„In childhood in the family/home was very bitter, lives in the countryside, that little while, works not to have the wages, goes to the cafeteria to have the mess. A year two clothes, sewing and mending, what eaten is the plain food. Said that some you do not know, your grandmother its grown directly from seed many sons, the first embryo twin, the birth died a few days , the second embryo is your mother, before me, two, elder brother elder sister, but has not supported, the day is too bitter. Otherwise I and your mother will not miss so many years. Your grandfather is the temper of being stronger, feared poorly, feared painstakingly, afterward looked for the relations, entered the state-owned enterprise. Oneself, has studied, took several years to produce the pivot man, after going through many places, assigned to Shanghai. Afterward crawled slowly, became the small leadership.” “小时候家里很苦,生活在乡下,那会儿吧,干活没工资的,去食堂吃大锅饭。一年两套衣服,缝缝补补,吃的是粗茶淡饭。说些你不知道的,你外婆其实生了好多崽,第一胎双胞胎,出生没几天就夭折了,第二胎是你妈,在我之前,还有两个,一个哥哥一个姐姐,但都没养活,日子过太苦了。不然我和你妈也不会差这么多岁。你外公是要强的性子,穷怕了,苦怕了,后来找关系,进了国企。自己呢,又读过书,拿了几年生产标兵,几经辗转,分配到沪市来。再后来慢慢爬,当上了小领导。” „In my impression most profound a few words: Diligently, does not work as a rube forever, does not struggle, can never marry the wife. He always tells me. Does not look down upon the meaning of farmer, he was, is only then farmer, really an outlet did not have, to mix a warm and sufficient condition.” “我印象中最深刻的一句话:不努力,永远当个泥腿子,不奋斗,永远娶不着媳妇。他总是这么跟我说的。不是看不起农民的意思,他自己就是,只是当时的农民,真的一点出路都没有,混个温饱而已。” The Qin Ze heart said, the grandfather is quite encouraging. 秦泽心说,外公好励志。 „Your grandfather added that although Qin Jianzhang this evil descendant looks seriously, cutting open to be black, but the moral behavior has also calculated going, whole family, contradictory essential, but do not forget to lead by the hand mutually, mutual support.” “你外公还说,虽然秦建章这孙贼看着一本正经,剖开来是黑的,但人品还算过的去,一家人,矛盾必不可少,但不要忘了相互提携,相互扶持。” Has not really thought that the grandfather affirmed unexpectedly the old gentleman's moral behavior, remembers old gentleman added that in the past did after the Mother Qin belly was big, the grandfather said that his mean and shameless waste is coming. 真没想到外公竟然肯定了老爷子的人品,记得老爷子还说,当年把秦妈肚子搞大后,外公说他卑鄙无耻的人渣来着。 In fact, in the uncle also truly raises the gift to come home frequently looks at him and elder sister. 事实上,舅舅也确实经常提着礼物来家里看他和姐姐。 „After he business gives me, that several years, I every day rush about, receive goods to produce goods, sometimes a day only rests for four hours, tired is tired, but enriches, felt son who own this no school record, but also calculates to have prospects, gives father's family property smoothly following, and defended. Until 8 years, why does not know, makes what/anything to owe what/anything, has owed owes, not only the painstaking care several years ago threw away carelessly, was good to give instead of taking near million. Your grandfather is also that little while sickness, he lies on the bed, told me: Do not be discouraged, the father just started to do business, is not problem-free, when paid tuition, actually you were very smooth for these years, can suffer a hardship, is good.” “他把生意交给我后,那几年,我每天东奔西跑,收货出货,有时候一天只睡四个小时,累是累,但充实,感觉自己这个没什么学历的儿子,还算有出息,顺利把老子的家业给接下来,并且守好了。直到零八年,不知道为什么,做什么亏什么,一直亏啊亏,不但前几年的心血打水漂,好倒贴了近百万。你外公也是那会儿病的,他躺在床上,跟我说:别灰心,爸刚开始做生意,也不是一帆风顺,就当交学费了,其实你这几年都挺顺,能吃点苦头,也挺好。” „8 years of economic crisis?” Qin Ze knits the brows. “零八年经济危机？”秦泽皱眉。 However, as the average person, economic crisis what/anything, has minimal impact, moreover his age is also small, no feeling. 不过,做为普通人,经济危机什么的,影响不大,而且他年纪也小,没什么感觉。 „Right, at that time I was young and impetuous, even the market was not booming, I can still rush out sky, confirms own ability. I am holding such mentality, then owed.” “对,那时候我年轻气盛,就算市场不景气,我也能闯出一片天空,来验证自己的能力。我是抱着这样的心态的,然后又亏了。” Quite miserable! 好惨！ „Afterward gradually cannot receive the foot, others said that anything sells, I enter what/anything, what industry is good, I invest what industry. Finally most goods pound in the hand, the financial deficit makes me almost desperate. Similar that also more than one year, family's savings was defeated by me, at that time, I was very thin and pale, my father is also thin and pale, he gets sick deteriorates gradually, urging me first to stabilize the period of time, has a look at the quotation. But I have not listened, I am insane, some friends and I said, he found a good project, can make money, lacks a partner” “后来渐渐的收不住脚,别人说什么东西好卖,我就进什么,什么行业好,我就投资什么行业。最后大部分货都砸在手上,财政赤字让我几乎绝望。也就一年多,家里的积蓄被我败的差不多,那时,我很憔悴,我爸也憔悴,他病渐渐恶化,劝我先稳定一阵子,看看行情。但我没听,我已经疯了,有个朋友和我说,他找到了一个好项目,准能赚钱,缺一个合作伙伴” „Then, you were deceived by him.” Qin Ze said. “然后,你被他骗了。”秦泽说。 This matter he knows, even the impression is profound, Mother Qin cried at home for a long time, shortly, Qin Ze sees the uncle in the hospital, felt that his whole person broke down. No longer is that charming threatening uncle. 这件事他知道,甚至印象深刻,秦妈在家里哭了好久,不久后,秦泽在医院见到舅舅,感觉他整个人都垮了。不再是那个帅气逼人的舅舅。 „You still remember.” Uncle awkward smiling of, „, the final hope did not have, is shortly after this matter, your grandfather passed away.” “你还记得啊。”舅舅尴尬的笑了笑,“是啊,最后的希望也没了,也是这件事不久,你外公去世了。” Then the uncle opened the unconventional love free life, starts various types of waves, various pits. 然后舅舅就开启了放荡不羁爱自由的人生,开始各种浪,各种坑。 Qin Ze thought, possibly was the attack is too big, is deliberately bad. 秦泽心想,可能是打击太大,自暴自弃了吧。 „Before your grandfather walks, grabs my hand, said many many words, he has not blamed me, instead said that also good, when comes again, so long as is willing to try hard, the day association/will gets better and better, should not be defeated by a setback.” The uncle hey, he was smiling obviously, but Qin Ze actually felt that he is crying. “你外公走之前,抓着我的手,说了很多很多话,他没怪我,反而笑着说,也好,就当重新再来嘛,只要肯努力,日子总会越过越好,别被一次挫折打败了。”舅舅嘿了一声,他明明在笑,但秦泽却感觉他在哭。 „Even I of such waste, he have not blamed one finally.” “就算是这么废物的我,他最后也没责怪一句。” „I think that without the truth could not get up, the business failed, I can stage a comeback. Without the fund, I bet, I borrow, failure two, the association/will makes me succeed. But no, really a hope does not have. I lose are getting more and more, the owed debt are also getting more and more.” “我就想啊,没道理一直起不来,生意失败了,我可以东山再起嘛。没资金,我就去赌,我去借,失败一次两次,总会让我成功的吧。可是没有,真的一点希望都没有。我输的越来越多,欠的债也越来越多。” „I am unwilling” “我不甘心” „Several million family properties, such high beginning” “几百万的家底,这么高的起点” „But I more owe, more than ten years” “可我还是越欠越多,十多年了” „Unreasonable, really unreasonable.” “没道理的,真的没道理。” Qin Ze is silent. 秦泽默然。 „These years, I am always thinking, perhaps then the broken matter, I, my father he can live for several years. My mother has not blamed me, elder sister not strange, but I cannot cross my heart. Such a good family/home, such thick family property, my father's painstaking care for a lifetime, five years, five years was wasted all one's money by me. Every year pure brightness I do not dare to visit a grave, fear. I am thinking, sooner or later, I, by that time, I will one day see him sight again, sight sees him.” “这些年,我总在想,要不是那么破事,要不是我,我爸他没准能多活几年。我妈没怪我,姐也没怪,可我过不了自己的心坎。这么好的一个家,这么厚的家底,我爸一辈子的心血,五年,五年被我败光了。每年清明我都不敢去上坟,害怕。我想着,迟早有一天,我会风风光光的,到那时,我再去见他,风风光光的去见他啊。” This almost 40 man, squats on the ground, is holding in the mouth the smoke, crying likely final word. 这个四十男人,蹲在地上,叼着烟,哭的像个煞笔。 Qin Ze moves at heart, originally is this, gambles also well, speculates in the stock market also well, various types in taking risks that in others eyes acts recklessly, wants to look for the thing that once lost. 秦泽心里一动,原来是这样啊,赌钱也好,炒股也好,各种在别人眼里不知死活的铤而走险,都只是想把曾经失去的东西都找回来。 In the past death of grandfather, to his attack, imagination was bigger. He thought that all because of him, was he hurts thoroughly father's heart, was he home, from pushed to wealthily poorly. 当年外公的去世,对他的打击,比想象中的更大。他觉得一切都是因为他,是他伤透了父亲的心,是他把这个家,从富裕推向贫穷。 The uncle fell in oneself heart knot, did not have the face countenance to hometown folks, therefore has fluttered outside, had the family/home obviously, is actually not willing to come back, because he thought that oneself was also not sight, but also came back to see the deceased father unqualified. 舅舅陷在了自己的心结里,无颜面对江东父老,所以一直在外面飘荡,明明有家,却不愿意回来,因为他觉得自己还不是风风光光的,还不够资格回来见已故的父亲。 But hadn't so many years, succeeded? 可这么多年了,不也一直没成功？ Instead became trash in the friends and relatives eyes by oneself, good-for-nothing! 反而让自己成了亲戚朋友眼中的渣渣,废柴！ Qin Ze five senses mixed Chen, sighed at heart: „Therefore, wants to overturn must grow dreadfully, rather than everywhere wave.” 秦泽心里五味杂陈,感叹道:“所以说啊,想翻盘就要猥琐发育,而不是到处浪。” Xu Guang: „” 许光:“” Does not know is the misconception, felt the sad atmosphere that the uncle ferments, vanishes suddenly most. 不知是不是错觉,感觉舅舅酝酿的悲伤气氛,忽然消失大半。 „This world, the person of bankruptcy has, the black sheep of the family are more, many people are unwilling, wants to stage a comeback. But the reality is not you tries hard on the line, diligently useful words, but also wants the talent to do.” A Qin Ze word does not fill the poisonous chicken soup at earliest convenience: „Successfully cannot leave the opportunity, vision and talent. Only the talent like me, can laugh last.” “这个世界,破产的人有很多,败家子更多,好多人都不甘心,都想东山再起。可现实不是你努力就行的,努力有用的话,还要天才干嘛。”秦泽一言不合就灌毒鸡汤:“成功离不开机遇、眼光、才华。只有像我这样的天才,方能笑到最后。” „Maternal uncle, You must believe I first waits,” Qin Ze said: „Opportunity is not good to grasp, you mixed so many years outside, should understand this truth. Under my name has investment company, this year will start to inspect the industry, if possible, the nephew I can lead you to fly.” “舅,你要相信我就先等等,”秦泽道:“商机不是那么好抓的,你在外面混了这么多年,该明白这个道理。我名下有一家投资公司,今年会开始考察实业,如果可以的话,外甥我能带你飞一飞。” The uncle has not answered, he lights on cigarette to himself, has not pulled out, sits is in a daze, returning to normal mood. 舅舅没搭腔,他给自己点上一根烟,没抽,坐着发愣,平复心情。 Qin Ze did not speak, is accompanying him. 秦泽也不说话,就陪着他。 Blew the cold wind, the uncle sighed with emotion good long while: „Spits the innermost thoughts, felt better to select, today you find the person to punch me, I will not say these with you, was the uncle, cannot reveal frail side before the nephew, the man, must keep the big image.” 吹了好半天冷风,舅舅感慨道:“把心里话都吐出来,好受点了,今天你要不是找人揍我,我也不会和你说这些,怎么也是舅舅,不能在外甥面前流露脆弱的一面,男人,就要保持高大的形象。” Qin Ze hē hē said: „Let alone I, your image, before own children, does not have even.” 秦泽呵呵道:“别说我,你的形象,就算在自己子女面前,都已经没了。” The uncle kicked his foot, ridicules saying: „piss off, I should hit, the good and evil is your maternal uncle, in childhood was sore enough you, hits the person time does not know that under handles gently?” 舅舅踢了他一脚,笑骂道:“滚犊子,我是该打,好歹是你舅,小时候够疼你吧,打人的时候不知道下手轻点？” „Right, how you saw me and their one group.” Qin Ze thought good long while, feels right, does not depend on a look? The uncle has this resourcefulness, he will not fade spicily for many years. “对了,你怎么看出来我和他们一伙的。”秦泽想了好半天,感觉不对劲,难道就凭一个眼神？老舅有这份机敏,他就不会衰辣么多年。 „This rubbish, I see you to hit them in the building, then, they hit me, you standing nearby are affected, I am not silly.” Uncle said ill-humoredly. “这不废话嘛,我在楼上看到你打他们,回头,他们打我,你又站边上装孙子,我又不傻。”舅舅没好气道。 „Originally is this” “原来是这样” Asked the bean gunnysack! 求豆麻袋！ What is called in the building to see , I the matter that does below, was all seen in the building by the uncle? 什么叫做楼上看到的,难道,我在下面做的事,全被舅舅在楼上看到了？ The big winter, near your standing window does, jumping from an upper story to go to rooftop to be good. 大冬天的,你站窗边干什么,跳楼请去天台好嘛。 The uncle saw, grandmother parents aunt elder sister male younger cousin did female younger cousin, see? 那舅舅看到了,外婆爸妈舅妈姐姐表弟表妹,是不是都看到了？ fuck me! 卧槽！ Really must end the calf! 真要完犊子了！ Qin Ze sits in the cold wind, body cuns (2.5 cm) decency. 秦泽坐在寒风中,身体一寸寸风化。 Inexplicable, in the brain hikes up a song: Makes the autumn wind carry off, my missing, carries off my tears ~ 莫名的,脑子里飘起一首歌:就让秋风带走,我的思念,带走我的泪~