MWP :: Volume #8

#789: Liking

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Ambition type of thing, many people have, ideal extremely in remote or impractical, or brings coveting of some greedy flavors to call it the ambition. 野心这种东西,很多人都有,理想太过于遥远或者不切实际,或者说是带着些贪婪味道的觊觎都可以称之为野心。 Qiao Niannu has thought oneself is indifferent, no pursue, her life was to plan, she is always also following such plan contented. 乔念奴一直觉得自己无所谓理想,也没有什么追求,她的人生是规划好了的,她一直以来也非常安份地遵循着这样的规划。 No one inherent is so, but Lin Jiangxian is actually one huge, making one the frame that is incapable of revolting against, Qiao Niannu live in this frame. 没有人与生俱来就是如此,只是蔺江仙其实就是一个巨大的,让人无力反抗的框架,乔念奴就在她这个框架中活着。 Now this frame did not have, Qiao Niannu somewhat is even confused. 现在这个框架没有了,乔念奴甚至有些迷茫。 She on with Lin Jiangxian lives together from a young age, in fact in view of sentiment, Lin Jiangxian is her true mother is ordinary, always has some barriers and strangeness with the Qiao Ruoyu sentiment. 她自小就和蔺江仙生活在一起,事实上从感情的角度出发,蔺江仙才是她真正的母亲一般,和乔若雨的感情总是带着些隔阂和陌生感。 The arrangement of Lin Jiangxian, lets some Qiao Niannu resentment, was actually insufficient to give to write off the sentiment over the past 20 years, regardless of Lin Jiangxian how indifferent or sane nearly brutal, she had very important position in the Qiao Niannu heart. 蔺江仙的安排,让乔念奴有些怨气,却也不至于把过去20年的感情都给抹杀掉,无论蔺江仙如何冷漠或者理智近乎残酷,她在乔念奴心中都有非常重要的位置。 Therefore this frame did not have although, Qiao Niannu still has not actually gotten out of this frame the meaning, still according to the arrangement of Lin Jiangxian works, but she discovers now, she has to get out of this frame. 所以尽管这个框架没有了,乔念奴却依然没有走出这个框架的意思,依然按照蔺江仙的安排做事,只是她现在发现,她不得不走出这个框架了。 In the arrangement of Lin Jiangxian, so long as she arranged, then Qiao Niannu and Li Luyou must in the same place, any other barriers not have the significance...... Lin Jiangxian to think like this, but Qiao Niannu does not believe that although she also wants. 在蔺江仙的安排中,只要她这么安排了,那么乔念奴和李路由就必须在一起,其他任何障碍都毫无意义……蔺江仙是这样认为的,但是乔念奴不这么认为,虽然她也愿意。 Qiao Niannu, suddenly discovered some oneself also ambitions at this time, if can with Li Luyou live together simply, but does not need to withstand what moral principle the pressure, that this/should good. 乔念奴,这时候忽然发现自己也有一些野心了,如果能够和李路由简简单单地就生活在一起,而不必承受什么伦理道德的压力,那该多好。 „What don't you want to say with me?” Cui Yingying looks at silent Qiao Niannu, is Qiao Niannu has had the issue, Cui Yingying makes the narration, she hopes Qiao Niannu to be able on own initiative. “你不想和我说点什么吗？”崔莺莺看着沉默的乔念奴,一直都是乔念奴有问题,崔莺莺做出些叙述,她希望乔念奴能够主动一点。 „What did I and you say?” Qiao Niannu was startled being startled, she is not a woman who likes pouring out the innermost feelings, let alone is not more familiar to one, the status is also too mysterious the complex stranger, although she thought that own had saved many things at heart. “我和你说什么？”乔念奴怔了怔,她并不是一个喜欢倾诉内心的女人,更何况是向一个并不怎么熟悉,身份又太神秘复杂的陌生人,虽然她觉得自己的心里已经积攒了许多事情。 „We are the sisters, naturally must speak the words between sisters.” Cui Yingying patted the back of the hand of Qiao Niannu temperately, she has not noticed own this movement, placed in oneself elder sister's position without a doubt. “我们是姐妹,当然要说姐妹之间的话。”崔莺莺温和地拍了拍乔念奴的手背,她并没有注意到自己的这个动作,毫无疑问地把自己放在了姐姐的位置上。 Qiao Niannu has not thought from the start everyone is the Li Luyou woman, should be together harmoniously, the issue that the sisters are symmetric and so on, in her opinion, she and Li Luyou matter are only she and Li Luyou matter, does not need to care about An Zhishui, or is present Cui Yingying, are not related with them, but felt that Cui Yingying this movement the stance meant, Qiao Niannu some are not refreshed, after all her what kind is the Li Luyou elder sister, Cui Yingying, since is the Li Luyou woman, that her Qiao Niannu should be an eldest sister. 乔念奴压根就没有想过大家都是李路由的女人,应该和和睦睦相处,姐妹相称之类的问题,在她看来,她和李路由的事情只是她和李路由的事,根本无需在意安知水,又或者是眼前的崔莺莺,和她们没有关系,但是感觉到崔莺莺这个动作的姿态意味,乔念奴还是有些不爽快,毕竟她怎么的都是李路由的姐姐,崔莺莺既然是李路由的女人,那么她乔念奴才应该是大姐。 „Good, I asked again your issue, why will you like Li Luyou? You drop from the clouds, Li Luyou saved you, you pledged yourself...... this to seem like some is too incredible, that was the cowherd and weaving maiden Dong Yong seven female celestial and repertoire of viviparus miss frog prince Snow White.” Qiao Niannu has harbored the question to this. “好吧,我再问你一个问题,你为什么会喜欢上李路由？你从天而降,李路由救了你,你就以身相许……这个似乎有些太荒诞了,那是牛郎织女董永七仙女和田螺姑娘青蛙王子白雪公主的套路。”乔念奴一直对这个怀有疑问。 Cui Yingying actually cannot help laughing, as if thought that likes Li Luyou is the natural matter, then shakes the head regarding the doubts of Qiao Niannu with something else in mind. 崔莺莺却哑然失笑,似乎觉得喜欢李路由是理所当然的事情,然后对于乔念奴的疑惑不以为然地摇了摇头。 „Only if Li Luyou hates his oneself, otherwise I have no reason not to like him.” Cui Yingying said. “除非李路由都憎恶他自己,否则我没有任何理由不喜欢他。”崔莺莺说道。 „Are you in the Li Luyou personality feminization side?” Qiao Niannu is saying, is oneself this incredible thought laughs. “你是李路由人格中女性化的一面？”乔念奴说着,然后为自己这个荒诞的念头发笑。 „Of course not.” Cui Yingying also shakes the head with a smile, „, when teased a person, revealed you to smile like this, often means that true liking, you can say why you did like Li Luyou?” “当然不是。”崔莺莺也笑着摇了摇头,“当打趣一个人的时候,流露出你这样的微笑,往往意味着真正的喜欢,你能说说,你为什么喜欢李路由吗？” Qiao Niannu drank fruit juice silently, reveals some confusedly, does not seem to think this issue. 乔念奴默默地喝了一口果汁,露出些迷茫,似乎从来没有想过这个问题。 „ I and Li Luyou true contact...... actually starts from an accident/surprise, at that time I just arrived at shortly after Zhonghai, he and his schoolmate puts on and terrorist scurries about on the street, “我和李路由的真正接触……其实是从一次意外开始的,当时我刚刚来到中海不久,他和他的同学穿得和恐怖分子似的在街上乱窜, Caught in the act by me. I recognized him to come...... that am our first direct contacts in the true sense. ” Qiao Niannu is thinking at that time Li Luyou sized up his look, raises the hand to stand there appearance obediently, cannot help but smiled. „In fact I have long known him...... before I have not personally seen him, I know that has such a person, I should take care of him, because his mother has not taken care of him, actually should use in looking after his time and thoughts flower on me, I thought that I should make up for his mother, I must be good to him in the future, must help him, takes care of him, like...... I also truly works as the younger brother him to the younger brother, always thought that will have such a younger brother will not know I to consider his life in place that and other in the future.” Qiao Niannu restrained the happy expression, „this time sentiment said no that on likes, is only a sense of responsibility, thought that handles something for him, when he needs can help him, this was enough.” 被我当场抓住。我认出他来了……那是我们第一次真正意义上的直接接触。”乔念奴想着当时李路由打量他的眼神,乖乖地举起手站在那里的样子,不由自主地笑了起来。“事实上我早就知道他了……在我还没有亲眼见过他之前,我就知道有这么一个人,我应该去照顾他,因为他的母亲没有照顾他,却把本应该用在照顾他的时间和心思花在了我身上,我觉得我应该替他的母亲弥补,我将来要对他好,要帮助他,照顾他,就像对弟弟一样……我也确实是把他当弟弟来看,总觉得有这么一个弟弟在不知道的地方等着我将来去照顾他的生活。”乔念奴收敛了笑意,“这时候的感情说不上喜欢吧,只是一种责任感,觉得为他做一些事情,在他需要的时候能够帮助他,这就足够了。” „Afterward?” Cui Yingying is listening earnestly, she is not omniscient, she knows what are more will be something of future, rather than the past, her sentiment to the Li Luyou and anybody was different, her very definite this point, therefore she can tranquilly and cares about other woman and Li Luyou sentiment interestedly. “后来呢？”崔莺莺认真地听着,她并不是无所不知的,她知道的更多的是未来的一些东西,而不是过去的,她对李路由的感情和任何人都不一样,她很确定这一点,所以她才能够平静而充满兴趣地关心其他女人和李路由的感情。 „Afterward...... I know afterward suddenly, this younger brother is my fiance.” Qiao Niannu cheeks slightly red, cannot help but remembered became rough with the angry feeling at that time at heart, however this feeling actually deteriorated slowly, „I was angry...... I not to know that at that time very much why will be angry, now thinks to think how probably the younger brother did turn into the fiance suddenly? Afterward the mother and I said that if I told you from the beginning, you had a fiance, now can you be angry?” “后来……后来我突然知道,这个弟弟是我的未婚夫。”乔念奴脸颊微红,不由得想起了当时心里发涩和愤怒的感觉,然而这种感觉却又慢慢变质,“我当时很生气……我也不知道为什么会生气,现在想想大概是觉得弟弟怎么就突然变成了未婚夫呢？后来老妈和我说,如果我一开始就告诉你,你有个未婚夫,现在你会不会生气？” „You think, thought will not be angry probably, but like accepting the younger brother accepts fiance's exist(ence), therefore isn't angry?” Cui Yingying guessed, the facial expression to was really saying with the good friend probably some private interesting things were the same, revealed smile that understood clearly in chest/heart. “你想了想,觉得大概不会生气,只是会像接受弟弟一样接受未婚夫的存在,所以就不生气了？”崔莺莺猜测道,神情到好像真的只是和好友说着一些私密有趣的事情一样,露出了了然于胸的微笑。 „Is this.” Qiao Niannu could not bear smile, „I have been used to her arrangement...... , therefore she said that I thought that truly was this, therefore accepted. However must actually accept is not that natural matter...... I starts to pay attention to him especially.” “是这样。”乔念奴也忍不住笑了起来,“我早已经习惯了她的安排……所以当她这么说的时候,我就觉得确实是这样,于是就接受了。不过要实际接受也不是那么自然的事情……我开始格外关注他。” „Then liked?” Cui Yingying did not say accidentally/surprisingly, own husband is own is certainly proud, her not strange woman after will be paying attention to own husband especially, the residence likes on him. “然后就喜欢上了？”崔莺莺毫不意外地说道,自己的夫君当然是自己的骄傲,她并不奇怪一个女人会在格外关注自己的夫君以后,不由地住地喜欢上他。 „When a life center of gravity of person starts to revolve another person completely, only fears to like on this person is also matter naturally...... wants him is not that oneself repugnant person, is infatuated with Boss own like many secretaries, relations that because works, becomes the key point that she paid attention to regarding the life work every large or small matter of boss, so long as the boss is not that type fully does not conform to the man who oneself likes the standard, ambiguous will multiply on the nature.” Qiao Niannu narrowed the eye, is looking into out of the window: „He is attending a lecture in the classroom with single-hearted devotion, I look in out of the window, he performs in the stage, I look under the stage, he runs in the stadium, I look in the crowd, he falls asleep on the bed, I sit in the roof am in a daze, he is living diligently, I am paying attention to him...... I to discover silently gradually I am familiar with this more and more, likes this more and more, even if no time to handle these things every so often personally, watches these pictures, would complaining that the angle of photograph is not good, why also or is shoots so many him annoyedly and don't the girl in the together picture, or looks at oneself and he. When the picture, discovered together very much with amazement that time oneself somewhat seemed to be strange, let look that the picture oneself envied...... oneself to envy oneself to come......” “当一个人的生活重心开始完全围绕另外一个人的时候,只怕要喜欢上这个人也是自然而然的事情……只要他不是那种自己讨厌的人,就像很多秘书都迷恋着自己的老板一样,因为工作的关系,对于老板的生活工作大大小小的事情都成了她关注的重点,只要老板不是那种完全不符合自己喜好标准的男人,暧昧就会自然滋生。”乔念奴眯了眯眼睛,眺望着窗外:“他在课堂里专心听着课,我在窗外看着,他在舞台上表演,我在台下看着,他在体育场里奔跑,我在人群中看着,他在床上睡着,我在屋顶坐着发呆,他在努力地生活,我在默默地关注他……渐渐地我发现我越来越习惯这样,越来越喜欢这样,哪怕很多时候没有时间亲自去做这些事情,看着那些照片,总会埋怨拍照的角度不好,又或者是恼火拍这么多他和别的女孩子在一起的照片干什么,又或者看着自己和他在一起时的照片,很惊讶地发现那个时候的自己似乎有些陌生,却让看着照片的自己羡慕……自己羡慕起自己来了……” Qiao Niannu self-ridicules shakes the head, Cui Yingying actually nods, „does not envy, but is tasting then feeling, wanted to understand that time feeling again.” 乔念奴自嘲地摇了摇头,崔莺莺却点了点头,“不是羡慕,只是在回味当时的感觉,想要再次体会那时候的感觉。” „You said to...... until one day, I discovered finally oneself when visiting him will cannot help but smile, saw that he and An Zhishui when will be angry together, with him when will unable to bear think that together oneself will have the qualifications will do that do, I in fact quietly have accepted am the status of his fiancee. Said no that on which time concrete is, without deliberately goes to anything to be determined, the sentiment is this, not the rough or happy day of will the experience of what gale heavy rain or passed together, feeling the opposite party was that person who oneself liked, slowly also liked.” Qiao Niannu somewhat sighed regrettably, „just not like him and Annan Xiu, between I and him was not destined, at least I felt more and more, I and he impossible in the same place.” “你说的对……直到有一天,我终于发现自己会在看着他时不由自主地微笑,看到他和安知水在一起时生气,和他在一起时忍不住觉得自己有资格这么做那么做的时候,我事实上已经悄悄地接受了是他未婚妻的身份。说不上具体是哪个时候,也没有刻意去下过什么决心,感情就是这样吧,未必要什么大风大雨的经历或者共同度过的坎坷或者幸福的日子,感觉对方是自己喜欢的那种人,慢慢地也就喜欢上了。”乔念奴有些遗憾地叹了口气,“只不过不像他和安南秀,我和他之间并非什么命中注定的吧,至少我越来越觉得,我和他不可能在一起了。” Then, the Qiao Niannu gentle pupil as if lost all gloss, flash dim. 说完,乔念奴柔媚的眸子仿佛失去了所有的光泽似的,一瞬间就黯淡了下来。 „You and Li Banzhuang are the completely different two people......” Cui Yingying smile lightly, is still temperate, brings regarding profaning that the confusedness of opposite party gives birth. “你和李半妆是完全不同的两种人……”崔莺莺淡淡一笑,依然温和,却带着些对于对方的迷茫生出的轻慢。 „Naturally.” Qiao Niannu knows, Li Banzhuang radically is unscrupulous, for with own Elder Brother in the same place, cultivation what merit law, after the brain of human relations throwing . “当然。”乔念奴知道,李半妆根本就是肆无忌惮,为了和自己的哥哥在一起,修炼了个什么功法,就将人伦抛之脑后了。 „You have stressed with me, husband is impossible to accept you to have this relations...... you actually not to think, this and choice of Li Banzhuang has what relations.” “你一直和我强调,夫君不可能接受你们发生这种关系……你却没有想过,这和李半妆的选择有什么关系。” The Qiao Niannu knitting the brows head, looks at Cui Yingying perplexed. 乔念奴皱了皱眉头,不明所以地看着崔莺莺。 „Very simple, the person always comes under the oneself most intimate person's influence easily, although every so often children and parents' concept entirely different......, but at many things, many children will or be inheriting parents' world outlook, outlook on life and values, after they are grown, this influence is easier to manifest.” Cui Yingying, said slowly: „In the Li Banzhuang world, Elder Brother is her only standard, Elder Brother is affects the biggest person on her. The method and style that she works are studying Elder Brother in many aspects, will consider whether Elder Brother can accept as oneself makes the important criterion of choice...... her choice, means that is also in some sense Li Luyou is in fact acceptable. Li Banzhuang believes, oneself can with Elder Brother in the same place, actually base on Elder Brother to believe that in some situation, he will accept her for the premise.” “很简单,人总是容易受到自己最亲近的人的影响,尽管很多时候孩子和父母的观念截然不同……但是在许多事情上,或者说很多孩子还是会继承着父母的世界观,人生观和价值观,越是在他们成年以后,这种影响越是容易体现出来。”崔莺莺顿了顿,缓缓说道:“在李半妆的世界里,哥哥是她唯一的标准,哥哥是对她影响最大的人。她做事情的方法和风格在很多方面都是学着哥哥,也会考虑到哥哥是否能够接受作为自己作出选择的重要标准……她的选择,也就意味着,那事实上也是在某种意义上李路由可以接受的。李半妆认为,自己可以和哥哥在一起,其实是基于哥哥认为,在某种情况下,他会接受她为前提的。” „You were said that...... you were said...... in fact Li Luyou can accept this matter?” Qiao Niannu is looking at Cui Yingying surprisedly, by her the understanding Qiao Niannu, Li Luyou is completely impossible to accept. “你是说……你是说……实际上李路由可以接受这种事情？”乔念奴惊讶地望着崔莺莺,以她对乔念奴的了解,李路由完全不可能接受。 „You think, the information that if a person conveys to another person is, you have not possibly been under my permission absolutely, this is not shifts by any will and event, then this person will also insist? This is not desperate struggling, did not say perseverance pays in the end, will persist in winning, final choice that the information feedback that but for a long time, must come from her Elder Brother there will make.” Cui Yingying both hands according to stood in the table border, „actually you most are worried was not Qiao Niannu cannot with him in together, your bottom line was, Xie Xiaoan must with him in the same place, you fear Li Luyou knew the truth, finally Li Luyou will give up Xie Xiaoan.” “你想一下,如果一个人给另外一个人传达的信息是,你绝对没有可能得到我的允许,这是不以任何意志和事件转移的,那么这个人还会坚持吗？这不是什么绝望的挣扎,也不是说铁杵磨成针,坚持就会胜利,而是长久以来,从她的哥哥那里得来的信息反馈作出的最终选择。”崔莺莺双手按在桌子边沿站了起来,“其实你最担心的不是乔念奴不能和他在一起了,你的底线是,谢小安要和他在一起,你只是怕李路由知道真相,最后李路由会放弃谢小安吧。” The heart of Qiao Niannu jumps fiercely, is welcoming the Cui Yingying look, her vision actually seems can tear the chest of Qiao Niannu, the heart exposition of Qiao Niannu takes in everything at a glance. 乔念奴的心猛地一跳,迎着崔莺莺的眼神,她的目光竟然好似能够撕裂乔念奴的胸膛,将乔念奴的心暴露的一览无遗似的。 „Relax, husband will certainly accept Xie Xiaoan, even if you are her biological elder sister.” Cui Yingying turns around to depart. “放心吧,夫君一定会接受谢小安的,哪怕你是她的亲姐姐。”崔莺莺转身离去。
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