On road. 路上。 The people are many. 人很多。 Has the male. Has the female. Has old. Has few. Has all alone. Has double to enter right. also forms groups. They are smiling. Chatting. Outlined all living things buddha. A sand is a world. Let alone stream of people incessantly city center. 有男。有女。有老。有少。有孤身一人。有出双入对。还有成群结队。他们笑着。聊着。勾勒出众生浮图。一沙就是一个世界。何况人流不止的市中心。 Shen Manjun seems like an orphan. aimlessly walks on the street. She has not driven. Also has not looked for one to walk the companion. She is walking. Crying. Walking was very far. Crying to be very long. She walked until tired. But she has not stopped the footsteps. 沈曼君像是一个孤儿。漫无目的的行走在街上。她沒有开车。也沒有找一个走路的伴儿。她走着。哭着。走了很远。哭了很久。她走累了。但她沒有停下脚步。 Once the people stop the footsteps. Is easy to recall. Recalled the past. Good . Not good . Happy . Painful . Will stream. Sneaks in her head. 人一旦停下脚步。就容易回忆。回忆过去。好的。不好的。开心的。痛苦的。都会纷至沓來。钻进她的脑袋。 She most does not need to recall at this moment. Her with trepidation makes oneself keep pure. Brain is pure. She exhausts all forgets today previous every day. Although that is painful . Fearful . But she must such do. 她此刻最不需要的就是回忆。她提心吊胆的让自己保持清白。大脑的清白。她用尽一切去忘记今日之前的每一天。尽管那是痛苦的。可怕的。但她必须这么做。 „Shen Manjun. could it be you do not report the vengefulness for father's murder. He is your father. Even if has thousand to be wrong. To your how could it not be hypocrisy.” “沈曼君。难道你连杀父之仇都不报了么。他是你的生父。纵使有千般错。对你又岂非假意。” „Shen Manjun. could it be you have not understood him. He pays for you. Undertakes . could it be are not enough. If not for you. How he will be involved in this disturbance. Was nearly killed.” “沈曼君。难道你还不了解他。他为你付出的。承担的。难道还不够多。若非为了你。他又怎会卷入这场风波。险些丧命。” „......” “……” In the mind is similar two people to talk. Their unscrupulous devastates is in deep sorrow Shen Manjun. Does not care about the Shen Manjun feeling completely. With most virulent. Most crazed speech puts salt in her wound. Made her breathe does not entangle. Almost suffocates. 脑海中仿佛有两个人在对话。她们肆无忌惮的摧残着痛不欲生的沈曼君。完全不在乎沈曼君的感受。用最恶毒。最丧心病狂的话语在她伤口上撒盐。令她呼吸不缠。几近窒息。 She arrived at the night from the daytime. Arrived at the cold wind recklessly. Arrived at the star moon/month to hang. But she does not know to where. Also. Where also can give shelter to her. Gives her a warm harbor. 她从白天走到了夜晚。走到了寒风肆意。走到了星月高悬。但她不知道该去往何处。又或者。还有什么地方能收留她。给她一个温暖的港湾。 „The place of the world. could it be did not have the place of my taking shelter. could it be...... cannot accommodate my Shen Manjun one person.” “天下之地。难道就沒有我的容身之地了么。难道……就容不下我沈曼君一人。” Road center. The cargo train drives rapidly. Illuminated the entire street. Also covered the Shen Manjun road ahead. 路的中央。有一辆大货车急速驶來。照亮了整条街道。也遮挡了沈曼君的前路。 She steps the footsteps. Disregards the red light reminder. Moved toward the street center. 她迈动脚步。无视红灯的提醒。走向了马路中央。 Toot toot...... 嘟嘟…… The grating resonant car(riage) whining noise is urging Shen Manjun. Clearly. Freight vehicle driver was presented by Shen Manjun suddenly scares. 刺耳嘹亮的车鸣声催赶着沈曼君。很明显。货车司机被沈曼君的忽然出现吓坏了。 Whiz. 嗖。 A shadow appears. Holds in the arms eyes closed to wait for death Shen Manjun at the lightning general speed. Rushes to the street. 一道黑影出现。以闪电般的速度搂住闭目等死的沈曼君。向马路对面奔去。 „. Your mother was blind.” “靠。你他妈瞎眼了。” On the freight vehicle transmits driver to curse loudly. Hears its sound. Obvious also several points are survivor of disaster to fear. 货车上传來司机的高声咒骂。听其声音。明显还有几分劫后余生的恐惧。 Shen Manjun opens eyes. Sees only a face to worry that Xiao Zheng stands in the front. He loosened the hand. Helpless stands in front of Shen Manjun. Does not know that should say anything. Also does not know how should persuade. 沈曼君睁开眼。只见一脸担忧的萧正站在面前。他松开了手。手足无措的站在沈曼君面前。不知该说什么。也不知该如何劝说。 She is suiciding. 她在寻死。 With the Shen Manjun Xiao Zheng heart like bright mirror. But even so. Xiao Zheng can make . Also closely follows in her behind. Does not dare to intervene. Does not have the qualifications to give any opinion. 跟了沈曼君一路的萧正心如明镜。可即便如此。萧正能做的。也只是紧紧跟在她的身后。不敢干预。也沒有资格给予任何的意见。 „You came.” The Shen Manjun complexion is gloomy. Very ordinary asked one. “你來了。”沈曼君脸色暗淡。只是很平常的问了一句。 „I continuously.” Xiao Zheng acoustic ray low and soft said. “我一直在。”萧正声线低柔的说道。 „I once hoped you continuously.” The Shen Manjun mood is calm. As if experienced a moment ago a narrow escape. This moment she became serene many. „Even drops out all. What does not want.” “我曾经多希望你一直在。”沈曼君情绪平静。仿佛经历了刚才的九死一生。此刻的她变得安详多了。“即便抛下所有。什么都不要。” Xiao Zheng has mixed feelings extremely. Corners of the mouth bitter and astringent say/way: „I continuously. So long as you need.” 萧正心情万分复杂。嘴角苦涩道:“我会一直在。只要你需要。” „Need.” Shen Manjun speechless smiles. Dreary say/way. „I need only. Was also destroyed by you a moment ago.” “需要。”沈曼君哑然一笑。惨淡道。“我唯一需要的。刚才也被你破坏了。” „This is not you should take the road.” Xiao Zheng said in a low voice. „I do not hope that your such walks.” “这不是你应该走的路。”萧正低声道。“我也不希望你这么走。” „Other also means.” Shen Manjun asked. „You felt. How I should walk. Where can also arrive.” “还有别的办法吗。”沈曼君反问道。“你觉得。我应该怎么走。又能走到哪里。” „I know. You will not forgive me.” The Xiao Zheng forced smile said. „If you want. Killed me. Revenges for your father.” “我知道。你不会原谅我。”萧正苦笑道。“如果你愿意。就杀了我。为你父亲报仇。” „Killed you.” Shen Manjun trembling sound said. „How I will kill you. How I was willing to kill you.” “杀了你。”沈曼君颤声道。“我怎么会杀了你。我又怎么舍得杀了你。” The Xiao Zheng mood is unconstrained. Said excitedly: „Since can give Why cannot give a oneself way out.” 萧正情绪跌宕。激动道:“既然能放我一条生路。为什么不能放自己一条生路。” „My also way out.” Shen Manjun asked. „My way out where.” “我还有生路吗。”沈曼君问道。“我的生路在哪里。” „You have.” Xiao Zheng word by word powerful said. „Your also excellent future. This is not your only choice.” “你有。”萧正字字有力的说道。“你还有大好的前途。这绝不是你唯一的选择。” „I live to whom look.” Shen Manjun trembling sound said. „Told me. In this world also who is worth me going on living.” “我活给谁看。”沈曼君颤声道。“告诉我。这世上还有谁值得我活下去。” Xiao Zheng wants to blurt out. May think. oneself what virtues or abilities. The also face said the such words before her. 萧正本想脱口而出。可想了想。自己何德何能。还有脸面在她面前说出这样的话语。 But if did not say. How should also urge. 可如果不说。又该如何劝下去。 Tonight Shen Manjun made Xiao Zheng feel the fear. This woman. really will die. Dies in front of oneself. 今晚的沈曼君让萧正感受到了害怕。这个女人。真的会死。死在自己面前。 „I.” Xiao Zheng raised the head to throw out the chest to say. „I am unfair to you. I owed you a life. You can take care oneself well. Keeps the life to ask me to repay a debt.” “我。”萧正抬头挺胸道。“我对不起你。我欠了你一条命。你能好好保重自己。留着命來找我还债吗。” „Repays a debt.” Shen Manjun shakes the head to say. „You do not owe me . Also does not need to repay a debt.” “还债。”沈曼君摇头道。“你不欠我的。也不用还债。” Xiao Zheng said in a low voice: „You do not need me not to represent me not to use. This is two matters.” 萧正沉声道:“你不需要我还不代表我不用还。这是两件事。” „How you plan.” Shen Manjun flutters to say. „You can pay off.” “那你打算怎么还。”沈曼君颤声说道。“你能还清吗。” Xiao Zheng is staring at Shen Manjun that pair of beauty. Actually incomparably desperate pupil. Clenches teeth saying: „With life. So long as you are living. I continuously.” 萧正盯着沈曼君那双美丽。却又无比绝望的眸子。咬牙说道:“用一生來还。只要你活着。我就一直还。” Shen Manjun double pupil with tears. But contradiction painful said: „Good. I am living. Lives waits for you to repay a debt.” 沈曼君双眸含泪。矛盾而痛苦的说道:“好。我活着。活着等你还债。” Xiao Zheng. You said. Will repay with the life. You remember. Remembered you say words to me. 萧正。你说了。会用一生來偿还。你记住。记住你对我说的话。 Xiao Zheng extends the arm suddenly. Closely grips Shen Manjun that pair to be blown as if by the cold wind freezes the white hands. A face treats a matter seriously saying: „Okay living. I have not owed anyone. Do not let me unable to find the person to repay a debt.” 萧正忽然伸出手臂。紧紧握住沈曼君那双被寒风吹得仿佛冰冻的玉手。一脸郑重其事的说道:“好好活着。我沒欠过谁。别让我找不到人还债。” Shen Manjun has tears streaming down the face. Concentrates to choke speechless. 沈曼君泪流满面。无语凝噎。 She decided to live. 她决定活着了。 She does not know that in the future the road can be painful. Also or is happier than all women. But she already decided to live. Lives for him. 她不知道未來的路会有多么痛苦。又或者比所有女人都幸福。但她已经决定活了。为他而活。 In this world. Also several women live for a man. 这世上。又有几个女人是为一个男人而活呢。 Shen Manjun is. 沈曼君是。 Is true is Xiao Zheng lives. 是真正的为萧正而活。 Otherwise. She could not find to continue to go on living the reason. Otherwise. She does not know that oneself lives in this world. also anything value. 否则。她找不到继续活下去的理由。否则。她不知道自己活在这个世界上。还有什么价值。 But now. She had one to go on living at least the reason. In order to dun. To repay a debt the opportunity to Xiao Zheng one. 但现在。她起码有了一个活下去的理由。为了讨债。为了给萧正一个还债的机会。 such. Whether can counter-balance heart contradiction. such. Whether can go on living safely. 这样。是否就能抵消心中的矛盾了呢。这样。是否就可以安然的活下去了呢。 „Night.” Xiao Zheng said in a soft voice. „Should go home.” “夜深了。”萧正轻声说道。“该回家了。” „Which family/home.” Shen Manjun raised the head. Vacant looks to Xiao Zheng. “哪个家。”沈曼君抬起头。茫然的望向萧正。 „Your family.” The Xiao Zheng vision is tranquil. Had not actually pointed out that is which family/home. “你的家。”萧正目光平静。却并未指出是哪个家。 Family/Home where. Only then Shen Manjun oneself knows. How Xiao Zheng gives her to instruct. 家在哪里。只有沈曼君自己才知道。萧正又如何给予她指导呢。 „Should go home.” Shen Manjun said gently. „For a long time has not gone home.” “是该回家了。”沈曼君轻轻说道。“好久沒回家了。” Since Xiao Zheng and Zhao Old Four break off . Shen Manjun has not gone home again. Now. Zhao Old Four died. She should also go home. Otherwise. How could it not be Zhao Family did not have. 自从萧正与赵老四决裂之后。沈曼君就再也沒回过家了。现在。赵老四死了。她也该回家了。否则。赵家岂不沒了。 She cannot make Zhao Family not have. 她不能让赵家沒了。 She throughout Fourth Master Zhao daughter. Even if Fourth Master Zhao by no means cares. 她始终还是赵四爷的女儿。哪怕赵四爷并不在乎。