Chapter 443, wants! 第443章、想多了！ She was used to the parents double to perish! 她习惯了父母双亡！ She was used to it all alone! 她习惯了无依无靠！ She was used to compromising for the general interest! 她习惯了委屈求全！ She was used to all misfortunes and disasters! 她习惯了一切厄运和灾难！ However, she worried that Fang Yan is not familiar with. 但是,她担心方炎不习惯。 When a person destiny is much erroneous suffers the tribulation repeatedly, when a person withstood too many painful too many losing, her innermost feelings will become hard, her body will become powerful. She keeps out the wind to obstruct the rain for oneself, she welcomed the rosy-colored clouds at dawn to wash the star light for oneself. 当一个人命运多舛屡遭磨难,当一个人承受了太多的痛苦太多的失去,她的内心就会变得坚硬,她的身体就会变得强大。她为自己挡风遮雨,她为自己迎朝霞沐星光。 It looks like the flowers on cliff, eventually arrogantly be more independent than at the foot of the mountain wild flower weeds. 就像是悬崖上的花朵,终究要比山脚下的野花野草更加的孤傲独立一些。 Lu Chaoge is the flowers on cliff, beforehand Fang Yan is the flowers in greenhouse. 陆朝歌是悬崖上的花朵,以前的方炎是温室里的花朵。 The flowers on cliff see the flowers in greenhouse, some will be worried eventually, will have some tender. Outside wind heavy snow is so so crazy, can his fragile body shoulder under? 悬崖上的花朵看到温室里的花朵,终究会有一些担心,也会有一些怜惜。外面的风那么大雪那么狂,他瘦弱的身体能够扛得下吗？ Lu Chaoge knows that Fang Yan is withstanding the average man the sadness that is inconceivable, just like she had withstood in childhood such. However, her clenching teeth gruff bone boiled. That is a tear pain, as if must sober is removing an organ from own body. 陆朝歌知道方炎正承受着常人难以想象的悲伤,正如她小时候所承受过的那样。但是,她咬牙倔骨的熬了过来。那是一种撕裂般的痛楚,仿佛要清醒着从自己的身体里面摘取一个器官。 The father, should he correspond which organ of body? 父亲,他应该对应身体的哪一个器官呢？ I worried that you are not familiar with! 我担心你不习惯！ Hears the reply of Lu Chaoge, Fang Yan has stunned of flash. 听到陆朝歌的这个回答,方炎有一刹那的错愕。 He looks at the Lu Chaoge whole face concerned elegant face, said in a soft voice: That place that „I was born, very not good customs- there men like speaking the heavy friendship to commit suicide dead like this heroic words. Duke sentiment personal relationships principle of righteousness small righteousness, for these do not hesitate to give to compensate the life.” 他看着陆朝歌满脸关切的俏脸,轻声说道:“我出生的那一个地方,有一个很不好的习惯-那里的男人都喜欢讲重情义轻生死这样的豪迈话。公情私情大义小义,为了这些不惜把命都给赔进去。” „Therefore, some people will leave every year. Some people are buried in strange bad risk North Sea, cannot pick the skeleton. Some people sacrificed in extremely hot boundless desert, by the wind-drift sand where the corpse are submerged forever remaining. Some people died in battle, some people die of illness, but also some people to track down the martial arts from exploding dead- sometimes receives the news that the distant family member passed away in the spring morning, sometimes in the telephone that the Xia Tian night receives the report mourning, sometimes is double ninth festival, but also sometimes is lunar new year's eve- can choose the day of birth, who can choose the day of death?” “所以,每一年都会有人离开。有人葬身在诡异凶险的北海,连尸骨都捡不回来。有人牺牲在酷热苍茫的戈壁,尸体被流沙淹没永远的留守在哪里。有人战死,有人病死,还有人为了追寻武道自爆而死-有时候是在春天的早晨接到远方亲人去世的消息,有时候是在夏天的夜晚接到报丧的电话,有时候是重阳节,还有时候是大年夜-可以选择出生的日子,谁能够选择死亡的日子？” Fang Yan holds the rice bowl abundantly to oneself one bowl of fresh dashis, then the small mouth small mouth place is sipping. 方炎捧着饭碗给自己盛了一碗鲜鱼汤,然后小口小口地抿着。 „Regarding such matter, I thinks I have looked was very relaxed. Sometimes even a mind heat, felt the matter that others can achieve I can also achieve-” Fang Yan self-ridicules smiled, said: „Originally I cannot achieve. I am not brave, but also is somewhat spiritless.” “对于这样的事情,我以为我已经看的很轻松了。甚至有时候自己头脑一热,觉得别人可以做到的事情我也能够做到-”方炎自嘲的笑了起来,说道:“原来我做不到。我并不勇敢,还有些懦弱。” „You are not spiritless.” Lu Chaoge consoles in a soft voice: „You were only the too heavy sentiment.” “你不懦弱。”陆朝歌轻声劝慰:“你只是太重感情了。” Fang Yan shakes the head, said: „Living time had not discussed with him well words have drunk liquor, after dying, what significance is to wait for the long time has? Such turn of expression- can't be called the heavy sentiment?” 方炎摇头,说道:“活着的时候都没有好好地和他谈过一次话喝过一次酒,死了之后就是守候再长的时间有什么意义？这样的表达方式-也不能称为重感情吧？” „I was only too guilty. When he is living does not have picture that is attractive he to draw, has not appreciated the character that he writes well, I know that he is busy at work oneself art exhibition, I have not even passed to send regards what a progress is needs to help smoothly- he lives in his world, I live in my world. Although we are the whole families, but I have thought he does not understand me, I do not understand him.” “我只是太愧疚了。在他活着的时候没有好好看看他画的画,没有好好欣赏他写的字,我知道他在忙活自己的画展,我甚至都没有过去问候一声进展的是不是顺利需不需要帮忙-他生活在他的世界,我生活在我的世界。我们虽然是一家人,但是我一直觉得他不了解我,我也不了解他。” „Therefore, this I keep the Swallow Dock three years time, before I him , all paintings of picture look completely, under the book shelf manuscript paper has not fallen. I have all estimated each character each poem that he writes carefully, the wrong character that makes a mistake in writing reorganizes completely. Some characters write is very good, proved his is happy. Some characters write is very bad, at that time probably he very agitated?” “所以,这一次我留在燕子坞三年,我把他以前画的所有画作全部看完,就连书柜底下的稿纸都没有落下。我把他写的每一篇字每一首诗全都仔细揣摩过一番,就连写错的错字都整理齐全。有些字写的很好,证明他当时的心情很好。有些字写的很差,那个时候大概他非常的烦躁吧？” „Afterward I discovered a secret. When he writes the attractive character, on the same day will certainly have anything to let his happy matter. For example I attained the excellent graduate title of school, for example my time also had let his satisfactory progress- I first time that day that felt The Heart of Tai Chi, he drew «Youngster Morning calisthenics Chart», a youngster practiced boxing under the dawn diligently, picture inside red glowing sun red is very been very red, proof that he dyed at that time his mood certainly very excited-” “后来我发现了一个秘密。当他写出好看的字的时候,当天一定会有什么让他开心的事情。譬如我拿到了学校的优秀毕业生称号,譬如我的功夫又有了让他满意的长进-我第一次感受到太极之心的那一天,他画了一幅《少年晨练图》,一个少年在晨曦下勤奋练拳,画里面的红日被他染的很红很红,证明那个时候他的心情一定非常的激动-” Fang Yan could not be justified, lowers the head to eat the soup. 方炎说不下去了,低头喝汤。 The warm tasty dashi into the belly, Fang Yan depressing slightly was relaxed. 温暖鲜美的鱼汤入肚,方炎压抑的心情才稍微轻松了一些。 „Does not have any is familiar with, but gives up.” Fang Yan said with a smile: „I do not give up him. Just like this.” “没有什么习不习惯,只是舍得不舍得而已。”方炎笑着说道:“我就是舍不得他。如此而已。” Lu Chaoge looks to Fang Yan, in the attractive pupil has deep worry, said: „Fang Yan, why can you arrive at Flower City?” 陆朝歌看向方炎,漂亮的眸子里面有着深深的担忧,说道:“方炎,你为什么要到花城？” „Too many things must be done, cannot wait.” Fang Yan was replying said: „Said again, before me these students- they are also waiting for me.” “还有太多的事情要做,总不能一直守候下去。”方炎回答着说道:“再说,我之前的那些学生-他们也在等着我呢。” „Fang Yan, you did not think that this was too risky?” Lu Chaoge does not believe that the explanation of Fang Yan, makes noise saying: „I understand you, I know that what man you are. You waited for three years in Swallow Dock, waited for three years. You think that these people will also appear, you think that they will also start to you- finally they have not come out, looking like vanished from this world was the same.” “方炎,你不觉得这样太冒险了吗？”陆朝歌并不相信方炎的解释,出声说道:“我了解你,我知道你是一个什么样的男人。你在燕子坞守候了三年,也等待了三年。你以为那些人还会出现,你以为他们还会对你下手-结果他们迟迟没有出来,就像是从这个世界消失了一样。” „Therefore, you left Swallow Dock, left Yanjing, arriving dangerously is also your strength weakest Flower City- do you want to lure the snake from its hole with your life? Fang Yan, this was too dangerous. Goes back, returns to Swallow Dock. There is the safest place. Their anything matter can be done comes out-” “所以,你离开了燕子坞,离开了燕京,来到了最危险也是你实力最薄弱的花城-你想用自己的这条命来引蛇出洞？方炎,这样太危险了。回去吧,回到燕子坞。那里才是最安全的地方。他们什么事情都能够做的出来-” In the eye of Fang Yan flooded the fearful red light, the white of the eye place was covering entirely the motley red blood threads, looks at Lu Chaoge sound tranquil saying: „But, contradictory must always solve- they killed my father, making me kill their family to be good. You looked, this does request not excessive?” 方炎的眼睛里面充斥着慑人的红光,眼白处布满了斑驳的红色血丝,看着陆朝歌声音平静的说道:“可是,矛盾总是要解决啊-他们杀了我父亲,让我杀了他们全家就好了。你看,这要求不过份吧？” „-” “-” Fang Yan sees the Lu Chaoge amazed expression, asked: „Isn't familiar with very much? Beforehand I did not speak. If comes across such issue, I with another turn of expression- I will tell you me am a pacifist, then in the back dies their family pit. This is my style, is right?” 方炎看到陆朝歌惊诧的表情,问道:“是不是很不习惯？以前的我不是这么说话的。如果遇到这样的问题,我会用另外一种表达方式-我会告诉你我是一个和平主义者,然后背地里把他们全家都坑死。这才是我的风格,对不对？” Lu Chaoge nods, said: „Truly, that is your style- before I hope you you. Although that time you mouth was virulent, but the heart was very good. Is willing to think of others.” 陆朝歌点了点头,说道:“确实,那才是你的风格-我希望你还是以前的你。那个时候的你虽然嘴巴恶毒,但是心地很善良。很愿意为别人着想。” „It is not good, I cannot achieve.” The Fang Yan racket own chest position, said: „Every night seemed like burnt down was being same, suffers makes one unable to sleep. When this was irrigated to extinguish the fire, I can turn into the beforehand appearance.” “不行啊,我做不到。”方炎拍拍自己的心口位置,说道:“每天晚上都像是被火烧着了一样,折磨地让人睡不着觉。什么时候这把火被浇灭了,我才能够变成以前的样子。” „We take your time. Do not worry.” Lu Chaoge said. „What do you go to Vermillion Bird to make? Also prepares to go back to be the teacher?” “那我们就慢慢来。不要着急。”陆朝歌说道。“你去朱雀做什么？还准备回去做老师吗？” „It is not the teacher.” Fang Yan said: „My present mentality is not suitable to be the teacher. I fear the control not good my mood.” “不做老师。”方炎说道:“我现在的心态不适合做老师。我怕控制不好自己的情绪。” „Being the teacher is the matter that you excel. If not the teacher, what you do want to make?” “做老师是你擅长的事情。如果不做老师的话,你想做什么？” „Makes the school security.” Fang Yan said. “做学校保安。”方炎说道。 „Security?” The dashi of Lu Chaoge mouth nearly puffs out. If do not maintain gracefully the stance, she thinks are very difficult to control lives in this matter. “保安？”陆朝歌嘴里的鱼汤差点儿喷了出去。如果不是要保持优雅地姿态的话,她想自己很难控制的住这种事情。 Education nova who in the past Flower City educational circle raised slowly, wants to go to the school to make a security unexpectedly- was this contrast too intense? 当年花城教育界一颗冉冉升起的教育新星,竟然只是想去学校做一名保安-这个反差是不是太强烈了一些？ „Before I liked educating the person, now- I only thought the keeper.” Fang Yan looks at Lu Chaoge saying that in unprecedented earnest tone. „Afterward I know, living is being most important. I hope these people who I care about do not receive any injury.” “以前我喜欢教育人,现在-我只想守护人。”方炎看着陆朝歌说道,以前所未有的认真语气。“后来我才知道,活着才是最重要的。我希望我在乎的那些人都不要受到任何伤害。” „Did this is too tired.” “这样做太累了。” „Does not do that is tired.” Fang Yan said. „Before had not done that therefore I now so will be tired.” “不这么做才累。”方炎说道。“以前没有这么做,所以我现在才会这么累。” Lu Chaoge sighed gently, said: „What can I help your?” 陆朝歌轻轻叹息,说道:“我能帮你什么？” „Helps me complete Morning Flame.” Fang Yan said. „I later will need money, needs a lot of money. Needs the resources, all kinds of resources- I not only take a great strength of person, I need a great strength of family. Only had that time, I can hide with these in the back intriguer head confrontation. I can cut their dirty hand, pierces their dirty hearts.” “帮我把朝炎做好。”方炎说道。“我以后会需要钱,需要很多很多的钱。需要资源,各种各样的资源-我不仅仅要一个人的强大,我需要一个家族的强大。只有那个时候,我才能够和那些躲在背后的阴谋家正面交锋。我才能够砍下他们的脏手,刺穿他们肮脏的心脏。” Lu Chaoge nods, said: „You observe one's mourning for three years in Swallow Dock, my three years have not gone to see you- I all placed above all time energy the development of Morning Flame Science and Technology. I know that will have such a day, I hope, when you come out, Morning Flame Science and Technology can become you strongest backing- I think, Miss Qin also thought.” 陆朝歌点头,说道:“你在燕子坞守孝三年,我三年没有去看望过你-我把所有的时间精力全都放在了朝炎科技的发展上面。我知道会有这么一天,我希望当你出来的时候,朝炎科技能够成为你最坚强的后盾-我想,秦小姐也是这么想的。” After the Fang Yihang funeral ended, Qin Yitian left immediately. 方意行葬礼结束之后,秦倚天就立即离开了。 She became mother's assistant, became one of the Qin Family family firm decision-makers. 她成了母亲的助手,成了秦家家族企业的决策人物之一。 Her line of sight has stared on Morning Flame Science and Technology, she uses the Qin Family resources and personal connection is the development of Morning Flame escorts. 她的视线一直盯在朝炎科技上面,她利用秦家的资源和人脉为朝炎的发展保驾护航。 Without supporting of Qin Yitian, without Qin Family supports in behind, the new student|life frail potential infinite Morning Flame Science and Technology had been torn the fragment pouching in the belly like the baby by these careerists. 如果没有秦倚天的力挺,如果没有秦家在后面支撑,新生如幼儿般脆弱又潜力无穷的朝炎科技早就被撕裂成碎块被那些野心家给吞进肚子里面去。 It can be said that without Lu Chaoge stands on attracts the fire outwardly, without Qin Yitian stands in the back displays the thunder, Morning Flame Science and Technology that two small flame had been given the pouring to extinguish. 可以说,如果没有陆朝歌站在明面上吸引炮火,如果没有秦倚天站在背后施展雷霆,朝炎科技那两把小火苗早就被人给浇灭了。 „I owe you is too many.” The Fang Yan sinking sound said. “我欠你们太多。”方炎沉声说道。 He has not said thanks, because that two characters are too slight weakly, really does not have the means to voice his feelings at this moment. 他没有说感谢,因为那两个字太轻微薄弱,实在没办法来表达他此时此刻的心情。 The Lu Chaoge silent smile, starts to tidy up the tableware, said: „You watch a while television, later lives here.” 陆朝歌无声微笑,开始收拾碗筷,说道:“你去看一会儿电视,以后就住在我这里吧。” „-” Fang Yan has a restless feeling. “-”方炎有种坐立难安的感觉。 He thought that oneself present is not very happy, is not quite suitable to consider the matter between men and women. 他觉得自己现在的心情很不好,不太适合考虑男女之间的事情。 Moreover, the seasoning that between he and Lu Chaoge also lacks some sentiments, he thought that oneself has not prepared- rests rashly in the same place words, is not quite appropriate? 而且,他和陆朝歌之间还缺少一些感情的佐料,他觉得自己还没有准备好-贸然睡在一起的话,不太合适吧？ Fang Yan is in a dilemma, does not know that what reason should with be able to refuse the invitation of Lu Chaoge not to hurt the woman proud self-respect. 方炎左右为难,不知道应该用什么样的理由即能够拒绝陆朝歌的邀请又不会伤害女人骄傲的自尊。 Because rarely spoke in the three years, he thought that oneself language enhancement degeneration was serious. 因为这三年很少说话,他觉得自己的语言能力退化严重。 „Room I have helped you tidy up.” Lu Chaoge carried the tableware to enter the kitchen. “房间我已经帮你收拾好了。”陆朝歌端着碗筷走进了厨房。 „-” Fang Yan only knows, oneself think was really many. “-”方炎这才知道,自己想的实在是太多了一些。 ( Ps: Thank starry night evil younger brother's ten thousand bestows, the local tyrant military might was aggressive. Thank Gu Yue cool breeze brother's 30,000 to enjoy, guards war, vertically and horizontally/able to move unhindered world!) (ps:感谢星夜邪弟的万赏,土豪威武霸气。感谢古月清风兄的三万赏,近卫军金戈铁马,纵横天下！)