Working, can be anxious, but actually cannot fluster. 做事情,可以急,但却不能慌。 Meanwhile, the person must learn self-knowledge. 同时,人也要学会有自知之明。 Therefore, even if Earl Zheng is clear, reputation of oneself in Yan Army was really big, is the South Pacifying Marquis present favorite, but in the final analysis, he is not South Pacifying Army „indigenous”. 所以,哪怕郑伯爷清楚,自己在燕军之中名声真的不小了,又是靖南侯眼前的红人,但归根究底,他并非是靖南军“土著”。 Chen Yang Ren Juan these Troop-Commander facing oneself this catching up, polite are polite, the approval also approves, but was not once in a cauldron stirred the friendship that the ladle ate , actually has such a share to be estranged. 陈阳任涓那些总兵面对自己这个后来居上者,客气是客气,认同也是认同,但到底不是曾经一口大锅里搅勺子吃出来的交情,彼此之间,其实还是有着那么一股子生分的。 Furthermore, South Pacifying Army, including present entire Eastern Expedition Army, the character who can keep promises truly, is Tian Wujing. 再者,靖南军,包括眼下整个东征军,真正可以说一不二的人物,是田无镜。 Therefore, acts to order and not bestow royal command during without Tian Wujing, wants to transfer all around trim army, that also rather looked down on the discipline accomplishment that Tian Wujing governed. 所以,在没有田无镜出面下令且没有赐下王令的当口,想要去将四周一整片军队都调动起来,那也未免太小瞧田无镜治下的军纪素养了。 But, 但, The enthusiasm of people, cannot neglect, truly is objective existence. 群众的热情,还是不能忽视的,也确实是客观存在的。 Therefore, at this time, must need „request” presence. 所以,在这个时候,就得需要“托”的出场。 When previous life just opened the work room, once operated very difficultly, the most uptight time, big fellow living expenses did not have ; 上辈子刚开工作室时,一度经营很是困难,最拮据的时候,大家伙生活费也都没了; Zheng Fan leads work room everyone to go to nearby some estate home sale section the mortgaging a house request, a day person of 200 also wrap a lunch, 郑凡就带工作室所有人去附近某楼盘售楼部去当房托,一天一人两百块还包一顿午饭, Then passed that period of difficult time. 这才渡过了那段艰苦时光。 But childcare who this time, Zheng Fan looks, is Li Fusheng. 而这一次,郑凡所找的托儿,就是李富胜。 Zheng Fan „performance” is very splendid, 郑凡的“表演”很精彩, But wants to achieve such as a South Pacifying Marquis gilded mail-armor and helmet to have an imposing appearance like that one stands toward there can obtain unconditionally with from is obviously impossible, when previously frontline propaganda, using oneself qi and blood enabled the sound to transmit high is farther, but during most Yan Army armed soldiers, are actually still hesitating. 但想要做到如靖南侯那般一身鎏金甲胄器宇轩昂往那儿一站就能获得无条件的跟从显然不可能,哪怕先前喊话时,动用了自身气血使得声音可以传递得更高更远,但大部分燕军甲士,其实还在迟疑之中。 Especially South Pacifying Army that several Troop-Commander, somewhat cannot feel the mind. 尤其是靖南军那几个总兵,更是有些摸不着头脑。 But cuts to kill Chu people along with a Zheng Fan blade, under the cavalry after Li Fusheng starts to charge, all around Yan Army square formation, finally started to follow. 但伴随着郑凡一刀斩杀一名楚人,伴随着李富胜麾下骑兵开始冲锋后,四周的燕军方阵,终于开始跟随着动了起来。 Chu people is robbing the grain, and hungry many days, could not withstand weakly, in addition also downloaded the weapon, this little while chaotic becomes one group, in becomes in front of the organic elite cavalry truly, with one crowd of lamb really no differences that rolls up in the same place. 楚人在抢夺粮食,且饿了许多日子了,本就虚弱不堪,外加还卸掉了兵器,这会儿又乱糟糟的成一团,在真正成建制地精锐骑兵面前,和一群蜷缩在一起的羔羊真的没什么区别。 The Li Fusheng subordinates cavalries bang into Chu people directly, the saber brandishes, the oppression of the people steps on, suddenly, Chu people wails vast. 李富胜所部骑兵直接撞入楚人之中,马刀挥舞,铁蹄踩踏,一时间,楚人哀嚎遍野。 Yan Army of other sections have actively is separated from the organization system to hit the horse arbitrarily, but joins, slowly, one after another, the Yan Army cavalries started to initiate the charge from several directions toward the Chu people accumulation position. 其余各部的燕军都有主动脱离建制擅自打马而出加入的,慢慢的,一群又一群,一片又一片的燕军骑兵开始从好几个方向向着楚人聚集的位置发起了冲锋。 This is actually another type form „soldier howls”, 这其实就是另外一种形式的“兵啸”, Refers to the soldiers becoming the scale to start under the premise without one's superior official order to present the colony response spontaneously. 指的是士卒在没有上峰命令的前提下自发成规模地开始出现群体性的反应。 But these Troop-Commander Assistant General these senior officials, then seems somewhat timid and hesitant. 而那些总兵参将这些高官们,则显得有些束手束脚。 At the same time, they have not truly received the military order, only sees Zheng Fan to ride Pixiu there to summon that everyone kills the prisoner of war, soldier order feeling of that brand mark in bone makes them repel in this time obeys dispatching of Zheng Fan ; 一方面,他们确实没有接到军令,就只看见郑凡骑着貔貅在那里号召大家杀俘,那种烙印在骨子里的军人秩序感让他们排斥在此时去听从郑凡的调遣; But on the other hand, who was clear that relations between Zheng Fan and South Pacifying Prince, Zheng Fan braves not to disobey to put in order this suddenly greatly, behind guarantees does not permit to have the Prince shadow. 但另一方面,谁都清楚郑凡和靖南王之间的关系,郑凡忽然冒着大不违整出这一出,保不准背后就有自家王爷的影子在。 Therefore, these military officers have not restrained the subordinate in this time promptly effectively, chose a default stance. 所以,这些将领们在此时并没有及时有效地去约束部下,选择了一种默认的姿态。 In brief, 总之, Rhythm, 节奏, Was brought. 被带起来了。 Yan Army held up the butcher knife, kills crazily to Chu people that these flee like a scared rat. 燕军举起了屠刀,疯狂地砍杀向那些抱头鼠窜的楚人。 But starts this mighty waves Zheng Fan, 而掀起这一场波澜的郑凡, Does not have one to dig in actually again, just like Li Fusheng, enjoys this so-called blood light grand feast. 倒是没有再一头扎入其中,跟李富胜一样,去享受这场所谓的血光盛宴。 Does oneself act now in any case, has been a foregone conclusion ; 反正现在自己出不出手,也已成定局; That lets oneself, rests, again hypocritical a while. 那就让自己,歇一歇,再矫情一会儿吧。 The cutting edge lets fall, downward, the blood bead on blade edge fell bit by bit, Pixiu of crotch has turned head and looked at Zheng Fan that oneself conducted the back, it actually wants to go to play, but why did not know oneself this peacefully „meeting misfortune brothers” in this time actually suddenly. 刀口垂落,向下,刀锋上的血珠一点一滴地落了下来,胯下的貔貅扭过头与看了看自己背上的郑凡,它其实是想进去玩耍的,但不知为什么自己这位“落难兄弟”在此时却忽然安静了下来。 The Chu people pitiful yell sound is lingering on faintly, is far from interestingly to listen, but has does not know that many battlefield experiences Earl Zheng has actually also been used. 楚人的惨叫声不绝于耳,谈不上动听,但已经有不知多少次的战阵经历的郑伯爷其实也早就对此习惯了。 Raised the head, 抬起头, Is looking into the distance, 眺望着远方, At heart, 心里, Shocking and terrified when does not have from the beginning to receive this order feels from South Pacifying Prince there actually. 倒是没有一开始从靖南王那里接到这一命令时所感受到的震惊和惶恐。 Felt on the contrary somewhat relaxed, is somewhat floating. 反倒是感到身上有些轻松,有些飘。 This is a very strange feeling, is far from likes, but does not feel repugnant. 这是一种很奇怪的感觉,谈不上喜欢,但也并不觉得讨厌。 Crotch Pixiu tried to start to walk the step, walks forward, sees Zheng Fan to have no response, walks forward. 胯下貔貅试着迈开了步子,向前走了走,见郑凡没什么反应,就又向前走了走。 When its preparation disperses happy also to crash in the crowd to step on the person, 正当其准备撒开欢儿也冲进人群之中去踩人时, Zheng Fan actually tightened the reins on its nape of the neck suddenly. 郑凡却忽然收紧了它脖颈上的缰绳。 „Roar!” “吼！” Pixiu some called one discontentedly, but obeys the instruction of Zheng Fan, rushed to the battlefield, circled to the north. 貔貅有些不满地叫了一声,但还是遵照郑凡的吩咐,奔离了战场,向北侧绕了过去。 Gradually, 渐渐的, The war cry and pitiful yell sound were gradually low, 喊杀声和惨叫声逐渐低落了下来, Was not the Chu people prisoner of war had killed off, even if 40,000 pigs, wanted to butcher the light in a short time are not an easy matter. 并非是楚人战俘已经被杀光了,就算是四万头猪,想要短时间内都宰光也不是件容易的事儿。 From was far, noisy was also naturally far away. 距离远了,嘈杂自然也就远离了一些。 Pixiu some dig the hoof discontentedly, 貔貅有些不满地刨动着蹄子, Zheng Fan turns over/stands up, arrived at the waterfront. 郑凡则翻身下来,走到了江边。 He is studying the Tian Wujing previous appearance, squatted down in the waterfront, puts out a hand to arrest held water in cupped hands, pats on the face. 他学着田无镜的先前的样子,在江边蹲下,伸手拘了一捧水,拍在了脸上。 The water is somewhat cool, brings some smell of earth. 水有些凉,带着些许的土腥味儿。 Zheng Fan shook the head, 郑凡晃了晃头, The body in the future, sat in the waterfront. 身子往后,坐在了江边。 Raised the head again, the setting sun of looks at distant place, knits the brows from time to time stretches from time to time. 再抬起头,看着远处的夕阳,时而皱眉时而又舒展。 Also routinely took out an iron box from the position of chest, inside, actually only had cigarette. 紧接着,又习惯性地从胸口的位置取出了一个铁盒,里头,其实就只剩下一根烟了。 From going to battle to the present, he also without chapter of Shengle, the supplement that the Blind Man sign cigarette naturally would have no, this last, is he places intentionally keeps to read thinks. 从出征到现在,他还没回盛乐过,瞎子牌卷烟自然也就没的补充,这最后一根,则是他故意放在身上留作个念想的。 Lit the cigarette with the torch, 用火折子点了烟, Deeply inspires, 深吸一口气, Zheng Fan closes one's eyes slowly, 郑凡缓缓地闭上眼, In the mouth starts to put out the smog slowly. 口腔中开始缓缓吐出烟雾。 At this time, Zheng Fan that only Pixiu appeared some moved restlessly anxiously, even also departed from the norm to bury the head of oneself. 这时,郑凡的那只貔貅出现了些许躁动不安,甚至还一反常态地将自己的脑袋埋了下去。 Another grown Pi Beast arrived here slowly, what above sits, is Tian Wujing. 另一尊成年貔兽缓缓来到这里,上头坐着的是,是田无镜。 The Tian Wujing looks at Zheng Fan present appearance, the vision is very tranquil. 田无镜看着郑凡现在的样子,目光很是平静。 But, is actually as if concealing the thunder unclearly. 但隐然之间,却似乎暗藏着雷霆。 Tian Wujing fell on the ground, arrived at Zheng Fan behind, opened the mouth saying: 田无镜落在了地上,走到郑凡身后,开口道: „At heart uncomfortable?” “心里不舒服？” When the Tian Wujing sound resounds from oneself behind, 当田无镜的声音自自己背后响起时, Zheng Fan departs from the norm has not set out to salute immediately, 郑凡一反常态地没有马上起身行礼, But very natural puts out a hand not to shake shakes the cigarette ash, 而是很自然地伸手不抖了抖烟灰, Nod. 点了点头。 „Looks at your unpromising appearance.” “瞧你这没出息的样子。” The jade does not carve good-for-nothing, Zheng Fan continuously by Tian Wujing treats as oneself „student”. 玉不琢不成器,郑凡一直被田无镜当作自己的“学生”。 Actually, which age regardless in, the legacy successor, is often more important than the oneself bloodlines heir. 其实,无论在哪个年代,衣钵传人,往往比自己血脉子嗣更为重要。 The heir, is only extension of oneself bloodlines ; But legacy, is the energetic transmission. 子嗣,只是自己血脉的延续;而衣钵,则是精神的传递。 After several generations, the deep blood relationship, actually also said that pale was pale, but some spiritual things, actually often can achieve to be timeless. 几代之后,再深厚的血缘关系,其实也就说淡就淡了,但精神上的有些东西,却往往能够做到历久弥新。 Just, makes Tian Wujing „student”, seems like very happy, pressure that but bears, is the average man is unable to imagine. 只不过,做田无镜的“学生”,看似很是美好,但这其中所承受的压力,也是常人所无法想像。 When he is good to you, really good ; 他对你好时,是真的好; When he exercises you, if makes a mistake, you, did not have. 他锻炼你时,要是出一点差错,你人,就没了。 „Prince, I am because discovered that oneself does not have the uncomfortable feeling to feel uncomfortable at heart unexpectedly.” “王爷,我是因为发现自己心里居然没有不舒服的感觉而觉得不舒服。” Heard this reply, Tian Wujing closed the eye slowly. 听到这句回答,田无镜缓缓闭上了眼。 two man, 两个男人, Sits, 一个坐着, Is standing. 一个站着。 Station the position is high, 站着的地位高, The sat position is low ; 坐着的地位低; Long time, 良久, Zheng Fan smiled suddenly, 郑凡忽然笑了, Threw into the surface of the river the cigarette butt, 将烟头丢入了江面, Puts out a hand to grasp a side mud, pounded to the river. 伸手抓起身边的一把烂泥,砸向了河中。 „Don't you like?” Tian Wujing asked. “你不喜欢？”田无镜问道。 Zheng Fan begins supinely, 郑凡仰起头, looks at stands in oneself behind Tian Wujing, 看着站在自己身后的田无镜, Said: 道: „Prince, I like turning into your appearance, but I do not like turning into you.” “王爷,我喜欢变成你的样子,但我不喜欢变成你。” I want to become, is under your galloping battlefield armored cavalry such as the appearance of cloud, 我想成为的,是你驰骋疆场麾下铁骑如云的样子, Rather than wants you to be the same with Tian Wujing, constrains is not at variance with the autonomy like that the life. 而不是想和田无镜你一样,那般压抑到不异于自残的人生。 Tian Wujing nods looking pensive, 田无镜若有所思地点点头, Opens the mouth saying: 开口道: „I know.” “我知道。” „Hū .........” “呼………” Zheng Fan adjusts the body silently, changes the sitting posture for the single knee kneeling position, toward Tian Wujing, 郑凡默默地调整身子,改坐姿为单膝跪姿,朝着田无镜, „Prince, please forgive.” “王爷,请恕罪。” „You said that is the real soul talk, in the army, only then make a false report about the military situation is the crime, crime that has not spoken the truth.” “你说的,是真心话而已,在军中,只有谎报军情才是罪,没有说实话的罪。” Tian Wujing lowers the figure, sat in riverbank. 田无镜放低身段,在江畔边坐了下来。 Looked at one to kneel there Zheng Fan, 看了一眼跪在那里的郑凡, The position that before Tian Wujing puts out a hand not to pat pats body side, Zheng Fan sits, 田无镜伸手不拍了拍身侧之前郑凡坐的位置, „Sits.” “坐吧。” „Thanked Prince.” “谢王爷。” Then, 就这样, Two Pixiu, stand after abreast in row sues, small that obviously somewhat feels nervous, the appearance that lacks in resonance ; 两匹貔貅,并排站在后投诉,小一头的那只,明显有些发慌,底气不足的样子; Just like the front two man, 正如前面的两个男人, A back is great like the mountain, another, then appears the air/Qi field to be suppressed some dispiriteds. 一个后背如同山岳伟岸,另一个,则显得气场被压制得有些萎靡。 Although General Zheng also has hundred responses to a single call in Shengle Army, usually in Shengle City, is waves to cause the enthusiasm of local common people to cheer ; 虽说郑将军在盛乐军内也是一呼百应,平日里在盛乐城内,更是挥挥手就能引得当地百姓的热情欢呼; But when the Tian Wujing side, 但在田无镜身边时, Who can in the imposing manner, be able to suppress him? 谁能在气势上,压得住他？ Naturally, does not need to press this. 当然了,也没必要去压这个。 „Actually, this prince does not hope that you walk with my same road.” “其实,本王不希望你走和我一样的路。” Zheng Fan hears this saying, gawked. 郑凡听到这话,愣了一下。 Previous he, but somewhat wants to vent the mood dissolutely, therefore the rare true feelings revealed. 先前的他,只是有些放肆地想要宣泄一下情绪,所以难得的真情流露了一下。 After all, Tian Wujing is dignified, but looks like in Zheng Fan, actually seems like a oneself severe elder brother. 毕竟,田无镜再威严,但在郑凡看来,其实很像是自己的一个严厉兄长。 Makes younger brother, under having premise of limit, cries, noisy one noisy, vented the mood, was natural. 做弟弟的,在有限制的前提下,哭一哭,闹一闹,发泄一下情绪,也是理所应当的。 Naturally, this must act bashful one. 当然,这得拿捏好一个度。 Crossed, was loathful ; 过了,就惹人烦了; Eunuch Wei had once said that Directorate of Ceremonial lacks Zheng Fan such talent. 魏公公就曾说过,司礼监缺郑凡这样子的人才。 Because this type how and lord appears intimate actually does not pass the moment, seriously is these, when the lackey the highest-end knowledge that wants to crawl upward. 因为这种如何和主子显得亲密却又不逾矩,当真是这些当奴才地想要往上爬的最高端学问。 It looks like in Eunuch Wei, Zheng Fan, is this field of endeavor gatherer of all. 在魏公公看来,郑凡,就是此道集大成者。 But how oneself plays is the oneself matter, what Zheng Fan has not thought that Tian Wujing in this time, as if also had unexpectedly wants to say the innermost thoughts meaning. 但自己怎么玩儿是自己的事儿,郑凡没想到的是,田无镜在此时,居然似乎也有了想说一说心里话的意思。 This makes the Zheng Fan instinct feel somewhat panic-stricken. 这让郑凡本能地感到有些惊恐。 „This road, is too bitter, is too tired, is too lonely.” “这条路,太苦,太累,也太孤独。” Zheng Fan is clear, because on this road, stained the blood, is blood that is unable to clean and cancel in any event. 郑凡清楚,因为这条路上,沾满了鲜血,是无论如何都无法清洗和抹去的鲜血。 „Prince, if gives you again an opportunity, how you will elect?” “王爷,如果再给您一次机会,您会怎么选？” Zheng Fan could not bear ask these words. 郑凡还是忍不住问出了这句话。 Silent, 沉默, Silent, 沉默, Silent...... 沉默…… Long time, 良久, On the Tian Wujing face revealed wiped the smile, was far from genially, but was not the forced smile, even, but also brings some light feeling relaxed, 田无镜脸上露出了一抹笑容,谈不上和煦,但也不属于苦笑,甚至,还带着些许淡淡的释然, Said: 道: „this prince, has elected.” “本王,已经选了。” At this time, 这时, Two people of front Gazing River surfaces of the river, have started flood red, that was the upstream, the blood of Chu people flowed in Gazing River. 二人面前的望江江面,已经开始泛红,那是上游,楚人的鲜血流入了望江之中。 Tian Wujing referred to the updrift side, 田无镜指了指上游方向, Said: 道: „Has a look, do not waste, your pattern is very big, without enough breadth of spirit fills, that big pattern, is eventually spatial.” “上去看看吧,别浪费了,你的格局很大,但如果没有足够的气魄去填充,那再大的格局,也终究是空的。” Zheng Fan stood up silently, has turned head, looks at one to sit in riverbank Tian Wujing as before, immediately, the starting to walk step, started to walk toward the upstream. 郑凡默默地站起身,回过头,看了一眼依旧坐在江畔的田无镜,随即,迈开步子,开始向上游走去。 Tian Wujing sound, then resounds again: 田无镜的声音,则再度响起: „ Martial arts and life, are actually same, more walks upward, blood and corpse that sees, are more. “武道和人生,其实都一样,越往上走,所见到的鲜血和尸首,也就越多。 You do not need to like, this will become like Li Fusheng, will walk into said ; 你不用去喜欢,这会变得像李富胜一样,走入偏道; You cannot go numbly, numb, you neglect is not only the thing that you do not want to see. ” 你不能去麻木,麻木之下,你忽略掉的不仅仅是你不想看到的东西。” „Prince, what to do should that?” “王爷,那该怎么办？” Zheng Fan to along riverbank to south walks while asked. 郑凡一边向沿着江畔向南走一边问道。 „You, the learned adapts.” “你得,学会适应。” This is the answer that Tian Wujing gives. 这是田无镜给出的答案。 The present blood, is fresh, you can see them to tumble and be contaminated in the surface of the river, the tip of the nose, as if can also smell to fill the smell of blood in air. 眼前的鲜血,都是新鲜的,你能看见它们在江面之中翻滚和浸染,鼻尖,似乎还能嗅到弥漫在空气中的血腥味。 Zheng Fan is adjusting the breath of oneself, proceeds to walk step by step, in his brain, but also is reverberating the Tian Wujing words. 郑凡调整着自己的呼吸,一步一步往前走路,他的脑子里,还在回荡着田无镜的话语。 This is indicated, from can under duel defeat Sword Saint exists initially tyrannicalally to you indication. 这是点拨,来自一个当初可以单挑之下击败剑圣的强横存在对你进行的点拨。 Zheng Fan naturally is clear about this indication some importantly preciously, therefore, definitely cannot waste it. 郑凡自然清楚这种点拨到底有多重要多宝贵,所以,肯定不能浪费它。 That only belonged to Zheng Fan Pixiu to see a Zheng Fan person to walk upward, the instinct wanted with coming up, was actually blocked the road by side that only bigger Pixiu. 那只属于郑凡的貔貅见郑凡一个人往上走了,本能地想要跟上去,却被身边那只更大的貔貅拦住了路。 Under setting sun afterglow, 夕阳的余晖下, Zheng Fan is walking slowly, 郑凡慢慢地走着走着, Gradually, 渐渐的, With upstream Yan Army to Chu people slaughters starts to get stronger and stronger, 随着上游燕军对楚人的杀戮开始愈演愈烈, The blood-color on surface of the river, starts to be getting more and more thick. 江面上的血色,也开始愈来愈浓。 As if also because at present the stimulation of scene, qi and blood of Zheng Fan within the body, starts gradually to move restlessly. 似乎也是因为眼前景象的刺激,郑凡体内的气血,也开始逐渐躁动起来。 A Chu people corpse, drifted following the surface of the river. 一具楚人的尸体,顺着江面飘浮了下来。 Then, is second, third, fourth...... 接下来,是第二具,第三具,第四具…… Quick, did not need to count again, because some numbers are not clear. 很快,就不用再数了,因为已经有些数不清楚了。 The upstream position, has Yan Army cavalryman to start to the downstream to pursue, with the bow and arrow, kills these to attempt to mix in Chu people that in the river water passes off fake articles for the real thing to attempt to escape from. 上游位置,有燕军骑士开始向下游追进,用弓箭,射杀着那些企图混在江水中鱼目混珠企图逃脱的楚人。 Chu people river character, universal is much better compared with Yan people. 楚人的水性,普遍的比燕人要好很多。 But under since has started the killer, then Yan people will not be naturally polite, will not give the possibility that Chu people escapes from. 但既然已经开始下杀手了,那么燕人自然也不会客气,更不会给予楚人逃脱的可能。 When cavalrymen after the Zheng Fan side, recognized Zheng Fan, recognized this Savage Calming Earl. 骑士们经过郑凡身边时,自是认出了郑凡,认出了这位平野伯。 Sees Sir Troop-Commander who this previously raised kills the prisoner of war tide a person to walk toward south at this time unexpectedly, some cavalryman greeted one , some cavalryman whipped a mail-armor and helmet of oneself chest to do to deal with the saber. 见这位先前掀起杀俘潮的总兵大人此时居然一个人在往南走,一些骑士问候了一声,也有一些骑士只是用马刀拍打了一下自己胸口的甲胄以作应对。 But in seeing Zheng Fan seems to have no time to pay attention to them, but is burying a first person walks with all one's heart after south, these cavalrymen do not make anything to stay , to continue to chase down the oneself goal. 但在见到郑凡似乎无暇理会他们,只是一门心思地埋着头一个人往南走路后,这些骑士们也就不作什么停留,继续去追杀自己的目标去了。 After the butcher knife holds the front, wants to receive promptly, that naturally is the impossible matter. 当屠刀开锋后,想要及时收住,那自然是不可能的事儿。 When wants initially, the South Pacifying Marquis self-destroying whole families, these kill to get angry psychologically are also withstanding the South Pacifying Army soldiers of enormous pressure simultaneously, the position that but Queen even/including is almost at also one and gave the slaughter. 想当初,靖南侯自灭满门时,那些杀红了眼同时心理上也承受着极大压力的靖南军士卒,可是差点连皇后所在的位置也一并给屠了。 However is good because, here Chu people prisoner of war are many enough, even if being insufficient lets all Yan Army soldiers each people to cut the next severed head, but makes in the oneself mail-armor and helmet sprinkling some blood that have more than enough to spare seriously. 不过好在,这里的楚人战俘够多,就算不足以让所有燕军士卒每个人都能砍下一个首级,但让自己的甲胄溅洒上一些血那当真是绰绰有余。 Is walking, Zheng Fan feels side oneself suddenly, as if together shadow. 走着走着,郑凡忽然感觉到自己身边,似乎还有一道影子。 Left side of the body of oneself, seems to be following oneself together. 在自己的身体左侧,似乎在跟着自己一起走。 The split vision of corner of the eye, seeing on one to put on the black hoodie man, the mouth is holding in the mouth cigarette, the eye socket is somewhat hollow, knuckle flood white. 眼角的余光,看见一个身上穿着黑色卫衣的男子,嘴里叼着一根烟,眼窝有些凹陷,指节泛白。 This person, is very familiar, is that type nearly must break through the familiarity that the mutual lack of understanding overflows. 这个人,很熟悉,是那种近乎要突破隔膜溢出的熟悉感。 But is actually strangeness like that seems very long ago very remote stranger. 但却又是那般的陌生,似乎已经是很久远很久远的陌生人了。 Intense lovesickness, many longing, once were divided the present and in the past, will degenerate into true far away. 再强烈的相思,再多的怀念,一旦被分割到了现在和过去,就将沦为真正的咫尺天涯。 Zheng Fan felt that the line of sight of oneself starts somewhat to blur, 郑凡感觉自己的视线开始有些模糊起来, His cognition, 他的认知, Suddenly presented some deviations and absent-minded ; 忽然出现了些许的偏差和恍惚; Who I am, 我是谁, I am Zheng Fan. 我是郑凡。 I, 那我, Which Zheng Fan is? 到底是哪个郑凡？ In the mind, as if appeared oneself when the work room caught up with the manuscript picture, in ash-tray, stopper chock full cigarette butt, in the trash can of under foot, then there are two barrels of instant noodles. 脑海中,似乎又浮现出了自己在工作室赶稿时的画面,烟灰缸里,塞得满满当当的烟头,脚下的垃圾桶里,则有两桶泡面。 The window curtains is shutting tightly, therefore is unable to distinguish during the daytime and at night, the rhythm of life that because the early rising rests at sundown, regarding some people, no longer has been the mainstream. 窗帘是紧闭着的,所以无法分辨白天和黑夜,因为日出而作日落而息的生活节奏,对于部分人而言,早就不再是主流。 „Thump thump thump!” “咚咚咚！” „Thump thump thump!” “咚咚咚！” „aaaaah aaaaah!” “啊啊啊啊啊啊！” Near ear, 耳边, Starts to hear the intermittent hoofbeat, when in the Gazing River river water by arrow hits a target the sad and shrill pitiful yell of Chu people. 开始传来阵阵马蹄声,以及望江江水中被箭矢射中时楚人的凄厉惨叫。 These sounds, gave to tow to entrain from the memory vortex Zheng Fan, he somewhat opened eyes at a loss again, happen to came dust, confused the eye. 这些声音,将郑凡从记忆的漩涡中给重新拖拽了出来,他有些茫然地再睁开眼,正好迎面而来一阵尘土,迷了眼。 „Earl!” “伯爷！” „Sir!” “大人！” Often has the mistake body, but the cavalry to its salutes, Zheng Fan is rubbing the eye of oneself with the hand, has not reacted. 不时有错身而过的骑兵向其行礼,郑凡只是用手揉着自己的眼睛,没做回应。 Finally, 终于, The eye were comfortably many, 眼睛舒服不少了, But when oneself looks again cautiously to the oneself body left side, he discovered oneself that is wearing hoodie, unexpectedly also there ; 但当自己再次小心翼翼地看向自己身体左侧时,他发现那个身穿着卫衣的自己,居然还在那儿; Still in the oneself step frequency, is walking step by step forward . Moreover, on the face of that oneself, hangs is wiping the smile, this smile, is to oneself. 还在跟着自己的步伐频率,一步一步地向前走着,而且,那个自己的脸上,挂着一抹笑容,这笑容,是对自己的。 Is the taunt? 是嘲讽么？ Does not seem like. 不像是。 Is disdains? 是不屑么？ Also is not. 也不是。 Seemed like saw an interesting matter, in the stamp smiling of oneself. 反倒像是看见了一件有意思的事儿,戳中了自己的笑点。 Zheng Fan put out a hand to tap the head of oneself, he does not know that this was oneself the feeling that wanted to find, but he now is somewhat uncomfortable, he wants to be separated. 郑凡伸手拍了拍自己的脑袋,他不知道这是不是自己想要找到的感觉,但他现在有些难受,他想脱离出去。 And, Zheng Fan does not dare to shift the past the oneself vision to the left side again, starts right the deviation , hoping that in the oneself field of vision no longer appears can make oneself feel dazzling existence. 并且,郑凡不敢再将自己的目光向左侧转移过去,开始偏向右边,以希望自己的视野里不再出现能够让自己感到刺眼的存在。 But he made a mistake, 但他错了, Because this he of little while discovers, 因为这会儿的他才发现, Right oneself, 在自己右侧, Unexpectedly is also standing a person. 居然也站着一个人。 This person whole body is the blood, puts on with oneself exactly the same mail-armor and helmet, actually, with present oneself, exactly the same ; 这个人浑身是血,穿着和自己一模一样的甲胄,其实,和现在的自己,一模一样; The only difference, is in the opposite party eyes that is possibly exuding that on the red pupil and face brim with greedy and enjoys the facial expression. 唯一的区别,可能就是对方眼里那泛着赤色的瞳孔以及脸上洋溢出来的那种贪婪和享受神情。 Zheng Fan starts to cover the ear of oneself with both hands unrestrainedly, 郑凡情不自禁地开始用双手捂住自己的耳朵, He thought that oneself should enter some mental-disorder condition now. 他觉得自己现在应该是进入了某种精神异常的状态。 Possibly is receives oneself to order to kill the stimulation of prisoner of war, 可能是受到自己下令杀俘的刺激, Also possibly was spurred by previously Tian Wujing these words, 也可能是受到先前田无镜那些话语的刺激, …… 或者, Also possibly is the oneself heart, the mood and issue that for these years, has saved , were released at this point thoroughly. 也可能是自己内心深处,这几年来,一直积攒的情绪和问题,在此时,被彻底释放了出来。 I, 我, Who is? 到底是谁？ This is many people will ask a oneself question. 这是很多人都会问自己的一个问题。 But now, 而现在, Actually is Zheng Fan wants to know the issue of answer urgently. 却又是郑凡迫切想要知道答案的一个问题。 What a pity, 可惜了, Blind Man is not at side oneself now. 瞎子现在不在自己身边。 Zheng Fan stops the footsteps, he lowers the head, squatted. 郑凡停下脚步,他低下头,蹲了下来。 In the mind, all kinds of pictures, start to reappear chaotically. 脑海中,各种各样的画面,开始杂乱无章地浮现而出。 A while, oneself places in oneself by the hospital ward of euthanasia in ; 一会儿,自己身处于自己被安乐死的病房里; A while, oneself stood in the Snow Sea Pass top, under looks at savage that attacked a city ; 一会儿,自己又站在了雪海关城头,看着下方正在攻城的野人; Also all of a sudden, oneself stood in the roast duck restaurant, looks at Little Sixth Child is smiling looks at oneself, in the hand takes a roast duck ; 又一下子,自己站在了烤鸭店内,看着小六子笑着看着自己,手里拿着一只烤鸭; …… 紧接着, He discovered that oneself stands before a birthday cake, little friends in the work room are singing the birthday quick music and singing, is the oneself birthday celebration. 他又发现自己站在一个生日蛋糕前,工作室里的小伙伴们唱着生日快乐歌,为自己庆生。 Comes along with the picture fast turn over, is the extremely intense disgusting feeling. 伴随着画面快速翻转而来的,是极为强烈的恶心感。 „Vomits .........” “呕………” Zheng Fan both hands support the tread, starts to retch fiercely. 郑凡双手撑着地面,开始剧烈地干呕起来。 His good pain, the brain is quite sore, the entire portrait was being torn is being same, where his not clear oneself should move toward. 他好痛苦,脑子好疼,整个人像是正在被撕裂着一样,且偏偏地,他不清楚自己该走向哪里。 Blind Man previous life is psychiatrist, actually, other Demon Kings, is not common, in the disposition, simplest most and honest Fan Li, you really dares to think that even where he to does go simple and honest? 瞎子上辈子是心理医生,其实,其他魔王们,也都不是凡品,在心性上,就算是最憨厚的樊力,你又真敢觉得他憨厚到哪里去？ But, perhaps this is under the lamp black. 但,或许这就是灯下黑吧。 For a long time and Demon Kings is together in the same place, Zheng Fan has actually been progressing, has been changing oneself, making oneself adapt to them, in the meantime, is also adapting to this world ; 长时间和魔王们相处在一起,郑凡其实一直在进步,也一直在改变着自己,让自己去适应他们,同时,也在适应着这个世界; Demon Kings also feels joyful about the change of own lord, because, everyone must bind if as expected in together, they naturally do not hope that own lord had not progressed, forever lies down there mixes to eat to wait for death. 魔王们也对自家主上的改变感到欣喜,因为不出意外的话,大家得一直绑定在一起,他们自然不希望自家主上一直没有进步,永远地躺在那里混吃等死。 But Zheng Fan eventually is the person, 但郑凡终究是人, Demon Kings has experiences their respective, has their oneself persona/design, 魔王们有他们各自的经历,有他们自己的人设, Even after this world revives, they have actually been acting according to the oneself natural disposition to live, can not give, does not give, in brief, happy and has one's wish, most important. 哪怕在这个世界苏醒过来后,他们其实也一直在根据着自己的本性在活着,能不迁就,就不迁就,总之,开心和随心所欲,最为重要。 Zheng Fan by that the short time polishes forcefully, his heart, had actually saved too many too many negativities, did not have the place to fall in torrents. 郑凡则是被强行短时间打磨出来的一样,他的内心深处,其实早就积攒了太多太多的负面情绪,却一直没地方可以去倾泻出来。 But Demon Kings also routinely more and more progressive change bigger and bigger lord, treated as a member between oneself. 而魔王们也习惯性地将越来越进步变化越来越大的主上,当作了自己之间的一份子。 Under lamp black, Blind Man, without noticing Zheng Fan in the mood and psychological change, naturally would have no to make to comb and mediate. 灯下黑之下,就连瞎子,都没留意到郑凡在情绪和心理上的变化,自然也就没有做出梳理和调解。 Originally, these issues will not erupt in this time, because Zheng Fan can also continue to endure, the tolerance, has not reached the limit. 原本,这些问题不会在此时爆发的,因为郑凡还能继续忍,忍耐力,还没到达极限。 But today, 但在今天, Actually erupted. 却爆发了出来。 When some cavalries after the Zheng Fan side, are shouting „Earl”, or „Sir” ; 一些骑兵在经过郑凡身边时,喊“伯爷”,或者“大人”; Then before long, they saw Prince also to walk in behind, immediately shouted: 然后过不了多久,他们就看见自家王爷也走在后面,马上喊道: „Prince!” “王爷！” Tian Wujing follows in Zheng Fan behind, 田无镜跟在郑凡的身后, He had not planned with, 他原本是没打算跟过来的,