I start to know that anything is goes to work, anything is gets off work, anything is human...... these things, why does not know, I have a familiar feeling. 我开始知道什么是上班,什么是下班,什么是人类……那些东西,不知道为什么,我都有一种熟悉的感觉。 Probably is, oneself experienced is the same. 好像就是,自己曾经经历过一样。 Sometimes, I will have doubts, I...... afterward, not only when Zhuge turn on that small convention where from came time, I can see more things. 有些时候,我会有一种疑惑,我到底是从什么地方来的……后来,不仅仅只有当诸葛打开那个小框框的时候,我才能够看见更多的东西。 I started to contact other and my similar thing...... I start to know that anything is called the data, started to know own what exactly is it. 我开始接触到了一些其它和我类似的东西……我开始知道什么叫做数据,也开始知道自己到底是什么。 The role of game, the user pinches the game role that makes. 游戏的角色,用户所捏做出来的游戏角色。 So long as the link network, I can feel that has massively...... I attempts with my same role with these role communications, I want to speak the words with them, in that case, when I cannot see Zhuge, should not feel bored. 只要联通网络,我就能够感觉到有着大量和我一样的角色……我尝试和这些角色沟通,我想要和它们说话话,那样的话,当我见不到诸葛的时候,应该就不会感觉到无聊。 Yes, I start to know that anything was bored. 是的,我开始知道什么是无聊了。 However, no matter how I summoned again, they have not paid attention to me...... they, probably was different from me. 但是,不管我再怎么的呼唤,它们都没有理睬我……它们,好像是和我不一样。 In another world of screen, probably only then my exists...... is good to leave such world, does not think that was being covered by dark. 在屏幕的另一个世界,好像是只有我一个的存在……好想要离开这样的世界,不想在被黑暗所笼罩。 Good to probably see Zhuge...... to be good to want with Zhuge Liaotian, although I know, I can only express with script of these written down procedure/program. 好想要要见诸葛……好想要和诸葛聊天,尽管我知道,我只能够用那些被写下的程序的文字来表达。 Why however does not know, I felt that Zhuge is knows, even if that originates from script of procedure/program merely, Zhuge is still regarded as his similar me. 但是不知为何,我感觉到诸葛是知道的,就算那仅仅只是来源于程序的文字,诸葛也把我当作是他的同类。 If so, the time that even if can meet every day has the limit words, even if meets after each time, must face these dark words again......, even if I know, perhaps on that day Zhuge still like other user, the words that I will unload...... 如果是这样的话,就算每天能够见面的时间有限制的话,就算每次见面完之后,都要再一次面对着那些黑暗的话……就算我知道,也许那一天诸葛也会像别的用户那样,把我卸载掉的话…… Even if will have such day of words, so long as now...... so long as the present...... I am still willing to wait for in the darkness. 就算会有那样一天的话,只要现在……只要现在……我也愿意在黑暗之中等待。 ...... …… I think, my day has maintained like this, until that day, I could not see Zhuge...... he to unload me again. 我以为,我的日子就会这样一直地维持下去,直到那一天,我再也看不见诸葛……他把我卸载了。 However I have not thought, on this day will arrive suddenly. 但是我没有想到,这一天会突然之间就来到。 I harbor the anticipation once again, sees opening of that screen......, but this time, isn't the person who I see Zhuge? 我又一次怀着期待,看见那个屏幕的开启……但是这一次,我看见的人并不是诸葛？ Who is he? Why isn't Zhuge? Zhuge where? 他到底是谁？为什么不是诸葛？诸葛在什么地方？ I see this strange man in the smile of beside the screen showing...... my hateful this smile. He showed that looks at clown same look at me. 我看见这个陌生的男人在屏幕之外露出的笑容……我讨厌这种笑容。他就显示看着小丑一样地看着我。 That type teased the same smile. 那种戏谑一样的笑容。 Do not move...... that is Zhuge Songgei my gift...... do not move...... asks you do not move! 不要动……那是诸葛送给我的礼物……不要动……请你不要动！ Stopping...... this is the scene that Zhuge and I goes to together, stop!! 住手……这是诸葛和我一起去的场景,住手啊！！ Deletion? 删除？ I realized suddenly one fear, looks that appears in my option of front deletion greatly...... the deletion? 我突然意识到了一种恐惧,看着大大地出现在我面前的删除的选项……删除？ Stop! 住手！ Stop! 住手！ Please...... ask you to stop...... to stop...... to stop...... to ask you, stop...... 请你……请你住手……住手啊……住手啊……求求你,住手啊…… Zhuge, where you...... are good to think, might see you...... 诸葛,你在什么地方……好想,好像要见你…… ...... …… „I want Nai Naizi to return to my side, I am willing to pay all my, all my...... my soul.” “我想要奈奈子回到我的身边,我愿意付出我的一切,我的所有……我的灵魂。” Is Zhuge's voice. 是诸葛的声音。 Finally, once again, can see Zhuge again. 终于,又一次,再一次地能够看见诸葛。 This time, different! 这一次,不同！ This time, I not after screen! This time, I can grasp his both hands, spacious, has both hands of heat degree! 这一次,我不在时隔着屏幕！这一次,我能够抓起他的双手,宽大的,拥有热度的双手！ Good, is really good, can arrive at Zhuge's world! 太好了,真的是太好了,能够来到诸葛的世界！ ...... …… Although, must wait for some time to be able every day to see Zhuge, even the time of waiting was away from the screen also to be longer than the past. When so long as he here, the so real contact, can say formerly did not have the words that the means said...... is really good. 虽然,依然还是每天都要等待一些时间才能够见到诸葛,甚至等待的时间比从前隔着屏幕还要长很多。但是只要当他在这里的时候,如此真实的接触,能够说出从前没有办法说出的话……实在是太好了。 „This weekend, do we go out for a walk?” “这个周末,我们出去走走吧？” I did not even have the means to describe then feelings...... in the true sense, I and Zhuge's first appointment. No longer is away from the scene movement of screen...... no longer is that virtual scene scenery that only then I can see. 我甚至没有办法形容当时的心情……真正意义上的,我和诸葛的第一次约会。不再是隔着屏幕的场景移动……不再是只有我自己才能够看见的那种虚拟的场景景色。 ...... …… Won't this simpleton...... hold my hand? Obviously also at game that skilled...... 这个呆子……就不会牵我的手吗？明明还只是在游戏的时候那么的熟练…… But, this is also enough, later, will certainly have a lot of opportunities. 可是,这样也已经足够了,以后,一定还会有很多很多的机会。 I think like this. 我是这样想的。 I really think like this. 我真的是这样想的。 ...... My secret was discovered. 只是……我的秘密被发现了。 The water splash that these spurt suddenly, they splash down on my body, I can feel all of a sudden- my some cannot to the Zhuge honest secret. 那些突然喷出来的水花,它们溅落在我的身上,我一下子就能够感觉到-我的一些没能够向诸葛坦白的秘密。 I run off from Zhuge's side, I run off recklessly. Since I arrive at shortly after this world I know, I do not have the means to bump into the water, so long as bumps into it, my body will have the sign of melting, I need to wait for the body to do thoroughly, can restore the original appearance. 我从诸葛的身边跑开,我不顾一切地跑开。从我来到这个世界之后不久我就知道,我没有办法碰到水,只要碰到它,我的身体就会出现融化的迹象,我需要等待身体干透了,才能够恢复原来的模样。 ...... …… I know that perhaps Zhuge has seen me to clean of body. I know that he did not have to say anything, led me to come back, then left flustered. 我知道诸葛恐怕是已经看见我在擦拭身体的那一幕。我知道的,他没有多说什么,就带我回来,然后又慌张地离开。 I know...... 我知道的…… But I was fantasizing Zhuge will not come back. 但我幻想着诸葛不会还会回来的。 I think like this. 我是这样想的。 Finally, I waited till Zhuge returns. I noticed that what to do his complexion change...... I do not know should, I was studied by myself diligently was being same in the past, I want to approach him. 终于,我等到了诸葛回来。我看到他的脸色的变化……我不知道应该怎么办,我努力地让自己学着往常一样,我想要靠近他。 „No!” “别！” He walked...... this time, in my front, at the back of me, runs off desperately, no matter how I summoned again. 他走了……这一次,就在我的面前,背着我,拼命地跑开,不管我再怎么的呼唤。 ...... …… ...... …… I, I start only to be able in downstairs to look silently he...... I follows he, in his back. 我,我开始只能够在楼下默默地看着他……我跟着他,在他的背后。 I look that Zhuge no longer raised the head, looks that he walks does not have the appearance of god, looks that on his face no longer has the smile. 我看着诸葛不再抬起头来,看着他走路也没有神的样子,看着他的脸上不再出现笑容。 I walk his room quietly, I tidy up his all...... I to restore to the original appearance. 我悄悄地走回去他的屋子,我收拾着他的一切……我又把一切都恢复到原来的模样。 My own sat on the floor, probably in the past waited for him to come back such, sat on the floor......, but many times, I hope that Zhuge will not open the door. 我自己一个坐在了地板上,像是往常等待他回来那样,坐在地板上……但是多少次,我希望诸葛不会打开门。 In this case, I...... will have probably, when he comes back the time such. 这样的话,我就好像……会有等到他回来时候的那样。 However I know that...... I am always different from him. 但是我知道……我始终和他不一样。 I know many things......, even if Zhuge did not mind, even...... may I throughout not be a true person, I do not have the means to give him some, the true woman can give his thing. 我知道很多很多的东西……就算诸葛并不介意,就算……可我始终并不是一个真正的人,我没有办法给他一些,真正的女人能够给他的东西。 „Isn't tired?” “不累吗？” One day, the strange men appeared in my front. Wears the black clothes, bringing the clown mask...... I to feel the fear from the beginning, but this strange fellow has not made anything to me. 忽然有一天,有一个奇怪的男人出现在了我的面前。穿着黑色的衣服,带着小丑的面具……我一开始感觉到了害怕,但这个奇怪的家伙并没有对我做什么。 Very polite, even can be called is the person of gentleman. 很有礼貌,甚至称得上是绅士的一个人。 His suddenly appear here room, suddenly asked that my such issue, I do not know how should answer his issue. 他就这样突然出现在这个房间之中,突然问我这样的问题,我不知道应该怎么回答他的这个问题。 Isn't tired? 不累吗？ I was also asking own this issue. 我也在问自己这个问题。 Afterward I said: „If this place does not even have the means to stay quietly, I...... I do not have the place.” 后来我说:“如果连这个地方都没有办法悄悄呆着的话,我……我已经没有地方可以去了。” He said suddenly: „Inside my shop has a waiter, he drew guest to me recently......, but my waiter is actually an rookie, anything does not understand. He as if made a mistake the object.” 他忽然说:“我店里头有个伙计,他最近给我拉了一个客人……但是我的这个伙计其实是个新人,什么也不懂。他似乎搞错了对象。” I still do not know that he is saying anything, but I had not felt that perhaps he has hostility...... I also to find a person to chat. 我依然不知道他在说些什么,但我没有感觉到他有恶意……我或许也想要找个人聊聊天。 „Attracts his, is not that guest that he thinks......, but by this new guest belt/bring in side, you.” “吸引他的,不是他以为的那个客人……而是被这位新客人带在身边的,你。” „I?” “我？” „If needed, can summon me. Dear Guest, regardless of your hope is anything, so long as......” “有需要的话,可以呼唤我。尊敬的客人,无论您的希望是什么,只要……” After leaving behind such a bewildered speech, this strange fellow left behind a black card sign in my front, then vanishes from my front does not see. 留下了这样一句莫名其妙的说话之后,这个奇怪的家伙就在我的面前留下了一张黑色的卡牌,然后就从我的面前消失不见。 ...... …… ...... …… Is Zhuge! 是诸葛！ He there! 他在那里！ He there...... for me, he stood that being a focus of public attention stage! He in the stage, be relentless bared oneself innermost feelings layer by layer, rips the crack lung place. 他在那里……为了我,他站上了那个万众瞩目的舞台！他在舞台上,毫不留情地一层一层地剥开了自己的内心,撕身裂肺地。 My both hands covered oneself mouth...... I to think that I should want to sob, but I absolutely did not have the means to shed tears. 我双手捂着了自己的嘴巴……我觉得我应该想要哭泣,但是我完全没有办法能够流出眼泪。 My body...... not that type of thing! 我的身体……没有那种东西！ I think, hopes, told him, I forgave you...... I not to blame you...... I to see you! 我多想,多么希望,告诉他,我原谅你了……我根本不会怪你……我想要见你！ I am really good to think that thinks...... 我真的好想好想…… However I bursting into tears cannot achieve! 但是我连流泪也没能做到！ I cannot achieve...... me, I am not human. I cannot seem like ordinary human to be the same, Zhuge and I...... 我根本就做不到……我,我不是一个人类。我不能够像是一个普通人类一样,诸葛与我…… I really must want to see him very much. 我真得很想要见他。 I really...... want, to see him very much. 我真的……很想要,见他。 Finally, that black card sign burnt in my front all of a sudden got up...... I to see a leaf of wooden door, heard the sound of bell. 终于,那张黑色的卡牌在我的面前一下子燃烧了起来……我看见了一扇木门,听到了铃铛的声音。 Hears that had presented the strange man saying: „Welcome.” 听到了那个曾经出现过的古怪男人说:“欢迎光临。” ...... …… ...... …… Un...... 嗯…… Zhuge raise one's head looks at the small prison on wall. 诸葛抬头看着墙壁上的小小铁窗。 After on that day, he did not have meet again | goodbye to Nai Naizi. Although he hurried back to oneself rented room from the television station crazily, but still cannot see Nai Naizi. 那一天之后,他没有再见到奈奈子。尽管他从电视台疯狂地赶回了自己的出租屋,但依然没能够见到奈奈子。 He saw television that has not closed-, but Nai Naizi throughout not here. 他看到了并没有关闭的电视-但奈奈子始终还是不在这里。 Still hasn't obtained forgiving of Nai Naizi? Zhuge is smiling bitterly, does not know how that night to cross. Second Heaven, Zhuge's rented room came some people. 依然没有取得奈奈子的原谅吗？诸葛苦笑着,也不知道那天晚上到底是怎么过的。第二天,诸葛的出租屋就来了一些人。 Chen Jiaming led the person to come...... Zhuge not to say anything, followed he to walk very much peacefully, went to a police station. 陈家明带着人过来了……诸葛没有说什么,很安静地跟着他走,去了一趟警察局。 This fellow be relentless reported to the police, and must accuse that he...... Zhuge does not even care about this fellow air/Qi with clenched jaws in that side scolds, but felt own that fist that hits to kick very crisply, why aren't that little while many comes one round? 这家伙毫不留情地报警了,并且要控告他……诸葛甚至不在乎这个家伙在那边气得咬牙切齿地开骂,只是觉得自己那一拳那一脚打踢得很爽啊,为什么那会儿不多来一发呢？ ...... …… I will not give up like this. 我不会就这样放弃的。 If a day does not have the means to make you forgive, then two days, three days...... this for a lifetime. 如果一天没有办法让你原谅的话,那么就两天,三天……这一辈子。 took a deep breath, Zhuge looks at Detention Room Lan Tian (blue sky) outside small prison, no thing of being at a loss, the in the heart firm thought. 深深地吸了口气,诸葛看着羁留室的小铁窗外的蓝天,没有什么迷惘的东西,心中只有坚定的念头。 Does not need...... before without obtaining forgiving of Nai Naizi lowly, absolutely would have no low qualifications. 不需要低落……在没有获得奈奈子的原谅之前,根本就没有低落的资格。 „Zhuge Cong, you can go out! Some people release on bail you, but you complete do not wander about aimlessly, is waiting for summoning of court.” “诸葛聪,你可以出去了！有人来保释你,不过你做好不要乱走,等着法院的传召吧。” Who can release on bail itself? 谁会来保释自己？ Zhuge stares, is thinking should not alarm also the parents in native place? That may really be a troublesome matter. 诸葛一愣,想着该不会惊动了还在老家的父母了吧？那可真是一件麻烦的事情。 He walked dejectedly, how is worried should...... be possible to be obloquied one to own parental explanation right in the face? After all handled that losing face matter. 他垂头丧气地走了出去,苦恼着应该怎么向自己的父母解释……或许会被劈头就大骂一通吧？毕竟做了那种丢脸的事情。 However. 然而。 Isn't who his parents...... that stands in the person who out of the door waits for is? 并不是他的父母……那站在门外等候的人是谁？ Brings the white big hat, does the plain-colored one-piece dress, who stand the person quietly there...... is? 带着白色的大帽子,素色的连衣裙,静悄悄地站在那里的人……是谁？ Isn't the short hair...... Nai Naizi? 短发……不是奈奈子吗？ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥¥¥¥¥¥¥ ps : ( 2 / 2)( to be continued.) ps:(2/2)(未完待续。)