SAHDA :: Volume #6

#516: In the past

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thanks Ru not agrees told opens sighs the matter about white Yuxin, but stretch/open Tan was not angry, was not discouraged, knows the direction was good, always had the means that he did not have to ask, still thanked thanks Ru, led journey journey to walk with Meng Guangxin. 谢茹不肯告诉张叹关于白雨新的事情,不过张叹并不生气,也不气馁,知道了方向就好,总有办法的,他没有多问,依然感谢了谢茹,和孟广新带着程程走了。 In the afternoon he came again, thanks Ru see is he, said: „Did you come? I said I will not divulge the customer privacy.” 下午他再次来了,谢茹见又是他,说道:“你怎么又来了？我说了我是不会泄露顾客隐私的。” stretch/open Tan said with a smile: „I know, this is the professional ethics, but, I have reason, this is Officer Ding Jiamin, is responsible for our police station police, in the past white Yuxin passed away, she is also the personnel, she can testify for me, please help.” 张叹笑道:“我知道,这是职业操守,不过,我是事出有因,这位是丁佳敏警官,负责我们这一带的派出所民警,当年白雨新去世,她也是办案人员,她可以为我作证,请你帮个忙。” Ding Jiamin revealed that own police prove, thanks Ru Zaixi looked, gives back to her, asking them to come to sit, poured two cups of clear water, sat opposite of them, asked: Matter that „why you must understand white Yuxin? Having reason, is what, because?” 丁佳敏亮出自己的警察证,谢茹仔细看了看,还给她,请他们进来坐,倒了两杯清水,坐他们对面,问道:“你们为什么要了解白雨新的事情？事出有因,是什么因？” Ding Jiamin looked hesitant to stretch/open Tan, stretch/open Tan, said: „I in the past and white Yuxin knew, to her death knows some time ago, I want to understand clearly, after all is my good friend.” 丁佳敏看向张叹,张叹犹豫了一下,说道:“我当年和白雨新认识,对她的死是不久前才知道的,我想了解清楚,毕竟是我的好朋友。” thanks Ru: „Because of this?” 谢茹:“就因为这个？” The power of observation of research psychology is astonishing, saw unexpectedly stretch/open Tan has not spoken the truth. 研究心理的观察力惊人,竟然看出张叹没有说实话。 Facing her as if completely understood that mind vision, stretch/open Tan said awkwardly: „white Yuxin left behind a child in the past, I want to know that who her father is.” 面对她仿佛看透心灵的目光,张叹尴尬地说:“白雨新当年留下一个孩子,我想知道她的生父是谁。” Ding Jiamin is startled, looks at stretch/open Tanchang the big mouth...... 丁佳敏吃了一惊,看着张叹长大嘴…… Instead is thanks Ru not too many surprised, after staring at his eye to look at the little while, nods saying: „This also almost, what do you want to ask?” 反而是谢茹并没有太多惊讶,盯着他的眼睛看了会儿后,点点头说:“这还差不多,你想问什么？” stretch/open Tan has the question that too wants to ask, he reorganized a mentality, asked: „When white Yuxin does start to have the psychological disease?” 张叹有太多想问的问题,他整理了一下思路,问道:“白雨新是什么时候开始有心理疾病的？” Ding Jiamin hesitant, left silently, sits looks at out of the window to the distant place. Although stretch/open Tan had not said that makes her avoid, but she chooses to avoid on own initiative, very obviously, these things are the things of stretch/open Tan very privacy, she is not good to audit. 丁佳敏犹豫了一下,默不作声地离开了,坐到远处看窗外。虽然张叹没有说让她避开一下,但是她主动选择避开,很显然,这些事情是张叹很隐私的事情,她不好旁听。 stretch/open Tan looked at her one eyes, has not said anything, actually big relaxing, to be honest, Ding Jiamin audits at heart, his pressure is big. 张叹看了她一眼,没有多说什么,心里其实大大的松了一口气,说实话,丁佳敏旁听,他压力好大。 thanks Ru said: „I do not know when white Yuxin falls ill, when she comes here to see a doctor, is in the winter, remembers is in December, Pujiang rare had snow, therefore I remember specially clearly, at that time she was pregnant, there are three months.” 谢茹说道:“我不知道白雨新是什么时候生病的,但是她来我这里看病时,是冬天,记得是12月份,浦江难得的下了一场雪,所以我记得特别清楚,那时候她怀孕了,有三个多月了。” „Pregnancy time despondent?” stretch/open Tan asked with amazement. He thinks was Jiang even passed away to attack her, causing her to be despondent, without thinking was pregnancy time was despondent, „why?” “怀孕的时候抑郁的？”张叹惊讶地问道。他原本以为是姜平去世打击了她,导致她抑郁的,没想到是怀孕的时候就抑郁了,“为什么？” thanks Ru had the profound meaning to look at his one eyes, said truthfully: „The child who because she is with is not her husband, in her heart is very guilty.” 谢茹别有深意地看了他一眼,如实说道:“因为她怀的孩子不是她老公的,她心中很愧疚。” stretch/open Tan the expression is stiff, is extremely awkward and guilty. 张叹表情僵硬,万分的尴尬和愧疚。 thanks Ru continued: „Her husband is very good to her, but more is good to her, guilt in her heart is more intense, gradually, had the psychological issue, in addition pre-natal despondent, caused to start to affect her normal life, she found here for the first time, was her husband is accompanying.” 谢茹继续说:“她老公对她很好,但是对她越好,她心中的愧疚就越强烈,久而久之,就有了心理上的问题,加上产前抑郁,导致已经开始影响她的正常生活了,她第一次找到我这里,是她老公陪着来的。” stretch/open Tan felt that the throat was stopped up by anything, when speech is hoarse-voiced, has almost not said the sound, coughed two to recover consciousness, asks: „Does her husband know these?” 张叹感觉喉咙被什么堵住了,说话时声音沙哑,差点没说出声,咳了两下才缓过来,问道:“她老公知道这些？” thanks Ru nods: „Knows, drinks a water.” 谢茹点头:“知道,喝点水吧。” She referred to drinking glass before stretch/open Tan the body, by the cup body, she saw that stretch/open Tan the finger has the refraction and distortion. 她指了指张叹身前的玻璃杯,透过杯身,她看到张叹的手指发生折射、扭曲。 stretch/open Tan said the sound thanks, carries the cup to drink water, puts down, looks to thanks Ru. 张叹说了声谢谢,端起杯子喝了口水,放下,看向谢茹。 thanks Ru said: „Many that I know, because she treated from all sides for about two years here, I can tell you, but not because of the guarantee of Officer Ding, but is hopes the daughter who white Yuxin found the correct home to return.” 谢茹说:“我知道的很多,因为她前前后后在我这里治疗了将近两年,我可以都告诉你,但不是因为丁警官的保证,而是希望白雨新的女儿找到正确的归宿。” stretch/open Tan is silent the nod. 张叹沉默着点头。 thanks Ru told white Yuxin the matter in detail. 谢茹详细地讲述白雨新的事情。 white Yuxin is on the bosom little white starts to ask thanks Ru to look at the psychological disease, because in her heart guilty Jiang even, gradually, the self- pressure is too big, causes pre-natal despondent. 白雨新是在怀上小白的时候开始找谢茹看心理疾病,因为她心中愧疚姜平,久而久之,自我压力太大,导致产前抑郁。 All these, Jiang even know. 这一切,姜平都知道。 After giving birth to little white, white Yuxin gradually restored, until recovering, had probably over six months has not looked for thanks Ru again, when thanks Ru thinks when white Yuxin was getting better completely, some day she looked, that was Jiang even passed away. 后来生下小白后,白雨新逐渐恢复,直至痊愈,大概有半年多没再来找谢茹,就当谢茹以为白雨新完全痊愈了时,有一天她又找来了,那是姜平去世的时候。 Because Jiang even passed away suddenly, white Yuxin is sad excessively, the psychological issue recurs again, in addition on white Yuxin Jiang even the company begs the view, because of her person single Shiruo, leads little white orphan widowed mother, does not know the law, without the way, the company gave 5000 money condolence payments, sent her, causing the spirit is not unstabler. 因为姜平突然去世,白雨新伤心过度,心理上的问题再次复发,加上白雨新上姜平的公司讨要说法,因为她人单势弱,带着小白孤儿寡母的,不懂法,没途径,公司给了5000块钱慰问金,把她打发了,导致精神更加不稳定。 When thanks Ru sees her, her state of mind is very bad. thanks Ru causes to go all-out, does not have the effective way to help white Yuxin, until white Yuxin discovered oneself were pregnant again. 谢茹见到她时,她精神状态很差。谢茹使尽全力,也没有有效的办法帮助白雨新,直到白雨新发现自己再次怀孕了。 At that time white Yuxin had cherished for three months, thanks Ru seized this opportunity, told her to take care of itself well, let off itself, not for oneself, must think of the child of belly, this was Jiang even the last bloodlines. 那时候白雨新已经怀了三个月了,谢茹抓住这个机会,告诉她要好好照顾自己,放过自己,不为自己,也要为肚子的孩子着想,这是姜平的最后一丝血脉。 white Yuxin really perceived, the state of mind stabilizes and changes for the better gradually, all are going forward to the good aspect, miscarried until white Yuxin. 白雨新果然听进去了,精神状态渐渐稳定、好转,一切都在向好的方面前进,直到白雨新流产了。 She the child from the bosom starts, the body had not recuperated well, in addition the state of mind is very bad, three meals a day is not punctual, even is intermittent, little white follows she is also full hungry, a clothes likely urchin. 她从怀上孩子开始,身体一直没有好好调养,加上精神状态很差,一日三餐不准时,甚至时有时无,小白跟着她也是饱一顿饿一顿,穿着打扮像个野孩子。 Although she tries hard to preserve the child, but cannot preserve finally. 虽然她努力想要保住孩子,但最终还是没能保住。 This time, almost wanted white Yuxin the life. 这一次,几乎要了白雨新的命。 Rebukes oneself with reach the peak her guilty, often talked over her only the bloodlines lane in this world not to have Jiang even, finally committed suicide despondently. 她内心的自责和愧疚达到顶峰,时常念叨她把姜平在这世上唯一的血脉弄没了,最终抑郁自杀了。 At this point, mournful of thanks Ru whole face, wiped the eye saying: „Several days before she commits suicide, I have also visited her, she sunbathes in the corridor, that child hungry gnaws the carrot to eat at home, sees my first is, the aunt I was hungry.” 说到这里,谢茹满脸的凄然,擦了擦眼睛说:“她自杀前几天,我还去看过她,她在走廊里晒太阳,那个孩子饿的在家里啃胡萝卜吃,看到我的第一句就是,阿姨我饿了。” Opens sighs pinches tightly the double fist, have mixed feelings arrives at the extreme. 张叹捏紧双拳,心情复杂到极点。 thanks Ru continued: „I packed some meals to come back, feed them to eat, chatted with white Yuxin was very long, her state of mind was very bad, turns a deaf ear, the darkness I walked, has not thought that after several days came again, was informed saying that she had died, her daughter was also picked. This is the entirety that I know, what do you have to ask?” 谢茹继续说:“我打包了一些饭菜回来,喂她们吃了,又和白雨新聊了很久,她精神状态很差,听不进去,天黑了我才走,没想到过了几天再来,被告知说她已经死了,她女儿也被人接走了。这就是我知道的全部,你还有什么想问的？” stretch/open Tan listens, in the heart resounds a numerous sigh, silent speechless. 张叹听完,心中响起一声重重的叹息,沉默无语。 thanks Ru is waiting patiently, asked until stretch/open Tan again: „You know the father who her daughter who is?” 谢茹耐心地等着,直到张叹再次问道:“你知道她女儿的生父是谁吗？” thanks Ru shook the head saying that she does not know, „white Yuxin has not raised.” 谢茹摇头说她不知道,“白雨新从来没提过。” stretch/open Tan: „Before you know she passed away, to the daughter changed the surname and birthday?” 张叹:“那你知道她去世前,给女儿改了姓和出生年月吗？” thanks Ru shook the head saying that does not know, suddenly opens mouth, wants to say anything, finally anything had not said. 谢茹摇头说也不知道,忽然张了张嘴,想说什么,最终什么也没说。 Some words cannot say that can only understand. 有些话是不能说的,只能自己理解。 Actually, these words that she spoke a moment ago, had stated a fact to stretch/open Tancheng, that is white Yuxin did not care to her daughter very much. white Yuxin can rebuke oneself to commit suicide for the child who in the belly miscarries, actually cannot for the almost 2-year-old daughter, but strong is living. 其实,她刚才说的这些话,已经向张叹呈述了一个事实,那就是白雨新对她的女儿并不是很关心。白雨新可以为了肚子里流产的孩子而自责自杀,却不能为了快2岁的女儿而坚强的活着。 Without the person pain, don't urged the person to be friendly. 未经人苦,莫劝人善。 These words she can only in think at heart, a person was compelled the hopeless situation of suicide, certainly experienced too many too many pain, each living the person is hard to realize clearly. 这些话她只能在心里自己想想,一个人被逼到自杀的绝境,一定是经历了太多太多的苦,每一个活着的人是难以真切体会到的。 But a little can infer, that is white Yuxin should not have the sentiment to that man, or possibly had at that time, but quick vanished. 但有一点可以推断而出,那就是白雨新对那个男人应该也是没有感情的,或者当时可能有,但很快就消失了。 She cannot say that such words, can only stretch/open Tan realize, she believes opens to sigh to realize. 她不能说这样的话,只能张叹自己体会,她相信张叹能体会到。
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