Lin Huayin is at variance with the average man attitude to make Xiao Zheng be somewhat caught off guard, the normal logic also starts continually becomes short. He did not understand how Lin Huayin can accept evil oneself, is from the beginning shocking and flurried except for , Lin Huayin had not paid attention to own unexpectedly completely in the past. This to Xiao Zheng, was really inconceivable. Also has to reassess Lin Huayin. 林画音异于常人的态度让萧正有些措手不及,连正常的逻辑也开始变得欠缺。他不理解林画音何以能接受一身罪恶的自己,除了一开始的震惊与慌乱,林画音竟完全没把自己的过去放在眼里。这对萧正来说,实在是太不可思议了。也不得不重新对林画音进行评估。 Is she, actually the what kind of female? 她,究竟是个怎样的女子？ „also beer?” Lin Huayin puts down the empty wine glass, lifts the pupil to ask. “还有啤酒吗？”林画音放下空荡荡的酒杯,抬眸问道。 „Has.” Xiao Zheng sets out to take the beer, when comes back, actually discovered that Lin Huayin is using a very lovable way to adjust the breath. Seeming like, her psychology without surface is so tranquil. “有。”萧正起身去拿啤酒,回来时,却发现林画音在用一种很可爱的方式调整呼吸。看起来,她的心理并没表面那么平静。 „Liquor came.” Xiao Zheng greets ahead of time. “酒来了。”萧正提前打了招呼。 Lin Huayin restores to the original condition, face faint nods, received the beer. 林画音恢复原貌,一脸淡漠的点点头,接过啤酒。 After Xiao Zheng takes a seat, eyes jumps to wipe the meaningful happy expression, purses the lips asks: „Do you fear?” 萧正落座后,目中跳跃出一抹意味深长的笑意,抿唇问道:“你怕吗？” „What fears?” Lin Huayin sipped beer, quite somewhat anaesthetizes own meaning with the alcohol. “怕什么？”林画音抿了一口啤酒,颇有几分用酒精麻醉自己的意味。 „Fears me.” Xiao Zheng said with a smile. “怕我。”萧正笑道。 Like oneself this kind of murderous crazy demon, except for Tina that demoness, Bai Yujiao, is even impossible not to dread completely? 像自己这种杀人狂魔,除了蒂娜那种女魔头,就算是白玉娇,也不可能完全不忌惮吧？ Lin Huayin hears this, the direct reaction, has not instead continued to drink several beer, then puts down the wine glass slowly, the vision stares to stare at Xiao Zheng, asked back: „If I harmed you, you will kill me?” 林画音闻言,并未直接回答,反而继续喝了几口啤酒,然后慢慢放下酒杯,目光直勾勾的盯着萧正,反问:“如果我伤害了你,你会杀我吗？” Xiao Zheng slightly is startled, line of sight involuntarily has slid from the Lin Huayin lower abdomen: „Even if you must kill me, I will not revolt.” 萧正微微一怔,视线不由自主的从林画音小腹滑过:“就算你要杀我,我也不会反抗。” „Why do I want to fear you?” Lin Huayin light say/way. „You have killed people, but you for brother, are Lin Xiaozhu, rather than for you yourself. You thought where you are worth me being afraid?” “那我为什么要怕你？”林画音淡淡道。“你是杀过人,但你是为兄弟,为林小筑,而不是为了你自己。你觉得你哪里值得我害怕？” In the Xiao Zheng eye flashes through subtle to palpitate, the lip angle speaks haltingly. 萧正眼中闪过微妙的悸动,唇角嗫嚅。 After this is Xiao Zheng returns to homeland, first time thought that oneself integrated into the average person world. Even if very limited, impossible infinite extension. But to him, already is an enormous inspiration. 这是萧正回国后第一次觉得自己融入了普通人的世界。哪怕很有限,不可能无限扩张。但对他而言,已经是一种极大的鼓舞。 „I, although does not fear you, but I hope after you, do not handle the this kind of matter again.” Lin Huayin makes oneself diligently tranquil, said one word at a time. „This is not I and Xiaozhu yearns for the life, will not be we will like the life.” “我虽然不怕你,但我希望你以后不要再做这种事情。”林画音努力让自己变得平静,一字一顿道。“这不是我和小筑向往的生活,也不是我们会喜欢的生活。” Xiao Zheng nods: „Understood.” 萧正点头:“明白。” „Does really understand?” Lin Huayin meticulous is staring at Xiao Zheng. „You kill , is the person, is not the chicken duck, is not the cat dog, is living , the person.” “真的明白？”林画音一丝不苟的盯着萧正。“你杀的,是人,不是鸡鸭,不是猫狗,是活生生的,人。” Even if were killed the person to be guilty of the most heinous crime by you, the law cannot accommodate, should not make a move by you! 就算被你杀的人罪大恶极,法不能容,也不应该由你出手！ „really understands.” Xiao Zheng nods with a smile. „I yearn for the peaceful life compared with anyone.” “真的明白。”萧正笑着点头。“我比谁都更向往安宁的生活。” This is the frank talk, is the Xiao Zheng heart words. Otherwise, he will not drop out the overseas brother sisters, all alone re-enters Pearl, crosses the this kind of three meals a day to discontinue, does not have dignity also does not have personality life. For , but seeks a tranquility, enjoys auspicious. 这是大实话,也是萧正的心底话。否则,他不会抛下海外的兄弟姐妹,孤身一人重回明珠,过这种三餐不继,没有尊严也没有人格的生活。为的,只是寻一份宁静,享一份祥和。 „Um.” Lin Huayin nods gently, sets out to say. „I ate to the full.” “嗯。”林画音轻轻点头,起身道。“我吃饱了。” finished speaking, does not wait for Xiao Zheng to respond, went to two buildings directly. 说罢,也不等萧正回应,径直上了二楼。 Kāchā. 咔嚓。 When Lin Huayin returns to the room, closes door that to flicker, her body as if pulled out spatial, soft relies on the gate. 当林画音回到房间,关上房门的那一瞬,她的身体仿佛被掏空,软软的倚在了门上。 yes. 是的。 She was scared! 她被吓坏了！ Just ate the hot pot to chat the man with her, was both hands stains the blood man! 刚刚和她吃火锅聊天的男人,是一个双手沾满鲜血的男人！ His brutal has taken others life, even if thousand reasons, in the Lin Huayin perfect three views, was not understood ! 他无情的剥夺过别人的生命,哪怕有千般理由,在林画音健全的三观中,也是不被理解的！ But she understood! 但她理解了！ She feared his in the past, but she accepted his now! 她怕他的过去,但她接受了他的现在！ She will try hard to forget that Xiao Zheng fearful in the past, accepts present he, greets in the future he. 她会努力忘记萧正可怕的过去,去接受现在的他,迎接未来的他。 Why does she want such to do? Why including the most basic fear and anxiety, isn't willing to reveal in front of Xiao Zheng? 她为什么要这么做？为什么连最基本的害怕与不安,也不愿在萧正面前表露出来？ She engages in introspection, is a such man, oneself can coexistence ? 她扪心自问,这样一个男人,是自己所能共处的吗？ Takes beer that minute in Xiao Zheng, she thought through, and approved him. 在萧正去拿啤酒的那一分钟,她想通了,并认同了他。 yes. She was selfish, for oneself, dropped out many years of morals and concept. Because Xiao Zheng appears, filled father in her heart vacancy, gave her a not too healthy psychology dependence. Not long, she believes that father can do anything for her, including killing and torching. But father actually for a woman, destroyed the home personally. Also destroyed her to father all worships. 是的。她自私了,为了自己,抛下了多年的道德与观念。因为萧正的出现,填补了父亲在她心中的空缺,给了她一种不太健康的心理依赖。曾几何时,她相信父亲能为她做任何事,包括杀人放火。但父亲却为了一个女人,亲手摧毁了这个家。也摧毁了她对父亲的所有崇拜。 She becomes strives to improve, becomes independent, but her heart of hearts, actually defect a dependence. When a childhood incomparably enjoys the dependence. 她变得自强,变得独立,但她的内心深处,却缺失了一种依赖。一种童年时无比享受的依赖。 Now, Xiao Zheng gave this dependence. Even if dangerous , even looks like in sane Lin Huayin, walks on the steel wire purely, but she does not want to drop, does not plan to bleed off Xiao Zheng. 现在,萧正给了她这份依赖。哪怕是危险的,甚至在理智的林画音看来,纯粹是踩钢丝,但她不想放手,也不打算放走萧正。 In does this world, how many people there are able for oneself to kill and torch, become of numerous arrow, all living things criminal? Xiao Zheng, his also such did. 这世上,有几个人能为自己杀人放火,成为众矢之的,众生的罪人？萧正可以,他也这么做了。 If a man can kill people for you, even if he encounters entire world to condemn, you are also willing to accept him inevitably, understands him. Even if this process is afraid , dangerous is also fearless. 如果一个男人可以为了你而杀人,哪怕他遭到全世界的谴责,你也必然愿意接受他,理解他。哪怕这个过程是害怕的,危险的也无所畏惧。 This is the Lin Huayin present state of mind, is she tries hard not to make own respond the wound to the Xiao Zheng reason. She minds the Xiao Zheng murder, even repels. But she is not repugnant Xiao Zheng is oneself makes all. 这就是林画音现在的心境,也是她努力不让自己的反应伤到萧正的原因。她介意萧正杀人,甚至排斥。但她一点也不讨厌萧正为自己所做的一切。 Selfish? 自私？ Always the does not have person feels Lin Huayin should magnanimously to the intention world. Who isn't selfish? Which woman can achieve to make a clear demarcation between public and private interests? 从来没有人觉得林画音应该大度到心怀天下。谁不自私？哪个女人能做到公私分明？ She enjoys this dependence, even the fear, she is still willing to undertake. 她就是享受这份依赖,即使害怕,她也愿意承担。 She does not want to bleed off Xiao Zheng, even if anxious, she also fearless challenges. 她就是不想放走萧正,哪怕不安,她也无惧挑战。 Who stipulated that my Lin Huayin nearby man, wants to be talented, the family background makes, modest and self-demanding gentleman? 谁规定我林画音身边的男人,就一定要才华横溢,家世有约,谦谦君子？ I must look for one to mix excessively black- say/way, both hands stain the blood evil man! He can offend Han Family for me, who can? Does he dare for my Younger Sister murder, who to dare? 我就要找一个混过黑-道,双手沾满鲜血的罪恶男人！他能为我得罪韩家,谁能？他敢为我妹妹杀人,谁敢？ He achieves , are much more than you! Lin Chaotian! 他做到的,比你多得多！林朝天！ The childhood family courtyard accident accomplished Lin Huayin to be seemingly perfect, in reality extreme and eccentric character. In those days, she has to be gradually influenced the three views like all normal women by the society. But certain times, in her bone the rebel will turn into others to jump over her does not dare to do, she more must be the woman. Perhaps the indeed such character, accomplishes present Lin Huayin, Xin'ao most person respected worships the iceberg goddess. 儿时的家庭变故造就了林画音看似健全,实则偏激而孤僻的性格。往日里,她像所有正常女人一样有着被社会熏陶出来的三观。但某些时刻,她骨子里的叛逆会把她变成一个别人越不敢做,她越要做的女人。也许正是这样的性格,才造就了如今的林画音,新奥最为人敬仰崇拜的冰山女神。 Train of thought chaotic Lin Huayin by no means knows, ordinary is together, without makes her have any impression to Xiao Zheng, even if were in the belly has on the possibility bosom extremely the Xiao Zheng child, is unable to reverse her firm and resolute temper. Instead was understanding Xiao Zheng in the past, knew she kills people after Lin Xiaozhu. Her that tide general mood welled up, produced to Xiao Zheng is not only afraid, is not willing to let off the reverse psychology. 思绪混乱的林画音并不知道,普通的相处,并没让她对萧正产生任何的印象,哪怕是肚子里极有可能怀上了萧正的孩子,也无法扭转她坚毅的性子。反而是在了解了萧正的过去,得知了她为林小筑而杀人之后。她那潮水般的情绪涌了出来,对萧正产生了既害怕,又不肯放过的逆反心理。 But where she knows, likes hating to read. Regardless of loves also or hates, must first make , places heart the opposite party. 可她哪里知道,爱恨不过一念间。不论爱亦或者恨,首先要做的,就是把对方放在心里。 Tonight, Lin Huayin opened the heart finally, that obviously and she does not have any possible man, to admit heart quietly. 今晚,林画音终于打开了心扉,把那个明明和她没有任何可能的男人,悄悄的放进了心里。