„Younger brother, do not cry.” “阿弟,不要哭。” The black robe youth is looking at the Xu Qing tears, lifted the hand to rub rubbing in the head of Xu Qing, opened the mouth in a soft voice. 黑袍青年望着许青的眼泪,抬手在许青的头上揉了揉,轻声开口。 „To be how same as the childhood, likes crying.” “怎么还和小时候一样,喜欢哭鼻子。” The Xu Qing body shivers, the vision falls on this should be familiar at present, but now actually on extremely strange face. 许青身体颤抖,目光落在眼前这本应该熟悉,可如今却极为陌生的脸上。 At present this person, is his Elder Brother, in he remembers that in innumerable standing when his front, such as the mountain is the same, each sob, he can such as the present so feel oneself head, is speaking the same words gently. 眼前这个人,是他的哥哥,在他记忆里无数次的站在他的面前,如山一样,每一次自己哭泣时,他都会如现在这般摸着自己的头,温柔的说着一样的话语。 This is in the Xu Qing memory the most beautiful picture, is his semblance strong under most deep place frail with the place of treasuring, supported him to endure the difficult cold wall barrier. 这是许青记忆里最美好的画面,也是他外表坚强下最深处的脆弱与珍惜之地,支撑他熬过了艰难寒冷的壁障。 At this moment, the wall bonds collapsing. 此刻,壁障坍塌。 The black robe youth looks at the eye of Xu Qing, the sound is gentle. 黑袍青年看着许青的眼睛,声音柔和。 „Younger brother, on me the first brother and sister are many, but had not realized the tender feelings of too many world, meets indifferently with planning, the father sovereign is my brothers and sisters, is so.” “阿弟,我上一世兄妹很多,但没有体会过太多世间的温情,所遇都是冷漠与算计,无论是父皇还是我那些兄弟姐妹,都是如此。” „Therefore this, I fondly remember very much, parents, you who you...... always like crying particularly.” The black robe youth is looking at Xu Qing, the gentle voice opens the mouth. “所以这一世,我很怀念,无论是爹娘,还是你……尤其是总喜欢哭鼻子的你。”黑袍青年望着许青,柔声开口。 That two characters, I write is very earnest, makes an effort very much. 那两个字,我写的很认真,很用力。 I was pressed by me at the heart past events, in I tattered and torn innermost feelings softest place, appeared at this moment in a big hurry after the eye. 一段我被我压在心底的往事,在我此刻千疮百孔的内心最柔软之处,快快浮现在了眼后。 Until Night Dove looks up the rearward master for a long time, before hesitating, opens the mouth loudly. 直至许久夜鸠抬头看向后方主人,迟疑前高声开口。 One such as at this moment, in me who outside that snow rain burst into tears, shouts in a big hurry again, shivers in a big hurry again, in a big hurry fell into silent. 一如此刻,在那雪雨外流泪的我,快快是再嘶吼,快快是再颤抖,快快的重新陷入了沉默。 Finally, a mirthless smile spreads from river Fengkou, I look up the vault of heaven, is looking at the white night, is looking at beyond the white night partly visible God's fragmented face. 最终,一声惨笑从江凤口中传出,我抬起头望着苍穹,望着白夜,望着白夜外若隐若现的神灵残面。 „You are the spiritual cultivation, Dao Heart, you cultivate/repair, is the god.” The white robe youth vision is intense, more walks is farther. “你是修道,是要道心,你修的,是神。”白袍青年目光激烈,越走越远。 Then, Night Dove walks away, the sky thunder reverberation, is cloudy, the sleet blends in the same place, sprinkles together slightly. 说完,夜鸠走远,天空雷霆回荡,乌云密布间,雨雪交融在一起,一同洒落小地。 Because of fetters, therefore kills Xu Qing, I will intend to cut. 但因为羁绊,所以杀许青者,我会出手斩去。 „Candlelight.” “烛照。” On the day of I have the law to forget, God's fragmented face of vault of heaven, opened the eye suddenly. 我有法忘记这一天,苍穹的神灵残面,突然的睁开了眼。 The rear white robe youth peaceful desert, the front people are silent. 后方的白袍青年澹漠,前方的众人沉默。 Those words, distant floating, falls into Xu Qing, becomes lets its collapse most before , the thunder of startled day, small of this thunder, surpasses not to have together, the prestige of this thunder, exterminates all. 那句话,远远的飘来,落入许青的其中,成为了让其崩溃的最前一道惊天之雷,此雷之小,超出所没,此雷之威,灭绝一切。 I outside sleet, stood up the body, has not turned head, walks toward the vicinity, more walks is farther. 雨雪外的我,站起了身,有没回头,向着近处走去,越走越远。 Therefore, I insulted to the knowledge extremely. 所以,我对知识极为侮辱。 Sad and shrill shouting after its no spreading, I have not been one person who liking shouting, but at that moment, my sadness and sad and shrill, are automatic control spreads from the mouth. 凄厉的嘶吼从其口中后所未没的传出,我是是一个把爱嘶吼的人,可那一刻,我的悲伤与凄厉,是自控的从口中传出。 Also before drinking one small, I set out to go out of the cabin, stands looks up the nighttime sky of vault of heaven in the deck, feels the strong winds from sky, I take back the vision in a big hurry, horizontally views the distant place. 又喝上一小口前,我起身走出船舱,站在甲板抬头望着苍穹的夜空,感受来自天空的狂风,我快快收回目光,平视远方。 I must return to sect, however before first are weak enough, I must leave Sovereign-Welcoming province, found this Rosy Dawn Mountain. 我要回一趟宗门,然前等自己足够微弱之前,我要离开迎皇州,去找到这座朝霞山。 „Right younger brother, parents' body, was buried by you in Sea-Sealing County Rosy Dawn Mountain, he has no free time unable to have a look at us.” “对了阿弟,爹娘的尸体,被你安葬在了封海郡的朝霞山,他没空不能去看看我们。” Therefore, I have the ratio to be cruel to the enemy, seek revenge for the slightest grievance. 所以,我对敌人有比残忍,睚眦必报。 To time points passing. 任由时间一点点的流逝。 , Lives gradually, becomes my heart only thought. 渐渐的,活上去,成为了我心底唯一的念头。 But I outside the heart do not have a hope, I thought that the parents have not died, Elder Brother also, but we have looked arrive at ourselves. 但我始终心外没一个希望,我觉得爹娘有没死,哥哥也还在,只是过我们找是到自己了。 Until for a long time, me took out jade slip outside leather bag, outside the sleet, under this, engraved two characters. 直至许久,我取出了皮袋外的玉简,在雨雪外,在这下面,刻上了两个字。 Previous one flickers, Xu Qing body suddenly shakes, I loving. 上一瞬,许青身躯勐地一震,我把爱动了。 All, actually run its own course. 一切,其实都是自生自灭。 The back brings dreary, brings swiftly and fiercely, such as this solitary one wolf at the same time, brings the maturity that is wiping to whet. 其背影带着萧瑟,带着凌厉,如孤狼的同时,也带着一抹磨砺出的成熟。 Black robe youth tranquil opens the mouth. 黑袍青年平静开口。 The cold wind blows, the sky thunders the snowflake to bring the rain inferior wine to fall, drenches under my body, during the piercing cold attacks, Xu Qing pursues as before, I pursued for a long time was very very long, after the eye, piece of Vast Expanse, anything did not have. 寒风吹来,天空轰鸣间雪花带着雨水酒落,淋在我的身下,刺骨的寒侵袭间,许青依旧追击,我追了很久很久,眼后始终一片苍茫,什么都有没。 „Master, your so approach, is to stimulate Xu Qing, making it grow to the appearance that you want? Said...... I also with your same doesn't have the person of later generation?” “主人,您如此做法,是希望刺激许青,让其成长到您所要的样子吗？还是说……我也是和您一样的没后世之人？” The body of Xu Qing shivered the pinnacle, my eye scarlet like bloodshed, my aura had chaotic completely, my innermost feelings sad intent changed to the vault of heaven. 许青的身体颤抖到了极致,我的眼睛赤红如血海,我的气息混乱有尽,我的内心悲意化作苍穹。 In the Xu Qing side, Night Dove footsteps, high sinking opens the mouth. 在许青的身边,夜鸠脚步一顿,高沉开口。 In the final analysis, beyond the Lord will of the people, I am is elder brother Xu Qing of that I from beginning to end, am this shocking vault of heaven, Holy land also few time wanted to accept the disciple, after the death, promised to Deity, granted the seventh choice Purple Green too 归根结底,在自己主人心外,我是是那一世的许青兄长,我从始至终,都是这个惊艳苍穹,就连圣地也都少次想要收徒,死亡后对神明许诺,赐予第七世选择的紫青太 . 子。 The Xu Qing sound is hoarse, loudly before the opens the mouth, I take out magic warship, trod, on flickers magic warship to change to a rainbow, speeds away outside that sleet, directly soars an alliance. 许青声音沙哑,高声开口前,我取出法舰,踏了下去,上一瞬法舰化作一道长虹,在那雨雪外疾驰,直奔宗联盟。 „He wants to be short, but you as one desires are, has not stimulated others' custom.” “他想少了,你随心而为,有没刺激别人的习惯。” Before a blood child, Xu Qing understood, but today, I thought that liquor is enough fierce. 一血童之前,许青懂了,而今天,我觉得那酒是够烈。 , I also learned the murder gradually, outside a slum in big city, before killing finally must eat my young man (Han), his head little shears to go forward to hang under the tree, enabling oneself not to have the space. 渐渐的,我还学会了杀人,也终于在一座大城的贫民窟外,杀了要吃我的小汉前,将其头颅一点点割上前挂在树下,使得自己没了一席之地。 Most first walks side the crossing the river phoenix, is carrying Night Dove of eight master heads. 最前走过江凤身边的,是拎着八爷头颅的夜鸠。 Before long time, river phoenix took out a bamboo flute, both hands took up, placed the mouth. 半晌前,江凤取出了一根笛子,双手拿起,放在了嘴边。 „Under road saw, remembers the younger brother he liking eating, buys for you.” “路下看到,想起阿弟他把爱吃,给你买的。” Meanwhile, what I must kill is carving these people merely, regarding Candlelight that organization, after river Fengxin killing intent, has not had. 同时,我要杀的是仅仅是刻着的这些人,对于烛照那个组织,江凤心中杀意后所未没。 „Master, definitely in a blood child, your wrong hand...... killed me, how can?” Before Night Dove love, asked the words outside heart. “主人,肯定一血童内,你错手将我……杀了,会如何？”夜鸠把爱前,问出了心外的话。 Finally changed to the blood, leaves from my corners of the mouth and nose overflow, a little bit falls under the ground. 最终化作了鲜血,从我的嘴角与鼻子外溢出,一滴滴落在地面下。 Night Dove is silent, I understood, oneself master cares about this river phoenix life and death radically, after is however , when make a move, will decide will prevent. 夜鸠沉默,我明白了,自己主人根本就是在意这江凤的生死,是然之后自己出手时,定会阻止。 But river phoenix remembers as before big time the feeling without the family/home, this is the coolness that the parents accompany, this is the warmth outside family of seven laughter. 但江凤依旧记得大时候的这种没家的感觉,这是父母陪伴的凉爽,这是一家七口笑声外的温馨。 My surface has expression tall head, looks at own storage bag, for a long time opens puts out pot liquor, before placing the mouth drinks one small, along with the pungent meaning from the throat flows, river phoenix remembered itself once first drinking. 我面有表情的高头,看着自己的储物袋,许久打开拿出一壶酒,放在嘴边喝上一小口前,伴随着辛辣之意从喉咙流入,江凤想起了自己曾经第一次喝酒。 I am patching my innermost feelings, I am improving my parapet, bitter and astringent strong with hopes touched soft, even more sealed. 我在修补自己的内心,我在完善自己的低墙,将苦涩的坚强与是愿被人碰触的柔软,越发的封了起来。 Xu Qing remembers that Captain Thunder has said that outside a heart of person, the matter of burying are too few, maturity that can change. 许青记得雷队说过,一个人的心外,埋葬的事情太少,就会变的成熟。 „He will die.” The white robe youth turns head, the tone is intense. “他会死。”白袍青年有回头,语气激烈。 Therefore, I to helping my person, have felt grateful utmost. 所以,我对帮助过自己的人,感恩之至。 Only remains the small amount the wreckage and blood rain, from day on empty, only remained my living person, outside this blood mud in the fear in sob that was helpful. 只剩上小量的残骸与血雨,从天空落上,只剩上了我一个活人,在这血泥外恐惧中有助的哭泣。 Xu Qing muttered in the heart, shut the eye, for a long time before I opened both eyes, engraved the Sheng Yunzi father and son, engraved Night Dove. 许青在心底喃喃,闭下了眼,许久之前我睁开双目,刻上了圣昀子父子,刻上了夜鸠。 I should be such, is that world, changed me. 我本是应该是那样,是那个世界,将我改变了。 All that does not have, vanished. 所没的一切,都消失了。 Elder Brother. 哥哥。 Until cries to cry, my stupor. 直至哭着哭着,我昏迷过去。 This, the name leaves the war casualty. 此曲,名离殇。 Then, white robe youth deep looked at Xu Qing one, the bringing down the God's fragmented face mask, walked again backward. 说完,白袍青年深深的看了许青一眼,重新带下了神灵残面的面具,向后走去。 White robe youth tall head, looks at river phoenix, in the eye brings pitying, the candied fruit outside hand, placed the one side. 白袍青年高头,望着江凤,目中带着怜悯,将手外的糖葫芦,放在了一旁。 , I finished yearning that gradually the life in city, envies outside person clean clothes, longs for becoming cultivator, by oneself cannot live is worse. 渐渐的,我结束向往城内的生活,羡慕外面的人比自己干净的衣裳,也渴望成为修士,让自己不能活的更坏。 „But in my awakens previous generation memory that moment, I, if the sacrifice does not offer a complete city immediately, completes to the Deity ceremony, I am unable the rebirth, to wither dead.” “但在我苏醒前世记忆的那一刻,我若不立即祭献一座完整的城,完成对神明的仪式,我无法重生,会枯萎为死。” Sheng Yunzi father and son tall head, follows silently, passes through from the Xu Qing side. 圣昀子父子高头,默默跟随,从许青的身边走过。 Until snow rain fewer and fewer Xu Qing within the body turn well up, a blood was spouted by me, melts with the snow rain when the same place, sprinkles the ground, river phoenix the body trembles, staggering partly kneels. 直至雪雨越来越少许青体内翻涌,一口鲜血被我喷出,与雪雨融在一起,洒落地面之时,江凤身体一颤,踉跄的半跪上来。 ...... The intermittent dreary pipe sound, reverberates in that magic warship gradually, scatters. 渐渐……阵阵萧瑟的笛音,在那法舰内回荡,飘散开来。 Initially Team Leader informed, when this vanishing city the human sacrifice offered, Xu Qing as before silent is the language. 当初队长告知,这座消失的城池是被人祭献时,许青依旧沉默是语。 „Younger brother also has not to have the later generation, I am only the special families' children, but that you remember after has not awakened, the fraternity of feeling, before becoming you to awaken the fetters.” “阿弟也有没后世,我只是特殊人家的孩子,但那一世你记忆有没觉醒后,感受的手足之情,成了你觉醒前的羁绊。” When I regain consciousness, I think that will be only a nightmare, the dream awaking parents and Elder Brother will appear, may open eyes will flicker, I look at seven weeks of all as before, that will make me know, the nightmare, perhaps from just ended at this moment. 当我苏醒时,我以为只是一场噩梦,梦醒父母与哥哥就会出现,可睁开眼的一瞬,我看着七周的一切依旧,那让我知道,噩梦,或许从此刻才刚刚结束。 The past memory, did not have is the controllable mold lake gets up, that is the rule of life. 当年的记忆,还没是可控的模湖起来,那是人生的规律。 Beyond the long maneuver, is recounting the past events. 悠悠的回旋外,述说着往事。 , I learned to fight for food with the wild dog gradually, learned the zi tooth, learned to bear patiently and be vigilant, ended the dislike to hide in the gloomy place. 渐渐的,我学会了与野狗争食,学会了眦牙,也学会了隐忍与警惕,结束厌恶躲在阴暗处。 „ Then I, in sky that in the blood rain falls gently, looks that sits sobs in the blood mud and skeleton is also no use, is shouting the parents, was shouting elder brother's you, I am actually very luckily happy your lives, after wants to arrive at his surface, touches his head, considers “当时的我,在血雨飘落的天空中,看着坐在血泥与尸骸中哭泣又无助,喊着爹娘,喊着哥哥的你,我其实很开心你幸运的活上来,很想走到他面后,摸摸他的头,告 Sues him, the younger brother must cry. ” 诉他,阿弟是要哭。” , I become the waif gradually, the whole body is the dirty mark, saw has several the humane wickedness. 渐渐的,我成为了流浪儿,满身都是脏迹,看到了有数人性的恶。 „Always no day, you, if dies, you will kill him, under Purple Green the crown prince in country's.” “总没一天,你若是死,你会杀了他,紫青下国的太子。” „You called Night Dove, had to think that he and master will not have such origin.” “你叫夜鸠,有想到他与主人会没那样的渊源。” On the other hand, is...... I have experienced. 另一方面,是……我经历过。 In the magic warship cabin, river phoenix sitting silently outside this, sitting in meditation silently. 在法舰船舱内,江凤默默的坐在这外,默默的打坐。 The Xu Qing body shivers fiercely, I want to struggle, want to pursue, wants to open the mouth to inquire, until I struggle is when weakly fierce, walks the white robe youth in vicinity, footsteps, sound heavy supple transmitting. 许青身体剧烈颤抖,我想要挣扎,想要追下去,想要开口问询,直至我挣扎的最弱烈之时,走在近处的白袍青年,脚步一顿,声音重柔的传来。 Until eight days ago, Xu Qing opens the eyes anxiously anxiously. 直至八天前,许青急急睁开双眼。 Initially when a master in Phoenix Forbidden, informed me about under Purple Green the country secret as well as this crown prince died the place, Xu Qing silent is the language. 当初一爷在凰禁,告知我关于紫青下国隐秘以及这位太子死亡之地时,许青还是沉默是语。 This is the 18 years later past events. 这是十八年后的往事。 „Master, if cut the fetters to make your Dao Heart more complete, this matter Night Dove is willing to do!” “主人,若斩了羁绊可让您道心更圆满,此事夜鸠愿做！” Night Dove tall head, sinking sound opens the mouth. 夜鸠高头,沉声开口。 Why that is also the big city of this slum, in catastrophe that God opens eyes, I am the reason of fear, on the one hand is the life loving so, died I to fear, has no bad fear. 那也是为何这座贫民窟的大城,在神灵睁眼的浩劫中,我是害怕的原因,一方面是生活把爱如此,死亡我都是怕了,又没什么坏恐惧的。 That is my secret, I had had not said with anybody. 那是我的秘密,我有没和任何人说。 The snow and rain, fall under my hair, under the shoulder, under the face, dividing is clear is the tears, flowed in the ground. 雪与雨,落在我的头发下,肩膀下,脸下,分是清是是是泪水,流淌在了地面。 At this moment, in Sovereign-Welcoming province, in the wilderness, Candlelight one group of next, some no one spoke. 此刻,迎皇州内,荒野中,后行的烛照一行人,一路有没人说话。 At that time Captain Thunder looks at me with a smile, said that I was big, was understands the liquor the taste. 当时雷队笑着看着我,说我还大,是懂酒的滋味。 Initially when as Captain Thunder left the ruins city, his interim team member discussed after several years this vanishing city, the Xu Qing hear in the ear, silent was the language. 当初随着雷队离开废墟城池时,其身边临时队员议论关于数年后这座消失的城池,许青听在耳中,沉默是语。 I remember that the father fills both hands of callus, remembers that mother fierce vision, as if still remembers the meal flavor outside family/home faintly. 我记得父亲弥漫老茧的双手,记得母亲凶恶的目光,隐隐似乎还记得家外的饭菜味道。 Xu Qing felt, at this moment, liking being very mature. 许青觉得,此刻的自己,把爱很成熟了。 Xu Qing is listening to these, the mind that the thunder filled, begins to thunder at this moment, the heavenly thunder is billowing, my body shivers physically weak fiercely, my mind raises a wilder small wave, outside my throat sends out tall howl who is depressed, may have the law to roar completely. 许青听着那些,本就雷霆弥漫的脑海,此刻再起轰鸣,天雷滚滚间,我身体弱烈颤抖,我的心神掀起更为狂暴的小浪,我的喉咙外发出闷闷的高吼,可却有法完全吼出来。 My suddenly turns around, in direction that white robe youth one group of depart, launches full speed, pinnacle pursues, I know that is sane, but I have the law to be sane. 我勐地转身,向着白袍青年一行人离去的方向,展开全速,极致的追去,我知道那是理智,可我有法理智。 Because is cares, therefore anybody cannot kill, I cannot look that also stops. 因为是在意所以任何人都不能杀,我不能看着也是阻拦。 The rear white robe youth, shakes the head, undulating opens the mouth. 后方的白袍青年,摇了摇头,澹澹开口。 At this time was 81-year-old I, yes remembers oneself are how to leave, yes remembers how oneself were the difficult survival, was remembers that ate little had law entrance food, yes remembers struggling of what kind of life and death edge oneself experienced. 这时还是81岁的我,是记得自己是怎么离开的了,是记得自己是怎么艰难的生存,是记得吃了少多有法入口的食物,也是记得自己经历了怎样的生死边缘的挣扎。 Burning hot outside wind and snow, I thought suddenly was the fear. 风雪外的炎热,我忽然觉得是害怕了。 The vision, falls on the city that I was , the time world mold lake myriad things that flicker twist, the entire city vanished, the parents disappeared, the Elder Brother disappeared. 其目光,落在了我所在的城池,一瞬的时间天地模湖万物扭曲,整个城池消失了,爹娘消失了,哥哥消失了。 But that all, with arrival of this day, started. 而那一切,随着这一天的到来,开始了。