Sees Ai Qing again, later Vienna six years. 再一次见到艾晴,是在六年之后的维也纳。 She is using the walking stick, is treading the red blanket, entered once the Huai Shi long-awaited golden color hall, stands by own piano, there is an applause of the world and acclaims gives to her. 她撑着拐杖,踏着红毯,走进了曾经槐诗梦寐以求的金色大厅,站在自己的钢琴旁边,有全世界的掌声和赞叹送给她。 But Huai Shi and teacher sit under the stage. 而槐诗和老师则坐在台下。 Witnesses the coming of her life peak time. 见证她人生巅峰时刻的到来。 „Envies?” Sits asked in his teacher: „If you had not given up initially, possibly now stands on this is you.” “羡慕吗？”坐在他身旁的老师问:“如果你当初没有放弃的话,可能如今站在这上面的就是你啦。” „To be honest, a little.” “说实话,有点。” Huai Shi nods, at once, indifferent shaking the head: „But missed, not?” 槐诗颔首,旋即,又无所谓的摇头:“但是都错过了,不是吗？” „Now takes up the cello also with enough time.” The teacher said, „studies not to relate from the beginning, I retired just in time recently, is very idle.” “现在重新拿起大提琴还来得及。”老师说,“从头学起也没关系啊,正巧我最近退休了,很闲。” „...... Thinks, is really very difficult.” “……想了一下,果然还是很艰难啊。” Huai Shi smiles bitterly, looked down oneself were covered with both hands of callus: „To be honest, I have linked the technique of bow unfamiliar unseemly, does not have the time to go to study again from the beginning.” 槐诗苦笑起来,低头看了看自己长满老茧的双手:“说实话,我已经连顿弓的技法都生疏的不像样啦,也没有时间再去从头学起。” „Is northwest very busy?” “西北很忙么？” „Hydraulic engineering is very troublesome, the budget not too enough, can only be out every so often personally.” Huai Shi shrugs: „To be honest, takes a bath continually rarely, this I washed in the hotel time especially several, felt that the hair with child on is one share smell of earth...... arrived here to feel rustically, small clear disgraced.” “水利工程很麻烦,预算又不太够,很多时候就只能亲自下场。”槐诗耸肩:“说实话,连洗澡都很少,这一次我在酒店特地洗了好几遍,感觉头发跟子上都是一股子土腥味……来到这里都感觉土里土气的,给小晴丢人。” These years he roams about probably same walks randomly in the all over the world. 这些年他好像流浪一样游走在世界各地。 Saw too many once and he equally helpless person, even if puts together wish that goes all-out to handle something in one's power, but eventually insufficient. 看到了太多曾经和他一样无助的人,哪怕拼尽全力的想要做一些力所能及的事情,可终究还是不够。 What matter uses a strength of person to complete? 倾尽一个人的力气又能完成什么事情呢？ Thinks with the truly huge difficulty, enough made a person not need to worry about food or clothing for a lifetime money is extremely tiny. 和真正庞大的困难想必,足够让一个人一辈子衣食无忧的金钱还是太过渺小了。 Even is unable on these trapped/sleepy and dry earth the villages to the wilderness brings the insignificant water source. 甚至无法给荒原上那些困与旱土的村庄带来一点微不足道的水源。 He can only try again diligently. 他只能再次试图努力。 Has little effect how. 奈何收效甚微。 „Can come to be good.” The teacher patted his knee, is staring on the stage own daughter: „Just you chatted in the backstage how?” “能来就好啦。”老师拍了拍他的膝盖,凝视着台上自己的女儿:“刚刚在后台你们聊的怎么样？” „Several.” Huai Shi shakes the head: „Separating the time is long, was too strange, instead does not know to chat anything, can only like the stranger gave regards mutually each time she that desolate time, always makes me suspect that I made the mistake in the past.” “几句吧。”槐诗摇头:“隔得时间太久,太陌生了,反而不知道聊什么,只能像陌生人一样互相问个好每次她那么冷淡的时候,总让我怀疑我当年做错了。” „Everyone will make mistakes, a person is living, if wrong cannot violate, that is extremely rather pitiful.” “大家都会犯错,一个人活着如果连错都不能犯,那未免太过可悲。” The teacher is comforting him: „ Although I thought most of the time you give up the cello is a mistake, but can also think sometimes, without giving up, you are not necessarily have the present achievement, cannot help so many people. 老师宽慰着他:“虽然大多数时候我都觉得你放弃大提琴是个错误,但有的时候也会想,倘若没有放弃的话,你未必会有如今的成就,也不能帮到那么多人。 The assistance plan, dawn educate, water source project...... many people because of you, but the achievement, Huai Shi, has no need depressed, you should, for they hold up the head. ” 助学计划、黎明教育,还有水源工程……很多人因你而成就,槐诗,用不着消沉,你应该为了他们昂起头。” Huai Shi nods, has not spoken again. 槐诗点了点头,没有再说话。 „Performance ended, we go to the backstage to meet her.” “表演结束了,我们去后台接她吧。” The teacher sets out slowly, Huai Shi puts out a hand to hold her, startled realize her back of the hand already the reappearing wrinkle, unknowingly, the hair disclosed white gradually. 老师缓缓起身,槐诗伸手扶着她,才惊觉她的手背已经浮现皱纹,不知不觉,头发渐渐透露出一丝白色。 Huai Shi was shocked. 槐诗愣住了。 „I am old, this is what is worth the amazed matter?” The teacher smiles in a soft voice. “我老啦,这是什么值得惊诧的事情吗？”老师轻声笑起来。 „Is only 50 years old, but also is young.” Huai Shi said. “才五十岁而已,还年轻。”槐诗说。 „What is young is you.” “还年轻的是你们。” The teacher said, „you have the opportunity of making mistakes, before dying of old age” 老师说,“你们还有犯错的机会,在老去之前” She forever how and sound song, waits gently. 她永远怎么和声细语,对人温柔以待。 Even if how the child of rebel, can smile again is guiding them to step onto the correct track. 哪怕再怎么叛逆的孩子,都能够微笑着引导他们走上正确的轨道上来。 So long as there are her after behind, Huai Shi can confident forwarding. 只要有她在身后,槐诗就能充满信心的向前。 But one year later, he received the teacher critically ill message of towering. 可是在一年之后,他突兀地收到了老师病危的消息。 Bursty cerebral hemorrhage. 突发性脑溢血。 It is said is backs down stumbles. 据说是下台阶的时候跌了一跤。 At that time Huai Shi on the work site, is receiving the Ai Qing call, when telephone that told him the news, he then fell into stunned. 当时槐诗正在工地上,接到了艾晴的电话,当电话那一头告诉他消息的时候,他便陷入错愕。 Incredible on the spot. 不可置信的愣在原地。 At that time, everyone still in completion of celebration project, in jubilant atmosphere, Huai Shi actually collapsed to the ground on. Several puzzled children regarding side him, want to draw him to get up, actually feeling this uncle seems the stone to be the same. 那时候,大家还在庆祝工程的完成,一篇喜气洋洋的气氛中,槐诗却瘫坐在地上。几个困惑的孩子围绕在他身边,想要拉他起来,却感觉这位叔叔好像石头一样。 Then is heavy, does not have the temperature. 那么沉重,又毫无温度。 Huai Shi scared and colleagues said goodbye, ride six hours of car(riage) to go to the airport, waited for after the midnight, rode the airplane to rush to Xinhai. 槐诗失魂落魄的和同事们道别,坐了六个小时的车去机场,等了半夜之后,又坐上飞机赶往新海。 Waits for the airplane finally soars from the land, he actually suddenly remembers the words that the teacher once spoke. 等飞机终于从大地上腾空而起的时候,他却忽然想起老师曾经说的话。 „Even if the art has the strong attraction, may not compare these more direct-viewing eventually and a heavier thing...... Huai Shi, the art flutters in the clouds, but always some people cannot adapt to the life of float, will choose realistically foot treads the land.” “哪怕艺术本身有着再大的吸引力,可终究比不上那些更加直观和更加沉重的东西……槐诗,艺术是飘在云端的,但总有人会适应不了漂浮的生活,会选择更切合实际的去脚踏大地。” Once he chose to tread on , in land, had not found the relieved place , but when he flew the clouds again, actually discovered oneself soon could not find the turning over to place. 曾经他选择脚踏在大地上的时候,未曾找到安心的地方,可当他再次飞上云端的时候,却发现自己快要找不到归处了。 He covered the face, finally exuded the fuzzy weeping sound. 他捂住了脸,终于发出了模糊的哭声。 The child who probably loses mother is the same. 像是失去母亲的孩子一样. Waits for Huai Shi to rush to the hospital ward the time, the teacher has awaked. 等槐诗赶到病房的时候,老师已经醒了。 Used up this whole life all good luck probably simply. 简直好像用光了这辈子所有的好运。 Has a false alarm. 只是虚惊一场。 Outside the hospital ward, after hearing the situation, he is then weak on the ground, streaming with sweat, both hands shiver to crawl, cannot bear smile is like the fool. 在病房外面,听说情况之后,他便瘫软在了地上,汗流浃背,双手颤抖着爬起来,就忍不住笑得跟个傻子一样。 In Ai Qing accompanies in inside, he catches the hand of doctor, asked about the condition repeatedly, then inquired the matters needing attention. Asked absentminded, the doctor also saw probably, but patted his shoulder, waiting for him was finally tranquil. 在艾晴陪在里面的时候,他就拽住医生的手,一遍遍询问病情,然后询问注意事项。问的丢三落四的,医生好像也见多了,只是拍了拍他的肩膀,等待他终于平静下来。 Sits on the hospital ward chair, the waiting of delay. 坐在病房外面的椅子上,呆滞的等待。 Until the gate shoves open, supports Ai Qing of walking stick to walk, told him: „Mother is waiting for you in inside.” 直到门推开,撑着拐杖的艾晴走出来,告诉他:“母亲在里面等着你。” He hesitant for a long time, is actually not have the courage. 他犹豫了好久,却无法鼓起勇气。 The back was kicked a foot suddenly. 背后猛然被人踢了一脚。 Is Ai Qing. 是艾晴。 „Goes hesitant hesitant, was tired.” “犹豫来犹豫去的,烦死了。” She closes. 她关上了门。 Huai Shi gawked for a long time: „Was leg good? When?” 槐诗愣了好久:“腿好了吗？什么时候？” „Year ago, she underwent the surgery.” “年前,她做了手术。” The old person on hospital bed sends out sound: „Originally I want to tell you, but was blocked by her, when has she wanted like the present......, to frighten?” 病床上的老人发出声音:“本来我想告诉你,但被她拦住了,她一直就想什么时候像现在一样……哈哈,吓到了吧？” Old person that pale facial features squeezed the practical joke same smile. 老人那一张苍白的面容挤出了恶作剧一样的笑容。 Does not know what Dow Jones Index is own condition. 不知道指的是自己的病情。 Recovery of Ai Qing. 还是艾晴的痊愈。 Huai Shi gawked for a long time, could not bear relax finally: „Teacher you are all right well.” 槐诗愣了好久,终于还是忍不住松了口气:“老师你没事儿就好。” „Fell a tumble, has no need to make much ado about nothing.” The teacher shakes the head: „You walk was also too far? On the road used unexpectedly such for a long time......, if I am critically ill, including unable to see finally at the same time.” “只是摔了一跤而已,用不着大惊小怪。”老师摇头:“你走的也太远了吧？竟然路上用了这么久……如果我病危的话,岂不是连最后一面都见不到了。” „Sorry.” Huai Shi lowers the head. “对不起。”槐诗低着头。 The teacher on hospital bed smiled: „Said sorry, showed that you thought you make mistakes you always to make mistakes probably, Huai Shi.” 病床上的老师笑了起来:“说对不起,证明你觉得自己犯了错你好像总在犯错啊,槐诗。” „Yes.” Huai Shi nods. “是啊。”槐诗颔首。 „ But a person life, must handle a correct matter, not? “可一个人一生,总要做一件正确的事情,不是吗？ In the long silence, Huai Shi was shocked. 漫长的沉默里,槐诗愣住了。 It is not able to refute, but actually...... does not know that should say anything is good. 无法反驳,可是却……不知道应该说什么才好。 He can only lower the head: „Sorry.” 他只能低下头:“对不起。” „You have anything to be unfair to me, Huai Shi.” The old person shakes the head: The matter that „these years you handle...... dawn educates, the northwest hydraulic engineering, to have the assistance plan, do these have the mistake? Everyone is thanking you for the help that they make, Huai Shi, but did you forget yourself?” “你又有什么事情对不起我呢,槐诗。”老人摇头:“这些年你做的事情……黎明教育、西北水利工程、还有助学计划,这些难道有错吗？每个人都在感谢你为他们做的帮助,槐诗,但你是不是忘记了你自己？” „I am only......” “我只是……” „You had not found, I know.” The old person sighed: „But before helping everyone, shouldn't you first help itself?” “你只是还没有找到而已,我知道。”老人叹息:“但在帮助所有人之前,你难道不应该先帮助自己吗？” „Why you, when proceeds, can't turn head look occasionally?” The old person is looking at carefully his eye pupil, said in a soft voice: „Visits me, looks slightly clear, visits your friends......, because we are also visiting you, you one day can come back.” “为何你在往前走的时候,不能偶尔回头看一看？”老人端详着他的眼瞳,轻声说:“看一看我,看一看小晴,看一看你的朋友们……因为我们也在看着你,在等你有一天能够回来。” „......” “……” Huai Shi in same place. 槐诗愣在了原地。 Silent , the old person is listening attentively to the music in television, in a soft voice humming: „Howmanyroadsmustamanwalkdown?” 寂静里,老人倾听着电视机里的音乐,轻声哼唱着:“howmanyroadsmustamanwalkdown?” How many roads does a person want to take to become the man? 一个人要走多少路才能成为男子汉呢？ Huai Shi does not know. 槐诗不知道。 But at this moment, he actually unprecedented regret and anxieties: He took such long road, how long also made these stare at own person to wait for? 可此刻,他却有一种前所未有的懊悔和不安:他走了这么长的路,又让那些凝望着自己的人等待了多久？ Becoming the man is so important? 成为男子汉就这么重要吗？ During these years he in terrified and vacant travels around in the all over the world, probably the wandering soul such does not have the turning over to place, even if using these things that oneself all efforts handle, but really can be felt satisfied by oneself? 这些年他在惶恐和茫然之中周游在世界各地,好像游魂那样无所归处,哪怕倾尽自己所有的努力去做的那些事情,但真的能够让自己感到满足么？ „Huai Shi, likes letting the person selective wait.” The teacher said suddenly in a soft voice: „But, do not let like your person and others being too long.” “槐诗,爱会让人选择等待。”老师忽然轻声说:“但是,不要让爱你的人等太久。” That flash, he in startled realize finally suddenly. 那一瞬间,他终于在恍然中惊觉。 „Got it?” “明白了？” The old person smiled, lifts the hand gently, combed a hair for him, fills with happily: „ Goes, goes to handle the correct matter. 老人笑了起来,轻轻抬起手,为他梳理了一下头发,满怀愉快:“去吧,去吧去做正确的事情。 You have to recall all these possibilities, before you die of old age truly. ” 你还有挽回这一切的可能,在你真正老去之前。” Huai Shi does not abandon looked at teacher one eyes, turns around, is dashing about wildly departure. 槐诗不舍的看了老师一眼,转身,狂奔着离去。 Nearly hits on passing through the gate Ai Qing. 险些撞在进门的艾晴身上。 „Mental illness!” Ai Qing looks at the appearance that he dashes about wildly startled, has vacant turning head, looks to mother: „ He how? Substance abuse? „ “神经病啊！”艾晴愕然地看着他狂奔的样子,有茫然回头,看向母亲:“他怎么啦？嗑药了？“ The old person on hospital bed smiled. 病床上的老人笑了起来。 „...... Grew up probably finally?”. “大概……是终于长大了吧？”. Huai Shi runs in the wind. 槐诗奔跑在风里。 One side entrained the backpack of burden to throw, tore the bow tie, ran furiously, probably instinct same charged into some place, charges into place that somebody was. 拽下了累赘的背包抛到一边,扯开领结,奋力奔跑,好像本能一样的冲向某个地方,冲向某个人所在的地方。 Waits for own place to her. 到她等待自己的地方去。 Until the exhausted being hard breath, the staggering vanguard, finally found in that memory the even more clear silhouette. 直到疲惫的难以呼吸,踉跄前行,终于找到了那个记忆中越发清晰的侧影。 She also stays there. 她还停留在那里。 In consternation turn head, then saw that long-separated for a long time face, remains vaguely once the sincere outline of that youngster. 当愕然回头时,便看到了那一张阔别已久的面孔,依稀还残留着曾经那个少年的诚挚轮廓。 Even if so distressed. 哪怕如此狼狈。 Had flash that Huai Shi feels unprecedented rejoicing. 有那么一瞬间,槐诗感受到了前所未有的庆幸。 Thank God. 谢天谢地。 She also here. 她还在这里。 Huai Shi exhausts the final strength, deeply attracts, has all courage. 槐诗用尽最后的力气,深吸,鼓起所有的勇气。 „Fu Yi.” “傅依。” He said, „I have the words to tell you” 他说,“我有话要告诉你” After this, is the endless time. 从此之后,便是漫漫时光. 【Theend its one】 【theend・其之一】 When then, all welcomed that flash of end. 而后,当一切迎来终结的那一刹那。 Time postscript, everything renewed. 时光再启,万象更新。 Huai Shi opens the eye again, heard seemingly familiar sound. 槐诗再一次睁开眼睛,听见了似曾相识的声音。 „Name?” “姓名？”