„Dang...... dang......” “咣当……咣当……” The obsolete door lock, was broken open again. 老旧的门锁,再次被砸开。 Qin Yuhan sighed: „ If were known, but also can not laugh dead you. 秦雨涵叹息道:“回头要是被人知道了,还不得笑话死你。 Has not heard, which entrepreneur has to return to the alma mater, enters the classroom with pounding the way of lock passes through the gate. ” 就没听说过,有哪位企业家回母校,进教室是用砸锁的方式进门的。” Li Dong said with a laugh: „ Recalled in years past eventful years, back then, I was also a character of side overlord level. 李东笑呵呵道:“追忆一下昔年的峥嵘岁月,想当年,我也是一方霸主级的人物。 The result planted in your hand, three years have not been on the rise, this also calculates biggest that I suffered. 结果栽到了你手里,三年都没怎么抬起头来,这也算我吃的最大的亏了。 Look finds the opportunity to vent, otherwise has prepared to punch you. ” 这不,找机会发泄一下,要不然早就准备揍你了。” Qin Yuhan could not hold, beat his shoulder to say with a smile: „ Let alone aggressive statement, but also punches me, from all sides six years, your which time did not say. 秦雨涵憋不住了,捶着他的肩膀笑道:“别说狠话了,还揍我,前前后后六年,你哪次不是这么说的。 Finally really saw me, saw cat with the mouse. 结果真见了我,跟老鼠见了猫似的。 However, at that time I somewhat was also afraid, feared that you hit me. 不过话说回来,当时我还真有点害怕,怕你打我。 Never expected that teaches your, you instigated unexpectedly, bullies the weak and fears the strong, you also lost the face of man. ” 没想到教训你一顿,你居然就怂了,欺软怕硬,你也太丢男人的脸了。” Li Dong said ill-humoredly: Your father mothers who „ your woman, long moe moe dá, I hits early do not know. 李东没好气道:“你要不是女人,要不是长的萌萌哒,我早打的你爸妈都不认识了。 My that is youngster adore/admire Ai, wants to be intimate with you. 我那是少年慕艾,想跟你亲近亲近。 You were booing, harm me to have the trauma. 你倒好,害得我都有了心理阴影。 You, depend on my unruly uninhibited character, in addition the charming face, the sexy stature, my junior middle school little said that must look for ten eight girlfriends. 要不是你,就凭我这桀骜不羁的性格,加上帅气的脸庞,性感的身材,我初中少说也得找个十个八个女朋友。 I remember just entered a school time, that female student of my following table...... 我记得刚入学的时候,我后面桌的那个女生…… What called to come? 叫什么来着？ Now forgetting, at that time was also lovable little loli one, may be interesting to me. 现在给忘了,当时也是可爱小萝莉一个,对我可有意思了。 In class, asks me to speak each time, wants to soak me, I have not complied. 上课的时候,每次都找我说话,想泡我,我死活都没答应。 The result is booing, was shouted by your bare hair Niao, damn, little loli said goodbye me, with damn, had time met on the road, almost frightened to cry. 结果倒好,被你秃毛鸟一喊,见鬼了,那小萝莉再见了我,就跟见鬼似的,有次在路上遇到了,差点都吓哭了。 I was speechless, what does this have to be good to frighten? 我就无语了,这有什么好吓的？ Did I hit her? 我打她了？ Soaked her? 泡她了？ How she! 还是怎么她了！ I was not tender, served a need to frighten to cry, my several days of air/Qi want to hit the person. ” 我不就是嫩了点么,用得着吓哭么,气的我好几天都想打人。” „Let alone, asked you let alone......” “别说了,求你别说了……” Qin Yuhan covered the belly to shiver unceasingly, heard these each time, she wants to smile. 秦雨涵捂着肚子不断颤动,每次听到这些,她都想笑。 Li Dong could not bear smile, opened the door to enter the classroom. 李东也忍不住笑了起来,推开门进了教室。 The time of abandoning somewhat grew, in the classroom fell completely the dust. 弃用的时间有些长了,教室里落满了灰尘。 On Li Dong shoes, instantaneously is dusky a piece. 李东的鞋子上,瞬间就灰蒙蒙一片。 Li Dong has not cared , to continue to loaf in the classroom, walked a meeting, Li Dong found own seat. 李东也没在意,继续在教室中游荡,走了一会,李东找到了自己的座位。 On the obsolete school desk, had been covered by the dust, cannot see the original appearance. 老旧的课桌上,早就被灰尘掩盖,看不出原本的模样。 However Li Dong knows oneself have not found fault, so many years, the school desk backless stool had almost not traded. 不过李东知道自己没找错,这么多年了,课桌板凳几乎没换过。 His Li Dong given name, carves on the table. 他李东的大名,至今还刻在桌子上。 Li Dong cleaned the table with the hand, scratched the backless stool, sits down to say directly: „ This thing can work as the store of value auction, Lu Xun carved ‚early’ character, spreads now, Sanwei Bookstore became the scenic spot and historic resort. 李东用手擦了擦桌子,又擦了擦板凳,直接坐下道:“这玩意可以当保值品拍卖的,鲁迅刻了个‘早’字,流传到现在,三味书屋都成名胜古迹了。 Is he carves as for that character, that did not say. 至于那个字是不是他刻的,那都不好说。 The my Li Dong two characters, are real, I carve. 我这李东两字,可是货真价实的,我自己刻的。 The teacher in school had not discovered unexpectedly, too pitifully, this, if sold tattered, not, it is fortunate that dies. ” 学校的老师居然没发现,太可惜了,这要是当破烂卖了,还不得亏死。” „Ok, sought your other narcissism good.” Brightness that Qin Yuhan smiled, walked to go forward to look saying: „This character crawls with the dog, I can show, indeed is you carves.” “行了,求你别自恋了好不好。”秦雨涵笑的灿烂,走上前看了看道:“这字跟狗爬似的,我可以证明,的确是你刻的。” „How to speak? Can chat?” “怎么说话的？会不会聊天？” Li Dong shows the whites of the eyes, lay on the table scratched scratching the front table, opened the mouth saying: „Sits, making me recall one next in the past.” 李东翻了个白眼,又趴在桌子上把前面的桌子擦了擦,开口道:“坐下来,让我回忆一下过去。” Qin Yuhan said with a smile: „I 1 st sat some time in this, afterward clutched the long-term braid to you, I adjusted other place, you also record.” 秦雨涵笑道:“我就初一在这坐了一段时间,后来给你揪了好长时间辫子,我都调到别的地方了,你还记着呢。” „, You was running, I prepared clutching your vulnerable point bare, making you try the taste of bare head.” “记着呢,要不是你跑了,我都准备把你小辫子给揪秃了,让你尝试一下秃脑袋的滋味。” „Do you give up?” Qin Yuhan was all smiles to say. “你舍得吗？”秦雨涵笑容满面道。 Li Dong hehe said with a smile: „Does not give up, but could clutch a girlfriend to come back.” 李东呵呵笑道:“不舍得,不过说不定能揪个女朋友回来呢。” „beautiful dies you!” “美死你！” Qin Yuhan despised one, has not attended to the dust on backless stool, sat in front of Li Dong. 秦雨涵鄙视了一句,也没顾板凳上的灰尘,在李东前面坐了下来。 Li Dong looked at her one eyes, long time said: „Be not throwing over the hair, grips, the ponytail...... considers as finished, I help you grip, do not move.” 李东看了她一眼,半晌才道:“别披着头发,扎起来,马尾辫……算了,我帮你扎,你别动。” Qin rain contained really motionless, whatever Li Dong made the braid to her. 秦雨涵果然不动,任由李东给她扎辫子。 After a while, Li Dong looked saying: „Un, as before, was my craftsmanship good?” 过了一会,李东看了看才道:“嗯,和以前一样了,我手艺不错吧？” Qin rain contained light saying with a smile: „Does not know, I cannot see in any case, but feels also good.” 秦雨涵轻笑道:“不知道,反正我看不见,不过感觉还行。” „Definitely good, did not believe you then to look in a mirror to have a look to know.” “肯定好,不信你回头照镜子看看就知道了。” „You reach an agreement well.” Qin Yuhan revealed the snow white tooth, was all smiles: „Must clutch again, making you recall well?” “你说好就好。”秦雨涵露出雪白的牙齿,笑容满面道:“要不要再揪一下,让你更好地回忆一下？” „Wishes for earnestly!” “求之不得！” Qin Yuhan was laughing and playing, turns around, is turning away from Li Dong, the ponytail turned upwards high. 秦雨涵嬉笑,转过身去,背对着李东,马尾辫高高翘起。 Li Dong puts out a hand to caress lightly, the look is somewhat complex, is somewhat confused, some do not endure, what are more is guilty. 李东伸手轻抚着,眼神有些复杂,有些迷茫,有些不忍,更多的还是愧疚。 Continuing to be very long, Qin Yuhan had not turned the head. 持续了很久,秦雨涵一直没有转头。 Whatever Li Dong is touching own hair, when does not know gets up, in the classroom were many a weak sobbing sound. 任由李东抚摸着自己的头发,不知何时起,教室中多了一丝微弱的哽咽声。 Li Dong throat somewhat dry, slightly hoarse say/way: „What to cry?” 李东喉咙有些干涩,略显沙哑道:“哭什么？” „No, I never cry......, I do not like crying from infancy to maturity, you do not believe to ask my mother, she knows......” “没,我从不哭的……真的,我从小到大都不喜欢哭的,你不信问我妈,她知道的……” „I know, do not cry, crying is not unattractive.” “我知道,别哭,哭了就不好看了。” Qin Yuhan the body shivered slightly, for a long time wiped the cheeks, turned away from Li Dong to say with a smile: „ Who cried, you cry! 秦雨涵身体微微颤抖,许久才抹了抹脸颊,背对着李东笑道:“谁哭了,你才哭呢！ We knew for ten years, the entire ten years, including the words of tail leader, 11 years, you said when I have cried? ” 咱俩认识十年了,整整十年,连头带尾的话,都十一年了,你说,我什么时候哭过？” Li Dong is silent. 李东沉默。 Qin Yuhan also said: „ This playing played, should look looked, this is the place that we know, ten years, is a samsara. 秦雨涵又道:“该玩的都玩了,该看的都看了,这是我们认识的地方,十年,算是一个轮回吧。 Finishes what one starts, good. 有始有终,挺好的。 Long ago I have thought that can have such a day...... 很久以前我就想过,会不会有那么一天…… I once felt, on that day will not be sad, will not be sad. 我曾经觉得,那一天不会伤心,也不会难过的。 I can fling the braid very much arrogantly tenderly, disdains to tell you with cold Henghe, besides you, I also has a better choice...... 我可以很傲娇地甩一甩辫子,用冷哼和不屑告诉你,除了你,我还有更好的选择…… But...... 可是…… But why...... is, why I quite uncomfortable...... ” 可是……可是为什么,为什么我好难受……” The mean sobbing sound reverberates in the classroom, Qin Yuhan the body shivered was fiercer. 低微的哽咽声在教室中回荡,秦雨涵的身体颤抖的更为厉害了。 Li Dong is touching her back gently, for a very long time is speechless. 李东轻轻抚摸着她的后背,久久无言。 He can act perversely with Yuan Xue, can act perversely with Shen Qian, but he does not want to act perversely to Qin Yuhan. 他可以和袁雪耍无赖,可以和沈茜耍无赖,可他不想对秦雨涵耍无赖。 Freely, he has told himself, oneself can the rascal get down. 尽管,他一直告诉自己,自己可以一直无赖下去。 Long time, Li Dongcai said in a soft voice: „I do not want to drop.” 半晌,李东才轻声道:“我不想放手。” Qin Yuhan was silent, without speech. 秦雨涵沉默,没有说话。 „ I was very actually difficult to obtain clear, I most loved anyone, but I know, you were different...... “我其实很难分得清,我到底最爱谁,可我知道,你不一样的…… Many years later, I forgot others, actually cannot forget you. 很多年以后,我忘了别人,却始终忘不了你。 I do not know that others are making anything, does not remember that which others , actually still remember that laughs was shouting I ‚bare wool bird’ bad girl, smiled special is bad, is very very bad...... 我不知道别人在做什么,不记得别人在哪,却始终还记得那个大笑着喊我‘秃毛鸟’的坏女孩,笑的特别坏,特别特别坏…… On her well-known colleges and universities, on me third-class university. 她上名校,我上三流大学。 She has an enviable good work, I use all might in the crowd, the foothold does not have. 她有份让人羡慕的好工作,我在人群中摸爬滚打,连个立足之地都没有。 She is always everyone's focus, I am mean such as the fly wasp. 她始终是所有人的焦点,我却低微如蚍蜉。 Quiet at dead of night, frequently remembers her, finally actually understands, your I am away from the single layer day. 夜深人静时,经常想起她,最终却明白,你我隔着一重天。 May have such a day, I suddenly discovered, by having the right of loving, had the right of pursue, at that time, disregarded, who also cared about other. 可有那么一天,我忽然发现,原以有了爱的权利,有了追求的权利,那时候,不管不顾,谁还在意其他。 I cannot distinguish clearly that am love or hold to read, but I know, this girl belongs my! 我分不清那是爱还是执念,可我知道,这个女孩是属于我的！ She is my Li Dong! 她是我李东的！ I do not think, does not want, making her put into others' arms, I have thought that I to all her, will give all her, to all that she wants...... 我不想,也不愿意,让她投入别人的怀抱,我想过,我会给她一切,给她所有,给她想要的所有所有…… This idea, since long, maintains in my heart. 这个想法,很久以来,都维系在我心头。 I have felt, I will not change this idea, will not change this thought...... 我一直觉得,我不会改变这个想法的,也不会改变这个念头…… May have such a day, I suddenly discovered, I could not insist...... 可有那么一天,我忽然发现,我坚持不住了…… Another woman appeared, in you in that several years, she does not pay silently, perseveres silently, I am afraid suddenly. 另一个女人出现了,在你不在身边的那几年,她默默地付出,默默地坚守,我忽然害怕起来。 I feared, I will change the original intention, I feared, I will forget that being lost in a reverie girl. 我怕,我会改变初衷,我怕,我会忘记那个魂牵梦绕的女孩。 But I am telling myself as before, all these are the false appearances, why does she have a liking for me? 可我依旧在告诉自己,这一切都是假象,她为什么看上我？ I have money! 我有钱啊！ I able! 我有能力啊！ If I do not have money not to have the ability, she will have a liking for me? 我要是没钱没能力,她还会看上我吗？ May turn the head to think, my he, if a waste, the wizard can have a liking for me! 可转头一想,我他么要是一个废物,鬼才看得上我！ I must not really have money not to have the ability not to have the position, why I like others, loves others, pursues others! 我要真没钱没能力没地位,我凭什么去喜欢别人,去爱别人,去追求别人！ Even I thought so why I felt, I am richly able, should others pay for me? 连我自己都这么觉得,我凭什么觉得,我有钱有能力,别人就应该为我付出？ My original intention that four years, more than 1000 days and nights, the front two years, I also record, remembers that my most loves. 四年,一千多个日日夜夜,前面两年,我还记的我初衷,记得我的最爱。 But the following two years, I discovered gradually, I probably changed. 可后面两年,我渐渐地发现,我好像变了。 Until one day, some people told me, she more than 30, 30 many old women, her life most magnificent four years, accompanied my man of this no commitment to pass unexpectedly together! 直到有一天,有人告诉我,她三十多了,三十多的老女人了,她人生最辉煌的四年,居然陪着我这个毫无承诺的男人一起度过！ What she loves is money? 她爱的是钱吗？ Right that loves? 还是爱的权利？ Very laughable thought that I do not believe. 很可笑的念头,我自己都不相信。 Naturally, these are not I change the original intention the reason, how even if more than 30, with my what does/works, my hold to read, is persevering as before. 当然,这些都不是我改变初衷的原因,哪怕三十多又如何,与我何干,我的执念,依旧在坚守。 However has the day, when I crack a joke told her you had the white hair, one...... 然而有天,当我开玩笑似的跟她说,你有白头发了,就一根…… Such a few words, she suddenly terrified is not good, I have not seen her is so terrified, I really crack a joke. 就这么一句话,她忽然惶恐的不行,我从没见过她那么惶恐,我真的只是开个玩笑。 But her panic-stricken, I was even frightened. 可她那种惊恐,连我都被吓到了。 After frightening, is the endless anxiety, endless guilt, endless rebukes oneself...... 吓到之后,便是无尽的不安,无尽的愧疚,无尽的自责…… My holds to read, at this moment crashed. 我的执念,这一刻崩塌了。 Really, shortly, shortly after before, even you were about to graduate, was about to come back...... 真的,没多久,没多久之前,甚至你都快毕业了,快回来了…… I am even thinking, when you graduate, gives you a grand ceremony, I must make the entire world know, you, are my! 我甚至想着,等你毕业,给你一个盛大的典礼,我要让全世界都知道,你,是我的！ However at that moment, I decided to go back on word...... ” 然而那一刻,我决定食言了……” Li Dong voice surrounds in the classroom, the sobbing sound dissipates gradually. 李东的声音在教室中环绕,哽咽声渐渐消散。 For a long time, Qin Yuhan said in a low voice: „Not because of other?” 许久,秦雨涵低声道:“不是因为别的？” Li Dongqing sighed: „ Other? Do you feel the meeting? 李东轻叹道:“别的？你觉得会吗？ Present I, look forward to be far away from the politics, looks forward to be far away troubled. 如今的我,巴不得远离政治,巴不得远离纷扰。 Spoke heartless and cruel words, if only the pure use, I have kicked aside, this time she, did not have the value to me. 说句狼心狗肺的话,如果只是单纯的利用,我早就一脚踢开了,这时候的她,对我没有价值可言了。 Kicks out of the way her, instead is a self-preservation from saying. 踢开她,反而是一种自保自道。 The so-called threat, the so-called threat, is a joke. 所谓的威胁,所谓的恐吓,都是一个笑话。 Her mother perhaps believes that but her mother does not understand, I kicked out of the way her, will obtain more resources, more personal connections, many favoring. 她母亲也许会这么认为,可她母亲不懂,我踢开了她,会获得更多的资源,更多的人脉,更多的看好。 Not only the single is the sympathy, I do not want to deceive you, I love her, otherwise, the cold blood such as I, will not choose do that. ” 不单单只是同情,我不想骗你,我爱她,要不然,冷血如我,是不会选择这么做的。” „I?” “那我呢？” „Holds to read, with love.” “执念,和爱。” „You did not think that satirized very much?” “你不觉得很讽刺吗？” Li Dong said in a soft voice: „ Satirized very much, I also often taunted myself, the grown man, what love discussed that by the present, discussed that liked not feeling the nausea? 李东轻声道:“是很讽刺,我也经常嘲讽自己,大男人,谈什么爱,到了现在,谈爱不觉得恶心吗？ The nausea turns over to the nausea, loves or loves, does not love, I will drop. ” 恶心归恶心,爱还是爱,不爱,我会放手的。” Qin Yuhan silent. 秦雨涵沉默了下来。 In the classroom is very peaceful, the entire world is very peaceful. 教室中很安静,整个天地都很安静。 Has not known how long, Qin Yuhan also said: „Where holds to read came from?” 不知过了多久,秦雨涵又道:“执念来自哪里？” Li Dong aspirates, „perhaps is the dream, something could not explain.” 李东吐了口气,“也许是梦吧,有些事解释不清。” Qin Yuhan no longer asked this, has turned the head to watch his meeting, looked straight ahead Li Dong eyes, smiled contains the lacrimal: „In other words, I lose to her, because she was old?” 秦雨涵不再问这个,转过头看了他一会,直视李东的眼睛,笑中含泪道:“也就是说,我输给她的,只是因为她老了？” Li Dong smiles bitterly, said in a soft voice: „It is not old, always thought that this word was heard by her, she will go crazy, is the disparity of age.” 李东苦笑,轻声道:“不是老,总觉得这个词被她听到了,她会发疯,是年纪的差距。” „My rather I old am ten years old!” “那我宁愿我老十岁！” Qin Yuhan self-ridiculed smiles, long time continued saying: „How to handle me?” 秦雨涵自嘲地笑了笑,半晌才继续道:“怎么处置我？” Li Dong did not speak. 李东不吭声。 Qin Yuhan nodded to say with a smile: „ I understood probably, your so-called does not drop, so-called holds to read, has told me. 秦雨涵点头笑道:“我好像明白了,你所谓的不放手,所谓的执念,已经告诉我了。 But, why do I want to promise you? ” 可是,我为什么要答应你？” Li Dongtian licked the lip, is depressed saying: „Because does not comply, I will not drop!” 李东舔了舔嘴唇,闷闷道:“因为不答应,我也不会放手！” „Because you do have money?” Qin Yuhan taunted. “因为你有钱？”秦雨涵嘲讽道。 Li Dong shakes the head saying: „ It is not because I do richly, because I have money, I can achieve. 李东摇头道:“不是因为我有钱才做,而是因为我有钱,我才能做到。 I do not have money, I will also do that naturally, being able to achieve is a matter, does is a matter. 我没钱,我也会这么做,当然,做不做得到是一回事,做不做是一回事。 For example in the past, I had thought that you must for a lifetime be alone good, I am even fantasizing, if you married, I cause havoc the wedding...... 比如当年,我就想过,你得单身一辈子才行,我甚至幻想着,你如果结婚了,我就去大闹婚礼…… Although is only thinks, I cannot achieve these. 尽管只是去想,我做不到这些。 But these are my true idea, because I do not want. 可这些都是我的真实想法,因为我不愿意。 Beforehand I cannot achieve, now can achieve, this is difference in the execution, rather than ideological change. ” 只是以前的我做不到,现在能做到而已,这是执行力上的差别,而不是思想上的改变。” „You very overbearing...... as always.” Qin Yuhan summarized. “你很霸道……一如既往。”秦雨涵总结道。 Li Dong nods, did not deny: „ I acknowledged that I am very overbearing, because I currently have this qualifications, although will make you feel me to be selfish, feels my cold blood, feels my waste. 李东点头,毫不否认道:“我承认我很霸道,因为我现在有了这个资格,尽管会让你觉得我自私,觉得我冷血,觉得我人渣。 But I want to say that you are my, I will not give anybody! 可我还是想说,你就是我的,我不会让给任何人！ Even if dies, I want to be you and I died together, buries in the same place, rather than others! 哪怕是死,我想是你和我死在一起,葬在一起,而不是和别人！ Perhaps to that day, I will really drop, is not now, because of young me, is not willing to see this, does not want to see this, I will go crazy. ” 也许真到了那天,我会放手,可不是现在,因为年轻的我,不愿意看到这一幕,也不想看到这一幕,我会发疯的。” „How do you go crazy?” “你发疯又如何？” Li Dong muttered: „You could alone for a lifetime, because was killed by me close to your men......” 李东咕哝道:“你可能得单身一辈子,因为靠近你的男人都被我弄死了……” Qin rain contained the short of breath to smile, „you gave under you evaluation is very really accurate, selfish, cold blood, brutal!” 秦雨涵气急而笑,“你给你自己下的评语真的很准确,自私,冷血,无情！” Li Dong said embarrasedly: „You can add a waste, is more virulent is also all right, I felt I withstand.” 李东讪讪道:“你可以加一个人渣,再恶毒一些也没事,我觉得我承受的起。” „Has not seen and you equally inexpensive person!” Qin Yuhan clenched teeth to say. “就没见过和你一样贱的人！”秦雨涵咬牙道。 Li Dong nods, approves the person of same belief: „ I acknowledged that therefore you eventually are my , can only be my. 李东点头,赞同道:“我承认,所以你终究是我的,也只能是我的。 I do not think that regret for a lifetime, disobeyed the conscience to say a blessing, said that wanted you to be happy, I could not achieve. 我不想自己后悔一辈子,违着良心说一声祝福,说一声希望你幸福,我做不到。 I really must achieve, I am not a cheap person, but was the sage. ” 我真要做到了,我就不是贱人,而是圣人了。” „You......” “你……” appapp appapp