PD :: Volume #4

#354: Signal or auditory hallucination

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In the silent suite bedroom, the headache intensifies, the cold sweat on Gu Jun forehead is also gradually increasing, heard a sound in the darkness probably. 寂静的套房卧室里,头痛加剧,顾俊额头上的冷汗也在渐增,在黑暗中好像听到了一个声音。 This sound seems like from the old-style tape recorder passes on, humming sound rustle, a little off and on, is a vigorous male voice, is speaking in a steady tone, is the standard Chinese, „, if you can hear...... us...... are the good person......” 这声音像是从旧式录音机里传出来的,嗡嗡沙沙,有点断续,是一把浑厚中正的男声,以一种平稳的语气说着话,是标准的中文,“如果你能听到……我们……是好人……” No matter how he endures suffering listens with rapt attention, is this, can only hear this...... 不管他如何忍痛凝神去听,还是这一句,只能听到这一句…… This does not seem like some people to talk with him, seems like plants the broadcast signal, but others cannot hear but he heard. 这似乎不是有人在与他对话,似乎是种广播信号,只是别人听不到而他听到了。 „......, if you......” “……如果你……” , The Gu Jun head is fiercely painful quickly arrives at the critical point, that sound is also dissolving gradually, he opens the eye, breathes in gulps. 猛地一下,顾俊脑袋痛得快到临界点,那声音也在渐渐隐去,他就睁开眼睛,大口大口地呼吸起来。 Before he heard the external strange sound the number of times is too many, some were the spirit instills into, some were the incantation technique and ceremony strength, but this feeling different...... this time he felt intuitively is, oneself heard some broadcast signal. 以前他听到外来怪异声音的次数太多了,有的是精神灌输,有的是咒术和仪式力量,但这次的感觉都不一样……这次他最直观的感觉就是,自己听到了某种广播信号。 „Signal? Signal that who sends out? What goal has?” “信号？谁发出的信号？有什么目的？” Gu Jun is thinking, can listen to some clue from these words. 顾俊思索着,从这句话还是能听出一些端倪的。 The first point, „, if you can”, the opposite party think that he may be unable to hear ; This was not to him said that but was the broadcast. 第一点,“如果你能”,对方认为他有可能听不到;或者这本来就不是对他一个人说的,而是广播。 Second, „we”, the opposite party is not a person, but is an organization, moreover what uses is Chinese, as if internally. 第二点,“我们”,对方不是一个人,而是一个组织,而且用的是中文,似乎就在国内。 The third point, „good person”, the opposite party stressed, explained the listener of preinstall looks people like him, will hear first thinks that the opposite party will be good is bad, and will favor therefore the unprincipled person. If that is what classics old song channel and weather channel, no reason begins with such words. 第三点,“好人”,对方这么强调,说明预设的收听者是像他这样的人,一听到就会先想对方是好是坏,并且会倾向于是坏人。假如那是什么经典老歌频道、天气频道,就没什么理由用这么句话来开头。 Naturally these words can also be the opposite party design intentionally, to let him has this speculation. 当然这句话也可以是对方故意设计的,就是为了让他有这番推测。 Gu Jun is looking all around the silent surroundings, only feels the shadow numerous, good person? He quite suspected, even can say that almost does not believe. 顾俊环顾着寂静的周围,只觉得阴影重重,好人？他对此相当怀疑,甚至可以说几乎一点都不相信。 He does not know that this is only to his passes message on the broadcast that he hears, but is capable of making the organization of this matter, how many does the world have? The secret bureau cannot accomplish, fbm these cannot accomplish. Before he and salty rain, has passed on the picture actually successfully, is actually not this. 他不知道这是只对他的传音还是就他听到的广播,但有能力做这种事情的组织,全球有多少？天机局办不到,fbm那些也办不到。他和咸雨以前倒是成功传过图片,却也不是这样。 If the honest organization, has such ability, why had such many matters not to stand? 如果是正派组织,有着这样的能力,发生了这么多事为什么不站出来？ The secret bureau appeared on the market, goa to announce that established did not come out? Is this also a good person? Now where? 天机局都面世了、goa都宣布建立了也不出来？这也算是好人吗？现在又在哪里？ Gu Jun wrinkles the brow, thinks of another possibility suddenly, from the future or the past signal? No, like, is not this feeling...... 顾俊皱动眉头,忽而想到另一个可能性,来自未来或过去的信号？不,不像,不是这种感觉…… Then signal from extraterrestrial? Signal from different? Imaginary dreamland? 那来自外星的信号？来自异界的信号？幻梦境？ Is the simplest direct that possibility, behind the signal is one group of chop suey, is doing is not knowing anything's schemes and tricks. 还是最简单直接的那个可能,信号背后的就是一帮杂碎,又在搞着不知道什么的阴谋诡计。 Because knows that he thinks, emphasized are what good person, must create what better new times new world. 就因为知道他会这么想,才强调说自己是什么好人,要创造什么更好的新时代新世界。 „Who are you?” “你们是谁？” Gu Jun thought a meeting, stands up, toward the surrounding air speech, looking at the opposite party can therefore surface. 顾俊想了一会,还是站起身来,朝着周围的空气说话,看对方会不会因而浮出水面。 „Good person? Is good person who you think, your moral standards are different from us.” “好人？是你们自己认为的好人吧,你们的道德标准可是跟我们不同的。” He said while takes a walk, and is paying attention to the surroundings, pulls out the nightstand drawer to look, opens the closet to look, thought aloud that is saying: „R'lyeh Mission? I know that you have not died certainly, lived to meet these people to offer sacrifices oneself, but some of your also bastards hid, in does not know that in which remote mountain, ‚did not refuse stubbornly to extinguish old Daoist who’ to summon R'lyeh with your chief that anything together......” 他一边说一边走动,并留意着周围,拉出床头柜抽屉看一下,又打开衣柜看一下,自言自语地说着:“拉莱耶教团？我知道你们还没有死绝,莱生会那些人把自己都献祭了,可你们还有些王八蛋躲在不知道哪座深山里面,跟你们的头子那个什么‘不死不灭的老道人’在一起呼唤着拉莱耶……” „The yellow clothes fraternity...... is Mr. Wilde you, you have not actually died, is this......” “还有黄衣兄弟会……是王尔德先生你吗,你其实还没死是吗,是这样吗……” Is thinking these, is saying these, the Gu Jun headache intensifies again rapidly, the heart also therefore a little twitches, simultaneously the whole body muscle feels uncomfortable. 想着这些,说着这些,顾俊的头痛再度迅速加剧,心脏也因此有点抽动,同时浑身的肌肉发紧。 These symptoms let his anger, now thinks these unusual thing this types continually...... 这些症状更让他一阵愤怒,现在连想一想这些异常事物都这个样…… At this time, his heart flashed through some inexplicable fearful imagination pictures, the city changed into the smiling face of ruins and Wu Shiyu to change into the pitiful condition, to have others...... 这时候,他心底又闪过一些莫名可怕的想象画面,城市化为废墟、吴时雨的笑脸化为惨状、还有其他人…… Thinks slightly, he grieved such as has sheared. 只是这么稍微想了想,他就已经心痛如割。 „!!” Gu Jun shouted the sound, tramples to that wooden closet that does not have the unusual trace, immediately bang bang, closet vibration. “啊！！”顾俊不禁嘶吼了声,一脚踹向那个毫无异常痕迹的木衣柜,顿时砰嘭一声,衣柜震动不已。 He deeply inspires, is controlling own mood strongly, controls the symptom of this ptsd angry eruption...... eventually is, was unable to accept such physical condition, could not accept the person who was incapable of protecting itself to care about, even an opportunity did not have diligently...... 他深吸一口气,竭力控制着自己的情绪,控制这种ptsd愤怒爆发的症状……自己终究是,还没能接受这样的身体状况,接受不了无力保护自己在乎的人,甚至连努力一把的机会都没有…… „You must be able to hear, that listens to the turning back bedside that......” he is muttering to sit down, „, no matter you are good are bad, I have abandoned, without the means hears......” “你们要能听到,那就听着……”他喃喃的走回床边坐下,“不管你们是好是坏,我已经废了,没办法听到更多……” He changes mind thinks, this also makes him puzzled. 他转念一想,这也让他困惑。 The goal of opposite party where? Pushes to crazily me? Even I like this, but can also make to be insane thoroughly I? 对方的目的何在？把我推向疯狂？即使我这样了,还要彻底弄疯我？ ...... A moment ago were these real? Is my auditory hallucination and imagination? 只是……刚才那些是真的吗？或者就是我的幻听、想象而已？ Before Gu Jun, usually can branch out the genuine and fake, but this time is unascertainable, does not know that has lost such ability, this itself/Ben is so special. 顾俊以前通常是可以分出真假的,但这次还是不能确定,不知是已经失去那样的能力,还是这次本就是如此特殊。 Possibly the reason was he could not find the rule that this different feeling presented that was different from the general triggering rule of illusion, general that now this presents probably randomly. 可能有一个原因是他找不到这种异感出现的规律,不同于幻象的一般触发规律,现在这像是随机出现的一般。 If is really the ptsd outbreak, he not strange...... 如果真的是ptsd发作,他并不奇怪…… Gu Jun sits in the bedside for a long time, thinks to smile bitterly suddenly, is content, living the present was really gains, not only previous injury, two years ago also prepared death because of the brain tumor, now is not worse than at that time. 顾俊坐在床边许久,想着想着忽然苦笑起来,知足吧,活到现在真的是赚到了,不只是先前的伤势,两年前还因为脑肿瘤而做好死亡的准备呢,现在还不比当时糟糕。 Although enlarged false, may leave secret bureau also few days after all, must return usually to live is not easy. 虽然放大假了,可毕竟离开天机局还没有几天,要回到平常生活没那么容易。 This like the soldier who retires from the battlefield, no matter there is diagnosis ptsd, always needs a process of return...... 这就像从战场退役下来的士兵,不管有没有确诊ptsd,总需要一个回归的过程…… Perhaps the present stage eats anti- despondently, antianxietic, is good to oneself. 也许现阶段吃点抗抑郁、抗焦虑药物,对自己是有好处的。 Gu Jun thought a meeting, although has favored that sound is the auditory hallucination rate of auditory hallucination ptsd patient is 40-50, he takes the cell phone to hit to Master Tong that side, reported this situation: „Possibly who or the organization in the dissemination signal, I worried that this is a repertoire of recruitment personnel.” 顾俊又想了一会,尽管已经倾向于那个声音是幻听ptsd患者的幻听发生率为40-50,他还是拿手机打给通爷那边,报告了这一情况:“可能有谁或者组织在散播信号,我担心这是一种招收人员的套路。” In view of other his goals, is his illness or not, after Master Tong hears, attaches great importance to, but did not have this matter except for him over the two days. 无论是针对他还是其它目的、是他的病症与否,通爷听闻后都十分重视,不过这两天来除了他没有出这种事。 „A'Jun, our here will follow up well, has any new situation to tell you immediately.” Master Tong said, „the present time, you did not pay attention to rest early.” “阿俊,我们这边会好好跟进,有什么新情况马上告诉你。”通爷说,“现在时间不早了,你注意休息。” Indeed completed this report, the time to early morning, but Gu Jun some head very painfully swollens. 的确做完这个报告,时间都到凌晨了,而顾俊的脑袋很有些胀痛。 Therefore after tying a string puts down the cell phone, he hurries toward the bed on to lie down, the deep breath adjustment aura, forces itself to go to sleep in the chaotic train of thought. 所以挂线放下手机后,他赶紧往床上躺好,深呼吸调整气息,在纷乱的思绪中强迫自己入睡。
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