Caresses the back of He Fang adeptly gently, Qin Guanglin has not been making noise, whatever she vents the mood. 拿手轻轻抚着何妨的背,秦广林没有出声,任由她宣泄情绪。 He does not dare to imagine, how if places itself that position to be able. 他不敢想象,如果把自己放在那个位置会怎么样。 Thinks of He Fang to leave, oneself have daughter's picture, he a little pulls out the pain. 一想到何妨离开,自己一个人带着女儿的画面,他心里就有点抽痛。 In the future will dozens years, how boil? 往后几十年,怎么熬？ His not strange He Fang. 他不怪何妨。 The daughter regenerates and that's the end. 女儿再生出来就是了。 Passing flash in the mind, He Fang when south knocks the forehead that blushes finally, in the recording instrument she takes the frail back of blade, initially sees the show/unfolds face smiles...... 过往的一幕幕闪现在脑海中,何妨在终南磕得发红的额头,记录仪里她拿着刀的单薄背影,初见时的展颜一笑…… Now understands why she can the evening unable to fall asleep, clearly reason that also takes these medicines. 现在明白她为什么会晚上睡不着了,也明白吃那些药的原因。 „This doing completed, should try hard tried hard, then seeks help from gods and Buddhas, to illusory Spiritual God wishing.” “把该做的都做完了,该努力的都努力了,然后再来求神拜佛,向虚无缥缈的神灵祈愿。” „Has words to be called to plan matters, the heaven disposes, if a person this/should doing completed, but also wants to go a step further, can only choose to god implores, even if can only increase that a wee bit successful possibilities, cannot let off it, must be perfect.” “有句话叫作谋事在人,成事在天,如果一个人把该做的都做完了,还想要更进一步的话,就只能选择向神佛祈求,哪怕只能增加那么一丁点成功的可能性,也不能把它放过,必须尽善尽美。” „So long as may increase a ray of hope, cannot let off at will, not?” “只要有可能增加一丝希望,都不能随意放过,不是吗？” The gentle words reverberation in the hearts, Qin Guanglin all understood. 轻柔的话语回荡在心间,秦广林一切都明白了。 The dim light of night is getting deeper and deeper. 夜色越来越深。 Near more than 3000 meters high cliffs, the night wind is abundant gradually, gives people in the midsummer a cool feeling, the He Fang sound getting smaller, the Qin Guanglin double bracelet she was tightening. 三千多米高的山崖边上,夜风渐盛,在盛夏也给人一丝凉意,何妨声音越来越小,秦广林双臂环着她紧了紧。 „Goes back.” “回去吧。” „Sits a while again.” “再坐一会儿。” The He Fang ticking nose, raised the head from the Qin Guanglin bosom, squeezes out toward him wipes the smile, „now we can come, really good.” 何妨抽抽鼻子,从秦广林怀里抬起头来,朝他挤出一抹微笑,“现在我们可以重新来过,真好。” „Yes, really good.” “是啊,真好。” Qin Guanglin nods, later sighed, „, but...... I rather was I, you withstood were too many.” 秦广林点头,随后叹息,“可是……我宁愿是我,你承受的太多了。” „Now is finally good, not?” He Fang asked, „all are turning toward......” “现在结果是好的,不是吗？”何妨问,“一切都在向着……” The words have not said, was covered to be quiet by Qin Guanglin. 话没说完,就被秦广林捂住嘴。 „Do not set up the flag.” “别插旗。” „......” “……” „We will try hard together.” Qin Guanglin puts aside the hand, light kiss on her forehead, said earnestly: „My 100 -year-old, your are 98 years old, just good.” “我们会一起努力的。”秦广林移开手,在她额头上轻吻一下,认真道:“我一百岁,你九十八岁,刚刚好。” „Un, just good.” “嗯,刚刚好。” Summit wind moves He Fang hair, Qin Guanglin helps her reorganize, sits is embracing her on the ground, turns the head to look to the central giant image of Buddha, calmly treated a while, felt He Fang to shrink the body toward own bosom, was supposing she was blown somewhat coldly by the wind, proposes again: „Goes back.” 山巅的风儿撩动何妨发丝,秦广林帮她整理一下,坐在地上揽着她,转头看向中央的巨大佛像,静静待了一会儿,感受到何妨往自己怀里缩了缩身子,估摸着她被风吹得有些冷,再次提议道:“回去吧。” „Un.” He Fang has not refused, to look at the distant place to flash the hotel of neon light again, puts out a hand to support the body to stand, actually depends to arrive on Qin Guanglin. “嗯。”何妨没再拒绝,看了看远方闪着霓虹灯的酒店,伸手撑着身子想站起来,却又重新靠到秦广林身上。 „Sat a long time, cannot get up.” “坐久了,起不来。” „I draw you.” “我拉你。” Sits from afternoon now, Qin Guanglin also felt that the leg and foot somewhat tingles with numbness, stands to stamp the feet, bends the waist to support by the arm He Fang, then visits near the pitch-dark cliff the outer space, a subtle feeling raises from the bottom of the heart. 从下午坐到现在,秦广林也感觉腿脚有些发麻,站起来跺跺脚,弯腰把何妨搀起来,回头望望黑漆漆的崖边外空,一丝微妙的感觉从心底升起。 Tracked down such long answer, unexpectedly is this. 追寻了这么久的答案,竟然是这个。 „Why......” “为什么……” Qin Guanglin pulls He Fang to walk several steps, opens the mouth and closes, the consideration does not know how suddenly should express, is welcoming the He Fang doubts look, he hesitates, said: „Why feels you averagely...... not wonderful?” 秦广林牵着何妨走几步,开口又闭上,思量一下不知道该怎么表达,迎着何妨疑惑的眼神,他沉吟一下,道:“为什么感觉你……平平无奇？” That strange contradictory feeling looked for finally by him. 那丝古怪的矛盾感终于被他找出来。 Yes, if places the average person, He Fang is the life winner, is doing the work of liking, but can also write to make money, relaxed, his can be the outstanding husband. 是啊,如果放在普通人来说,何妨算是人生赢家,做着喜欢的工作,还能写赚钱,轻轻松松,还有他这个算得上优秀的老公。 But regarding space and time journey, she lived extremely ordinarily. 但对于时空旅者来说,她活得太过平常了。 Still remembers that initially watched the movie for the first time, Charlotte on screen, although after artistic processing, no matter money or power, casual extremely easy to obtain, but in reality, if really presents this person, obtains that position should not to have many difficulties. 还记得当初第一次看电影,荧幕上的夏洛虽然经过艺术加工,不管钱还是权,随随便便都唾手可得,但现实里如果真出现这种人的话,获得那种身份地位应该也没多少难度。 He Fang thinks, asked back: „What wasn't average is not wonderful?” 何妨想了想,反问道:“什么样就不平平无奇了？” „......” “呃……” Qin Guanglin jams, then stretches out the finger casually to gesticulate to the distant place, „you look at these, no matter in film and television or literary work, like you, which must do a big enterprise.” 秦广林卡壳,然后伸出手指随便对着远处比划一下,“你看那些不管影视还是文学作品里,像你这样的,哪个都得干出一番大事业。” „You notice, no matter the television work or the literary work, the final result almost does not have.” He Fang shrugs , to continue to add: „- I refer to the serious literature, that excessively yy does not calculate, the loophole were too many.” “那你有没有注意到,不管是影视作品还是文学作品,最后的结局几乎都没有好的。”何妨耸耸肩,继续补充道:“-我指的是严肃文学,那种过度yy的不算,漏洞太多了。” „Butterfly effect?” “蝴蝶效应吗？” „Right.” “对啊。” „No one like you, who has known really or false, the tragedy of serious literature for profound, is far-fetched. Why doesn't try?” “又没人像你这样过,谁知道是真的还是假的,严肃文学的悲剧只是为了深刻,也不靠谱。为什么不试试呢？” „Do I dare to try?” “我敢试吗？” Qin Guanglin footsteps unexpectedly. 秦广林脚步蓦地顿了一下。 Dares to try? 敢试吗？ Now two people talk here, had explained all. 现在两个人在这里交谈,已经说明了一切。 „Even if some wee bit possibilities, I will not try.” He Fang side is turning upwards the corners of the mouth to him, „ I know that what appearance happy is, therefore wants cautiously, walks routinely, can obtain all, why can bet the probability? “哪怕有一丁点可能,我也不会去试。”何妨侧头对着他翘起嘴角,“我知道幸福是什么样子,所以只要小心翼翼地,按部就班走下去,就能得到一切,为什么要赌几率？ Moreover I biggest advantage is to know all, if disrupts the matter now, all my advantages did not have, became same...... the present understood with you? ” 而且我最大的优势就是知道一切,如果现在把事情扰乱,我所有的优势都没了,变得和你一样了……现在理解了吗？” „Understood half.” Qin Guanglin nods, holds her hand not to get hold of voluntarily. “理解了一半。”秦广林点头,牵着她的手不自觉地握紧。 He does not know that is what taste. 他心里不知道是个什么滋味。 If trades to be itself, knows that the future all, will be resigned to accompany in her side excessively ordinary smoke anger day? 如果换作自己,知道未来的一切,会甘心陪在她身边过普普通通的烟火气日子吗？ Answer Qin Guanglin of this issue cannot think. 这个问题的答案秦广林想不出来。 The prophets mean anything, He Fang, will not actually still choose to accompany him to live in the Nanfei Road rented housing, was frightened by the cockroach yelled. 先知意味着什么,何妨不会不懂,却依然选择陪他住在南飞路的出租房里,被蟑螂吓得大叫。 Are oneself really worth? 自己真的值得吗？ This idea cannot contain to brave from the bottom of the heart. 这个想法不可遏制地从心底里冒出来。 Two people tread the moonlight to walk in Omei Jinding, everywhere star light is radiant, glitters a brilliance like the colored glaze jade bowl of backing off, He Fang is slowing down the step, is pulling his hand operated swinging, asked: „Which half?” 两人踏着月光走在峨眉金顶,漫天星光璀璨,如同倒扣的琉璃玉碗闪烁着点点光辉,何妨放慢步子,牵着他的手摇了摇,问道:“哪一半？” „I should be an artist.” Qin Guanglin sighed, „you have also wanted to break off positively toward the path of artist on me, always urged me to resign- on the other hand, should this be the butterfly effect?” “我应该是个艺术家的。”秦广林叹息,“你也一直想把我往艺术家的道路上掰正,才老撺掇我辞职-话说回来,这应该是蝴蝶效应吧？” „Right.” “没错。” „Skill not artist is unimportant, we now this is very good, but- all press original walking, I am not very possible......” “艺不艺术家不重要,我们现在这样很好,只是-一切都按原来的走,我不是很可能……” He has not spoken the words, believing He Fang can understand his meaning. 他没把话说完,相信何妨能明白他的意思。 He Fang truly understands his meaning, the low head picture was pondering, Qin Guanglin has not worried, stands not to pull her to proceed same place again, but calmly visits her, waits for her to open the mouth. 何妨确实明白了他的意思,低下头像是在思考,秦广林没有着急,立在原地没再牵着她往前走,只是静静看着她,等着她开口。 Related to the own lives and two people happiness, he must know the idea and plan of He Fang. 事关自己的性命和两人的幸福,他得知道何妨的想法和计划。 „Disrupted plot is unable to be controlled.” “扰乱的剧情无法被掌控。” He Fang opens the mouth in a soft voice. 何妨轻声开口。 „If this is a movie, you know that the lead will die finally, but your grasps the progress bar to change the plot one time the opportunity.” “假如这是一部电影,你知道主角最后会死,但你有一次掌握进度条改变剧情的机会。” She is hesitating, probably is thinking that the own analogy is appropriate, „...... you are the choice when the movie starts disrupts the plot, making the plot collapse completely loses control since then- 她沉吟着,像是在想自己的比喻合不合适,“……你是选择在电影开始时扰乱剧情,让剧情完全崩坏从此失控- Draws the progress bar at the last minute, when the card when the lead does encounter the danger saves him? ” 还是把进度条拉到最后一刻,卡在在主角遇到危险时救下他？” „Accurate attack.” “精准打击。” Qin Guanglin nods , indicating oneself understood. 秦广林点头,表示自己理解了。 Controls steadily to the detail, is easier to achieve the goal, besides to the worry of butterfly effect, this sought the steady idea wholeheartedly, both mixed, finally facilitated the present aspect. 对细节把控得越稳,越容易达成目标,除了对蝴蝶效应的担心,还有她这一心求稳的想法,两者混合,最终促成了现在的局面。 In ten years, this the world's largest bug, will vanish in the silence, cannot start mighty waves. 再过十年,她这个世界上最大的bug,就会在无声无息中消失,掀不起一点波澜。 „Regret?” “后悔吗？” Understands all Qin Guanglin hesitant moments, asked. 了解一切的秦广林犹豫片刻,还是问了出来。 He Fang gawked staring, for a while has not understood he is saying anything, the subconsciousness asked: „What regrets?” 何妨愣了愣,一时没明白他在说什么,下意识问:“后悔什么？” „Light easy life, I also daily that anything you.” Qin Guanglin does intentionally the relaxed said/tunnel. “平淡的小日子,我还天天那啥你。”秦广林故作轻松地道。 „That little.” He Fang curls the lip, looks up a nighttime sky, said: „You know that shuttles back and forth this matter about the space and time, what is its eternal subject?” “那就少点。”何妨撇了撇嘴,抬头看一眼夜空,道:“你知道关于时空穿梭这件事,它永恒的主题是什么吗？” „What un...... is?” “嗯……是什么？” „Makes up regretted, life all matters, if can come again, certainly can do well- almost all people think like this.” “弥补遗憾,人生所有的事,如果能重来一遍,一定能做得更好-几乎所有人都这样认为。” He Fang follows the Qin Guanglin footsteps to proceed slowly, is embracing his solid arm, tilts the head looks at him, asked: „Not?” 何妨跟着秦广林的脚步慢慢往前走着,揽着他坚实的臂膀,歪头看他,问道:“不是吗？” „Un...... seems like.” “嗯……好像是。” Qin Guanglin has to acknowledge, this matter biggest advantage, the matter that oneself make the mistake, comes entirely again. 秦广林不得不承认,这件事最大的好处,就是把自己做错的事,通通重来一遍。 Comes again one time, is certainly more perfect. 再来一次,一定更加完美。 „These years I cross very happily, you have not been any regret to me, except for you.” “那些年我过得非常幸福,你没有给我留下任何遗憾,除了你自己本身。” „My only regret, is you.” “我唯一的遗憾,就是你。” Two words gently, making Qin Guanglin same place. 轻轻的两句话,让秦广林顿在原地。 „You said, I will regret?” “你说,我会后悔吗？” Under the star light, He Fang is supine the face, had just cried the eye socket also brings a unnatural inflammation, the voice usually such clear sleek/moist, does not bring hoarse. 星光下,何妨仰起脸,刚刚哭过的眼眶还带着一丝不自然的红肿,嗓音不似平时那样清润,带着点点沙哑。 This year last month of summer, the group is star-studded, moonlight like silver. Qin Guanglin and He Fang pull in the same place, stands in the Jinding central giant idol under foot, the breeze has stroked from the side, drills to cliff Bianshan of distant place, as if near ear sigh. 这一年的季夏,群星璀璨,月色如银。秦广林与何妨挽在一起,站在金顶中央的巨大神像脚下,微风从身边拂过,钻到远处的崖边山间,仿佛耳边的叹息。 Regarding the obstinance of He Fang, he some complete understanding, did not confuse the eye by the wind finally carefully, makes an effort to blink several eyes, hugs the bosom her ruthlessly. 对于何妨的执拗,他终于有了完全的认识,不小心被风迷了眼,用力眨巴几下眼睛,狠狠地把她抱进怀里。