( Yesterday's leave slip forgot to issue, really...... Crime, I, although breaks frequently, but breaks the number of times of not asking for leave not to have basically, because I will worry that the reader and others, use wastefully the time, result has not thought that has violated such big mistake, was really sorry, today also the chapter, can write is very slow, takes your time to write, writes earnestly . Moreover, this Zhang Xie is very sour, very that anything, but I like this argument really very much.) （昨天请假条忘记发布了,真是……罪过,我虽然经常断更,但断更不请假的次数基本没有,因为我会担心读者等更,白耗时间,结果没有想到,犯了这么大个错,实在是抱歉,今天还有一章,会写的很慢,慢慢来写,认真来写,另外,这章写的挺酸,挺那啥,但我真的很喜欢这个调调。） ...... …… ...... …… Under tree some chicken bones of leftovers. 树下有些吃剩的鸡骨头。 Ning Que looks at these chicken bones, silent long time. 宁缺看着那些鸡骨头,沉默了很长时间。 The Big Black horse somewhat restlessly hit the sound nose, looked back to look to that log cabin, the mood was somewhat restless. 大黑马有些不安地打个了响鼻,回首望向那个木屋,情绪有些不安。 Ning Que turns around suddenly, before pulling it is arriving at the log cabin, pushes the door to enter. 宁缺忽然转身,牵着它重新走到木屋前,推门而入。 In the room still a darkness, do not have light, empty, nobody. 屋内依然一片黑暗,没有一丝灯光,空荡荡的,没有人。 Ning Que loosens the reins, arrives at the window, looks to the snow expanse. 宁缺松开缰绳,走到窗边,望向雪海。 On the table that oil lamp is shining, Sang Sang calmly visits him. 桌上那盏油灯亮着,桑桑静静地看着他。 He cannot see her, but he knows her here, therefore he starts to speak. 他还是看不到她,但他知道她就在这里,所以他开始说话。 „Long Qing died.” “隆庆死了。” He has stopped the little while , to continue saying: „In North Yan, I have killed him...... I have not thought that this matter such simple conclusion, in I arranged, I prepare to discard him, then shuts in the Devil Sect entrance him, making him always not probably extricate, like small Martial Uncle initially to Lian Sheng such.” 他停顿了会儿,继续说道:“在燕北,我杀了他……我也没想到,这件事情会这么简单的结束,在我原先的安排里,我准备把他废掉,然后把他关进魔宗山门,让他永世不得解脱,就像小师叔当初对莲生那样。” „But afterward thinks that this is actually very unreasonable, he has not offended me, was somewhat awful to your manner except for the past years, moreover once tried to threaten me with you, moreover these have not become the reality...... Lian Sheng has killed smiling. He has not injured you, my response some are intense.” “但后来一想,这其实很没有道理,他并没有太得罪我,除了当年对你的态度有些糟糕,而且曾经试图用你威胁我,而且那些都没有变成现实……莲生杀死了笑笑。他没有伤害过你,我的反应有些过于激烈。” Ning Que turns around, looks to the dark room, said: „From, in that does not have by the mulberry tree of bark to sort you, my this whole life most intense mood, because of you, most starts kills the grandfather, then arrives at Long Qing, thinks most starts Wei City time, I have fought several for you.” 宁缺转身,望向黑暗的房间,说道:“从在那棵没有树皮的桑树旁拣到你,我这辈子最激烈的情绪,都是因为你而起,最开始的时候杀爷爷,然后到隆庆,想起来最开始进渭城的时候,我为你打过好几场架。” Sang Sang is near with the side that he separates. If no that barrier. Can hear each other breathing, is listening to his words, her facial expression is still indifferent, the eyelash actually slowly falls. Resembles somewhat exhaustedly. 桑桑与他隔的极近。如果没有那道屏障。或者可以听见彼此的呼吸声,听着他的话,她的神情依然冷漠,睫毛却缓缓落下。似有些疲惫。 „I went to Lan Ke Temple. Has carved many statues...... Your looks like.” “我去了烂柯寺。雕了很多石像……你的像。” Ning Que takes out the statue from the bosom. Puts to the table before window on, said: „Does not know that you still do remember, you who that year fell ill these words that spoke in zen temple. But I still remember.” 宁缺从怀里取出石像。搁到窗前的桌上,说道:“不知道你还记不记得,那年生病的你在禅院里说的那些话。但我还记得。” Sang Sang looks to the table, who looks at the lying on one's side static dormancy, in the eye reveal the curious facial expression. 桑桑望向桌上,看着侧卧静眠的自己,眼中流露出好奇的神情。 „Wei City that naturally, I go to first, I always think that there has the quite vital significance to your me, you will possibly stay there, what a pity had not found you, um, I have killed many people there.” “当然,我最先去的渭城,我总以为那里对你我有比较重要的意义,你可能会呆在那里,可惜没有找到你,嗯,我在那里杀了很多人。” Ning Que stopped recounting suddenly, silent after long time, said: „I do not want to say...... Weeps bitterly, holds a oneself blade, compelling you to come out, that does not have the meaning, I came in any case......” 宁缺忽然停止了述说,沉默了很长时间后,说道:“我不想说了……痛哭一场,捅自己一刀,逼着你出来,那没意思,反正我来了……” He looks before the body , the dark night of being empty, said: „You come out.” 他看着身前空无一物的黑夜,说道:“你出来。” Not sensational, does not need to recall, but requests tranquilly, like past many years in such, you served tea to me, you poured water to me, you put the foot to my arms, making me touch well two. 没有煽情,不需要追忆,只是平静地要求,就像过去很多年里那样,你给我端茶,你给我倒水,你把脚搁到我怀里,让我好好地摸两把。 In the peaceful log cabin, resounds a light inaudible sound, as if the thinnest paper was cut open by the sharpest blade, likely is the crispest colored glaze from high as empty as the ground, has broken to pieces, then opened. 安静的木屋里,响起一声轻不可闻的声音,仿佛最薄的纸被最锋利的刀割开,又像是最脆的琉璃从高空落到地面,碎了,然后开了。 The dim ray, fills the entire space gradually, from one until ten thousand wisps, illuminates the entire log cabin finally, illuminates statue that on the table lies on one's side, illuminates the face of Ning Que, screens her form. 昏暗的光线,渐渐弥漫整个空间,从一丝直至万缕,最终照亮整间木屋,照亮桌上侧卧的石像,照亮宁缺的脸,也映出她的身影。 She who Ning Que looks at the long separation, looks at her extremely fat waist, visits on her the crude animal skin clothes, feels sad inexplicably, goes forward to push forward the bosom her, closely is hugging. 宁缺看着久别的她,看着她臃肿的腰身,看着她身上简陋的兽皮衣裳,莫名心酸起来,上前把她拥进怀里,紧紧地抱着。 Sang Sang unemotionally, whatever he is hugging, raises head, appears arrogant, naturally it can be said that is also simple-hearted. 桑桑面无表情任由他抱着,仰着头,显得极高傲,当然也可以说是木讷。 „Drops.” She said. “放手。”她说道。 The azure lion rushes from the corner, the foreleg bends down lowly, strikes an attitude to throw, sends out the low heavy breathing of threat. 青狮从角落里奔出来,前肢低伏,作势欲扑,发出威胁的低哮。 The Big Black horse occupies a commanding position to stare at it, the look is cruel, the meaning is clear. 大黑马居高临下盯着它,眼神暴戾,意思清楚。 The azure lion rapid restraining sound, becomes is honestly clever. 青狮迅速收敛声音,变得老实乖巧起来。 Ning Que holds Sang Sang, the head is burying in her necks, the sound some buzz, is somewhat ambiguous , is extremely clear ambiguously is the tonality, clear is the meaning, does not allow to question. 宁缺抱着桑桑,头埋在她的颈间,声音有些嗡,有些含混,却又极清楚含混是音调,清楚是意思,不容质疑。 „Does not put.” “不放。” Sang Sang said indifferently: „Lets loose.” 桑桑冷漠说道:“放开。” Ning Que said: „Does not put.” 宁缺说道:“不放。” „Lets loose.” “放开。” „Does not put.” “不放。” „Lets loose.” “放开。” „Does not put...... Said does not put, does not put.” “不放……说不放,就不放。” The Big Black horse and azure lion regard one mutually, arrives in the corner very much sensibly, disguises anything not to see and not hear. 大黑马和青狮互视一眼,很懂事地走到角落里,假装什么都没看到、没听到。 Ning Que like this is holding Sang Sang, as if must hold the dry seas and crumbling rocks, for ever and ever. 宁缺就这样抱着桑桑,仿佛要抱到海枯石烂,天长地久。 Has not known how long, the sea definitely had not turned into Kuwata in brief, the head that Sang Sang is slightly supine, fell finally, therefore the cheeks of two people have then touched one, Wen Wen. 不知道过了多长时间,总之沧海肯定还没有变成桑田,桑桑微微仰起的头,终于落了下来,于是两个人的脸颊便触到了一起,温温的。 Also long time, shaft definitely has not fallen apart the dust in brief, Ning Que believes firmly that she will not run away again, finally loosened both hands, seizes her right hand, pulls her to arrive at the bedside to sit down. 又过了很长时间,总之斧柄肯定还没有朽坏成尘,宁缺确信她不会再跑掉,终于松开了双手,又捉住她的右手,牵着她走到床边坐下。 Pulls to begin to sit in the bedside abreast in row, not for division fruits, if Sang Sang puts on the cape or shawl worn by upper-class ladies in ancient times, looks that some are likely newly-married that night, their past books room in this Lidong. 牵着手并排坐在床边,不是为了等分果果,如果桑桑披上霞帔,看着有些像新婚当夜,他们当年本就是在这里洞的房。 „Goes home with me.” Ning Que said to her. “跟我回家。”宁缺对她说道。 Sang Sang has not replied him, has not pulled out from his hand the hand, looks at the wind and snow of out of the window to be lost in thought. 桑桑没有回答他,也没有把手从他的手里抽出来,望着窗外的风雪出神。 Ning Que knows that she has not been lost in thought or been distracted, because she is a god, she also here. 宁缺知道她没有出神或者走神,因为她是神,她还在这里。 „Goes home with me.” He duplicates to say. “跟我回家。”他重复说道。 Sang Sang looks to him, unemotionally to ask: „Which home goes? Your earliest that family/home?” 桑桑望向他,面无表情问道:“回哪个家？你最早那个家？” These time is one's turn Ning Que to be silent. 这一次轮到宁缺沉默。 Sang Sang said: „Master wants to break my world, bases on his not responsibly, to free hope, you so rigid want to break my world, wants to get that home? Actually I have wanted to know when you believe firmly breaks my world, then can return to your hometown?” 桑桑说道:“夫子想要破开我的世界,是基于他那不负责的、对自由的渴望,你如此执着地想要破开我的世界,就是想回到那个家？其实我一直想知道,你什么时候确信破开我的世界,便能回到你的家乡？” Ning Que shook her hand to tighten, thinks, said: „Actually long before I had guessed correctly this point, because here also has all over the sky stars. The teacher turned into moon finally.” 宁缺握着她的手紧了紧,想了想后说道:“其实很早以前我就猜到了这一点,因为这里也有满天繁星。老师最后变成了月亮。” Sang Sang selects the eyebrow slightly, asked: „What can this explain? He turns into moon , because you had said moon in the sea to him that year, he thought that moon is very beautiful, that is all.” 桑桑微微挑眉,问道:“这能说明什么？他变成月亮,是因为那年你在海上对他说过月亮,他觉得月亮很美,仅此而已。” „Has the wind and snow.” “有风雪。” Ning Que points at out of the window saying: Thing that „all over the sky the stars, these very much have not needed...... If your world is the seal, but self-made, does not need the four seasons, may early these have.” 宁缺指着窗外说道:“还有满天繁星,这些都是很没必要的东西……如果你的世界是封闭而自成系统的话,更加不需要四季,可早这些都有。” „That world that your world and I come looks like very much.” “你的世界和我来的那个世界很像。” He receives to look to the line of sight of out of the window, visits her saying: „Has a view to explain...... In that world that this world in I knew very well, and can be interlinked. At least can observe. Because only then observes to imitate, can be so similar.” 他收回望向窗外的视线,看着她说道:“只有一种说法可以解释……这个世界还是在我原来熟知的那个世界里,并且可以相通。至少可以观察。因为只有观察才能模仿,才能如此相似。” The Sang Sang facial expression said fainily: „Can observe, therefore I know that what your world is.” 桑桑神情淡漠说道:“可以观察,所以我知道你那个世界是什么样的。” Ning Que said: „That is the broad and free world.” 宁缺说道:“那是广阔而自由的世界。” Sang Sang said: „That was ice-cold the world of death.” 桑桑说道:“那是冰冷而死亡的世界。” Warm Sun is sprinkling the life, the boundless space waits to be explored. Therefore there is the broad and free world. But there most space is flooding the absolute coldness and deathly stillness. Therefore was also ice-cold the world of death, the view of Ning Que and Sang Sang not wrong, because each other standpoint was different. 热情的太阳播洒着生命,无垠的宇宙空间等着被探索。所以那里是广阔而自由的世界。但那里绝大部分空间充斥着绝对的寒冷和死寂。所以也是冰冷而死亡的世界,宁缺和桑桑的说法都没有错,因为彼此的立场不同。 Ning Que silent long time. Then said: „The destiny of humanity must be decided by humanity eventually that you do not need to continue to shoulder this responsibility, such is too tired.” 宁缺沉默了很长时间。然后说道:“人类的命运终究要由人类自己决定,你没有必要继续承担这个责任,那样太累。” Sang Sang said: „I had said to you, I love the common people, only loved my common people, the ancestor of common people have chosen me, I then must continue to shoulder this responsibility.” 桑桑说道:“我曾经对你说过,我爱世人,只爱爱我的世人,世人的先祖选择了我,我便要继续承担这个责任。” „This discussion does not have the significance.” “这个讨论没有意义。” Ning Que stops the dialog in this aspect very much strongly, grabs her shoulders, said: „You is a my wife, you harbor our children now, you should go home with me together.” 宁缺很强硬地中止这方面的对话,抓着她的双肩,说道:“你是我的妻子,你现在怀着我们的孩子,你就应该跟我一起回家。” Sang Sang calmly visits him, looked at long time, said: „You think that I do die?” 桑桑静静看着他,看了很长时间,说道:“你就这么想我死？” Ning Que said: „On that day you ride the steamship to sail to God Country of other shore, I once tried to make anything, but anything has not done eventually, you should be very clear my manner.” 宁缺说道:“那天你坐着大船驶向彼岸的神国,我曾经试着想要做些什么,但终究什么都没做,你就应该很清楚我的态度。” Sang Sang said: „But I have warned you similarly, I am the regular aggregate of this world, if you must destroy this world, I then do not have the means to continue to exist again.” 桑桑说道:“但我同样警告过你,我是这个世界的规则集合体,如果你要毁灭这个世界,我便没有办法再继续存在下去。” Ning Que said: „Before I was also worried, but now not...... In also Vast Sky because of God Country, but you turned into a person now, you will not have the matter.” 宁缺说道:“以前我也很担心,但现在不……因为神国里还有一个昊天,而你现在已经变成了一个人,你不会有事的。” Sang Sang looks that he unemotionally saying: „How did you show?” 桑桑看着他面无表情说道:“你怎么证明？” Ning Que looks at the abdomen that she sticks out, said: „Isn't this also certificate?” 宁缺看着她隆起的腹部,说道:“这难道还不是证明？” Sang Sang stands up, arrives at the window, looks that the distant place does not know where, said: „Protestantism in world dissemination in the course of time, Dao Sect deteriorates gradually, I become more and more weak, what does this also explain?” 桑桑站起身来,走到窗边,看着远方不知何处,说道:“新教在世间传播日久,道门逐渐衰败,我变得越来越虚弱,这又说明什么？” This indicated her still Vast Sky. 这说明她依然还是昊天。 „Also may be because...... Relations of pregnancy?” “也有可能是因为……怀孕的关系？” Ning Que arrives at her behind, said: „Woman of pregnancy originally easy weak, you should still remember that year in Wei City, the fat aunt was pregnant, continually curses at people does not have the strength.” 宁缺走到她身后,说道:“怀孕的女人本来就容易虚弱,你应该还记得,那年在渭城,胖婶怀孕的时候,连骂人都没力气。” „But you do not have the means certificate.” “可你没有办法证明。” Sang Sang has turned around, said: „Then I may die.” 桑桑转过身来,说道:“那么我还是可能会死。” Said these words time, on her face does not have any mood, appeared tranquil even indifferent to the extreme, however Ning Que actually saw the enormous fear and lamenting in her eyes pupil deep place. 说这句话的时候,她的脸上没有任何情绪,显得平静甚至冷漠到了极点,然而宁缺却在她眼眸深处看到了极大的恐惧与哀恸。 Because that fear with lamenting, his heart was painful. 因为那份恐惧与哀恸,他的心都痛了起来。 „I really...... Fears death very much.” Sang Sang unemotionally saying: „From me in that moment that God Country wakes up, I started to be afraid can die, I do not want dead.” “我真的……很怕死。”桑桑面无表情说道:“从我在神国醒来的那一刻,我就开始害怕会死去,我不想死。” She was saying calmly, tears wet face. 她平静地说着,泪水湿了脸庞。 Sang Sang little bursts into tears. 桑桑很少流泪。 Vast Sky never bursts into tears. 昊天从不流泪。 Ning Que forgot itself to have many years not to see her to burst into tears, or many years, either several thousand years. 宁缺忘了自己已经有多少年没有见过她流泪,或者好些年,或者好几千年。 He hugs bosom her once more, said in a low voice: „Do not fear, all right, I will not make you die.” 他再次把她抱进怀里,低声说道:“别怕,没事,我不会让你死的。” Sang Sang like formerly, whatever he is hugging, both hands defeated/carrying behind. 桑桑还是像先前一样任由他抱着,双手负在身后。 But this time, she head by his shoulder. 但这一次,她把头靠在了他的肩上。 „To kill me...... They want to kill me, you also want to kill me, I can be killed now, therefore I feared very much that I feared very much links you also to kill me.” “都想要杀我……他们想要杀我,你们也想要杀我,我现在可以被杀死,所以我很怕,我很怕连你也要杀死我。” Her facial expression is tranquil, actually keeps bursting into tears, strange sadness. 她神情平静,却不停地流着泪,奇异的悲伤。 „Cannot.” “不会。” Ning Que closely is hugging her, said: „If afraid, that does not do, we go other home, does not return to Wei City, returns to Chang An, the courtyard in old pen room also.” 宁缺紧紧地抱着她,说道:“如果真的害怕,那就不做了,我们回别的家,不回渭城,就回长安,老笔斋的院子还在。” Sang Sang said: „Your family/home?” 桑桑说道:“那你那个家呢？” Ning Que said: „Already forgot.” 宁缺说道:“早就忘了。” A feeling at ease place is my township. 一心安处是吾乡。 Where can make your mood peaceful, is your family/home. 哪里能让你心情安宁,便是你的家。 Sang Sang is his family/home. 桑桑就是他的家。 It looks like she must go to the other shore, actually cannot turn over to God Country. 就像是她要去彼岸,却归不得神国。 Because of her other shore, in the place that he stands. 因为她的彼岸,就在他站立的地方。 ...... …… ...... ……