When Li Luyou is a shy youngster is maturer than the contemporaries, let alone now? Therefore he feels although somewhat embarrassed, the nature that but still displays and calmly, asked in detail under examines to be pregnant the matters needing attention of stick, simultaneously the service person gave a Li Luyou propaganda pamphlet, Li Luyou pinched was going out of the pharmacy. 李路由还是个青涩少年时就远比同龄人成熟,更何况现在？所以他尽管感觉有些窘迫,但依然表现的自然和从容,详细地问了下验孕棒的注意事项,同时服务员递给了李路由一张宣传单,李路由捏着走出了药房。 Looks at Li Luyou to get out of the way, but also is installing Xie Xiaoan of passer-by to look around hastily a heel, two people sit in the secluded corner. 看着李路由走开,还在装路人的谢小安连忙东张西望一阵后跟了上去,两个人坐在僻静的角落。 „.” Li Luyou gives Xie Xiaoan the thing. “给。”李路由把东西给谢小安。 „Your what meaning?” The Xie Xiaoan complexion is somewhat ugly and angry. “你什么意思？”谢小安脸色有些难看和愤怒。 Li Luyou looked puzzled, originally on that propaganda pamphlet writes „indolence stream of people 368 to be responsible until completion”. 李路由不解地望了过去,原来那张宣传单上边写着“无痛人流368包干”。 „The stopper gives me together, I had not looked, I do not have this meaning.” Li Luyou explained hastily. “一起塞给我的,我也没有看,我没有这个意思。”李路由连忙解释。 „Now what to do?” Xie Xiaoan is looking at Li Luyou. “现在怎么办？”谢小安望着李路由。 „Examines.” Saw a Xie Xiaoan no opinion the appearance, a Li Luyou anger. “去检验啊。”看到谢小安一副毫无主见的样子了,李路由一阵愤怒。 „How with?” Xie Xiaoan asked low voice. “怎么用啊？”谢小安小声问道。 „oneself looks at the explanation.” Li Luyou does not want to explain, if two people are really the lovers, explained that is very natural, but two people were still saying although a moment ago the incomparably ambiguous topic, may not be the lover eventually, mentioned girl's these to involve the private operation, was hard to open the mouth. “自己看说明。”李路由不想解释,两个人若真是情侣,解释起来很自然,可尽管刚才两个人还在说无比暧昧的话题,可终究算不上情侣,说起女孩子的那些涉及私密的操作,还是难以开口。 Xie Xiaoan disassembles somewhat to look at these things surprisedly, then flipped through the instruction booklet to look at a while, the face the contraceptive good stopper to the package inside, lowered the head to proceed to run red. 谢小安拆开来有些惊奇地看着那些东西,然后翻着说明书看了一会儿,脸红红地把避孕棒塞到包里边,低着头往前跑。 „Comes quickly!” Xie Xiaoan turns head, saw that Li Luyou sits there is motionless, is angry stamps the feet angry. “快来啊！”谢小安回过头来,看到李路由坐在那里一动不动,嗔恼地跺脚。 „Wants me to do?” Does not need the Li Luyou thing to examine, Li Luyou was depressed to walk. “要我干什么？”又不用李路由的东西来验,李路由闷闷地走了过去。 „This matter, at least the boy in the side, the girl can feel at ease, this doesn't know? If you are not, what issue has I to ask whom to cry?” Xie Xiaoan holds the hand of Li Luyou to proceed to run. “这种事情,至少男孩子在身边,女孩子才能安心一点,这点都不知道？如果你不在,有什么问题我找谁哭去？”谢小安拉着李路由的手就往前跑。 Whom do I ask to cry? Li Luyou breaks away her hand, depressed. 我找谁哭去？李路由挣开她的手,郁闷不已。 Li Luyou is waiting outside the park washroom, after a while Xie Xiaoan walked, cheeks is exuding red, timidly and is looking at Li Luyou embarrassed: „I was pregnant.” 李路由在公园洗手间外等着,过了一会儿谢小安就走了出来,脸颊儿泛着红,怯弱而窘迫地望着李路由:“我怀孕了。” This is second says this words girl with Li Luyou, but feels actually entirely different, Annan Xiu that Li Luyou at least knows completely not possibly, but Xie Xiaoan is actually on the truly possible bosom the Li Luyou child. 这已经是第二个和李路由说这种话的女孩子了,可是感觉却全然不同,安南秀那个李路由至少知道完全没有可能,可是谢小安却是确确实实可能怀上李路由的孩子。 Li Luyou received to examine to be pregnant reluctantly calmly the stick to look, ended, truly was on the bosom, therefore Li Luyou looks at the lower abdomen of Xie Xiaoan. 李路由勉强镇定地接过验孕棒看了看,完了,确实是怀上了,于是李路由怔怔地看着谢小安的小腹。 Although the own lower abdomen is still smooth, Xie Xiaoan caresses the own lower abdomen, probably visibly pregnant pregnant woman equally with holding posture. 尽管自己的小腹依然平坦,谢小安抚上自己的小腹,却好像已经显怀的孕妇一样用捧着的姿势了。 Two people stand outside the washroom, the autumn wind gets up, passing the heart is cool. 两个人站在洗手间外,秋风起,透心凉。 „Next year begins school, you became the father.” Xie Xiaoan sighed. “明年开学,你就当爹了。”谢小安叹了口气。 „You became mother.” Li Luyou then said. “那你就当妈了。”李路由接着说道。 Li Luyou looked at Xie Xiaoan, always thought that she is putting on airs now, under her seemingly sad look clearly is hiding joyfully some. 李路由望了一眼谢小安,总觉得她现在还是在装模做样,她那看似忧愁的眼神底下分明藏着些喜悦。 Li Luyou does not have the means vitality/angry, Li Luyou regarding to be willing to become mother, and intention joyful girl, always cannot detest, so long as they do not abandon them in having a child. 李路由却没有办法生气,李路由对于愿意当母亲,并且心怀喜悦的女孩子,总是忿恨不起来,只要她们不是在生完孩子后再抛弃他们。 „You become mother are the affirmation, I not necessarily am a father.” Li Luyou does not have the means vitality/angry, satisfying inside is still depressed. “你当妈是肯定的,我可不一定是爹。”李路由没有办法生气,可心里边依然郁闷。 „You......” under the Xie Xiaoan eye pupil joyful dissipation do not see, the cheeks rise red, is opening the eye, the air/Qi as if could not breathe heavily. “你……”谢小安眼眸底下的喜悦消散不见,脸颊涨得通红,睁大着眼睛,气的似乎喘不过来了。 „Is sad, talked nonsense.” The Li Luyou words naturally were only the air/Qi Xie Xiaoan. “心情不好,瞎说的。”李路由刚才的话当然只是气气谢小安。 Xie Xiaoan stared his one eyes indignantly, sat side him. 谢小安忿忿地瞪了他一眼,坐在了他身边。 „Now what to do?” Now this issue is not under oneself and oneself liangs person each other agreement, is hiding the truth from the An Zhishui issue, this child is the most important issue, is returns alive is not fresh, how fresh, what to do lives? These issues are not easy to be solved. “现在怎么办？”现在这个问题已经不是自己个人彼此约定下,瞒着安知水的问题了,这个孩子才是最重要的问题,是生还是不生,怎么生,生下来怎么办？这些问题都不是那么容易解决的。 This is an issue of Xie Xiaoan person, may eventually be the Li Luyou own child. 这本来是谢小安一个人的问题,可终究是李路由自己的孩子。 Perhaps regarding common man, 也许对于寻常男人来说, This troublesome oneself can shirk in any event righteously, thinks that are not related with oneself completely, but Li Luyou cannot achieve, as a child who does not have father no mother, he always thinks the child's future of Xie Xiaoan belly, this child is innocent. Li Luyou to the child who had not been born, is far from has many sentiments, but he has the own idea, thinks that regarding the own child, he will certainly look after well, certainly will perform to a father's responsibility, will not make the own child enjoy not to receive the warmth of family, will not make the own child repeat the own childhood childhood. 这种麻烦无论如何自己都可以理直气壮地推脱,认为和自己完全没有关系,可是李路由做不到,作为一个无父无母的孩子,他总是会想到谢小安肚子里的孩子的将来,这个孩子是无辜的。李路由对还没有出生的孩子,谈不上有多少感情,只是他心里早就有自己的想法,认为对于自己的孩子,他一定会好好照顾,一定会尽到一个父亲的责任,绝不会让自己的孩子享受不到家庭的温暖,绝不会让自己的孩子重复自己的幼年童年。 This is his child, even if not he wants, may eventually be his child, this child lives, in any event shouted his father naturally. 这是他的孩子,哪怕不是他想要的,可终究是他的孩子,这个孩子生下来,无论如何都是理所应当地喊他爸爸。 „You felt relieved that I will not annoy to you troublesome. I will find a place, has the child, fosters to grow up, will not disturb your life, will not destroy you and elder sister's sentiment, will not be weeping and wailing must marry you, if you want, had the time to come to see me and child was OK, in the future child grew up, you are willing to recognize recognize, if did not want, I will tell the child, its father has died......” Xie Xiaoan to look at the front, the hidden bitterness and anxiety that tone could not say. “你放心吧,我不会给你惹麻烦的。我会找个地方,把孩子生下来,抚养长大,不会打扰你的生活,不会破坏你和姐姐的感情,更不会哭着喊着要和你结婚,如果你愿意,有时间来看看我和孩子就可以了,将来孩子长大了,你愿意认就认,如果不愿意,我会告诉孩子,它的父亲已经死了……”谢小安怔怔地望着前方,语气里说不出的幽怨和愁苦。 „Can you not install?” Li Luyou discovered that Xie Xiaoan also so likes putting on airs, is staring her annoyedly, „I do not believe you before that night handled that matter, completely has not considered this issue. Currently this time, do you have the mood to be disgusting I? How I felt, you regarding any nausea I, did insult me or make my depressed matter interest very big?” “你能不能不装了？”李路由发现谢小安也是如此地喜欢装模做样,恼火地瞪着她,“我就不信你在那天晚上做那种事情之前,完全没有考虑过这个问题。现在这时候了,你还有心情恶心我？我怎么觉得,你对于任何恶心我,侮辱我或者让我郁闷的事情兴趣都特别大？” Xie Xiaoan is gaining ground, does not pay attention to Li Luyou, had not said that again these words pushed toward the ruthless callous indifferent selfish image in Li Luyou. 谢小安抬着头,不理会李路由,却也没有再说那些话把李路由往无情无义冷酷冷漠自私自利的形象上推了。 „Has the child.” Li Luyou sighed to say. “把孩子生下来吧。”李路由叹了口气说道。 „You and An Zhishui what to do?” Xie Xiaoan is somewhat surprised, has not obviously thought Li Luyou decides quickly. “那你和安知水怎么办？”谢小安有些意外,明显没有想到李路由这么快就下了决心。 „I know the Zhishui personality. I and you have the relations, this matter talked clearly, she even at heart uncomfortable, has not taken to heart. Because that is not my mistake, my responsibility. But since you were pregnant, if I choose do not want the child, Zhishui thinks that I in am extremely selfish and irresponsible. She will be very disappointed about me.” An Zhishui participates in so many to oppose premarital sex, parade of counter- abortion, Li Luyou where not clear An Zhishui facing the choice of this matter? Regarding the woman selfish narrow-mindedness, naturally is hopes that the own boyfriend will separate and other women's relations completely, An Zhishui naturally also hopes Li Luyou and Xie Xiaoan other had not related, but how she is willing to see the choice that Li Luyou will make kills a life? “我知道知水的性情。我和你发生关系,这件事情说清楚了,她就算心里边难受,也不会一直耿耿于怀。因为那不是我的错,我的责任。可是既然你怀孕了,如果我选择不要孩子,知水会认为我太过于自私而且不负责任。她会对我很失望。”安知水参加过那么多反对婚前性-行为,反堕胎的游行,李路由哪里不清楚安知水面对这种事情的选择？对于女人自私的小心眼来说,当然是希望自己的男朋友完全割裂和其他女人的关系,安知水当然也会希望李路由和谢小安没有其他关系了,可是她怎么愿意看到李路由作出的选择是扼杀掉一条生命？ Many people felt that is flesh lump of one group of cells, where can be called the child? But An Zhishui does not think. 许多人都觉得,那不过是一团细胞的肉块,哪里称得上孩子？可是安知水不会这么想。 „First must consider An Zhishui.” Xie Xiaoan sneers. “首先还是要考虑安知水。”谢小安冷笑。 „I naturally must consider her.” Li Luyou is disinclined to pay attention to the feeling of Xie Xiaoan, „as for other things, later said that this matter does not have the means to satisfy both sides, does not have the means not to harm anyone.” “我当然要考虑她。”李路由懒得理会谢小安的感受,“至于其他事情,以后再说吧,这种事情没有办法两全其美,也没有办法不伤害任何一个人。” „Between me and An Zhishui, if can harm a person, you will choose me, if two people will be injured, you will choose to make me injure heavier, yes?” Xie Xiaoan looks at Li Luyou calmly, in the eye pupil the unnecessary mood is diverging, this man only cares about An Zhishui eventually, in any event is this. “在我和安知水之间,如果可以伤害一个人,你会选择我,如果两个人都会受伤,你会选择让我伤的更重一点,是吧？”谢小安冷静地望着李路由,眼眸子里多余的情绪散去,这个男人终究只在意安知水,无论如何都是这样。 „I have hoped Zhishui happily, do not receive any injury. Never expected that she most own younger sister held her blade, virtually impossible to guard against.” Li Luyou stands, Ma Shilong has spoken these words, therefore he almost Ma Shilong killing, Kaneda two was killed by Li Luyou, thanks Ling the books the object who comes is also he must die, Xie Xiaoan make this matter, if her original intention to injure An Zhishui, Li Luyou will not let off her, but develops now this step, Li Luyou does not have the means to process straightforwardly cleanly. “我一直希望知水开开心心,不要受到任何伤害。没有想到她最亲的妹妹却捅了她一刀,让人防不胜防。”李路由站起来,马世龙说过那些话,所以他差点把马世龙给杀了,金田二被李路由杀了,谢铃书本来也是他心里必须死的对象,谢小安做出这种事情,如果她的初衷就是为了伤害安知水,李路由也绝不会放过她,只是现在发展到这一步,李路由已经没有办法直截了当地处理干净了。 „I have not thought must harm her. This matter my oneself will process, the child I can the oneself foster, not affect you and An Zhishui.” Xie Xiaoan also stood, turns around to get out of the way. “我没有想过要伤害她。这件事情我自己会处理好,孩子我会自己抚养,不会影响到你和安知水。”谢小安也站了起来,转身走开。 Li Luyou holds on her. 李路由一把拉住她。 „Does?” Xie Xiaoan coldly is looking at Li Luyou. “干什么？”谢小安冷冷地望着李路由。 Li Luyou does not know to do, but thought that in the Xie Xiaoan tone is passing losing and disappointment of not being able saying that if can always feel that from her eye many anticipations and expectation however are anything do not have now, seems clearly recognizes the despair after reality. 李路由也不知道要干什么,只是觉得谢小安的语气里透着说不出的失落和失望,如果说原来从她的眼睛里总能感觉到许多期待和憧憬然而现在却是什么都没有,好似认清现实后的绝望。 „A person does not have the means to take care of the good child, the child always needs a family/home to be good.” After Li Luyou knows said these words, oneself must bear many responsibility and pressures, but he did not have the means not saying that even his not tender Xie Xiaoan, must take pity on that child, he was not oneself that to without parents of conscience, he will not make oneself such person, regarding child, what reason regardless of the parents had, he could not feel the warmth of family, the concern from parents, he will hate naturally, because his not oneself must arrive at this world. “一个人是没有办法照顾好孩子的,孩子总是需要一个家才行。”李路由知道说出这句话以后,自己要承受多少责任和压力,可是他没有办法不说,就算他不怜惜谢小安,也要怜惜那个孩子,他不是自己那对没良心的父母,他不会让自己成为那样的人,对于孩子来说,无论父母有什么样的理由,他感受不到家庭的温暖,来自父母的关爱,他就理所当然地会怨恨,因为他并不是自己要来到这个世界。 Xie Xiaoan was startled being startled, the facial expression was looking at Li Luyou complex, by his arms, stood on tiptoes the tip of the toe to kiss him. 谢小安怔了怔,神情复杂地望着李路由,靠进他怀里,踮起脚尖就去吻他。 The Li Luyou instinct withdrew, avoided her kiss. 李路由本能地退后,避开了她的吻。 „If a kiss, you are unacceptable, why I believe that you can accept a child, a family/home?” Xie Xiaoan said calmly. “如果一个吻,你都不能接受,我凭什么相信你能接受一个孩子,一个家？”谢小安平静地说道。 „I do not need you to believe, I only handle the matter that I should handle.” Li Luyou shakes the head. “我不需要你相信,我只做我应该做的事情。”李路由摇了摇头。 „You need to make me believe that because I am a kid's mother, you are a kid's dad.” Xie Xiaoan closes the eye, searched his lip, both hands was holding in the arms his neck, „also had to do, what came to be again one time?” “你需要让我相信,因为我是孩子他妈,你是孩子他爹。”谢小安闭上眼睛,寻觅着他的嘴唇,双手搂住了他的脖子,“又不是没有做过,再来一次算什么？” „Did you prepare the red package?” Li Luyou said suddenly. “你准备了红包吗？”李路由突然说道。 Xie Xiaoan opened the eye, remembered oneself to run down the building that morning, the unexpected happening wanted a red package in the onstage, wrapped 1000 dollars to return in the Li Luyou clothes pocket, this matter some were too eventually absurd, therefore cheeks was crimson, could not kiss, shoved open Li Luyou, bypassed one to run from the aloe. 谢小安睁大了眼睛,想起那天早上自己都已经跑下楼了,鬼使神差地在前台要了个红包,又包了一千块钱放回李路由衣服兜里,这种事情终究有些太荒唐,于是脸颊儿绯红,吻不下去了,一把推开李路由,绕过一从芦荟跑了。 Li Luyou felt, Xie Xiaoan and An Zhishui only similarity, is probably easy to blush, even if Xie Xiaoan handled many bold things. 李路由觉得,谢小安和安知水唯一相似的地方,大概就是都容易脸红,哪怕谢小安做了不少没脸没皮的事情。