„Oh! A fist superman vicious whip leg, thoroughly destroyed the white devil!” Illustrated on the stage, illustrated that the crazy loudness is whooshing. “噢！一拳超人一记凶狠的鞭腿,彻底摧毁了白魔鬼！”解说台上,解说疯狂的大声嘶吼着。 In the octagonal cage, the Qingmu Division vicious under whip leg strokes continuously in this also wants on the big Caucasian opponent at present, visits him lamely, the whole face is the blood still the fighting spirit full looks at own appearance, the breathing rapidly. 八角笼里,青木司凶狠下鞭腿连续击打在眼前这个比自己还要高大的白人对手身上,看着他一瘸一拐,满脸是血依然斗志满满的看着自己的模样,呼吸急促。 Strict sense, system simulation the initial training opponent, wants on the weak many people compared with the Qingmu Division strength probably. At least at present this fellow named white devil, besides the height length of body, the standing skill is not outstanding. But ground skill? This white devil is unable to achieve near body, regardless of knocks out the fist to have the foot, Qingmu Division can dodge and hit back rapidly. 严格意义上来说,系统模拟出来的初级训练对手,大概都是比青木司实力要弱上不少的人。起码眼前这个叫做白魔鬼的家伙,除了身高体长以外,站立技巧并不出众。而地面技巧？这个白魔鬼根本无法做到近身,无论出拳还是出脚,青木司都能迅速闪避并做出反击。 Now with the Qingmu Department's multiple below whip leg hits his right leg, his right leg the naked eye obvious black and blue, have walked some lamely. 现在随着青木司多次的下鞭腿击中他的右腿,他的右腿已经肉眼可见的青肿了起来,走路都有些一瘸一拐了。 „Clash/To!” “冲啊！” „Killed him!” “杀了他！” „Destroys him!” “摧毁他！” Near the ear the cheers of audience and illustration made Qingmu Division some especially excited. 耳边观众和解说的欢呼声让青木司有些格外的兴奋了起来。 Qingmu Division closes tightly in the mouth the tooth socket, the expression is fierce. 青木司咬紧嘴中牙套,表情狰狞。 He felt, perhaps in oneself body hid another bloodthirsty not to say seriously certainly, in any case since held a wake in the dreamland practice room killed with one's own hand ten several people after too the blade, he felt oneself faced such situation to accomplish a task with ease more and more, when like before competed for the Wuyang apex with Ueno Yang, often had/left the boxing to project on the enemy, he can from the feeling of heart an unusual feeling of satisfaction. 他觉得,也许自己当真身体内隐藏着另一个嗜血的自己说不准,反正自从作夜在梦境练习室用太刀手刃十数人之后,他就觉得自己面对这样的情况越来越游刃有余,就像之前和上野阳争夺舞阳顶点时一样,每每出拳击打到敌人,他都能由心的感觉到一种奇特的满足感。 I may .... Really strange! Also incomparably resisted regarding such matter, now, actually somewhat enjoys. 我可....真是怪呢！原本还对于这样的事情无比抗拒,现在,竟然都有些享受了。 Qingmu Division looks at the present enemy, unemotional continues to act, was hit lame that leg unceasingly rapid traverse regarding him by oneself, uses him to turn around the inconvenient body disadvantage to knock out the fist, has the leg, no point keeps the full power of hand to bomb the present opponent. 青木司看着眼前的敌人,面无表情的继续出手,围绕着他被自己打瘸的那条腿不断地快速移动,利用他转身不便的身体劣势出拳,出腿,没有一点留手的全力轰炸着眼前的对手。 „He dropped down!” As of narrator shouted. “他倒下了！”随着解说员的一声大喊。 A Qingmu Division very sudden modified line kicks to bypass both hands that the white devil defended, kicked to the leg of waist, in in the air changed suddenly, pounds on the profile of white devil. 青木司一记十分突然的变线踢绕过了白魔鬼防御的双手,原本踢向腰间的腿,在空中骤然变化,砸在了白魔鬼的侧脸上。 The next quarter, the white devil is similar to the dead tree that falls, lay in the ground, the whole body twitched. 下一刻,白魔鬼就如同倾倒的枯树,啪嗒一声趴在了地面,浑身抽搐。 Qingmu Division puts out the tooth socket, looks that prepares to announce referee who he wins, is calm: „Withdraws from the training.” 青木司吐出牙套,看着准备上来宣布他获得胜利的裁判,语气平静:“退出训练。” The present all are similar to the abstract oil painting distortion again, changes into a pure white. 眼前的一切再度如同抽象的油画般扭曲,化为一片洁白。 Sits is being empty, is white and shiny in a space, Qingmu Division lies down slowly, deeply is making the deep breath. 坐在空无一物,只有白花花一片的空间里,青木司缓缓躺下,深深地做着深呼吸。 He thought that oneself changed. once Jin he, is satisfied just to get by, even if there is a system, still thinks free had itself to want the life that and had no renowned ambition. But why does not know, he felt thing that present, longs, were getting more and more. 他觉得自己变了。曾今的他,小富即安,就算有了系统,也只是想自由自在的拥有自己想要的人生,并没有什么为人称道的野心。但不知道为什么,他觉得现在的自己,所渴望的东西,越来越多了。 Putting out a hand, was clean, white and tender both hands, can see the callus on joint in this time dreamland training room. Qingmu Division is silent, slowly closed the eyes, deeply pondering. 伸出手,原本干干净净,白白嫩嫩的双手,在此时的梦境训练室里也能看到关节上的老茧。青木司沉默不语,慢慢闭上了双眼,深深沉思着。 „System, you also felt, I did change?” The Qingmu Division tone is somewhat depressed. “系统,你是不是也觉得,我变了许多？”青木司语气有些沮丧。 Today the arched appearance, making him somewhat terrified, makes him realize, he really changed. He in shaking the fist, strokes to the opponent the time, that the happy feeling by the heart being sent, making him feel the fear. 今天穹的模样,让他有些惶恐,也让他意识到,他真的变了。他在挥拳的时候,击打到对手的时候,那种由心而发的痛快感,让他感受到了恐惧。 How could 【you have known, true?】 【你又何曾认识过,真正的自己？】 The system has not pretended ignorance again, the words that said that making Qingmu Division be lost in thought. 系统没有再装聋作哑,说出来的话,让青木司陷入了沉思。 True? In the mind of Qingmu Division, own two different life experiences, rapid is flashing. 真正的自己吗？青木司的脑海里,自己的两段不同的人生经历,飞速的闪动着。 Once of Huaxia painstaking learn/study, worked by torchlight innumerable, innumerable for others' hope, but is trying hard, finally actually degenerated into the society livestock. In others happy talks and laughters, is enjoying the youth the time, he is actually eating anything to worry for tomorrow. Never argued anything, because he knows that argued finally, his anything could not obtain. 曾经在华夏刻苦学习的自己,无数次挑灯夜战,无数次为了别人的希望而努力着,最后却沦为社畜。在别人欢声笑语,享受着青春的时候,他却在为明天吃什么而发愁。从不与人争论什么,因为他知道争论到最后,他什么也得不到。 Thinks to bear patiently, diligently, can gain the freedom sooner or later, obtains happy, finally also chose lowering the head in the face of the serious pressure, becomes the person who oneself most loathe exactly. 以为隐忍,努力,就迟早能获得自由,获得幸福的自己,最后也只是在沉重的压力面前选择了低头,活成为了自己最厌恶的人。 From 9 to 5, is meeting rudeness with a smile to the leader, in the banquet straightens up the wholesale market to laugh is rinsing in the belly the alcohol, then in the corner that no one knows, spits the dark darkness day, by tears crossflow that the gastric disease suffers. 朝九晚五,给领导陪着笑脸,在酒席上挺着啤酒肚哈哈大笑着将酒精灌进肚子里,然后在没人知道的角落里,吐得昏天黑天,被胃病折磨的眼泪横流。 Qingmu Division had also once had the girl of liking, actually comforts itself repeatedly, the restraint, endures patiently, the present situation is very difficult to look after including oneself, let alone was the other half. Finally, helplessly looks the girl who likes marries to be the wife, friend also formed the family mostly, only then oneself, are consoling oneself the present life already enough happy, to finally, was used to it lonely, was used to the present life. 青木司也曾有过喜欢的女孩,却一再安慰自己,克制,忍耐,自己现在的情况连自己都很难照顾,更别说是另一半了。最后,眼睁睁的看着喜欢的女孩嫁做人妻,身边的朋友也都大部分组成了家庭,只有自己,自我安慰着现在的生活就已经足够幸福,到最后,习惯了孤独,也习惯了眼前的生活。 Is this true? Qingmu Division is silent. 这是真正的自己吗？青木司沉默不语。 In the memory, another in who the neon grows up, not happy. A drunkard father can give him the warm and sufficient condition, is he biggest was lucky. In the memory, Qingmu Division can recall clearly, in elementary school, the ignorant child played tricks on himself is child who does not have mother. 记忆里,另一个在霓虹长大的自己,也不曾幸福过。一个酒鬼父亲能给予他温饱,便已经是他最大的幸运了。记忆中,青木司可以清晰地回想起,在小学时,许多无知的孩童戏弄自己是个没娘的孩子。 However Qingmu Division of this world, has not chosen to bear patiently. But raised the fist, toward any dares to ridicule that own person hit. Is he very strong? No, this world original Qingmu Division is not strong. In the memory, has many to return to him to be punched innumerably ruthlessly but actually, lies is clenching teeth not to utter a sound on the ground. 但是这个世界的青木司,并没有选择隐忍。而是提起了拳头,朝着任何敢嘲笑自己的人打了过去。他很强吗？不,这世界原本的青木司并不强。在记忆里,数不清有多少回他被人狠狠揍倒,趴在地上咬着牙不吭一声。 Qingmu Division that until leaving the world of drunkard father, this world has been scarred, is not willing to resist with this sorrowful reality, chose mediated. 直到酒鬼父亲的离世,这个世界早已伤痕累累的青木司,在也不愿意和这悲哀的现实抗争下去,选择了自我了断。 Is the life of this Qingmu Division, true? 这个青木司的一生,是真正的自己吗？ Shakes the fist to be knocked down enemies, during victory is feels Qingmu Division of sense of achievement incomparably rushed from the heart, true? 挥拳将一个个敌人击倒在地,在胜利的同时从心中感受到了无比澎湃的成就感的青木司,是真正的自己吗？ Qingmu Si Wu the chest, the strong muscle is being his both th has not felt the security sense. 青木司捂着心口,健硕的肌肉是他两世都不曾感受过的安全感。 Arrives at the time of this world is not long, but each, everyone, is very bright in his memory. 来到这个世界的时间并不算长,但每一幕,每一个人,都在他的记忆里无比鲜明。 The whole face tears actually smile bright arched incomparably, the casual fierce brave fearless Maita tiger, appearance fierce very good Iwao Matsuyama, semblance perfectly always strange photo bridge heart beautiful, taking the wooden blade is valiant, smile gentle poisonous island hu, in soap opera a red hair big shot flatter tiger, even is a timid Matsushita male teacher ..... 满脸泪水却笑得无比灿烂的穹,大大咧咧却悍勇无畏的前田虎,长相凶恶却很善良的松山岩,外表完美却总是奇奇怪怪的照桥心美,拿着木刀英姿飒爽,笑容温柔的毒岛冴子,电视剧里一头红发的大佬阿虎,甚至是唯唯诺诺的松下一男老师..... All these pictures are jumping in the mind, flashing, is turning into finally supported in the washing the hands pond, in the mirror that whole body is the wound, facial features callous. 这一切的画面在脑海中跳跃着,闪动着,最后化成了撑在洗手池上,镜子里那浑身是伤,面容冷酷的自己。 Qingmu Division opens eyes slowly, at present, is a pure white space. 青木司的缓缓睁开眼,眼前,还是一片洁白的空间。 „Oneself, are very difficult.” Qingmu Si sighed, sat up the body. “自己果然,很难懂啊。”青木司叹了口气,坐起了身。 The strength of suddenly rising dramatically, making the Qingmu Division life have for the first time can easily dominate the abilities above others , made him experience to become a powerful man for the first time, what feeling was. Before ambition of that suddenly inflation, is because tasted the taste of strength, enjoyed the power and influence above average man, the desire of gradually increasing progressively. 突然暴增的力量,让青木司人生第一次有了可以轻易凌驾于其他人之上的能力,也让他第一次体验到了成为一个强大的男人,到底是什么样的感觉。之前那种忽然膨胀的野心,也不过是因为自己品尝到了力量的滋味,享受到了在常人之上的威势,才逐渐递增的欲望而已。 Extends own both hands, is making an effort to grip at present tightly, the Qingmu Division look is very firm: „I still am I, is only this whole life, lives appearance that oneself wanted. The strength takes to I had not had the experience, but I will not wallow in this absolutely.” 伸出自己的双手,在眼前用力攥紧,青木司眼神无比坚定:“我依然是我,只是这辈子,活成了自己想要的样子而已。力量带给了我从没有过的体验,但我也绝对不会沉迷于此。” „Even if wants the strongest bodgie, I have never thought works like the true bodgie, was enough!” “就算想要最强的不良少年,我也从未想过像真正的不良少年那样做事,就足够了！” „Come, the system, opens a live operational training again! Looks for the tooth that I must synthesize all enemies who wrestle hit your primary training ground in everywhere!” The smile of Qingmu Division filled self-confidently. “来吧,系统,再开一场实战训练！我要把你初级训练场里综合格斗的所有敌人都打的满地找牙！”青木司的笑容充满了自信。 After all...... present I, am not past I. Right, present I, stood above the Wuyang apex, being doomed to become the strongest bodgie, Qingmu Division! 毕竟......现在的我,已经不是过去的我了。没错,现在的我,是站在了舞阳顶点之上的,注定要成为最强不良少年的,青木司！ I like this strength, likes this strength being able to take to my security sense! Likes that never feeling has been, others' respect and expectation. Likes this strength taking to me, can protect the ability of family member friend! 我喜欢这份力量,也喜欢这种力量能带给我的安全感！喜欢那从未感受到过的,别人的尊重与憧憬。喜欢这份力量带给我的,能够守护家人朋友的能力！ That enough! 那就够了！ That is also the appearance of my Qingmu Division! 那也是我青木司的模样！ That is also the life that I want! 那也是我想要的生活！ Stood in the octagonal cage of light sparkle again, Qingmu Division look ice-cold, being eager to try is waiting for arrival of next opponent. 再次站在了灯光闪耀的八角笼内,青木司眼神冰冷,跃跃欲试的等待着下一个对手的登场。 -------------- -------------- ( PS: Now says that the flowered words portray the matter that the psychological growth of lead strives not to flatter, the reader feels does not like, I write is very difficult, therefore I also very hesitate, but always felt , if not write these changes, why the lead will be fighting time-variable that hot blooded could not explain, after all his originally personality very salt fish. (PS:现在都说花笔墨去刻画主角的心理成长是出力不讨好的事情,读者觉得不喜欢,我写起来也很困难,所以我也很犹豫,但是总觉得如果不把这些变化写出来,主角为什么会在打架时变得那么热血解释不清,毕竟他原本性格很咸鱼。 Moreover some friends of reader group should know, in the village head reality had some not good matter couple days ago, during these days renewal that you see was that wrote, perhaps some indeed qualities dropped. But the following plot I looked to adjust to be many, be please patient. 另外有些读者群的朋友应该知道,村长现实里前几天发生了一些不好的事情,你们看到的这几天更新就是那段期间写的,也许的确有些质量下降。但后面的剧情我自己看已经调整回来不少了,请再耐心一点。 Recently the village head pressure was very big, can maintain the renewal is really not easy, hoped everyone tolerantly. Over the two days what the book review looked was really anxious. 最近村长压力很大,能保持更新实属不易,希望大家宽容一点。这两天书评看的是真揪心。