Chapter 46 mad dog and death, were greatly selfish 第46章疯狗、死亡、大自私 The mother and wife fall the river simultaneously, by the track are standing respectively an irreproachable child and a group of stubbornly disobedient child, torture instrument above bundle the family member who you are loving, in addition Huai Caoshi taunted these words that contemptuously said at this time, was the society most common issue, these issues may make many people feel to struggle, from inside to outside, from roots of the hair to toe pain, however regarding Xu Le, these issues was only some scoundrels bored to the supposition of extreme. 母亲和妻子同时落河,轨道两边分别站着一个无错误的小孩儿和一大群顽劣的小孩儿,刑具上面捆着你挚爱的亲人,再加上怀草诗此时嘲讽轻蔑说出的这句话,是人世间最常见的问题,这些问题可能会令很多人感到挣扎,从内到外,从发根到脚趾头都痛苦不已,然而对于许乐来说,这些问题只是一些混帐无聊到了极点的假设。 „Does not need urgently to refute me with these specious logic. To moralist, only then without injuring to their paramount interest, the morals are useful, once poses a threat to your paramount interest, the victim's family member who you will start to act the sob without hesitation, is not willing to discard a meat, actually must seize the moral the high ground.” “不用急着拿那些似是而非的逻辑来反驳我。对于道德家来说,只有在不伤害到他们核心利益的时候,道德才是有用的,一旦威胁到你们的核心利益,你们会毫不犹豫地开始扮演哭泣的受害者家属,不愿意舍弃一丝肉,却还要抢占道德的高地。” Huai Caoshi waves indifferently, in the hand grasps the life of that slum area woman to want Xu Le dead, in her opinion is a joke, is only this joke is somewhat virulent, points to the consciences of these moral peddlers. 怀草诗冷漠地挥了挥手,手里握着那个贫民区妇女的生命要许乐自己去死,在她看来本来就是一个玩笑话,只是这种玩笑有些恶毒,直指那些道德贩子的本心。 Xu Le secure is listening quietly, then opens the mouth to reply as usual slowly: „No, I will certainly not commit suicide, but I am not that person who you said that...... did not explain about this point.” 许乐安静听着,然后如常缓缓开口回答道:“不,我当然不会自杀,但我也不是你说的那种人,关于这一点……不解释。” His vision is bright, does not have any mood is staring at Huai Caoshi under opposite darkness broken wall, said: „Anybody tries to harm the innocent aunt, including you, that I can react, can only be exhausts all methods and strengths kills the opposite party, then saves them.” 他目光明亮灼人,没有任何情绪盯着对面黑暗破墙下的怀草诗,说道:“任何人试图伤害无辜的大妈,包括你在内,我所能做出的反应,只能是用尽一切方法和力量去扑杀对方,然后去救他们。” Killing? Kills itself also to have the steel organization of entire empire like a wild animal? The Huai Caoshi eyes narrow the eyes, ridiculed pale. 扑杀？像一只野兽般扑杀自己还有整个帝国的钢铁机构？怀草诗双眼微眯,淡嘲笑了起来。 „I know that you are smiling anything, smiles my overreaching oneself, smiles my indulging in fantasy.” The Xu Le sound replied hoarsely: „That is because you did not understand that what person I am, you really compelled me to go crazy, I will turn into a dog, is flowing the saliva wickedly, is staring at your small leg bone, spared nothing also to throw to nip several ruthlessly, the bit your whole body wound, oozed pus to continue, passed to your body my virus.” “我知道你在笑什么,笑我的不自量力,笑我的异想天开。”许乐声音沙哑回答道:“那是因为你不了解我是一个什么样的人,你真逼着我发疯了,我会变成一条狗,一条恶狠狠流着口水,盯着你小腿骨,不惜一切代价也要扑上去狠狠咬几口,咬的你浑身伤口,流脓不止,把我的病毒传到你的身上。” „Do not compel me.” “不要逼我。” „I will really turn into a dog, a mad dog.” “我真的会变成一条狗,一条疯狗。” ...... …… ...... …… „Are you threatening me? What capital do you currently have to threaten me?” Huai Caoshi is pressed the brow, having sigh with emotion aura as deep as a well to say. “你是在威胁我？你现在还有什么资本能够威胁到我？”怀草诗蹙着眉头,带着一丝难以捉摸的感慨气息说道。 The feeling of your highness came from Xu Le that stated, she has not thought that opposite that to bear patiently the young man who is famous in the federation calm, unexpectedly can recount a birth of mad dog calmly, moreover...... really made her feel a chill in the air. 殿下的感慨来自于许乐那番自我陈述,她没有想到,对面那个在联邦以沉稳隐忍著称的年轻男人,居然能如此平静地述说一条疯狗的诞生,而且……真的让她感到了一丝寒意。 This man has fallen into the hopeless situation obviously, why does he also dare to threaten itself? 明明这个男人已经陷入绝境,他凭什么还敢威胁自己？ „If that woman named Susan died, what you can make? Even if you escape, what you can make?” “如果那个叫苏珊的妇人死了,你又能做些什么？就算你逃出去,你又能做些什么？” „In this universe, except for your majesty, I do not have the person who cares about truly, how you will slaughter will again not make me have slightly are moved and regret.” “在这个宇宙里,除了陛下,我没有真正在乎的人,你再怎样杀戮也不会让我有丝毫伤感和后悔。” „Or will you keep killing people in empire? Cruel and does the below-normal intelligence terrorist keep assassinating the aristocrat or the military officer like one?” “或者说你将在帝国本土上不停杀人？像一个暴戾而低智的恐怖分子不停地暗杀贵族或军官？” „Perhaps.” “也许。” Xu Le looks at the vision of opposite wall is still bright even boiling hot. 许乐望着对面墙的目光依然明亮甚至滚烫。 In slum area that warm yard, then treats own mother and child to the by society biggest good intentions, at this moment is getting into the unprecedented crisis, if Susan mother and child really had/left the accident/surprise, he is unacceptable. 贫民区里那座温暖的小院,那对以人世间最大善意对待自己的母子,此刻正陷于前所未有的危机之中,如果苏珊母子真的出了意外,他不能接受。 „It is not perhaps, is certain.” “不是也许,是一定。” „If the aunt mother and child had/left any problem, this time made me escape, I will use the entire latter half of one's life the time, spared nothing to kill me to find the empire aristocrat, that dozens years, your national territory general loafed the mad dog that enough is bearing patiently calmly, I made a bet you not to have the means to hold me again, outside if in fact did not have the attractive middle-aged man of that bastard, your time did not have the means to hold me.” “如果大妈母子出了任何问题,这次又让我逃了出去,我将用整整后半生的时间,不惜一切代价杀死我能找到的帝国贵族,那几十年的时间,你的国土上将游荡着一只足够冷静隐忍的疯狗,我打赌你没有办法再抓住我,事实上如果没有外面那个混蛋的漂亮中年男人,你这次也没有办法抓住我。” „Cannot hold me, the Tianjing star will keep bleeding.” “抓不住我,天京星就会不停流血。” „Executes one because of angry to does not have any dangerous mother and child, thus compels me to turn into a mad dog, to you, to your emperors, to your empire, should be no good.” “因为愤怒而处死一对没有任何危险的母子,从而逼着我变成一条疯狗,对你,对你们的皇帝,对你们帝国,应该都没有任何好处。” Spoke these words, Xu Le stopped own words, the dark prison cell reply was peaceful, only then two person long and calm continuous breathing, resounded continuously. 说完这句话,许乐停止了自己的话语,黑暗的囚室回复安静,只有两个人悠长而沉稳的绵绵呼吸声,此起彼伏响起。 „These people who even if you must kill, look from the widespread moral judgement are innocent, will you also kill?” “哪怕你要杀的那些人,从普遍的道德判断上看是无辜的,你也会杀？” „Good.” “不错。” „This does not conform to your moral outlook.” “这并不符合你的道德观。” Xu Le is silent. 许乐沉默。 Huai Caoshi is also silent. 怀草诗同样沉默。 ...... …… ...... …… „Although I do not think that you can escape, but why does not know, I am willing to accept your request, puts your aunt one time.” Huai Caoshi said unemotionally: „According to the previous view, you must accept my condition, naturally, war of this condition among with your my both sides has no relations.” “虽然我并不认为你能逃出去,但不知道为什么,我愿意答应你的要求,放你那位大妈一次。”怀草诗面无表情说道:“按照先前的说法,你要答应我一个条件,当然,这个条件与你我双方之间的战争没有任何关系。” „Good.” The Xu Le language fast replied extremely quickly, the conducted the back sweat has soaked the whole body, the crossflow stabbing pain in the wound was incomparable. “好。”许乐语速极快地回答道,背上的汗水早已湿透全身,在伤口上横流刺痛无比。 „I have read many time your files, knows that what kind of role you have played in the federation, you are not an inborn bloodthirsty wild faction soldier, looks like to withstand/top the senseless just faction youth on head morality and justice...... this time for two Empire People, you will disobey your lifetime principle...... to look like you really to fear unexpectedly very much.” “我看过很多次你的档案,知道你在联邦里扮演过怎样的角色,你并不是一个天生嗜血的狂暴派军人,更像一个把道义顶在脑袋上的无趣正义派青年……这次为了两名帝国子民,你居然会违逆自己的人生准则……看来你真的很怕。” Huai Caoshi is narrowing the eye, said faintly: „The fellow who never fears death, will fear this unexpectedly, is really rare.” 怀草诗眯着眼睛,淡漠说道:“一个从不怕死的家伙,居然会怕成这样,实在难得。” Xu Le is silent, since determined after Aunt Susan possibly died momentarily, that unprecedented sense of fear then occupied his whole body, because of this unprecedented fear, he becomes unprecedented crazy, moreover this pinnacle crazy hidden in the calmness of pinnacle, transmitted in the brain of Huai Caoshi clearly. 许乐沉默无言,自确定苏珊大妈随时可能死亡之后,那份前所未有的恐惧感便占据了他的全身,因为这种前所未有的恐惧,他变得前所未有的疯狂,而且这种极致的疯狂隐藏在极致的冷静之中,清晰地传达到了怀草诗的脑中。 Also because felt this crazy, Huai Caoshi made the final decision. 也正是因为感受到了这种疯狂,怀草诗才做了最后的决定。 „I do not like the so-called destiny the tragedy, these are the dog deng, the dog deng that Schiller writes.” He lowers the head exhaustedly, replied: „Perhaps my life cannot be the comedy, but the good person always should have happy or peaceful ending.” “我不喜欢所谓命运的悲剧,那些都是狗屎,席勒写的狗屎。”他疲惫地低着头,回答道:“我的人生或许不能是喜剧,但好人总应该有个欢乐或安宁的收场。” He raised the head, looks straight ahead that dark wall and that indistinct form, said: „Actually you made a mistake, in the federation many people also misread me, including I most intimate friend, misread me.” 他抬起头来,直视那面黑暗的墙和那个隐约的身影,说道:“其实你错了,联邦里很多人也把我看错了,包括我最亲近的友人,都看错了我。” „I fear death, in this world does not have the person who does not fear death, I four -year-old time lies down in the room in bedroom, looks is dusky from time to time, from time to time the glowing red sky is in a daze, on that day I fell ill, I was very sad, discovered that all around scenery will not change, we will actually get sick. Naturally, getting sick will be uncomfortable, I do not care, but the issue will be seriously ill will die, the person old will also die, after the person died, does not know that uncomfortably was anything.” “我怕死,这个世界上没有不怕死的人,我四岁的时候躺在卧室的房间内,看着时而灰濛濛,时而红通通的天空发呆,那天我生病,我很难过,发现四周的景色不会变,我们却会病。当然,病了会难受,我不在乎,可问题是病重了会死,人老了也会死,人死之后连难受都不知道是什么了。” He lifts the left arm that can lift only reluctantly, erases sweat that the frontal eminence drips, lowers the head said with a smile: „Dying is anything, dying is anything does not have, these metal small toys, in mine tunnel attractive flash gangue like diamond, cheek like apple lovable younger sister who will not speak, could not see, could not trace, anything could not feel.” 他抬起唯一能勉强抬起的左臂,抹掉额角淌下的汗水,低头笑着说道:“死是什么,死是什么都没有,那些金属小玩具,矿坑里漂亮的像钻石一样闪光的矿渣,还有脸蛋儿像苹果一样可爱的不会说话的妹妹,都看不到了,摸不到了,什么都感受不到了。” „Is dark and peaceful.” “只有黑暗和安静。” „No, is continually dark and peaceful does not have.” “不,连黑暗和安静都没有。” „I do not know oneself had existed, has handled anything, there is no trace to show that I had appeared, perhaps I disappeared some people to care, but I could not feel their caring.” “我不知道自己曾经存在过,做过些什么事情,没有什么痕迹证明我曾经出现过,我消失了或许有人在乎,可我感受不到他们的在乎。” „Because in the death...... I...... did not have continually.” “因为死亡里连……我……都没有。” „This is very fearful.” “这个很可怕。” „Was too fearful.” “太可怕了。” Xu Le raised the head, said earnestly: „Dreadful can such matter, how not fear? The people who do not fear are an idiot, or had not realized has the consciousness is how precious matter.” 许乐抬起头来,非常认真地说道:“这么可怕的事情,怎么会不怕呢？不怕的人都是蠢货,或者说是没有意识到自我有意识是多么宝贵的事情。” „But the issue is this most dreadful matter is inevitable, what to do should we?” “可问题是这种最可怕的事情是不可避免的,那我们该怎么办？” „Continue.” The eye of Huai Caoshi narrowed the eyes by a strange curve, the lip angle is hanging the silk rare smile, is looking at that with the federal man who ordinary spoke with confidence entirely different. “继续。”怀草诗的眼睛以一种怪异的弧度眯了起来,唇角挂着丝难得一见的微笑,望着那个与平常大不相同侃侃而谈的联邦男人。 The eye of Xu Le also narrowed the eyes, as if in recalling the past years, in combing oneself, in the subconsciousness waves, like must expel these frightening prospects , to continue saying: „Since unavoidable, that naturally wants living time is more comfortable.” 许乐的眼睛也眯了起来,似乎在追忆当年,在梳理自己,下意识里挥了挥手,像要赶走那些可怕的前景,继续说道:“既然无法避免,那当然就要活着的时候更舒服一些。” „Survival time must enjoy utmost happily, probably is this truth.” “生存的时候要享尽欢愉,大概就是这个道理。” „What kind of happiness?” He shrugs the arm like the subordinates of looking down on the world, drives the wound, pressed frowning, disperses rapidly, said with a smile: „The education regulation of human society is extremely powerful, had penetrated during our consciousness, reverence for the old and care for the young, loyal honest, these moral viewpoints look like a whip, if touches it, the heart will then pull out one, some people can endure, to receive in exchange money power and influence and so on thing, I actually think that does not understand why must endure, I defer to the methods of these human moral requests to do the matter, does not suffer the whip for a lifetime, live satisfaction, isn't that joyful?” “怎样的欢愉？”他像玩世不恭的下属们那样耸了耸肩膀,带动伤口,蹙了蹙眉,又迅速散开,笑着说道:“人类社会的教育规条太过强大,已经深入了我们的意识之中,敬老爱幼,忠诚正直,这些道德观点就像是一个鞭子,如果碰触它,心便会被抽一记,有些人能忍,以换取金钱权势之类的东西,我却想不明白为什么要忍,我就按照这些人类道德要求的法子去做事儿,一辈子不挨鞭子,活的心安理得,那不就是愉悦？” „This whip actually is also the fire, my one group of fires, see these unfair matter, the disgusting matter, I cannot help fever, burns the clean these things, oneself then feel the eyes to be quiet, happy.” “这鞭子其实也是火,我心里的一团火,看到那些不公平的事儿,恶心的事儿,我就忍不住要烧一把,烧干净那些东西,自己便觉得双眼清静,心情愉快。” „Such live, not necessarily the innermost feelings are powerful, is comfortable enough.” “这么活着,不见得内心强大,却足够舒服。” „I fear death, is not the just envoy, four has the youth, I am only one according to my happy wicked, the whip survival of morals, to seek life joyful fellow.” “我怕死,也不是什么正义使者、四有青年,我只是一个按照自己的喜恶,道德的鞭子生存,以寻求人生快乐的家伙。” „But if the whip of which day of morals pulled out mistakenly the place, making me feel unable to endure, then I no longer believe that this life placebo, turning into does not know that what monster can be.” “可如果哪天道德的鞭子抽错了地方,令我觉得无法忍受,那么我会不再相信这种生命的安慰剂,变成一个自己都不知道会是什么样的怪物。” „This survival condition, is hiding starting point, is happier for own life, is human civilization fetter to each independent individual.” “这种生存状态,所有隐藏着的出发点,都只是为了自己的人生更愉快,是人类文明自身对每个单独个体的束缚。” „Also said the whip.” “又说回鞭子了。” „Good, what I actually want to say that this is not selfless, but biggest selfish.” “好吧,我其实想说的是,这不是无私而是最大的自私。” The Xu Le bright eye pupil flicks, spreads out both hands saying: „Result...... actually deceived the entire universe person, actually somewhat will be sometimes embarrassed.” 许乐明亮的眼眸一闪一闪,摊开双手说道:“结果……却骗了整个宇宙的人,其实有时候会有些不好意思。” In the prison cell peaceful long time, Huai Caoshi filled with the sigh with emotion sound sound: „If this type selfishly are greatly more, is not a misdemeanor.” 囚室内安静了很长时间,怀草诗满怀感慨的声音响了起来:“如果这种大自私多一些,并不是一件坏事。” At this time, in the lonesome and quiet room resounded another sound. 就在这个时候,幽静房间内响起了另一道声音。 „So, is our family the greatly selfish person?” “如此看来,我们全家都是大自私的人？”