Chapter 47 第47章 Past events taste 往事滋味 The attractive dishes take from the basket, a Century Egg corner/horn of incision stains the bright red sauce that mixes, reddish black relative, bright incomparable. Nie Yunzhu is putting toward the counter on this small dish, at this time also saw clearly that side two men, blinks, faint shows the facial expression of doubts, a moment later, resembled recalled anything, on the face restrained the smile, faint bent the waist, has turned head, continued to take Century Egg outward. 漂亮的碗碟从篮子里拿出来,切开的松花蛋一角沾上调配出来的鲜红色酱料,红黑相对,鲜艳无比。聂云竹正将这小碟往柜台上放,此时也看清楚了那边的两名男子,眨眨眼睛,微微露出疑惑的神情,片刻之后,似是记起了什么,脸上收敛了笑容,微微弯了弯腰,扭过头来,继续将松花蛋往外拿。 „That...... Brother Xiao'Er, troubled you, if there is any sauce to be insufficient, in the past did as one pleases is......” “那……小二哥,麻烦你了,如果有什么酱料不够,过去取便是……” Gu Yanzhen already had the whole face doubts expression to arrive by the counter at this time, turns head to visit her to do these matters, that small two also see probably some improper, suddenly hesitates has not been coming to ask that Gu Yanzhen needs anything. When to speaking softly with slightly two to ask the matter, Nie Yunzhu tidied up the bamboo basket, just now nods toward him with a smile: „Young Master Gu.” 顾燕桢这时已经带着满脸疑惑的表情走到了柜台旁边,扭头看着她做这些事,那小二大概也看出些不妥,一时间犹豫着没有过来问顾燕桢需要些什么。待到柔声细语地跟小二拜托完事情,聂云竹收拾好竹篮,方才笑着朝他点了点头:“顾公子。” „Yun......zhu?” Gu Yanzhen looks at these Century Egg, „how can you...... how come out to sell these things?” “云……竹？”顾燕桢看着那些松花蛋,“你怎会……怎会出来售卖这些东西？” „Why not proper?” Nie Yunzhu packs the thing to walk out, faint knits the brows, asks one. Gu Yanzhen with coming up, side thought the period of time, the words arrived in port to hesitate, after the moment, finally inhales a breath of air, smoothed the mood. “有何不妥吗？”聂云竹收拾东西往外走,微微皱了皱眉,反问一句。顾燕桢跟上来,想了好一阵子,话到口边又迟疑住,片刻后才终于吸了一口气,抚平情绪。 „I and I come back from Dongjing, go to Goldwind House to look for you, knew you already not. I asked you now in, their does not agree to say, only thinks that you resulted in a good home to return , was also happy for you. But how can you...... now so? Appears in public comes out to sell these things?” “我、我自东京回来,去金风楼找你,才知你已不在了。我问了你如今在哪,她们不肯说,只以为你得了个好归宿,也为你高兴。可你如今……怎会如此？抛头露面地出来售卖这些东西？” On street crowded, Nie Yunzhu lowers the head, slightly pondered, just now smiles saying: „Thanks Young Master to worry about, although Yunzhu at this time appears in public, but also makes money by both hands practical training, not deficiency. Compared to the beforehand these life, this heart must turn over to the institute, Young Master not to be worried...... Uh, reveres the friend to wait for in the building, Young Master passes as soon as possible.” 街道上人来人往,聂云竹低头走着,略想了想,方才微笑道:“谢谢公子挂心,云竹此时虽然抛头露面,但也只是以双手劳作赚钱,并无不妥之处。相对于以前那些生活,此心已得归所,公子勿需担心了……呃,尊友尚在楼中等待,公子还是尽快过去吧。” Gu Yanzhen sighed, shakes the head worriedly: „Might as well...... just now that person is Shen Miao Shen Zishan, initially had also once had several reasons with you, you have not recognized him......” Nie Yunzhu to lower the head, he cannot see the expression, soon after smiled, „is also, you such dress up, he has not had to recognize......” 顾燕桢叹口气,苦恼地摇了摇头:“无妨……方才那人乃是沈邈沈子山,当初也曾与你有过几面之缘,你方才没认出他么……”聂云竹低着头,他看不见表情,随后又笑了笑,“也是,你方才此等打扮,他也是未有认出来……” Yunzhu has lowered the head, he also follows in side, does not know that should propose what topic to be good, has to say some past events trivially: „...... Still remembers that year the Bailuzhou head, a Yunzhu zither music took all the audience by surprise, below had once said on the same day...... that year Queen of Flowers Selection, this thinks that Yunzhu must be able to lead the field, who knew the thoughts that Yunzhu competed for continually not to have, when the below side knew the Yunzhu living simply disposition...... departed, this desire with Yunzhu reveals the aspiration, may arrive afterward, was several simple pleasantries...... may I when Dongjing, nevertheless is missing you daily......” 云竹一直低着头走,他也就在旁边跟着,不知道该提什么话题才好,只好琐琐碎碎地说些往事:“……犹记得那年白鹭洲头,云竹一曲琴音技惊四座,在下当日就曾说过……那年选花魁,本以为云竹必能独占鳌头,谁知云竹连争夺的心思都没有,在下方知云竹淡泊心性……离去之时,本欲与云竹吐露心声,可到得后来,还是几句简简单单的客套话……可我在东京之时,却是日日都在思念你……” Thinks, the state of mind surges, several years of idea erupted one time, finally these words, were ready for any sacrifice, words saying that then must pull opposite party hand. Perhaps Nie Yunzhu does business to set up a stall is a novice, this aspect has actually experienced, frowned toward side suddenly moved out of the way the step. Gu Yanzhen faint there, Nie Yunzhu looked at him, is frowning has not spoken, crosses for a long time, shows a smile eventually, collects a front piece ritual. 想着想着,心绪涌动,几年的想法一次爆发了出来,最后这句话,算是豁出去了,话说完便要去挽对方的手。只是聂云竹或许经商摆摊是新手,这方面却早就经验,陡然蹙眉朝旁边挪开了步子。顾燕桢微微愣在了那儿,聂云竹看了看他,皱着眉头没有说话,过得许久,终究还是露出一个微笑,敛衽一礼。 „Yunzhu...... surnamed Nie.” “云竹……姓聂。” „Um?” The Gu Yanzhen scruple moment, soon after said that „you...... this time husband's household's surname?” “嗯？”顾燕桢迟疑片刻,随后才道,“你……此时夫家的姓？” Yunzhu shakes the head: „My father is surnamed Nie. Before the place of driven to prostitution, by the color amusement person, Yunzhu is not willing also to sell to even this surname finally, therefore only used the name of Yunzhu. Initially in Goldwind House, this surname has not told others, however buys freedom to depart now finally, can reply the full name...... Young Master to favor finally initially, Yunzhu felt in one's heart happy, this Young Master Shi still remembered these, Yunzhu also was honored two characters to say, therefore Young Master if in the future really remembers that such a female, Concubine also hopes, naturally Nie Yunzhu, but was not Goldwind House famous courtesan Yunzhu.” 云竹摇了摇头:“家父便是姓聂。之前沦落风尘之地,以色娱人,云竹不愿到最后连这姓氏也卖了,因此只用了云竹之名。当初在金风楼,这姓氏未跟旁人说过,然而如今总算赎身离去,总算能回复全名了……公子当初青睐,云竹心感高兴,此时公子还记得那些,云竹也只有荣幸二字可说,因此公子将来若真记得有那样一个女子,妾身也希望,那是聂云竹,而并非是金风楼的名妓云竹。” These words she is smiling from beginning to end, genial, but supports oneself, the middle is acting bashful the sense of distance. Gu Yanzhen can understand in the words the meaning: „You...... you were blame me only to remember initially you...... however in travel fatigue......” 这番话她从头到尾都是微笑着,和煦但自立,中间拿捏着距离感。顾燕桢自是能听懂话中含义:“你……你是怪我只记得当初在风尘之中的你……可是……” „Not blamed, on the same day Yunzhu, indeed placed in the travel fatigue, earned living and is a prostitute, by the color amusement person, matter was this, was this. Young Master really cares about Yunzhu, Yunzhu is also sincerely grateful, therefore wants to tell Young Master, although now appears in public, but Yunzhu in the heart is peaceful, compared with it in Goldwind House, does not know initially wants merry many times, Young Master can not be the Yunzhu worry.” Her faint bends body ritual, „the Concubine also has matter, first walks one step, Young Master please return.” “并无责怪,当日云竹,的确身处风尘之中,卖艺、卖笑、以色娱人,事情是这样,便是这样。公子是真的关心云竹,云竹也是真心感激的,因此想告诉公子,如今虽是抛头露面,但云竹心中安乐,比之当初在金风楼,不知要快活多少倍,公子勿需为云竹担心了。”她微微屈身一礼,“妾身还有事情,先走一步,公子请回吧。” also has Alehouse Century Egg must deliver, in her heart is thinking this matter. The sale that after all opens with great difficulty, does not dare to go late....... Various talent saw initially a lot as for Gu Yanzhen , some happy fields are vertically and horizontally self-designated, man who quite results in the female favor, Gu Yanzhen these are also quite outstanding, the demeanor scholarship and manner disposition, enable him by many females to be liked on, is only now regarding oneself, that is also only impression deep point ordinary man that's all. 还有一家酒楼的松花蛋要送,她心中想着这事。毕竟是好不容易打开的销路,不敢去得太晚。至于顾燕桢……当初各种才子见得多,也有一些纵横欢场自命风流,颇得女子欢心的男子,顾燕桢在这其中也算是相当出众的,风度才学、举止心性,都让他能被许多的女子喜欢上,只是如今对于自己,那也只是一个印象深一点的普通男人罢了。 Remembers that his past years was goes to the capital to take the civil service exam, shortly after oneself was also oneself redeemed the body, now can meet again, somewhat was truly accidental. But this also met nothing more merely, later will perhaps also meet many people, is not extraordinary. 记得他当年似是上京赶考去了,之后不久自己也为自己赎了身,如今能再遇上,确实有些意外。但这也仅仅是遇上了而已,以后或许还会遇上很多人,不算出奇的。 The Goldwind House Queen of Flowers past events, in in her heart by no means thought that has many loosely refined, did not think that has lofty mood that too may the song be possible to praise. Perhaps in these talent student eyes, poetry association love matters can be praised by tch tch for a long time, who had a liking for by such and such famous courtesan, did entered the guest of curtain, even was beauty adores, offered virgin's body willingly and so on, was the man is highest elegantly also the most enviable achievement. May her, that be a female in many cannot see in the future day, in the heart suffered past pitiful date and time that's all uneasy step by step. 金风楼的花魁往事,在她心中并不觉得有多少风流雅致,也不觉得有太多可歌可颂的高雅情绪。在那些才子学人眼中,或许一场诗会一场风流韵事可以被啧啧称道许久,谁又被某某名妓看上了,做了入幕之宾,甚或是得美人倾心,心甘情愿地献上了处子之身之类的,乃是男子最高最风雅也最令人羡慕的成就。可在她来说,那不过是一个女子在诸多看不见未来的日子里,心中惴惴不安地一步步挨过去的可悲时日罢了。 Comes out from the instruction office division, is withstanding anxiously destiny that becomes the prostitute, is good understands because of four arts, was gives her a small opportunity, soon after was demonstrating oneself diligently, how acted bashful and studies diligently to attract others, being insufficient let the method that the person remembered the vulgar carnal desire, suggested that their such discussed the poem listened to the zither | Jean to be the lofty matter. Even if had some reputations, the heart was still frightened, is afraid which day to have some accidents/surprises suddenly, these had the right to have the person of potential to be really ready for any sacrifice to some female obtain the hand, was not „famous courtesan” and „everyone” can shoulder, various diversions and balance, does not dare really to make the own reputation too loud, became what Queen of Flowers, turned into the man to demonstrate the oneself charm the tool...... 自教坊司中出来,不安地承受着成为妓女的命运,好在琴棋书画都懂,算是给了她一个小小的机会,随后努力向人展示着自己,努力地拿捏和学习着如何吸引他人,却又不至于让人想起粗俗肉欲的法子,暗示他们这样的谈诗听琴乃高雅之事。纵然有了些名声,仍旧心头惴惴,害怕哪一天会突然出些意外,那些有权有势之人真的豁出去了要将某个女子得到手,不是什么“名妓”、“大家”可以扛得住的,各种牵制、制衡,也不敢真把自己的名声弄得太响,成了什么花魁,变成男人展示自己魅力的工具…… In Goldwind House these days, this can preserve the own body woman, few. Miss who really other values do not want to be exemplary in remaining faithful to one's husband until death, where is so good, was filled the medicine forcefully, ties up, various types whip to suffer, no female can shoulder finally, really has also few that the courage commits suicide, or the suicide is inadequate, finally cannot change anything, some girls, are the leading roles that earns living does not sell into servitude, by some time was authorized person who has the potential gave must forcefully the body, who really can give her to support. 金风楼的那些日子里,这能保住自己身子的女人,没有几个。真的没有其它价值又想三贞九烈的姑娘,哪有那么好,被强行灌了药的,绑起来的,各种鞭打折磨的,没有哪个女子能扛到最后,真有勇气自杀的也没几个,或者自杀不成,最终还是改变不了任何事情,也有的姑娘,便算是卖艺不卖身的头牌,到某个时候被有权有势的人给强行要了身子,又有谁真能给她撑腰。 What is most fearful, these girls then revolt from the beginning intensely, soon , will also adapt gradually, numbness gradually, start and person gradually spoke, start gradually learned this life, start gradually under the eaves with other females recounted how oneself met what kind of man...... in that time, she is afraid that every day is being the oneself future portrayal. Was ordinary like the females of extremely few part, committed suicide, either was insane, after being insignificant, was thrown Goldwind House, then turned into the beggar woman, can run on the street that the clothes did not put on, finally crossed in the winter, then turned into a rotten skeleton. 最可怕的是,那些姑娘便是一开始反抗得激烈的,不久之后,也会渐渐的适应,渐渐的麻木,渐渐的开始与人说话,渐渐的开始学会这种生活,渐渐的开始在屋檐下与其他女子述说自己遇上了怎样怎样的男子……那段时间里,她每天都在害怕着那便是自己将来的写照。或者如同极少部分的女子一般,自尽了,又或者疯了,再无价值之后,被扔出金风楼,变成个乞丐婆,衣服也不穿的便能在街上跑,最终过了不了冬季,便变成一具腐烂的尸骨。 Perhaps Gu Yanzhen spoke of the past events to fondly remember very much, but that did not have her to feel matter that fondly remembered, the heart was somewhat disgruntled. However, this naturally is not his mistake, had said like Liheng some time ago, some people keep thinking, eventually is a good deed. His idea is well-meaning, she then should also show the smile facing the opposite party, thanks his good intentions, and makes him understand these things. Naturally, perhaps his some do not understand the meaning of home to return to oneself said that then thinks that oneself gets married. 顾燕桢提起往事或许很怀念,但那其中没有她觉得怀念的事情,心头是有些不悦的。不过,这自然也不是他的错,如同立恒不久前说过的,有人惦记,终究是一件好事。他的想法是善意的,她便也该露出笑容面对对方,谢谢他的善意,并让他明白这些事情。当然,他或许有些不明白自己说的归宿的意思,便认为自己嫁了人也罢。 Went to deliver Century Egg to Cuiping Building, Gu Yanzhen has been watching these matters to the street, this made her faint feel somewhat troublesome, but is unable to think now, cannot say anything. „I...... am missing you...... he to think that in Dongjing daily”, they think, perhaps is that the bullet hit zither | Jean, is all singing the tune with a smile, or is dancing in others' music tries to please others 's Yunzhu —— this unceasingly is not their mistake, she cannot be angry, but at present , can only feel awkwardly...... 一路去到翠屏楼送了松花蛋,顾燕桢一直在对街看着这些事,这才让她微微觉得有些麻烦,但现在也是无法可想,说不了什么。“我在东京……日日都在思念你……”他所想的,他们所想的,或许皆是那个笑着、弹着琴、唱着曲,或者在别人的乐声中跳着舞不断地取悦他人的云竹——这也不是他们的错,她生不了气,但眼下,也只能是觉得为难了…… Since several years, or have also had the date and time that plays accompaniment while singing to entertain, but have truly thought that from now on, not will try to please others by these methods and smiling faces. This Gu Yanzhen, then calculates that mentioned these what kind of, if oneself not play the zither, did not sing songs, does not dance and no longer echoes these love affair poetry or praises such and such talent literary talent tall Jue, then everyone sat together, how many can also have to discuss? However thinks of here, actually cannot help but remembers some exceptional situation...... 几年以来,或也有自弹自唱自娱自乐的时日,但确实想过,从今往后,再不以这些手段和笑脸取悦旁人了。这顾燕桢,便算说起这些又怎么样呢,自己若不弹琴、不唱曲、不舞蹈、不再附和那些风月诗词或者赞美某某才子文采高绝,那么大家坐在一起,又能有几句可谈的话？不过想到这里,却又不由自主地想起某个例外的情况来…… Now wants to come to discover, when made that decision like that firm, however year ago Liheng asked the matter of qin tune, oneself has not thought toward these things at unexpectedly slightly, but opened „several buildings to be high” without hesitation the such joke. Afterward was also play the zither composes, he listened when several times that Garden Rain and roadside shelter saw off, oneself with him chats, is thinking unexpectedly, if can before him demonstrate that were many some are then good. Wanted to say with him, my other songs sang well, perhaps other songs and poems compared these strange songs to be of pleasant to hear, when he spoke thoughtlessly to mention to monotonous the word did not like happily, oneself in the heart faint somewhat is even angry, somewhat small show-off desire, wants to say: „If I sang, was not such.” 如今想来才发现,原本做那个决定时那般坚定,可是年前立恒问起琴曲之事,自己竟是丝毫没有往这些事情上想,而是毫不犹豫地开了“几层楼高呢”这样的玩笑。后来也是弹琴谱曲,好几次他听那伽蓝雨、长亭送别时,自己与他谈笑间,竟都在想着要是能在他面前展示多些便好了。想要跟他说,我其它曲子唱得更好,其它的词曲或许比这些古怪的小曲更好听,当他随口说起对单调的词乐不喜欢的时候,自己心中甚至还微微有些气恼,有些小小的表现欲,想要说:“若是我唱起来,可不是那样的哩。” in the heart actually already understands, has not deliberately displayed talent to be at the same time ordinary in front of oneself like the opposite party, oneself has not displayed these techniques of past, but that is not because of the shadow, but is only because does not have to talk about nothing more truly, if that person wants to listen truly, the oneself definitely meeting is also willing to try to please him by these talent and skill, but will not feel completely in Goldwind House similar. 心中其实已经明白,如同对方没有在自己面前刻意地表现才子一面一般,自己也没有表现出以往的那些技艺,可那并非因为阴影,而只是因为没有真正谈到而已,若那人真正想听,自己也肯定会愿意以这些才艺去取悦他,而完全不会觉得与之前在金风楼中类似。 Recalled that days before Hutao (walnut) to these words that she spoke, she is so thinking, perhaps the such mood, could not have changed...... 回想起前几日胡桃跟她说的那些话,她如此想着,这样的心情,或许已是改变不了了…… She is thinking these, holds the basket to smile lightly, returns to the crossroad stall, Hutao (walnut) to collect, thinks that she is Century Egg was happy. 她想着这些,抱着篮子淡淡地笑起来,一路回到路口的小摊,胡桃凑过来,以为她在为松花蛋高兴。 „Can Young Lady, then a day sell many?” “小姐,这下一天可以卖出很多了吧？” „Yes, 30 duties, surely did not have the issue.”...... The matter as if has nothing to do with Liheng, because Liheng usually, generally not with these talent contacts...... she has doubts...... soon after to turn head to have a look at the surroundings for this reason, Gu Yanzhen seemed like already not with...... “是啊,三十只的任务,肯定没问题了。”只是……事情似乎与立恒无关,因为立恒平日里,大抵是不跟这些才子往来的……她为此疑惑着……随后扭头看看周围,顾燕桢似乎已经没在跟了…… „Young Lady, what are you looking at?” “小姐,你在看什么呢？” „Heh.” She is smiling shaking the head, „no......” “呵。”她微笑着摇了摇头,“没什么……” On the other hand, Gu Yanzhen returns to above Alehouse, met with that Shen Zishan, the look is complex. 另一方面,顾燕桢回到酒楼之上,与那沈子山碰面,神色复杂。 „Zishan, Dexin buys the Century Egg stall with that actually is what relations, do you...... know?” “子山,德新与那买松花蛋的小摊,到底是何关系,你……知道吗？”