Has mixed feelings. 啊,心情复杂。 Reflects the bright light, Sun Lang calmly is reading that letter/believes from Mingzhou. 映着明亮的灯光,孙朗静静地看着那封来自明州的信。 The content of letter/believes contains as always, like that bashful young girl, but this contains is also hiding warmly, anticipates and stare at fu and hope own, all said. 信的内容还是一如既往地含蓄,就像那位含羞的少女一样,但这含蓄中也隐藏着热烈,将自己的期待、瞩咐和希望,全都说出来了。 Heroes...... 英雄吗…… The Sun Lang vision somewhat moves fast. 孙朗的目光有些飘忽。 Six years of that war and expedition battlefield, are the memories that he is not willing to recall, because of all heroic passing, actually establish above an extreme selfish truth, he as a different guest, has to be the own tranquil and happy life, arrives at this world, fights for this world, is not always his voluntary idea, but stems from despicable forcing. 那金戈铁马、征战沙场的六年,是他所不愿意去回想的记忆,因为一切英雄般的过往,其实建立在一个极端自私的真相之上,他作为一个异界来客,原本有着属于自己的平静而幸福的生活,来到这个世界,为这个世界而战,从来都不是他自愿的想法,而是源于卑鄙的逼迫。 As the ordinary earthman, one day arrives at Other World suddenly, this Other World was being tormented by the evil enemy, needs a hero to save, therefore the guest of different naturally becomes a day of electing formidable, leading everyone to beat the enemy, obtained the significance 11 such stories of life in this strange world, was he knows extremely well the bridge section, similar story, wanted many to have many. 身为平凡的地球人,突然有一天来到异世界,这个异世界正在被邪恶的敌人所荼毒,需要一位英雄来拯救,所以异界的来客理所当然地成为了天选的勇者,带领着大家击败了敌人,在这个陌生的世界获得了人生的意义一一这样的故事,是他熟稔之极的桥段,类似的故事,要多少有多少。 But this is not his story. 但这并不是他的故事。 His story wants brutal many compared with this, he faces did not beg the spiritless king who the formidable arrived, but acted out of desperation selfish high-rank, acute disease went see a doctor randomly, his saved the story of the world, not really happy brutal starts, laughable result of extreme satire. 他的故事比这个要残酷的多,他面对的不是乞求勇者降临的懦弱国王,而是狗急跳墙、急病乱投医的自私的上位者们,他这拯救世界的故事,有一个不甚美好的残酷开始,也有一个极度讽刺的可笑结局。 Yes, the formidable even beat the fiendish person, defeated all invaders...... is only process, not like the fairy tale and epic were on everybody's lips happy. 是的,勇者甚至击败了魔王,打败了所有的侵略者……只是其中的过程,并不像童话与史诗所传诵的那样美好。 This world...... was not happy. 这个世界……本来就不是美好的。 But experienced Sun Lang of these things, naturally, his mind also has announced quietly, cuts will seize the sense of achievement of flag, the sense of honor of overcoming the enemy, all these have dissipated with the wind, what like once existed as the honor same place of hero, and swallows by the boundless blood dark. 而经历了这些事情的孙朗,理所当然的,他的心灵也已经宣告沉寂,斩将夺旗的成就感,克敌制胜的荣誉感,这一切已经随风消逝,如同曾经存在的身为英雄的荣光一起,被无边的鲜血与黑暗所吞噬。 He does not believe the so-called hero, the so-called legend and so-called glory. 他已经不相信所谓的英雄、所谓的传说和所谓的荣耀了。 Because of he himself, exists in the biggest lie in history this world...... part, he personally experiences, witnesses, always remembered personally. 因为他自己,就是存在于这个世界的有史以来的最大的谎言的……一部分,他亲身经历,亲眼目睹,亲自铭记。 Therefore...... hero? 所以……英雄吗？ He is chewing this phrase, he recalled in the past matter, in his mind appeared the Yinluo smile, the anticipation and expectation of this girl, wrote in this letter/believes. 他嘴嚼着这个字眼,他回忆起往昔的事情,他脑海中浮现出了银落的笑颜,这个女孩儿的期待与期望,都写在了这封信里。 Although has not stated clearly, but Yinluo also truly revealed this idea. 虽然没有明说,但银落也确实表露了这种想法吧。 Hopes Sun Lang can retrieve heroic, stands in the sunlight, cool breeze again. 希望孙朗能够寻回英雄般的自己,再次站在阳光之下、清风之中。 She said that regardless has what reason, but that six years truly are the recollections that create, these people, these matters, these defeat, these sacrifices...... the be continuous dozens years of bloody battles, under the crisis of national subjugation and genocide, the whole nation fight foreign enemy, people from all corners of the country abandoned spiritlessly with shrinking, fought for the same faith, this made the epic story that one one's blood bubbles up to the brim. 她说,无论其中有什么因由,但那六年确实是自己所创造的回忆,那些人,那些事,那些战胜,那些牺牲……绵延数十年的血战,在亡国灭种的危机下,举国抗击外敌,来自五湖四海的人们拋弃懦弱与畏缩,为了同一个信念而战,这本来就是令人热血沸腾的史诗故事。 But in this epic, must have an cannot erase form. 而这史诗之中,应当有一个不可磨灭的身影。 Like Shiraba prestige, regardless has made anything in the big barren hill, his these years merit and pays is obliterated, Sun Lang is also still fondly remembering he heroic past years. 就像白羽威无论在大荒山做过什么,他这几十年的功绩和付出也不会被磨灭,就连孙朗也依然怀念着他英雄般的当年。 Since including Shiraba prestige will once always remember why that is not willing to remember own 9 既然连白羽威的曾经都会铭记,那为什么不肯记住自己的呢九 11 this probably is Yinluo subtext. 一一这大概是银落的潜台词吧。 ...... Where is so easy. 只是……哪有这么容易。 Sun Lang smiled slowly, shakes the head. 孙朗慢慢地笑了起来,摇了摇头。 Yes, the destiny makes one, the mistake arising out of chance circumstances, and even today, wants unique, where is so easy. 是啊,命运弄人,阴差阳错,乃至今日,想要超脱,哪有这么容易。 But......, if this is your request, I try again. 只不过……如果这是你的要求的话,那我就再试试吧。 After all you worship the Tianyuan hero, after all this is, it is said each girls dreams that you hope, vainly hoped for that the own loved one is a being indomitable spirit big hero, although you did not say, also has this thought at heart, such being the case, I try again. 毕竟你这么崇拜天元英雄,毕竟这是你所希望的,据说每一个女孩子都有一个梦想,梦想自己的意中人是一个顶天立地的大英雄,你虽然不说,心里也有这种念头吧,既然如此,那我就再试试吧。 Sun Lang has the light happy expression, continued to look, the letter/believes also had one page. 孙朗带着淡淡的笑意,继续看了下去,信还有一页。 But, his smile slowly pale. 但紧接着,他的笑容就慢慢淡了下去。 From the handwriting, Yinluo as if very hesitates, but she hesitant was very long, wrote eventually. 从字迹上看,银落似乎很犹豫,但她犹豫了很久,终究写出来了。 She talked about the matter of today, said the valuable elder sister's mood to surge, says their worry, Yinluo said, two elder sisters were comforted by her temporarily, they were the good girls, not because this matter runs to trouble you, they hesitant and place the heart frightened, when you gave them an answer, but hopes that you finish Qinzhou to be able soon to come back afterward. 她讲了今天白天发生的事情,说出了宝姐姐的情绪激荡,说出了她们的担忧,银落说,两位姐姐暂时被她安抚了下来,她们都是好姑娘,不会因为这种事情跑来麻烦你,她们会将犹豫和恐惧放在心底,等你给她们一个答案,但希望你忙完秦州之事后能够早日回来。 Because of their heart knots, will soon untie quite well. 因为她们的心结,还是早日解开比较好。 The content of letter/believes, stopped to here, looked at the Yinluo that hidden bitterness tip, Sun Lang was falling into for a very long time silence finally. 信的内容,到这里就停了下,望着银落最后那不无幽怨的笔锋,孙朗陷入了久久的沉默。 Rong Guofu involves his beforehand status, arrives at the reason in this world related to him, is all starts , is to maintain itself and passing final fetters. 荣国府涉及到他以前的身份,涉及到他来到这世上的因由,是一切的开始,也是维系自己与过往的最后羁绊。 He wants to cut off this fetters neatly, but after seeing the valuable elder sister and younger sister forest, such idea pale, because they have not forgotten him. 他本来想干脆利落地斩断这羁绊的,但见到宝姐姐和林妹妹之后,这样的想法就淡了下来,因为她们从来没有忘记他。 Even if heard the sad news, thinks that he died in battle the big barren hill, they have not given up hoping, announced in the presence of everyone marries into Jia, chooses observes one's mourning for him, if ten years do not come back, on and other years, if do not come back for a lifetime,...... the unreasoning passion renounce on for a lifetime, only for a thought that had no complain and regret do. 即使听到了噩耗,以为他战死了大荒山,她们也没有放弃希望,当众宣布嫁入贾家,选择为他守孝,如果十年不回来,就等十年,如果一辈子不回来,就等一辈子……痴情而决绝,只为了一个念头,就无怨无悔地做了。 Such emotion makes him be at a loss. 这样的情感让他无所适从。 Since the war of big barren hill ended, the life had the explicit weight in his eyes, his emotion becomes faint, pities becomes scarce, the morality and sense of right or wrong become a fuzziness. 自从大荒山之战结束后,生命在他眼中就有了明确的重量,他的情感变得淡漠,怜悯变得稀缺,道德观念与是非观念变得一片模糊。 The baby and unpardonably wicked criminal of birth do not have much difference in his eyes, if decided that must kill, he can choke to death 100 babies coolly continuously, because of even the baby, still with the average man not different life, takes the life, why to distinguish what size, the murder kills people, the murderer is a murderer, not the status of person because you will kill but all different, they will be the life, the murder kill people, not different. 呱呱坠地的婴孩和十恶不赦的罪犯在他眼中没有太大的区别,如果决定要杀的话,他可以面不改色地连续掐死一百个婴儿,因为即使是婴儿,也不过是与常人无异的生命,同样是剥夺生命,何必去辨别什么大小,杀人就是杀人,凶手就是凶手,不会因为你杀的人的身份而所有不同,他们都是生命,杀人都是杀人,没什么两样。 But that matter, does not wield a sword the issue that kills people can solve. 但那件事情,不是挥剑杀人就能解决的问题。 That has recorded him, is waiting for him, is trusting him, in this world sincerity to his good person. 那是一直记着他,等着他,信任着他,这个世上真心对他好的人。 Trust and waiting and whence, this is he is earnestly seeking, the extremely scarce thing. 信任、等待与爰,这是他渴求着的、极度稀缺的东西。 Facing such valuable elder sister and younger sister forest, he could not say the rejection words, he is unable to make what excessive behavior, he will be protecting them as before, will not let them by an injury. 面对那样的宝姐姐和林妹妹,他说不出拒绝的话,他无法做出什么过分的行为,他会像以前一样保护着她们,不会让她们受一点伤害。 Therefore, he to their honest own status, he has not rather been some time the Rong Guofu treasure two masters again, does not want to tell them towering 11, your cousins six years ago the dead ball, I are crossing over who was summoned, pleasantly surprised, is accidental? 所以,他至今没有向她们俩坦诚自己的身份,他宁可再做一段时间荣国府宝二爷,也不想突兀地告诉她们俩一一嘿,你们的表亲在六年前已经死球了,我是个被召唤过来的穿越者,惊不惊喜,意不意外？ Certainly will be frightened......, therefore cannot act with undue haste. 一定会被吓到的吧……所以不能操之过急。 However now looks like, the valuable da elder sister they had detected that some clue, after all they are the intelligent females, that side Mingzhou many traces, they will certainly notice. 不过现在看来,宝妲姐她们已经察觉到些许端倪,毕竟她们都是聪慧的女子,明州那边的很多蛛丝马迹,她们一定会注意到的。 Sun Lang seemed like thought of anything, his look moved slightly, all disassembled the remaining packages directly, then found the valuable elder sister and younger sister forest, and disassembled their letters. 孙朗似乎是想到了什么,他神色微动,直接将剩下的包裹全都拆开,然后找到了宝姐姐和林妹妹的,并拆开她们的信。 The content in letter/believes, imagines with him is the same. 信中的内容,与他想象中的一样。 Regards, missing, as well as comfort. 问候,思念,以及安慰。 How greeted his body, diet how, weather how. 问候他身体如何,饮食如何,天气如何。 Misses him in Qinzhou, hopes that he comes back sooner. 思念他远在秦州,希望他早些回来。 Comforts him not to need sorrowfully in the death of Shiraba prestige, told him saying that they understood and support the Sun Lang behavior, moreover other Tianyuan robe Ze, will thank him for all that Shiraba prestige made. 安慰他不必伤怀于白羽威之死,告诉他说,她们俩都理解和支持孙朗的行为,而且其他的天元袍泽,也都会感谢他为白羽威所做的一切。 This point, their views and Yinluo and the others are also different, what Yinluo they know is leaves the battlefield, to look through the worldly affairs careless Sun Lang, has not seen the Sun Lang heroic past years, therefore when hears choice of Sun Lang in Bai Village, felt that excited and joyful and is charmed. 这一点,她们的看法与银落等人又不一样,银落她们认识的是离开战场、看破世情的吊儿郎当的孙朗,从来没有见过孙朗英雄般的当年,所以听到孙朗在白家堡时的选择,感到激动、欣喜与神往。 But the valuable elder sister and younger sister forest they are different. 但宝姐姐和林妹妹她们不同。 Their anything does not know, they do not know the Sun Lang real status, does not know Sun Lang in the experience of big barren hill, does not know why Sun Lang will turn into now this appearance. 她们什么都不知道,她们不知道孙朗的真实身份,不知道孙朗在大荒山的经历,也不知道孙朗为什么会变成现在这个样子。 They only know, own husband is excels by far six army and merit lid present ages certainly for the star, is in the Tianyuan hero spectrum the most dazzling stars, in their mind, Sun Lang was the past appearance, unparalleled in the world, the whole world is forever difficult to seek, Heaven's Chosen general matchless hero. 她们只知道,自己的夫君是冠绝六军、功盖当代的绝代名将,是天元英雄谱中最耀眼的星辰,在她们的心目中,孙朗永远都是当年的模样,天下无双,举世难寻,天骄一般的盖世英雄。 Therefore regarding Sun Lang all that makes in Bai Village, they thought that this is natural, will not have the slight surprise and surprise, will only offer as comforting of wife and affirmed. 所以对于孙朗在白家堡所做的一切,她们觉得这是理所当然的,不会有丝毫的诧异和惊奇,只会献上身为妻子的宽慰与肯定。 Is...... their anything does not know. 是的……她们什么都不知道。 Because their status were doomed Sun Lang like not treating Zhao Yunlong also opens the heart to them, something old Zhao know, but they actually cannot know. 因为她们的身份注定了孙朗不会像对待赵云龙那样也对她们敞开心扉,有些事情老赵知道,但她们却不能知道。 For example, his real status...... because of Lin Daiyu and Xue Baochai, is Rong Guofu's person. 譬如说,他的真实身份……因为林黛玉和薛宝钗,是荣国府的人。 Sun Lang sent out the slight sigh. 孙朗发出了轻微的叹息。 The valuable da elder sister's letter/believes, is the younger sister forest letter/believes, such that the content in letter/believes such as he imagines, only then sent regards, misses and comforts, not about other any contents. 无论是宝妲姐的信,还是林妹妹的信,信中的内容如他所想像的那样,只有问候、思念与宽慰,没有关于其他的任何内容。 Yinluo raised in the heart, about their vacant and startled, was raises has not raised, as if simply did not have such matter to happen...... like such that Yinluo said that they were the good girls, will have the concern only to place at heart him, rather than took to trouble him on own initiative. 银落在心中提起的,关于她们的茫然与惊慌,更是提都没提,仿佛根本没有这样的事情发生……就像银落所说的那样,她们都是好姑娘,有心事只会放在心里等他来说,而不是主动拿出来麻烦他。 Sun Lang also sighed gently. 孙朗又轻轻地叹了口气。 The so-called beautiful woman graciousness heavy...... such feeling, the feeling is very good, is not quite good. His finger knocks the table subconsciously, at once, the train of thought hundred revolutions, he is fake goods, knows nothing about Rong Guofu a thousand-mile away, he continuously to that place with resistance, going to war time, most has a headache is sooner or later one day, the weaponry fired off, Heavenly Demon drove out, then he as if must go back, gets in that strange home, the whole face compels ignorant facing the old ladies who one group is sure to examines. 所谓美人恩重……这样的感觉,感觉很好,又不太好。他的手指下意识地叩击桌子,一时之间,思绪百转,他是个冒牌货,对远在千里之外的荣国府一无所知,他一直对那个地方怀着抗拒,打仗的时候,最头疼的就是迟早有一天,仗打完了,天魔被攆跑了,然后他似乎就得回去了,回到那个陌生的家里,满脸懵逼地面对一帮切切察察的老娘们。 However...... perhaps, must face sooner or later. 但是……也许,迟早要面对的。 He is hesitating, got down some decision gradually, but the next quarter, his look moves. 他犹豫着,渐渐下了某个决定,但是下一刻,他神色一动。 Outside some people in speedy approach, listening to the footsteps are Wei Zhongxian, his sound of footsteps is somewhat rapid, as if had what urgent matter general 11 then, Wei Zhongxian sounded the door. 外面有人在迅速接近,听脚步是魏忠贤,他的脚步声有些急促,似乎发生了什么急事一般一一然后,魏忠贤就敲响了房门。