Am I a third party? 我是不是第三者？ When Lan Xin proposed when this question, on the Xiao Zheng face that somewhat reluctantly, some also afraid smiling faces vanished into thin air instantaneously, change into endless to bear a sense of guilt. 当蓝心提出这个疑问时,萧正脸上那本就有些勉强,还有些心虚的笑容瞬间烟消云散,化为无尽的负疚。 Third party? 第三者？ Why does she will such feel? 她为什么会这样觉得？ Perhaps, because indeed will her harmless character, put the blame on all mistakes she herself? Even if obviously under injury, is not willing to go to estimate anybody maliciously. Is this to a woman, the what kind of mind/bosom and goodness? 也许,正是因为她无害的性格,才会把所有过错归咎于她自己吧？哪怕明明是在受伤之下,也不肯去恶意揣度任何人。这对一个女人而言,是何等的胸怀、善良？ Xiao Zheng line of sight slightly becomes moved, the vision falls on the Lan Xin face gently, shakes the head saying: „It is not.” 萧正视线微微变得伤感,目光轻轻落在蓝心的脸上,摇头说道:“不是。” He cannot make Lan Xin suffer the such grievance. Even before when he and Lan Xin arrives together, he had an agreement marriage with Lin Huayin. 他不能让蓝心蒙受这样的委屈。纵使当他和蓝心走到一起之前,他就与林画音有了一份协议婚姻。 „But you enter the company, isn't Boss Lin arranges ?” Lan Xin slightly relaxes. The pale face slightly was also moderate. “可你进公司,不就是林总安排的吗？”蓝心微微松了口气。苍白的脸庞也略微缓和了一些。 It is not the third party, that own takes the blame to be smaller. 不是第三者,那自己的负罪就能小许多。 „Yes.” Xiao Zheng nods, the tone as far as possible becomes gentle. „I before the company, know with Boss Lin.” “是。”萧正点点头,口吻尽可能变得柔和。“我是在进公司之前,和林总认识的。” „How do you know ?” In the Lan Xin beautiful pupil exudes to wipe the curious color. “你们是怎么认识的？”蓝心的美眸中泛起一抹好奇之色。 Is their dear friend acquaintance, very certainly happy? 他们的相知相识,一定很美好吧？ „You cannot certainly think.” Xiao Zheng to alleviate ties tight the atmosphere, is maintaining the smiling face diligently. „ That is a night, she is harassed by senseless person in the bar. I help her help people overcome their difficulties. Then sits together drinks, finally we are dead drunk... „ “你一定想不到。”萧正为了缓解十分紧绷的气氛,努力维持着笑容。“那是一个夜晚,她在酒吧受到无趣之人的骚扰。我上去帮她排忧解难。然后就坐在一起喝酒,结果我们都酩酊大醉…“ Xiao Zheng is very fuzzy to that evening memory, he does not even remember that had said with Lin Huayin anything words, have talked about anything topic. But later matter, even if he did not say, Lan Xin can still guess correctly. 萧正对当晚的记忆十分模糊,他甚至不记得和林画音说过一些什么话,聊过一些什么话题。但之后的事情,即便他不说,蓝心也能够猜到。 She is good, but is not silly. Uses all might many years of capable woman in the market as one, what can she unable to guess correctly Xiao Zheng afterward and Lin Huayin had? 她是善良,但不是傻。作为一个在商场摸爬滚打多年的女强人,她能猜不出萧正后来和林画音发生了什么？ „Therefore you in the same place?” Lan Xin is like Xiao Zheng, is controlling the chaotic mood diligently. She does not want to make one not to have the demeanor woman, particularly facing Xiao Zheng. “所以你们就在一起了？”蓝心和萧正一样,努力控制着混乱的情绪。她不想做一个没风度的女人,尤其是面对萧正。 But if all, just like Xiao Zheng said that that oneself or third party? 但如果一切正如萧正所说,那自己还是第三者？ „Where has such to be simple.” Xiao Zheng ordered one glass of cocktails, the ear bank transmitted the melodious music, clear atmosphere, although was graceful, but two people of innermost feelings, were extremely dignified. “哪有这么简单。”萧正又点了一杯鸡尾酒,耳畔传来悠扬的音乐,清吧气氛虽然优雅,可二人的内心,却万分凝重。 „You also know that the Boss Lin temper, she usually including looked man eyes dislike bothersomely. Where do I to go compared with other man?” Xiao Zheng drank good wine, on the face was maintaining the light smiling face, as if in chatted with the old friend, under the gentle music, he said slowly. „After that is late, I continue to look for my work. Boss Lin also bold side unyielding, controls Xin'ao as before. we do not have any relation. Until the one day of Boss Lin instruction person to call a telephone me.” “你也知道林总的性子,她平时连多看男人一眼都嫌烦。我又比别的男人强到哪里去？”萧正喝了一口美酒,脸上维持着淡淡的笑容,仿佛在与老友谈天,在轻柔的音乐之下,他缓缓说道。“那晚之后,我还是继续找我的工作。林总也依旧挥斥方遒,掌控新奥。我们没有任何联系。直至有一天林总吩咐人给我打了一个电话。” „What asks you to make?” Lan Xin diligently becomes tranquil, asked. “找你做什么？”蓝心努力变得平静,问道。 In the Xiao Zheng profound eye pupil flashes through wipes, helpless the color, said slowly: „I do not know at that time. If by any chance after I enter President's Office, I know that I brought the big trouble, held the hornet's nest.” 萧正深邃的眼眸中闪过一抹无奈之色,缓缓说道:“我当时也不知道。但等我进入总裁办公室之后,我才知道我闯了大祸,捅了马蜂窝。” paused, Xiao Zheng continues saying: „That evening, indeed Boss Lin dangerous period. The doctor told her to be pregnant possibility to be enormous. Therefore looks for me” 顿了顿,萧正继续说道:“那一晚,正是林总的危险期。医生告诉她怀孕的可能性极大。所以找我来” „Wants you to be responsible for?” Lan Xin heart and liver trembles, acoustic ray dejected asked. “要你负责？”蓝心心肝儿微颤,声线颓靡的问道。 „At that time I was also such think .” The Xiao Zheng forced smile said. „But after a series of negotiations, I and she signed a very bewildered agreement.” “当时我也是这么认为的。”萧正苦笑道。“但经过一系列谈判之后,我和她签了一个很莫名其妙的协议。” „Agreement?” In this aspect very specialized Lan Xin said strangely. „What agreement?” “协议？”在这方面很专业的蓝心奇道。“什么协议？” „Marital agreement.” Xiao Zheng writes in a straightforward manner to say. “婚姻协议。”萧正平铺直叙道。 „What!?” The Lan Xin complexion checks changes, look flurried say/way. „Your already marriage?” “什么！？”蓝心脸色刹变,眼神慌乱道。“你们已经结婚了？” „already relieved.” Xiao Zheng said slowly. „After determining she does not have is pregnant, the agreement relieved automatically.” “已经解除了。”萧正缓缓说道。“在确定她没有怀孕之后,协议就自动解除了。” Lan Xin heart slightly trembles, since already dissolved the agreement, but two people are binding the relations as before, and lived in one. This can only show, they already does not need to tie up with a paper agreement. But treats by the sentiment. 蓝心的心微微一颤,既然已经解除了协议,但二人依旧维系着关系,并住在了一起。这只能证明,他们已经无需用一纸协议来捆绑。而是以情相待。 „No matter how said” Lan Xin acoustic ray low and gently said. „I make all, among destroying you sentiment.” “不管怎么说”蓝心声线低柔道。“我所作的一切,都是在破坏你们之间的感情。” Lan Xin is not one is good at hiding the woman, all her expressions and state of mind, perform in the face and eye. lets one easily sees through. 蓝心不是一个善于掩藏的女人,她所有的表情和心绪,都尽在脸上和眼中。让人轻易看穿。 Xiao Zheng what kind of vicious vision, how also to guess correctly Lan Xin heart to think? 萧正何等老辣眼光,又如何猜不出蓝心的心中所想？ He sipped cocktail, very fair and just said: „In fact, when I and you in together, me and Boss Lin relations, potential like water and fire. She will make a clean sweep me momentarily. But I , can only be lives under subjugation. Why this is also I never leads you to go to my family to have a look at the reason.” 他抿了一口鸡尾酒,十分公允的说道:“实际上,当我和你在一起之时,我和林总的关系,势如水火。她随时会把我扫地出门。而我,也只能算是寄人篱下。这也是为什么我从不带你去我家看看的原因。” Lan Xin hears this, heart slightly one soft, twittering said: „If I knew you already with Boss Lin in together, I cannot” 蓝心闻言,心中微微一软,呢喃道:“如果我知道你早就和林总在一起了,我也不会” „Everyone has the pursue happiness and love power.” A Xiao Zheng thread of conversation revolution, on the face actually passed over gently and swiftly wipes the light moved color. „But I am unable to guarantee that you pursue , is happy, rather than pain.” “每个人都有追求幸福和爱情的权力。”萧正话锋一转,脸上却掠过一抹淡淡的伤感之色。“但我无法保证你所追求的,就是幸福,而不是痛苦。” This is extremely complex the lets one pain triangle love. 这是一段极为复杂又令人痛苦的三角恋。 Occupies to take the initiative Lin Huayin in the time. 一个是在时间上占据先机的林画音。 In the sentiment, first infiltrates the Xiao Zheng heart gentle female. 一个是在感情上,第一个打入萧正心田的温柔女子。 Xiao Zheng and Lin Huayin in the same place, ran into the correct person in the wrong time completely. But with Lan Xin, was the right time ran into the wrong person. 萧正和林画音在一起,完全是在错误的时间遇到了正确的人。而与蓝心,则是正确的时间遇到了错误的人。 Lan Xin understood what is heard indistinctly Xiao Zheng these words subtext. 蓝心隐约听明白了萧正这番话的潜台词。 Is he suggesting oneself? 他是在暗示自己么？ He wants to tell oneself, should oneself drop? Because he will certainly not leave Lin Huayin. Because of him certainly not with oneself in the same place? 他是想告诉自己,自己应该放手了么？因为他一定不会离开林画音。因为他一定不会和自己在一起么？ Lan Xin only feels the scant of breath, as if suffocates. including drank several glasses of cocktails, on slightly ruddy face also the color of passing over gently and swiftly pain. 蓝心只觉得呼吸困难,仿佛窒息。就连喝了几杯鸡尾酒,略显红润的脸庞上也掠过痛苦之色。 Before Xiao Zheng appears, her contradiction, painful, is unable to choose. 在萧正出现之前,她矛盾着,痛苦着,无法选择。 But now, Xiao Zheng seems actually helping her choose. Also already gave her to choose. 但现在,萧正却仿佛在帮她选择。也已经给了她选择。 Can oneself win Lin Huayin? 自己能争得过林画音么？ Can oneself from Lin Huayin nearby, rob Xiao Zheng? 自己能从林画音身边,抢走萧正么？ Which aspect can oneself, be more outstanding than Lin Huayin? 自己又能在哪方面,比林画音更优秀？ Since is completely not an opponent, why to bring contempt upon oneself? 既然完全不是对手,何必自取其辱呢？ The Lan Xin eye socket is instantaneously ruddy, the big tears emerge from the beautiful pupil. 蓝心的眼眶瞬间红润起来,大颗的眼泪从美眸中涌现。 She knows. Even if this sentiment is hard-won, even if this friendship in her heart is the priceless treasure. But things have gotten to this point, her also what strives for the leeway? Can she also in this sentiment, what making is not studious? 她知道。纵使这段感情再来之不易,纵使这份情谊在她心中是无价之宝。可事已至此,她还有什么争取的余地呢？她又还能在这段感情上,做什么无用功呢？ She erases on the face the tears, the gentle moving snow white face becomes especially distressed. Then, she carries the cocktail, delivers said to Xiao Zheng: „A'Zheng, we drink one cup.” 她抹掉脸庞上的泪花,原本温婉动人的雪白脸庞变得格外狼狈。然后,她端起鸡尾酒,送向萧正道:“阿正,我们喝一杯。” Xiao Zheng heart slightly sighed, things have gotten to this point, he also can only accept this brutal reality. 萧正心中微微一叹,事已至此,他也只能接受这个残酷的现实。 Carries the wine glass, Xiao Zheng squeezes a smiling face: „Cheers.” 端起酒杯,萧正强挤出一丝笑容:“干杯。” Two people begin supinely, drinks this glass of good wines silent. In the mouth actually is only left over bitterly and astringently, endless is bitter and astringent. 二人仰起头,沉默饮下这杯美酒。口中却只剩下苦涩,无尽的苦涩。 In the meantime, in the stage walks a suit straight young man. He drinks slightly drunk, after the orchestra has greeted, picks up the microphone stupidly to say with a smile: „This song gives to you, I died the love. My unforgettable first love.” 就在此时,舞台上走去一个西装笔挺的年轻男子。他喝得微醺,向乐队打过招呼之后,拿起话筒傻笑道:“这首歌送给你,我死去的爱情。我难忘的初恋。” Is low-spirited with his table of several young men and women even complexions. Does not know unexpectedly how to persuade. 和他一桌的几个年轻男女均脸色黯然。竟不知如何劝说。 The men were successful. Succeeding in one's pursuit. Actually in the life most glorious time, lost the precious first love. 男子成功了。事业有成。却在人生最荣耀的时候,失去了珍贵的初恋。 „Works as all people, leaves my time. You urged me to wait patiently, and accompanied me to pass in the life the longest cold winter. is so tolerant. When all people, close to my time. You want me to be peaceful. As if knows that I have one never the peaceful heart, is easy to wriggle. I make a lot of both hands brandish before me finally, I had a lot of warm smiling faces finally. My lets one group was moved by my deep finally, I actually forgot to tell you, you continuously in my heart. I lost you finally. In the crowded crowd. I lost you finally, when my life first time is honored...” “当所有的人,离开我的时候。你劝我要耐心等候,并且陪我度过生命中最长的寒冬。如此的宽容。当所有的人,靠近我的时候。你要我安静从容。似乎知道我有一颗永不安静的心,容易蠢动。我终于让千百双手在我面前挥舞,我终于有了千百个热情笑容。我终于让人群被我深深的打动,我却忘了告诉你,你一直在我心中。啊,我终于失去了你。在拥挤的人群中。我终于失去了你,当我的人生第一次感到光荣…” ~ ~