She does not want to consider the parents, does not want to ponder that this world is worth her yearning for! 她不想考虑父母,也不想思考这个世界值不值得她留恋！ Although in the heart has all kinds does not abandon, can be what kind. 虽然心中有万般的不舍,又能怎么样。 Anybody will not have felt in her lonely, completely understood that the choice survival will not have the freedom, this releasing for flight releases for flight! 没有任何人在她也不会感到寂寞,看透选择生存就不会有自由,该放飞就放飞！ At this moment, she only wants to extricate, she does not want to see Li Laoer again, does not want to face that countenance again, she was sufficed! 这一刻,她只想解脱,她不想再看见李老二,不想再面对那幅嘴脸,她受够了！ The decision gives the thorough counter-attack by own immortal silence, says goodbye life that this sooner or later must finish. 决定以自己永生的沉默给予彻底的回击,告别这段迟早要结束的人生。 She must let all dislike her person to lament, must let the girl who they cannot see that hair's length only to ears again, she must become in stops black-and-white photo that in they recall. 她要让所有讨厌她的人悔恨,要让他们再也见不到那个齐耳短发的女孩儿,她要成为停在他们回忆里的黑白相片。 The pitch-black hair flashes the beautiful ray under shine of setting sun, the curve of corners of the mouth forever is looking like the turn over the rainbow general charming...... 乌黑的头发在夕阳的映照下闪动着明媚的光芒,嘴角的弧度永远像翻转的彩虹一般迷人…… „......” Eye wooden stares at several meters ground, the tears is attacking her eye socket one after another, she wants like this to be static, did not say a word, but could not bear call, perhaps was excited, perhaps was panic-stricken, was only at this time, she understands, she did not have the fetter, she looked like a free small bird to open the wing. “啊……”眼睛木木的盯着十几米的地面,眼泪一波一波的冲击着她的眼眶,她本想就这样静静的,一言不发,可是还是忍不住叫起来,也许是兴奋,也许是惊恐,只是这个时候,她明白,她没有了束缚,她像一只自由的小鸟儿张开了翅膀。 Originally refuses stubbornly is such fearful! 原来死不是这么可怕！ Now she only fears is, when the time comes yellow white, that dirty! 她现在唯一怕的就是,到时候黄的白的,那得多脏啊！ Certain beautiful does not get up! 一定美不起来了！ Suddenly, a burningly painful feeling sweeps across the whole body. 突然,一阵灼痛感席卷全身。 „Do not fear, do not fear, I draw you to come up!” At the last minute, Li He has held on her foot, his liquor awoke instantaneously, the cold sweat has braved one, she has not thought of this girl decidedly now this temper! “别怕,别怕,我拉你上来！”最后一刻,李和拉住了她的一只脚,他的酒瞬间醒了,冷汗冒了一身,她决然没有想到这丫头现在这个性子！ The heart that he wants dead had 100. 他想死的心都有100个了。 „You let loose me! You do not dislike me! I died hundred, you in province worried!” Her entire body hangs on the parapet of balcony, the backache, the foot hurts. “你放开我！你不是讨厌我嘛！我一死百了,省的你烦心啊！”她的整个身子挂在阳台的栏杆上,腰疼,脚疼。 „I have not disliked you, I have not disliked you, listens to the Elder Brother words, do not move is good.” The Li He whole body is trembling, he is very afraid not to pay attention to let go. “我没有讨厌你,我真的没有讨厌你,听哥哥话,不要动好不好。”李和的浑身在打颤,他深怕一个不注意就脱了手。 Youngest sister who he most favors, how he possibly dislikes her! 他最宠的小妹妹,他怎么可能讨厌她！ His love cutting of deep responsibility! 他只是爱之深责之切罢了！ He regretted, the regret speech was overweight a moment ago! 他后悔了,后悔刚才说话过重了！ He should not speak that ruthless words taking advantage of liquor vigor! 他就不该借着酒劲说那么狠的话！ „You let loose!” The fifth child is still crying, rips the throat to shout, another foot makes an effort to kick randomly. “你放开啊！”老五依然在哭,撕着嗓子喊,另一只脚使劲乱踢。 „!” Li He her another foot also and in the hand, clenches teeth to make an all-out effort, gave to draw all of a sudden, could not attend to being able to injure her. “啊！”李和把她的另一只脚也并在手里,咬牙一狠劲,一下子给拉了上来,也顾不得会不会伤着她了。 He had an instantaneous old feeling, frightens does not have the blood-color skin, oneself float tears to compensate the eyeball of blood threads, one feels sad to attack his nerve intermittently, the throat feels hot, the nose is grieved, eye sour bulge. 他已经有种瞬间苍老的感觉,吓得没有血色的皮肤,自己浮着一层泪光又补满血丝的眼球,一阵阵心酸袭击他的神经,喉咙发烫,鼻子酸楚,眼睛酸胀。 He feared very much, very fearing. 他很怕,非常的怕。 He does not dare to imagine, if without enough time, the fifth child this result that jumps to leap. 他不敢想象,要是自己来不及,老五这纵身一跃的结果。 The ground is the hard cement stage. 地面是坚硬的水泥台。 „You let go!” The fifth child sits on the ground, still randomly kicks in the Li He bosom. “你松手！”老五一屁股坐在地上,依然在李和怀里乱扑腾。 „Was good, am I wrong good, the Elder Brother made a mistake.” Li He tight, the hurried comfort that she bind rounds said, „is the elder brother is wrong, is the elder brother is wrong, should not be angry.” “行了,我错行不行,哥哥错了。”李和把她箍的紧紧的,急忙安慰道,“都是哥错,是哥错,你不要生气。” Her Li Laoer two lifetime cry again tired again poorly, how could have the compromise to the person! 她李老二两辈子再哭再累再穷,何曾对人有过妥协！ However this for a lifetime, she has lowered the head to two women! 但是这一辈子,她已经向两个女人低头了！ Could not receive in exchange the result! 一个已经换不回结果了！ But this is still tearing with him. 而这一个还在跟他撕扯。 „You made to love me!” The fifth child sobs was fiercer. “你弄疼我了！”老五抽噎的更加厉害了。 „Did not fear, did not fear, gives you to wrap up.” On fifth child's calf in vain was blown the bloodstain by parapet, loving dearly that Li He looks, „do not make, I who you know, I drink am the mental illness, do not haggle over with me.” “不怕,不怕,下去给你包扎一下。”老五白白的小腿上被栏杆刮出来了血痕,李和看的心疼,“不要闹了,你知道的我,我喝酒就是神经病,你不要和我计较了。” At this moment Li He wished one could to say completely in the world all words of praise, only asked the fifth child to be peaceful, was no longer restless. 这一刻李和恨不得说尽世界上所有的好话,只求老五能够安静下来,不再闹腾。 „You are the mental illness!” The fifth child non-stop is whipping his shoulder. “你就是神经病啊！”老五不停的拍打着他的肩膀。 „Yes, my I am the mental illness.” Has Li He moved, whatever she is hitting, was tighter, gasping for breath of chest big mouth she hugged, one volt, „you know together, the Elder Brother cannot do without your, I sent you to the best school, gave you best education, for you. You think that I do want to manage you? But you were not a child, cannot be so willful.” “是,我我是神经病。”李和一动没动,任由着她打,却把她搂的更紧了,胸口大口的喘气,一起一伏,“你知道嘛,哥哥不能没有你的,我送你进最好的学校,给你最好的教育,都是为了你啊。你以为我想管你吗？可是你不是孩子了,不能这么任性啊。” Fifth child sobbing , the shoulder fierce vibration, buries not to be willing to speak again. 老五一个劲的抽噎,肩膀剧烈的抖动,埋着头不肯再说话。 She knows Li Laoer said is right, her anything understands, anything can understand 1 她知道李老二说的都是对的,她什么都懂,什么都能理解1 But she is a person, person who the living person, has the thought to have the dignity! 可是她是人,活生生的人,有思想有尊严的人！ She cannot such aggrieved is living! 她不能这么憋屈的活着啊！ Li He such is hugging her often to her along the back, sees her no longer to struggle, with being mentally and physically exhausted the later exhausted body, hugs gently her, places in the room in watchtower. 李和就那样抱着她不时的给她顺顺背,见她不再挣扎,又用心力交瘁之后的疲惫身子,把她轻轻的抱起,放在角楼的房间里。 „Here do not move, I go to take the red potion to you.” “在这里不要动,我去给你拿红药水。” The words said like this, but he does not dare to go out, does not dare to keep a fifth child person to be in the room. 话是这样说,可是他还是不敢出门,不敢留老五一个人在房间里。 He returned to turn around to return to room, dialed the telephone on stand, no matter who answered, but said directly, „delivered medicine kit to come up.” 他又回转身回到了屋里,拨起座子上的电话,不管谁接听,只是直接道,“送个药箱子上来。” Then weak sitting down exhausted on the ground. 然后无力的瘫坐在地上。 The gate was sounded suddenly, the one who delivers medicine kit is Guo Dongyun, she very concerned asking, „were you injured?” 门突然被敲响,送药箱的是郭冬云,她很关切的问,“你受伤了嘛？” They near swimming pool, but completely the matter that does not note to have a moment ago. 她们都在泳池边,而全然没有注意到刚才发生的事。 „All right.” Li He resists the gate, received the medicine kit, has not let the meaning that she comes, „I process, you rest a meeting.” “没事。”李和抵住门,接过药箱,没有让她进来的意思,“我自己处理,你去休息一会。” Does not wait for Guo Dongyun to respond that closed. 不等郭冬云反应过来就关上了门。 Li He places the ground the medicine kit, wipes the face with the hand, was long the one breath. 李和把药箱放在地上,用手抹抹脸,长出来了一口气。 With the absorbent cotton to the fifth child the apply medication externally water, for fear that made to hurt to her cautiously. 用药棉小心翼翼的给老五擦药水,生怕给她弄疼了。 „Leads you to go to the hospital to have a look to be good?” “带你去医院看看好不好？” Li He looked that she continues to cry, thought that was where wound bone. 李和看她继续哭,心想是不是骨头哪里伤着了。 „Does not want you to manage.” The fifth child reverses the body, the side lies down in the wall. “不要你管。”老五扭转身子,侧躺在墙里面。 „Do not be angry.” Li He saw her also to move to leap the both feet, the heart has put, „believed me, later like this, will not be ominous you.” “不要生气了。”李和见她还能挪腾双脚,心放了下来,“相信我,以后不会这样了,再也不凶你。” This is lesson that the practice learns, his Li Laoer recognizes the bear! 这是实践总结出来的教训,他李老二认熊！ The fifth child stopped sobbing, but buries in the bed sheet, at the back of Li He, a few words is not willing to meet. 老五停止了抽噎,只是把头埋在被单里,背着李和,一句话也不肯接。 „You rest well, sleeps well, the Elder Brother well accompanies your several days here, wants to buy anything, wants to play anything, listens your.” Li He is helpless, does not know how should coax her. “你好好休息吧,好好睡觉,哥哥在这里好好陪你几天,想买什么,想玩什么,都听你的。”李和手足无措,不知道该怎么去哄她。 He said one after another, because has not been responded, the resembles thought aloud actually. 他一句接着一句的说,因为没有得到回应,倒是像自言自语。 Before long, he heard fifth child's slight breath sound. 不一会儿,他就听见了老五轻微的鼻息声。 The fifth child fell asleep. 老五睡着了。 He understands that this was calm and steady. 他明白这是安稳了。 His withdrawal room quietly, taking door gently. 他悄悄的退出屋子,轻轻的带上房门。 Filled a cigarette toward the mouth in low spirits, the cigarette lighter already the approach, he looked unexpectedly is Guo Dongyun, she had not walked. 闷头往嘴里塞一根烟,打火机就已经迎上来了,他一看居然是郭冬云,她一直都是没有走。 „Did you see?” Li He taking advantage of smog, deeply coming out one breath. “你都看见了？”李和借着烟雾,深出来一口气。 Guo Dongyun shakes the head, „did not know that the fifth child cries anything, but knows, you definitely her angry enough ruthless.” 郭冬云摇摇头,“不晓得老五哭什么,只是知道,你肯定把她恼的够狠。” „I did not have idea!” “我是没辙了啊！” Li He is good to think the supine Tianchang roar! 李和好想仰天长吼！