Truly changed. 确实变了很多。 From the beginning has a guilty conscience to sneak off, to teaching Xu Qing practiced martial art then unable to revolt, again to anticipating him is deceiving itself...... 从一开始问心有愧想要溜走,到教许青习武然后反抗不了,再到期待着他骗自己…… More collapses like a string is tighter, more collapses is tighter, lunar New Year's Eve after that night drank, one collapsed. 就像一根弦越崩越紧,越崩越紧,除夕那天晚上喝酒之后,啪的一下就崩断了。 By is transferred passively actively, only in instant, is actually an qualitative changes. 由被动转为主动,只在一念之间,却是一个质的改变。 The people have the survival demand incessantly. 人不止有生存需求。 Jiang He is holding the back cushion, listening to Xu Qing saying that was lost in thought that another side trivial talk has not done the homework, but took the small claw claw of Winter Melon to hold appreciatively. 姜禾抱着靠枕,听许青说完便陷入沉思,另一边的小言没有写作业,而是拿着冬瓜的小爪爪把玩。 „After the trivial talk, can be the big star?” “小言以后要做大明星啊？” Xu Qing sets out to clean the teeth to the washing the hands stage, comes back to hold appreciatively with the small hand hand of Jiang He, has not forgotten and played the trivial talk speech of small claw claw. 许青起身到洗手台刷完牙,回来拿过姜禾的小手手把玩,还不忘和玩小爪爪的小言说话。 „Right! I must be the star, on television!” The trivial talk is confident, is pointing at the television say/way: „Later you can see me on the television!” “对！我要做明星,上电视！”小言信心满满,指着电视道:“以后你们就能在电视上看见我了！” „Really fierce...... is the star to learn/study well, otherwise the character will even admit mistakes to be smiled.” “真厉害……做明星要好好学习,不然连字都认错就会被人笑死。” Xu Qing delimits to rule out in the Jiang He palm, writes the names of two people with the finger, suddenly discovered surprisedly: „, Our name is 14 pictures.” 许青在姜禾掌心划来划去,用手指写两个人的名字,忽然惊奇发现:“诶,我们两个人名字都是十四画。” „?” Jiang He felt that the palm is itchy, without understanding his anything meaning. “啊？”姜禾感觉掌心痒痒的,没理解他什么意思。 „Fate ~” “缘分啊~” This his feeling, is willing to let loose her small hand finally, sits teaches the trivial talk to do the homework to another side. 这丫的感慨一声,终于舍得放开她的小手,坐到另一边教小言写作业。 „How many pictures is my name?” The trivial talk asked. “我的名字是多少画？”小言问。 „You......” “你啊……” uses/gives word beautiful...... Xu Qing hesitates: „Adds many also compared with our two.” 施言嫣……许青沉吟一下:“比我们两个加起来还多。” „Is so fierce?!” “这么厉害？！” „Yes, is really fierce.” “是啊,真厉害。” Xu Qing complained, „had by the teacher is punished the transcription name?” 许青吐槽,“有没有被老师罚过抄写名字？” „No.” “没有。” „Which day was punished you to find that super was fierce.” “哪天被罚一下你就会发现超级厉害了。” The trivial talk is staring the ignorant big eye, thinks the moment shakes the head, „I by the assigning copying out a passage as homework name!” 小言瞪着懵懂的大眼睛,想了片刻才摇摇头,“我才不要被罚抄名字！” The name is so difficult to write, if were assigned copying out a passage as homework 100...... she to lower the head to have a look at winter vacation the work. 名字那么难写,如果被罚抄一百遍……她低头看看寒假作业。 Is more difficult than to write the work. 比作业还难写。 „How when the star does want to work as?” Jiang He listens to them to speak, was considering oneself can study anything. “当明星要怎么当？”姜禾听着他们说话,也在考虑自己能学一些什么。 Here, she except for useless martial arts, other anything not, without experience, without knowledge, without technology...... 在这里,她除了一身没什么用的武艺,其他什么也不会,没有见识,没有学识,没有技术…… By person who the time abandons. 被时代抛弃的人。 Can do only, is looks like online appears in public, such as that manual upright same who Xu Qing said that pats plays the small video of sword, not necessarily can be hot. 唯一能做的,便是像许青说的在网上抛头露面,如那个手工耿一样,拍些耍剑的小视频,还不一定能不能火。 ‚Big probability can the fire......’ ‘大概率是可以火的……’ On that day Xu Qing said like this. 那天许青是这样说的。 Option that ‚must make in you, I do not interfere, but must give careful consideration, you are not enough to here understanding, does not need to make the choice anxiously, regarding you to me? The destiny is very marvelous......’ ‘要不要做的选择权在你,我不干涉,只是要慎重考虑,你对这里的了解还不够多,不用急着做选择,对于你对于我来说?命运都很奇妙……’ Xu Qing under condition in one's power? Gave her very big freedom. 许青在力所能及的条件下?给了她很大自由。 Can access the net is the biggest freedom, what Xu Qing said is really false? Can Jiang He verify? Then oneself make the choice. 能上网就是最大的自由,许青说的是真是假?姜禾都可以自己去查证?然后自己做选择。 Passed in the beginning, understood the general idea of this society? She can still give the country oneself, and proved well-organized do oneself come from Kaiyuan? Rather than when like initially has the hostility to all? Then was regarded the spiritual unusual dangerous elements and organ of violence has the conflict. 度过最初的一段时间后,了解这个社会的大概?她依然能把自己交给国家,并且条理清晰地证明自己来自开元?而不是像初来时一样对一切抱有敌意?然后被当成精神异常的危险分子和暴力机关起冲突。 If then draws on the police from the beginning, even if no a conflict, even if these human brains pulled out believe she came from Kaiyuan, that following matter still can only develop —— this with others' wish is the maximum difference. 若一开始便招来警察,就算没有起冲突,就算那些人脑抽相信了她来自开元,那后面的事也只能随着别人的意愿来发展——这是最大的不同。 Can a road change approaches at any time? Did Xu Qing say? But listens in her, hands over to indicate that oneself the status is alternative, she can change the idea momentarily, chooses another road. 一条路是可以随时变向的?许青只是说?而听不听在她,把自己交出去表明身份一直都是备选项,她随时可以更改自己想法,选择另一条路。 ...... Another road, once chooses, can arrive black? Is impossible to return to now this life. ……另一条路一旦选择,就要一路走到黑?再也不可能回到现在这种生活。 This is she biggest freedom, doesn't need to be worried about the basic necessities of life? Can understand slowly this time, then makes the choice. 这便是她最大的自由,不用担心衣食住行?可以慢慢了解这个时代,然后再做选择。 Even if middle Xu Qing is trying to have the sentiment with her unintentionally? That is also price —— that she needs to pay no one owes her, enjoys free at the same time? Definitely must withstand anything. 即使中间许青在有意无意地试图与她产生感情?那也是她需要付出的代价——没有人欠她的,享受自由的同时?必然要承受些什么。 Moreover Xu Qing has not forced her. 而且许青并没有强迫她。 Is the present all possible best situations? She has long realized this point. 眼下是所有可能中最好的情况?她早就意识到了这一点。 The destiny is marvelous...... 命运是奇妙的…… Does the Jiang He line of sight fall to the Xu Qing lip on? All because of that mouth. 姜禾视线落到许青嘴唇上?一切都因那张嘴而起。 ‚It is getting dark, this rain cannot stop evidently for a short time......’ ‘天快黑了,这雨看样子一时半会儿停不下来……’ Quiet at dead of night, she will often remember Xu Qing to take the appearance and words of umbrella at that time. 夜深人静时,她时常都会想起那时许青拿着伞的模样和话语。 „Star is on the television!” The trivial talk points at the television to answer, does not understand that Jiang He why this does not know. “明星就是上电视的！”小言指着电视解释道,不明白姜禾为什么连这个都不知道。 „Star is sings to dance to act in a play, journey Dieyi such player, some people likes is a star, no one likes......” “明星就是唱歌跳舞演戏,程蝶衣那样的角儿,有人喜欢就是明星,没人喜欢就……” The Xu Qing lip moves slightly, trivial talk explanation is more detailed, „movie that we watch, the principal role is the star develops.” 许青嘴唇微动,比小言解释的详细很多,“我们看的电影,主要角色都是明星来演的。” , He looked to slightly said: „Will you sing?” 顿了顿,他看向小言道:“你会唱歌吗？” „...... Cannot.” “……不会。” „Will dance?” “会跳舞吗？” „I will turn the buttocks!” Slightly said. “我会扭屁股！”小言道。 „Elder Sister Jiang He can also.” Xu Qing smiles. “姜禾姐姐也会。”许青笑。 „I cannot!” “我不会！” The Jiang He air/Qi, is staring at his lip, good to bite his one. 姜禾气,盯着他的嘴唇,好想咬他一口。 „Sings to dance not, that can only act in a play......” Xu Qing to say detected the Jiang He line of sight, the words stop slowly, lifts the hand to trace the mouth, the unexpected happening has leaned the face. “唱歌跳舞都不会,那只能去演戏了……”许青说着察觉到姜禾视线,话语慢慢停下来,抬手摸了摸嘴,鬼使神差地侧过脸去。 Had not heard this matter will also become addicted. 没听说过这种事还会上瘾啊。 „If won't act in a play?” “如果也不会演戏呢？” „Works as the idol.” “当偶像。” „I must work as the idol!” The trivial talk announced own desire loudly. “我要当偶像！”小言大声宣布自己的愿望。 „You?” Xu Qing asked toward Jiang He. “你呢？”许青朝姜禾问。 „I...... my what I?” “我……我什么我？” Jiang He puts down the bosom the hugging pillow to stand, wears to wear to carry off. 姜禾放下怀里的抱枕站起来,趿拉趿拉走开。 Felt inexplicably this fellow is teasing the daughter to be the same, does not want to speak with him. 莫名感觉这家伙在逗女儿一样,不想和他讲话。 Afternoon time and did the homework in the kidding around of trivial talk and Winter Melon moderate in the past, Xu Qing held the notebook to examine slightly breaks up a trip other districts wind directions, was considering must operate the trumpet to try launching. 下午的时间就在小言和冬瓜的嬉闹和写作业中度过去,许青抱着笔记本电脑查看小破站其他分区的风向,考虑着要不要开小号去试一下水。 Jiang He tidies up the health of living room, holds in this clothes of washing the balcony washer, saw the straw sandal of Xu Qing bedhead, then looked at Xu Qing, carried the balcony to wash it secretly again. 姜禾收拾一下客厅的卫生,把该洗的衣服抱到阳台洗衣机里,看到许青床头的草鞋顿了顿,回头瞄一眼许青,偷偷把它拎到阳台去再洗一遍。 „What are you making?” “你在做什么？” „I and I am washing the shoes.” “我、我在洗鞋子。” „Why do you want to wash my shoes?” “你为什么要洗我的鞋？” „This is my.” Jiang He takes the straw sandal to be somewhat ignorant. “这是我的。”姜禾拿着草鞋有些懵。 „You gave me it, was my.” Xu Qing looked that her sneaky appearance finds it ridiculous, „puts down to me.” “你把它送给我了,就是我的。”许青看她鬼鬼祟祟的样子就觉得好笑,“给我放下。” 2 nd on early in the morning a sleep/felt wakes up the shoes of discovery living room to run up to under his bed, he gave up explaining. 初二大早上一觉醒来发现客厅的鞋又跑到他床下,他就放弃解释了。 „Washing is cleaner.” “洗一下更干净。” Jiang He sped up the movement, is controlling the strength with the brush, feared that brushes that it Xu Qing will scheme her to put on badly. 姜禾加快了动作,控制着力道拿刷子唰唰唰,怕把它刷坏了许青又会图谋她穿着的那个。 „I helped the sock that you bought draw near, help you buy the pair high-heeled shoes again, did you like the white black? I like the red bottom......” “我帮你买的袜子快到了,再帮你买双高跟鞋,你喜欢白色的还是黑色的？我喜欢红底的……” Xu Qing takes up the cell phone to ask. 许青拿起手机问。 „I do not like.” “我都不喜欢。” „I bought casually, the small white cloth shoes small black shoes come one pair.” “那我就随便买了,小白鞋小黑鞋都来一双。” „......” “……” Jiang He lip opening and closing two, are speechless for a very long time. 姜禾嘴唇翕动两下,久久无言。