STHS :: Volume #8

#763: Self- fear


Sonia does not know completely should make anything to be good. // 索尼娅已经完全不知道该做什么才好。// // 高速更新// Does not know that Rhodes has used any means that causes other people, when looks at all is not a person who she sees, but is an appearance of dog, this causes Sonia, even to pray for rescue is unable to achieve, what her yelling hears in other person of ears is only the dog's bark, but no matter she makes any movement, in other people's eyes is also the motion of pet. This makes Sonia feel that the unprecedented despair, she felt this world as if thoroughly has gotten rid of itself, all people look but not see her, until this moment, even if Sonia firm and resolute mental , the start of can't help but vacillates. 不知道罗德使用了什么办法,使得其他人在看她的时候所看见的根本不是一个人,而是一条狗的模样,这使得索尼娅哪怕想要求救都无法做到,她的叫喊在其他人耳中听到的只是犬吠,而她不管做出什么动作,在他人的眼里也不过是宠物的行动。这让索尼娅感觉到前所未有的绝望,她感觉这个世界仿佛彻底抛弃了自己,所有人对她本身都视而不见,直到这一刻,哪怕是索尼娅坚毅的心智,也不由的开始动摇起来。 However, this has not made Sonia feel frightened. 但是,这还不是让索尼娅感到最为恐惧的。 Most makes her feel the fear, is not Rhodes treats itself to look like treats the pet manner, is not other people the appearance that oneself look but not see, is not the present is compelled to lie like a dog in the movement of ground, but is ......... Sonia feels, oneself did have the feeling unexpectedly?! 最让她感到害怕的,不是罗德对待自己像对待宠物般的态度,也不是其他人对自己视而不见的模样,更不是自己现在被逼着像一条狗一样趴在地上的动作,而是………索尼娅感觉到,自己居然对此有感觉了?! Is noble as origin, has good education young Noblewoman, Sonia, since the birth started, almost again has not exposed in anybody's front own body, regarding Sonia, this was most precious, most sacred wealth, only then be outspoken will offer before the beloved person. But like the present, does not let the person to watch like wild beast. However, along with the passage of time, Sonia felt that deep in the heart has had the change, when others gaze at to oneself, the young girl will still feel ashamed, is angry and angry. However, in addition, the detection of Sonia surprise, in own deep in one's heart panic-stricken when retreats angrily, an unprecedented exciting and comfortable feeling appears from her body. Now, oneself are naked body on the avenue. Walks before the people, but they actually know nothing, even had not realized slightly. This strange feeling starts gradually to be strengthened, probably a child of practical joke, quietly has stolen an immaterial commodity from the store, had not been held to be full of the feeling of guilty of producing with breaking the taboo has not actually received the punishment joyfully and mixes satisfiedly in together, interwove fusion has become an excited feeling. Knows obviously does this is incorrect, is not good, the excitement that but has not actually received the punishment to produce relaxation that and is survivor of disaster. As if poison corrosion soul of young girl. 作为一个出身高贵,拥有良好教养的贵族小姐,索尼娅自从出生开始,几乎就再也没有在任何人的面前裸露过自己的身体,对于索尼娅来说,这是自己最宝贵,最神圣的财富,只有在心爱的人面前才会毫无保留的奉献出去。而不是像现在这样,像一只野兽般任人观赏。但是,伴随着时间的推移,索尼娅感觉到自己的内心深处产生了变化,每当别人注视向自己时,少女依然会感到羞耻,愤慨和恼怒。但是,除此之外,索尼娅诧异的察觉到,就在自己内心深处的惊恐与愤怒退却之际,一种前所未有的刺激与舒服的感觉从她的身上浮现出来。现在,自己正赤裸着身体在大街上。在众人面前行走,但是他们却对此一无所知,甚至丝毫没有察觉。这种奇异的感觉开始逐渐增强,就好像一个恶作剧的孩子,从商店中悄悄偷取了一件无关紧要的商品,却没有被人抓住而产生的充满了罪恶感与打破禁忌却没有受到处罚的欣喜与满足混合在一起,交织融合成了一种兴奋的感觉。明明知道这样做是不对的,不好的,可是却没有受到处罚而产生的放松与劫后余生的兴奋。仿佛毒药般侵蚀着少女的灵魂 As young Noblewoman, as female, she cannot make the gesture of this having no sense of shame absolutely, the four limbs like the dog is well-grounded, whole body naked stark naked is rocking the buttocks. If no that illusion, the purity that perhaps including the most secret place looked, at that time, how will oneself be regarded? Perhaps is regarded as promiscuous, abnormal/pervert, the no sense of shame woman was insulted, despises. Perhaps also will scoff itself in these dancing girls including tavern to be inferior. Even if prostitutes of street must be self-possessed hundred times. 作为一个贵族小姐,作为一个女性,她是绝对不能够做出这种不知羞耻的姿态的,像条狗一样四肢着地,全身赤裸一丝不挂的晃动着臀部。如果没有那个幻象的话,恐怕连自己最隐秘的地方都会被人看的一清二楚,到那个时候,自己会被如何看待呢?恐怕会被当做是淫乱,变态,不知廉耻的女人而被人辱骂,蔑视吧。说不定还会耻笑自己连酒馆里那些舞女都不如。哪怕是街边的娼妓都比自己要自重百倍。 Thinks that such consequence, Sonia cannot bear feel to tremble, however in that under the fear germinates the pleasant sensation that escaped the moral taboo bottom line to punish actually also following. Now such are doing, but actually nobody sees her true identity. She the naked body, has made such movement gesture obviously. In peripheral has that many people to gaze at her, has the man, has the woman. Has old man, there is a child. Among them many are only the farmer. Blacksmiths, guard, mercenary and so on lower-level public figure, but actually so unscrupulous like this presents in the body their front, if they know when status noble young Noblewoman, at this moment actually before them like only the dog crawls, then they can be what expression? 一想到这样的后果,索尼娅就忍不住感到战栗,但是在恐惧之下萌芽的那丝逃脱了道德禁忌底线惩罚的快感却也随之而来。现在自己正在这么做,但是却没有一个人看到她的真面目。明明她已经赤裸身体,做出了这样的动作的姿态。在周边有那么多人注视着她,有男人,有女人。有老人,也有孩子。他们当中不少只是农夫。铁匠,卫兵,佣兵之类下层人士,可是自己却如此肆无忌惮的将身体就这样呈现在他们的面前,如果他们知道,一个身份高贵的贵族小姐,此刻却在他们面前像只狗一样爬行时,那么他们会是什么样的表情呢? This thought is even more strong in the brain of Sonia, from the beginning because of frightened, but to the present, actually turned into Sonia to force oneself to fantasize subconsciously like this, she is looking at people, the imagination of instinct, if expired when this time Illusion Spell suddenly, then like this presented that when people front what response they can be, but was inconceivable, follows the pleasant sensation of frightened coming even more to be bright, that type started gradually to be strengthened just like the electric current feeling. But Sonia as if completely has not realized these, but immerses, clenched the teeth, does not know in enduring or during enjoying oneself fantasizes that frightening scene. 这个念头在索尼娅的脑中越发壮大,一开始的时候只是因为恐惧,而到了现在,却变成了索尼娅下意识的强迫自己这样幻想,她望着身边的众人,本能的想象如果在这个时候自己身上的幻术忽然失效,然后就这样呈现在众人面前时他们会是什么样的反应,但是不可思议的,伴随恐惧而来的快感却越发鲜明,那种宛如电流般的感觉开始逐渐增强。而索尼娅似乎完全没有察觉到这些,只是沉浸在其中,咬住牙关,不知道是在忍受还是在享受自己幻想之中的那一幕幕令人恐惧的场面。 How feels? Miss Sonia?” “感觉如何?索尼娅小姐?” Eh?!” 哎?!” Hears Rhodes' to speak, the Sonia whole body trembles, this recovers from own fantasy, she even started to imagine itself like this to be drawn in the small lane a moment ago then to insult wantonly by one group of hoodlums, but, more is fantasized that type as frightening as the scene of whole body goosebumps, Sonia deep in one's heart that type the joy of mixing with the evil even more is bright. But at this moment, after was summoned the reality by the Rhodes' sound, Sonia then recovers. She raised the head, sees is Rhodes is mixing with the play four and taunt look, as if regarding her idea, Rhodes completely clear as. 听到罗德的说话,索尼娅浑身一颤,这才从自己的幻想之中回过神来,刚才她甚至已经开始想象自己会被一群流氓就这样拖进小巷子里然后肆意侮辱,但是,越是幻想那种让人恐惧到浑身都起鸡皮疙瘩的场景,索尼娅内心深处那种夹杂着罪恶的喜悦就越发鲜明。而此刻,在被罗德的声音呼唤回现实之后,索尼娅这才回过神来。她抬起头来,所看见的则是罗德夹杂着戏肆与嘲讽的眼神,似乎对于她刚才的想法,罗德完全一清二楚似的。 Holy Spirit above, what was I thinking a moment ago? Will I think how possibly such matter?! Actually was I am what expression, could it be discovered by him a moment ago? But ............... 圣魂在上,我刚才在想些什么?我怎么可能会去想那样的事情?!我刚才究竟是什么样的表情,难道被他发现了?可是…………… This eldest young miss also is really rarely seen (weirdo). 这位大小姐还真是奇葩 Sees to be frightened at present restless Sonia, Rhodes eyebrow raised, as the expert in human relations field, in many female has socialized Rhodes naturally understood female some likes uniquely. For example Canary very much likes playing ashamed 'play', because the release feeling of this challenge taboo regarding as her of top student simply is the appropriate relaxation way. However at present, Rhodes discovered Sonia imagines must exaggerate, originally he brings Sonia to come out, but to use the ashamed feeling crashes the Sonia deep in one's heart self-respect, thus hits to the first step that oneself always follow. However Rhodes has not thought completely, Sonia quality by far has been above own imagination, after angry and panic-stricken, she who starts almost completely immerses in pleasant sensation that the shame that in oneself have presumptuously thought brings. In the Rhodes' eye, can see the Sonia tender body not to live to shiver, in the surface appeared blushing, even started softly panting, both eyes also completely were vacant, lost the focal distance, appearance that this simply was being in heat. Moreover, after hearing the Rhodes' summon recovers, Sonia is gazing in own look ashamed, the indistinct hidden is linking her not to discover. Mixes with is pouring out by oppressive joy, as well as flattered to Rhodes', as if her subconscious is still longing for Rhodes maltreated oneself again a little as! 看见眼前惊惶不安的索尼娅,罗德挑了下眉头,身为交际场上的老手,在多名女性之间周旋过的罗德自然了解女性的一些独特喜好。比如金丝雀就很喜欢玩羞耻play,因为这种挑战禁忌的释放感对于作为优等生的她来说简直是再合适不过的放松方式。但是眼下,罗德发现索尼娅比自己想象的还要夸张,原本他带索尼娅出来,只不过是为了用羞耻感压垮索尼娅内心深处的自尊,从而打好对自己言听计从的第一步。但是罗德完全没有想到,索尼娅的“素质”远远超乎了自己的想象,在最开始的愤怒与惊恐之后,她几乎是完全沉浸在了自己所妄想的羞辱所带来的快感中。在罗德的眼里,能够看见索尼娅的娇躯不住颤抖,面上浮现出了红晕,甚至开始低声喘息,双眼也完全是一片茫然,失去了焦距,这根本就是一副发情的样子。不仅如此,在听到罗德的呼唤回过神来之后,索尼娅羞愧的注视着自己的眼神之中,隐隐约约的隐藏着一丝连她自己都没有发现的。夹杂着倾诉被虐的喜悦,以及对罗德的谄媚,仿佛她的潜意识还在渴望着罗德虐待自己再多一点儿似的! It seems like own judgment real right, this eldest young miss really deep in the heart is masochist, pure! 看来自己的判断真没错,这位大小姐果然在内心深处是一个抖m,纯的! Has not thought really, Kingdom of Light's young Noblewoman also has such interest hobby unexpectedly, is really abnormal/pervert.” “真没有想到,光之国的贵族小姐居然还有这样的兴趣爱好,真是变态啊。” You, you were saying anything!! Nonsense, this is also not you brings me. Let me ............ “你,你在说什么!!胡说八道,这还不都是你把我带出来。让我…………” Then said, this completely is my mistake?” “那么说,这全部都是我的错?” This is not natural?” “这不是理所当然的吗?” Hears Rhodes looks like the innocent inquiry, the anger of Sonia innermost feelings savings has erupted immediately. 听到罗德看起来无辜的询问,索尼娅内心一直积蓄的怒火顿时爆发。 „If not you, why I must by like this treatment! Your this savage, tyrannical. Evil abnormal/pervert! Degenerates! Scum! Noble shame! barbarian! Do not think that the matter like this ended!! I will certainly make you regret that you to all that I make!! Obviously then long is the same with the woman, actually such abnormal/pervert! Simply is disgusting!” “如果不是你的话,为什么我要受到这样的待遇!你这个凶残,暴虐。邪恶的变态!败类!人渣!贵族的耻辱!野蛮人!不要以为事情就这样结束了!!我一定会让你后悔你对我所做的一切的!!明明就长的和女人一样,却这么变态!简直是恶心!” ..................... “哦…………………” Hears angrily rebuking of Sonia, Rhodes actually completely does not care about nod, then he has pulled out the ear, having the happy expression of several points of taunt to look at present Sonia. 听到索尼娅的怒斥,罗德却是完全不在意似的点点头,接着他掏了掏耳朵,带着几分嘲讽的笑意望着眼前的索尼娅 ......... Has not thought really, you such earnestly seek unexpectedly are punished, Miss Sonia. Has fun very much?” “………真没有想到,你居然是这么渴求得到惩罚啊,索尼娅小姐。很乐在其中吗?” You ..................!!” “你………………!!” Hears Rhodes' to reply, Sonia complexion greatly changed, Rhodes' sound, although is not big, but Sonia actually felt his excuse as if sharp curved blade straight held own chest. Let her whole person can't help but rolled up. Because after giving scolding Rhodes, Sonia deep in one's heart indeed followingly appeared question —— to hear these, how will this man treat me? 听到罗德的回答,索尼娅面色大变,罗德的声音虽然不大,但是索尼娅却感觉到他的说辞仿佛一把锋利尖锐弯刀笔直的捅进了自己的胸口般。让她整个人都不由的蜷缩了一下。因为在痛骂了罗德之后,索尼娅内心深处的确随之而来浮现出了一丝疑问——听到这些,这个男人会如何对待我呢? No, should say. She is even expecting ——— this man, then to oneself what kind of? 不,应该说。她甚至是在期望———这个男人,接下来会对自己怎么样? This originally hidden in heavy the small thought under spirit/mind outer covering. However at this moment, the Rhodes' words changed into the sharp blade, like this has beaten open that heavy outer covering, making that hide, in all completely exposed under the broad daylight. 原本只是隐藏在厚重心灵外壳之下的小小念头。但是此刻,罗德的话语化为了锋利的刀刃,就这样敲开了那厚重的外壳,让那隐藏在其中的一切彻底暴露在了光天化日之下。 I do not have ..................... “我才没…………………” I do not want to listen to your idle talk.” “我才不想听你的废话。” Rhodes has interrupted the Sonia flustered argument, he is only looking around curiously the present young girl, afterward eyes narrowed, gazes among her two legs. 罗德打断了索尼娅慌张的辩解,他只是好奇的张望着眼前的少女,随后眯起眼睛,注视向她的两腿之间。 Un, this ............ Miss Sonia, I want you here ......... ,这样吧…………索尼娅小姐,我要你在这里自己………” Saying, Rhodes has given a hand signal. 说着,罗德做了一个手势。 You should understand that I want to say anything, regarding the young lady of this age, should not be strange. If you do not want not to matter, I your hitch here, will then make my matter, but I need to tell you, Illusion Potion duration only then a day, if has waited till midnight 12 o'clock, then you ......... bang changes human, like Cinderella such.” “你应该明白我想说什么,对于你这个年纪的小姐来说,应该不陌生吧。如果你不愿意的话那么也无所谓,我会把你栓在这里,然后去做自己的事情,不过我需要告诉你,幻象药剂持续时间只有一天,如果等到了午夜12点钟的话,那么你就会………‘嘭’的变回人类,就像灰姑娘那样。” ..................... “…………………” Hears Rhodes' to speak, Sonia bites lip, she understands certainly what Rhodes finger/refers is anything, but ......... Here? 听到罗德的说话,索尼娅咬住嘴唇,她当然明白罗德指的是什么,但是………在这里? Thinks of here, Sonia looked around, at present and Rhodes rectify conduct at the plaza deep place, along with the conclusion of war, the residents returned in Fortress City, the originally lonely plaza gradually became lively, was away from the grove and bush can hear not far away the musical sound and loud noise. Here ............ Does that matter? 想到这里,索尼娅四下张望了一下,眼前自己和罗德正身处在中心广场的深处,伴随着战事的结束,住民们重新回到要塞城市之中,原本冷清的中心广场渐渐又变得热闹起来,隔着树丛和灌木可以听见不远处的音乐声和喧闹声。在这里…………做那种事? If traded is normally Sonia, then she is rather die than will not comply, but this time, does not know that what idea stemming from, Sonia was actually silent, like before to the Rhodes loud protest, has not been insulting him angrily. On the contrary, Sonia after hesitated for a moment, finally bit down. 如果换了是平日索尼娅,那么她是宁死都不会答应的,但是这一次,不知道出于什么样的想法,索尼娅却是沉默不语,并没有像之前那样对着罗德大声抗议,愤怒的辱骂他。相反,索尼娅犹豫了片刻之后,最终一咬牙关 I do ............... “我做……………” But hears the reply of Sonia, Rhodes immediately eyes narrowed, dazzling, the ice-cold and self-satisfied brilliance flashes before. 而听到索尼娅的回答,罗德顿时眯起眼睛,一道耀眼,冰冷而得意的光辉从中闪现而过。 As a being in love young girl, Sonia naturally also had done with the beloved person, the put on airs together tangled up fond dream, and is used to comfort own body and demand. However, that under secret, the situation that oneself live alone. But now, the young girl actually does on the stone chair, opens the thigh according to the Rhodes' order, makes that shame to act. Although knows obviously in bystander opinion, sits on the chair is the pet dog, but feels Rhodes that sharp vision, lets Sonia can't help but shivers. 作为一个怀春少女,索尼娅自然也曾经做过与自己心爱的人,白马王子一起缠绵的美梦,并且用来安慰自己的身体与需求。但是,那都是在私下里,自己一个人独处的情况之下。而现在,少女却是做在石椅上,按照罗德的命令张开大腿,做着那羞辱而动作。虽然明明知道在外人看来,坐在椅子上的不过是只宠物犬而已,但是感受到罗德那锐利的目光,还是让索尼娅不由自主的颤抖起来。 Wu... ......... Un ............... 呜………………………” Young girl eyes hang down, forcing oneself to disregard front man, wholly absorbed is touching own body. The intense stimulation that type brings ashamed still remained at this time on her body, the quick, fiery touch then swept across her whole body, Sonia has bitten the lip tightly, low and deep and rapid groaning sound sent out, her finger skilled walked randomly on own body, strokes, is touching the sensitive spot, how long did not have, the great waves that brought joyfully then howled, started to crush named sane barrier. 少女垂下眼帘,强迫自己无视面前的男子,专心致志的抚摸着自己的身体。那种羞耻所带来的强烈刺激这个时候依然残留在她的身上,很快,火热的触感便席卷了她的全身,索尼娅紧咬住嘴唇,低沉而急促的闷哼声从中发出,她的手指熟练的在自己的身上游走,抚摸,触动着敏感的部位,没有过多久,快乐所带来的浪涛便呼啸而起,开始击碎名为理智的障壁 Un ............ …………” Sonia shivered for a moment, the movement of finger even more speeds up. 索尼娅颤抖了一下,手指的动作越发加快。 Unexpectedly by oneself outside person will be seen own appearance, originally even not to hope to know Andre exposition that oneself most ashamed side, at this moment unexpectedly then such big thorn, under broad daylight, do who is handling this matter, have the qualifications to be liked by Andre really? Thinks of here, in Sonia eye seepage of can't help but transparent tear stains, but is quick, along with this castigation, interrogates and tortures from the spirit of oppressive as, that type delightful and evil pleasant sensation appears once more. 居然会被自己以外的人看见自己的这幅模样,原本甚至连安德烈都不希望知道的,自己最羞耻的一面,此刻居然就这样大刺刺的暴露了出来,在光天化日之下,做着这种事情的自己,真的还有资格被安德烈所喜欢吗?想到这里,索尼娅眼中不由的渗透出了透明的泪痕,但是很快,伴随着这种苛责,自虐似的精神拷问,那种甜美而罪恶的快感再次浮现。 I am a unchaste woman, not having the qualifications to be seen by Andre, I come here for is not this ......... Why, Andre ............ don't look at me, my body was smeared completely. I can feel, the line of sight of that man, he is gazing at me, probably is gazing at a toy ......... Andre! I quite hope that you can save me, but, turned into such me, do the qualifications obtain your saving?! Andre!! 我已经是一个不纯洁的女人了,没有资格被安德烈看到,我来到这里为的不是这个………为什么,安德烈…………不要看我,我的身体已经完全被弄脏了。我可以感觉到,那个男人的视线,他正在注视着我,就好像在注视一个玩具………安德烈!我好希望你能够来拯救我,但是,已经变成这样的我,还有资格获得你的拯救吗?!安德烈!! Wu... ......... wu un un un un ............!!” 呜…………呜嗯嗯嗯嗯…………!!” deep in the heart was summoning deep love the name of person, Sonia raised the head, but she saw, was Rhodes that pair of indifference, jet black eye pupil. That ice-cold, despised to be full of the ridicule look to change into the lightning in this moment, has passed through the body of Sonia thoroughly. But saw the Rhodes' expression, Sonia also to arrive at the peak finally, her finger speed even more sped up, finally, the great waves of howling erupted in the body of young girl thoroughly. 在内心深处呼唤着自己深爱的人的名字,索尼娅抬起头来,但是她所看见的,则是罗德那双冷漠,漆黑的眼眸。那冰冷,轻蔑而充满了嘲弄的眼神在这一刻化为闪电,彻底贯穿了索尼娅的身体。而看见罗德的表情,索尼娅终于也到达了顶峰,她的手指速度越发加快,最终,呼啸的浪涛在少女的身体里彻底爆发。 don't look at me...... don't look at me...... Does not want ............!!!” 不要看我……不要看我……不要…………!!!” An intermittent convulsion spreads over the whole body, Sonia strength from top to bottom pulls out in this moment thoroughly leaves, she like this sits down exhausted on the stone chair, the transparent liquid sprays from the both legs like the fountain, Sonia by stone chair, both eyes soulless is looking at the sky, at present the deep blue sky in her eyes is actually dusky one piece, in the desperate plain just like hell is ordinary, is flooding the grey of nihility. Ashamed, angry, rebukes oneself to flood her spirit/mind, but these, the delightful evil and joyful also takes root to germinate. 一阵阵的痉挛传遍全身,索尼娅浑身上下的力气在这一刻被彻底抽离,她就这样瘫坐在石椅上,透明的液体像喷泉般从双腿之间喷射而出,索尼娅就这样靠在石椅上,双眼无神的望着天空,眼前湛蓝的天空在她的眼中却是灰蒙蒙的一片,宛如地狱之中的绝望平原一般,充斥着虚无的灰色。羞愧,愤怒,自责充斥着她的心灵,但是在这其中,甜美的罪恶与快乐也生根发芽。 But at this time, the Rhodes ice-cold sound again appeared near the ear of Sonia. 而就在这个时候,罗德冰冷的声音再次出现在索尼娅的耳边。 You do is very good, Miss Sonia, we should go back.” “你做的很好,索尼娅小姐,我们该回去了。” Andre ............ Sorry ............... 安德烈…………对不起…………… Hears Rhodes' to speak, closes the eyes of Sonia pain, deep in the heart talked to oneself in a low voice. 听到罗德的说话,索尼娅痛苦的闭上眼睛,在内心深处低声自语道。
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