Pei Yanchen has not spoken a few words to Xue Ying for half a month, Xue Ying also feels bewildered, thinks that my doesn't help you? 裴砚晨半个月没跟薛莹说一句话,薛莹还觉得莫名其妙,认为我这不是帮你么？ Finally Xue Ying cannot bear Pei Yanchen to treat this indifferent attitude, when she goes out must work, blocks Pei Yanchen to bring discontentedly to interrogate: „Small early morning, you for several days what meaning? Didn't the words say one to me? If you have the opinion to say to me, do not cover-up!” Then does best to convince added: „ I thought that your anything is good, is anything likes itself undertaking, had what idea also never to say to others, you must learn to communicate .......... „ 终于有一天薛莹受不了裴砚晨对待她这种冷漠态度,在她出门要去打工的时候,拦住裴砚晨带着不满质问道:“小晨,你这些天什么意思？话都不跟我说一句？你如果对我有意见就说出来,不要藏着掖着！”接着又苦口婆心的补充道:“我觉得你什么都好,就是什么事情都喜欢自己承担,对别人有什么想法也从来不说,你要学会沟通……….“ Pei Yanchen has not actually been mad Xue Ying, but felt oneself are not really suitable to become friends, her desolate saying: „Communication? You look for journey Xiaoyu time passes with my ditch?” 裴砚晨其实也没有生薛莹的气,只是觉得自己真的不适合交朋友,她冷淡的说道:“沟通？你去找程晓羽的时候和我沟通过么？” Xue Ying heard journey Xiaoyu the reply to know what on that day perhaps oneself made the mistake, behind may I ask Pei Yanchen and journey Xiao a feather matter, at this moment sees Pei Yanchen to raise, some embarrasedly, „I did not fear you are blocking me? I hear you to read journey Xiaoyu in dream more than once” 薛莹那天听到程晓羽的回答就知道自己也许做错了什么,后面也一直没敢问裴砚晨和程晓羽到底怎么一回事,此刻见裴砚晨提起,有些讪讪,“我不是怕你拦着我么？我不止一次听见你在梦里念程晓羽” Pei Yanchen interrupts Xue Ying words, said: „My life does not need others' interference, I called his name to be only because I was very repugnant he.” Pei Yanchen said reason that do not believe that then somewhat anxious wants to flash through Xue Ying to go out. 裴砚晨打断薛莹的话,说道:“我的人生不需要别人的干涉,我叫他的名字只是因为我很讨厌他。”裴砚晨说了个自己都不信的理由,然后就有些急切的想要闪过薛莹出门去。 Reason that no matter Xue Ying also Pei Yan early morning that collapses at the first blow , to continue to block her saying: „Small early morning, you do not talk clearly me not to put you to work today! I cannot get used to seeing...... you who that bird .......... journey Xiaoyu harms you to go to look at now the result not very well? Reveals the truth, everyone untied to your misunderstanding!” 薛莹也不管裴砚晨那不堪一击的理由,继续拦住她说道:“小晨,你今天不说清楚我可不会放你去打工的！我也是看不惯那个禽……….程晓羽伤害你才去的……你看现在结局不挺好的吗？真相大白,大家对你的误会都解开了！” Pei Yan early morning the complexion is somewhat pale, thought: „It‘s nothing misunderstanding, is I gave instead of taking journey Xiaoyu, rejected is also I...... he, for I lie, I owe his many more and more, many to me does not know that goes also... how, but this matter asked me to acknowledge, acknowledged I did accept his pitying? Acknowledged before him, am I a despicable swindler?” 裴砚晨脸色有些苍白,心想:“没什么误会的,原来就是我倒贴程晓羽,被拒绝的也是我……他为了我撒谎而已,我欠他的越来越多,多到我都不知道如何去还…可是这种事情叫我怎么承认,承认我接受了他的怜悯？承认了在他面前,我不过是个卑劣的骗子？” In Pei Yan early morning she also base and low pride, this makes her be in deep sorrow at heart proudly, saying that she coldly: „Xue Ying, between I and him the matter is not such that you think, I thank you consider for me, but I really do not need anybody's help, we are only the roommates, such careful ......... Pei Yanchen do not remember Jiang Muhan once also to maintain itself to me”, finally is such harms itself, can only separate same friendship such phrase with the unkind language. 在裴砚晨心里她还有一丝卑微的骄傲,这骄傲让她痛不欲生,她冷冷的说道:“薛莹,我和他之间的事情不是你想的那样,我谢谢你替我着想,但是我真不需要任何人的帮助,我们只是室友而已,你别对我这样上心………”裴砚晨想起蒋沐涵曾经也是那么的维护自己,最后又是那样的伤害自己,只能用刻薄的语言将自己同友谊这样的字眼割裂开来。 To her when he avoids the safe/without matter the friendship of excessive warm feelings, this can cause some of her few burdens and commitments. She disagreed others saying that senseless idle word, this can make her avoid the troubled mood to be clear. She also as far as possible not recall past , regardless of when happy comes bitterly and astringently the road is irretraceable. 对于她来说他避开无事时过分热络的友谊,这能使她少些负担和承诺。她不和旁人多说无谓的闲言,这能使她避开纷扰情绪清畅。她也尽可能不去回忆往事,因为无论甜蜜还是苦涩来时的路不能回头。 Xue Ying heard Pei Yanchen saying that declined to be shocked, what kind of she has not clarified journey Xiaoyu and Pei Yanchen relations are, but she looks that Pei Yanchen expression knows oneself made certainly the mistake, and wrong was very odd, saying that can only mutter: „ I am also...... „ 薛莹听到裴砚晨的说辞却愣住了,她已经弄不清楚程晓羽和裴砚晨的关系到底是怎么样的了,但她看着裴砚晨的表情知道自己一定做错了,并且错的很离谱,只能喃喃的说道:“我也是……“ Pei Yanchen shakes the head saying: „Studies the elder sister, remembers that initially you moved, how I told you? I do not have other request, the only request respects mutually, friend or stranger along with reason. Even the good friend will still have the distance, depended too nearly recognizes the opposite party is too clear, is easy to have the issue. Regarding this matter, I have not blamed your meaning, but I thought that we are each other maintain the appropriate distance!” 裴砚晨摇头说道:“学姐,记得当初你搬进来,我跟你怎么说的么？我没有别的要求,唯一的要求就是互相尊重,亲疏随缘。即使是再好的朋友也应该有距离,靠的太近将对方认得太清,就容易产生问题。对于这件事情,我并没有怪你的意思,但我觉得我们还是彼此保持适当距离吧！” After saying, Pei Yanchen crosses complexion somewhat complex Xue Ying, pushes the door to go. She knows that Xue Ying original intention is good, but is with good intention easier to do the wrong thing sometimes, went out of the block of flats. 说完之后,裴砚晨越过面色有些复杂的薛莹,推门而去。她知道薛莹的本意是好的,可有些时候好心更容易做错事,走出了公寓楼。 Pei Yanchen is somewhat sad, not long, she like all the young female students of being ignorant of affair just like the transparent crystal, does not have the flaw to be filthy only, simple-hearted, the look is bright and clear like the sky, yearningly and yearned to the future. 裴砚晨的心情有些沉重,曾几何时,她也像所有不谙世事的小女生一样宛若透明水晶,净无瑕秽,天真无邪,眼神如天空般明亮、澄澈,对未来充满憧憬和向往。 That time sunlight always bright dazzling, making form nowhere hide, even if were the most sad day, the sky that deep blue such as washed did not bring trace of cloud. 那时的阳光总是明亮耀眼,使身影无处躲藏,哪怕是最悲伤的日子,湛蓝如洗的天空也不带一丝云彩。 However, the tribulation loves her very much, once eradicated her. When the brutal life, making her lose the young worry-free fearless time. 然而,磨难很爱她,一度将她连根拔起。残酷的生活,令她遗失了年幼时无忧无惧的时光。 This blue star, the myriad things grow difficultly, the severely cold intense summer heat four seasons circulation, the gust of wind sudden downpour day and night is restless. The nicest confession possibly is the lie, the most romantic love possibly is a trap, she never knows in script that others write arbitrarily, is hiding the evil intention, is intimate. 这个蓝色的星球,万物艰难生长,严寒酷暑四季流转,疾风骤雨昼夜不息。最动听的告白可能是谎言,最浪漫的恋慕可能是陷阱,她永远不知道别人擅自写好的剧本里,藏匿着恶意,还是亲密。 Therefore, she learned indifferently by right, the learned maintains to anything vigilant, has to guard about anybody, once made the resolution, not hesitant did not regret. Learned with not to reveal happily protects itself wickedly. 于是,她学会了冷漠以对,学会对任何事保持警惕、对任何人心存提防,一旦做了决断,就不犹豫不后悔。学会了用不流露喜恶来保护自己。 Even if facing all sorts of acrid taunts or denigrating viciously, she still no longer reveals the demeanor. Even if did not wait warmly, she no longer is still disappointed. 即使面对种种尖酸嘲讽或恶毒咒骂,她也不再表露声色。即便不被热情以待,她也不再失望。 She does not have the too much time to indulge in this moved of March/three months, she puts on the earphone, North Korea Subway Station half step walks, tonight she has three performances to catch up. 她没有太多时间沉溺在这三月的伤感里,她戴上耳机,朝地铁站快步走去,今天晚上她有三场演出要赶。 ............... …………… Must suit the subject, must show the play elegant demeanor, or the weak national prestige, is profound, this was journey Xiaoyu to oneself basically requests, to ponder diligently for a week, to „the 67 th anniversary of victory in the antifascist war” the party program had a preliminary conception. 要切合主题,要展现上戏风采,还要不弱国威,思想深刻,这是程晓羽对自己最基本的要求,冥思苦想了一个星期,才对“反法西斯战争胜利67周年”的晚会节目有了一个初步的构想。 journey Xiaoyu calls to communicate deserted/few Dong, Dean deserted/few naturally said that the school full power supports, all expenses and personnel said. 程晓羽打了电话跟廖东能沟通了一下,廖院长自然说学校全力支持,一切费用和人员都好说。 The population of journey Xiao feather need is a much less, probably more than 100 people, must turn over to him to mix including on play symphony orchestra and previous play choir, in addition also needs the modern electronic orchestra, as well as cinema institute assists him to photograph a team leader to reach more than 20 minutes of videos. 程晓羽这一次需要的人数有点多,大概一百多人,包括上戏交响乐团、上戏合唱团都要归他调配,除此之外还需要现代电子乐队,以及电影学院协助他拍摄一组长达二十多分钟的视频。 deserted/few Dong can naturally without hesitation complies, he feared that journey Xiaoyu is perfunctory, along with imagining a program settles, journey Xiao a feather weaponry is bigger, he more felt relieved, said again this party wants is imposing, is small, a weaponry is not big, how to show on me the play background? 廖东能自然是毫不犹豫的答应下来,他就怕程晓羽敷衍,随意想个节目了事,程晓羽阵仗越大,他越是放心,再说了这种晚会要的就是气势宏大,人数不多,阵仗不大,何以彰显我上戏底蕴？ journey Xiaoyu gave deserted/few Dong to be able a list, requesting Dean deserted/few to advance the rehearsal these people who he wrote, these all were the friend and schoolmate who he was familiar with. Participation so significant performance, this to journey Xiaoyu and does not have any, but to them is not only the experience is also the qualifications, perhaps can also have the opportunities and many leaders takes a group photo, this is mostly the average person long-awaited opportunity. 程晓羽给了廖东能一个名单,要求廖院长把他写的这些人都加进排练,这些全是他熟悉的朋友和同学。参与如此重大的演出,这对程晓羽来说并没有什么,可是对他们来说既是经历也是资历,说不定还能有机会和许多领导人合影,这更是大多普通人梦寐以求的机会。 journey Xiaoyu is not any unselfish person, since the school gave him the right, without influence quality of programs, he will certainly appoint people by favoritism. 程晓羽并不算什么大公无私的人,既然学校给了他权利,在不影响节目质量的情况下,他当然会任人唯亲。 Has not stemmed from deserted/few Dong to expect, journey Xiaoyu roll-call Pei Yanchen makes the chief violin, Duanmu Linsha piano accompaniment, as for often/common Yue, Wu Fan, Huang Man ni wait/etc, so long as journey Xiaoyu knew that was added by him, but Su Yu will become the next to last act that he performs, originally summer Shamo perhaps Yu appropriately, but was a pity very much summer Shamo is not on plays. 没有出乎廖东能预料,程晓羽点名裴砚晨做首席小提琴,端木林莎钢琴伴奏,至于常岳、吴凡、黄曼妮等等只要程晓羽认识的,都被他加了进来,而苏虞兮将成为他表演的压轴,本来夏纱沫也许比苏虞兮更合适一点,但是很可惜夏纱沫并不是上戏的。 However this cannot call it the regret, after all journey Xiaoyu believes by Su Yu perfect that the art or technique of singing same can display. 不过这也不能称之为遗憾,毕竟程晓羽相信凭借苏虞兮的唱功一样能表现的很完美。 After the program decides got down, made the sketchy personnel arrangement, vigorous and resolute deserted/few Dong can, third day call in the music electricity classroom to meet the person who journey Xiao the feather needs, the big electricity classroom person sat dense one piece, at this moment they have not known that is anything, low voice mutually is inquiring. 节目定了下来之后,做了粗略的人员筹备,雷厉风行的廖东能,第三天就将程晓羽需要的人召集起来在音乐电教室开会,诺大的电教室人坐了黑压压的一片,此刻他们都还不知道是什么事情,都在小声的互相询问着。 journey Xiaoyu sits in the first row, sometimes is often looking at the entrance, he also somewhat worried that Pei Yanchen will not come, when Pei Yanchen wears the gray-black high-necked sweater, the cream-colored slacks appear, when electricity classroom, electricity classroom short silent. 程晓羽坐在第一排,时不时望着门口,他还有些担心裴砚晨不会来,当裴砚晨穿着灰黑色的高领毛衣,米色的休闲裤出现在电教室的时候,电教室短暂的寂静了一下。 Ordinary everyone rarely sees Pei Yan early morning deliberately to dress up itself, obviously today's Pei Yanchen and somewhat is usually different, not only melted the light makeup to accommodate, that is sticking to the woolen sweater and slacks of body, outlined such as the mountain high mountains to annoy the person daydream the line and pair of straight slender both legs, she at this moment compared usually was short much indifferent, were many much charming, her moving, „sex appeal” two characters can describe incessantly, these two characters described the impact that actually in turn the sense of people are obtaining suddenly was more appropriate. 平常大家很少看见裴砚晨刻意的打扮自己,显然今天的裴砚晨和平时有些不同,不仅化了淡淡的妆容,那紧贴着身体的毛衣和休闲裤,勾勒出如青山峻岭惹人遐思的线条和一双笔直修长的双腿,此刻的她较平时少了不少冷漠,多了不少妩媚,她的动人,远不止“性感”两个字可以形容,倒是将这两个字反过来形容众人的感官在一时间得到的冲击更为贴切。 At this time everyone recalled in the exclamation, has not read the play before Su Yu, she once was on majority the play scholar in the bedroom, in the classroom, in the cafeteria, „on the flower of play Takarei” discussed in the theater. 这时候大家才在惊叹中记起,在苏虞兮没有读上戏之前,她曾经是大多数上戏学子在寝室,在教室,在食堂,在剧院所谈论的“上戏高岭之花”。 deserted/few Dong can first say convenes everyone's goal, then repeatedly emphasized to everyone importance that this program rehearses, the underground all participants are also excited, can have the opportunity to participate in such significant party, this is the school to their affirmations, is the extremely important qualifications, but listens to deserted/few Dong to be able extremely stern, the people who the situation said somewhat worried that the program was eliminated. 廖东能先是说了召集大家的目的,然后一再向所有人强调了这次节目排练的重要性,地下的所有参与者也是心情激动,能够有机会参与这样重大的晚会,这是学校对他们的肯定,也是极其重要的资历,只是听廖东能将形势说的万分严峻,众人都有些担心节目被淘汰。 When deserted/few Dong can announce the head of this program is journey Xiaoyu, the electricity classroom first is in an uproar, is the heavenshaking applause, in an uproar is because such important matter gave a student to be responsible for unexpectedly, applause was because, thinks that journey Xiaoyu the status, felt no one to be able compared with this more suitable candidate, at the worry program can't, have journey Xiaoyu the expert platform like this, the people had the confidence. 而当廖东能宣布这次节目的负责人是程晓羽的时候,电教室先是一片哗然,接着就是震天的掌声,哗然是因为这么重要的事情居然交给了一个学生来负责,鼓掌是因为,想了想程晓羽的身份,觉得没有人能够比这位更合适的人选了,也不在担心节目会不会过,有程晓羽这样的大拿站台,众人都有了信心。 deserted/few Dong can ask journey Xiaoyu to mount the stage to speak several words, journey Xiaoyu not polite, modest several, requested several, hopes several, start methodically narrated the rehearsal plan. 廖东能叫程晓羽上台说几句话,程晓羽也没有客气,谦虚了几句,要求了几句,期盼了几句,就开始有条不紊的叙说排练计划。 journey Xiaoyu spoke, subconscious swept the vision to Pei Yanchen, but Pei Yan early morning the entire journey looks that window outside in April was fragrant, not only has not wanted to listen to journey Xiaoyu saying that completely anything's meaning, has not looked at his one eyes. 程晓羽说话的时候,下意识的就将目光扫向裴砚晨,只是裴砚晨全程看着窗户外面的四月芳菲,不仅完全没有想要听程晓羽在说什么的意思,更没有看他一眼。 This lets journey Xiao feather inexplicable losing somewhat, even if the somewhat beautiful thing clearly knows that cannot have, actually does not hate to drop, is still the corruption in heart reads causes trouble. He knows oneself cannot look at Mount Fuji refined sublime, but also the expectation appreciates pyramid simultaneously mysterious grand. He cannot enjoy the convenient lively neon of city to be radiant, but also implored to have the silent leisurely and carefree roaring of island to enter the starry night. 这让程晓羽莫名的有些失落,有些美好的事物即使明知道不能够拥有,却舍不得放手,也是心中的贪念作祟。他知道自己不能看着富士山的雅致壮美,还奢望同时欣赏金字塔的神奇宏伟。他不能享受着城市的便捷繁华霓虹璀璨,还祈求拥有海岛的寂静悠闲涛声入星夜。 Breaks up, journey Xiao feather departure in a hurry, even somewhat flees to the wilderness, he for own this moment greedy and shame. This called the person who prepared to ask him to take a group photo to be somewhat disappointed, therefore everyone turned the head to look with usual optional entirely different Pei Yanchen, that was only aloof pitifully beside asked many people to shrink back at the sight indifferently. 散了会,程晓羽匆匆的离去,甚至有些落荒而逃,他为自己这一刻的贪婪而惭愧。这叫准备找他合影的人有些失望,于是大家都转头望着与平时的随意截然不同的裴砚晨,只可惜那拒人千里之外的冷漠叫很多人望而却步。 But also has the female student to have the courage, arrives at Pei Yan early morning side, somewhat disturbed said with her: „Pei Yanchen, can I take a group photo with you?” 但也有女生鼓起勇气,走到裴砚晨身边,有些忐忑的跟她说道:“裴砚晨,我能够和你合影吗？” Pei Yan early morning is somewhat surprised, but has not rejected, this time was happy, in the short more than ten minutes of journey Xiaoyu speech, fell on her vision reaches 89 times, had not the short stay each time, this made her feel that oneself has not dressed up white/in vain. 裴砚晨有些意外,但并没有拒绝,她这时的心情还算不错,在短短的十多分钟程晓羽的讲话里,落在她身上的目光多达八九次,每次都有不短的停留,这让她觉得自己并没有白打扮。 Pei Yan early morning rare showed the smile in the group photo, after the female student took a group photo jubilantly departed, said with the boyfriend: „Pei Yanchen is not completely difficult to do like the imagination, moreover she is very attractive, does not lose Su Yu completely many.” 裴砚晨难得在合影里露出了笑脸,女生兴高采烈的合影之后离去,跟男友说道:“裴砚晨完全不像想象中那样难打交道啊,而且她真的很漂亮,完全不输苏虞兮多少。” The boyfriends favor saying that drowns: „Yes! Very attractive, however in my you most attractive.” 男友宠溺的说道:“是啊！是挺漂亮的,但是在我心里还是你最漂亮。” The female students hit the male student one saying: „You spoke credibly also! Asked others to hear embarrassed!” 女生打了男生一下说道:“你说话也得靠谱一点啊！叫别人听见了多不好意思啊！” Boyfriend complacent saying of: „ That has anything to be embarrassed! Even if Su Yu and Pei Yanchen stands before me, I said like this ......... „ 男友洋洋得意的说道:“那有什么不好意思的！就算苏虞兮和裴砚晨站在我面前,我都这样说………“ „! You feared that does not have by the soul of others fan!” “切！你怕是早就被别人迷的魂都没了！” Saying that the boyfriends make much ado about nothing: „ How possibly, my at heart only then you do not have him „ 男友大惊小怪的说道:“怎么可能,我的心里只有你没有他“ „Do we have the feast? The celebration our both are selected in the program group!” “那我们去吃大餐么？庆祝我们两个都入选节目组！” „ You said that eats anything to eat anything „ “你说吃什么就吃什么“ Pei Yanchen walks in behind, looks lover who creates a disturbance to leave, starting to imagine the love is what appearance. 裴砚晨走在后面,看着打打闹闹离开的情侣,开始想象恋爱是什么样子的。 Perhaps might as well be so at present happy, is only every day every day, is living calm, sleeps, gets out of bed and eats meal. The mood has the good time, there is not a good time, watches the television with him, the learn/study, the instrumental ensemble, goes to school or goes to work, he will kiss her forehead when resting, she when he will leave will kiss his cheeks. Do not be mammoth, does not want sad touching romantic, light, the ordinary point is good, when like this review these day after day ordinary day unknowingly, will discover that it will leave behind anything somewhat. 也许不如眼前这般甜蜜,只是每天每天,波澜不惊地活着,睡觉、起床、吃饭。情绪有好的时候,也有不好的时候,和他一起看电视,学习,合奏,去上学或者上班,他会在睡前亲吻她的额头,她会在他离开时亲吻他的脸颊。不要波澜壮阔,也不要凄美浪漫,平淡一点,平凡一点就好,这样当自己不经意回眸那些日复一日的平凡日子时,会发现它多多少少都会留下些什么。 Perhaps the love like the sand beaches in these seashore, is pure and warm. 也许恋爱就像那些海边的沙滩一样,纯净而温暖。 Was a pity very much, was so long, Pei Yanchen never has the time to have a look at the sea is what appearance, therefore she does not know that the sand beach is what appearance, she likes journey Xiaoyu in a picture that „song” on sends, above is the deep blue sea and boundless sky melts one piece, the white clouds embellishment above, is complementing the yellowing sand beach such as the exquisite hard sugar, the trail that winds had not been swallowed by the ocean waves, seems like on the map the long boundary line. 只是很可惜,这么久了,裴砚晨从来没时间去看看大海是什么样子的,因此她也更不知道沙滩是什么样子的,她只是喜欢程晓羽在“细语”上发的一张照片,上面是蔚蓝的大海与无垠的天空融成一片,白色的云朵点缀在上面,映衬着泛黄的沙滩如细腻的砂糖,那蜿蜒的足迹还没有被海浪吞噬,像是地图上漫长的边界线。 Pei Yanchen thought: In instance that oneself and he meet, my life changed. The experience feels, an eye of institute and all starts becomes colorful, as if in the world, starts to shine to shine, like once is not pessimistic. 裴砚晨心想:在自己和他相遇的瞬间,我的人生就改变了。所见所闻所感,目之所及全都开始变得多姿多彩起来,似乎全世界,都开始发光发亮,不在像曾经那样全是灰色的。 Thinks the day of then rehearsing, can see journey Xiaoyu frequently, Pei Yanchen thought the breeze of April also warms, the oriental cherry must bloom.( To be continued.) 想到接下来排练的日子,可以经常见到程晓羽,裴砚晨觉得四月的微风也温暖起来,樱花又要开了。(未完待续。)