Many people thought that the life is a straight line, will arrange all kinds of things in this straight line to you, waits for you to walk. 很多人都觉得人生是一条直线,在这一条直线上会给你安排各种各样的东西,就等着你走过去。 But the life is actually more like a circle, when you think when jumped out of the straight line when starts to release for flight the self- choice resistance, is walking, circled, discovered that you returned to here. 但生活其实更像是一个圆,当你自以为跳出了直线时开始放飞自我选择反抗时,走着走着,绕了一圈,发现你还是回到了这里。 Thing that you want to jump, appeared in your front. 你想跳出去的东西,又出现在了你的面前。 „Boss!” “老板！” Yingying is shouting Zhou Ze while is going to the staircase. 莺莺一边喊着周泽一边在上楼梯。 Zhou Ze rushes to push the drawer, then lay on the bed. 周泽赶忙把抽屉推回去,然后躺在了床上。 A little afraid. 有点心虚啊。 „Boss, were you tired?” “老板,你累了么？” Yingying walked to arrive at side Zhou Ze on own initiative, removed the shoes, she who put on the white silk also goes to bed, proficiently placed on Zhou Ze’s own thigh very much, then started to give the Zhou Ze massage head. 莺莺走进来主动走到了周泽身边,褪去鞋子,穿着白丝的她也上了床,很熟练地把周泽的头放在自己的大腿上,然后开始给周泽按摩头部。 „It is not tired, all right.” “不累,没事。” merely received a stimulation. 只是受了点刺激。 The time, passes by slowly, Zhou Ze lies down like this is enjoying the massage, Yingying has been very earnest on this helps Zhou Ze press very much gently. 时间,慢慢地过去,周泽就这样躺着享受着按摩,莺莺就这样一直很认真很温柔地帮周泽按着。 Both people enjoy this living alone atmosphere very much, particularly before some time Yingying stupor, Zhou Ze was also thinking that is not familiar with very much. 两个人都很享受这种独处的氛围,尤其是之前一段时间莺莺昏迷着,周泽还觉得很不习惯。 „Boss, has the acquaintance to look!” “老板,有熟人找！” Downstairs old daoist shouts. 楼下的老道喊道。 Zhou Ze can only somewhat have not given full expression sets out, goes downstairs, the one who discovers the entrance to stand is face thin and pale Wang Ke. 周泽只能有些意犹未尽地起身,下了楼,发现门口站着的是一脸憔悴的王轲。 „What's wrong?” Zhou Ze asked. “怎么了？”周泽问道。 „Come has Ruri to your here?” “蕊蕊到你这里来过么？” „No.” Zhou Ze shrugs. “没有啊。”周泽耸了耸肩。 „She disappears, you can help me look for her, she disappears.” “她不见了,你能帮我找找她么,她不见了。” Always calm capable Wang Ke appears worries at this time very much. 一向沉稳干练的王轲此时显得很是着急。 „She disappears, you ask me to make anything, warning.” Zhou Ze said. “她不见了,你找我做什么,报警啊。”周泽说道。 „ It is not, I undergo the new round treatment to her mother, I think successfully, her mother condition also seems very good, all are very normal. “不是,我给她母亲做新一轮的治疗,我原本以为成功了的,她母亲状态也显得很好,一切都很正常。 But how does not know, her mother puts out a blade from the sleeve suddenly, holds to me. 但不知怎么的,她母亲忽然从袖子里拿出一把刀,捅向我。 Ruri that the result stands put out a hand to grasp firmly the blade, 结果站在旁边的蕊蕊伸手一把攥住了刀, Her hand flowed many blood, 她的手流了很多血, Then she seized the blade, walked, left the home. 然后她把刀夺了下来,就走了,离开了家。 After I her mother is calmly good, found the present, still had not found, now the day wanted black, I was anxious. ” 我把她母亲安顿好之后找到了现在,一直没找到,现在天要黑了,我急啊。” Zhou Ze looks at Wang Ke, the vision some are meaningful. 周泽看着王轲,目光有些意味深长。 Initially, Wang Ke can distinguish own status through some details, although oneself are sends to be small with him, but many years did not relate do not meet, like this he can look. 当初,王轲能够通过一些细节来分辨出自己的身份,自己虽然和他是发小,但好多年不联系不见面了,这样他都能看出来。 Then, 那么, His daughter? 他的女儿呢？ Hadn't he discovered his daughter's difference? 他就一直没发现他女儿的异样？ That is he most intimate person. 那可是他最亲近的人啊。 „No rush, I and you look together.” “别急,我和你一起去找。” Zhou Ze nods, changed clothes, went out of the bookstore with Wang Ke together. 周泽点点头,换了一身衣服,跟着王轲一起走出了书店。 little loli is not only the Wang Ke’s daughter, 小luoli不光是王轲的女儿, Under his Zhou Ze’s hand, 还是他周泽的手下, She, 她, Cannot lose. 可不能丢。 .................. ……………… At nightfall, 入夜了, Scattered extremely hot of summer. 驱散了夏日的酷热。 In street Shidengzi, sits a girl who is wearing the pleated skirt, red leather shoes, fine sending band, a very lovable delightful feeling. 在马路边的石凳子上,坐着一个身穿着百褶裙的女孩儿,红色的皮鞋,精致的发箍,给人一种很可爱甜美的感觉。 Her such silently sits here, 她就这样默默地坐在这里, The vision is somewhat lax. 目光有些涣散。 Lowers the head, 低下头, She saw oneself hand, 她看见了自己的手, There also very fearsome openings, although passed through itself to wrap up simply, but is bleeding as before. 那里还有一道很可怖的口子,虽然经过了自己简单的包扎,但依旧在流血。 She is somewhat vacant, 她有些茫然, When that woman punctures that blade to that man, 在那个女人向那个男人刺出那一刀时, Her almost instinct put out a hand to catch that blade. 她几乎本能地伸手接住了那一刀。 Not hesitant, has not hesitated, 没有犹豫,没有迟疑, Also without caring about oneself whether will be injured, she did this. 也没在乎自己是否会受到伤害,她就这样做了。 The sensation the sharp cutting edge has been delimiting the stabbing pain of palm, some of her position as if also trembled. 感知着锋锐的刀口划过自己掌心的刺痛,她心里某个位置似乎也随之震颤了一下。 Probably a fond dream, 像是一场美梦, Suddenly awakens, 忽然惊醒, You need to go to face the reality. 你需要去面对现实了。 Somewhat self-ridiculed, is somewhat absurd, 有些自嘲,也有些荒谬, A while ago, 前阵子, She in front of Zhou Ze said that she likes this body, likes this status, likes the feeling of this family, 她才在周泽面前说她喜欢这个身体,喜欢这个身份,喜欢这个家庭的感觉, But this time, 但这一次, She somewhat feared. 她有些怕了。 She is forest can/but, she is not king Rui. 她是林可,她不是王蕊。 Her previous generation is a capable woman, the state-owned enterprise manager, depends on the soe reform to misappropriate the family/home that the state-owned property sends, is since then out of control. 她前世是一个女强人,国企经理,靠着国企改制私吞国有财产发的家,自此之后一发不可收拾。 If not encountered died accidentally/surprisingly, nowadays don't says in Jiangsu, even if in national market, possibly had her space. 若非遭遇意外身亡,现如今莫说是在江苏,哪怕是在全国市场,也可能有她的一席之地。 But she started to blur, 但她开始模糊了, Blurred past, 模糊了过去的自己, Blurred present, 模糊了现在的自己, She even starts to forget who oneself are, forgot own true status! 她甚至开始忘记自己是谁,忘记了自己的真正身份！ This is the toxicant, has the addiction toxicant, from the beginning when you eat endures gladly, when you awaken, actually discovers half cliff. 这是毒药,有瘾的毒药,一开始你吃下去时甘之如饴,当你醒悟过来时,却发现半步悬崖。 Previous time, 上一次, The corpse charm arrived in home, prepares to act to his father, she just came back from Chengdu at that time, is seriously injured, clear(ly) knows Zhou Ze in side, but she could not bear make a move to rescue Wang Ke. 有一具尸魅来到了家里,准备对他父亲出手,她那时刚从蓉城回来,身受重伤,明知道周泽就在旁边,但她还是忍不住出手救了王轲。 She knows that Zhou Ze has looked in side, waiting, was looking whether she really came back. 她知道周泽一直在旁边看着,等待着,看她是否真的回来了。 She also knows that Zhou Ze is sending of his father is small, two people grow up in the orphanage together, the Zhou Ze big probability does not look at Wang Ke dead. 她也知道周泽是他父亲的发小,两个人一起在孤儿院长大,周泽大概率不会看着王轲死的。 But she does not dare to bet, 但她不敢赌, She does not dare to go „heavy friendship” to bet with Zhou Ze’s with the Wang Ke’s life. 她不敢拿王轲的命去跟周泽的“重情义”去赌。 Therefore she from building, 所以她从楼上下来了, She acted, 她出手了, Later by Zhou Ze was discovered fact that she comes back, and lets Zhou Ze successfully „taking advantage of somebody”, forcing oneself to become his subordinate. 之后被周泽发现她回来的事实,并且让周泽成功地“趁人之危”,逼迫了自己成为他的手下。 She also once lulled herself with many reasons, 她也曾用很多个理由去麻痹自己, Is perfunctory itself with many excuses, 用很多的借口去敷衍自己, But this time, 但这一次, When the knife extends, that instinct, 刀子伸过来时,那种本能, Let her start to dread. 让她开始畏惧。 Cannot continue again, 不能再继续下去, Otherwise, 否则, She probably turns into another Zhou Ze’s sister-in-law. 她可能变成另一个周泽的小姨子。 She stands up, no matter what, first goes to the hospital to process own wound, then, oneself leave the home again, goes to an independent environment. 她站起身,不管怎么样,还是先把自己的伤口去医院处理一下吧,然后,自己再离开这个家,去一个独立的环境。 This body, she does not have the means to get rid temporarily, does not have the means to discard, therefore she needs a new environment, cuts off with all relations. 这个身体,她暂时没办法摆脱,也没办法舍弃,所以她需要一个新的环境,割断和一切的关系。 Prepares to take taxi, has not raised hand. 准备打车,还没举手。 A taxi stopped in the little loli front, the driver is a middle-aged man, bald, face full beard, the eye is a little small, on the face is exuding the greasy gloss. 一辆出租车就在小luoli的面前停了下来,司机是一个中年男子,秃头,一脸络腮胡子,眼睛有点小,脸上泛着油腻的光泽。 „Does little miss, go by car?” “小姑娘,坐车么？” little loli nods, then boards. 小luoli点点头,然后上了车。 She did not fear that 她不怕的, She also has nothing to fear. 她也没什么好怕的。 „Where goes to?” The driver asked little loli, then the vision kept walking back and forth on little loli. “去哪里啊？”司机问小luoli,然后目光在小luoli身上不停地逡巡着。 A little dissolute, 有点放肆, Also was too much. 也有点过分了。 Possibly, other children will not feel to have anything regarding this vision, because they are not so sensitive, but little loli is different, her within the body lives, is a mature soul. 可能,其他的小孩对于这种目光不会觉得有什么,因为他们本就没这么敏感,但小luoli不一样,她体内住着的,是一个成熟的灵魂。 She somewhat loathes the vision of this driver. 她有些厌恶这个司机的目光。 „, Your hand is bleeding!” “啊,你的手在流血！” The blood that the driver sees on little loli to be twining the gauze as well as above infiltrates, has a scare, said: 司机看见了小luoli手上缠绕着的纱布以及上面渗透出来的鲜血,吓了一跳,道: „I send you to the hospital.” “我送你去医院。” little loli nods. 小luoli点点头。 The driver started the vehicle, the vehicle speed is quick. 司机发动了车子,车速很快。 Then goes is not the road in Tongcheng big hospital, but turned into a small block, a small clinic entrance here stopped. 然后去的不是通城大医院的路,而是拐入了一个小街区里,在这里的一家小诊所门口停了下来。 „Walks, here!” “走,这里！” The driver helped little loli open the vehicle door on own initiative. 司机主动帮小luoli打开了车门。 little loli looked at a driver, looked at a small clinic, has not said anything, gets out. 小luoli看了一眼司机,又看了一眼小诊所,没说什么,下了车。 After walking, 走进去之后, Comes out a male physician-in-charge, the age was also big, the driver ran and doctor said a while words, the doctor shouted little loli. 出来一个男主治大夫,年纪也不小了,司机跑过去和大夫说了一会儿话,大夫把小luoli喊过来。 Slowly opened the gauze on little loli, starts to give her to disinfect, applies medicine, then wraps up. 慢慢地揭开小luoli手上的纱布,开始给她消毒,上药,然后重新包扎。 Wraps up the doctor also while is staring the driver, a very helpless feeling. 一边包扎大夫还一边瞪着司机,一副很无奈的感觉。 Wrapped up, the blood does not flow. 包扎好了,血不流了。 The driver brought little loli to walk. 司机带着小luoli走了出来。 „Hungry?” “饿了吧？” little loli has not spoken. 小luoli没说话。 „I lead you to eat a thing.” “我带你去吃点东西。” little loli has not spoken, but the following driver arrived at a nearby spicy hotpot shop. 小luoli还是没说话,但还是跟着司机走到了附近的一家麻辣烫小店。 The driver selected three bottles of beer, selected one cup of pickled plum juice to little loli, 司机点了三瓶啤酒,给小luoli点了一杯酸梅汁, Canned. 罐装的。 little loli looks at front pickled plum juice ponder long time, 小luoli看着面前的酸梅汁沉思良久, Is this type of drink so popular? 这种饮料都已经这么普及了么？ The spicy hotpot, little loli does not want to eat, but cannot endure the driver to keep urging, she along with hand sorting a point, almost 13. 麻辣烫,小luoli不想吃,但耐不住司机不停地催,她随手选了一点,差不多十三块的吧。 Driver selected, the mosts of the time drink the beer. 司机自己点了一些,大部分时候还是喝啤酒。 The spicy hotpot boss often comes to speak with the driver, 麻辣烫老板不时过来跟司机说话, The driver complained himself to bet the ball to lose money, plays cards also loses money, recently has walked the mildew character. 司机吐槽自己赌球输了钱,打牌也输钱,最近一直走霉字。 A spicy hotpot, ate for probably 40 minutes, 一顿麻辣烫,吃了大概四十分钟, The driver scolded Germany team to scold 39 minutes of appearance, 司机骂德国队骂了三十九分钟的样子, Said how Germany team cannot kick the club, this morning harmed him to get up almost on direct rooftop to prepare to line up. 说德国队怎么连棒子都踢不过,害得他今早起来差点直接上天台准备排队去了。 The food finishes, 饭毕, The driver sets out, said to little loli: 司机起身,对小luoli道: „Do I deliver you to go home?” “我送你回家？” little loli looks at the driver, 小luoli看着司机, Has not spoken. 还是没说话。 She is sad, 她心情不好, Very confused, 很迷茫, People in confused, wants to look for a matter to do. 人在迷茫的时候,就想找点事情做。 Perhaps is the reason of drinking, the driver looked that the little loli vision brings some flood red, the vision also a little changed. 兴许是喝了酒的原因,司机看小luoli的目光就带着些许泛红,目光也有点变了。 „Goes home?” The driver also asked. “回家？”司机又问道。 little loli did not reply. 小luoli还是不回答。 The driver another pats the head immediately, regrets saying: „Mother, I drank, cannot drive, cannot deliver you to go back.” 司机马上又一拍头,懊悔道:“妈的,我喝酒了,不能开车了,不能送你回去了。” The little loli corners of the mouth pulled pulling, 小luoli嘴角扯了扯, Hehe. 呵呵。 „Where do you live in? In family/home who? Has clashes of opinion with the parents?” “你家住哪里？家里都有谁？跟爹妈闹矛盾出来的吧？” little loli nods. 小luoli点点头。 „Where do you live in?” The driver also asked. “你家住哪里？”司机又问道。 little loli has not said family's address, but said the address of bookstore. 小luoli没说家里的地址,而是说了书店的地址。 „oh, in South Avenue.” “哦,在南大街啊。” The driver beckons immediately, a nearby three rounds of rubs opened. 司机马上招手,附近的一辆三轮摩的开了过来。 The driver first sits, then hints little loli also to board. 司机先坐上去,然后示意小luoli也上车。 The start of rubs sway exercises, 摩的开始摇晃地行使, little loli closes one's eyes, to the person one type fell asleep feeling. 小luoli闭着眼,给人一种睡着了的感觉。 All the way, 一路上, The eyes of driver flood are staring at her red, 司机的眼睛都泛红地盯着她, The little while has not left. 半刻不曾离开。 Crossed for 20 minutes, 过了二十分钟, When little loli opens the eye again, 当小luoli再睁开眼睛时, She saw rubs unexpectedly arrived at the entrance of reading room. 她看见了摩的居然到了书屋的门口。 The driver accompanies little loli to get out, 司机陪着小luoli下了车, Put out a hand to wipe the eye, 伸手擦了擦眼睛, oh, 哦, He cried. 他哭了。 „Kid, acts difficult with the parents?” “娃儿,跟爹妈闹别扭出来的吧？” little loli had not replied. 小luoli没回答。 „Is this wound also you make?” “这伤口也是你自个儿弄的？” little loli had not replied. 小luoli还是没回答。 The driver deeply inspires, said: 司机深吸一口气,道: „Goes back.” “回去吧。” Saying, he referred to the bookstore, „I must think you to go back.” 说着,他指了指书店,“我要看着你回去。” little loli turns around, moves toward the bookstore, when arrives at the bookstore entrance, she stops, turns around. 小luoli转身,走向书店,到书店门口时,她有停下,重新转身。 Tilts the head slightly, 微微歪头, Some accidents/surprises look at the driver. 有些意外地看着司机。 Yes, 是的, Very accidental/surprised. 很意外。 Driver and understanding rubs lit cigarette, sees little loli then to look at itself, he waves saying: 司机和认识的摩的点了一根烟,见小luoli回头看自己,他挥挥手道: „Goes back quickly, I must see your family member to meet you.” “快回去,我要看见你的家人接了你。” „Fare.” “车钱。” little loli puts out a hand to import the bag, actually discovered oneself go out has not brought the wallet and cell phone. 小luoli伸手进口袋,却发现自己出门没带钱包和手机。 „Pulls any money, does not want! The uncle I am very rich!” “扯啥钱啊,不要了！叔叔我有的是钱！” The driver big hand wields, very heroic spirit. 司机大手一挥,很豪气。 „You are really natural, haha, leading the little misses to go to the entrance clinic, eats the entrance spicy hotpot, was not money gambled away, did the main house gate neighbor neighbor facilitate you to go into debt?” “你这是真大方,哈哈,带人家小姑娘去自家门口的诊所,吃自家门口的麻辣烫,还不是钱都赌光了,家门口街坊邻居方便你欠账？” Masters in rubs is spitting the smoke rings while spits the mortise. 摩的师傅一边吐着烟圈一边吐槽道。 „Pulls your fruit!” “扯你的蛋蛋！” The driver patted a vehicle door of rubs ill-humoredly. 司机没好气地拍了一下摩的车门。 little loli said the sound unemotionally: 小luoli面无表情地说了声: „Thanks.” “谢谢。” „ You're welcome, the little miss, later in the family/home has the matter again, does not want the autonomy, this is not worthwhile! “不用谢,小姑娘,以后家里再有事儿,也千万不要自残,这个不值当！ Has the contradiction with the parents again, leaves a person to run away secretly, was too dangerous! ” 跟爹妈再有矛盾,也别一个人偷偷跑出来,太危险了！” „oh.” “哦。” little loli complied with one, turns around to be about to leave, because actually below a few words of driver stopped the footsteps. 小luoli应了一声,转身准备离开,却因为司机的下一句话停下了脚步。 „My daughter, quarrelled with me initially runs to become monk spitefully, then...... did not have.” “我女儿,当初就是跟我吵架赌气跑出家的,然后……没了。”