From starts, she realised that her own life was not like those of others? 是从什么时候开始,她意识到自己的人生与其他人不同的呢？ Her childhood, passed in the folk. 她的童年,是在民间度过的。 Realized for the first time oneself are different from others, probably is three -year-old time. 第一次意识到自己跟他人不同,大概是三岁的时候吧。 Looks that the children of other neighbor families/home play outside, she was ordered not to allow to go out. 看着其他邻居家的孩子在外面玩耍,她却被勒令不允许出门。 That wet nurse surnamed Feng said, this is because her status and they are different. 那位姓冯的奶娘说,这是因为她的身份与他们不同。 Status? What is the status? 身份？什么是身份？ Does everyone has differently what? 难道大家有什么不同吗？ She does not know, at that time she only had an idea, if can some people rescue that small shackles to be good her. 她不知道,那时候她只有一个想法,如果能有人把她救出那小小的牢笼就好了。 Realized for the second time oneself and other person of differences, similarly is three years old, that is her first looking in a mirror. 第二次意识到自己与其他人不同,同样是三岁,那是她第一次照镜子。 In the pale yellow bronze mirror, looks at that 3000 rounds of silk all snow color small person, she very strange are why different from the hair colors of others. 昏黄的铜镜中,看着那个三千发丝皆雪色的小小的人儿,她很奇怪自己为什么与其他人的发色不同。 The wet nurses said, this is the hair color that in the world most honored person can have. 奶娘说,这是天底下最尊贵的人才能拥有的发色。 She does not know that honored what the white hair has, aren't family's senior steward old grandmothers the white hair? 她不知道白发有什么尊贵的,家里的老管家老阿嬷不也是白发吗？ Realized for the third time oneself and other person of differences, is four years old. 第三次意识到自己与其他人不同,是四岁。 On that day, she sat in the courtyard, is listening to the full Chang'an cheers, calmly was in a daze. 那一天,她坐在院子里,听着满长安的欢呼声,静静发呆。 The wet nurses told her, this was the emperor turns over the throne to another, the new sovereign to ascend the throne, later must live well, do not go out. 奶娘告诉她,这是皇帝禅让、新皇登基,以后要好好活着,千万不要出门。 Why? 为什么呢？ Everyone is very obviously happy, why can't I go out? 明明大家都很开心,为什么我不能出门呢？ Her similar idea, if can some people rescue this small shackles to be good her. 她还是同样一个想法,如果能有人把她救出这小小的牢笼就好了。 Realized for the fourth time oneself and other person of differences, is seven years old. 第四次意识到自己与其他人不同,是七岁。 That year, she was met the imperial palace, is waving to the wet nurse said goodbye, she had known, perhaps this was she sees the wet nurse for the last time. 那一年,她被接回了皇宫,挥着手与奶娘道别的时候,她已经知道了,这也许是她最后一次看见奶娘。 She had known oneself status. 她已经知道了自己的身份。 First Great Han Empress, presently Princess Ding’an’s daughter. 前大汉皇后、现定安公主的女儿。 Her father is an emperor, her maternal grandfather, is the emperor. 她的父亲是皇帝,她的外祖父,也是皇帝。 She starts cautiously is living. 她开始小心翼翼的活着。 imperial princes and princesses in palace has nothing to do with her, she also has no status, but was treated as the palace maid to raise in mother's room. 宫里的皇子皇女都与她无关,她也没有任何名分,只是被当做宫女养在母亲的居室里。 She knows before two father's younger brothers, by matter that the maternal grandfather forces suicide. 她知道了两位叔父以前被外祖父赐死的事情。 She also witnessed another uncle to be forced the suicide by the maternal grandfather with own eyes. 她也亲眼见证了另一位叔父被外祖父逼迫自杀。 Her only dependence, only has mother. 她唯一的依靠,就只有母亲。 If can some people rescue this Weiyang Palace to be good her. 如果能有人把她救出这未央宫就好了。 When Green Wood Army captured Chang'an that day, she is thinking: If can some people rescue the Chang'an city to be good her. 当绿林军攻入长安的那一天,她想着:如果能有人把她救出长安城就好了。 On that day, is her last day sees the wet nurse. 那一天,也是她最后一天见到奶娘。 The wet nurses replaced mother's status, dies in the Weiyang Palace self-immolation. 奶娘顶替了母亲的身份,在未央宫自焚而死。 She has not turned head, only wants to live. 她没有回头,只想活着。 Comes to the Luoyang suburbs, she was admitted to Stormglen. 来到洛阳城郊,她住进了风谷村。 The living condition missed compared with before, but she was very happy. 生活条件比以前差了很多,但她很开心。 The people live are being the pursue are relieved, here she is very relieved. 人活着就是追求安心,在这里她很安心。 Because can go on living. 因为可以活下去。 But that night, when originally gentle mother appearance fierce is pinching her neck, she understands, originally here cannot feel at ease as before. 可是那天晚上,当原本温柔的母亲面目狰狞的掐着她脖子的时候,她明白,原来这里依旧不能安心。 Ok, she lived is very being tired. 算了吧,她只是活着就已经很累了。 She gave up struggling. 她放弃了挣扎。 Final thought that if some people can rescue Stormglen to be good her. 最后的念头,如果有人能把她救出风谷村就好了。 Wakes up again, she discovered that she turned into the newly-born baby. 再次醒来,她发现自己变成了刚出生的婴儿。 Perhaps...... can welcome a new life? 也许......自己可以迎来一段新的人生？ But the side is lying down that woman, is her mother, making her drop this idea. 但身边躺着的那个女人,也就是她的母亲,让她打消了这个想法。 That white hair, that bosom, that face, she is familiar. 那头白发,那个怀抱,那张脸,她再熟悉不过。 That is mother's face. 那是母亲的脸。 16 years, she was imprisoned here for 16 years. 十六年,她在这里被囚禁了十六年。 Without the name, cannot go out. 没有名字,不能出门。 16 years later, in the altar, she was beheaded by mother. 十六年后,在祭坛上,她被母亲砍下了头。 Opens eyes again, she as before is a baby. 再次睁开眼,她依旧是婴儿。 Mother...... also that mother. 母亲......也还是那个母亲。 Village also that Stormglen. 村子也还是那个风谷村。 She has thought committing suicide. 她想过自尽。 Quite is but sore...... 可是好疼啊...... And, cannot die. 而且,死不了。 The mother said that this is the gracious gift also curses, only then the god can make them extricate, must therefore offer sacrifices she to try to please the god. 母亲说这是恩赐也是诅咒,只有神才能让他们解脱,所以要献祭她来取悦神。 16 years old, in the altar, she was burnt down dead. 十六岁,祭坛上,她被焚烧而死。 Opens eyes again, is the same mother, same Stormglen. 再度睁开眼,还是同样的母亲,同样的风谷村。 Stated differently, everyone's clothes changed much, moreover these person already not there that in the village knew. 不同的是,大家的穿着打扮变化了不少,而且原本村子里认识的那些人都已经不在了。 At this time she knows, had passed for hundred years. 这时候她才知道,原来已经过去了百年。 Therefore she thought of escaping. 于是她想到了逃跑。 She has been waiting for the opportunity. 她一直在等机会。 This first-grade, was in 1000. 这一等,就是一千年。 She died 20 times. 她又死了二十次。 By lightning strike, by drowning, by skinning, by piercing the heart, by beheading, by being burned...... 被雷劈、被水淹、被剥皮、被穿心、被斩首、被火烧...... Her undying nature is getting stronger and stronger, the time mother of offering sacrifices kills her method is also getting more and more cruel. 她的不死性越来越强,献祭的时候母亲杀她的方法也越来越残忍。 She has actively coordinated. 她一直都积极配合。 She is enduring patiently, she is waiting. 她在忍耐,她在等待。 Finally , mother relaxed gradually to her control. 终于,渐渐的,母亲放松了对她的管控。 She can the freedom wander in the village. 她可以自由在村子里游荡。 But everyone will not be close to her, the white hair is the unlucky star, this is their legends. 可是所有人都不会接近她,白头发是灾星,这是他们的传说。 Is mother intentionally the legend that spreads in the village. 是母亲故意在村里流传下来的传说。 No one will help her. 没有人会帮她。 But doesn't matter, she wants to flee. 但没关系,她只是想逃离。 Escaping from the village is very successful, on that day, she changed a homespun cloth men's wear, took several two silver slivers, by starlight escaped from the village. 逃出村子很成功,那一天,她换好一身粗布男装,带上几两碎银,趁着夜色逃出了村子。 Then looks changes small village gradually, she feels the happy mood for the second time. 回头看着渐渐变小的村子,她第二次感觉到开心的情绪。 But quick turned desperately. 可很快就变成了绝望。 Because she returned to the village. 因为她又回到了村子。 This road, the beginning is the village, the end point...... is also a village. 这条路,起点是村子,终点......也是村子。 The following 300 years, she died six times. 后面的三百年,她又死了六次。 She has tried innumerable the method of fleeing from the village. 她尝试过无数种逃离村子的方法。 May arrive finally, she discovered, originally from the beginning does not exist. 可到了最后,她才发现,原来一开始就不存在。 Person who can leave the village, priest who was selected by the god. 能离开村子的人,只有被神选中的祭司。 Therefore she starts the integrity belief god, hoping the god can help her get out of misery. 于是她开始诚信信仰神,希望神能帮助她脱离苦海。 On that day, she truly felt existence of god. 那天,她确实感觉到了神的存在。 She felt the strength of god. 她感受到了神的力量。 She lets loose all, whatever the spirit of god invades her soul. 她放开一切,任由神的精神侵入她的灵魂。 She implored the god to save her to get out of misery. 她祈求神能救她脱离苦海。 But the god visits her lightly. 但神只是淡淡看着她。 At that time, she understood finally. 那时候,她终于明白了。 The gods do not have the sentiment. 神是没有感情的。 In his eyes, oneself and grass of roadside has no difference. 在祂眼里,自己和路边的小草没有任何区别。 It will not help himself, will not stop itself. 祂不会帮自己,也不会阻拦自己。 She despaired thoroughly. 她彻底绝望了。 She starts numbly is passing every day, when waited for 16 years old to approach the death. 她开始麻木的过着每一天,等待十六岁来临时的死亡。 Then , to continue to repeat, like not having sentimental domestic animal. 然后,继续重复,就像没有感情的牲畜一样。 Until that day, in the village came in accidentally the outsider. 直到那一天,村里偶然进来了外乡人。 She found the opposite party quietly, the plea opposite party can lead her to leave. 她悄悄找到对方,恳求对方能带她离开。 But that person of look told her, opposite party not this plan, even also had not the good idea to her. 但那人的眼神告诉她,对方并没有这种打算,甚至还对她有不好的想法。 She was disappointed, the thought strength killed him. 她失望了,用神的力量杀死了他。 But that person brings has the books. 但那人身上带的有外界的书册。 What in the book said was a story, a hero saved the small and weak story. 书上讲的是一个故事,一个英雄拯救弱小的故事。 When she remembered initially the young pray. 她想起了当初自己年幼时的祈祷。 If can have the hero to rescue the village her to be good. 如果能有英雄把她救出村子就好了。 Only pillar/backbone that this tenth she went on living. 这成了她活下去的唯一支柱。 Although, she also knows that this is only the small delusion. 虽然,她也知道这只是小小的妄想。 Afterward, she found the new retaliation mother's method. 后来,她找到了新的报复母亲的方法。 That died before age 16. 那就是在16岁前就死去。 Because undying nature strengthens, the suicide, she is in the extreme pain each time. 因为不死性增强,每次自杀,她都处在极度痛苦之中。 But sees mother to twist the face of resenting, she felt the joyfulness. 但看着母亲扭曲愤恨的脸,她感受到了久违的愉悦。 Even after next resurrecting, she can live is more miserable. 哪怕下一次复活后她会活的更惨。 How long does not know and to pass, everyone's hair shortens gradually, the clothes also start no longer complicated. 不知道又过去多久,大家的头发渐渐变短,衣服也开始不再繁复。 She is getting more and more indifferent to the life. 她对生命越来越漠视。 Will not be in any case hopeful. 反正也不会有希望了吧。 Will save her heroic anything, in the final analysis is also only the matter in story. 会拯救她的英雄什么的,说到底也只是故事中的事情罢了。 Because does not have the hero, will therefore eulogize the hero in the story. 正因为没有英雄,所以才会在故事中歌颂英雄。 She thinks like this. 她就是这样想的。 Therefore, the time passes quietly. 于是,时间悄悄流逝。 This time, her again samsara. 这一次,她再次轮回了。 After the birth, she discovered herself in the altar. 出生后,她发现自己就在祭坛上。 The cut and bruised mother holds her face, smiled very happy. 遍体鳞伤的母亲捧着她的脸,笑的十分开心。 „A’Jiu, our fate curses must end finally, are you happy?” “阿玖,我们的宿命诅咒终于要结束了,你开心吗？” She does not know. 她不知道。 But mother truly departs from the norm protects to her in every possible way, even the given name gives her to inherit „Grand Priest”. 但母亲确实一反常态的对她百般呵护,甚至把“大祭司”都名号都交给她来继承。 What significance but does this have? 但这有什么意义呢？ She had long known, own undying nature is why getting stronger and stronger. 她早就知道了,自己的不死性为什么越来越强。 Because the god has part of supernatural powers and spirits attaches in her soul. 因为神有一部分神力和精神都附着在她的灵魂里。 Experienced about the 2,000 years long years, present she to mother, but is a vessel that is used to be separated from the curse. 经历了将近两千年的漫长岁月,现在的她对母亲来说,只不过是一个用来脱离诅咒的容器罢了。 Like the disposable tool, uses up in any case, dozens years, she will be born again. 就像一次性工具,反正用完之后过几十年,她又会再次出生。 Therefore when her three years old, she had a request: 于是在她三岁的时候,她提出一个请求: „I want to live freely, even if in village, even if only has more than ten years.” “我想自由的活着,哪怕只是在村子里,哪怕只有十几年。” The mother agreed. 母亲同意了。 Therefore she can leave this to flutter every day Stormglen of blood splash, arrived at...... another Stormglen. 于是她得以离开这个每天都飘着血花的风谷村,来到了......另一个风谷村。 There has „aunt”. 那里有个“婶婶”。 „Aunt” is still not good to her, the believers in village also under mother's instruction look but not see —— her in their cognition, oneself this „Grand Priest”, disposable tool. “婶婶”依旧对她不好,村子里的教徒们也在母亲的吩咐下对她视而不见——在他们的认知中,自己这个“大祭司”,就只是一次性工具。 Does the labor need to be close? 工具有必要接近吗？ But she has not cared. 但她已经不在意了。 Also crossed for more than ten years, she also nearly is 16 years old. 又过了十几年,她也快十六岁了。 But she has no idea. 但她没有任何想法。 Ok, this. 算了,就这样吧。 She is very tired. 她已经很累了。 Then, these outsiders came. 然后,那些外乡人来了。 At that time, she suddenly had an idea. 那时候,她忽然有了一个想法。 The mother said that this time is separated from the curse extricated day. 母亲说这次是脱离诅咒得到解脱的日子。 How if...... she did destroy the curse to be able? 那如果......她破坏了诅咒会怎么样？ Therefore, when that whole body bloody air/Qi rich old man midnight wants to bring she goes out, she has not revolted. 于是,当那个浑身血腥气浓郁的老头半夜想带她出去的时候,她没有反抗。 She knows that the opposite party wants to massacre her. 她知道对方想杀掉她。 She even hopes that at heart the opposite party really can massacre her. 她甚至心里希望对方真的能杀掉她。 When the opposite party has held up the butcher knife, she actually saw that person. 就在对方已经举起屠刀的时候,她却看到了那个人。 He snort/hum the song, is walking leisurely. 他哼着歌,优哉游哉地走过来。 Even on the face also has the relaxed happy expression. 甚至脸上还带着轻松的笑意。 Looks that he kills by mistreatment that old man with ease, why does not know, her quiet heart starts to beat. 看着他轻松虐杀那个老头,不知为何,她沉寂的心开始久违地跳动。 When he asked „you are not afraid me”, she shakes the head. 在他问“你不害怕我”的时候,她摇摇头。 She is not afraid, even also felt the relief. 她不害怕,甚至还感觉到了久违的安心。 She hopes that the opposite party can kill her. 她希望对方能杀了她。 But the opposite party has not done that even also brought back to her the room, and has not made anything to her. 可是对方并没有这么做,甚至还把她带回了屋里,而且并没有对她做什么。 That night, she fell asleep. 那天晚上,她睡着了。 Has not seen mother in the dream, has not seen the god in the dream. 没有在梦里见到母亲,也没有在梦里见到神。 She has not even had a dream. 她甚至都没有做梦。 Her such sleep/felt rested the dawn. 她就这样一觉睡到了天亮。 Opens eyes, appears in the line of sight, is his peaceful resting face. 睁开眼,出现在视线中的,是他安静的睡颜。 She felt safely. 她感觉到了安心。 Her arrives gently in his chest, twittering said: „You can be my hero......” 她头轻轻抵在他的胸口,呢喃道:“你会是我的英雄吗......” She knows that she cannot escape, mother always has herself the means to grasp. 她知道自己逃不脱的,母亲总有办法把自己抓回去。 Therefore, on that day of 16 th birthday, she asked his a few words: 于是,在16岁生日的那天,她问了他一句话: „Elder Brother, can you carry over the village me?” “哥,你能把我带出村子吗？” She heard that to let her relieved answer. 她听到了那个让她安心的答案。 „Naturally, regardless has anything, where regardless of you, I will take away you.” “当然,无论发生什么,无论你在哪里,我都会把你带走。” That instance, the sunlight sprinkles on he gentle face with a smile, as if envelopped a glimmer for him. 那个瞬间,阳光洒在他温柔笑着的脸上,似乎都为他笼上了一层微光。 A’Jiu heartbeat fast. 阿玖心跳的飞快。 This is her hero...... 这就是她的英雄啊...... ............ ............ Opens the eye, all around strong winds howl. 睁开眼睛,四周狂风呼啸。 The A’Jiu opposite, there is one with her exactly the same girl. 阿玖的对面,有一个和她一模一样的女孩儿。 But girl's eyes are the golden color, moreover inside does not have the slight sentiment. 只不过那女孩儿的眼睛是金色的,而且里面没有丝毫感情。 „Was the time.” That girl's voice just like the gold/metal iron, „initially I pinned the strength on you are used to corrode the seal, now is also similar. Come, gives me your body.” “是时候了。”那个女孩的声音宛若金铁,“当初我把力量寄托在你身上用来侵蚀封印,现在也差不多了。来吧,把你的身体交给我。” Feng A’Jiu resists that as if soul to detach diligently, but pain. 冯阿玖努力抵抗那仿佛灵魂都要脱体而出的痛苦。 But how can the person resist with the god? 但人怎么能跟神对抗呢？ She could not have supported. 她已经支撑不住了。 Elder Brother according to agreeing, had not actually supported finally...... 哥是按照约定来了,结果自己却没撑住...... Feng A’Jiu, you...... are really laughable. 冯阿玖,你......真是可笑。 „Un this not ok” “嗯这可不行哟” Suddenly, the gentle sound resounds in the A’Jiu ear together. 忽然,一道温柔的声音在阿玖耳边响起。 She feels the pain in soul to vanish. 她感觉到灵魂中的痛楚消失殆尽。 The side is excessive, she saw a peerless unparalleled gentle smile. 侧过头,她看到了一张绝世无双的温柔笑颜。 Dead ahead, that golden pupil „Feng A’Jiu” shows the emotion to fluctuate for the first time, „ before , you disturbed me......, you poured into the spirit to her within the body at that time. 正前方,那个金色眸子的“冯阿玖”第一次表现出情感波动,“之前你就干扰了我......果然,那时候你就把精神注入到她体内了吗。 „You are anything.” “你到底是什么。” Women's who that wears the black qipao in folding fan with the hand obstructs second half stretch/open face to try hard to ponder gently: 那位身穿黑色旗袍的女子用手中折扇轻轻遮着下半张脸努力思考: „If Mr. Wang, how now should say” “如果是王先生的话,现在应该怎么说呢” Her eye pupil curved, being suddenly enlighted, „should be this” 她眼眸弯弯,恍然大悟,“应该是这样” In the Miss An hand the folding fan gathers to pat the palm, „An Wanying, was only one passing by...... Demon Bird ghost bride” 安小姐手中折扇合起一拍掌心,“安婉莹,只是一个路过的......罗刹鸟鬼新娘罢了”