IHHH :: Volume #6

#563: Has the ghost of shadow

At night the end shone dim light, but Chen Ge and man no one had then to look. 黑夜尽头亮起了一道淡淡的光,不过陈歌和男人谁也没有回头去看。 „Did they pin the hope on your body?” Chen Ge understands somewhat why the man can become Red-clothed, he resentment is not too strong, but he had contacted the innumerable dead before one's death once, what is most essential is these dead treats as the object who can only pour out him. “他们把希望都寄托在了你的身上吗？”陈歌多多少少明白了男人为何可以变为红衣,他自身怨念并不是太强,但是他在生前接触过无数的死者,最关键的是那些死者将他当做了唯一一个可以倾诉的对象。 The regret that all negative mood, all sad past events, all sorts have not been able to realize again, these dead told the operator these things completely, piled up in his heart. 所有负面的情绪,所有悲伤的往事,还有种种再也无法实现的遗憾,那些死者将这些东西全部告诉了接线员,积压在了他的心底。 Qualified suicide intervention operator can understand mediates the confusion of innermost feelings, they are regarded as conduit body of person, not the good mood savings are too many, will stop up, therefore they do not dare to think deeply most of the time, when meets the set up an electric circuit words will advise patiently, but after hanging up phone call/number, will not think this matter. 一个合格的自杀干预接线员会懂的排解自己内心的困惑,他们把人的身体看做是一根导管,不好的情绪积蓄太多,就会堵塞,所以他们大多时候不敢去深思,接通电话时会耐心劝导,但是挂断电话后,就再也不会去想这件事。 However railway rail that side Red-clothed male is different, he had been affected by the dead, like Chen Ge, will substitute, pulls out the pit of the stomach to console, own emotion and opposite party links. 但是铁轨那边的红衣男则不同,他已经被死者影响,就像陈歌一样,会代入其中,掏心窝子去劝解,把自己的情感和对方连接在一起。 He truly to the seeking help good person, but this similarly is also a very dangerous matter. 他是真正对求助者好的人,但是这同样也是一件非常危险的事情。 Leads into the hopeless situation of seeking help, he in helping these stands seeking help when cliff, compels itself near the cliff. 带入求助者的绝境里,他在帮助那些站在悬崖旁边的求助者时,也把自己逼到了悬崖边上。 The bearing capacity of person has the limit, even specialized psychological intervention personnel, employed many years later should still present the mental issue somewhat, man in rescues, but also without adjusts own condition with enough time, was entangled by the new confusion. 人的承受能力是有极限的,就算是专业心理干预人员,从业多年后也会出现多多少少的心理问题,男人就是在一次次的救助当中,还没来得及调整好自己的状态,就被新的困惑缠上。 He put out a hand to hold these suicidees, but his own body was also towed to entrain in the abyss little. 他伸手抓住了那些自杀者,可是他自己的身体也被一点点拖拽到了深渊里。 The teacher of man had seen the issue is, therefore makes him blow off the mind, rests well, but the final result showed, he has not as if said according to oneself teacher does. 男人的老师已经看出了问题所在,所以让他放空心灵,好好休息一下,但最终的结果表明,他似乎并没有按照自己老师说的去做。 He becomes oneself have helped innumerable the person, suicide intervention operator chose the suicide. 他成为了自己无数次帮助过的人,一个自杀干预接线员选择了自杀。 „Why can do like this? The death could not solve any problem.” Chen Ge wants to persuade the man, but thinks that man before death occupation, he had a very absurd feeling. “为什么要这样去做？死亡解决不了任何问题的。”陈歌想要去劝说男人,但是想到男人生前的职业,他又产生了一种很荒谬的感觉。 „These that you said that I have considered, after all the list I am specialized on this aspect.” Man Red-clothed of seeps out the blood, he is completely different from other Specter, both eyes look to luminous of distant place, he as if likes up. “你说的这些,我都考虑过,毕竟单就这方面来说我才是专业的。”男人身上的红衣渗出鲜血,他和其他厉鬼完全不同,双目看向远处的光亮,他似乎非常喜欢光。 „The reason of suicide can be divided into several types probably ; first, people to the world, life and surrounding environment have the cognitive dissonance the time, he will regard the surrounding everyone with a pure dull gray vision, thinks that lives is being a painful matter, my refusing stubbornly is this kind.” “自杀的原因大概能分为几种,一是人们对世界、生活、周围的环境产生认知偏差的时候,他会用一种纯粹灰暗的目光来看待周围的所有人,认为活着是一件痛苦的事情,我的死不属于这一类。” „The second type is when alone has the compunction or the feeling of guilty to something, they will make the impulsive behavior, I am not this kind obviously.” “第二种是当一个人对某件事产生内疚或者罪恶感的时候,他们会做出冲动性的行为,我显然也不属于这一类。” „The third type to retaliate, with own death, making others rude awakening, this and my situation does not tally.” “第三种则是为了报复,用自己的死,让别人后悔莫及,这和我的情况也不吻合。” „The reason segmentation of suicide can have dozens, but I do not belong any, I should be a quite special suicidee.” “自杀的原因细分能有几十条,但我不属于其中任何一条,我应该算是一个比较特殊的自杀者。” „Actually I have also been convincing myself, I have rescued so many people, may be one's turn rescues own time, I suddenly discovered that the language the strength is somewhat pale.” “其实我也一直在说服自己,我救助过那么多人,可轮到救助自己的时候,我才忽然发现语言的力量有些苍白。” „Writer and park mannequin and cancer patient, their " The Three Represents " three different personalities and life, I regretted for their departures, I hate my being incapable, I they can go on living from the hope of heart!” “作家、乐园人偶、癌症患者,他们三个代表了三种不同的人格和生活态度,我为他们的离开惋惜,我痛恨自己的无力,我发自心底的希望他们能够活下去！” „I go all out to console, but has listened attentively to their voice after truly, will discover that they have the reason of departure.” “我拼命劝解,可是真正倾听过他们的声音后,会发现他们都有离开的理由。” „Sometimes I envy the doctor very much, so long as prescribed the medicine to save the patient right, but my work was different, even if knows that the extrication to them was constantly the medicine, cannot make them use.” “有时候我很羡慕医生,只要开对了药就能救好病人,但我的工作不同,即使知道解脱对他们来说是一味药,也不能让他们使用。” „ In the network everyone launches the attack to me, I said my idea, “在网络上所有人对我进行攻击的时候,我把自己的想法说了出来, That is public sentencing, but does not have bloody scenario. ” Look continuously very tranquill of man: „Many people said that I got sick, was insane, is the executioner, is killing people indirectly, actually I want to help them.” 那是一场公开的处刑,只不过没有血淋淋的场景罢了。”男人的神色一直很平静:“很多人说我病了,疯了,是刽子手,是在间接杀人,其实我只是想要帮助他们。” The distant place bright is getting more and more near, the man stands by the railway rail, meaning that slightly do not avoid. 远处亮光越来越近,男人站在铁轨旁边,丝毫没有要躲避的意思。 „Without experiencing person of death, without realizing that rending painful person, what qualifications also there is to gesticulate? Also holds true by exhibiting a keeping aloof appearance?” As the bright approaches, the male language roll-of-yaw is quick, the forehead seeps out the blood unceasingly, face that incarnadine his half constantly changed: „When I stand up from the pool of blood again thoroughly understands this truth, that have no way out, to desperately suffocating the life floods into my body, I understood them finally, understood these had lived why the person will make the so absurd choice.” “没有见识过死亡的人,没有体会过那种撕心裂肺痛苦的人,又有什么资格来指手画脚？又有什么理由摆出一副高高在上的样子？”随着亮光逼近,男人语速变快,额头不断渗出鲜血,染红了他那半边不断变化的脸:“当我从血泊中再次站起的时候才彻底明白了这个道理,那一段段走投无路、绝望到窒息的人生涌入我的身体,我终于理解了他们,理解了那些曾经活过的人为何会做出如此荒唐的选择。” Man double pupil blood red, on the face is not again tranquil, his voice is even more demented. 男人双眸血红,脸上再无平静,他声音愈发癫狂。 „I spell completely all cure them, could let they better release the love, simultaneously enhances them to discover loves and absorbs love the ability that but I am unable to change the density in the middle of their environment loving. Therefore many people crisis intervention after is successful, will also continue to do that matter, the environment that because he lives has not been changed, the humiliated person turned encountered the cold violence, was been more difficult to hand over the friend by the isolated child, can save truly their is not my suicide intervention operator, but was side people.” “我拼尽一切去治愈他们,或许可以让他们更好的释放出爱,同时提高他们发现爱和吸纳爱的能力,但是我无法改变他们所处环境当中爱的浓度。所以很多人在危机干预成功后,还会继续去做那件事,因为他个人生活的环境没有得到改变,受欺凌的人变成了遭遇冷暴力,被孤立的孩子更难交到朋友,真正能拯救他们的不是我这个自杀干预接线员,而是身边的一个个人。” „After deeply understands most of them, you will discover, what is actually truly hateful is some some people of their side, these use in the hand the paint brush the person of suicidee world apply dust, is the true chief criminal!” “深入了解他们之中大多数人后,你会发现,其实真正可恶的是他们身边的某一些人,那些用自己手中画笔将自杀者世界涂灰的人,才是真正的罪魁祸首！” „Even if however the helper died, these killed their people not to reveal the least bit to be sad, instead most likes their family members being uncomfortable the pain.” “然而就算救助者死亡,那些杀死了他们的人也不会露出半点悲伤,反而是最爱他们的亲人会难受痛苦。” „This fair?” The men look that speeds along train that comes, slowly lifted both hands: „I clear these things after dying, actually many dead regretted very much, but they do not have the opportunity of again coming, can only pin all obsession on my body, making me help them want justice.” “这公平吗？”男人看着飞驰而来的火车,慢慢抬起了双手:“我是在死后才明白的这些东西,其实很多死者都很后悔,但是他们已经没有了重来的机会,只能把所有执念寄托在我的身上,让我帮他们讨回一个公道。” „Justice? Do you prepare to do?” This flash, Chen Ge felt that from the man biting cold killing intent, he understood that man after experiencing all sorts of things, complete blackening. “公道？你准备干什么？”这一瞬间,陈歌从男人身上感觉到了彻骨的杀意,他明白那男人在经历了种种事情之后,已经完全黑化。 „For example these only knows that demands the love greedily, the trash that but is actually not able to release the love cleaning up, no longer makes more good people suffer the pain.” “比如说将那些只知道贪婪索取爱,但是却无法释放出爱的垃圾给清理掉,不再让更多善良的人蒙受痛苦。” The word usage of man is „these”, he wants to solve is not one two, but. 男人的用词是“那些”,他想要解决的不是一个两个,而是许多。 Compared with other Red-clothed, this man cruelly and hidden in innermost feelings most deep place tyrannically. 和其他红衣相比,这个男人的残忍和暴虐隐藏在内心最深处。 „You are first calm, I thought that should have a better method.” Chen Ge drew back backward one step, is shouting the Zhang Ya’s name at heart. “你先冷静,我觉得应该还有更好的方法。”陈歌向后退了一步,在心里呼喊张雅的名字。 „This is not the decision of my alone, but is their everyone's wish.” “这不是我一个人的决定,而是它们所有人的心愿。” The blood surges, the light of train head illuminated the open land, in the ray has delimited the instance, Chen Ge saw that the man stood behind densely and numerously the person's shadow. 血液翻腾,火车头部的灯光照亮了荒地,在光线划过的瞬间,陈歌看到男人身后密密麻麻站满了人影。
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