Chapter 253 【She walked, we came together】 第253章【她走了,我们一起来了】 Chen Nuo this in the evening, takes a seat living room at home. 陈诺这一晚上,就坐在家里的客厅。 Without being on sofa, but sat on the floor, both hands are holding the knee, looked up wall the portrait after-image on that old woman's. 没有在沙发上,而是就坐在了地板上,双手抱着膝盖,抬头看着墙壁上的那张老太太的遗像。 In as if this strange family/home, only then this portrait after-image, is only remains, only familiar existence. 仿佛这个陌生的家里,只有这张遗像,才是自己仅剩的,唯一的熟悉的存在。 Finally, blurry as if to dawn time, in the eyes of youngster flashes through a resolution suddenly. 终于,迷迷糊糊仿佛到了天亮的时候,少年的眼睛里忽然闪过一丝决断。 He crawled staggering, goes back to the room, starts the drawer in Fanjia. 他踉踉跄跄爬了起来,走回房间里,开始翻家里的抽屉。 First gets money. 先是找钱。 In the nightstand of bedroom, found some cash, ten thousand blocks always have. 卧室的床头柜里,找到了一些现金,万把块总是有的。 Chen Nuo looks at that pack of bills, hesitant, from sandwich digit 800 money to come. 陈诺看着那一叠钞票,犹豫了一下,从中间数出了八百块钱来。 „This is my...... other, is not my.” “这是我的……其他的,不是我的。” Chen Nuo sighed, then found own ID card and student identity card. 陈诺叹了口气,然后找到了自己的身份证和学生证。 He found a safety deposit box in the closet, but the password he himself does not know that- has no interest in knowing. 他在衣柜里找到了一个保险箱,不过密码他自己并不知道-也没有兴趣知道。 After looking at a safety deposit box, moved out of the way the vision, picks up the clothes that two knew to exchange from the closet. 看了一眼保险箱后,就挪开了目光,从衣柜里挑出了两件自己认识的衣服换上。 Finally turned out single shoulder a backpack from inside, lost completely in the thing the backpack. 最后又从里面翻出了一个单肩的背包来,把东西丢尽了背包里。 Stands before the mirror of big closet, took a look at itself. 站在大衣柜的镜子前,打量了一下自己。 Chen Nuo returned to the living room, climbs up the chair, picks the portrait after-image, took a towel, cautious wrapped, admitted in the book bag seriously. 陈诺回到了客厅,又爬上椅子,将遗像摘下来,拿了条毛巾,小心翼翼的包了起来,郑重放进了书包里。 …… ・ Around 7 : 00 am time, Chen Nuo went out. 早晨 7 点多的时候,陈诺出门了。 Closes door-, but does not have the key not to have the means to lock on the other side. 关上房门-但是没有钥匙没办法反锁。 Good, family's the gate is new. 好吧,家里的这个门都是新的。 Chen Nuo went downstairs, went out of the community. 陈诺下楼,走出了小区。 Bought to steam rice package of crullers to work as the breakfast in the roadside, looked at a early morning early peak the pedestrian who bustled about to run, Chen Nuo in gnawed to begin the breakfast, while proceeded along the street. 在路边买了个蒸饭包油条当早餐,看了一眼清晨早高峰正在忙碌奔走的行人,陈诺一边啃着手里的早饭,一边沿着马路往前走。 Waited for dozen minutes in the bus stop, with the crowded crowd, the youngster pushed difficultly the public transportation. 在公交车站等了十几分钟,随着拥挤的人群,少年艰难的挤上了公交车。 During jolts, he throughout cautious holds single Jianbao before the body, for fear that others cherished the portrait after-image picture frame in package crowded. 颠簸之中,他始终小心翼翼的将单肩包抱在身前,生怕别人挤怀了包里的遗像相框。 In the public transportation of early peak, crowded is similar to the sardine canned food, youngster silent is withstanding, enduring patiently. 早高峰的公交车里,挤的就如同沙丁鱼罐头,少年沉默的承受着,忍耐着。 After a half hour, Chen Nuo got down the public transportation , the step walked for dozen minutes, finally arrived at an institute to be. 半个小时后,陈诺下了公交车,又步行走了十几分钟,终于来到了一个所在。 Jinling train station. 金陵火车站。 The time is too early, the ticket window has not opened, but outside the window has many people to line up. Also some people sit in the suitcase directly. 时间还太早,售票窗口还没有开,不过窗口外已经有不少人在排队了。还有人直接坐在行李箱上。 This age, in 2001, the intelligence machine has not come out, the Internet also only started, the network buying tickets channel is not naturally no need to say. 这个年代,2001年,智能机都还没有出来,互联网也只是刚起步而已,网络购票渠道自然不必说了。 Chen Nuo peaceful standing in line most end, then silent, waiting. 陈诺安静的站在了排队队伍的最末尾,然后沉默着,等待着。 …… ・ 10 : 00 am time, Chen Nuo comes out from the ticketing hall, in the hand closely is pinching a train ticket. 上午 10 点的时候,陈诺从售票大厅出来,手里紧紧捏着一张火车票。 From Jinling to Shanghai stock market, T138. 从金陵到沪市的,T138。 Earliest school grade order that this has been able to buy. 这已经是能买到的最早的班次了。 Before going out , the clothes that changes, underwent crowded and extrusion of ticket window lining up crowd public transportation, has become wrinkled, the shoes of under foot also when the crowded public transportation was stepped on two feet. 出门前换上的衣服,经过了公交车的拥挤和售票窗口排队人群的挤压,已经变得皱巴巴的了,脚下的鞋也在挤公交的时候被人踩了两脚。 Chen Nuo takes the ticket and document, enters the waiting hall, after the security check, sits in the waiting hall, silently continues to be in a daze. 陈诺拿着票和证件,进入候车大厅,安检后,坐在候车大厅里,默默的继续发呆。 …… ・ „Does he want to do?” “他想干什么？” „Does not know, with look.” “不知道,跟着看吧。” Lu Xixi sighed. 鹿细细叹了口气。 Four women, in addition Senior Brother Wu, in the foot of waiting hall falls is gazing at the youngster silently. 四个女人,外加吴师兄,在候车大厅的脚落里默默的注视着少年。 …… ・ In the afternoon 2 more than 0.4 ten points of times, Chen Nuo went out of Shanghai stock market Train Station. 下午二点四十多分的时候,陈诺走出了沪市火车站。 The body full is the flavor that the instant noodles smoke. 身上满是泡面熏出来的味道。 On the train, sits, when passenger instant noodles, has not sprinkled cooking liquor to come out carefully, splashes on the Chen Nuo T-shirt. 在火车上,坐在身边的旅客泡面的时候,还不小心洒了一点汤汁出来,溅在了陈诺的T恤衫上。 Others very polite apology, Chen Nuo also silent accepted, has not spoken a few words. 人家很客气的道歉了,陈诺也沉默的接受了,没说一句话。 Stands in this strange city, strange train station, strange square. 站在这个陌生的城市,陌生的火车站,陌生的广场。 In the Chen Nuo heart somewhat is actually timid and vacant, but in a flash, made an effort to hold single Jianbao in hand, felt that in package that hard picture frame, in the youngster suddenly heart were of many a courage such faint trace. 陈诺其实心中有些胆怯和茫然,但一瞬间,用力抱了抱手里的单肩包,感觉到了包里那个硬硬的相框,少年忽然心中就多了那么一丝丝的勇气。 Not too many social experiences. 没有太多的社会经验。 Goes out the experience of long journey also basically is zero. 出门远行的经验也基本是零。 However the youngster remembers that formerly words that listens to from others, after going out of the train station, refusing the side to run several talking unlicensed taxi drivers, but looked for the police who a roadside went on patrol, asked under the road, the walk left the square before train station. 但是少年记得从前从别人听来的话,走出火车站后,拒绝了身边跑来的好几个搭话的黑车司机,只是找了个路边巡逻的警察,问了下路,就步行离开了火车站前的广场。 Un, in the south side of square, in an signboard very big fast-food restaurant, bought several steamed stuffed buns. 嗯,又在广场的南边,一家招牌很大的快餐店里,买了几个包子。 The name of this shop, remembers before , in class, listening to the schoolmates in Shanghai stock market saying that remembers that was the price is inexpensive, moreover flavor. 这家店的名字,记得之前在班上,听来过沪市的同学说过,记得是价格不贵,而且味道也还可以。 New Asia large package. 新亚大包。 Bought two meat dumplings, additional one bottle of mineral water, Chen Nuo walked the street in Shanghai. 买了两个肉包子,加一瓶矿泉水,陈诺步行在上海的街头。 Walked about several hundred meters, is estimating to the train station already some distances, Chen Nuo in the roadside, is enduring the anxiety, blocked a taxi. 走了大约几百米,估算着离火车站已经有些距离了,陈诺在路边,忍着肉疼,拦下了一辆出租车。 …… ・ Around 3 : 00 times, Chen Nuo stood in Lujiazui. 三点多的时候,陈诺站在了陆家嘴。 2001 Shanghai stock market Lujiazui, but also was far from later generation that big imposing manner astonishing skyscraping big buildings cluster. 2001年的沪市陆家嘴,还远远没有后世那一大片气势惊人的摩天大楼群。 Jinmao naturally does not exist, Shanghai Tower naturally does not exist. 金茂自然是不存在的,上海中心自然也不存在的。 Zhengda Plaza here terrestrial reference, comprehensive big market. Waterfront the symbol of Shangri-La Hotels and Resorts upscale hotel. 正大广场还是这里的地标,综合性的大商场。江边的香格里拉酒店还是高档酒店的象征。 Was right, Tomson one did not have. 哦对了,汤臣一品也还没有。 Chen Nuo stands in place, is outside the stockade wall of pearl tower. 陈诺站在的地方,是明珠塔的栅栏墙外。 Summer vacation also has final several days, the crowd of student party and traveling also has. 暑假还有最后几天,学生党和旅游的人群还有一些的。 Periphery Chen Nuo bought the admission ticket following crowd to enter, looks at 3355 passengers, some were family/home of several, some called people friends readily. 陈诺买了门票跟着人群进入,看着周围三三五五的旅客,有的是一家几口,有的是呼朋唤友。 Chen Nuo of come all alone, the walking past crowd silently, looks in these hands to take the digital camera in the passenger of photograph, actually in the heart somewhat envies. 形单影只的陈诺,默默的走过人群,看着那些手里拿着数码相机在拍照的旅客,其实心中是有些羡慕的。 However pinched the picture frame in package in, the complexion of youngster tranquil. 不过用里捏了捏包里的相框,少年的脸色平静了下来。 ( I am not a person.) (我也不是一个人的。) …… ・ Arranged for a long time team, finally went to the elevator, then arrived in the pearl tower. 排了好久的队,终于上了电梯,然后来到了明珠塔上。 Arrived at the famous glass level through the staircase...... 通过楼梯来到了著名的玻璃层…… On the face of youngster first time big boy unique that eager childish expression of revealed this age. 少年的脸上第一次露出了这个年纪的大男孩特有的那种跃跃欲试的孩子气的表情。 Curious, is afraid, little stepped onto the glass plank road, then surprised looks under the under foot transparent glass, like ten thousand zhang (3.33 m) cliff general feeling. 好奇的,又害怕的,一点点的走上了玻璃栈道,然后惊奇的看着脚下透明的玻璃下,如同万丈悬崖一般的感觉。 It looks like the ant pedestrian, looks like the train box automobile. 看着如同蚂蚁般的行人,看着如同火车盒般的汽车。 After waking up , the corners of the mouth of Chen Nuo are for the first time unconscious, showed the smile. 醒来后,第一次的,陈诺的嘴角不自觉的,露出了笑容来。 Hesitant, Chen Nuo started to observe nearby crowd, then found the target, walked. 犹豫了一下,陈诺开始观察附近的人群,然后找到了目标,走了过去。 …… ・ Does business the man who takes the sightseeing photo specially, was drawn by Chen Nuo. 一个专门做生意拍观光照的汉子,被陈诺拉了一下。 Talked on own initiative, making the youngster a little tense. 主动搭话,让少年有点紧张。 The businessman of slippery customer, soon saw through the details of youngster, then reported a high price of 80 dollar. 老油条的生意人,很快看穿了少年的底细,然后报了一个八十块钱的高价。 The youngster think, although knows is rip-off, but also agreement. 少年想了想,虽然知道是宰人,但也同意了。 When the cameraman takes up the racket sets up the camera, Chen Nuo suddenly called out: „Waits for!” 当摄像师拿起拍立得相机的时候,陈诺忽然叫道:“等一下！” He arrived at the tower fast, asked to think that the field of vision best place, then rifled through the thing in package. 他飞快的走到了塔边,找了一个自己觉得视野最好的地方,然后将包里的东西翻了出来。 Turns on the overlapping towel, put out paternal grandmother's portrait after-image picture frame cautiously, both hands hugged in the bosom. 打开层层叠叠的毛巾,小心翼翼的拿出了奶奶的遗像相框,双手抱在怀里。 To the complexion a little complex cameraman, was showing a brightest smile. 对着面色有点复杂的摄像师,露出了一个自己最灿烂的微笑。 „Troubles you, must pat clearly!” “麻烦你,一定要拍清楚点啊！” …… ・ Paying money time, the black heart cameraman looks at front this immature youngster, hesitant. 付钱的时候,黑心的摄像师看着面前这个稚嫩的少年,犹豫了一下。 „Ok, 50.” “算了,五十吧。” …… ・ Arrived in the tower, in Chen Nuo takes the racket to set up the picture that the camera makes, fan gently, fan several, cannot be bearing have a look, fan several, cannot bear have a look. 走到了塔内,陈诺手里拿着拍立得相机拍出来的照片,轻轻的扇着,扇几下,就忍不住看看,扇几下,就忍不住看看。 Saw that the image formation on picture, is getting more and more clear, the corners of the mouth of youngster bloom the joyful smile. 眼看照片上的成像,越来越清晰,少年的嘴角绽放出喜悦的笑容来。 …… ・ „The schoolmates on class said that in the weekend went to Shanghai stock market to play, that pearl tower, good tall Haogao, to be very fun!” “班上的同学说周末去沪市玩了,那个明珠塔,好高好高,特别好玩！” „Young...... studies well, the test, the end of the period you test 80 points well, the paternal grandmother leads you to go to Shanghai stock market to eat the steamed stuffed bun, looks at the pearl tower, is good?” “小诺啊……好好学习,好好考试,期末你考80,奶奶带你去沪市吃包子,看明珠塔,好不好？” „Paternal grandmother, when can you leave the hospital?” “奶奶,你什么时候能出院啊？” „Your terminal examinations, the paternal grandmother can leave the hospital. Does the learn/study, know well?” “你期末考试完了,奶奶就能出院啦。好好学习,知道么？” …… ・ The fan the fan, the youngster is holding the picture in the bosom. 扇着扇着,少年把照片抱在了怀里。 In the picture, the youngster bright smile , the bosom is holding a black and white portrait after-image picture frame. 照片里,少年灿烂的笑容,怀里抱着一张黑白遗像的相框。 „Paternal grandmother, I came to the pearl tower, we came together......” “奶奶,我来明珠塔了,我们一起来了呢……” …… ・ In the memory, paternal grandmother's image, as if stays, in that in hospital ward that lies down in the hospital, wore the blue sick person clothing/taking, on the back of the hand is inserting the appearance of tip needle forever. 记忆中,奶奶的形象,仿佛就停留在了那个躺在医院的病房里,穿着蓝色的病号服,手背上永远插着点滴针头的样子了。 Skinny hand, blue vein of sticking out suddenly. 枯瘦的手,还有暴起的青筋。 Decontaminating solution flavor that in that air irritates the nose. 还有那空气里刺鼻的消毒水的味道。 The wall of hospital hospital ward, is that white, white to terrify person. 医院病房的墙,是那么白,白的瘆人。 Oneself before the hospital bed sit does the homework, the paternal grandmother always likes staring at to look. 自己在病床前坐着写作业的时候,奶奶就总喜欢那么盯着自己看。 Looks, the old woman will unable to bear fall down several drops of tears, then silently has turned head, wipes off gently. 看着看着,老太太就会忍不住掉下几滴眼泪,然后默默的扭过头去,轻轻擦掉。 Several times, actually Chen Nuo saw, but does not dare to say anything, because feared that said anything, the paternal grandmother will be sad...... 有几次,其实陈诺看到了,但是又不敢说什么,因为怕说了什么,奶奶可能会更伤心吧…… Until two years ago that afternoon. 直到两年前的那个下午。 The paternal grandmother walked finally. 奶奶终于还是走了。 Chen Nuo had not cried at that time, drop of tears have not fallen. 陈诺当时没有哭,一滴眼泪都没掉。 His whole person seems the free state, ignorant, as if not understand completely had anything. 他整个人仿佛是游离状态的,懵懂的,仿佛完全不明白发生了什么。 Until several days later, in funeral parlor. 直到几天后,在殡仪馆。 Looks at the remains farewell time, static lying down there paternal grandmother, Chen Nuo even always absurd feelings. 看着遗体告别的时候,静静的躺在那儿的奶奶,陈诺甚至总有一种荒唐的感觉。 As if the paternal grandmother will open the eye momentarily, beckons to oneself, calls oneself side, is combing own hair with the finger, again smiles toward own mouth, inserts fruit drops. 仿佛奶奶随时会睁开眼睛,对自己招招手,把自己唤到身边,然后用手指梳着自己的头发,再笑眯眯的往自己的嘴巴里,塞上一颗水果糖。 However the day of...... 但是那天…… All these. 这一切。 Did not have. 没了。 Did not have. 都没了。 Will not have again. 不会再有了。 …… ・ That morning, Chen Nuo stood there, finally as if was very slow, was very slow, responded a fact: That is stepping the shopping basket the old woman who every morning goes out to do grocery shopping. 那天上午,陈诺站在那儿,才终于仿佛很迟钝的,很迟钝的,反应过来一个事实:那个每天一大早跨着菜篮子出去买菜的老太太。 That with the enamel cup end the old person who comes back the wonton to give itself to work as the breakfast. 那个会用搪瓷杯端回来馄饨给自己当早饭的老人。 That meeting picks the young soy beans, while smilingly looks paternal grandmother who oneself do the homework. 那个会一边摘毛豆,一边笑眯眯的看着自己写作业的奶奶。 She , does not take to peel good the orange in the winter, roasted by the stove gave itself hotly. 她再也不会,冬天的时候,拿着剥好的橘子,在火炉旁烤热了递给自己。 She , to will not be knocking of broken knee to scold in the summer mischievously loudly. 她再也不会,夏天的时候,对着调皮而磕破膝盖的自己大声呵斥。 She, will not step the footsteps of limping to go to the school to hold the parents' meeting to oneself, then comes back to face the test not to test and guilty, with skinny hand, combs own hair. 她再也不会,迈着蹒跚的脚步去学校给自己开家长会,然后回来面对考试没考好而愧疚的自己,用枯瘦的手,去梳自己的头发。 She, will not have the ice cream to eat in other oneself greedy child, does not dare to ask for time, putting out of smiling with the pocket money that the handkerchief wraps securely, then pinches a ten-cent note to give itself, said...... 她再也不会,在自己眼馋别的孩子有奶油雪糕吃,又不敢开口要的时候,笑眯眯的拿出用手帕包好的零钱,然后捏出一张毛票递给自己,说…… „Goes, buys one, the paternal grandmother also wants to eat, the paternal grandmother and you eat together.” “去,买一根来,奶奶也想吃呢,奶奶和你一起吃。” But really after laugh buys, she will actually be smiling, reveals the tooth that leaks out to say to oneself: 可真的当自己笑哈哈的买来后,她却会笑着,露出漏风的牙齿对自己说: „Young eats, the paternal grandmother was old, the tooth was not good, cannot eat coolly.” “小诺吃,奶奶年纪大了,牙齿不好,吃不了凉的。” …… ・ On that day, Chen Nuo understood: This person, she already not. 那天,陈诺明白了:这个人,她已经不在了。 She now, is only static lying down in that devil wood box in oneself. 她现在,只是静静的躺在自己手里的那个小木盒子中。 1997 that summers. 1997的那个夏天。 Chen Nuo knew a matter. 陈诺知道了一件事情。 In this world, most cares about itself, most loves own that person. 这个世界上,最在乎自己,最疼爱自己的那个人。 Meanwhile, is in this world, cares about itself only, loves own that person only. 同时,也是这个世界上,唯一在乎自己,唯一疼爱自己的那个人。 She, walked. 她,走了。 Henceforth, myriad world, boundless huge crowd. 从此,万千世界,茫茫人海。 Only remains. 就只剩自己一人。 …… ・ Is hugging and paternal grandmother „group photo”, sits in the chair in pearl tower, on the youngster face shows a smile. 抱着和奶奶的“合影”,坐在明珠塔上的椅子里,少年脸上露出一丝微笑。 Then, tears tumbles. 然后,眼泪一颗一颗的滚落下来。 „Paternal grandmother, I came to the pearl tower, we came together......” “奶奶,我来明珠塔了,我们一起来了呢……” …… ・ …… ・ 【 Sorry, today so many, I cannot write. 【对不起,今天就这么多,我写不下去了。 This chapter writes about half, I have cried the fool. 这章写到一半,我自己已经哭成傻逼了。 In article Chen Nuo paternal grandmother, done each matter, was my grandmother had done to me. 文中陈诺的奶奶,做的每一件事情,都是我的外婆曾经对我做过的。 With this chapter, fondly remembers my grandmother. 】 用这一章,怀念我的外婆。】 …… ・