LNBH :: Volume #4

#344: You exist, in my deep mind


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Lu Xun first said that in «Collection Small Various thoughts» in wrote: 鲁迅先说在《而已集・小杂感》里写道: Sees the short sleeve, immediately thinks white Bibo, thinks immediately the entire l body, thinks immediately fresh z, thinks of x junctions immediately, immediately thinks of the hybrid, immediately thinks of the illegitimate child ............ “一见短袖子,立刻想到白臂膊,立刻想到全l体,立刻想到生z器,立刻想到x交,立刻想到杂交,立刻想到私生子…………” Zhou Ze at this time is the similar condition, 周泽此时是差不多的状态, Sees this prison, 一见到这座监狱, Thinks old stretch/open brother-in-law, then thinks that pen, immediately afterward thinks ominous dwelling villa that Yingying buys, later thinks of the bathroom, thought of that mirror in bathroom. 就想到了老张的妹夫,然后就想到了那支笔,紧接着就想到了那栋莺莺买的凶宅别墅,之后就想到卫生间,想到了卫生间里的那面镜子。 Also therefore, 也因此, Zhou Ze looks on at this time when one mirror in glare shield, 周泽此时看着自己上头挡光板里的镜子时, As if what in mirror is that 仿佛镜子里的是那位, He can exchange with, 他能和自己交流, Can to oneself gesticulation movement. 能对自己比划动作。 But in fact, all are very peaceful, in the mirror, is he. 但事实上,一切都很安静,镜子里的,还是他自己。 Lit cigarette, clamps the hand of smoke to place outside the glass. 重新点了一根烟,夹着烟的手放在车窗外。 That woman, has gone in nearly for a half hour. 那个女人,已经进去快半个小时了。 Such just as she said that 正如她所说的那样, Once the person in underworld does not obey the custom of the world of the living, they will be very free ; 地狱里的人一旦不守阳间的规矩,她们会很自由; But everyone obeys the custom, little loli is also defends, Zhou Ze is also defends, how no one told them not to obey the custom to be a concrete consequence. 但大家都是守规矩的,小luoli也是守的,周泽也是守的,没人告诉他们不守规矩会是怎样一种具体的后果。 Because, 因为, Did not defend the well-mannered person dead probably. 不守规矩的人好像都死了。 Shook the cigarette ash, 抖了抖烟灰, When oneself drive, that woman has stared at oneself finger to look, she should see anything. 在自己开车时,那个女人一直盯着自己的手指在看,她应该看出了点什么。 Common ghost messenger, life, without that experience, even if there is a that experience, channel that cannot report. 寻常的鬼差,孤魂野鬼,没那个见识,就算有那个见识的,也没可以举报的渠道。 But this woman is different, she said that she came from Bridge of Helplessness. 但这个女人不同,她说她来自奈何桥 Furthermore, 再者, Boss Zhou as if there is little impression, 周老板似乎有一点点的印象, Probably oneself once killed from the Bridge of Helplessness senior maidservant, 好像自己曾杀过来自奈何桥的老侍女, That arrives at the bookstore to ask his other shore flower old woman, 那个来到书店问他彼岸花的老妪, Finally she cannot under underworld, by Boss Zhou tearing into shreds. 最后她没能下地狱,被周老板给撕碎了。 …… 不知不觉间, Zhou Ze was used to this attitude of life, he wants to continue the free salt fish to get down in the world of the living, must by own matter, unable to be given to know by the underworld true big shot, therefore any ghost that may divulge his matter, was intercepted by him, mostly, fell into the belly of oneself within the body that consciousness. 周泽习惯了这种处世之道,他想在阳间继续自由咸鱼下去,就得让自己的事情,不能被地狱真正的大佬给知道,所以凡是有可能泄露他事情的亡魂,都被他截杀了,大部分,都落入了自己体内那个意识的肚子里。 Wrong has not rather killed 1000 not to let off one is so extreme, 没有宁可错杀一千也不放过一个那么极端, But is also similar. 但也差不多吧。 Actually, many people in reading room thought that the Zhou Ze recent character had the little change, but Zhou Ze perhaps are too close to the problem, not this feeling. 其实,书屋里的不少人都觉得周泽最近的性格有了一点点的变化,但周泽自己或许是当局者迷,并没有这种感觉。 In the entire reading room, can the clear sensation to this point, and confirmation this point, only then little loli, because she personally sees Zhou Ze under that conscious state to take corpse pill when that late, when oneself and Bai Yingying mouth pushes back and forth scene. 整个书屋里,能清晰感知到这一点且确认这一点的,只有小luoli,因为她在那晚亲眼见过那个意识状态下的周泽拿着尸丹在自己和白莺莺嘴边来回推送时的情景。 Was a little sleepy.” “有点困了。” Zhou Ze yawns, 周泽打了个呵欠, Good to sleep with Yingying.” “好想和莺莺睡觉。” ............ ………… You exist, in my deep mind, in my dream, my at heart, in my singing sound ............ “你存在,我深深的脑海里,我的梦里,我的心里,我的歌声里…………” In the prison library is still playing the background music, is «In My Singing sound that» bent/tune Wanting sang. 监狱图书馆里还在播放着背景音乐,是曲婉婷唱的《我的歌声里》。 The tune is happy, the sound is not high, light, low...... 曲乐悠扬,声音不高,淡淡的,低低的…… Puts on the man of prison uniform also to sit there, 穿着囚服的男人还坐在那里, In his, 在他脚下, Then is a balled paper of place, 则是一地的纸团, Fountain pen, 钢笔, Was placed on the desktop. 被摆放在桌面上。 The story, could not write, was separated from his control ; 故事,写不下去了,脱离了他的掌控; By this time, the author no longer is an author, instead probably a accounted orally object, he is only responsible for writing down the writing, under the record the story, how to then develop as for this story, what kind of change the character role will conduct, 到这个时候,作者已经不再是作者,反而像是一个被口述的对象,他只负责写下文字,记录下故事,至于这个故事接下来会如何地发展,人物角色会进行怎样的变化, He is unknown. 他自己都不得而知。 The form of woman appeared in the library, the safety guard system of prison improved very much strictly, but can only be able to block the prisoner unable to go out, actually could not guard against the ghost. 女人的身影出现在了图书馆里,监狱的安保系统很是严格完善,但只能挡得住囚犯出不去,却防备不了亡魂。 She came, and arrives at the man slowly nearby. 她进来了,且缓缓地走到男人的跟前。 Looks that by the chair both hands in the man who let fall, 看着靠在椅子上双手垂落下去的男人, She first smiles, then restrained the happy expression, revealed the color of doubt: 她先是笑了笑,然后收敛起了笑意,露出了狐疑之色: Somewhat is smooth makes me be inconceivable, I come out few hours, sees the thing that I want to look, also sees the person who I want to find.” “顺利得让我有些难以想象,我才出来没几个小时,就看见了我想找的东西,也看见了我想找的人。” This feeling, 这种感觉, When looks like Monk Tang prepares Western Paradise to learn from experienced people previous day to be known, 就像是唐僧准备西天取经时的前一天才被得知, Western Paradise Spirit Mountain is the same in the Chang'an next door. 西天灵山就在长安隔壁一样。 It is not very real, is not real, making people think all these, is false. 很不真实,太不真实,让人恍惚中觉得这一切,都是假的。 The prisoners have leaned the face, looks at woman. 囚犯侧过脸,看着身边的这个女人。 Meanwhile, in the prison in the corner of prison cell, the prisoner is also binding the quilt, probably induced some type of familiar aura, is trembling. 与此同时,监狱里还有一处牢房的角落中,有一个囚犯裹着被子,像是感应到了某种熟悉的气息,正在瑟瑟发抖。 But is good because, 但好在, That aura is not looks his. 那个气息并不是来找他的。 You look, is this pen?” “你来找的,是这支笔么?” The prisoners referred to the fountain pen on table. 囚犯指了指桌子上的钢笔。 You.” “还有你。” The women continue to approach, 女人继续走近, Actually, compared with this pen, Bridge of Helplessness wants to know, you in what method, do urge this pen?” “其实,比起这支笔,奈何桥更想知道,你是以何种的方法,驱使这支笔的?” The prisoners look at the female who approaches unceasingly, 囚犯看着不断靠近的女子, Is drooping the shoulder, 耷拉着肩膀, Faint smile. 似笑非笑。 This pen, the wandering about destitute world of the living ten sixty-year cycle, Bridge of Helplessness has not been thinking seeks, because initially this pen when Bridge of Helplessness, even if even/including Meng woman, does not know that this pen besides bringing outside the thrush is useful, when everyone it is a fine scrap. “这支笔,流落阳间已经十个甲子了,奈何桥一直没想着去找寻,因为当初这支笔在奈何桥时,哪怕是连孟婆,都不知道这支笔除了拿来画眉以外还有什么用,大家都当它是一个精致的废品。 But is now different, you used it unexpectedly. ” 但现在不同了,你居然用得了它。” Saying, 说着, The women arrived at the prisoner finally, 女人终于走到了囚犯的跟前, Bends the waist, under tune knee, 弯下腰,曲下膝盖, Squats, 蹲下去, Raised the head, 抬头, Looks at the prisoner: 看着囚犯: Pen, I must bring, the person, I must bring, but to be honest, takes a life of living person for no reason, especially in the world of the living, will have very big trouble, I do not want to make this trouble, does not think, because this made netherworld find the resentment the excuse of our Bridge of Helplessness.” “笔,我是要带回去的,人,我也是要带回去的,但说实话,无端地取一个活人的性命,尤其还是在阳间,会有很大的麻烦,我也不想惹这个麻烦,更不想因为这个让阴司找到怼我们奈何桥的借口。” In other words, won't I die?” “也就是说,我不会死?” Deceased people, 死人, Can under underworld. 才能下地狱的。 The women nod, „, you can not use, the method how so long as you can use this pen said that will not die. 女人点点头,“是的,你可以不用死,只要你能把如何使用这支笔的方法说出来,就不会死。 In return, when Bridge of Helplessness will let your lifespan completely will cross a bridge next time, little drinks half Meng Po’s soup, making you still remember some previous generation the things. ” 作为回报,奈何桥会让你阳寿尽了下次过桥时,少饮半口孟婆汤,让你仍然记得一些前世的事情。” Sounding, is very good.” The prisoners slightly make the thinking, immediately asked: If I don't want?” “听起来,很不错。”囚犯略作思索,随即问道:“如果我不愿意呢?” Trouble is troublesome, but is not cannot have your soul to get down. “麻烦是麻烦一点,但也不是不能带你灵魂下去。 Perhaps you do not know, 可能你不知道, Ghost in underworld, but the view of no ghost power, 亡魂在地狱里,可没什么鬼权的说法, When the time comes, 到时候, You think that does not open the mouth difficultly. ” 你想不开口都难的。” The women stand up slowly, put out a hand, are stroking the profile of prisoner. 女人慢慢地站起身,伸手,抚摸着囚犯的侧脸。 Sensation, on his face the hardness of beard. 感知着,他脸庞上胡须的坚硬。 In the prison, naturally does not have the condition to shave every day. 在监狱里,当然没条件每天刮胡子。 This pen, actually I do not use well.” The prisoners referred to front pen, I could not control it.” “这支笔,其实我也用不好。”囚犯指了指面前的这支笔,“我驾驭不了它。” Yes, because of your merely average person.” The women said. “是的,因为你只是一个普通人。”女人说道。 Perhaps.” The prisoners nod. “或许吧。”囚犯点点头。 Zhou Ze once guessed that this prisoner possibly is a judge, 周泽曾猜测这位囚犯可能是一个判官, secure attorney is guessed this prisoner is an extraordinary great person, 安律师则是猜测这个囚犯是一个了不得的大人物, But now the answer comes out, 但现在答案出来了, He, 他, A merely average person. 只是一个普通人。 underworld has ten palace Yama, has Bridge of Helplessness, has the sea of netherworld, has the ksitigarbha, some innumerable innumerable seems like the extremely fearsome devil in the average person. 地狱有十殿阎罗,有奈何桥,有幽冥之海,有地藏,有无数无数在普通人看起来极为可怖的恶魔。 But the world of the living, from ancient to present, is a living person, is the world of average person. 但阳间,从古至今,都是活人,都是普通人的世界。 It is not the great people in underworld knows one's place, is defending the little plot of land safely ; 不是地狱里的大人物们安分守己,安心地守着自己脚下的一亩三分地; But is the world of the living, 而是阳间, Also without that simple. 也没那么的简单。 Very sorry, I cannot tell you.” An apology of prisoner face, „, because, I do not know how can use it.” “很抱歉,我不能告诉你。”囚犯一脸的歉意,“因为,我也不知道怎么就能用它了。” The women look at the prisoner, 女人看着囚犯, The prisoners smiled bitterly: Matter that just as you said that my merely average person, you do not know, how I possibly know.” 囚犯苦笑了一声:“正如你所说的,我只是一个普通人,连你们都不知道的事情,我怎么可能知道。” The women have not said anything, merely very tranquil said/tunnel: 女人没说什么,只是很平静地道: I can only have your soul to get down.” “那我只能带你灵魂下去了。” In other words , 换言之, You must die. 你得死了。 „After getting down, can see my wife and children?” The prisoners asked very much earnestly. “下去后,能看见我的妻子和孩子们么?”囚犯很认真地问道。 Many people have asked Boss Zhou the similar issue, 很多人都问过周老板相似的问题, Because advances one step, wait/etc. these bridge sections in the road to Hades superior your our under Yellow Springs, frequently appears in each film and television literary and art work together. 因为“先行一步,在黄泉路上等你我们一起下黄泉”等等这些桥段,在各个影视文艺作品里经常出现。 No matter you are the senior official rich merchant or the idle cloud wild crane, everyone is very curious to the unknown matter, particularly after oneself die the matter. 不管你是高官富商还是闲云野鹤,大家都对未知的事情很好奇,尤其是自己死后的事情。 merely, 只是, Boss Zhou can only give a very ice-cold answer each time, 周老板每次都只能给一个很冰冷的答案, Because on the road to Hades, the ghosts can only seem like the good-for-nothing to lead the way equally numbly, probably only raises the line puppet, probably the part in factory assembly line. 因为黄泉路上,亡魂们只能像是行尸走肉一样麻木地前行着,像是一只只提线木偶,也像是工厂流水线上的元件。 This, must look at your luck.” The women do not have direct reaction this issue, she is disinclined to give the living person the popular science underworld scene, she put out a hand, placed the forehead position of prisoner, “这个,得看你运气。”女人没直接回答这个问题,她懒得去给活人科普地狱的情景,她伸出手,放在了囚犯的眉心位置, The preparation extracts its soul. 准备将其灵魂抽出。 The prisoners close one's eyes slowly, 囚犯缓缓地闭上眼, He has not struggled, 他没有挣扎, Also has not revolted, 也没有反抗, Appears, 显得, Very tranquil. 很是平静。 He was clear, he is not brave, because does not have, therefore fearless, a little probably barefoot did not fear that puts on shoes. 他清楚,他不是勇敢,而是因为没有,所以才无惧,有点像是光脚的不怕穿鞋的。 Finally asked that your one time, you said not ............ “最后问你一次,你说还是不…………” Enters quickly, should not be wordy.” “快进吧,别啰嗦了。” The prisoners lift the hand, urged: 囚犯抬起手,催促道: Story too wordy idle talk are too many, the reader will feel your water.” “故事太啰嗦废话太多,读者会觉得你水的。” ............ Woman. “…………”女人。 That is you brings upon oneself.” “那是你自找的。” The woman palm position presented red rune, 女人掌心位置出现了一道红色的符文, rune is inducing the soul of prisoner within the body, thus extracts it. 符文正在感应囚犯体内的灵魂,从而将其抽出。 Suddenly, 一时间, Positions between two people, covers the pale pale red glow that an average person naked eye is unable to see, probably sprinkled a blood on the ground. 二人之间的位置,也覆盖上了一层普通人肉眼无法看见的淡淡红芒,像是在地上洒上了一层鲜血。 The women are very from the beginning quiet, 女人一开始很平静, Extracts his soul, 抽出他的灵魂, With beginning a stroke, 拿起笔, She can return underground reports after carrying out orders. 她就可以回地下复命了。 Naturally, 当然了, That ghost messenger that delivers itself to come back, 还有那个送自己回来的鬼差, Also needs to report to above. 也需要向上面汇报一下。 The behavior that actually not that ghost messenger substitutes stealthily violates the taboo much, in fact, regarding the major influences in underworld, the law , to them who the merely restraint floor ghost and ghost messenger use, is not suitable. 倒不是那个鬼差移花接木的行为多犯忌讳,事实上,对于地狱里的各大势力来说,法律,只是约束底层亡魂和鬼差们所用的,对他们自己,则不适用。 Which doesn't have own wishful thinking in the back? 哪家不背地里没有一点属于自己的小心思? Bridge of Helplessness, once found Attorney secure to discuss the business. 就连奈何桥,也曾找过安律师洽谈过业务。 The women want to report, is the nail of that ghost messenger, when that nail appears, her heart produced palpitation unexpectedly, making her have little fear. 女人想汇报的,是那名鬼差的指甲,当那指甲出现时,她心底竟然产生了一种悸动,让她有了一点点的畏惧。 ghost messenger, 一个鬼差, Let her dread, 让她畏惧, Hehe. 呵呵。 However, what the woman does not know, delivers that ghost messenger that she comes, now has not walked, the car(riage) has stopped outside the prison, waits to look whether she can come out. 不过,女人并不知道的是,送她来的那名鬼差,现在还没走,车一直停在监狱外面,等着看她是否可以出来。 If she cannot come out, even ; 如果她出不来,就算了; If she came out, 如果她出来了, Can make her get down calmly and steadily again, 能否让她安稳地再下去, Possibly was not she said considering as finished. 可能就不是她所说了算了。 Although regarding Boss Zhou, makes that consciousness regain consciousness every time one time, was destroyed a point regarding own safety, but satisfies thirst by drinking poison even if, was much better suddenly by stopping suddenly compared with the present salt fish life. 虽说对于周老板来说,每让那个意识多苏醒一次,对于自己本身的安危就又被破坏了一分,但哪怕是饮鸩止渴,也比现在的咸鱼生活突然间被戛然而止要好得多。 All sorts of miscellaneous matters do not raise for the time being, 种种杂事暂且不提, rune of woman palm has glittered was very long, 女人掌心的符文已经闪烁了很久, But anything has not pulled out. 但什么都没抽出来。 Wipes the look of doubts to reappear on the female face: 一抹疑惑的神色在女人脸上浮现: You are not a living person!” “你不是活人!” No, 不, It is not right, 不对, Even if not the living person, 哪怕不是活人, Also is impossible not to have the soul, moreover this is in the world of the living! 也不可能没有灵魂,而且这是在阳间! Then, 转而, The women realized anything probably, 女人像是意识到了什么, Shouts panic-stricken: 更为惊恐地喊道: No, no, you do not exist!!!” “不,不,你是根本就不存在!!!” You exist, in my deep mind, in my dream, my at heart, in my singing sound ............ “你存在,我深深的脑海里,我的梦里,我的心里,我的歌声里…………” Background music of books management, 图书管理的背景音乐, Continues slowly, 继续慢慢地, Broadcasting. 播放着。 The new month arrived, asked everyone's guaranteeing a minimum monthly ticket! 新的一个月到了,求大家的保底月票! The dragonet sways back and forth to ask! 小龙打滚求!
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