The disaster can sometimes be lofty...... 灾难本身有时候会是崇高的吗…… Why must ask that this issue, this is measuring anything...... 为什么要问这个问题,这到底是在测着什么…… Gu Jun is looking at the front five syndics, that five face are twisting slightly, the air resembles in appraisal room is also combining decayed aura, making him a little unable to breathe, the pressure continually rises, rise, rise. 顾俊望着前方的五个评审员,那五张面孔似在微微扭曲,评审室里的空气也像混杂着一股腐臭的气息,让他有点呼吸不过来,压力不断地上升,上升,上升。 In making mental test third day, after making the development meters of these babies and infants, Gu Jun understands that this comprehensive review is not simple. 早在做智力测验的第三天,做了那些婴幼儿的发展量表后,顾俊就明白这次的全面评审没那么简单。 And realized the strategy of syndicate, brings internal high pressure on him, making his psychological defense line disintegrate by oneself...... 并且意识到了评审团的策略,对他施加内部高压,使他的心理防线由自己瓦解…… Perhaps, this strategy is indeed effective, after these 12 days, of his heart is hot-tempered chaotically has soon made to emerge firmly. 也许,这种策略的确是有效的,经过这十二天,他心底的那股躁乱已经快要挣出笼牢。 He deeply inspires, the sinking sound said: 他深吸一口气,沉声说道: „ Edmund Burke believes, can stimulate the human in any way the thing of pain and dangerous concept, can be frightening in some form, is the lofty origins. You should be clear about this point, lofty originally in human has the powerful emotion appears. But the fear is most primitive and most powerful emotion that human can feel. For example the death, the untimely death association/will of celebrity made people feel lofty, subsequently celebrity deification of untimely death. “埃德蒙-伯克认为,能以某种方式激发人类的痛苦和危险观念的东西,也就是能以某种形式令人恐惧的,都是崇高的来源。你们应该清楚这一点,崇高本来就在人类产生强烈的情感时出现。而恐惧是人类能感受到的最原始、最强烈的情感。比如死亡,名人的英年早逝总会使人们感受到一种崇高,继而把英年早逝的名人神化。 Therefore you asked, the disaster does have to me stimulates the lofty feeling? I thought that this is an idle talk, has, definitely has, every catastrophe is frightening and fills unknown, does not have the means to control, this will certainly have the lofty feeling. This like the disaster movie of judgment day theme, often can lay out the broad subject and ideal condition. Just, do not misunderstand my attitude, I from the catastrophe felt that lofty is the human nature makes it so, this does not represent me to like the disaster, does not represent me to want the disaster. 所以你们问,灾难有没有给我激发崇高感？我觉得这是个废话,有,肯定有,凡是大灾难都令人恐惧、充满着未知、没办法掌控,这当然会有崇高感。这就像世界末日题材的灾难电影,往往能拍出恢弘的主题和意境。只不过,你们不要误会我的态度,我从大灾难中感到崇高是人性使然,这可不代表我喜欢灾难,更不代表我想要灾难。 I fear it, therefore I felt that it is lofty. ” 我恐惧它,所以我才感觉它崇高。” The one breath said these words, Gu Jun heart is hot-tempered the chaotic feeling to weaken, thinks Wu Shiyu, thinks other relatives and friends, calm...... 一口气说完了这番话,顾俊心头的躁乱感有所减弱,想一想吴时雨,想一想其他的亲友,冷静…… Five syndics have not interrupted his words, has not made the record, but staring is observing him. 五位评审员没有打断他的话,也没作笔录,只是凝视地观察着他。 After he said that they also have not spoken the appraisal, stopped for several seconds, Zhai Minghui asked the next question: „After you contact the supernatural thing, do these 2-3 years, when have, you felt that the external force can control your thought? Especially external force from unusual characters world?” 在他说完之后,他们亦没有出言评价,停顿了几秒,翟明晖就问出下一个问题:“在你重新接触超自然事物后,这2-3年来,有没有什么时候,你感觉外力能控制你的思想？尤其是来自异文世界的外力？” Gu Jun is listening, that is hot-tempered the surges to come up randomly immediately...... 顾俊听着,那躁乱顿时又翻腾上来…… As if, as if, indistinct, has another sound to speak: 仿佛,似乎,隐隐约约,有另一股声音在说话: They want to know, you are you ; They want to know, you are actually a puppet ; They want to know, has the line that your oneself cannot even see to manipulate you ; They want to know, you are a person, is anything...... 他们想知道,你是不是你;他们想知道,你其实是不是一个傀儡;他们想知道,是不是有着连你自己都看不到的线在操纵着你;他们想知道,你到底是人,还是什么东西…… They, not only here syndic, higher authority these people, many people, feels the discontented person about your two people's free medical services plans...... 他们,不只是这里的评审员,还有上级那些人,很多人,对你的两界全民免费医疗方案感到不满的人…… „It is not, 4 points.” The Gu Jun sound has become hoarse, saw that five syndic faces twist, also or is his own line of sight is twisting, „has many external forces to try to control my thought that I have experienced many times......, but lets the words that I determine, I think obtained has not so far succeeded......” “不是,四分。”顾俊的声音已变沙哑,看到那五张评审员面孔扭曲得更甚,又或者是他自己的视线在扭曲,“有很多外力试图控制我的思想,我经历过很多次……但是让我自己来判定的话,我觉得到目前为止还没有成功的……” Right, you think itself not by any external force control thought that even affects your thought. 是吗,你认为自己没被任何外力控制思想,甚至影响你的思想。 Is this but possible? Places in this world, various cultures, various knowledge, various ideology...... everyone was affected. 可是这怎么可能？身处于这个世界,各种文化,各种知识,各种意识形态……每个人都被影响。 Without so-called pure, absolute purely is the blank, molds the self- process is a affected process...... 没有所谓纯粹的自我,绝对的纯粹是空白,塑造自我的过程就是一个被影响的过程…… If the external force told you some not to accommodate in the viewpoint of common custom, that did try to control you even? To find out by secret inquiry the truth, needs to listen respectfully to and ponder various viewpoints, even if you thought from the beginning that viewpoint simply is absurd...... 如果外力只是告诉了你一些不容于世俗的观点,那就算是试图控制你了吗？想探知真理,就需要聆听和思考各种观点,哪怕一开始你觉得那种观点简直是荒谬至极…… The criterion that many you take as a model today is also considered as...... human simply not to understand any eternally unchanging thought from the beginning absurdly...... 很多你今天奉为圭臬的准则一开始也被认为是荒谬至极……人类根本没有掌握着什么永恒不变的思想…… „Chief Gu, rests for 5 minutes, drinks a water.” At this time, Zhai Minghui said. “顾队长,休息五分钟,喝点水吧。”这时候,翟明晖说道。 The interrogation wants skillful, cannot exert pressure constantly, sometimes also needs to ease up the atmosphere. 审讯要有技巧,不能一味施压,有时候也需要缓和气氛。 Now the Gu Jun complexion becomes very ugly, that look even as if revealed that the hostility, conformed to the appraisal principle of moderate rest. 现在顾俊的面色变得很难看,那种眼神甚至似乎表露出了敌意,符合缓和休息的评审原则。 Before these 12 days, Gu Jun coordinated, replied replied, the rest rested. 之前这十二天,顾俊都非常配合,回答就回答,休息就休息。 But at present, Gu Jun mute sound said: „Does not use, continue, you want to ask anything, asked......” 但眼下,顾俊哑声道:“不用,继续吧,你们想问什么,就问……” Each syndic has to have the earphone, their conduct must obey the control station that side director. Perhaps resulted in the direction, Zhai Minghui also said: „Good. Only by the talent, you thinks that lives the meeting, R'lyeh Mission and Dagon esoteric buddhism and other evil organizations to train holy child of one talent like you, is whether difficult, is rare?” 每位评审员都有戴着耳机,他们的行事也要听调度台那边指挥的。许是得了指挥,翟明晖又道:“那好。只论天赋,你认为莱生会、拉莱耶教团、大衮密教等邪组织要培养出一个像你这样天赋的灵童,是否非常难,非常稀罕？” „Yes.” Gu Jun is even more low and deep, „5 points. I am accidentally, I rejoiced very much they can train one difficultly.” “是。”顾俊越发低沉,“五分。我是个偶然,我很庆幸他们这么难才能培养一个。” „You think whether your such particularity, does attract Nyarlathotep's attention?” “你认为是否正是你这样的特殊性,吸引到奈亚拉托提普的注意？” The Gu Jun brow twists, several blue veins appear intermittently in the pale face, „is, 3 points...... I have the particularity......” 顾俊眉头一拧,几道青筋在苍白的脸庞隐现,“是,三分……我有着特殊性……” With oneself this words, in the heart has anything to be getting more and more clear, about this comprehensive review true intention, about having anything. 随着自己这话语,心中有什么越来越清晰,关于这次全面评审真正的用意,关于发生着什么事情。 That five face of syndic, almost turns an vortex. 那五张评审员的面孔,几乎都是扭成了一个漩涡。 He flashed through the luxurious scenes of these charity dinners, flashes through uncle who the street sets up a stall, stray dog of trembling, when flashes through the new legionnaires'disease the hospital corridor that was filled with the praying for rescue patient, flashes through in Chi the appearance and Xue Ba appearance, flashes through these lost/carrying choice consciousness fragment, flashes through the human body different banyan fig...... 他心里闪过了那些慈善晚宴的奢华景象,闪过街头摆摊的老伯,瑟瑟发抖的流浪狗,闪过新军团病时那条挤满了求救病人的医院走廊,闪过于驰的面目、薛霸的面目,闪过那些负选择意识碎片,闪过人体异榕树…… These things, are pulling him, he felt that oneself is also twisting. 这些事物,正在拉扯着他,他感觉自己也在扭曲。 Suddenly at this time, Zhai Minghui voice conveyed again, one jabbed into his heart like a sharp blade fiercely, the dripping with blood. 骤然这个时候,翟明晖的声音再度传来,像一把利刃猛地一下刺进他的心脏,鲜血淋漓。 „You believe whether because of your birth, making live to establish the one special connection of Earth world and unusual characters world, thus caused to become in the Earth world with the unusual characters world related unusual strength more active? And therefore attracts other dark strengths the vision and interest?” “你认为,是否因为你的降世,使莱生会建立起了地球世界和异文世界的一种特殊连系,从而使与异文世界相关的异常力量在地球世界变得更活跃？并因此吸引到另外一些黑暗力量的目光和兴趣？” The Gu Jun heart rapid pain must unable to ventilate, as if poured into 1 million tons muddy thing. 顾俊的心脏迅速痛得透不过气来,仿佛灌入了百万吨的混浊之物。 The spacious gray surroundings resemble are revolving, indoor, actually bone-chilling wind. 空旷花白的周围似在旋转,室内,却寒风刺骨。 Were they you drew on the disaster in the suspicion, was you make this world fall into misfortunes...... 他们在怀疑是不是你招来了灾祸,是不是你使这个世界陷入了一次次的不幸…… However is really only this? Is anything lets you, above lets feel uneasy...... 不过真的只是这样吗？是什么让你这个人,让上面这么感觉不安…… Is was worried that you attract to come the disaster, was worried that you lose the control, their controls...... 是担心你把灾难吸引而来,还是担心你失去控制,他们的控制…… Gu Jun, you become incredible, even if you made so many, sacrificed so many, you still became incredible...... 顾俊,你变得不可信了,即使你做了那么多,牺牲了那么多,你也变得不可信了…… With a wish to incriminate, has no lack of a pretext...... the shortsighted high-ranking functionarie, cannot the far reaching plans...... 欲加之罪,何患无辞……肉食者鄙,未能远谋…… However, engages in introspection, their anxieties not groundless? You can determine really not because of you, Child of Misfortune? 但是,扪心自问,他们的疑虑全无道理吗？你能确定真的不是因为你吗,厄运之子？ „Chief Gu, please answer this issue.” “顾队长,请回答这个问题。” The reply, replied, replied, proves your oneself, proof. 回答,回答,回答,证明你自己,证明啊。 „I......” Gu Jun breathed slightly the playing rough air/Qi, the lungs look like more and more am stopping up, „I do not know that...... really did not know......” “我……”顾俊微微喘动粗气,肺部越来越像堵塞着了,“我不知道……真不知道……” That five syndic faces, all an indifference, the sound spreads probably: „That is situated in both, please grade.” 那五张评审员面孔,好像全都一片冷漠,声音又从中传出:“那算是介于两者之间,请你评分。” Suddenly all of a sudden, inexplicable roaring flame from being hot-tempered chaotically to jump to well up, almost must embezzle him. 骤然一下子,一股莫名的烈焰从躁乱中迸涌而出,几乎要把他吞没。 „I do not know!” Gu Jun felt own whole body shakes, stood from the chair, „these days to ask this question...... makes so many examinations, wastes so many time, this can do many other work! We do not have so many time to waste here......” “我不知道！”顾俊感到自己浑身发震,不由从椅子站了起来,“这些天就为了问这个问题是吗……做这么多测验,浪费这么多时间,这本来能做多少别的工作！我们没有这么多时间可以浪费在这里……” That sound was also anxious immediately, „Chief Gu, calm, pays attention to your rational monitor stone to warn!” 那声音也顿时急了,“顾队长,冷静,注意你的理性监测石在示警！” Near appraisal table these person's shadows stood, had the action personnel of holding a spear/gun from surroundings half step racing to come, mysterious incantation technique personnel. 评审桌边的那些人影都站起来了,有持枪的行动人员从周围快步地奔来,还有玄秘咒术人员。 Rational monitor stone? Gu Jun shot a look at rational monitor stone that wears in the left wrist, saw probably is red luminous, becomes a more intense red light rapidly...... 理性监测石？顾俊瞥了戴在左手腕的理性监测石一眼,好像看到有红光亮起,迅速变得更强烈的红光…… The strength of the mortal can understand does the dark strength...... exceed, can control? 黑暗力量吗……还是超越了凡人能理解的、能掌控的力量？ Gu Jun, they will not listen your. On you this, no one will listen now your, the arrogant greedy upper layer, the simple-minded weak timid lower level, will not listen to you to say......, only if you have a stronger strength, making the strength that they obey...... make your words have the strength...... 顾俊,他们不会听你的。就你现在这样,没有人会听你的,傲慢贪婪的上层,愚弱畏怯的下层,都不会听你说……除非你拥有更强的力量,让他们服从的力量……让你的话语具有力量…… The new legionnaires'disease is the daybreak of new times, is the giant transition...... the human history is war history, will be plague history...... the new legionnaires'disease will remould the world...... 新军团病是新时代的黎明,是巨大的转折……人类历史是战争史,也是瘟疫史……新军团病将重塑世界…… The misfortune is fair, the vanquisher worm does not divide in any case, no matter which class, keeps aloof, gets rid of mud the dust, the misfortune can arrive suddenly. 厄运是公平的,征服者蠕虫不分贵贱,不管是哪个阶层,是高高在上,还是地下泥尘,厄运都可以突然降临。 The difference accomplishes the pain, the difference accomplishes the disease, is choosing, lost/carrying choice, the tie, cannot eliminate the difference, is unable to eliminate the disease. 差异造就痛苦,差异造就疾病,正选择,负选择,平局,不能消灭差异,就无法消灭疾病。 This world is sick, this civilization is sick...... 这个世界有病,这个文明有病…… These viewpoints, you can not approve, you can change this world from your viewpoint, you can have a bigger strength. 这些观点,你可以不认同,你可以以自己的观点去改变这个世界,你可以拥有更大的力量。 You loathe Nyarlathotep, loathes Nicolas, but has the strength in universe, not only these...... 你厌恶奈亚拉托提普,厌恶莎布-尼古拉斯,但存在于宇宙中的力量,不只是这些…… You had not realized that you insist the body of mortal, but was a stubborn inertia. 你还没意识到吗,你坚持凡人之躯,只不过是一种顽固的惯性而已了。 In order to persist in insisting, ignorant insistence, numb insisted...... 为了坚持而坚持,蒙昧的坚持,麻木的坚持…… „Chief Gu, please note, we will make old seal to you!” “顾队长,请注意,我们将向你打出旧印！” Appraises in the room to have the alarm sound to get up, all around sound of footsteps are more is quicker, one team of personnel have surrounded solid him, the electric shock spear/gun, rifle and old stone for lithographing, have. 评审室里有警报声起,四周的脚步声更多更快,一队人员已经把他包围严实,电击枪、步枪、旧印石,都有。 Periphery Gu Jun looks at the tense people, the line of sight as if can penetrate them, saw that the following shadow fills the air. 顾俊看着周围紧张的众人,视线似乎可以透过他们,看到后面黑影弥漫。 Entire open and spacious appraisal room, like melting another place, does not know that is which space, which dimension. 整个旷阔的评审室,像消融成了另一个地方,不知道是哪个空间,哪个维度。 Fills the air in the darkness that comes to have forms, dim, drags, big, is in sight him, is speaking to him: 弥漫而来的黑暗中有一道道的身影,朦胧,摇曳,高大,在望着他,在对他说话: „Gu Jun, our former days rulers have a devil seat to prepare to you. Above the cognition of human, has a greater deep meaning.” “顾俊,我们的旧日支配者已经有一个恶魔席位给你准备好了。在人类的认知之上,有着更伟大的奥义。”