Li Mu had/left the bedroom building with Hu Zhengdao together, Hu Zhengdao pulled out one package of soft Red plum to come, to extract two from the pocket, held in the mouth on the mouth, gave Li Mu. 李牧跟胡正道一起出了寝室楼,胡正道从口袋里掏出一包软红梅来,抽出两支,一支叼在嘴上,一支递给李牧。 Li Mu received the smoke, asked him curiously: „When learned to smoke?” 李牧接过烟来,好奇的问他:“什么时候学会抽烟了？” Hu Zhengdao lights own smoke, hits to catch fire to Li Mu, said: „A while ago was not everywhere the running Internet cafe, every time went to an Internet cafe others to distribute the cigarettes to me, time from the beginning also rejected, how afterward did not know, made the ghost bad on the god pulled out.” 胡正道点燃自己的烟,又给李牧打着了火,说道:“前段时间不是到处跑网吧吗,每去一家网吧人家都给我递烟,一开始的时候还拒绝,后来不知道怎么的,就神使鬼差的抽起来了。” Li Mu puts out a hand to protect the cigarette lighter flame, the smoke lights the time makes an effort to attract one, finally didn't expect does not smoke Red plum this type of smoke for a very long time, raised fiercely some unexpectedly throats, coughed several to shed tears, somewhat distressed said to Hu Zhengdao: „It seems like I advanced in you fiery pit.” 李牧伸出手来护住火机的火苗,烟点燃的时候用力吸了一口,结果没想到久久不抽红梅这种烟,一口提猛了竟然有些拉嗓子,咳嗽几声连眼泪都流了出来,有些狼狈的对胡正道说道:“看来还是我把你推进火坑里了。” Hu Zhengdao hey however smiles: „Third Brother you left said, was you me from fiery pit, you gave me this livelihood, what to do the Yanan Mother that side I really do not know should.” 胡正道嘿然一笑:“三哥你别这么说,是你把我从火坑里拉出来了,要不是你给我这个生计,雅楠妈妈那边我就真的不知道该怎么办了。” The bedroom although row is oversized small, but everyone usually rarely hangs this sorting on the mouth, Li Mu asked him: „Today? Probably has the concern.” 寝室虽然排过大小,但大家平时很少把这个排序挂在嘴上,李牧问他:“今天怎么了？好像有心事。” „Un.” Hu Zhengdao said: „The Yanan Mother condition deteriorated recently, today goes to the hospital dialysis, the doctor said that her physical condition is not quite optimistic, in the afternoon handled the check-.” “嗯。”胡正道说:“雅楠妈妈的病情最近恶化了,今天去医院透析,医生说她的身体状况不太乐观,下午就办了住院手续了。” Li Mu hastily asked him: „What's the matter?” 李牧急忙问他:“怎么回事？” Hu Zhengdao said: „I asked the doctor, said that is the body organ chronic failure, takes 24 hours in the hospital, so as to avoid suddenly has the complication.” 胡正道说:“我问了医生,说是身体器官慢性衰竭,要24小时在医院,免得突发并发症。” Li Mu sighed, after the moment, asked him: „Needs money?” 李牧叹了口气,片刻后问他:“需要钱吗？” Hu Zhengdao shakes the head: „Sells «Legend Overlord» very makes money, maintained her cost of treatment is enough, today I ask the doctor in private, the doctor said that if did not perform the kidney transplant operation, she did not support for a half year.” 胡正道摇了摇头:“卖《传奇霸主》还是挺赚钱的,维持她的治疗费是够了,今天我私下问了医生,医生说如果不接受换肾手术,她撑不过半年。” Li Mu asked him: „Does Yanan know?” 李牧问他:“雅楠知道吗？” „Knows.” The Hu Zhengdao forced smile said: „I asked that the doctor also wondered, said that your girlfriend had just asked that how you also asked.” “知道。”胡正道苦笑道:“我去问的时候,医生还纳闷,说你女朋友刚问过,你怎么又来问了。” Li Mu asked: „Yanan mood how?” 李牧问:“雅楠的情绪怎么样？” „Is supporting in front of her Mother, hid her Mother surface to shed tears.” “在她妈妈面前强撑着,躲了她妈妈的面就掉眼泪。” Li Mu also asked: „**** How did the matter say?” 李牧又问:“****的事情怎么说？” Hu Zhengdao said: „Arranging, the person of lining up are many are, does not know that must arrange to goes lord knows , the kidney internal medicine department hospital bed of entire hospital almost filled, is this sickness, majority in ****, but the hospital bed of kidney transplant administrative offices emptied the larger part, only then just transplanted the kidney or just contributed the person of kidney to live in that administrative offices, the probability was too small, even the Yanan match has not succeeded, the probability of stranger on was smaller.” 胡正道说:“排着呢,排队的人多得是,不知道要排到猴年马月去,整个医院的肾内科病床差不多都满了,全是这个病,大部分都在等****,可肾移植科室的病床空了一大半,只有刚换完肾或者刚捐过肾的人才会在那个科室里住着,几率太小了,连雅楠配型都没成功,陌生人的几率就更小了。” Li Mu nods, said: „You adjust your mood, now they are depending upon you, if you this dispirited appearance, they were all day more difficult to insist.” 李牧点了点头,说:“你调整好自己的情绪,现在她娘俩都依靠着你呢,你要是整天这幅颓废的样子,她俩就更难坚持了。” Hu Zhengdao strong drive smoke: „I in good, but loves dearly Yanan that in front of them installs, her father that appearance, she almost does not hug to hope, now her Mother condition is so also serious, which if the aunt did not have naively, I feared that she cannot withstand.” 胡正道猛抽一口烟:“我在她们面前装的还是挺好的,不过就是心疼雅楠,她爸那个样子,她几乎就已经不抱希望了,现在她妈妈病情又这么严重,要是阿姨哪天真没了,我怕她承受不了。” Li Mu then urged: „Does not have the time, so long as found ****, underwent the transplant operation, at least can maintain for ten years?” 李牧便劝道:“不是还有时间吗,只要找到****、做了移植手术,至少能维持十来年吧？” The Hu Zhengdao forced smile said: „Said that said that but the probability is very after all small.” 胡正道苦笑道:“说是这么说,可毕竟机率很小。” Li Mu said: „Probability also has the opportunity again uncertainly, the patience wait/etc, perhaps will present MU Online / miracle.” 李牧道:“机率再渺茫也还有机会,耐心等等,没准就会出现奇迹。” The Hu Zhengdao slight nod, flies the smoke fart ball in hand, extracts one to light conveniently, said: „Actually goes out to run the plug-in matter, is not the primary cause of smoking, the mood was too mainly depressing, smokes many to mediate.” 胡正道微微点头,把手里的烟屁弹飞,顺手又抽出一根来点燃,说:“其实出去跑外挂的事情,也不是抽烟的主要原因,主要还是心情太压抑了,抽烟多少能够排解一点。” Li Mu patted his shoulder, said: „First do not think so many, for these days hurried to review the review schoolwork, the matter that prepared for test, waited winter vacation to find the time to run again the running business, then proposed a magnitude your income upward, no matter in the future the Yanan Mother matter is what result, you had the ability of dealing.” 李牧拍了拍他的肩膀,说:“先别想这么多了,这几天赶紧复习复习功课,准备考试的事情,等寒假再抽时间多跑跑业务,再把你的收入往上提一个量级,不管将来雅楠妈妈的事情是什么结果,你都有应对的能力。” Hu Zhengdao understands the Li Mu's meaning, now makes plug-in truly to receive very high, if can run again the running vacancy market, the income can be higher, in this case, if Wang Yanan Mother can wait till ****, oneself can bear her surgery expense ; If could not find ****, she passed away, oneself can also look after good Wang Yanan, gives her a calm and steady life. 胡正道明白李牧的意思,现在做外挂确实收入很高,如果能够再多跑跑空缺市场,收入就能更高一些,这样的话,王雅楠妈妈如果能够等到****,自己能承担得起她的手术费用;如果找不到****、她因病去世,自己也能照顾好王雅楠,给她一个安稳的生活。 Li Mu actually very admires Hu Zhengdao at heart, oneself family was not well-off, discussed the shortly after girlfriend family/home had/left such big matter, he can actually clench teeth to conduct the shoulder, this point really man, Li Mu saw that person from him very much, for loved used all boldness. 李牧其实心里挺佩服胡正道的,自己家境就不好,谈了没多久的女朋友家出这么大的事情,他竟然能够一直咬牙扛着,这一点真的很爷们儿,李牧从他身上看到了那种为了自己所爱的人而倾尽所有的魄力。 After two people chatted several, the Hu Zhengdao mood also relaxed much, pulls out the cell phone, said to Li Mu: „I first call to ask the situation, originally I want to keep the attendance, finally Ziqiu and Chen Jiao their several went, said that my grown man is not convenient in that urged me to come back.” 两人聊了几句之后,胡正道心情也舒缓了不少,掏出手机来,对李牧说道:“我先打个电话问问情况,本来我是想留着照顾的,结果子秋、陈娇她们几个去了,说我一个大男人在那不方便,就催着我回来了。” Li Mu nods, Hu Zhengdao telephones to Wang Yanan, Li Mu can only hear the speech of Hu Zhengdao. 李牧点了点头,胡正道给王雅楠打了个电话,李牧只能听到胡正道的说话。 „darling, aunt situation how?” “宝贝,阿姨情况怎么样了？” „Rested well, you can deal with tonight?” “睡了就好,你今晚能应付的了吗？” „Does Ziqiu remain to accompany you? That's good, you two rest the little while in turn, do not conduct the shoulder hardly.” “子秋留下来陪你？那还好,你们两个轮流睡会儿,别都硬扛着。” „Un, I arrived at the bedroom, relax, I will pull empty to read, tomorrow evening I bring the textbook in the past.” “嗯,我到寝室了,放心吧,我会抽空看书的,明天晚上我带着课本过去。” Made the telephone call, Hu Zhengdao said to Li Mu: „Fortunately, Ziqiu is accompanying with her tonight together.” 挂了电话,胡正道对李牧说:“还好,今晚子秋跟她一起陪着。” Li Mu nods, wants to ask his Zhao Ziqiu situation, but hesitant has not said over and over. 李牧点点头,想问问他赵子秋的情况,但犹豫再三还是没说出口。 Hu Zhengdao looked at the time, said: „Does Third Brother, we go back? Got windy, but also is very cold.” 胡正道看了看时间,说:“三哥,咱回去吧？起风了,还挺冷的。” „Good, goes back.” “好,回去吧。” Hu Zhengdao threw the second smoke fart, returned to the bedroom building with Li Mu, arrives at the bedroom entrance quickly time, Li Mu stops the footsteps suddenly, asked him: „Zhao Ziqiu recently how?” 胡正道丢了第二个烟屁,和李牧一起回了寝室楼,快到寝室门口的时候,李牧忽然停下脚步,问他:“赵子秋最近怎么样？” Hu Zhengdao surprise looked at Li Mu one, said with a smile: „I think that you do not care.” 胡正道诧异的看了李牧一眼,笑道:“我以为你不关心呢。” „Nonsense.” “废话。” Hu Zhengdao said: „Ziqiu looks at is good, but thin many, the chest followed slightly a cover cup.” 胡正道说:“子秋看着挺好的,不过瘦了不少,胸都跟着小了一个罩杯。” Li Mu hears the brow straight wrinkle, Hu Zhengdao hastily saying: „Do not misunderstand, this was Yanan tells me.” 李牧听得眉头直皱,胡正道急忙说道:“别误会啊,这是雅楠跟我说的。” Li Mu nods gently, has not spoken again. 李牧轻轻点了点头,没再说话。 ...... …… At this time, the before hospital bed of hospital, Wang Yanan Mother heavy has gone off, Wang Yanan and Zhao Ziqiu are sitting near the hospital bed, Mother that on the Wang Yanan eye red looks at bed falls asleep, her entire body, the face the obvious swollen, the complexion is quite particularly ugly, side the neck also including the indwelling catheter that the long-term dialysis is using, looks at is somewhat alarmed. 此时,医院的病床前,王雅楠妈妈已经沉沉睡去,王雅楠和赵子秋正坐在病床边,王雅楠眼睛通红的看着床上睡着的妈妈,她整个身体,尤其是面部已经明显浮肿,脸色相当难看,脖子侧面还连着长期透析所使用的留置导管,看着有些触目惊心。 Every so often, Wang Yanan will stare at sleeping soundly Mother to be in a daze like the present, when she will remember the Mother health appearance, to remember the family of three initially the happy day, will remember that heard from father, does not know he avoids creditors everywhere, there is producing a guilt at heart, or how has to remember Mother and present to pass. 很多时候,王雅楠会像现在这样盯着熟睡的妈妈发呆,她会想起妈妈健康时的样子、会想起一家三口当初和和美美的日子,也会想起那个已经杳无音讯的爸爸,不知道他四处躲债的时候,有没有在心里产生一丝愧疚,或者有没有想起妈妈和自己现在过得怎么样。 Thinks family/home well turns into now this, Wang Yanan is imploring the heaven to make all these like one nightmare at heart, after oneself wake up vanishes does not see, is only, such desire permits not possibly were innumerable, actually at all effective. 一想到好好的家变成现在这样,王雅楠就在心里祈求老天让这一切如同一场噩梦一般,在自己醒来之后就消失不见,只是,这样的愿望许了无数次,却根本不可能灵验。 Zhao Ziqiu one and sheds two lines of tears that glimpses Wang Yanan to keep silent, cannot bear put out a hand to grasp with her hand in the same place, the comfort said in a low voice: „Do not cry, matter will certainly have the favorable turn, you are so always pessimistic, if the aunt saw, feared at heart will be more uncomfortable.” 赵子秋一眼瞥见王雅楠默不作声的又流下两行眼泪,忍不住伸出手去和她的手握在一起,低声安慰道:“别哭了,事情一定会有转机的,你总这么悲观,阿姨要是看到,心里怕是会更难受。” Wang Yanan nods gently, puts out a hand to dash away the tears, said in a soft voice: „I was used to it, often bewildered class/flow tears.” 王雅楠轻轻点点头,伸手擦去眼泪,轻声说道:“我都习惯了,动不动就莫名其妙的流眼泪。” Zhao Ziqiu shows a faint smile, said: „Or you lie are resting a while, my Aunt looks at.” 赵子秋微微一笑,说:“要不你趴着睡一会儿吧,我看着阿姨。” Wang Yanan said: „I am not sleepy, you first rest the meeting.” 王雅楠说:“我不困,你先睡会吧。” Zhao Ziqiu smiles: „But I am not sleepy.” 赵子秋笑了笑:“可我也不困。” Just said, in the pocket the cell phone shook two, Zhao Ziqiu hastily pulled out to come to see one, later on unemotional cell phone stopper. 刚说完,兜里手机震了两下,赵子秋急忙掏出来看了一眼,随后就面无表情的把手机塞了回去。 Wang Yanan asked her: „Is Xu Jiahui?” 王雅楠问她:“又是许嘉辉？” Zhao Ziqiu nods has not spoken. 赵子秋点了点头却没有说话。 Wang Yanan smiles: „He also is really very dedicated, how many information does a day send to you?” 王雅楠笑了笑说:“他还真是挺执着的,一天给你发多少条信息？” Zhao Ziqiu said: „Has not counted, being disinclined counts.” 赵子秋说:“没数过,也懒得数。” Wang Yanan said: „Others care about you, you also reply others occasionally, even if the politeness, cannot be so indifferent.” 王雅楠说:“人家这么关心你,你偶尔也回复人家一下,哪怕是出于礼貌,也不能这么冷漠呀。” Zhao Ziqiu said: „He wants not to care about me, really works as the friend same occasionally the spiral spring information, I will definitely return to him, key he......” 赵子秋说:“他要别这么关心我,真当朋友一样偶尔发条信息,我肯定会回他,关键他……” Wang Yanan understands the meaning in Zhao Ziqiu words, shook the head saying: „Others to you are also a sincerity, moreover his condition is so also good, you leave are so always tenacious.” 王雅楠明白赵子秋话里的意思,摇头说:“人家对你也是一片真心,而且他条件又那么好,你别总是这么固执。” Zhao Ziqiu asked her: „What if he pursues is you, what to do you? Will you respond him?” 赵子秋问她:“如果他追的是你,你怎么办？你会搭理他吗？” Wang Yanan wants not to think, said: „I definitely do not respond him, I have Hu Zhengdao, was content.” 王雅楠想也没想,说:“我肯定不搭理他,我已经有了胡正道,知足了。” Zhao Ziqiu said: „I have others, cannot install him.” 赵子秋说:“我心里也有别人,装不下他。” Wang Yanan knows others who she said are Li Mu, but asked her: „Even if has others at heart, cannot think of another person, installs more than message Ah?” 王雅楠知道她说的别人是李牧,不过还是问她:“就算心里有别人,装不下另外一个人,难道还装不下一条短信啊？” Zhao Ziqiu said earnestly: „Cannot install, let alone a message, a character cannot install.” 赵子秋认真的说:“装不下,别说一条短信,一个字都装不下。” Wang Yanan gawked staring, didn't expect is so long, Zhao Ziqiu to the Li Mu difficult shed half a point, unable to bear at heart as before sighs one lightly, said: „But the Li Mu present situation you are also clear, why not to see through, the Xu Jiahui person is good, you can try to be together with him, perhaps will like on.” 王雅楠愣了愣,没想到过了这么久,赵子秋心里依旧对李牧难舍半分,忍不住轻叹一声,说:“可李牧现在的情况你也清楚,何不看开一点呢,许嘉辉人挺好的,你可以试着跟他相处一下,没准会喜欢上呢。” Zhao Ziqiu said: „I also calculate that very can see through, therefore I will not consider that is trying being together with Xu Jiahui, I before knowing Li Mu have not prepared to be in love in university, now does not prepare.” 赵子秋说:“我还算挺看得开的,所以我才不会考虑跟许嘉辉试着相处,我在认识李牧以前就没准备在大学里谈恋爱,现在就更不准备了。” In Zhao Ziqiu at heart, some positions in specific that person to the life retain, even if he cannot, in own side, even if he accompanies side others, oneself will not make others replace him in the position, person returning alive long time, oneself are also only 19 years old, oneself believe oneself and others, even the process of this waiting is long and pain.( To be continued.) 在赵子秋的心里,有些位置就是给生命中特定的那个人保留的,即便他没能在自己身边、即便他陪伴在别人身旁,自己也绝不会让其他人去取代他在自己心里的位置,人生还久,自己也才只是十九岁而已,自己坚信自己等得起,即便这个等待的过程漫长而又痛苦。(未完待续。)