I, 我, Died...... 死了么…… Zheng Fan believes, oneself should die. 郑凡认为,自己应该已经死了。 However, the moist, warm, warm feeling, walks randomly on the body of oneself slowly. 然而,湿润,温热,久违的暖意,在自己的身上慢慢地游走。 From the beginning, this feeling merely is light, slight, is hard to catch very much, but gradually, the stimulation on sense, starting to be getting more and more clear. 一开始,这种感觉仅仅是淡淡的、轻微的,很难以捕捉,但渐渐的,感官上的刺激,开始越来越清晰。 This is, feeling of dying? 这是,死去的感觉么？ As if, 似乎, Also does not make people be hard to accept ; 也不是那么的让人难以接受; Even, 甚至, A little is comfortable. 还有一点舒服。 The input of nerve, a dry canal was introduced the running water probably, from moistening the crack land arrives again moist arrives at the storage finally, this is a methodical process. 神经的输入,像是一条干涸的水渠被重新引入了活水,从滋润龟裂的土地再到润湿最后再到蓄水,这是一个循序渐进的过程。 With all these expansions, the sensation of Zheng Fan to outside world, starting to be getting more and more sensitive. 伴随着这一切的展开,郑凡对外界的感知,开始越来越敏感。 He can feel both hands of oneself, the oneself both feet, warm liquid that , the oneself chest position drops. 他能感受到自己的双手,自己的双脚,以及,自己胸口位置滴落下来的温热液体。 A strange thought starts to reappear from its consciousness, 一股怪异的念头开始自其意识中浮现, Zheng Fan starts to suspect, 郑凡开始怀疑, oneself, 自己, Really died? 真的死了？ What kind of aspect after no one knows the person dies, is, even if initially the little friends in work room, although has created the horror story about ghost, but after all is only the conjecture. 没人知道人死后是怎样的局面,哪怕当初工作室的小伙伴们虽然创作过很多关于鬼怪的恐怖故事,但毕竟只是臆想罢了。 In the final analysis, the person of dying, no means wrote an experience of several hundred character to pass on again like the elementary student. 说到底,死去的人,没办法像小学生一样写一份几百字的心得体会再传回来了。 Zheng Fan starts to attempt to make anything, first does, opens eyes. 郑凡开始尝试去做点什么,最先做的,是睁开眼。 This time he, some types in the feeling of dogged perseverance, side were body each part of sensations of rapidly are restoring, on the one hand how regardless of oneself diligently, is unable to open. 这时的他,有种在愚公移山的感觉,一边是身体各个部分的感知正在快速地恢复着一方面则是无论自己如何努力,都无法睁开。 Probably falls into the condition that a ghost pressed, wants to revolt, actually can only remaining unproductive struggling. 像是陷入了一种鬼压床的状态,想反抗,却只能剩下徒劳的挣扎。 „Works as!” “哐当！” The sound transmits, 响动传来, Immediately sprinkles the heat wave pouring surface. 随即是一泼热浪浇面。 Under this stimulation, Zheng Fan opened the eye finally. 在这一股刺激之下,郑凡终于睁开了眼。 The line of sight, is from the beginning fuzzy, can the sensation to some luminous, not be actually able the image formation. 视线,一开始是模糊的,能感知到些许的光亮,却无法成像。 A shadow raids, starts to clean the face of oneself also to separate the line of sight time after time compartment of terrain of oneself unceasingly. 紧接着,一片阴影袭来,开始不断地擦拭自己的脸同时也将自己的视线一次次地阻断开。 Like person who just awoke, takes the hot towel to wash the face, truly can obtain some time refreshing. 如同是刚醒的人,拿着热毛巾洗了一把脸,确实是能获得一段时间的神清气爽。 The line of sight of Zheng Fan, starting to be getting more and more clear. 郑凡的视线,开始越来越清晰了。 First, what he sees is a face, an age probably in the face of 14 or 15-year-old young girl. 首先,他看见的是一张脸,一张年纪大概在十四五岁的少女的脸。 On the young girls wears a simple long skirt, carries with the hand bronze wash bowl another hand to take a towel, face disturbedly looks at oneself. 少女身上穿着一件朴素的长裙,一只手提着铜质脸盆另一只手拿着一条毛巾,正一脸忐忑地看着自己。 Therefore , 所以说, Did oneself just let slip next basin hot water to sprinkle to awake by this young girl? 自己刚刚是被这少女失手一下一盆热水泼醒的？ But is the warm comfort that oneself previously felt she is giving the oneself cleaning body? 而自己先前感受到的温热舒适感是她在给自己擦拭身子？ The young girls are very panic-stricken, because the negligence of oneself sprinkled basin hot water on the honored person, but this honored person, was Mama thousand ding ten thousand to enjoin to want her to look after well. 少女很惊恐,因为自己的疏忽将一盆热水泼在了贵人身上,而这个贵人,是妈妈千叮万嘱要她好好照顾的。 In the half year, her work has served him, even if his stupor had not been regaining consciousness, but she does not dare to have slight idleness, the most distinct evidence was this man bed a half year, the body bedsore did not even have one. 这半年来,她的工作一直是伺候他,哪怕他一直昏迷着没有苏醒,但她没敢有丝毫的懈怠,最明显的证据就是这个男人卧床半年了,身上连褥疮都没有一个。 Takes care of the talent of bed patient to be clear truly, the patient body does not have the bedsore, must mean big payout. 真正照顾过卧床病人的人才清楚,病人身上没有褥疮,得意味着多大的付出。 But a young girl complaint does not have, moreover is very grateful to this assignment. 但少女却一点怨言都没有,而且还对这份差事很是感激。 In other words, this man is her life, if oneself made what mistake, according to the Mama temper, likely tramples her to the red curtain in banister in directly, receives on these stinking guest. 换句话来说,这个男人就是她的命,要是自己出了什么差错,依照妈妈的性子,很可能直接把她一脚踹到勾栏里的红帐子里去,去接待那些身上臭烘烘的客人。 The Mama temperament, is not good, moreover is unusual is not good. 妈妈的脾气,可不好,而且是非常的不好。 If makes Mama know oneself the wet filter on mistake discovery bed, oneself...... 要是让妈妈知道自己的失误发现床上的湿漉,自己…… Absent-minded of young girl has not continued the too long time, because she suddenly discovered, the eyes of this man, opened unexpectedly! 少女的失神并没有持续太长的时间,因为她忽然发现,这个男人的眼睛,竟然睁开了！ The young girls blink, 少女眨了眨眼, Zheng Fan blinks, 郑凡眨了眨眼, 4.5 seconds of silence, 4.5秒的沉默, „!!!” “啊！！！” The young girls sent out a scream, 少女发出了一声尖叫, This cry makes Zheng Fan skull one that just regained consciousness twitch, nearly must be called to faint again, this young girl does not practice the soprano, was really a pity. 这叫声让刚刚苏醒的郑凡脑壳一阵抽搐,近乎要被再叫昏过去,这个少女不去练女高音,真的是可惜了。 „Mama, he awoke, he awoke!!!” “妈妈,他醒了,他醒了！！！” The young girls turn around, shouts loudly while runs to the room. 少女转身,一边高声呼喊一边向房间外跑去。 In the room, was finally peaceful, is only left over a Zheng Fan person. 房间里,终于安静了,只剩下郑凡一个人。 Zheng Fan is attempting hands and feet that stimulates to movement oneself, from the beginning also some feelings paralysis, but quick found the center of resistance, somewhat crawls from the bed since difficultly, both hands support the bed to get out of bed. 郑凡尝试着催动自己的手脚,一开始还有些麻痹感,但很快就找到了支撑点,有些艰难地从床上爬起,双手撑着床榻下了床。 The both legs were somewhat soft, are good because are prepared beforehand maintain balanced had not thrown down directly on the ground. 双腿有些软,好在事先有准备保持住了平衡才没有直接摔倒在地上。 Like this breathed a while thick air/Qi, Zheng Fan released both hands of oneself, making oneself stand in the ground completely, was only the back is somewhat curving, the center of gravity under squatted slightly, but also is somewhat maintaining carefully stably. 就这样喘了一会儿粗气,郑凡才重新释放自己的双手,让自己完全站在了地上,只是背有些弯曲,重心略微下蹲,还在有些小心地维系着稳定。 The entire process, a little probably newborn baby studies to walk to be the same, this body, a little excessively seemed to be weak, is the sweating is dripping. 整个过程,有点像是新生婴儿重新学习走路一样,这身子,似乎有点过度虚弱了,已然是虚汗淋漓。 By this little while, Zheng Fan had the thoughts to size up this room, the wooden structure, is somewhat obsolete, the arrangement in room also restores the old very much, in the corner has a dressing table, above has a bronze mirror. 到了这会儿,郑凡才有心思打量起这个房间,木质结构,有些陈旧,房间里的陈设也很复古,角落里有一个梳妆台,上面有一面铜镜。 „My this is ............” “我这是…………” According to oneself now the arrangement of room, if removes that oneself to be delivered to Hengdian Attached Hospital now absurd if possible, 根据自己现在所处房间的布置,如果排除那种自己现在被送到横店附属医院的荒唐可能的话, oneself this is, 自己这是, Passed through? 穿越了？ As a creator, Zheng Fan this word naturally cannot be strange to „crossing over”, but has not really thought will happen on oneself. 作为一名创作者,郑凡对“穿越”这个词自然不会陌生,只不过是真的没想到会发生在自己身上罢了。 Somewhat before staggering stepped the dressing table, the vision, looks to that bronze mirror. 有些踉跄地移步到了梳妆台前,目光,看向那面铜镜。 Few has not heard the bronze mirror, but has personally seen earnestly and has used should not be many, after all has been eliminates many years the things, but when Zheng Fan stands when the mirror front, was been slightly surprised by the effect of bronze mirror. 几乎没有人没听说过铜镜,但切切实实地亲眼见过和用过的应该不多,毕竟早就是淘汰多少年的东西了,但当郑凡站在镜子面前时,也被铜镜的效果稍稍惊讶到了。 Although definitely the glass mirror of cannot compare later generation, but in the effect compared with oneself imagination must be much better. 虽然肯定比不过后世的玻璃镜子,但比自己想象中的效果要好多了。 Zheng Fan looks at mirror while puts out a hand to touch the face of oneself, in the mirror, is the face of oneself, wu, it seems like, is not the soul puts on...... 郑凡一边看着镜子一边伸手摸了摸自己的脸,镜子里的,是自己的脸,唔,看来,不是魂穿…… Moreover, when the face in mirror, with oneself dies has some differences, oneself before the euthanasia, because of suffering of disease, thinly has become skinny, but now, as if on the face has some meat, although as before some gaunt and paleness, but is the normal person to be possible the receptivity. 而且,镜子里的这张脸,和自己死时有着一些区别,自己在安乐死前,因为疾病的折磨,已经瘦成皮包骨头了,但现在,似乎脸上多出了一些肉,虽然依旧有些瘦削和苍白,但已经属于正常人可接受程度。 Lowers the head, Zheng strong then notices, on oneself is unexpectedly smooth, not only does not have the coat. 低下头,郑强这才注意到,自己身上竟然光溜溜的,不光是没有上衣。 When previously woke up, has not really noticed this for a while. 只不过先前醒来时,真的一时没注意到这个。 Once the people do not have the clothes, is easy not to have the security sense, particularly in this strange environment, this anxiety will be more intense. 人一旦身上没有衣服,就容易没有安全感,尤其是在这个陌生的环境中,这种不安会更加强烈。 Now wants to come, is that young girl giving oneself to scrub the body? 现在想来,那个少女就是在给自己擦着身子？ What Zheng Fan does not know, in the half year, that young girl almost will help him clean the body every day. 郑凡不知道的是,这半年来,那个少女几乎每天都会帮他擦拭身子。 The young girl lets slip basin water sprinkles on the oneself face. 还是少女失手将一盆水泼自己脸上。 Right dressing table, the chair, on the chair is putting one clothes. 梳妆台右侧,有一张椅子,椅子上放着一套衣服。 This clothes, are very familiar, is one set of hoodie, the main tone is the black, is mixing with some dark red, in the meantime, under chair, boots. 这套衣服,很熟悉,是一套卫衣,主色调是黑色,其中夹杂着些许暗红,同时,在椅子下面,还有一双靴子。 When this is the Zheng Fan suicide the clothes that wears, he likes this design the clothes, the oneself design had made to order many sets, because he felt, hoodie, can bring the security sense to oneself, when particularly oneself puts the hoodie hat covers the oneself most face, can give the peace that oneself needs. 这是郑凡自杀时身上所穿的衣服,他喜欢这种款式的衣服,曾经自己设计订做过好多套,因为他觉得,卫衣,能够给自己带来安全感,尤其是当自己把卫衣的帽子放下来遮盖住自己大半张脸时,可以给予自己所需要的安宁。 Somewhat difficultly wears the clothes and boots, Zheng Fan is only tired can sit on the chair depends on the dressing table to keep gasping for breath, body that just regained consciousness, was too truly weak, no matter what, when compared with suicide oneself that sick body, good too many is too many, at least, this body convalesces again the recuperation some time, should be able the restoration to be many. 有些艰难地将衣服和靴子穿上,郑凡已经累得只能坐在椅子上靠着梳妆台不停喘气了,刚苏醒来的身子,确实太虚弱了,但不管怎样,比自杀时自己那具病躯,已经好了太多太多,最起码,这具身体再静养调理一段时间,应该能复原不少。 At this moment, Zheng Fan detected suddenly the entrance presented a person's shadow, but also panting for breath he looked up the past immediately. 就在这时,郑凡忽然察觉到门口出现了一道人影,还在喘息的他马上抬头看过去。 Suddenly, 一时间, If the Zheng Fan whole person suffers the electric shock, 郑凡整个人如遭电击, Room entrance, what standing is a woman, the age in 35-36 appearances, at this time wears a blue long skirt, wears the phoenix hairpin, the lip ripples red, coquettish look as if made by Heaven, this is one ***** age, and this woman, has in the makings graceful has both in the figure the just right plentifulness. 房间门口,站着的是一个妇人,年纪在35-36的样子,此时穿着一身蓝色的长裙,头戴凤簪,唇红荡漾,媚眼天成,这是一个*****的年纪,且这位妇人,有着气质上的优雅又兼具身段上恰到好处的丰腴。 Naturally, this woman how attractively again how physique is coquettish, is not the key point, being insufficient makes Zheng Fan become this surprisedly, making a Zheng Fan true shocking point be, 当然,这个妇人再怎么好看再怎么体格风骚,都不是重点,也不足以让郑凡惊讶成这样,让郑凡真正的震惊的一点在于, He, 他, Knows this woman! 认识这个女人！ And, 而且, He had drawn this woman personally! 他曾经亲手画过这个女人！ „Wind ............ Feng Siniang?” “风…………风四娘？” Zheng Fan thought that oneself is having a dream, is difficult to be inadequate, once the person died, will enter in an endless dreamland? 郑凡觉得自己是在做梦,难不成,人一旦死了,就会进入一场无休止的梦境之中？ That like this looks like, as if died, no longer was any dreadful matter, instead was a pursue free extrication. 那这样子看来,似乎死亡,也不再是什么可怕的事情了,反而是一种追求自由的解脱。 Woman looks at stands in oneself front Zheng Fan, 妇人看着站在自己面前的郑凡, Mouth slightly, in the eye pupil really has the clear twinkle, suddenly, the red lip opens lightly is smiling, the tears drop are crying, is rude to the extreme. 嘴巴微张,眼眸里竟然有晶莹闪烁,一时间,红唇轻启是在笑,泪水滴落是在哭,已然是失态到了极点。 Arrived finally, 到最后, Woman simple both hands put before the lower abdomen, the knees are curving, 妇人干脆双手放于小腹前,双膝弯曲, Sobbing sound said: 泣声道: „lord, you awoke finally!” “主上,您终于醒了！”