Chapter 86 affects 第86章影响 According to the passenger serial number, should sit that girl in 4 l open area transfer cabin, at this time had actually sat a use old style energy, smell some midibuses of irritating the nose, is going to at the journey of Azure Dragon Mountain district under martial law. 按照乘客编号,本应该坐在4l空地转接舱里的那位女孩儿,这个时候却已经坐上了一辆使用老式能源,气味有些刺鼻的中型客车,正在前往青龙山军管地区的旅途上。 That potential surface the dreadful middle-aged uncle still sits in her side. Zhang Xiaomeng looks at the primitive scenery of out of the window, silent for a long time was very very long, does not know that in naive that wants to pass, is thinking that own death news, to the parents...... as well as Xu Le in seaside, what kind of impact takes away. 那位面相猥琐的中年大叔依然坐在她的身边。张小萌看着窗外的原始风景,沉默了很久很久,不知道是在想过去的天真,还是在想自己的死讯,会给远在临海的父母……以及许乐,带去怎样的冲击。 The old style passenger train keeps the fluctuating turbulence on the mountain road, the face top head of middle-aged person a straw hat, actually as if enjoys this rhythm very much. Goes around a mountain the path that four states walk into the mountain he to be very familiar, even if closes one's eyes, still knows that which section the passenger train walked. Perhaps was somewhat thirsty, the middle-aged uncle took down the straw hat, opens the canteen that carried along to drink water, this noticed side girl's look. 老式客车在山路上不停地起伏颠动,中年人的脸上盖着一顶草帽,却似乎很享受这种律动。环山四州进山的道路他很熟悉,就算闭着眼睛,也知道客车行走到了哪个地段。也许是有些渴了,中年大叔取下草帽,打开随身携带的水壶喝了一口水,这才注意到身旁女孩儿怔怔的神色。 On the forehead the disorderly bangs, are clamping the dust particle and sweat in mountainous area slightly, seems somewhat distressed, on girl's ruddy face has the light sadness. He calmly looks at this young face, smiled, his is having to do for a lifetime, therefore year ago time, he dares since the even-numbered month festival dance party, to conduct negotiations face-to-face with the representative of federal powerful official class alone, he will look at the person very much, therefore very satisfied in Zhang Xiaomeng this time performance, to believing loyally, and young people who had suffered the tremendous setback, will certainly rapidly mature, in the future will become in the great cause the indispensable new strength. 额头上微微凌乱的刘海儿,夹着山区里的微尘和汗水,显得有些狼狈,女孩儿红润的脸上有着淡淡的哀伤。他静静地看着这张年轻的脸,微微笑了起来,他这一辈子都在与人打交道,所以年前的时候,他才敢单身进入双月节舞会,与联邦权贵阶层的代表人物进行面对面的谈判,他很会看人,所以很满意于张小萌此时的表现,一个对信仰忠诚,并且曾经遭受过巨大挫折的年轻人,必将迅速地成熟,日后成为伟大事业里不可或缺的新鲜力量。 The future of revolutionary army, must hope that on the bodies of these young people, the appearance dreadful uncle in sighed at heart gently. 革命军的前途,就要寄望在这些年轻人的身上了,面相猥琐的大叔在心里轻轻叹了一口气。 Zhang Xiaomeng discovered that he has waked up, the slightly low view, asked in a soft voice: „If I must die, Charter Bureau file what to do?” 张小萌发现他已经醒来,微低眼帘,轻声问道:“如果我要死,宪章局的档案怎么办？” „Can think that this issue, showed you have turned toward the specialized direction to progress much.” The uncle smiles was saying: „No one can change in Charter Bureau the data of that computer, but the data achieves the authority always to have the link, has the link to have the person, so long as some people have the means...... I are old fogy to a person special means.” “能够想到这个问题,证明你已经向着专业的方向进步了不少。”大叔微笑着说道:“没有人能够改变宪章局里那台电脑的数据,但是数据达到政府部门总是有环节,有环节就有人,只要有人就有办法……我是一个对人特别的办法的老家伙。” „Why do you personally arrange me to leave originally?” Zhang Xiaomeng visits him, the No. 2 character of rebellion, how because possibly adventure comes s1, matter that although oneself know some Congressman Medellin, but is still not enough to be telling. “为什么您会亲自来安排我离开？”张小萌看着他,反政府军的二号人物,怎么可能因为自己就冒险前来s1,虽然自己知道一些麦德林议员的事情,可是依然不足以说明问题。 „Upper level organization presented the rebel, seriously hurt our enterprise......, but before , has said to you, I cannot change everyone to the view of that congressman comrade, after all some degree, he represents in the mountain the comrades the public image in federation...... is being only I felt, you are innocent in this event, you come very well, actually because of the good conscience, produced to the sympathy of Azure Dragon Mountain. We should thank like you young people, but should not look helplessly a girl...... were killed in the plot of struggle between two lines and betrayal.” “组织上层出现了叛徒,严重地损害了我们的事业……但之前也对你讲过,我并不能改变所有人对那位议员同志的看法,毕竟在某个程度上来讲,他代表着山里同志们在联邦中的公众形象……只是我觉得,你在这个事件中是无辜的,你出身很好,却因为善良的本心,产生了对青龙山的同情。我们应该感谢像你这样的年轻人,而不应该眼睁睁看着一个女孩子……丧生在路线斗争与背叛的阴谋之中。” At this point, in the middle-aged uncle's foreheads flashes through the light worried, for the ideal and belief, he had struggled many years in the federation, however the present situation is getting more and more disquieting, the completely not coordinated resources, information and armed forces, letting the rebellions only to barely manage to maintain a feeble existence in front of the federal army. Although the federal general public, have the increasing number of people because by the influence of George Carlin principle, but chose sympathized with the rebellion, but...... went out of the mountainous area with Medellin, was on the political arena officially, these will of the people majorities also went to he who declared the non-violent position. 说到这里,中年大叔的眉宇间闪过淡淡的忧愁,为了理想与信仰,他已经在联邦里奋斗了很多年,然而如今的局势却越来越令人忧虑,完全不对等的资源、信息与武装力量,让反政府军只能在联邦军队面前苟延残喘。虽然联邦普通民众,有越来越多的人因为受乔治卡林主义的影响,而选择了同情反政府军,可是……随着麦德林走出山区,正式登上政治舞台,那些人心大部分也投向了宣称非暴力主张的他。 The world in mountain, has soon become a abandoned world. He is an extremely outstanding information leader, but is actually not an outstanding political leader, in these undercurrents about committee, he has the understanding, is unappeasable, after all position of Medellin, although there is a suspicion of surrenderism, however under the difficult situation, under the federal government desirably conciliation background, actually seems very attractive. 山里的世界,已经快要成为一个被抛弃的世界。他是一名极为出色的情报领袖,但却不是一个出色的政治领袖,关于委员会里的那些暗流,他有了解,却无法平息,毕竟麦德林的主张,虽然有投降主义的嫌疑,但是困难的局势下,在联邦政府刻意地怀柔背景下,却显得很有吸引力。 For contends with a Medellin school of influence, rebellion leader Nan Shui, has to temporarily give up the military force struggle, then seeks the cooperation with federal certain influences. Then had his tour of federation, had the even-numbered month festival dance party, had the cooperation with Tai Family, when had Congressman Pabou went down from the transport aircraft ramp...... that to wipe by wind blowing fiercely clothes sleeve with deep veneration. 为了与麦德林一派的势力相抗衡,反政府军领袖南水,也不得不暂时放弃了武力斗争,转而寻求与联邦某些势力的合作。这才有了他的联邦之行,才有了双月节舞会,才有了与邰家的合作,才有了帕布尔议员从运输机舷梯走下时……那一抹被风劲吹衣袂的肃然。 The side that the middle-aged uncle's brow wrinkles is deep, like a Sichuan character, the information in various aspects compiled, particularly the side girl's confession, the message source of Linhai Stadium assassination incident, as well as tries to frame by planting stolen goods on the intelligence system of rebellion afterward, thus destroys between Pabou and Azure Dragon Mountain the secret evil behind-the-scenes manipulator of deed of settlement...... is Committee Member Medellin, or Congressman Medellin. 中年大叔的眉头皱的极深,像极了一个川字,各方面的情报汇总,尤其是身旁这个女孩儿的供词,都将临海市体育馆暗杀事件的情报来源,以及事后试图栽赃反政府军的情报系统,从而破坏帕布尔与青龙山之间和解协议的幕后黑手……就是麦德林委员,或者说麦德林议员。 But he has no evidence, the declaration of only Zhang Xiaomeng, will never possibly shake Medellin of noble character and high prestige, in committee, in going around a mountain lofty position in four State People hearts. 可是他没有什么证据,单凭张小萌的供述,永远不可能撼动德高望重的麦德林,在委员会,在环山四州民众心中的崇高地位。 Made him think what was quite anxious, Medellin was not stupid, the political wisdom and experience were very rich, this committee member was not clear, if the Azure Dragon Mountain armed forces really perished, then he can base on the federalism stage finally depends on waits on will also vanish? The struggle of political line is a matter, but both sides are rooted on the same lands after all, the land that if bases continually was scorched, no one has the means to take root to germinate...... 更令他觉得极为忧虑的是,麦德林并不愚蠢,政治智慧与经验无比丰富,难道这位委员不明白,如果青龙山的武装力量真的灭亡,那么他能够在联邦政治舞台立足的最后凭侍也将消失？政治路线的斗争是一回事,可是双方毕竟根植于同一片土地上,如果连立足的土地都被烧焦了,谁都没办法生根发芽…… This issue is extremely profound, is unable to be clear, the middle-aged uncle looks at Zhang Xiaomeng that the side is lost in thought that meaning of the taking pity on said: „To me, making you follow in my latent learning, will prepare for the future, a very important reason, that will be relations between you and Xu Le.” 这个问题太过深远,无法想清楚,中年大叔看着身旁陷入沉思的张小萌,略带一丝怜惜之意说道:“对于我来说,让你跟在我的身边潜伏学习,为将来做准备,还有一个很重要的原因,那就是你与许乐之间的关系。” Zhang Xiaomeng looked at his one eyes surprised, does not understand oneself and Xu Le relations had what importance, the eyebrow push in one gradually, deeply breathed one time, said earnestly: „I will not harm him again, cannot agree that uses him.” 张小萌吃惊地看了他一眼,不明白自己与许乐的关系有什么重要性,眉尖渐渐地挤在了一处,深深地呼吸了一次,认真说道:“我不会再次伤害他,更不能同意去利用他。” „Relax.” “放心。” The middle-aged uncle has taken back the vision, starts to read a magazine in hand with great interest, seems like thought aloud, seems also telling Zhang Xiaomeng, said: „Xu Le is a sympathy, and favored in the sentiment our people...... this point can determine from the detail of past these days, every this people, were we must strive. Let alone he is one can affect the character of Tai Zhiyuan choice. Perhaps is one year, perhaps is five years, perhaps is a longer time, so long as you can affect him, this is worth waiting for” 中年大叔已经收回了目光,开始津津有味地看手中的一本杂志,似乎是自言自语,似乎又是在告诉张小萌,说道:“许乐是一个同情,并且在感情上倾向于我们的民众……这一点从过去这些日子的细节就可以确定,凡是这种民众,都是我们要争取的。更何况他还是一个能够影响到邰之源选择的人物。也许是一年,也许是五年,也许是更长的时间,只要你能够影响到他,这就值得我们等待” The magazine in his hand seems like what Newsweek, but in fact in the page, is actually ten points flies in circles information completely to compile the material, at this time this page of above materials, after written Xu Le arrives in all details near Hai State university city. 他手中的杂志好像是什么新闻周刊,但实际上在页面里,却是一份十分翔尽的情报汇总材料,此时这页上面的材料,写的正是许乐抵达临海州大学城后的所有细节。 the No. in 2 character of this rebellion, 37 constitutions undergoes the most successful intelligence head, calmly reads the file about Xu Le, is thinking at heart tranquilly, the possibility is most important basis that any enterprise develops, but Xu Le this seemingly common unimportant person, as if compares any role that in the tour of this federation meets...... to have more possibilities. 这位反政府军的二号人物,三十七宪历里最成功的情报头子,静静地看着关于许乐的档案,在心里平静地想着,可能性才是任何事业发展的最重要基础,而许乐这个看似不起眼的小人物,似乎比这一趟联邦之行里遇见的任何角色……都拥有更多的可能性。 How does Xu Le know Tai Zhiyuan? The middle-aged uncle narrows the eye slightly, finger gently rubs suo the edge of straw hat, regarding the s2 rebellion, is paying attention to the people of Tai Family successor side all slight sounds regarding these, this is a riddle topic. From the file, Xu Le this retired soldier without family or friends, is impossible to have the opportunity to be close to Tai Zhiyuan in Pear Flower University. 许乐是怎样认识邰之源的？中年大叔微微眯眼,手指轻轻地摩娑着草帽的边缘,对于s2反政府军,对于那些注意着邰家继承人身边所有细微动静的人来说,这都是一个谜题。从档案上来看,许乐这个无亲无故的退伍小兵,怎么也不可能有机会在梨花大学里接近邰之源。 „If is really the relations of h1, why that Xu Le has jurisdiction that can enter h1? If Xu Le really can enter h1, when the first military academy visits, black machine armor that suddenly presents actually...... is Tai Zhiyuan is controlling, is Xu Le controlling? If Xu Le is controlling, that control method where he studies?” “如果真的是h1的关系,那许乐为什么有能够进入h1的权限？如果许乐真的能进h1,那么第一军事学院访问时,忽然出现的黑色机甲……究竟是邰之源在操控,还是许乐在操控？如果是许乐在操控,他从哪里学习的那种操控方法？” The rebellion No. 2 leader is smiling, is conducting the collection and analysis in the mind fast. His is having to do for a lifetime, is one has the old fogy of means specially, at the enterprise of rebellion, being forced to enter a trough period immediately, he had gone to the future the vision, went to that now also on very common young man. 反政府军二号领袖微笑着,在脑海中快速地进行着整理分析。他这一辈子都在与人打交道,是一个对人特别有办法的老家伙,在反政府军的事业,被迫要进入一个低谷期的当下,他把眼光已经投向了将来,投向了那个现在还很不起眼的年轻男人身上。 At this time Zhang Xiaomeng will have been partial to the one side, is looking at the scenery of out of the window, in the eye gradually clear, thought of that however no longer thought of strongly. 此时张小萌已经将头偏向了一旁,怔怔地望着窗外的景色,眼中渐渐晶莹,想念然而坚强地不再想念。 ...... …… Xu Le wound not entire good, but also no longer needs 24 hours of critically ill guardianship, the medical equipment that these do not need had left his hospital bed, the experts in first Military General Hospital, confirmed his epilepsy is because was the result by the external force oppression, the non- source sending epilepsy, the unusual electric discharge phenomenon of cerebral cortex, to his body and brain cannot cause the substantive harm. 许乐的伤并没有全好,但是也不再需要二十四小时的重症监护,那些没必要的医疗设备早已离开了他的病床,第一军区总医院的专家们,也确认了他的癫痫是由于受外力压迫所致,非源发性癫痫,大脑皮层的异常放电现象,对他的身体与大脑不会造成实质性的损害。 Therefore he moved out the hospital ward, arrived at behind the General Hospital in the middle of a more peaceful sanatorium. Here living facility is more complete, the hot spring braves the vapor in the green trees, perhaps if the Southern Hemisphere in the summer, he really does not have the thought that soaks at this time. But the television in room, did not have the medicine control, the entire channel is open, but Xu Le still routinely only looks at the news channels and 23 channels, person who he is not a care federation important matter, however escapes after Eastwood Grand District, these grotesque and gaudy bitter experiences, making him have to care. 所以他搬出了病房,来到了总医院后方更为安静的疗养院当中。这里的生活设施更为完备,温泉在青树之间冒着蒸气,如果此时南半球不是处于夏天,或许他真有下去泡一泡的念头。而房间里的电视,也没有了医学控制,全频道开放,只是许乐依然习惯性地只看新闻频道和23频道,他本不是一个关心联邦大事的人,然而从东林大区逃出来后,这些光怪陆离的遭遇,让他不得不关心。 In that night, he saw is flown to s2 the news of spaceship accident by the port Ze aviation airport newly, said accurately, is the open area transfer cabin accident. The eye pupil of Xu Le shrank slightly, the finger makes an effort slightly, is staring at the clear illuminant shield, looks passenger name as well as picture that these gradually lighten. 就在当天晚上,他看到了由港都新泽航空机场飞往s2的太空飞船失事的新闻,准确的说,是空地转接舱失事。许乐的眼瞳微微缩了起来,手指微微用力,盯着清晰的光屏,看着那些逐渐闪出的乘客姓名以及照片。 „Zhang Xiaomeng, female......” “张小萌,女……” Xu Le only heard these four characters, seeing on the television that to keep a serious look, wears the girl picture of black frame eyeglasses, then in his brain then buzz, could not hear any sound again, the news anchor sorrowful disseminating news sound, by automatic deafen, but in the picture that picture also started gradually to blur , without the black frame eyeglasses, the bangs to ripple in the breeze gently, the facial features had a smile, like elf lovable charming...... 许乐只听见了这四个字,看见了电视上面那张表情严肃,戴着黑框眼镜的女孩儿照片,然后他的大脑里便嗡的一声,再也听不见任何声音,新闻主播略带哀痛的播报声,被自动消音,而画面上那张照片也开始逐渐模糊,没有了黑框眼镜,刘海儿在微风中轻轻荡漾,眉眼含笑,像精灵一样可爱迷人…… This is Zhang Xiaomeng, the real Zhang Xiaomeng appearance, in the news, in the picture, is false. 这才是张小萌,真实的张小萌的样子,新闻上的,照片上的,都是假的。 Xu Le rubs the eyes, switched off the television, lay on the bed, covered the quilt, shrank the body, started to sleep, although could not fall asleep, but he still started to fall asleep, the eye opened the eyes big, the body trembled slightly, suddenly thought that summer of s1 star Southern Hemisphere, originally the temperature was also this low. 许乐揉了揉眼睛,关掉了电视,躺在了床上,蒙上了被子,缩起了身子,开始睡觉,虽然睡不着,可他依然开始睡着,眼睛睁的大大的,身体微微发抖,忽然间觉得s1星球南半球的夏天,原来温度也是这样的低。 Midnight cannot sleep, his mood like a sad song. 半夜睡不着觉,他的心情就像一首悲伤的歌。 He sat silent, turned on the television again, joined the federal network, enters the official website of aviation bureau to start to inquire, keeps renovating the page, does not know that confirmed many times, checked many times, he somewhat put aside the finger numbly, lay on the bed weak weak, stared the snow white ceiling to start to be in a daze. 他沉默地坐了起来,再次打开了电视,接上了联邦网络,进入航空总局的官方网站开始查询,不停地刷新着页面,不知道确认了多少次,核对了多少次,他才有些麻木地移开了手指,瘫软无力地躺在了床上,瞪着雪白的天花板开始发呆。 At this time he hopes all that in own eyes sees, like these structure blueprints, are the pictures that in the mind adjusts, rather than real. But stared the snow white ceiling to stare for quite a while, at present does not have any picture appears, originally...... slept, cannot let the sad news that previously heard, turned into the false. 此时他多么希望自己眼中看到的一切,就像那些结构图纸一样,都是自己脑海里调出来的画面,而不是真实的。可是瞪着雪白的天花板瞪了半天,眼前没有任何画面出现,原来……睡一觉,并不能让先前听到的悲伤的消息,变成假的。 Next day, Xu Le wakes up according to own biological clock on time, cleans the teeth, washes the face, has the breakfast, then walks into the dawn the quiet garden, sat above slightly the icy cold stone chair, the buttocks have not been well-grounded, with that strange attitude, squatted the uncle to teach his horse stance, simultaneously carefully and is sucking dedicated, remembered in the body that say/way to shiver, that say/way had, the path of operation grieved. 第二天,许乐按照自己的生物钟准时醒来,刷牙,洗脸,吃早餐,然后走入晨光的清静花园,坐在了微微冰凉的石椅之上,臀部没有着地,用那种古怪的姿式,蹲着大叔教给他的马步,同时细心而专注地品咂着,记忆着身体内那道颤抖,那道酸楚所存在、运行的轨迹。 Shivering of slight fever is representing the mysterious strength, had broken through in the past when the region that Eastwood Grand District operates, occupied his entire body gradually, urging his each pair of muscle fiber to start to rub mutually, the mutual extrusion, the incomparable ache is joyful. 微热的颤抖代表着神秘的力量,已经突破了当年在东林大区时所运行的区域,渐渐占据了他的整个身体,促使着他的每一对肌肉纤维开始互相磨擦,互相挤压,无比疼痛而愉悦。 However that say/way in his at heart, is actually not willing to diverge in his lip grieved for a very long time, makes the desire that he somewhat wants to vomit. His complexion some turn white slightly, the eye socket somewhat gets sucked, instead outlined that small eye somewhat profound. 然而那道酸楚却在他的心里,在他的唇里久久不肯散去,令他有些想要呕吐的欲望。他的脸色有些微微发白,眼窝有些深陷,反而将那双小眼睛勾勒的有些深邃。 In all around woods, the bodyguards in several black hawk security companies, being bored to death is sizing up the peripheral environment, the present situation is quiet, their missions do not have is so arduous in the past few days, they are only some are not clear, Xu Le today's taking a walk, as if must be longer than the past few days. 四周的树林里,有几名黑鹰保安公司的保镖,正在百无聊赖的打量着周边的环境,如今的局势已经平静下来,他们的任务已经没有前些天那么重,他们只是有些不明白,许乐今天的散步,似乎比前些天要更长一些。 Xu Le has stayed noon in this peaceful garden, then he said to the Tai Family staff, then under the protections in secret several bodyguards, went out of the convalescent area, arrived at the steakhouse in first military region quarters, starts with the Chinese meal. 许乐一直在这片安静的园子里呆到了中午,然后他向邰家的工作人员说了一声,便在几名保镖的暗中保护下,走出了疗养区,来到了第一军区生活区的一家牛排馆,开始用中餐。 Before dining, he gives a waiter bill, asked a matter in a soft voice. 用餐之前,他递给侍者一张钞票,轻声地拜托了一件事情。 The knife and fork delimits gently in the synthesis beef steak tender and delicate semblance, Xu Le lowers the head is chewing these very even meats textile fiber slowly, had not gained ground. Because he does not dare to raise the head, he knows raised the head, then can see on opposite seat the nobody left. 刀叉轻轻地划在合成牛排娇嫩的外表上,许乐低头缓慢地嘴嚼着那些非常均匀的肉类纤维,一直没有抬头。因为他不敢抬头,他知道一抬头,便能看见对面的座位上空无一人。 He and Zhang Xiaomeng has had many times food in the cafeteria together, he deeply thanks that girl, never has, because are the status of auditor, seems like a poor gatekeeper, will then leave under the gazes of these all around unusual visions. 他和张小萌在食堂里一起吃过很多次饭,他深深感激那个女孩儿,从来没有因为自己是个旁听生的身份,看上去是个穷门房,便会在那些四周异样眼光的注视下离开。 He and Zhang Xiaomeng first formal appointment, are near the Hai State restaurant to eat the beef steak, he deeply thanks that girl, gave him in the middle of the life the first heart movement, first kissing, the first own honey, the first love, even if the bestowment, this is also the society happiest bestowment. 他和张小萌第一次正式约会,是在临海州的餐厅吃牛排,他深深感激那个女孩儿,给了他人生当中第一次心动,第一次接吻,第一次亲蜜,第一次恋爱,哪怕是施舍,这也是人世间最美好的施舍。 The waiters arrived at his side, is concealing the facial expression of doubts, hands over one bag of biscuits. After Xu Le expression of gratitude, rips open the biscuit bag, puts out inside puppy biscuit, starts to stare at being in a daze. 侍者走到了他的身边,掩饰着疑惑的神情,递过来一袋饼干。许乐道谢之后,撕开饼干袋,拿出里面的小狗饼干,开始盯着发呆。 He and Zhang Xiaomeng first meet, because of one bag of puppy biscuits. 他和张小萌第一次相遇,是因为一袋小狗饼干。 Xu Le started to eat the biscuit, the tears cannot stop to flow. 许乐开始吃饼干,眼泪止不住地就流了下来。 After the uncle dies, he had once pledged, later will not cry, today but why does not know, cannot bear, always thought that in heart air-to-air, the acid, will look like will not have anything to fill up that void space forever, possibly from yesterday evening knows that the Zhang Xiaomeng death news, to being in a daze of this morning in early morning garden, these grieved flavors, is too long, stimulated his tear gland that has contained. 在大叔死后,他曾经发过誓,以后再也不会哭了,可是今天不知道为什么,就是忍不住,总觉得心里面空空的,酸酸的,就像是永远再也不会有什么东西能够填满那个空虚的空间,又可能是从昨天晚上知道张小萌的死讯,一直到今天上午在晨园里的发呆,那些酸楚的味道,一直蕴藏的太久,刺激了他的泪腺。 A wear appropriate young man, silent bursts into tears in a lively restaurant. This is the quarters of first military region, there is many soldiers as well as their family member friends who wear the civilian clothes or the military uniform, many surprise look the young man who the window bursts into tears, throws to sympathize with the tender or contemptuous not shame the vision. 一个穿着得体的年轻男人,在一家热闹的餐厅里无声流泪。这是第一军区的生活区,有很多穿着便服或军服的军人以及他们的家属朋友,很多人诧异地看着窗边流泪的年轻男人,投以同情怜惜或是轻蔑不耻的眼光。 They think that this young man because of being lovelorn to weep bitterly, actually does not know that the young man thinks oneself lost the lover forever. 他们以为这个年轻男人是因为失恋而痛哭,却不知道年轻男人以为自己永远地失去了恋人。 Wiped off the tears, Xu Le replied tranquilly, took out a letter/believes from the bosom, started silent and reads earnestly. Before this letter/believes is Shi Qinghai just before leaving, writes for his, he has looked, but after knowing Zhang Xiaomeng death news, he wants to look again, because in his opinion, Shi Qinghai with the Zhang Xiaomeng actually bone is the same person, is these he did not understand, person who for the ideal is willing to sacrifice anything thing. 擦掉眼泪,许乐回复了平静,从怀中取出一封信,开始沉默而认真地阅读。这封信是施清海临走前亲笔写给他的,他已经看过了一遍,但当知道张小萌的死讯后,他想再看一遍,因为在他看来,施清海和张小萌其实骨子里都是一样的人,是那些他所不了解,为了理想愿意牺牲一些什么东西的人。 In the Shi Qinghai letter/believes final several write like this. 施清海的信里面最后几段是这样写的。 „I once think oneself have been weary has been a spy, even if initial time, misfortune that because the father encounters, I hate the federal government...... to place in such crevice, I felt exhausted and anxious, therefore I want to give up. Also, I start to attempt to be separated from the organization for this reason, naturally is passive that. I will never possibly betray this organization, because I approve of their ideas, and respects this idea. I was very but tired, therefore I looked for a lot of opportunities, is trying to become a not important person...... in the conflict of nightclub entrance, is one time in my attempt, was sorry very much this matter implicated you.” “我曾经以为自己已经厌倦了做一名间谍,哪怕最初的时候,因为父亲所遭遇的不幸,我是如此地痛恨联邦政府……可是身处在这样的夹缝之中,我感到了疲惫与紧张,所以我想放弃。也正是因为这个原因,我开始尝试脱离组织,当然是被动的那种。我永远不可能背叛这个组织,因为我赞同他们的理念,并且尊重这种理念。可是我真的很累了,所以我寻找了很多机会,试着成为一个不怎么重要的人……在夜店门口的冲突,便是我这种尝试里的一次,很抱歉这件事情拖累了你。” „However when I tired most tired, and starts once to believe in the ideal that has the suspicion the time to oneself, I facilitated the agreement of organization's deed of settlement personally with Congressman Pabou, although I am only the middle link, has not played absolutely the vital role. But I know that I handled a very correct matter, originally handles the correct matter, regarding numb me, can bring some spiritual delight.” “然而就当我最累最倦,并且开始对自己曾经信奉的理想产生怀疑的时候,我亲手促成了组织与帕布尔议员之间和解协议的达成,虽然我只是中间一个环节,从来没有起到了绝对重要的作用。可是我知道我做了一件很正确的事情,原来做正确的事情,对于麻木的我而言,还是能带来某种精神上的愉悦感觉。” „May at that time, I still want to leave, does not want to go to all things in manages world again, only thinks that a person is drinking peacefully, is singing 27 glasses of liquor, has the free time time on the beach, thinks my pitiful, this whole life has not entered the capital, only knows handles that small farm, father who finally died strangely.” “可在那时,我依然想离开,不想再去管世界上的所有事情,只想一个人安静地喝着酒,唱着二十七杯酒,在海滩上有空闲的时刻,想一想我那个可怜的、这辈子都没有进过首都的、只知道打理那个小农场,最终离奇死去的父亲。” „However at this time, my guide died in my front, he jumps down from very high building, like plunging into the clouds, actually crashed in the ground. My teacher actually looks like my second father...... to be very marvelous in many aspects very much, although I have to the hatred of that rebel, however had not actually become confused by this hatred, instead appeared sober. Looks at the teacher to recline the corpse on vehicle roof, I understand suddenly, originally I am willing ideal and struggle for of past years.” “然而就在这个时候,我的领路人死在了我的面前,他从很高的楼上跳了下来,就像跳入了云中,却坠落在了地面。我的老师在很多方面其实很像我的第二个父亲……很奇妙,我虽然有对那个叛徒的恨意,然而却没有被这种仇恨冲昏头脑,反而显得清醒了许多。看着老师横卧在车顶上的尸体,我忽然明白,原来我还是愿意为了当年的那个理想而奋斗下去。” „This ideal is not laughable, regarding the people or your me, the remote and unreachable thing...... we are not only attempt makes this world is happier, is fairer. Will not at least have like Tai Family, Seven Great Families and politician again...... existence of this domination above law, at least in the world few some my father like the average person who died silently.” “这个理想并不可笑,也不是对于民众或者你我来说,遥远而不可及的东西……我们只是试图让这个世界变得更美好一些,更公平一些。至少不会再有像邰家、七大家、政客……这种凌驾于法律之上的存在,至少世界上少一些像我父亲那样默默死去的普通人。” „In this world has not presented true fair. The former imperial authority time did not have, the present constitution experience period does not have, in the future perhaps will not really have. The empire does not have, the big triangle does not have, sometimes even I was suspecting, perhaps that side Azure Dragon Mountain does not have. But exists, is not reasonable, has not appeared, cannot pursue. The justice perhaps is very illusory words and phrases, but tries hard, always compares is much better numbly.” “这个世界上从来没有出现过真正的公平。从前的皇权时代没有,如今的宪历时期也没有,将来或许也不会真的有。帝国没有,大三角没有,甚至我有时候在怀疑,青龙山那边也许也没有。但存在的,并不都是合理的,没有出现过的,并不都是不能追求的。公平正义或许是很虚幻的词句,但是为之努力,总比麻木不仁要好一些。” „Front has the goal indistinctly, walks, always may achieve, does not walk, is actually not able to touch forever. I have calculated carefully, my whole life lives at most 90 -year-old, the person must always die, such being the case, I rather die on path that in I choose.” “前方隐约有目标,走,总是有可能达到,不走,却是永远无法触碰。我仔细算过,我这辈子顶多活九十岁,人总是要死的,既然如此,我宁肯死在我选择走的道路上。” „Writes this letter/believes to you, does not want to affect your anything, but is I am very lonely in this world, the role that I play was doomed lonely, I want to tell you my idea. I may not contact with the organization, since because walks on the same path, there is a companion, is actually unimportant, the direction that so long as we try hard is consistent.” “写这封信给你,不是想影响你什么,而是我在这个世界中很孤独,我所扮演的角色注定了孤独,我想把我的想法告诉你。我可能不会与组织重新联系,因为既然是走在相同的道路上,有没有同伴,其实并不重要,只要我们努力的方向是一致的。” „Fair of this world, and not necessarily needs to sacrifice own all, I always believe that when police who scrupulously follows the law, are an upholding justice attorney, makes one to revolt against the soldier who the empire invades bravely, is to the forward effort of federal destiny. You...... are sense of justice some fellows of overflow, according to your idea goes on living, even cannot affect this world, at least can affect your microenvironment...... in this sense, we are the partners, we also many partners in this world.” “这个世界的公平,并不见得都需要牺牲自己的所有,我一向认为,当一个恪守法律的警察,做一个伸张正义的律师,做一名勇敢反抗帝国侵略的战士,都是对联邦命运的正向努力。你……是一个正义感有些泛滥的家伙,按照你的想法活下去,就算不能影响这个世界,至少可以影响你身边的小环境……从这个意义上来说,我们是伙伴,我们在这个世界上还有很多伙伴。” „Living, is then living well, live satisfaction, this enough. The brothers I was look satisfiedly.” “活着,然后好好活着,活的心安理得,这就够了。兄弟我就是去找心安理得去了。” ...... …… Xu Le folds the letter paper silent, put in the personal pocket, the there also name card and a new bankcard, are in his life the most important thing. Then he thought of Zhang Xiaomeng from this letter/believes. He is still very difficult to understand in the federation the ideas of many, but after read the Shi Qinghai letter/believes again, his is somewhat moved at heart. 许乐沉默地叠好信纸,放到了贴身的口袋里,那里还有一张名片和一张新的银行卡,算是他生命里最重要的东西。然后他从这封信想到了张小萌。他依然很难理解联邦里很多人的想法,但在再次阅读了施清海的信后,他的心里有所触动。 The people must always die, dies on the path that oneself choose, this perhaps is a happiness. Xu Le calmly is thinking Zhang Xiaomeng, before had had suspicion and anger, is unimportant in this moment. 人总是要死的,死在自己选择的道路上,这或许就是一种幸福。许乐静静地想着张小萌,以前曾经有过的猜疑与愤怒,在这一刻都不重要了。 Xu Le is a very silent very direct person, he does not understand what principle, no idea, he is one with the young people who direct-viewing, intuition has. He raised the head slowly, looks on the restaurant illuminant shield the news that broadcasts. 许乐是一个很沉默很直接的人,他不懂什么主义,没有什么理念,他是一个凭着直观、直觉而存在的年轻人。他缓缓地抬头,看着餐厅光屏上正在播放的新闻。 On the news, opposition political leader Congressman Medellin who gives a speech in the capital university, this facial features are kind, the expression firm and resolute formidable great person, was announcing, the running mate who is going to take Jingzhou Governor Ross, attended the presidential election that at the end of the year starts. 新闻上面,在首都大学进行演讲的反对派政治领袖麦德林议员,这位面容和蔼,表情坚毅令人敬畏的大人物,正在宣布,将要做为京州州长罗斯的竞选伙伴,参加年底开始的总统大选。 „You must be able to become the vice president, did my woman die in vain?” Xu Le looked at a news footage finally, walks toward the restaurant outside silent. “你要能当上副总统,我的女人岂不是白死了？”许乐最后看了一眼新闻画面,沉默地向着餐厅外面走去。