Although leaf spirit does not like this old bludger, but the woman arrived 30 years old also to have a child, family/home, in addition other reasons, leaf spirit with this big over ten -year-old bludger marriage. 叶灵虽然不喜欢这个老混混,可女人到了三十岁也想有个孩子,有一个家,加上其它各种原因,叶灵还是跟这个比自己大十多岁的老混混结婚了。 When the child lives, is old, ability that in addition no leaf spirit of life skills, has not made money. 等孩子生下来,已经年老色衰,加上没有什么生活技能的叶灵,已经没有挣钱的能力了。 The child lives to need the person to bring, leaf spirit even did the physical strength unable to go exactly the factory, at this time leaf Lingcai understood importance that made money. 孩子生下来需要人带,叶灵甚至连去工厂干体力活都去不了了,这时候叶灵才懂得挣钱的重要性。 Oneself did not have the making money ability also even, leaf spirit that bludger husband did not have the ability to make money in the correct path, can only again on bludger say/way was farther. 自己没有挣钱能力也就算了,叶灵的那个混混丈夫也没有能力在正道上挣钱,只能再混混这条道上走的更远。 To the casino looked one time gathering place time fights, leaf spirit that bludger husband lets slip hews the severe wound, fed in the prison. 一次给赌场看场子的时候跟人打架,叶灵那个混混老公失手把人砍成重伤,被送进了大牢里。 This let just have child's leaf spirit to have one misfortune after another immediately. 这让刚刚有了孩子的叶灵顿时雪上加霜了。 Had no way out leaf spirit can only return to Taoyuan Village, returns to father's side. 已经走投无路的叶灵只能回到桃源村,回到自己父亲的身边。 Because of own matter, the father leaf Rongyue 60-year-old person must make money to raise her and her child desperately. 因为自己的事情,自己父亲叶荣岳60多岁的人还要拼命地挣钱养她和她的孩子。 In the village, the gossip of village bystander, father leaf Rongyue becomes ill because of overwork in addition, some row of illness focusing on lung cancer manifests suddenly, because does not have money to obtain the good treatment, finally passed away. 村里、村外人的闲言闲语,加上父亲叶荣岳积劳成疾,以肺癌为主的一些列病症发作,因为没钱得到好的治疗,最终去世。 But she gives the father to buy money that the grave and participates in funeral ceremony not to have, finally also the glorious uncle disbursed money the father to buy a grave for oneself, disbursed money the father to participate in funeral ceremony to oneself. 可是她连给父亲买坟地和送葬的钱都没有,最后还荣耀叔出钱才给自己父亲买了块坟地,出钱给自己父亲送葬。 Because of anything, will not be old, leaf spirit anything worked could not find, can only depend on government the subsidy in relief Jinhe Village to get by reluctantly, raised the child difficultly. 因为什么也不会,年龄也大了,叶灵什么工作都找不到,只能靠着政府的救济金和村里的补助勉强度日,艰难地把孩子养大。 Fortunately attended the elementary school and junior middle school, even the university, the child studied all expense glorious uncles to leave. 还好无论是读小学、初中、甚至大学,孩子读书所有的费用都是荣耀叔出的。 When continuously the son takes a wife. 一直等到自己儿子娶媳妇。 But oneself that daughter-in-law shuts out oneself this disgraced mother-in-law, is not willing with oneself this mother-in-law to live together, even does not recognize oneself this mother-in-law. 可是自己那个儿媳妇嫌弃自己这个丢人的婆婆,不愿意跟自己这个婆婆生活在一起,甚至不认自己这个婆婆。 The marriage not long, oneself son and his wife went to the overseas work and lived, since then both and three years did not come back to look at her one time. 结婚没有多久,自己的儿子和他媳妇就去国外工作和生活了,从此两、三年都不回来看她一次。 Even oneself grandson was born, leaf Lingxiang has a look, was rejected by her daughter-in-law. 甚至自己的孙子出生了,叶灵想去看看,都被她儿媳妇拒绝了。 Lonely lonely leaf spirit, started to buy wine with not many relief funds all day long, sleeps outside the street, quick accumulated an illness. 孤单寂寞的叶灵,开始终日用不多的救济金买醉,露宿街头,很快就积累了一身病症。 When was delivered to the hospital by the villager, was unable to treat and cure, can only waiting for death slowly. 等被村里人送到医院时,已经无法救治了,只能慢慢的等死。 Lies down in an empty hospital ward, hears footsteps little approaching of god of death, leaf spirit recalls this life. 独自一人躺在一个空荡荡的病房里,听到死神的脚步一点点的走近,叶灵不由回忆起自己这一生。 At this time she thinks, when went to college initially, she did not accept bribes the vanity, according to the meaning of father, the glorious uncle and teacher, started with a clean slate, well learn/study, then now absolutely is another scene. 这时候她不由想,如果当初上大学时,她不贪墨虚荣,按照父亲、荣耀叔、老师的意思,改过自新,好好学习的话,那么现在绝对是另一番光景。 But does this world have the reneging on a promise medicine? 可是这世界有反悔药吗？ If any, leaf spirit hopes that can eat one. 如果有的话,叶灵多么希望能吃上一颗。 Felt that own body is getting more and more cold, passing all are similar to the movie to put upside down the recollection in leaf spirit at present, all that had not once treasured, at this time becomes clear. 感觉到自己身体越来越冷,过往的一切在叶灵眼前如同电影倒放般回溯,曾经没有珍惜的一切,此时变得清清楚楚。 Misses, laments and is unwilling...... 思念、悔恨、不甘…… Various mood appear in the leaf spirit mind. 各种情绪都在叶灵的脑海里浮现。 „Yeah......” “哎……” leaf spirit regretted that exhausts the final strength to heave a deep sigh, closed the eye slowly, muddy tears of one line of lamentation flowed from her double cheek. 叶灵懊悔地用尽最后的力气长叹一声,缓缓的闭上了眼睛,一行悔恨的浊泪从她的双颊流了下来。 This is the tears that is repentant, what a pity class/flow was too late. 这是悔悟的眼泪,可惜流的太迟了。 When felt when oneself world all must go black, leaf spirit thinks: „ If can return to the university time, all pile to be but actually heavy, oneself will certainly kneel in the father nearby admits mistakes to him, oneself will certainly thoroughly rectify misdeeds. 当感觉到自己的世界一切一切都要陷入黑暗时,叶灵不由想:“如果能回到大学的时候,一切都堆倒重来的话,自己一定会跪在父亲的跟前向他认错,自己一定会痛改前非。 „Spirit...... spirit, do you get out of bed?” “灵灵……灵灵,你起床没？” After leaf spirit the consciousness goes black completely, in the mind broadcasts a voice of delightful young woman suddenly. 当叶灵的意识完全陷入黑暗后,脑海里突然传来一个悦耳的年轻女子的声音。 This is the voice of thin bamboo thin bamboo aunt child. 这是箐箐婶子的声音。 This time, is jet black a world to vibrate violently, making open the eye spirit all of a sudden. 就在这个时候,原本漆黑一片的世界猛烈地震动起来,让叶灵一下子睁开了眼睛。 The bright that out of the window transmits makes some not adapt spirit, the entire brain is also hoodwinking. 窗外传来的亮光让叶灵不由一些不适应,整个脑子还蒙着。 Where this...... is this is at? 这……这是在哪啊？ Hell? 地狱？ Heaven? 天堂？ However waits for leaf spirit to see clearly the ornaments of this room, leaf spirit was shocked! 不过等叶灵看清这房间的摆设,叶灵愣住了！ This is not attended the university the time, oneself after oneself father quarrelled, lives in glorious uncle's that room in central courtyard? 这不是自己读大学的时候,自己跟自己父亲吵架后,住在荣耀叔的四合院的那个房间吗？ No mistake, is that room! 没有错,就是那个房间！ leaf spirit affirmed very much! 叶灵很肯定！ Heaven feels sorry for itself, overthrows the opportunity of again coming to oneself? 难道上苍可怜自己,给自己推倒重来的机会吗？ „Spirit, do you get out of bed?” “灵灵,你起床没？” Outside the room broadcasts the voice of thin bamboo thin bamboo aunt child. 屋外传来箐箐婶子的声音。 „Aunt, I got out of bed!” “婶婶,我起床了！” Recovers, leaf spirit quickly said. 回过神来,叶灵急忙说道。 It seems like that yesterday last night had a dream. 看来,昨天自己昨晚只是做了一个梦。 leaf spirit thought that this dream is really inconceivable, unexpectedly a dream asked her to leave the life. 叶灵觉得这个梦实在是不可思议,居然一梦就让她走完了一生。 A sad life. 一个悲伤的一生。 When leaf spirit also wants to recall some life trivia, actually discovered that anything records is unclear, only remembers that general life experience, inside person and matter cannot see clearly fuzzily . 可当叶灵还想要回忆其中的一些生活细节时,却发现什么都记不清了,只记得大概的人生经历而已,里面的人和事都模模糊糊看不清,也记不起来了。 Even that husband and son in oneself dream were also very fuzzy, blur forgot their appearance and name to oneself. 甚至自己梦里的那个丈夫和儿子也很模糊,模糊到自己都忘记了他们的长相和名字。 All become with the passing mist, no trail of dissipation may seek. 一切一切都变得跟过往云烟,消散的毫无踪迹可寻了。 However, in dream when her at the point of death that type „penitence” the feeling truly is extremely profoundly clear , really experienced in the dream like her pitiful life, finally was repentant was same. 不过,梦里她临死时那种“悔悟”的感觉确实极其清晰、深刻,就如同她真的经历了梦中那悲惨的一生,最终悔悟了一样。 Even if leaf spirit knows oneself just had a nightmare, but that in heart misses, laments and is unwilling...... 即使叶灵知道自己只不过是做了一场噩梦,可是心中的那思念、悔恨、不甘…… Also fully in mind, making spirit very uncomfortable. 还满满地在脑海里塞着,让叶灵十分难受。 „Under combs the hair and wash the face, got out of bed to have the breakfast, your father must ride the motorcoach to go back this morning.” “梳洗下,起床吃早餐了,你爸今天上午还要坐动车回去呢。” willow Qingqing said the sound, left. 柳箐箐说了声,就离开了。 „Un.” “嗯。” The leaf efficacioused, got out of bed to wear the clothes immediately. 叶灵应了一声,立马起床穿衣服了。 When leaf spirit arrives at the courtyard time, father leaf Rongyue and glorious uncle two people chatted in courtyard. 等叶灵走到院子的时候,父亲叶荣岳和荣耀叔两人在院子里聊天。 „Father......” “爸……” Looks own father livingly in own at present, the leaf spirit tears cannot stop flow off from the double cheek. 看着自己父亲活生生地在自己的眼前,叶灵泪水止不住地从双颊流下。 Recalls in the dream, oneself father to haunch a family/home to oneself, becomes ill because of overwork, death time, oneself link the money of coffin board unable to take together, lamented that fills leaf spirit the heart. 回想梦里,自己父亲为了给自己撑起一个家,积劳成疾,去世的时候,自己连一块棺材板的钱都拿不出来,悔恨充满叶灵的心。 „Un!” “嗯！” leaf Rongyue somewhat has doubts then looks to own daughter. 叶荣岳有些疑惑地回头看向自己的女儿。 Does not know the daughter who why leaf Rongyue always thinks compared with yesterday evening, where difference has, was only where is different, leaf Rongyue did not explain. 不知道为什么叶荣岳总觉的自己女儿跟昨天晚上比,有哪里不一样,只是哪里不一样,叶荣岳也说不明白。 „Father...... I was wrong!” “爸……我错了！” leaf spirit the half step arrives at leaf Rongyue, kneels down all of a sudden, cries to say to leaf Rongyue. 叶灵快步来到叶荣岳的跟前,一下子跪下,哭着对叶荣岳说道。 „......” “啊……” „......” “啊……” That comes suddenly, not only makes glory Yue be caught off guard, making willow Qingqing they not think. 突来的一幕,不但让叶荣岳措手不及,让柳箐箐她们也没有想到。 This leaf spirit kneels down to admit mistakes unexpectedly! 这叶灵竟然下跪认错！ Only then leaf glory, although is somewhat surprised, in having a mind prepares, pours does not have the too big mood to change. 只有叶荣耀虽然有些吃惊,当有心里准备,倒也没有太大的情绪变化。 Sighed that „was repentant of symbol” too to be really powerful. 只是感叹“悔悟符”实在太强大了。 How an evening, lets leaf spirit who infatuated does not become aware, was repentant. 就怎么一个晚上,就让痴迷不悟的叶灵,就这么悔悟过来了。 What a pity this „is repentant of symbol” such, used not to have. 可惜这“悔悟符”自己就这么一张,用了就没有了。 When also does not know, but can also pull out to one again „is repentant of symbol”. 也不知道什么时候,还能再抽到一张“悔悟符”。 „You......” “你……” leaf Rongyue this was knelt by own daughter, the whole person somewhat was ignorant. 叶荣岳被自己女儿这一跪,整个人都有些懵了。 „Father, I made a mistake, I should not admire the vanity corruptly, should not recognize the adoptive father, should not talk back to you, making you be angry, the father, please forgive me, forgives me.” “爸,我错了,我不该贪慕虚荣,不该认干爹,更加不该跟你顶嘴,让你生气,爸,请你原谅我,原谅我。” leaf Linggui in leaf Rongyue the under foot, the sob said. 叶灵跪在叶荣岳的脚下,哭泣道。 „Father...... the father forgives you, you...... you are quick!” “爸爸……爸爸原谅你,你……你快起来吧！” leaf Rongyue said to leaf spirit agitated. 叶荣岳情绪激动地对叶灵说道。 No matter oneself daughter violates the big mistake, she is oneself daughter, so long as she admitted mistakes, leaf Rongyue are willing to forgive her. 不管自己女儿犯多大的错,她都是自己的女儿,只要她认错了,叶荣岳都愿意原谅她。 „Father, I really realized that was wrong, I...... I will certainly study in the school well well, after graduating, make money by the real skill, is well filial you!” “爸,我真的认识到错误了,我……我一定会好好在学校里好好学习,毕业后靠自己真本事挣钱,好好地孝顺你！” leaf Lingbao leaf Rongyue the leg was saying. 叶灵抱着叶荣岳的腿说道。 In this world, is willing not to have the institute not to strive for the person who oneself pay, is own father. 这世界上,愿意无所无求地为自己付出的人,就是自己的父亲。 Own yesterday brain actually felt dizzy, such spoke to own father, leaf Lingzhen regretted. 自己昨天脑子竟然发昏,那样对自己父亲说话,叶灵真的懊悔的很。 „Good, good!” “好,好！” leaf Rongyue happily said. 叶荣岳欣慰地说道。 Has what daughter to realize wrongly, is willing to thoroughly rectify misdeeds to make glory Yue Gengjia happy. 有什么比自己女儿认识到错误,愿意痛改前非让叶荣岳更加开心了。 „Ok, worked, your father he forgave you.” “好了,灵灵起来吧,你爸爸他原谅你了。” The leaf glory said to leaf spirit. 叶荣耀对叶灵说道。 It seems like „is repentant of symbol” to make that dreamland that goes in spirit very unusual, can make her see the light suddenly like this, making glory at heart also very curious. 看来“悔悟符”让叶灵进去的那个梦境很奇特,能让她这样顿悟,让叶荣耀心里也很好奇。 But leaf Rongyao knows, this matter cannot ask. 可叶荣耀知道,这事情自己是不能去问的。 However saw that this leaf Lingzhen saw the light suddenly, leaf glory at heart also specially happy. 不过看到这叶灵真的顿悟了,叶荣耀心里也特别地开心。 No matter how said, a village, an ancestral hall, how this leaf spirit said is also own niece, she can move toward the correct path, this is a very good matter. 不管怎么说,一个村子的,一个宗祠的,这个叶灵怎么说也算是自己的侄女,她能走向正道,这是一件非常不错的事情。 „Right, spirits you to get up, do not kneel, the father really forgave you.” “对,灵灵你起来,不要跪了,爸爸真的原谅你了。” leaf Rongyue said leaf Lingla. 叶荣岳把叶灵拉起来说道。 As the father, where will really be mad daughter. 作为父亲,哪里会真的生自己女儿的气呢。 „Un...... wū wū......” “嗯……呜呜……” The leaf stands spirit, the tears flow. 叶灵站起来,眼泪还是哗哗地流。 „Spirit, do not cry, then cries is not unattractive, we first have the breakfast.” “灵灵,不要哭了,再哭就不好看了,咱们先吃早餐。” willow Qingqing leaf spirit was saying. 柳箐箐拉着叶灵说道。 This woman comforts the woman to be fiercer than the man, quick willow Qingqing comforted leaf spirit. 这女人安慰女人比男人厉害,很快柳箐箐就安慰好叶灵了。 ...... …… In central courtyard. 四合院里。 leaf spirit also finished eating the breakfast. 叶灵也吃完早餐。 „Father, today do not go back, here plays again for several days!” “爸,你今天不要回去了,再这里玩几天吧！” leaf spirit not Shirdi holds the father leaf Rongyue hand to say. 叶灵不舍地拉着父亲叶荣岳的手说道。 Has lost a father in dream spirit, now the leaf treasures with own father spirit specially is together every minute. 在梦里叶灵失去过一次父亲,现在叶灵特别地珍惜跟自己父亲相处的每一分钟。 „, In the family/home many exactly were dry.” “不了,家里还有好多活要干呢。” leaf Rongyue shakes the head to say. 叶荣岳摇摇头说道。 Own this daughter studies in Capital City, this expense is very high, leaf Rongyue there dared to be idle, yesterday's matter, making glory Yue also understand, oneself one month gave the daughter 500 dollars the living expenses, was insufficient in this Capital City. 自己这女儿在京城读书,这消费很高,叶荣岳那里敢清闲下来了,昨天的事情,让叶荣岳也明白了,自己一个月才给自己女儿五百块钱的生活费,在这京城根本就不够用啊。 Some people said that the daughter must raise richly, oneself do not have the ability to raise oneself daughter richly, but can enhance this living expenses one month to 1000 dollars. 有人说女儿要富养,自己没有能力富养自己的女儿,但可以把这生活费一个月提高到一千块钱。 At least, is insufficient the daughter not to eat every day in the school well. 最起码的,不至于自己女儿每天在学校里吃不好。 Naturally leaf Rongyue also wants to oneself daughter one month two and 3000 living expenses, but family's economic capacity cannot achieve. 当然叶荣岳也想给自己女儿一个月两、三千块的生活费,可是家里的经济能力达不到啊。 These years money gave leaf spirit to study to use up. 这些年的钱都给叶灵读书用掉了。 Presently wants to train a university student at home, this expenditure specially high, particularly in min state city, various making up for a missed lesson fees bent leaf Rongyue the originally great body. 现在家里想要培养出一个大学生,这花费特别地高,尤其是在玟州这个城市,各种补课费都压弯了叶荣岳原本伟岸的身躯。