„ The present is 1997 abundant in May/five months, my already waited for many years, I do not know that must wait “现在是一九九七丰的五月,我已经等了很多年,我不知道还要等 How long. 多久。 Tang charm after Qin An departs, starts to keep a diary, although her already was used to record various types of document files with tech equipment processing early, but regarding own mood, the paper and pen forever was the best carrier. 唐媚在秦安离去后,开始写着日记,尽管她早已经习惯了用科技设备处理记录各种文件档案,但是对于自己的心情,纸和笔永远是最好的载体。 Tang charm is a nostalgic person, she is very rigid regarding something, can strengthen faith for a lifetime, for example Qin An. 唐媚是个怀旧的人,对于有些东西她很执着,能够坚定一辈子的信念,例如秦安。 Tang Meiwang the small box on table, that is being Qin An remains. 唐媚望着桌子上的小盒子,那是秦安留下来的。 „His attitude had some changes, his already knows that who I was. His very definite this point, I also was very definite he to know. We have a tacit understanding, we are such tacit understanding, very incredible tacit understanding.” “他的态度有了些许变化,他已经知道我是谁了。他很确定这一点了,我也很确定他知道了。我们心照不宣,我们是这样的默契,很荒诞的默契。” The small box is the simple wooden box, the wood grain is clear, can see the polish fine very 小盒子是简朴的木盒,木纹清晰明亮,可以看得出打磨的十分精 Thin. 细。 „ He has his reason, regarding anybody is this, once lost, the total ratio obtains is more precious. What if he loses is I? He like pursuing Ye Zhulan closely entrains me rigid in the palm...... this supposition does not have the significance, because he loses is not I, he will not think to lose me, in him, probably is very clear, I do not have him to have the energy, therefore this is his energy. This is the fact, he can not want me, but I cannot do without him. “他有他的理由,对于任何人来说都是这样,曾经失去的,总比得到的更加珍贵。如果他失去的是我呢？他会像追求叶竹澜那样执着地把我紧紧地拽在手心吗……这种假设毫无意义,因为他失去的不是我,他不会想会失去我,在他心里边,大概很清楚,我没他那么有底气,所以这就是他的底气。这是事实,他可以不要我,但我不能没有他。 Tang charm tears moistened the diary, looks at these to write the diary of mental journey, she is planned to wait to have such a day, gives him to look own diary. 唐媚的泪水打湿了日记本,怔怔地看着这些写着自己心路历程的日记,她本来是打算等着有那么一天,把自己的日记都交给他看。 „He is the firm and dedicated person, like me. I think the matter that he handles is impossible to succeed, but the fact is, he gradually is achieving his goal. Perhaps he thinks I want is impossible to obtain, but the fact is, I gradually am also achieving my goal.” “他是个坚定而执着的人,就像我一样。我以为他做的事情不可能成功,可事实是,他在逐渐实现他的目标。他也许以为我想要的不可能得到,可事实是,我也在逐渐实现我的目标。” Tang charm wipes clean tears, turns very quiet, looks at that fine small box. 唐媚擦干净眼泪,屏住呼吸,看着那个精致的小盒子。 This is the gift that he gives, generally speaking, he will prepare the gift attentively, if there is gift of special significance, he will definitely manufacture personally. 这是他送的礼物,一般来说,他都会用心准备礼物,如果是有特殊意义的礼物,他肯定会亲手制作。 This small box has the attractive wood/blockhead texture, he has a pair of clever artisan, will manufacture such exquisite small box, then may reflect with the smoothness of gauze polish. 这个小盒子有着漂亮的木头纹理,他有一双巧手,会制作这样精巧的小盒子,然后用纱布打磨的光滑可鉴。 Tang charm grips this small box, hand some shivers slightly, this gift is very to her heavy 唐媚握住这个小盒子,手有些微微颤抖,这份礼物对她来说很重 Wants, he is really not knocks on a door with no reason at all. 要,他果然不是无缘无故就上来敲门。 Such that if really such as she anticipates , because such reason gives her gift Tang charm already to know that can be anything. 如果真的如她所期待的那样,是因为那样的原因送给她礼物唐媚已经知道那会是什么。 The Tang charm slender tender finger inlays to open out the box lightly. 唐媚纤细柔嫩的手指轻嵌拨开盒子。 That flash, Tang charm weeps copiously. 那一瞬间,唐媚泪如雨下。 Qin An returns to downstairs, after the gate tidies up mood, the looks that flatters the appearance that and she in the future becomes Tang to overlap in the same place, conceals. At heart, him will not give up anyone because of whom, which happiness will not choose, but is must embrace all happiness selfishly overbearingly in the bosom. 秦安回到楼下,在门前收拾后心情,将唐媚的模样儿和她日后出落的姿容重叠在一起,藏.在了心里边,他不会因为谁而放弃谁,不会去选择哪一种幸福,而是自私霸道地要将所有的幸福都揽在怀里。 Inside this door, there is his happiness. 这扇门里边,也有他的一份幸福。 Qin An opens the door, Qin Qìn threw. 秦安开了门,秦沁扑了过来。 „Little uncle, you came back, Qin Qìn took the shoes to you.” Qin Qìn prevented Qin An to take the shoes to trade flustered, took a slipper to put the Qin An under foot to Qin An, waited for Qin An to change the shoes, takes the Qin An shoes, stood on tiptoes the tip of the toe to put uppermost the shoes rack diligently. “小叔叔,你回来了啊,秦沁给你拿鞋子。”秦沁慌慌张张地阻止了秦安自己去拿鞋子换,给秦安拿了一双拖鞋放到秦安脚下,等着秦安换下鞋子,又拿着秦安的鞋子,努力踮着脚尖放到鞋架子最上边。 „Qin Qìn is really clever.” Qin An touches her head with a smile. “秦沁真乖。”秦安笑着摸了摸她的头。 Qin Qìn nods , the shoe brush child and shoe polish, sits on the small stool gives Qin An to polish the leather shoes. 秦沁点了点头,又着鞋刷子和鞋油,坐在小凳子上给秦安擦皮鞋。 Qin An walked, sees Li Shuyue smiling, the doubts asked that „is Qin Qìn so how diligent today?” 秦安走了进来,看到李淑月笑意盈盈的,疑惑地问道,“秦沁今天怎么这么勤快？” Qin Qìn is not lazy, but she has no difference from all these age happy children, without training anything makes the custom of housework, Qin Qìn sometimes to display oneself, meets to pour water to wash the face to oneself, washing foot, makes place water finally, the best matter that she handles was helps wash the apple. 秦沁不懒,但是她和所有这个年纪幸福的小孩子没有什么区别,没有培养出什么做家务的习惯,秦沁有时候为了表现自己,也会自己给自己倒水洗脸,洗脚,最后弄得一地水,她做的最好的事情就是帮忙洗苹果了。 „The housework homework that teacher assigns, polishes the leather shoes to the father of laborious work.” Qin Qìn lowers the head is scratching the shoe sole earnestly, she does not know polishes the leather shoes not to need to shine shoe the child bottom true, „Qin Qìn does not have the father, gives the little uncle to polish the leather shoes.” “老师布置的家务作业,给辛苦工作的爸爸擦皮鞋。”秦沁低着头认认真真地擦着鞋底,她可不知道擦皮鞋是不需要擦鞋子底确,“秦沁没有爸爸,就给小叔叔擦皮鞋。” Qin Qìn already learned strongly, learned to hold up the head regarding the sympathy of teacher stubbornly, with them said that oneself had compared with a father better little uncle loves her in the side, therefore Qin Qìn and she said in the teacher when can scratch to mother the leather shoes replaced, Qin Qìn did not feel oneself felt sorry. 秦沁已经学会了坚强,学会了对于老师的同情倔强地昂起头,和他们说自己有比爸爸更好的小叔叔在身边疼她,所以秦沁在老师和她说,可以给妈妈擦皮鞋代替时,秦沁一点也不觉得自己可怜。 Qin An does not know that the teacher explains some article about father, other what are specific to „father who the text assigns polish leather shoes”, at this time he thought was actually, no matter oneself gave the concern and father of Qin Qìn loves whether did not have the difference, but that was not the justifiable father likes at least Qin Qìn not having father this after all is the fact, in anyone eyes was the fact, this was not the society that can neglect others vision, not that innermost feelings so powerful person. 秦安不知道老师是讲解某篇关于父亲的文章,还是其他什么特定课文才指定的给“爸爸擦皮鞋”,这时候他想的却是,不管自己给予秦沁的关爱和父爱是否没有了区别,可是那毕竟不是名正言顺的父爱至少秦沁没有爸爸这是事实,在任何人眼里都是事实,这不是一个可以忽略别人眼光的社会,没有那么内心如此强大的人。 Qin An- the hand of Li Shuyue is sitting down, asked her quietly, „teacher and students know that Qin Qìn didn't have the father?” 秦安-拉着李淑月的手坐下,悄声问她,“老师和学生都知道秦沁没有爸爸了？” „I made Qin Qìn say that inside the school the father went to very far place, has not come back. The children do not understand, but the teachers should know that is what meaning. The teacher cannot because of a Qin Qìn person, the change work.” Li Shuyue thinks that Qin An is the strange teacher has such work not to consider Qin Qìn, she may know that side Qin An favors Qin Qìn not to have, every so often clearly is some hiding shortcomings was unreasonable. “我让秦沁在学校里边说爸爸去很远的地方了,还没有回来。孩子们不懂,但老师们应该会知道是什么意思。老师也不能因为秦沁一个人,就改变作业吧。”李淑月以为秦安是怪老师出这样的作业不考虑秦沁,她可知道秦安宠着秦沁是没有边的,很多时候分明是有些护短的不讲道理。 „Qin Qìn, later with teacher schoolmate said that the father came back.” Qin An incurred toward Qin Qìn “秦沁,以后就和老师同学说爸爸回来了。”秦安朝着秦沁招了招 Hand. 手。 Qin Qìn puts down the leather shoes, runs over, sees the little uncle and mother at a loss, mother said the father will not come back, Qin Qìn did not have the father. 秦沁放下皮鞋,跑了过来,茫然地看着小叔叔和妈妈,妈妈说爸爸不会回来的了,秦沁没有爸爸了。 „Little uncle to Qin Qìn, when the father is good?” Qin An said. “小叔叔给秦沁当爸爸好不好？”秦安说道。 „Good!” Qin Qìn jumped happily, grasps the neck of Qin An, makes an effort to kiss Qin An “好!”秦沁高兴地跳了起来,抱住秦安的脖子,使劲亲着秦安 Cheeks. 的脸颊。 „What did you talk nonsense?” Li Shuyue mild fair cheeks some flood red, is angry angry tender “你胡说八道什么啊？”李淑月温润白皙的脸颊有些泛红,嗔恼娇 Is looking at him bashfully, „and child also speaks at a venture.” 羞地望着他,“和孩子也乱说话。” The Qin An words are very easy to make one misunderstand, particularly regarding the single mother, this often has 秦安的话挺容易引人误会的,尤其是对于单身妈妈来说,这往往有 Common meaning, not only simple ambiguous was somewhat intimate. 寻常的意味,而不只是简简单单的有些暧昧亲热了。 „Didn't that little uncle have?” Qin Qìn somewhat said sadly, does not give up, Qin Qìn thinks “那小叔叔就没有了？”秦沁有些难过地说道,舍不得啊,秦沁想 Wants the father, but Qin Qìn likes the little uncle now. 要爸爸,可是秦沁现在更喜欢小叔叔。 She was only just got up the little girl of elementary school, did not have too many sensibility regarding father word, existence of Qin An, was she enjoys the origin that true intent adoptive father liked let alone. 她只是个刚上小学的小女孩儿,对于爸爸这个词还没有太多的感悟,更何况秦安的存在,才是她享受到真正意义父爱的来源。 „At home little uncle, but Qin Qìn can with the children say that had the father. Because they do not know that Qin Qìn has the little uncle to hurt, has the little uncle to protect, they only know the father. Qin Qìn said oneself had the father, no one dares to bully Qin Qìn, because they will fear that the Qin Qìn father hit them.” Qin An said, love of father and protects naturally, the children understand, who understands, who knows that Qin Qìn does have like this little uncle? Qin An wants to let Qin Qìn because, not only he is proud, moreover wants to be sporty. “在家里边还是小叔叔,但是秦沁可以和小朋友们说有爸爸了。因为他们不知道秦沁有小叔叔疼,有小叔叔保护啊,他们只知道爸爸。秦沁说自己有爸爸了,就没有人敢欺负秦沁了,因为他们会怕秦沁的爸爸来打他们。”秦安说道,爸爸的疼爱和保护理所当然,孩子们都懂,谁都懂,可是谁知道秦沁有这样的小叔叔啊？秦安就是想让秦沁不只是因为他骄傲,而且还要底气十足。 „Qin Qìn some fathers, there are little uncle.” Qin Qìn said happily, the small hand is hugging “秦沁又有爸爸,又有小叔叔了。”秦沁高兴地说道,小手搂着 Neck of Qin An. 秦安的脖子。 „You said, making their school teacher know, but also thinks that I looked for what partner, a while ago Qin Qìn wound home-room teacher also very to take care warmly was introducing to me.” On the Li Shuyue fair flesh has light blushing, at this time her the heart a little jumped quickly. “你这么说,让他们学校老师知道了,还以为我找了什么对象呢,前一阵子秦沁络班主任还挺热情地张罗着给我介绍。”李淑月白皙的肌肤上有着淡淡的红晕,这时候她的心有点跳得太快了。 „Has a need for him worrying blindly.” Qin An said discontentedly, „ next time parents' meeting our family one “用得着他瞎操心。”秦安不满地说道,“下次家长会我们全家一 Block goes. ” 块儿去。” „You also really go, you made Qin Qìn say that had the father, then parents' meeting time was you and I goes to...... Qin Qìn to point at you to say incautiously is her father, that what to do? I did not have the face to see the person.” Li Shuyue and Qin An meet Qin Qìn frequently, character who no matter Li Shuyue or Qin An, very catch the eye, the teachers pay attention regarding wealthy families' children especially are also the way things should be, often has Wang Hongqi to drive Audi to send and pick up Qin Qìn let alone, the teacher in this school had guessed Qin Qìn home background, has not seen the Qin Qìn father, guessed that wha really has, but is basically certain when Qin Qìn single-parent family, frequently the youngster who Qin An this picks up the child is an uncle, Li Shuyue is mother, Qin An and Li Shuyue is the brother-in-law and sister-in-law's relations. “你还真去啊,你让秦沁说地有爸爸了,然后家长会的时候是你和我去……秦沁一不小心指着你说是她爸爸,那怎么办？我就没脸见人了。”李淑月和秦安都是经常去接秦沁的,不管是李淑月还是秦安,都是挺招眼的人物,老师们对于有钱人家的孩子格外注意也是人之常情,更何况还经常有王红旗开着奥迪接送秦沁,这个学校的老师都猜测过秦沁的家庭情况,没有见过秦沁爸爸,猜测什真的都有,但基本可以肯定秦沁时单亲家庭,秦安这个经常来接孩子的少年是叔叔,李淑月是妈妈,秦安和李淑月是小叔子和嫂子的关系。 „I try to find the solution, the appearance mature, pastes a beard, wears eyeglasses...... I not to install like?” Qin An is very self-confident regarding this, this time goes to the provincial capital, Chen Yi had not suspected that actually Qin An is only a high student, the dialogue is also equal, has not revealed the mulberry to have the stances of some old people, besides both sides is the reason of collaborator, is the Qin An makings shape is very mature steadily ! If deliberately conceals again, achieves that and secure water when together the effect, is not difficult, has the eyeglasses let alone, this thing chose, but the makings had the considerably large effect. “我想办法,打扮的成熟一点,贴点胡子,戴一副眼镜……我难道还装不像？”秦安对于这个挺自信的,这次去省城,陈怡就是硬是没有怀疑秦安只是个高一的学生,对话也还算平等,并没有显桑出年长一些人的姿态,除了双方是合作者的原因外,就是秦安的气质形态都挺成熟稳重,!要是再刻意掩饰一下,达到那次自己和安水在一块时的效果,并不算难,更何况还有眼镜呢,这件东西选择好了,可是对人的气质有相当大的影响。 „You also really have this plan.” Li Shuyue also thinks that Qin An is only the heart is tender suddenly “你还真有这打算啊。”李淑月还以为秦安只是一时间心头怜惜 Qin Qìn, coaxes her to be happy like this. 秦沁,才这样哄她开心的。 „Naturally, even if I said that must take care of the sister-in-law and Qin Qìn for a lifetime, must make you happy, is in the most complete happiness, something, are not I can give eventually. But at least like this, can let the sister-in-law and Qin Qìn felt, the family/home is complete, has the father, has mother, has the daughter, I can do , can only like this......, so long as the sister-in-law you did not oppose.” Qin An is holding Qin Qìn, shakes the hand of Li Shuyue to look at her, he does not want the sister-in-law to oppose, his selfishness are not that willing to acknowledge let alone, Qin Qìn also has the father, which ate the leopard guts, dares to introduce the object to the sister-in-law? “当然了,即使我说要一辈子照顾嫂子和秦沁,要让你们幸福,可是最完全的幸福里,有些东西,终究不是我能给的。可是至少这样子,能够让嫂子和秦沁心里边感觉,家是完整的,有爸爸,有妈妈,有女儿,我可以做的,也只能这样……只要嫂子你不反对。”秦安抱着秦沁,握着李淑月的手望着她,他不希望嫂子反对,更何况他有一份私心不那么愿意去承认,秦沁还有爸爸呢,哪个吃了豹子胆,敢给嫂子去介绍对象？ Qin An is not necessarily saving to the sister-in-law improper ambition, if some people introduced the object to the sister-in-law, saw that the sister-in-law was on intimate terms anything, that was not he is willing to see absolutely, delighted. 秦安未必存着对嫂子的非分之想,只是如果有人给嫂子介绍对象,看到嫂子去相亲什么的,那绝对不是他愿意看到的,欢喜的。 The mentality of man, that is all, restrains a point, can let loose, can look on the bright side of thing, from 男人的心态,仅此而已,克制一点,就能够放得开,想得开,自 Private, like Qin An. 私一点的,就会像秦安这样了。 He has fished the person selfishly. 他一直是个自私钓人。 Li Shuyue does not know that Qin An this selfish, or she hopes sees Qin An to reveal this selfish, reason already that but he said enough lets her heart soft, looks that his neck was hugged by Qin Qìn was smudging the shoe polish, is smiling shaking the head, the tender bulb has stroked his nape of the neck, felt that this movement and her mood some extremely in ambiguous, shrank, the lowering the head look somewhat flashes, „takes a bath quickly, in the evening and I look to meet the television together.” 李淑月不知道秦安这份自私,或者她更希望看到秦安表露出这份自私,只是他说的理由已经足够让她的心一片柔软,看着他的脖子被秦沁搂着涂抹了鞋油,微笑着摇头,柔嫩的指肚拂过他的脖颈,感觉到这个动作和她的心情有些太过于暧昧,缩了回来,低着头眼神有些闪动,“快去洗个澡吧,晚上和我一块儿看会电视。” Qin Qìn had the father, the little change that but called, made Li Shuyue feel pressed in 秦沁有爸爸了,只是称呼上的一点点变化,却让李淑月感觉着压在 Some things of heart started to become less crowded. 心头的有些东西开始松动了。