After all is the blood brother, even if separates for many years, health/guard Ying understood very much own younger brother, listens to his overtones. 毕竟是亲兄弟,哪怕分离多年,卫応还是很了解自家弟弟,听出他的弦外之音。 „So, felt relieved for the brother.” “如此,为兄也就放心了。” health/guard Yingqiao is very thin and pale, usually always handles the neat temple to send presented the iron grey, the whole face is the tiredness that cannot melt. 卫応瞧着很是憔悴,平日总是打理整齐的鬓发都出现了灰白色,满脸皆是化不开的倦怠。 health/guard Ci cannot bear say, „be that as it may, but the little brother does also limitedly, if crossed the border, feared that is beyond one's reach.” 卫慈忍不住道,“话虽如此,但小弟所做也有限,若是越界了,怕是力有未逮。” health/guard Ying understands anything that own younger brother refers, loses says with a smile, „for these years, you not by the kindness that in too many clans gives, now can also worry about the family member, to be willing to assist 12, is really not easy. For the brother is not the shameless person, where will request you to make what?” 卫応明白自家弟弟指的什么,失笑道,“这么多年以来,你未受太多族中给予的恩惠,如今还能顾念家人、愿意帮扶一二,实属不易。为兄也不是厚颜之人,哪里会要求你做什么？” The past matter was too indeed big to the health/guard kind injury. 当年的事情对卫慈的伤害的确太大了。 Because caret-shaped, the people then pressed the to subdue|grams dead birth mother's charge in the newly-born health/guard kind, the father also therefore produced to him detests. 因为八字,众人便将克死生母的罪名摁在刚出生的卫慈身上,父亲也因此对他产生嫌恶。 This detests until health/guard Ci gets over an emotion 11 or 12-year-old slowly, but is late at that time. 这番嫌恶直到卫慈十一二岁才慢慢释怀,可那时候已经迟了。 Because ignoring of father with relatives indifferent by right, health/guard Ci the childhood passes is nothing less than laborious. 因为父亲的漠视和亲眷的冷眼以对,卫慈的童年过得不可谓不辛苦。 What situation do the people neglect him to? 众人忽视他到什么地步？ health/guard Ying goes out to study away from home the return, discovered that should an initiation two years of younger brother actually character not know, obviously no one remembers the matter of initiation. 卫応外出游学归来,发现本该启蒙两年的弟弟却连个字都不认识,显然无人记得启蒙之事。 He sought the father to say especially this matter, the father lagged behind to health/guard Ciqing a not much respectful and affectionate form of address for private tutor. 他特地去寻父亲说了这事儿,父亲才后知后觉给卫慈请了一个不咋地的西席。 health/guard Ying does not endure the natural talent remarkable younger brother to be ruined, can only go on stage personally, during the daytime studies the foundation with the respectful and affectionate form of address for private tutor, in the evening comes back the special mess hall. 卫応不忍天资卓越的弟弟被糟践,只能亲自上场,白天跟西席学习基础,晚上回来开小灶。 Doing to health/guard Ying is also few Toshiro, the energy scholarship is limited, finally will go through the younger brother to deliver to the private study that the deep pool mirror mister opened. 奈何卫応也是个少年郎,精力才学有限,最后辗转将弟弟送到了渊镜先生开设的私学。 Counts one by one health/guard Ci the childhood, the initiation postpones for two years is also the small matter, most serious also threatens his life one time. 历数卫慈的童年,启蒙推迟两年还算是小事儿,最严重一次还威胁到他的性命。 Because the retinue serves does not dedicate, health/guard Ci infects the cold, high fever two days is discovered, the people actually think is gives off heat commonly, the doctor of Chinese medicine medical skill that invited is common. Health ying returns home to discover that the younger brothers must burn stupidly, delivers to the almond grove outstandingly skilled that side to save a life hastily. 因为仆从伺候不尽心,卫慈感染风寒,高热两天才被人发现,众人却以为是寻常发热,请来的郎中医术寻常。卫応回府发现弟弟都要烧傻了,连忙将人送到杏林圣手那边捡回一条命。 Fully realized that these aging past events, how health/guard Ying does not have the means to ask for it to make the younger brother pay for the family. 深知这些陈年旧事,卫応也没办法开口要让弟弟为家族如何付出。 Furthermore, health/guard Ci is the disposition of effective and influential word, since complied saying that must look after the family member, he will certainly achieve. 再者,卫慈是个一言九鼎的脾性,既然答应说要照拂家人,那他就一定会做到。 „Elder brother-” “兄长-” health/guard Ciwang health/guard Ying, cannot be saying a few words for a long time, as if in throats stem anything. 卫慈望着卫応,许久说不出一句话来,仿佛喉间梗着什么。 health/guard Ying understood own younger brother, health/guard Ci understood own elder brother? 卫応了解自家弟弟,卫慈何尝不了解自家兄长呢？ The previous generation or this life, health/guard Ying the disposition has not changed, because the previous generation the good friend perishes early, but despondently and finally, this life feared that is...... thinks and this, health/guard Ci then thought that has the countless words stem in the throat, the heart only remains to be incapable, the last few words could not say. 不论是前世还是今生,卫応的脾性都没怎么改变,前世因为挚友早亡而抑郁而终,今生怕是……思及此,卫慈便觉得有千言万语梗在喉头,心头只剩无力,最后一句话都说不出来。 health/guard Ying can see through actually, he said, „can it be that you do want to urge me to live on dishonorably are living?” 卫応倒是看得很开,他道,“你莫不是想劝我苟且偷生地活着？” He „as brother” this said that does not use, under the candlelight shines, in the foreheads added several points of depressed. 他连“为兄”这个自称都不用了,烛光映照下,眉宇间多添了几分郁结。 health/guard Cige hand on the knees grips the tight lower hem, the difficult say/way, „why not elder brother thinks the sister-in-law and nephew niece they......” 卫慈搁在双膝上的手攥紧衣摆,艰难道,“兄长何不多想想大嫂和侄子侄女他们……” Although he does not like kidnapping the elder brother with the kinship blood relationship, but if can make him live...... even if living well also...... 尽管他不喜欢用亲情血缘绑架兄长,但若能让他活着……哪怕是活着也好…… health/guard Ying the pupil band of light several points of gentleness, under the heart is sighing secretly. 卫応眸光带着几分温柔,心下暗叹。 „You must understand for the choice of brother.” The health/guard ying look has not changed, the eyeground somewhat yearns for faintly, „your sister-in-law, your brother writes one to put the wife book, making her seek common people to remarry well. For brother situation, even if were lives, to her also suffered, delayed her life in vain. Under the knee the children, except youngest one, other can start own party, was not too worried actually.” “你应当明白为兄的选择。”卫応神色未变,眼底隐隐有些留恋,“你的大嫂,你代为兄写一封放妻书,让她寻个良人再嫁就好。为兄这个情况,哪怕是活下来了,对她而言也只是折磨,白白耽误她的人生。膝下儿女,除最年幼的一个,其余都能自立门户,倒是不太担心。” Under health/guard Ying the knee three sons and two daughters, smallest that has started the initiation to study. 卫応膝下三子两女,最小的那个已经开始启蒙念书了。 health/guard Ci the lip opening and closing, could not say half character obstinately, oneself elder brother planned unexpectedly these. 卫慈唇瓣翕动,愣是说不出半个字来,自家兄长居然连这些都打算好了。 „How sister-in-law will comply-” “大嫂怎会答应-” More said is latter voice, listens to lack in resonance, because health/guard Ci remembered previous generation's matter. 越说越小声,听着底气不足,因为卫慈想起了前世的事情。 Aunt health/guard of Yinghe previous generation is the youngster couple, they in overwhelming majority couples with this world same are the life and the matchmaker's word parents, before the wedding did not recognize, performs its own functions after marriage. Is the couple, rather is the friend. After Nie Liang dies, several years, the elder brother body is worse. Later big brother less than 50 then went, the sister-in-law silent two days then got over an emotion, during the conversations as if unloaded what heavy responsibility. 前世的卫応和大嫂是少年夫妻,他们与这世上绝大部分夫妻一样都是父母之命、媒妁之言,婚前不认得,婚后各司其职。与其说是夫妻,倒不如说是朋友。聂良死后几年,兄长身体越差。之后大哥不足五十便去了,大嫂沉默了两日便释怀,言谈之间似乎卸下了什么重任。 【He is very harmful.】 【他害人不浅。】 Later, the Wei potential strove for visiting weakly, health/guard Ci could also speak in Imperial Court, was pondering over assisted big brother one. 之后,卫氏势弱求上门,卫慈在朝中又说得上话,便思忖着帮扶大兄一家。 Under the elder brother knee three sons and two daughters, are slightly mediocre except for the eldest son, other two child actually good, if informed and experienced, in the future time. 兄长膝下三子两女,除了长子略显平庸,其余二子倒是不错,若是历练一番,未来可期。 health/guard Ci and big brother walks quite near, at holidays will also visit to live in widowhood in the sisters-in-law and several nephews of home. 卫慈与大哥一家走得比较近,逢年过节也会去探望寡居在家的大嫂和几个侄子。 During the chats, he heard when sister-in-law in boudoir has relational good friends from childhood, but that person in last year cold winter death. 闲谈间,他听说大嫂尚在闺中之时有个关系不错的青梅竹马,不过那人在去岁寒冬逝世了。 Is following close on a few days , the sister-in-law also got sick. 紧跟着没几天,大嫂也病了。 What 【has not to say? Now was also the old woman who the half body was buried, but also said this and that to speak the idle talk shyly?】 【有什么不好说的？如今也是半截身子入土的老妪了,还怕人说三道四讲闲话？】 On the health/guard kind mansion visits knows this matter, the sister-in-law has not concealed actually. 卫慈上府探望才知这事儿,大嫂倒是没有隐瞒。 Shortly after the sister-in-law in health/guard Ying dies lives in widowhood at home, that friends from childhood are to also be widowed for many years, because two people also had the relation by chance. The opposite party seemed like odd/surplus emotion not, but the sister-in-law felt old, one big remarried the age very disgraced. 大嫂在卫応死后不久寡居在家,那位青梅竹马也是丧妻多年,二人因为一个偶然的机会又有了联系。对方似乎余情未了,不过大嫂却觉得年事已高,一大把年纪再嫁十分丢人。 Also, her grandsons went to the academy initiation, she must consider for grandson's reputation. 再说了,她的孙子都一个一个去书院启蒙,她总要为孙子的名声着想。 Rejects several times, that friends from childhood waited for several years dead of illness, the sister-in-law knew the news, for a while could not look on the bright side of thing, depressed in heart also got sick. 拒绝几次,那位青梅竹马等了几年病逝了,大嫂知道消息,一时想不开,郁结于心也病了。 【His health/guard Zishun does not have the will of seeking livehood, stated clearly then well, left two widths, lived to like respectively, why bother to delay to delay so many years?】 【他卫子顺早就没有求生之志,明说便好,一别两宽,各生欢喜,何苦耽搁拖延这么多年？】 【Very harmful seriously.】 【当真是害人不浅。】 health/guard Ci is listening silent, has not criticized anything, this matter is the big brother is indeed atypical. This big brother’s situation is worse than last, even if this time „living on dishonorably”, according to his disposition, feared that also soon, must depressed and dies exactly livingly oneself. 卫慈沉默听着,没有指摘什么,这事儿的确是自家大哥不地道。这一世大哥的情况比上一世还糟,哪怕这次“苟且偷生”了,依他的脾性,怕也活不多久,活生生要将自己郁结而死。 health/guard Ying does not know what own younger brother thinks, asked that „do you marry now?” 卫応不知道自家弟弟想什么,问了一句,“你如今可是婚配了？” health/guard Ci, does not know that elder brother's topic how volume jumps here. 卫慈啊了一声,不知兄长的话题怎么额就跳到这里。 „Also not.” “还未。” health/guard Ying asked him, „because of the reason other? You ought to have a child to continue the incense and candle.” 卫応问他,“因为自身原因还是别的？你总该有个孩子延续香火。” Among the brothers no words cannot say that health/guard Ci does not want to dodge him, then confesses part honestly. 兄弟之间没什么话是不能说的,卫慈又不想搪塞他,便老老实实交代一部分。 „It is not the reason, the little brother indeed has a mind the pleased person, is only concerned about the situation, is unable to marry.” “不是自身原因,小弟的确有心悦之人,只是碍于情况,无法婚配而已。” health/guard Ying the brain hole cannot think again greatly own younger brother ganged up to commit fornication with the sworn enemy, but also thinks that the health/guard compassion pleased person was a married woman. Even if he becomes the Elder Brother, he cannot support the brothers to seize others wives, therefore this issue was awkward. 卫応脑洞再大也想不到自家弟弟跟死对头勾搭成奸了,还以为卫慈心悦的人是个有夫之妇。哪怕他是当哥哥的,他也不能支持自家兄弟去强抢人家的老婆,因此这个问题就尴尬了。