„huā lā lā...” “哗啦啦…” The warm water sprays from the seed case of lotus flower, lets splashing/underwater sound lingering on faintly reverberation in the ear. 温热的水从莲蓬头上喷洒而出,让水声不绝于耳般的回荡于耳边。 The white fog water vapor fills the air, in this does not calculate that in narrow space, making the floor tile such as drip the sweat to be the same with the wall stone, covered entirely the tiny water fluid. 白雾般的水汽弥漫在了这个并不算狭隘的空间里,让地砖与墙石都如淌出汗水一样,布满了细小的水液。 Here is located in luxurious cruise fourth floor in which a bathroom in room. 这里是位于豪华游轮四楼的其中一间房间的浴室。 But fourth floor is the floor that the dormitory room of female student is. 而四楼则是女生的宿舍房间所在的楼层。 At this time, Karuizawa Kei in the bathroom in own room, is flushing the body. 此时,轻井泽惠就在自己房间的浴室里,冲洗着身体。 Has not been this time of taking a bath obviously, now is also about 2 : 30 pm, Karuizawa Kei is actually out of control takes a bath to here. 明明还没有到该洗澡的时间,现在亦不过是下午 2 点半左右而已,轻井泽惠却还是禁不住的到这里来洗个澡。 Otherwise, Karuizawa Kei believes, own mind is unable to calm down thoroughly. 不这样的话,轻井泽惠认为,自己的头脑根本无法彻底冷静下来。 „Really was... ruined...” “真是…糟透了…” Recalled that the matter in Rabbit Group's room, Karuizawa Kei has such sound on whispering. 回想起在兔组的房间里发生的事情,轻井泽惠就不禁呢喃出这样的声音。 In the sound, was full of the pain, recollection and fear. 声音中,充满了痛苦、回忆以及恐惧。 The heart is accelerating to beat. 心脏都在加速跳动着。 The smooth skin is actually a point cannot feel the warm feeling under the hot water flushing. 光滑的皮肤在热水冲洗下却是一点都感觉不到暖意。 This lets Karuizawa Kei's whole body shivering slightly. 这让轻井泽惠的全身都在微微的颤抖。 If, sees such Karuizawa Kei now, believes, everybody knows, Karuizawa Kei is afraid anything. 若是现在的话,看到这样的轻井泽惠,相信,无论是谁都会知道,轻井泽惠在害怕着什么。 Should this shocking? 这应该会让人大跌眼镜吧？ Because, in others' in the eyes, Karuizawa Kei is domineering and persistently unreasonable Queen. 因为,在别人的眼中,轻井泽惠是即强势又蛮不讲理的女王。 The arrogance is her normal state. 盛气凌人是她的常态。 Impatient and dislike is basic of her personality. 不耐烦和厌恶是她个性的基本。 Who can think, such Karuizawa Kei, will hide in the bathroom in room unexpectedly, is afraid to tremble? 谁又能想到,那样的轻井泽惠,居然会躲在房间的浴室,害怕到发抖呢？ Only then Karuizawa Kei knows. 只有轻井泽惠才知道。 Such self was her true self. 这样的自己，才是真正的自己。 Karuizawa Kei understands very much own. 轻井泽惠是很了解自己的。 The merit or the shortcoming, understood completely. 无论是优点还是缺点,全部都了解。 Therefore, Karuizawa Kei knows, no matter the male student or the female student, actually do not like her. 所以,轻井泽惠知道,不管是男生还是女生,其实都不喜欢她。 Therefore, Karuizawa Kei also knows, own actually arrogant and persistently unreasonable to bring in hateful of many people. 所以,轻井泽惠也知道,自己的盛气凌人和蛮不讲理究竟引来了多少人的讨厌。 Hirata Yousuke is not 『Like』 Karuizawa Kei, only in 『Help』 Karuizawa Kei. 就连平田洋介都不是「喜欢」轻井泽惠,只是在「帮助」轻井泽惠而已。 These, Karuizawa Kei had self-knowledge completely. 这些,轻井泽惠全部都有自知之明。 But, what relations does this have? 可是,这又有什么关系呢？ Karuizawa Kei is hopes oneself become such person. 轻井泽惠就是希望自己成为这样的人。 So long as becomes such person, some that people will not dare 『Bully』 again she. 只要成为这样的人,那就不会再有人敢「欺负」她了。 Therefore, even again how loathful, Karuizawa Kei does not feel the pain. 因此,就算再怎么惹人厌,轻井泽惠都不觉得痛苦。 Compared with all that the past encountered, such matter, was not worth calling it the pain. 比起过去遭遇到的一切,这样的事情,根本就不值得称之为痛苦。 In fact, after arriving at Advanced Nurturing High School, all such as Karuizawa Kei hoped. 事实上,在来到高度育成高中以后,一切都如轻井泽惠所愿了。 Her arrogant achievement she among position in female students. 她的盛气凌人成就了她在女生之间的地位。 Her persistently unreasonable makes people unable about her to feel contemptuous. 她的蛮不讲理让人无法对她感到轻蔑。 The past painful recollection had overcome completely. 过去的痛苦回忆已经全部被克服。 Now, Karuizawa Kei already rebirth. 如今,轻井泽惠已经重生了。 At least, oneself thinks. 至少,本人是这么认为的。 „I... should already the rebirth to...” “我…应该已经重生了才对的…” What a pity, this only dream. 可惜,这只是一个梦。 The dream has waking finally time. 梦终有醒过来的时候。 Today's all, made the Karuizawa Kei's dream be awakened. 今天的一切,就让轻井泽惠的梦被唤醒了。 Thinks Manabe Shiho, Yabu Nanami and Yamashita Saki three people approach to come toward oneself, in the eyes also carries is making Karuizawa Kei be familiar to cannot the scene of familiar vicious tendencies, the past painful recollection was ordinary on such as mushroom growth, cropped up. 一想到真锅志保、薮菜菜美、山下沙希三人向着自己逼近而来,眼中还携带着让轻井泽惠熟悉到不能再熟悉的戾气的情景,过去的痛苦回忆就如雨后春笋一般,重新冒出头来。 „Wú...” “唔…” The recollection awakened the fear. 回忆唤醒了恐惧。 The fear subverted the innermost feelings. 恐惧颠覆了内心。 Karuizawa Kei then thought that a head dizziness, is out of control to sit in on the ground, even the head resembled to lose the strength same hung. 轻井泽惠便觉得脑袋一阵眩晕,禁不住坐在了地面上,连脑袋都似失去了力气一样的垂了下去。 However, this hangs, gave Karuizawa Kei on the contrary fatally strikes. 然而,这一垂,反倒给予了轻井泽惠致命的一击。 Because, Karuizawa Kei saw. 因为,轻井泽惠看见了。 On own side abdomen, has a fierce scar there. 在自己的侧腹上,有着一道狰狞的伤疤在那里。 „————!” “————！” scar prints the Karuizawa Kei view the instance, the dizziness in Karuizawa Kei head changes to the vortex, made her subverted innermost feelings radical collapse. 伤疤印入轻井泽惠眼帘的瞬间,轻井泽惠脑袋中的晕眩化作漩涡,令得她那被颠覆的内心彻底的崩溃。 „Vomits...!” “呕…！” Retches the sound, covered the referring to seams of mouth to divulge from Karuizawa Kei that. 干呕声,从轻井泽惠那捂住了嘴的指缝间泄露了出来。 That and not because of body scar extremely in the response that ugly causes, but is in the heart the wound in deep conceals by the cruel digging up caused disease. 那并不是因为自己身上的伤疤太过于丑陋才导致的反应,而是心中深藏的创伤被残忍的挖开所导致的疾病。 mental illness. 心理疾病。 Yes. 是的。 Karuizawa Kei has one, even if will cause the pain that mental illness is not overrated completely in the past. 轻井泽惠有一个哪怕会引起心理疾病都完全不为过的痛苦过去。 precisely because that past, Karuizawa Kei changed itself, becomes now this disgusting. 正是因为那个过去,轻井泽惠改变了自己,成为了现在这个令人厌恶的自己。 The Karuizawa Kei itself/Ben thinks that will not arrive to own body in the past again. 轻井泽惠本以为,那个过去将不会再降临到自己的身上。 But, Karuizawa Kei has not thought, an insignificant matter that oneself to protect oneself camouflaged disgusting who once handled, unexpectedly will become the fuse that opened his grief. 可是,轻井泽惠没有想到,自己为了保护自己而伪装出来的令人厌恶的自己曾经做下的一个微不足道的事情,居然会成为重新揭开其内心的伤痛的导火线。 Manabe Shiho, Yabu Nanami and Yamashita Saki three people of that toward the form that oneself approach, not only awakened cherishing fond hopes Karuizawa Kei, awakened in her heart to lose for a long time fear. 真锅志保、薮菜菜美、山下沙希三人那向着自己逼近过来的身影,不仅唤醒了做着美梦的轻井泽惠,更唤醒了她心中失去已久的恐惧。 Karuizawa Kei does not even know, in the future, actually oneself become how. 轻井泽惠甚至不知道,在接下来的日子里,自己究竟会变得怎么样。 With Manabe Shiho, Yabu Nanami and Karuizawa Kei of Yamashita Saki three people of same groups, cannot avoid these three people. 与真锅志保、薮菜菜美、山下沙希三人同一个小组的轻井泽惠,根本就避不开这三个人。 Karuizawa Kei must contact with that three people inevitably. 轻井泽惠势必还得和那三个人接触。 Then, the issue came. 那么,问题来了。 How will that three people treat themselves? 那三个人到底会怎么对待自己呢？ Can give to destroy 『Present Self』, uncovers that to make one hate sorrowful 『Past Self』? 会不会把「现在的自己」给摧毁,揪出那个令人痛恨又悲哀的「过去的自己」呢？ Own can body, be left behind second such scar again? 自己的身上,会不会再被留下第二道这样的伤疤呢？ These ideas, let Karuizawa Kei fear. 这些想法,让轻井泽惠更加的恐惧。 „Not... line...” “不…行…” Karuizawa Kei is nearly weak moan. 轻井泽惠近乎无力般的呻吟。 „I do not want... to change...” “我不要…变回去…” Only then this matter, Karuizawa Kei does not permit absolutely. 只有这件事情,轻井泽惠绝对不允许。 „Before I am not I...” “我已经不是以前的我了…” Karuizawa Kei clenches teeth, the fear of depressing innermost feelings strongly. 轻井泽惠咬了咬牙,竭力的压下内心的恐惧。 „I already rebirth...” “我已经重生了…” Even, that just from a base and low ant rebirth is a pitiful parasite, Karuizawa Kei is the need. 即使,那只不过是从一只卑微的蚂蚁重生为一条可怜的寄生虫而已,轻井泽惠都是需要的。 All, to protect oneself. 一切的一切,都是为了保护自己。 So long as to protect oneself, Karuizawa Kei anything is willing to do. 只要是为了保护自己,轻井泽惠就什么都愿意做。 scar on side abdomen, cannot make it increase absolutely again. 侧腹上的伤疤,绝对不能让它再增加了。 thought until here, Karuizawa Kei cannot help but remembers that person. 想到这里,轻井泽惠就不由得想起那个人。 Remembers that the first day that later uninhabited island's special exam starts, that man who oneself are not then able to neglect again. 想起那个在无人岛的特别考试开始的第一天以后,自己便再也无法忽视的那个男人。 Karuizawa Kei still remembers, the students on that man's when letting class goes out to retrieve the medicinal herbs, herbal medicine that prepares to mix, has spoken such words. 轻井泽惠还记得,那个男人在让班上的学生出去寻回药草,准备调配的草药时,说过这样的话。 „According to the medicinal herbs type that the present picks, I can match herbal medicine that has the effect much.” “根据现在采到的药草种类来看,我能够配出不少有奇效的草药。” „Having the herbal medicine that can play the stabilizer effect, help in the maximum degree goes to sleep.” “有能够起到稳定剂效果的草药,最大程度上的帮助入眠。” „Having herbal medicine that can externally apply, can treat to sprain, abrade and dampens even is the bone fracture.” “有能够外敷的草药,可以治疗扭伤、擦伤、挫伤甚至是骨折。” „also can treat the herbal medicine that the cold, has a fever.” “还有可以治疗感冒、发烧的草药。” „In addition the herbal medicines of various also keeping in good health effects, even also can the scar removing herbal medicine.” “除此之外还有各种养生效果的草药,甚至还有能够除疤的草药。” Right. 没错。 „scar removing...” “除疤…” Perhaps, doesn't that man know? 也许,那个男人根本不知道吧？ These words, regarding oneself, actually important. 这句话,对于自己来说,究竟有多重要。 Starting from that time, Karuizawa Kei on understood. 从那个时候开始,轻井泽惠就知道了。 Oneself need him. 自己需要他。 Needs that man, needs that herbal medicine. 需要那个男人,也需要那个草药。 Otherwise, oneself in the end still is unable the rebirth. 不这样的话,自己终究还是无法重生。 So long as this scar in own body one day, then she was still the herself of the past. 只要这个伤疤在自己的身上一天,那自己就还是过去的那个自己。 Must destroy that self be good. 必须消灭掉那个自己才行。 Therefore, Karuizawa Kei anything is willing to do. 为此,轻井泽惠什么都愿意做。 Even if trades a host, becomes the parasite of that man, that is also the same. 哪怕是换一个宿主,成为那个男人的寄生虫,那也一样。