Second 15 chapters 第二15章 Night words ( 1 ) 夜话（一） Liu Qian and clothes lie down, in the darkness thoughts constantly welling up, cannot fall asleep. 刘倩和衣躺下,黑暗中思绪万千,不能成眠。 Usually is Guo Sufei tidies up room, last goes to sleep, tonight actually early lies down on the bed, has not set out to place others, these detail other men have not paid attention, Liu Qian was actually careful, especially returns to the unusual facial expression after room from grandmother there, is makes the Liu Qian misgivings big. However, this after all is the Zhang Family family affairs, Liu Qian as a bystander, really the inappropriate opens the mouth inquired, has to be stuffy at heart. 平日里都是郭素菲收拾屋子,最后一个入睡,今晚却早早躺在炕上,并没有起身安置别人,这些细节其他男人没有注意,刘倩却是上了心,特别是从外婆那里回屋后的异样神情,更是让刘倩疑云大起。不过,这毕竟是张家的家事,刘倩作为一个外人,实在不合适开口询问,只好闷在心里。 Guo Sufei in darkness also tosses and turns, some mewls, long time, Guo Sufei is occasionally calm, she asked in a soft voice: „Qianqian, has not rested.” 黑暗中的郭素菲也是辗转反侧,偶尔有些低泣,良久,郭素菲的心情才平静下来,她轻声问:“倩倩,还没睡吧。” Liu Qian said carefully: „Has not fallen asleep, aunt child.” 刘倩小心的说:“还没睡着呢,婶子。” Guo Sufei sighed, was sorry that said: „Oh, something, were at heart uncomfortable, making you be laughed.” 郭素菲叹了口气,抱歉的说:“唉,有些事情,心里不舒服,让你见笑了。” Liu Qian compensates saying: „Aunt child, who will not come across the matter that worries, does not have anything.” 刘倩赔笑说:“婶子,谁不会遇到烦心的事情啊,没什么的。” Also is a tranquility. Guo Sufei then said: „Qianqian, when does your mother leave your?” 又是一阵宁静。郭素菲接着说:“倩倩,你娘亲是什么时候离开你的？” Liu Qian has thought that said: „Listened to my father saying that was I four -year-old time, had a very serious sickness, after seeking medical help not effectively, my mother went to time, I did not have any impression.” 刘倩想了一阵,说:“听我爹爹说,是我四岁的时候,染上一种很严重的病,几经求医都没有见效,我娘亲去的时候,我没什么印象。” Guo Sufei said: „Does not have the impression perhaps is a happiness, does not need frequently missing.” 郭素菲说:“没有印象也许是一种幸福,不必时刻的思念。” Liu Qian said: „Yes, the aunt child said is reasonable, my impression about mother is the father tells me. Listened to my father saying that in mother's family/home was very abundant, but at that time the father family was not well-off, but father's knowledge touched mother, the grandfather and grandmother were the oppositions, did not agree, mother for with the father in the same place, left home resolutely, cut off the communication with the parents, oh, the grandfather was also the unfeeling, to Present where I did not know them, has not come to see us. The father knowledge is very good, actually does not like the government affairs, disdains in manipulating strategically of government, this has not left home, the life in the mountain village, has taken teaching as to live, mother also lives there.” 刘倩说:“是啊,婶子说得很有道理,我关于娘亲的印象都是爹爹告诉我的。听我爹说,娘亲的家里很是富足,而当时爹爹家境不好,但爹爹的学识打动了娘亲,外公和外婆是反对的,坚决不同意,娘亲为了跟爹爹在一起,毅然离家,跟爹娘断绝了来往,唉,外公也是绝情,到现在我都不知道他们在哪里,也从没有来看过我们。爹爹学识很好,却不喜欢政务,不屑于官场的勾心斗角,这才没有离家,一直生活在山村,以教书为生,娘亲也就生活在那里。” Stopped slightly, Liu Qian then said: „Mother's body bone originally weak, the doctor has confessed should better not child, but mother for father, lived my Elder Brother, at that time Yuan Qi damaged severely, will recuperate for many years to restore, but cherishes my time, the father also urged mother, feared that she had any accident accidentally, mother said that since the child had, ascended the sky to her gift, she is willing to give up all for the child, lived my time was very smooth, mother body actually broke down, before she departed is very bad, I have been thinking, if mother did not want me, she can be all right..” 稍停一下,刘倩接着说:“娘亲的身子骨本来就弱,大夫交代过的最好不要孩子,可娘亲为了爹爹,还是生了我哥哥,当时元气大伤,将养好多年才恢复,而怀我的时候,爹爹也劝娘亲,怕她万一有什么闪失,娘亲却说,孩子既然有了,就是上天给她的礼物,她愿意为了孩子放弃一切,生我的时候很顺利,娘亲身体却垮了,到她离去之前都很糟糕,我一直都在想,如果娘亲不要我的话,她一定会没事的。。” Here, the Liu Qian words also somewhat sobbed. 说到这里,刘倩的话语也有些哽咽了。 Guo Sufei comforted her saying: „Qianqian, after you, was mother, you know that the child was all in mother heart, can do the ten points for the child, mother will not make nine points. Although you also in mother's belly, but all your have ironed in mother at heart, she will not consider oneself body absolutely, but does not want your, her early will consider for you, leads you to this world safely.” 郭素菲安慰她说:“倩倩,等你以后为人母了,你就是知道的,孩子是母亲心中的一切,能为孩子做十分,母亲绝不会做九分的。虽然你还在母亲的肚子里,但你的一切都已经烙在母亲的心里,她绝对不会考虑自己的身体而不要你的,她早早的就会为你考虑,把你安全的带到这个世界。” Liu Qian said: „Sometimes yes, the aunt child, I very much thanked own mother, although I really to mother, only then the fuzzy impression, she not only can for oneself happiness, flee the shackles of family, can give the life for the child, sometimes thinks, the maternal love was such Ping Fan│ordinary is great. Moreover, aunt child, I come here not long Time, but I especially like your family harmonious atmosphere, sees Xiaohua they to your dependence, I also very much envy.” 刘倩说:“是啊,婶子,有时我心里很感谢自己的娘亲,虽然我真的对娘亲只有模糊的印象,她不仅能为了自己的幸福,逃离家庭的桎梏,更能为了孩子奉献生命,有时想想,母爱是那么的平凡而伟大啊。而且,婶子,我来这里不长的时间,但我特别喜欢你们家这个和睦的气氛,看到小花他们对您的那种依赖,我也很是羡慕。” Guo Sufei said: „Qianqian, I cannot compare with your mother, I since childhood am the life in this small mountain village, has not studied to be literate, did not read many books compared with your mother, knows many matters, since your uncle marries into the wife's household our family/home, I thought that since two people live together, should be harmonious, respects to fall in love, what pleasure otherwise lives to have? Afterward also had Xiaolong│Little Dragon, Xiaohu and Xiaohua their brothers three people, saw that their growing up bit by bit, that taste you do not know, in the heart has been full of proud and achievement. I am literate with your uncle am not many, the experience are also few, the child also suffers hardship with us, cannot very good education, unable to compare with your brother and sister.” 郭素菲说:“倩倩,我可不能跟你娘亲比,我从小就是生活在这个小山村中,没有读书认字,不比你娘亲读了很多的书,知道很多的事情,自打你大叔入赘我们家,我就觉得,既然两人生活在一起,就应该和和睦睦,相敬相爱的,否则生活能有什么乐趣？后来又有了小龙、小虎和小花他们兄弟三人,眼看着他们一点一点的长大,那个滋味你是不知道的,心中充满了自豪和成就。我跟你大叔识字都不多,见识也少,孩子也跟着我们受罪,不能很好的教育,不能跟你们兄妹比啊。” Liu Qian said: „Aunt child saying said badly, the book that although our brother and sister read they were more , the character that Xiaolong│Little Dragon recognized are also many, the experience were also many, but the aunt child, at that time in the town, I and was bullied every month, scholar on the scene were many, which person also there is to stand? Also is not Xiaolong│Little Dragon they, has not read many books, actually knows the justice between world, defies authority and fist has stood, this type, is true good, book that read were many, has been short on the contrary warm-blooded, were many consideration, not necessarily resulted in has not studied.” 刘倩说:“婶子这话说得差了,虽然我们兄妹读的书比小龙他们多,认的字也多,见识也多,但婶子,当时在镇上,我和月月被人欺负的时候,在场的读书人多了去,又有哪个人站出来？还不是小龙他们这些人,没读多少书,却知道天地间的正义,不畏权势和拳头的站了出来,这种好,才是真正的好,读的书多了,反倒少了热血,多了顾及,未必强得过不读书的。” Guo Sufei also happily said at this time: „Speaking of them, I poured also really happily, these child instinct were good, was very since childhood sensible, although was mischievous, but did not damage the person, knows own family circumstances, never courted disaster to us, very much liked them from the young villagers, said that helped others' matter, has done really much, raised was so big, my this was mother, was very proud of them. Actually sometimes I have thought that if our family were really well-off, Present they are not necessarily able to make us feel relieved.” 郭素菲这时也欣慰的说:“说到他们,我倒也真的高兴,这几个孩子天性善良,从小就很懂事,虽然淘气,但不祸害人,也知道自己家境,从不给我们惹祸,自小村里人都很喜欢他们,说道帮别人的事情,真的是做了不少的,养了这么大,我这个做娘亲的,很是为他们骄傲的。其实有时我也想了,如果我们家境真的好了,现在的他们就未必就能让我们放心。” Liu Qian also approves of: „Yes, the aunt child, sometimes, a life of person is Inborn is doomed, in this environment can very good growth, change an environment forcefully, is not necessarily have the good result.” 刘倩也赞同:“是的,婶子,有时候,一个人的命是天生注定的,在这个环境中能很好的成长,强行换个环境,未必就能有好的结果。” Then, Liu Qian looked that the Guo Sufei mood somewhat changes for the better, then asked: „Aunt child, you have not told my today's matter probably, the matter suppresses at heart is not the good deed, said also has the advantage to the body.” 然后,刘倩看郭素菲的心情有些好转,就接着问:“婶子,好像您还没有告诉我今天的事情呢,事情憋在心里也不是好事,说出来对身体也有好处。” Guo Sufei said with a smile: „Visits me, spoke of the child, pulled far the topic, in my life also really thought the child many.” 郭素菲强笑道:“看我,说到孩子,就扯远了话题,我的生活中还真的想孩子的多啊。” Liu Qian did not have the connection, Guo Sufei then saying: „As mother, I keeps thinking about own child, cold hot, the warm and sufficient condition of being worried about the child, but I have actually neglected my mother. I am a child time, is mother in taking care of me, pays attention to me, she is also looks at me to grow up, adult, Present I put on my child Zi Body with all one's heart, early forgot own mother, although I also take care of her every day, prepares food to her, makes the new clothes to her, little talked openly with her, asks that her thoughts, Present thinks, I should do to mother were more.” 刘倩没有接口,郭素菲接着说:“作为娘亲,我惦记自己的孩子,担心孩子的冷热、温饱,可是我却忽略了自己的娘亲啊。我还是孩子的时候,也是娘亲在照顾我,关注我,她也是看我长大、成人啊,现在我一门心思的扑在自己的孩子身上,早早的把自己的娘亲忘记,虽然我每天也照顾她,给她做饭,给她做新衣,却很少跟她谈心,问问她的心思,现在想想,我应该给娘亲做的更多啊。” Liu Qian also thinks at heart suffocated, yes, the world mothers love oneself child, own child often has actually neglected own mother. She comforted Guo Sufei saying: „Aunt child, the grandmother noticed that your heart places child's body, she, she will not mind that happily you do not care about her, she will again only give herself oneself grandson to your love. Aunt child your mother also in the side, not compared with my this good that doesn't have mother to hurt?” 刘倩也觉得心里堵得慌,是啊,天下的娘亲都疼自己的孩子,自己的孩子却往往忽略了自己的娘亲。她安慰郭素菲说:“婶子,外婆看到你的心放在孩子的身上,她也是高兴地,她不会介意你不关心她,她只会把自己对你的那种爱再给自己的外孙子。况且,婶子您娘亲也在身边,不是比我这个没有娘亲去疼的好？” Guo Sufei said faintly: „But, when you want to repay mother, actually discovered that you were not many in together Time with mother, whether you regretted very much own not discovery this early?” 郭素菲幽幽地说:“可是,当你想去回报娘亲的时候,却发现你跟娘亲在一起的时间已经不多了,那你是否很后悔自己没有早早的发现这个呢？” Liu Qian also sighs deeply, said: „Yes, the child desire raises to kiss not to need, is a world big regrettable matter. However, aunt child, grandmother age so was also big, she can look at you to get married, sees the birth of grandchild, grows up, should also be very happy, although you do not have directly cares about her, but you are indirectly are cherishing actually also her to care her. I think, the grandmother she will certainly not blame your.” 刘倩也长叹,说:“是啊,子欲养而亲不待,也是人间一大憾事啊。不过,婶子,外婆年岁也这般大了,她能看您成家,看到外孙的出生,长大,应该也是很幸福啦,您虽然没有直接的去关心她,但您其实也是在间接地在爱护她关心她的呀。我想,外婆她一定不会责怪您的。” Stopped the little while, Guo Sufei said: „Qianqian, can so study and be literate like you, reason, good, listened to your words, my this heart was also more comfortable, sometimes the countrywomen in our these countrysides, cannot turn around curved.” 停了半刻,郭素菲说:“倩倩,能像你这般读书、识字、明理,挺好的,听了你这番话,我这心也舒坦了很多,我们这些乡下的村妇,有时候就是转不过来弯的。” Liu Qian said: „Aunt child so do not praise me, I am also the School of Agriculture person.” 刘倩说:“婶子别这般夸我,我也是农家的人啊。” Guo Sufei said: „Qianqian, you left modestly, at least I know that this Si Village eight townships did not have you such intelligent child. Right, in the afternoon grandmother spoke these words to you, has the failure in politeness place, do not care.” 郭素菲说:“倩倩,你就别谦虚了,至少我知道这四村八乡就没你这么聪慧的孩子。对了,下午外婆对你说得那些话,有失礼的地方,你可别在意啊。” Liu Qian said: „Cannot, aunt child.” 刘倩说:“不会的,婶子。” Guo Sufei peaceful a while, finally said: „Qianqian, but, on the other hand, this was also her final wish, moreover our family/home to you special liking, I also has also wanted to ask your regard, since today our mother and child said these many, I also no matter that many, you thought that Xiaolong│Little Dragon he was good.” 郭素菲安静了一会儿,终于说:“倩倩,不过,话又说回来,这也是她最后的一个心愿了,而且我们家对你也特别的喜欢,我也一直想问问你的心意,今天既然咱们娘儿俩个说得这么多了,我也就不管那么多,你觉得小龙他还行吧。” Then, should be one's turn Liu Qian to be peaceful. 这下,该轮到刘倩安静了。 Liu Qian does not know good that at heart how to reply, normally to Xiaolong│Little Dragon were very satisfied, but the date and time was short, these day being together cannot see clearly an essence of person. However, is predestined friends the thousand li (500 km) to meet, misses to meet is not acquainted, sometimes, the fate is one the matter that is difficult to talk clearly, short was together on the several th can make lifelong the unforgettable impression, but year after year perhaps was together to stay behind is only the friendship \; Looks at a person also so, understands a person, sometimes only needs one, if you cannot understand, looks at over a thousand ten thousand is also only a fuzziness. But oneself with the Xiaolong│Little Dragon fate, rescue beautiful from the hero, permits by the body to the beautiful woman, is really a charming story of being handed down for generations, but so for a lifetime detains oneself happiness merely on Zhang Xiaolong this person of body, she naturally is also a hesitation. 刘倩的心里是不知道怎么回答的好,按说自己对小龙是很满意的,但毕竟时日还短,这几日的相处并不能看清一个人的本质。不过,有缘千里来相会,无缘见面不相识,有时候,缘分是一个很难说得清楚的事情,短短的几日相处就能留下终身难忘的印象,而积年累月的相处留下的也许只有友情\;看一个人也是如此,看懂一个人,有时候只需要一眼,如果你看不懂,看上千眼万眼也只是一片模糊。而自己跟小龙的缘分,从英雄救美,到美人以身相许,真的是一段传世的佳话,但仅仅如此就把自己一辈子的幸福押在张小龙这人的身上,她自然也还是一阵的犹豫。 The grandmother to oneself is extremely good, Zhang Family to oneself is also extremely good, oneself also very like Zhang Xiaolong, oneself also very like this poorly, but the warm harmonious family/home, this family/home also looked like oneself that to respect to fall in love with, the warm family/home, oneself are also willing to join this family, is willing to satisfy grandmother that final desire, saw she has not regretted left this world, but all these all, appeared too shy, whether, can give her a fermentation and fermentation of Time? 外婆对自己是极好,张家对自己也是极好,自己也挺喜欢张小龙,自己也挺喜欢这个贫穷但温馨和睦的家,这个家也像极了自己那个相敬相爱、充满温情的家,自己也愿意加入这个家庭,也愿意满足外婆那个最后的愿望,看到她没有遗憾的离开这个世界,可这一切的一切,都显得太青涩,是否,要给她一段时间的酝酿和发酵呢？ Liu Qian hesitates, is hard to reply. 刘倩犹豫,难以回答。 Crosses long time, said: „Aunt child, the double-hour was too late today, we another day again said.” 过得半晌,说:“婶子,今日时辰太晚了,咱们改日再说吧。” Guo Sufei also lightly sighed one sound, no longer spoke. 郭素菲也轻叹一声,不再说话。 In Zhang Family yard, moonlight like splendor, how many people also there are to fall asleep? 张家小院里,月光如辉,又有几人成眠？