Chapter 420 regrets closely associated 第420章遗憾如影随形 Should say that really worthily is Palmer, the love story also be odder than the normal person many. 该说真不愧是帕尔默啊,就连爱情故事也要比正常人离谱的多啊。 Palmer filled several bottles of liquor to oneself continuously, crawls diligently from this bad recollection, on the mouth keeps saying, „from the result, this is good, but where I always feel not right......” 帕尔默连续给自己灌了几瓶酒,努力从这糟糕的回忆里爬出来,嘴上唠叨个不停,“从结果来看,这算是好的,但我总感觉哪里不对劲……” Rogge comforts saying that „considers as finished, do not think these by your brain.” 伯洛戈安慰道,“算了,以你的脑子还是别想这些了。” „, I am not some vitality/angry, this is my life important matter, did they process casually?” “不不不,我还是有些生气的,这可是我的人生大事唉,他们就这么随随便便地处理了？” Palmer has thought oneself life where had the problem probably, was like the past adult ceremony, these evil crazy stories easily instilled into to give itself, was this engagement...... 帕尔默一直觉得自己的人生哪里好像出现了问题,就和当年的成人礼一样,那些邪恶疯狂的故事就这么轻易地灌输给自己,然后就是这场订婚…… Probably in oneself life, each incomparably important event, ended in a superficial way finally. 好像自己人生中,每个无比重要的事件,最终都以一种轻描淡写的方式结束。 „After that I and Worthy cold war some time, I think that I also like her, but without liked. My father does not communicate with me, I can understand, but she with me did not say unexpectedly these...... this made me be really angry very much.” “自那之后,我和沃西琳冷战了一段时间,我想我还喜欢她,但是没那么喜欢了。我老爹不和我沟通,我能理解,但她居然不和我说这些……这令我真的很生气。” Rogge asked, „what afterward had?” 伯洛戈问,“后来发生了什么？” Obviously, Palmer and Worthy, because certain matters became reconciled, Rogge guessed correctly faintly because of anything. 显而易见,帕尔默和沃西琳因为某些事和好了,伯洛戈隐隐猜到是因为什么了。 „Afterward? Afterward was changes my destiny that event, I and Csucsi encountered besieging of ape spoiled mission, under the critical moment, I become the debtor.” “后来？后来就是改变我命运的那个事件,我和丘奇遭到了猩腐教团的围攻,紧急关头下,我成为了债务人。” Palmer often spoke of then experience, what were more holds the boast goal, but this time was different, he chatted oneself then psychological activity rarely. 帕尔默经常提起当时的经历,但更多的是抱有吹嘘目的,可这次不同了,他少见地聊起了自己当时的心理活动。 „ You are the non- dead, may be unable to understand these. “你们是不死者,可能无法理解这些。 At that time I feared awfully, is the enemy, the cold glow of sword is everywhere shining, the bullet scatters unceasingly, I realized the death that suddenly usually cracks a joke was close. 我当时怕的要命,到处都是敌人,刀剑的冷芒明晃晃的,子弹四溅不断,我突然意识到平常开玩笑的死亡近在咫尺。 I was dying, dies in this damn the place, turns into a corpse obscure. ” 我要死了,死在这个见鬼的地方,默默无闻地变成一具尸体。” Palmer silent the moment, the cheeks blushed slightly, a drunken appearance, besides Serez, Palmer many is also a drunkard. 帕尔默沉默了片刻,脸颊微微发红,一副醉醺醺的样子,除了瑟雷外,帕尔默多少也算是个酒鬼。 „On...... the story in often said , the person soon dies, will review the lifetime story, but in my brain actually empty.” “就……故事里常说嘛,人快要死时,会回顾自己一生的故事,但我脑子里却空荡荡的。” Palmer's voice rarely earnest. 帕尔默的声音难得地认真了起来。 „ Must say that anything's words, was Worthy. “非要说有什么的话,就是沃西琳了。 I recall her appearance, her voice and her aura clearly, all her...... she as if stands before me livingly, such, smiles to me as always. 我清晰地回忆起她的样子、她的声音、她的气息,她的一切……她仿佛就活生生地站在我面前,一如往常那样,向我微笑。 I feel sorry very much, I should not with her cold war, if knows that is this, before I embark , can definitely chat with her well, chatting anything is unimportant, I want to determine her well. 我觉得很抱歉,我不应该和她冷战的,如果知道是这样的话,我出发前肯定会和她好好聊一聊,聊什么不重要,我只是想确定她在就好。 Then I start to feel rejoiced very much, thinks carefully, I was dying, unexpectedly there is no regrettably. 然后我又开始觉得很庆幸,仔细想想,我就要死了,居然没有什么遗憾可言。 I started to understand Worthy behavior, if she has not kissed me, this sentiment really must disappear with the death together, without that damn the engagement feast, Worthy will not become my fiancee...... 我开始理解沃西琳的行为了,如果她没有强吻我的话,这感情真的就要随着死亡一同泯灭了,如果没有那见鬼的订婚宴,沃西琳更不会成为我的未婚妻…… She like had the estimate to be the same early, made up for all my regrets. ” 她如同早有预计一样,弥补了我所有的遗憾。” Inconceivable and surprise of Palmer face. 帕尔默一脸的不可思议与诧异。 „I detected that I can a face die unexpectedly satisfiedly, nothing was better than this.” “我发觉我居然可以一脸满足地死掉了,没有什么比这个更棒了。” Rogge nods gently, earnestly is listening respectfully to Palmer this marvelous love story, Wei by one side, licked own hair once for a while, Serez also restrains the happy expression, listened attentively to Palmer story at the same time, Serez also recalled probably anything, in the ruby eye pupil, flashed through myriad trains of thought. 伯洛戈轻轻地点点头,认真聆听着帕尔默这奇妙的爱情故事,薇儿靠在一边,时不时舔舔自己的毛发,瑟雷也收敛起了笑意,倾听帕尔默故事的同时,瑟雷好像也回想起了什么,红宝石般的眼瞳中,闪过万千的思绪。 „I think that I can obey the god of death the decree, but I feel angry very much, is angry, I with becoming engaged this matter cannot pass.” “我想我可以顺从死神的旨意了,但我又觉得很生气,非常生气,我还是和订婚这个事过不去。” Palmer said that while shouted curses, „does seemed like me to be married was the same! What at that wedding I should put on, nuptial dress?” 帕尔默一边说一边叫骂了起来,“搞的像是我被娶了一样！那婚礼上我该穿什么,婚纱吗？” Rogge approves the person of same belief, „, if you want, I feel also well.” 伯洛戈赞同道,“如果你愿意的话,我觉得还不错。” Fantasizes, Palmer puts on a nuptial dress to enter the stage...... this to conform to Palmer's style. 幻想一下,帕尔默穿着一席婚纱出场……这蛮符合帕尔默的风格。 „ I do not know how at that time I thought...... thought should not be this, she kissed me, these round calculates that I lost, then proposed to change me to come to be right, I must win! “我也不知道我当时是怎么想的……就觉得不该是这样,她强吻了我,这一轮算我输了,那么求婚应该换我来才对,我要赢回来！ As the successor of Kelaikesi family/home, how can be married by other woman, I must go on living, I must see Worthy, proposed with her personally, rather than made her look for my father secretly! 作为克莱克斯家的继承人,怎么能被别的女人娶了呢,我得活下去,我要去见沃西琳,亲自和她求婚,而不是让她偷偷去找我老爹！ This matter should raise by me, right! ” 这种事情应该由我来提,对吧！” „Very reasonably very strange driving influence.” Rogge starts to applaud. “很合理又很怪的驱动力。”伯洛戈开始鼓掌。 Palmer threatens saying that „ following story you were clear, I seized the ceremony, seeks easily with the devil, becomes the debtor. 帕尔默气势汹汹道,“后面的故事伱们都清楚了,我抢占了仪式,和魔鬼谋易,成为债务人。 I lived, to propose with Worthy personally. ” 我活了下来,为了亲自和沃西琳求婚。” Rogge also asked that „then? Did you and Worthy propose?” 伯洛戈又问,“然后呢？你和沃西琳求婚了吗？” Palmer does not speak, the result was obvious. 帕尔默不说话了,结果显而易见。 „This......, how can I say?” Palmer was shy unexpectedly, „this did not have the time to go back.” “这个嘛……哎呀,怎么说呢？”帕尔默居然害羞了起来,“这不是一直没时间回去嘛。” Rogge felt own white Hear the story, the anger pounded on the table, „you and Csucsi have not missed many!” 伯洛戈觉得自己白听了故事,怒拍桌子,“你和丘奇也没差多少啊！” „It is not, I am only......” “也不是,我只是……” Palmer hesitates, has not continued again, but pulled on the topic Csucsi. 帕尔默犹犹豫豫,没有再继续说下去,而是将话题扯回了丘奇身上。 „I feel...... in any event, must have a result, rather than lets it go, Csucsi cannot live under the mask, he is not one lives among the ghosts in innumerable masks, but is a living person.” “我只是觉得……无论如何,要有个结果,而不是不了了之,丘奇不能一直活在面具下,他并不是一头活在无数面具之间的幽魂,而是一个活生生的人。” Palmer's words made Rogge recall the past, he remembers that oneself also knew such lived the fellow under mask. 帕尔默的话让伯洛戈回忆起了从前,他记得自己也认识这么一个活在面具下的家伙。 „I approve.” “我赞同。” Serez opens the mouth to say suddenly, „after regret appears, the mood of that regret, I thought that is the worst penalty.” 瑟雷突然开口道,“遗憾出现后,那种后悔的情绪,我觉得是最糟糕的惩罚。” The bright red vision falls on Palmer's body, the vision to the apparent same place, suddenly, Palmer felt like knew Serez. 鲜红的目光落在帕尔默的身上,目光对视在一起,突然间,帕尔默感觉就像重新认识了瑟雷般。 On Serez the aura of that mental illness is nothing left, the pale skin is wan, in the ruby eye pupil is pacing back and forth myriad worried , Serez as if changed that ancient mysterious night clan feudal lord again, on the deep and quiet gloomy castle throne, will wait for will not have the dawn of arrival forever. 瑟雷身上那股神经病的气息荡然无存,苍白的皮肤毫无血色,红宝石般的眼瞳里徘徊着万千的忧愁,恍惚间,瑟雷仿佛再度变回了那位古老神秘的夜族领主,在幽邃阴暗的城堡王座上,等待着永无到来的天明。 „Fortunately, the mortal had death of finally on the 1st, the regret will also dissipate under the god of death sickle together, but the non- dead was different, the regret follows us until the time end.” “幸运的是,凡人终有死亡的一日,遗憾也将在死神的镰刀下一同消逝,而不死者不同,遗憾会伴随着我们直到时间尽头。” Serez said, silent, the look hangs down in the wine glass, was pondering matter that no one knows. 瑟雷说完后沉默了起来,眼神低垂于酒杯中,思考着无人知晓的事。 Rogge has not disturbed Serez, this night clan feudal lords passed through the long years, even if present he plays the world, does not care at all to all, but Rogge believes, the innermost feelings of Serez are still blazing. 伯洛戈没有打扰瑟雷,这位夜族领主度过了漫长的岁月,即便现在的他游戏人间,对一切毫不在意,但伯洛戈相信,瑟雷的内心也是炽热过的。 In the eye appeared thick Serez that photo album that must die, inside recorded his each wife...... the so long life, unavoidably somewhat will be regrettable. 眼中不禁浮现起了瑟雷那厚的要死的相册,里面记录了他的每一任妻子……如此漫长的人生,难免会有些遗憾。 Then about oneself, closes Uncle Yu Rogge Lazarus own regret. 然后就是关于自己,关于伯洛戈・拉撒路自己的遗憾。 Rogge recalled happy all sorts, he with own remaining years of life with making up. 伯洛戈回忆起了美好的种种,他会用自己的余生与弥补。 „......” “啊……” Palmer begins supinely, pondering, „has the time to go to and Csucsi apologizes, after the non- corridor ends the apology, I will certainly entrain him to see Afia.” 帕尔默仰起头,思考着,“有时间去和丘奇道个歉吧,不过道完歉后,我一定会拽着他去见阿菲亚的。” Rogge said, „you may really care about Csucsi.” 伯洛戈说,“你可真关心丘奇啊。” „Good and evil is also my partner, with I have risked one's life good brothers!” “好歹也是我的搭档,和我一起出生入死过的好兄弟啊！” Palmer gives the thumbs-up, Rogge as if reminded Palmer of anything, he became a face to be deep, is keeping sighing to Rogge. 帕尔默竖起了大拇指,紧接着伯洛戈似乎让帕尔默想起了什么,他又变得一脸深沉,对着伯洛戈长吁短叹着。 A Rogge perplexed appearance, Palmer this, often is always sighing to recently, probably oneself are very disappointing. 伯洛戈一副不明所以的样子,最近帕尔默总是这样,动不动就对着自己叹气,好像自己很是令人失望。 „Promotion ceremony ended, my tomorrow's whereabouts arrange in order Biousse to ask for leave, then we can leave the source of trouble high ground.” “晋升仪式结束了,我明天去向列比乌斯请假,然后我们就可以动身去风源高地了。” On Palmer face overflows the smile, he just wants to ask Serez, when must go together, looks at Serez that quiet appearance, he returned to the words stopper the throat. 帕尔默脸上溢出微笑,他刚想问瑟雷,要不要一起去时,看着瑟雷那副沉寂的模样,他把话塞回了喉咙里。 The expression of Serez is somewhat bad, everyone can look, at this time do not play tricks on this non- dead. 瑟雷的表情有些糟,大家都能看出来,这种时候还是别戏弄这位不死者了。 „, Right, a matter, Rogge.” “哦,对了,还有一件事,伯洛戈。” Palmer remembered anything suddenly, made an effort to pat Rogge's shoulder, making him pay attention to listen. 帕尔默突然想起了什么,用力地拍了拍伯洛戈的肩膀,让他注意听。 „, although has not come today, but she makes me give you to have a news.” “艾缪虽然今天没来,但她让我给你带个消息。” Palmer almost forgot this matter. 帕尔默差点把这个事情忘了。 „She makes you to meet tomorrow, in sublimation furnace core.” “她约你明天见面,就在升华炉芯。” ...... …… Gazes after Rogge and Palmer's departure, Serez looks somewhat exhausted, this and alcohol with has nothing to do happily, but is a fatigue from the heart. 目送伯洛戈与帕尔默的离开,瑟雷看起来有些疲惫,这次和酒精与欢愉无关,而是一种发自内心的疲惫感。 „Young people are really good, not? Was full of the energy without limits anytime and anywhere.” “年轻人真好啊,不是吗？随时随地充满了无止境的活力。” Wei jumps to Serez at present, in the cat pupil is producing an inverted image the Serez distressed appearance. 薇儿跳到瑟雷眼前,猫瞳里倒映着瑟雷狼狈的模样。 „Very is truly happy, but is also very stupid.” Serez muttered. “确实很美好,但也很蠢。”瑟雷喃喃道。 „Your these words sound on the image-position bad old father.” “你这句话听起来就像位糟糕的老父亲。” „In fact each elder will say like this, not?” The Serez tone did intentionally deeply, „you were young, when you grew up, you will think that these issues no longer were the issues.” “实际上每个长辈都会这样说,不是吗？”瑟雷语气故作深沉了起来,“你还年轻,等你长大些,你就会觉得这些问题不再是问题。” „They commonly used such words, come to defend for the regret of one's youth, but we know, after growing up, we were not and once reconciled, but felt numbly.” “他们常用这样的话语,来为年轻时的遗憾做辩解,但我们都知道,长大之后,我们并不是与曾经的自己和解了,只是觉得麻木了而已。” Serez touched the chest, „the scar that leaves behind in that it has not healed, was is only not sore.” 瑟雷摸了摸胸口,“留下的伤痕还是在那,它没有愈合,只是不怎么疼了而已。” „Walked, I slept.” “走了,我去睡觉了。” Serez said, leaves vigorously and resolutely, did not give Wei to say anything's opportunity again. 瑟雷说完,雷厉风行地离开,不给薇儿再说些什么的机会。 Steps the steps, Serez walks quickly, like fleeing some type of thing, hid in own room flustered. 迈上阶梯,瑟雷一路快步走去,就像在逃离某种事物,慌张地躲回了自己的房间里。 But that hateful thing has not left, the door is unable to be cut off its advance, because it hides in the memory of Serez, along with the growth of years, it also by the seeds grow is the lofty tree, becomes even more fearsome, batters in the body, one day must break open the body of Serez finally. 但那个可憎的东西没有离开,房门也无法阻隔它的前进,因为它就藏在瑟雷的记忆里,伴随着岁月的增长,它也由种子生长为参天大树,变得越发可怖,在躯体内横冲直撞,终有一日要撑破瑟雷的身体。 Serez lies on the bed, hugs itself the quilt to coil one group, the ancient portrait, the brand-new picture and colored group photo...... they were hung on the wall, many faces are carefully examining Serez with many looks. 瑟雷躺在床上,抱着被子把自己卷成一团,古老的画像、崭新的相片、彩色的合照……它们被挂在墙上,诸多的面孔与诸多的眼神审视着瑟雷。 Loving, pities, angry, sympathy...... 充满爱意的、怜悯的、愤怒的、同情的…… Serez has turned head not to dare to look, the mouth muttered. 瑟雷扭过头不敢去看,嘴里喃喃道。 „Perhaps perhaps I also arrange...... me also to arrange......” “我还没准备好……我还没准备好……”