你拿腋拐,稍等。” After Dr. Gao goes out, stupor Zuo Han woke suddenly, he gesticulated a hand signal toward Chen Ge, the mouth said low voice: „Do not believe his nonsense.” 高医生出去之后,原本昏迷的左寒突然醒了过来,他朝陈歌比划了一个手势,嘴里小声说道:“别信他的鬼话。” „How haven't you rested ah?” “你怎么还没睡啊？” Zuo Han has not spoken again, motionless, is still sleeping soundly to be the same probably. 左寒没有再说话,一动不动,就好像还在熟睡一样。 After several minutes, Dr. Gao takes the armpit to turn to return to the hospital ward, he helps up Chen Ge, two people walked together, in the entire process Dr. Gao has not spoken a few words to Zuo Han. 几分钟后,高医生拿着腋拐回到病房,他将陈歌扶起,两人一起走了出去,整个过程中高医生都没有跟左寒说一句话。 Also does not know that Dr. Gao was worried disturbs Zuo Han to sleep, has other reasons. 也不知道高医生是担心打扰左寒睡觉,还是另有其他的原因。 Has had the breakfast, Chen Ge and Dr. Gao went to sick hall outside garden. 吃过早饭,陈歌和高医生来到了病栋外面的花园。 Because missed the season of blossoming, in garden not many flowers, but stayed here still to make the person feeling very comfortable. 因为错过了开花的季节,花园里并没有多少花,不过呆过这里仍旧让人感觉很舒服。 The wind blows across the treetop on the face, probably a pair of gentle hand. 风穿过树梢吹在脸上,好像一双温柔的手。 The sunlight falls by the slit of leaf on the ground, like goldfish of hovering, neat of path two sides vegetation trims, as if one tranquil happy green lakes. 阳光透过树叶的缝隙落在地上,如同游动的金鱼,道路两边的草木修剪的整整齐齐,仿佛一片平静美好的绿色湖泊。 „Haven't I left the hospital ward for a long time?” Chen Ge leans on the armpit to turn, moves body little. “我是不是好久没有离开病房了？”陈歌拄着腋拐,一点点挪动身体。 „Why said?” “为什么这么说呢？” „This relaxing feeling I am very as if long have not experienced.” Chen Ge feels tree, found the alone little peaceful place to sit. “这种放松的感觉我似乎很久没有体验过。”陈歌摸着身边的树,找了一个人少安静的地方坐了下来。 „You have to experience, you were stranded in a lightproof room, forgot that feeling.” Dr. Gao sits side Chen Ge, he as if likes chatting with Chen Ge very much. “你不是没有体验过,你只是被困在了一间不透光的屋子里,忘记了那种感觉罢了。”高医生坐在陈歌身旁,他似乎很喜欢和陈歌聊天。 „Lightproof room?” “不透光的屋子？” „This lightproof room is your heart, you took yourself the key to lock in the heart, I can do was finds the way to make you come out from that room.” Dr. Gao is looking at the sky, does not know that is thinking anything. “这不透光的屋子就是你的心,你拿着钥匙把自己锁在了心底,我能做的就是想办法让你从那间屋子里出来。”高医生望着天空,不知道在想些什么。 „So long as can come out from this room, my sickness?” Chen Ge very earnest asking. “只要能从这屋子里出来,我的病就会好吗？”陈歌很认真的问道。 Dr. Gao shakes the head: „Mental illness and mental issue are different, the mental illness cannot the correction, need the medicine to treat, making in your house from the bottom of the heart come out, this is only the first step.” 高医生摇了摇头:“精神疾病和心理问题是不一样的,精神疾病不能自我矫正,需要药物进行治疗,让你从心底的房子里出来,这只是第一步。” „Is my sickness cures thoroughly? Actually I feel now oneself and normal person has no difference.” Chen Ge is backing on a tree, the look somewhat is slightly vacant. “那我的病怎样才算彻底治好？其实我现在就感觉自己和正常人没有任何区别。”陈歌背靠着一棵树,眼神略有些茫然。 „You do not have to realize oneself fall ill, this explained that you are away from the recovery also to have a very far distance, the sickness knows the feeling and knew that the strength is also we judges an basis of patient condition order of severity.” Dr. Gao and Chen Ge chatted. “你没有意识到自己生病,这就说明你距离康复还有很远的一段距离,病识感和自知力也是我们判断一个病人病情严重程度的依据。”高医生和陈歌闲聊了起来。 „Knows the strength? What is that?” Chen Ge’s held the wooden chair edge, he is lowering the head lowly, seems like, for does not make others see his time expression. “自知力？那是什么？”陈歌的手抓住了木椅边缘,他低垂着头,似乎是为了不让别人看到他此时的表情。 „Knew that the strength is patient's cognitive ability to oneself state of mind, looked whether he could analyze the own state of mind is whether normal, you this situation apparently does not have a point to know the ability now.” “自知力就是病人对自身精神状态的认识能力,看他能否判断自己精神状态是否正常,你现在这个情况显然是没有一点自知能力的。” „But I felt I and normal person have no difference, but can have a headache occasionally.” Chen Ge lifted the head, he is covering oneself head, as if just had a headache about a meeting. “可我还是感觉我和正常人没什么区别,只是偶尔会头痛。”陈歌重新抬起了头,他捂着自己的脑袋,似乎刚刚又头疼了一会。 Dr. Gao has not refuted Chen Ge, he puts out a hand to point at distant place pavilion nearby inward man. 高医生没有反驳陈歌,他伸手指着远处凉亭旁边一个在自言自语的男人。 That person 30 years old over, puts on patient clothes, he himself stands under the sunlight, talked to oneself to the place that the in the pavilion sunlight could not be finding. 那人三十岁出头,穿着病号服,他自己站在阳光下面,对着凉亭里阳光找不到的地方自语。 This person of Chen Ge also feels somewhat looks familiar, but cannot remember the name of opposite party suddenly. 这人陈歌也感觉有些面熟,但一时间想不起对方的名字。 „He called Zhang Jingjiu, once lived with you in a hospital ward, but we discovered afterward he with you stayed together , the condition aggravated unceasingly, therefore moved to him other hospital wards.” “他叫张敬酒,曾经跟你住在一间病房,但后来我们发现他跟你住在一起后,病情不断加重,所以又把他搬到了其他病房里。” „Zhang Jingjiu?” “张敬酒？” „Un, he is a son of Xinhai brewery boss, young, originally has the excellent future, what a pity the spirit has problems.” “恩,他是新海一家酒厂老板的儿子,年纪不大,本来有着大好前途,可惜精神出了问题。” „Is he sick?” After Chen Ge hears Zhang Jingjiu this name, the expression became different. “他有什么病？”陈歌听到张敬酒这个名字后,表情都变得不一样了。 „Undifferentiation schizophrenia. Dr. Gao is staring at Zhang Jingjiu, is gazing at his every action and every movement: „ This patient always felt oneself can see the ghost.” “未分化型精神分裂。高医生盯着张敬酒,注视着他的一举一动:“这个病人总觉得自己可以看见鬼。” „Ghost?” “鬼？” „In the world possibly to be how fishy, in fact we conducted the test to his sense, discovered that his five feelings and average men are completely different.” Dr. Gao spoke thoughtlessly saying: „His attention is unable to concentrate, always felt that periphery some people are speaking, even, only then in his alone room is still the same. Moreover his brain had the problem in processing sound aspect, I cite a simple example to you, after the normal person hears a few words, the brain will ponder that meaning of these words expression, but he heard characters, all sentences are torn to pieces in his mind.” “世界上怎么可能有鬼,事实上我们对他的感官进行了测试,发现他五感和常人完全不同。”高医生随口说道:“他的注意力无法集中,总是感觉周围有人在说话,就算是在只有他一个人的房间里也一样。而且他的大脑在处理声音这方面出现了问题,我给你举个简单的例子,正常人听到一句话后,大脑会去思考这句话表达的含义,而他则是听到了一个个字,所有的句子在他脑海中都是支离破碎的。” Dr. Gao and Chen Ge conversation time, that patient named Zhang Jingjiu turned head to see here, his eye opened fiercely, flushed quickly. 高医生和陈歌交谈的时候,那个叫做张敬酒的病人扭头看到了这里,他眼睛猛地睁大,快步冲了过来。 When Dr. Gao and Chen Ge have not responded, Zhang Jingjiu grabbed Chen Ge’s, wants to entrain from the seat him, but he neglected the Chen Ge injured leg, the final outcome was Chen Ge is entrained the ground by him. 在高医生和陈歌都没有反应过来的时候,张敬酒抓住了陈歌的手,想要将他从座椅上拽起来,但他忽视了陈歌受伤的腿,最终结果就是陈歌被他拽到了地上。 No indication, Chen Ge has not responded. 没有任何征兆,陈歌也没反应过来。 „Nurse! Comes the person!” “护工！来人！” Dr. Gao and a doing an inspection nurse drag Zhang Jingjiu one side, he dragged away, but also shouted loudly to Chen Ge unceasingly- ghost, ghost and ghost! 高医生和一位巡查的护工将张敬酒拖到一边,他被拖走的时候,还不断冲着陈歌高喊-鬼、鬼、鬼！ „Are you all right?” Dr. Gao helps up Chen Ge. “你没事吧？”高医生将陈歌扶起。 „All right, all right.” Chen Ge sat on the bench, he felt somewhat strangely, can listen to him to be afraid the ghost from the Zhang Jingjiu final tone very much, since he were afraid the ghost very much, why he also did want to be driving to entrain itself? “没事,没事。”陈歌重新坐到了长椅上,他觉得有些奇怪,从张敬酒最后的语气中能听出他很害怕鬼,既然他很害怕鬼,那他为什么还要主动上来拽自己？ After entraining, but also shouts the ghost, ghost and ghost to oneself...... 拽完自己后,还冲着自己大喊鬼、鬼、鬼…… Chen Ge lowered the head to knit on the clothes the ash, staggered the vision with Dr. Gao. 陈歌低头打了打衣服上灰,和高医生错开了目光。 „He should remind me, my side has ghost, he thought that Dr. Gao is a ghost.” “他应该是在提醒我,我的身边有鬼,他觉得高医生是鬼。”