„If you must handle this business......” “如果您要办理这个业务的话……” „...... The present heart mortgage loan has the favorable condition.” “……现在心脏抵押贷款是有优惠条件的。” „Your physical examination certification report......” “您的体检证明报告……” „Is sorry very much......” “很抱歉……” „Congratulates you, the loan examined and approved, after 90 working days, will arrive at your account. Naturally, you can also enjoy our quick channel services......” “恭喜您,贷款审批下来了,在九十个工作日之后,会到您的账户。当然,您也可以享受我们的快捷通道服务……” ...... …… Life as always starts from early morning work , to continue to afternoon two o'clock. 一如既往的生活从清晨的工作开始,延续到午后两点钟。 Huai Shi numb processing own work, the good-for-nothing is probably same, the scared witless reply mail, receives the customer, telephones a round of fax, or pretends non-involvement own responsibility and flings the pot. 槐诗麻木的处理着自己的工作,像是行尸走肉一样,魂不守舍的回复邮件,接待客户,打电话发传真,或者撇清自己的责任和甩锅。 Probably these times are the same, are depending upon the instinct, processes all these. 像是过去那些时候一样,依靠着本能,去处理这一切。 Could not ponder that thinks. 不去思考不去想。 Looking like same in the past. 就像是往常一样。 But actually and was different in the past. 但却和往常不同。 In being distracted, he himself does not know, oneself is thinking anything...... 在走神的时候,他自己都不知道,自己在想一些什么…… „Ok, Huai Shi, today's performance was higher than many yesterday.” “可以啊,槐诗,今天的绩效比昨天高了好多。” When hesitates is rubbing gently again a while eats a thing, suddenly hears behind sound, a hand is patting his shoulder. 就在犹豫着是再磨蹭一会儿还是去吃点东西的时候,忽然都听见身后的声音,一张手拍着他的肩膀。 The future smile is warm. 来者笑容热情。 When Huai Shi turn head, actually cannot bear call out in alarm makes noise. 可槐诗回头时,却忍不住惊叫出声。 In those days was only the nodding acquaintance colleague, over the face blood, the facial expression twisted unexpectedly, after fierce smile, the head was incomplete, probably was broken out by the axe is the same, the worm in opening extended the whisker, the eye is spying on by the opening slowly outward. 往日里只是点头之交的同事,竟然满面鲜血,神情扭曲,狰狞的笑容后,头颅残缺,像是被斧子劈开一样,裂口之中的蠕虫延伸触须,有一只眼睛正缓缓的透过裂口向外窥探。 But quick, all illusions also vanished without the trace. 可很快,一切幻觉也都消失无踪了。 The colleagues returned to normal. 同事恢复了正常。 That is not the worm and monster, is only a ponder plug-in unit...... 那不是什么蠕虫和怪物,只是一个思考插件而已…… Now the smile is awkward. 只是,如今笑容就尴尬起来。 Detected the line of sight that periphery the person looks , the smile of colleague diverged, cast aside Huai Shi one, turned around to depart: „Mother, is sick.” 察觉到周围人看过来的视线,同事的笑容散去,撇了槐诗一眼,转身离去:“妈的,有病。” But Huai Shi, sits on the chair as before, respite. 而槐诗,依旧坐在椅子上,喘息。 Only feels streaming with sweat. 只感觉汗流浃背。 It is not right. 不对劲。 Today one all day, is not right. 今天一整天,都不对劲。 „Where has the issue?” “哪里有问题？” He by the crude chair, rubs is looking at the screen too long young man pain dim-sighted eye, puts out a hand to take the eye drops, in may take discovery is actually one bottle of odors blood plasma. 他靠在简陋的椅子上,揉着看屏幕太久之后生痛昏花的眼睛,伸手想要去拿眼药水,可拿到手里的却发现是一瓶恶臭的血浆。 The Huai Shi fine hair is but actually vertical, the opens the mouth, wants to cry out. 槐诗汗毛倒竖,张口,想要呐喊。 But in his hands, the blood plasma turned into the appearance of eye drops rapidly. 可在他手里,血浆迅速的变成了眼药水的样子。 In is only left over to be silent, he one that exudes from the throat sobs slightly, strange look that periphery the colleague looks. 只剩下寂静里,他从喉咙里发出的一声细微呜咽,还有周围同事看过来的奇怪眼神。 It is not right. 不对劲。 This time, he knows, oneself is not really right. 这一次,他知道,自己真的不对劲了。 „Sorry, letting, letting I go to the washroom......” “抱歉,让让,让让我去洗手间……” Huai Shi sets out, staggers, is panting for breath in compartmented that enters the washroom, then cannot bear the fierce vomit, the thing that will eat yesterday evening spat. 槐诗起身,一个踉跄,喘息着钻进洗手间的隔间里,便忍不住剧烈的呕吐,将昨天晚上吃下去的东西都吐了出来。 In stomach air-to-air. 胃里空空。 When he turn head looks at to the mirror time, then saw distressed middle-aged person who looks deathly pale, the facial expression dispirited. 等他回头看向镜子的时候,便看到一个脸色惨白、神情萎靡的狼狈中年人。 The beard stretches out, on collar wet a piece. 胡子拉碴,领子上湿了一片。 The tears have welled up with the vomit. 眼泪已经和呕吐物一起涌出来了。 „It is not right, not to......” “不对啊,不对……” He twists off water Dragon Head (Leader) at a loss, washes the hands, washes the face, washes the hands and washes the face again, time and time again, forgot the terminal unceasing going to the bathroom time warned, thinking aloud of delay. 他茫然的拧开水龙头,洗手,洗脸,再洗手和洗脸,一次又一次,忘记了终端不断的如厕时间警告,呆滞的自言自语。 From starts, is not right. 从什么时候开始,就不对劲了。 Ponder of Huai Shi doubts. 槐诗疑惑的思考着。 After bidding good-bye ? 分手之后？ No, he even about this point felt that does not have. 不,他甚至对这一点感觉都没有。 Started to be together so many years girlfriends to say to oneself during the university bids good-bye, he actually did not have the fluctuation at heart, looking like threw a plastic bag to be the same. 从大学期间开始相处了那么多年的女朋友对自己说分手,他竟然心里毫无波动,就像是丢了一个塑料袋一样。 No does not abandon. 没有任何的不舍。 Even does not have to telephone and bring the gift as before again to come to apologize. 甚至没有像过去一样再打电话和带着礼物上门道歉。 This morning, when receives railed with the angry message, is wooden, tranquil click deletion. 今天早上,收到谩骂和愤怒的留言时,也毫无表情,平静的点击了删除。 He thought that oneself was certainly sick. 他觉得自己一定是有什么病了。 But he felt, if oneself are sick, that certainly not right earlier...... 但他觉得,如果自己有病的话,那一定不对劲的更早…… Bidding good-bye must be earlier. 比分手还要更早。 Before that...... 在那之前…… His head pain, cannot bear cover the face suddenly, in the brain appears the shatter memory, the ice-cold street, the activists of downstairs these calls, the bummer in dark lane,...... also has...... 他的脑袋忽然一痛,忍不住捂住脸,脑中浮现出破碎的记忆,冰冷的街道,楼下那些呐喊的维权者,暗巷里的乞讨者,还有……还有…… That person who is throwing over the strange cape. 还有那个披着诡异斗篷的人。 „Please give me time, making me introduce that hoarse sound reverberation for you” near the ear: „Our Sky Father savior, Baja......” “请给我一点时间,让我为您介绍”那沙哑的声音回荡在耳边:“我们的天父救主,巴哈……” Baja? 巴哈？ Is called Baja? Baja what? 叫做巴哈么？还是巴哈什么？ In once again the delay of arrival, he feels oneself mentality once again uncontrolled radiation: Baja...... Baja...... friend Habbah? Feeling like will install to compel, does not look like. Bap Love? Who is that? Conducts the research? Publius? Who is that? Sounds under punches...... 在又一次到来的呆滞和恍惚中,他感觉自己的思路又一次不受控制的发散起来:巴哈……巴哈……友哈巴赫？感觉好像就是个会装逼的,不太像。巴普洛夫？那是谁？搞研究的吗？普布留斯？那又是谁？听上去好欠揍…… Also, Balder? 还有,巴德尔？ Does not have the indication, he feels fierce twitching of heart, unprecedented pain. 毫无征兆的,他感觉心脏的剧烈抽搐,前所未有的痛楚。 „Said goodbye, Huai Shi.” Has the gentle sound reverberation in soul, delivers final blessing: „Said goodbye, my dear friend.” “再见了,槐诗。”有轻柔的声音回荡在灵魂中,送上最后的祝福:“再见了,我亲爱的的朋友。” Then is tranquil and cheerful, is not certainly sad and pain, but makes Huai Shi unable to bear want to burst into tears. 那么平静又欢快,绝无悲伤和苦痛,可是却让槐诗忍不住想要流泪。 „Mother!” “妈的！” He is supporting wash basin, clenches teeth, subconscious scolded makes noise, facial expression even more fierce: „Damn, grass! Grass! Grass!” 他撑着洗手池,咬牙,下意识的骂出声,神情越发的狰狞:“他妈的,草！草！草！” Bang! 嘭！ In frightened and unknown , his angry fist hammer to bits side had emptied the hand soap, the shatter bottle is tumbling, falls in the person who nearby that just rolled up the sleeves. 在恐惧和未知里,他愤怒的一拳锤碎了旁边早就空了的洗手液,破碎的瓶子翻滚着,掉在了旁边的那个刚刚挽起袖子的人身上。 Left behind ugly/difficult to look at water stain on the ordering shirt. 在订制衬衫上留下了一片难看的水渍。 Silent. 寂静。 Huai Shi vacant raising the head, by the reflection of mirror surface, saw just finished attending responsible Yuan Zhao that the restroom preparation washes the hands. Yuan Zhao is also visiting him, full is startled and shock. 槐诗茫然的抬头,透过镜面的反射,看到了刚刚上完厕所准备来洗手的主管原照。原照也在看着他,满是愕然和震惊。 „...... Sorry.” “……对不起。” Huai Shi wiped subconsciously the face, forgot just vacant and angry, squeezed the smile of flattering, the rickets the waist are apologizing, want to recall a mistake: „Sorry, Manager, I do not have......” 槐诗下意识抹了把脸,忘记了刚刚的茫然和愤怒,挤出讨好的笑容,佝偻着腰道歉,想要挽回一点失误:“对不起啊,主管,我没……” „Is this!” “就是这样！” His words have not said, was broken by Yuan Zhao. 他话还没说完,就被原照打断。 Yuan Zhao puts out a hand, holds down his shoulder, in the stunned facial expression appeared surprised and appreciation: „Is this, small scholartree!” 原照伸手,按住他的肩膀,原本愕然的神情里浮现出一丝惊奇和赞赏:“就是这样啊,小槐！” „?” Huai Shi delay. “啊？”槐诗呆滞。 „You understood, I know, you understood wolf, the wolf!” “你懂了,我就知道,你明白了狼性,狼呀！” Yuan Zhao is delighted, not cares a whoop water stain, highly praises to him: „ I know, you are may make the material. When I see your first, I know, you are in an eye hide are not knowing many beasts the men! 原照眉飞色舞,丝毫不在意身上的水渍,对他大加赞赏:“我就知道,你是个可造之材。早在我看到你第一眼的时候,我就知道,你是一个眼睛里藏着不知道多少禽兽的男人！ This morning the work load promoted so many times, I had had a new look to you thoroughly , your potential is infinite, the potential is infinite! ” 今天早上你的工作量提升了那么多的时候,我就已经对你彻底改观了,果然,你潜力无穷,潜力无穷啊！” „?” “啊？” The Huai Shi delay, is still unreadable, he is saying anything. 槐诗依旧呆滞,难以理解,他在说什么。 Looks that young face talked nonsense to speak irresponsibly anything successful study nearby oneself, anything struggled, what wise remark, could not bear want to give this smelly fool two fists. 只是,看着那一张年轻的面孔在自己跟前胡扯乱说着什么成功学,什么奋斗,什么经验之谈的时候,忍不住想要给这臭傻逼两拳。 The boys did you insert the excrement to insert fluttered? 小子你插粪插飘了是吧？ Wait, anything is inserts the excrement...... 等等,什么是插粪…… After neglected subconsciously bewilderedly at heart to the bad appraisal of manager, Huai Shi fell into once again about this issue radiation mentality. 下意识的忽略了心里莫名其妙给主管的恶劣评价之后,槐诗又一次陷入了关于这个问题的发散思路中。 Is unreadable. 难以理解。 When he stands in front of the window, vacant looked is familiar with all times to out of the window that all are found in the building of flesh whisker entirely different, in just like the strange eye pupil same ebullition of float in midair, heavy traffic the strange giant beast. In the inverted image of window, combines among the colleagues, these grotesque things...... 当他站在窗户前面的,茫然的看向窗外那熟悉一切的时候,一切又在恍惚中截然不同遍布着血肉触须的大楼,宛如诡异眼瞳一样漂浮在半空中的沸腾,车水马龙里的诡异巨兽。还有窗户的倒影中,混杂在同事之间的,那些奇形怪状的东西…… The whole world becomes unable to understand. 整个世界都变得无法理解。 Let him be hard to breathe. 让他难以呼吸。 When he is staring at oneself inverted image dedicated, actually discovery that inverted image also becomes so strange. 可当他专注的凝视着自己的倒影时,却发现那一张倒影也变得如此陌生。 Gradually young, pretty, is in high spirits. 渐渐年轻,俊秀,神采飞扬。 In the eye pupil has some type only in the light that in the dream presents. 眼眸里带着某种只会在梦里出现的光。 Who is that? 那又是谁？ That is Huai Shi. 那是槐诗。 Has some sound near the ear twittering, as if the auditory hallucination in soul is the same, makes him in vacant, gradually delay. 有某个声音在耳边呢喃,仿佛灵魂中的幻听一样,令他在茫然之中,渐渐呆滞。 Forgot again oneself is where. 再一次的忘记了自己身在何处。 But in afternoon, at office convention pep rally, newly appointed in charge of delighted was rephrasing in own words brings the news from the management. 而就在午后,办公室惯例的动员会上,新上任的主管眉飞色舞的转述着从管理层带来好消息。 „ I take over, our entire fourth banking department, is ranked the entire company first from the bottom now, has risen to second! “我接手的时候,我们整个第四业务部,排行整个公司倒数第一现在,已经上升到第二了！ So long as everyone makes persistent efforts, many efforts, our entire department in the range that can from these lay off time is separated...... may celebrate encouraging, may celebrate encouraging! ” 只要大家再接再厉,多多努力,我们整个部门就能从这一次裁员的范围里脱离……可喜可贺,可喜可贺！” Responded his, was the innumerable colleague wild with joy and warm applauses. 回应他的,是无数同事狂喜又热烈的掌声。 „ Such achievement, cannot leave works conscientiously and diligently, similarly, cannot leave the massive support of company, here, making us first thank the board of directors and banking department chief minister. “这样的成就,离不开各位兢兢业业的工作和努力,同样,也离不开公司的大力扶持,在这里,让我们先感谢董事会和业务部总部长。 In order to express our fourth banking department strives to get the upper hand, gets rid of the determination of last stage, I have taken the lead to make the commitment to the board of directors! ” 为了表示我们第四业务部力争上游,摆脱末流的决心,我已经向董事会率先做出承诺！” Yuan Zhao rolled up the sleeves, lifts a finger, the blasting said: „ Starting from this month, this quarter, the overtime of our department whole staff, must be the entire company first! 原照挽起袖子,抬起一根手指,震声说:“从这个月开始,这个季度,我们部门全员的加班时间,一定要位列整个公司第一！ Our performance, rushes to the banking department first ten! 我们的业绩,也冲到业务部的前十！ Some people said me unable to achieve, some people feel me to be laughable, you? You felt I said laughable! ” 有人说我做不到,有人觉得我可笑,你们呢？你们觉得我说的可笑么！” „Working overtime, we fear anything!” “加班而已,我们怕什么！” In the temporary stagnation, these just entered the intern in company and are put on regular status the shortly after rookies to start warm and crazy applause. 在短暂的停滞中,那些刚刚进入公司的实习生和转正没多久的新人们开始热情又疯狂的鼓起掌来。 „Right, yes, working overtime, boils them!” “对,就是,加班,熬死他们！” „We are first!” “我们是第一！” „First!!!” “第一！！！” „Very good, very good! Very good!” “很好,非常好！非常好！” Yuan Zhao both hands make a fist, cried out: „Striving for success struggle, the achievement, tries hard together, the wealth is free!” 原照双手握拳,呐喊:“拼搏奋斗,成就自我,共同努力,财富自由！” Under the stage, everyone is red the eye, brandishes the fist. 在台下,所有人都红着眼睛,挥舞拳头。 „Achievement!!!” “成就自我！！！” „Wealth is free!!!” “财富自由！！！” The slogan of high morale continuously, made face exciting blushing of Yuan Zhao. 斗志昂扬的呐喊声此起彼伏,令原照的面孔兴奋的发红。 He points at the face in crowd, the roll-call is praising, to finally, finger one revolution, aimed at Huai Shi suddenly: „Here, I must report an old friend to everyone not, he has been reborn, thorough rebirth, come, small scholartree, to us” 他指着人群中的面孔,点名表扬,到最后,手指忽然一转,指向了槐诗:“在这里,我要向各位介绍一位老朋友不,他已经脱胎换骨,彻底重生,来,小槐,到我们这边来” Huai Shi delay. 槐诗呆滞。 „Huai Shi? Huai Shi......” his nearby person pushed his, he responded, doubts is looking all around the surroundings, had anything clearly. “槐诗？槐诗……”他旁边的人推了他一下,他才反应过来,疑惑的环顾着周围,才明白发生了什么。 As if awakening from a dream walks up, is only that sluggish appearance, as if also in dream. 如梦初醒的走上前去,只是那迟滞的样子,仿佛还在梦里。 „Since yesterday's talk, believes that everyone has witnessed today's brand-new Huai Shi, the head wolf that conforms to our enterprise culture and company atmosphere, is born! Look, this fighting face! Look! This looking disdainfully myriad things tranquil look” “自从昨天的谈话之后,相信大家已经见证了今天全新的槐诗,一个符合我们企业文化和公司氛围的头狼,正在诞生！看,这一副斗志昂扬的面孔！看！这睥睨万物的平静眼神” Yuan Zhao excited is blocking Huai Shi, introduced toward everyone, neglected a dull type of nearby Huai Shi face sleepwalk. 原照激动的拦着槐诗,向着所有人介绍,忽略了旁边槐诗一脸梦游的呆样。 „Come, Huai Shi, told everyone, your mental journey, your idea” microphone, stopper to his mouth. “来,槐诗,跟大家说说,你的心路历程,你的想法”话筒,塞到了他的嘴边。 „......, Very suddenly.” “……就,挺突然的。” The Huai Shi delay, was pondering probably, but does not know oneself are pondering anything, can only, the reply of instinct: „The feeling, all were different.” 槐诗呆滞,像是在思考,可根本不知道自己在思考什么,只能,本能的回答:“就感觉,一切都不一样了。” „Where different?” Yuan Zhao approached excitedly: „Related in detail!” “哪里不一样？”原照兴奋的凑近了:“细说！” „This world, I, you, with the past different......” “这个世界,还有我,还有你们,都和过去不一样了……” He looks the world that at present the illusion grows thickly, smiled difficultly: „I, which do not know well.” 他看着眼前幻觉丛生的世界,艰难的笑了一下:“我,不知道哪个更好一点。”