DR :: Volume #9

#861: Confession and pray

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Opens the heavy/thick front door, what the front surface throws is in the church the pine lumber strong fragrance. Jenny enters the church, looks at the light and bright vault, the sunlight is shining from the above stained glass at present, formed one type in the entire church strange, not dazzling halo. In the church no one, but despite that Jenny was careful again careful, she has turned the head, looks toward all around, after confirming no one here, before this followed the shadow of corner arrived at the front door of confessionary quietly, then opens the fine black sandal wood door to worm one's way into. 推开厚重的大门,迎面扑来的是教堂内松木浓烈的香气。珍妮走进教堂,望着眼前宽敞明亮的穹顶,阳光从上方的彩色玻璃中照射而下,在整个教堂内形成了一种奇异的,并不刺眼的光晕。教堂里没有什么人,但是即便如此,珍妮还是小心了再小心,她转过头去,向着四周望了望,确认没有人在这里之后,这才顺着墙角的阴影悄悄来到忏悔室的大门前,然后打开精致的黑檀木小门钻了进去。 Sits in the narrow and small confessionary, Jenny seems somewhat anxious, big mouth deep breath that she continuously, this, can only hold a space of person is not actually sad, but Jenny actually felt oneself never such anxious. Several times, she wants to turn the head to leave here directly, perhaps she should not come, perhaps her idea is wrong. If so, then can she grasp, was taught ......... leaves here, now also with enough time ......... 坐在狭小的忏悔室里,珍妮显得有些紧张,她不住的大口深呼吸着,这个小小的,只能够容纳一个人的空间其实并不沉闷,但是珍妮却感觉自己从来没有这么紧张过。有好几次,她都想要直接转头离开这里,或许她根本就不该来,或许她的想法是错误的。如果是这样的话,那么她会不会抓起来,然后被教训呢………还是离开这里吧,现在还来得及……… „ What matter has? The lamb of wrong path? & R dquo ; “有什么事吗？迷途的小羊？” Short less than one minute, however looks like probably several hours so to be long in Jenny, when she hears the Ellie sound recovers, this discovered oneself still sit on the chair of confessionary, but hollows out in the theater curtain after pattern before her, screened a familiar form. 短短不到一分钟的时间,但是在珍妮看来却好像足足有几个小时那么长,当她听到爱莉的声音回过神来的时候,这才发现自己依然坐在忏悔室的椅子上,而在她面前镂空花纹后的幕布内,映出了一个熟悉的身影。 Has left without enough time? Said simply casually a matter deceives, but this ......... 已经来不及离开了吗？干脆随便说点儿事情糊弄过去吧,但是这样……… „ That, that I, I have the matter to confess! & R dquo ; “那,那个,我,我有事想要忏悔！” Although in the depths of ones heart still has at sixes and sevens idea, but Jenny cannot help but has actually said. 虽然内心深处依然有着乱七八糟的想法,但是珍妮却已经不由自主的开口说了起来。 „ I. I do not know that my idea is correct. I do not know should oneself go to think, but I am unable to suppress my mood ......... that I do not know how should say is good, I always thought that my in the depths of ones heart has one to be very fearful, very evil sentiment. It wants to control me, making me make some should not the matter of doing ......... & R dquo ; “我。我不知道自己的想法是不是正确。我也不知道自己该不该这么去想,可是我就是无法抑制自己的心情………那个,我不知道该怎么说才好,我总觉得自己的内心深处有一股很可怕的,很邪恶的感情。它想要支配我,让我去做一些不该做的事情………” „ For example? & R dquo ; “比如说呢？” „ For example ......... I am more intimate with others, is not that type ordinary. Is ......... the close relations ......... I wants to feel the flesh of opposite party, the heartbeat of opposite party ............... & R dquo ; “比如………我想要和别人更加亲热,不是那种普通的。是更加………亲密的关系………我想要感受对方的肌肤,对方的心跳……………” How can like this ......... 呜哇,怎么会这样……… Does not want to say so many obviously, but Jenny actually discovered that with amazement own mouth completely disregarded own will, said every single word or phrase the desire of hiding in own in the depths of ones heart. She wants to stop, but actually cannot stop completely, that mouth as if no longer is own, although Jenny goes all out wants to shut up either, is how regardless of her diligently. Does not have the means to achieve. Only can hear own sound to reverberate in the confessionary helplessly. 明明不想说这么多,但是珍妮却惊讶的发现自己的嘴巴完全无视了自己的意志,一字一句的说出了潜藏在自己内心深处的欲望。她想要停下来,但是却完全停不下来,那嘴巴仿佛已经不再是自己的一样,虽然珍妮拼命的想要么闭嘴,可是无论她如何努力。却都没有办法做到。只能够眼睁睁的听着自己的声音在忏悔室中回荡。 „ I want with these lovable child about one steps, although I do not know how should do specifically, but I felt at that time oneself as if must turn into wild animal ......... I have thought denied such sentiment, how regardless of I prayed, it could hardly be removed ......... I feel the matter that this should not handle, should not. But why I clearly know clearly. Is not actually able to change...... me, I want actually ......... is what? & R dquo ; “我想要和那些可爱的孩子更近一步,虽然我不知道具体该怎么做,但是那个时候我感觉自己仿佛要变成野兽似的………我曾经想过否认这样的感情,可是无论我如何祈祷,它都挥之不去………我觉得这是不应该做的事情,不应该的。可是为什么我明明白知道。却无法改变呢……我,我想要的………究竟是什么呢？” Has not known how long, Jenny as if poured out said the mood of oneself in the depths of ones heart continuously hidden thoroughly, then her whole person sits down exhausted like this on the chair, eyes soulless is looking at the above. 不知道过了多久,珍妮仿佛倾诉般的彻底说出了自己内心深处一直隐藏的心情,接着她整个人就这样瘫坐在椅子上,双眼无神的望着上方。 Was finished, all said. Your Highness Saintess thinks certainly that I am one am utterly filthy, the innermost feelings dark woman ......... I will definitely be eliminated the Clergymen status, then? Will I be imprisoned? Shut in the monastery? 完蛋了,一切都说出来了。圣女殿下一定会认为我是一个污秽不堪,内心黑暗的女人吧………我肯定会被剥夺神官的身份,然后呢？我会被监禁起来吗？还是被关进修道院里去？ Thinks oneself might pass in the monastery very much for a lifetime, Jenny then shivered. But at this time, the Ellie sound resounded again. 一想到自己很有可能在修道院里度过一辈子,珍妮便不由的颤抖起来。而就在这个时候,爱莉的声音再一次响起。 „ The lamb of wrong path. It seems like that you had not been clear the outcome that want is anything ........., but, don't worry, does not need to be afraid, that is not any evil matter, is not the unpardonably wicked crime. & R dquo ; “迷途的小羊。看来,你还不清楚自己想要的究竟是什么………不过,不用担心,也不用害怕,那并非是什么邪恶的事情,更不是什么的十恶不赦的罪行。” „ Real? & R dquo ; “真的吗？” Hears the reply of Ellie, Jenny exciting screaming, but is quick she to discover oneself some were extremely rather loud in the confessionary, quickly closes the mouth, having the anticipation look to look again to opposite form. 听到爱莉的回答,珍妮不由兴奋的叫出声来,而很快她就发现自己在忏悔室之中未免有些太过大声了,急忙闭上嘴巴,带着期待的眼神再次望向对面的身影。 „ Really, real? What crime haven't I committed? & R dquo ; “真,真的吗？我没有犯下什么罪行？” „ Hū whistling, naturally no. & R dquo ; “呼呼呼,当然没有。” Heard the speech of Jenny, Ellie exuded euphonious clear laughter. 听到珍妮的说话,爱莉不由的发出了一阵银铃般清脆的笑声。 „ You feel, but is the process that everyone can undergo, till does not need paces back and forth anxiously. We here, to let you from losing to seek for the advance the direction ........., but, the light said like this, perhaps is unable to make you feel at ease, this, 12 : 00 pm, you come to the sacrament room ......... there, your question, can certainly be explained. & R dquo ; “你所感受到的,不过是每个人都会经历的过程,不需要为止彷徨不安。我们之所以在这里,就是为了让你们从迷失之中寻找到前进的方向………不过,光是这样说,恐怕也无法让你安心,这样吧,今天晚上十二点,你来圣礼室………在那里,你的疑问,一定能够得到解答。” Jenny does not know how oneself leaves the confessionary, when her whole person recovers, actually discovered oneself have stood on the stair outside church, warm, even the sunlight of some burning hots shine on her body, instead made her feel an unusual feeling. 珍妮不知道自己是怎么样离开忏悔室的,当她整个人回过神来的时候,却发现自己已经站在了教堂外的台阶上,温暖,甚至有些炙热的阳光照耀在她的身上,却反而让她感觉到了一股奇特的感觉。 „ Yeah? I a moment ago ............ & R dquo ; “哎？我刚才…………” Jenny lowers the head, looks to own both hands, she discovered with amazement, she cannot think completely listened to Your Highness Saintess to say anything in the confessionary a moment ago. Matter that just had obviously, but in own memory is one piece is fuzzy and dim at present, had experienced very long time probably, is unable to recall that at that time Ellie specifically said anything, remembers only, only then ............... 珍妮低下头去,望向自己的双手,她惊讶的发现,自己完全想不起来刚才在忏悔室里听圣女殿下说了些什么。明明是刚刚才发生的事情,可是眼下自己的记忆里却是一片模糊与朦胧,就好像已经经历了很久的时光,以至于根本无法回想起来当时爱莉具体说了些什么,唯一记得的,只有…………… „, Sir Jenny! & R dquo ; “啊,珍妮大人！” At this time, a lively sound resounded suddenly, then saw one to seem like almost big young girl Priest to look like with Jenny arrived at her side that clever fawn racing racing jumped, having the bright smile to greet to Jenny. 就在这个时候,一个轻快的声音忽然响起,接着便看见一个和珍妮看起来差不多大的少女牧师像一头灵巧的小鹿般奔奔跳跳的来到了她的身边,带着灿烂的笑容对着珍妮打了声招呼。 „ How to be in a daze here? Fell ill? & R dquo ; “怎么在这里发愣呢？难道是生病了吗？” „ Maria ......... not, no. & R dquo ; “玛利亚………不,没什么。” Facing the present colleague, Jenny also showed a happy expression reluctantly. She quickly shakes the head, hints herself to have no big obstructing. 面对眼前的同僚,珍妮也是勉强露出了一丝笑意。她急忙摇了摇头,示意自己并没有什么大碍。 „ Just outside solar some dizziness, cannot open the eye suddenly. & R dquo ; “只不过外面的太阳有些眩晕,一时间睁不开眼睛罢了。” „ Yes, but recently was really more and more hot. & R dquo ; “是呢,最近可真是越来越热了。” The innocent girl does not seem to detect mood that Jenny hidden, but is grinning opened both hands to transfer like only the butterfly same place, this stopped to blink to Jenny. 天真烂漫的女孩似乎并没有察觉到珍妮隐藏的心情,而是笑嘻嘻的像只蝴蝶一样张开双手原地转了一圈,这才停下来对珍妮眨了眨眼睛。 „ Does Sir Jenny also want to take care? If by some chance falls ill the words that drops down, but is not worth it. & R dquo ; “珍妮大人也要保重身体哦？万一生病倒下的话,那么可划不来呢。” „ Yes ............... & R dquo ; “是啊……………” Hears the speech of Maria, Jenny sighs, then she as if thinks that anything resembles, raised the head curious looking to Maria. She remembers right the words, this girl most starts is also the same with oneself, when just arrived here is very anxious with anxious, but now, her whole person looks truly worry-free, the bird in joyful forest seems same, don't tell me, has she no longer been worried? 听到玛利亚的说话,珍妮叹了口气,接着她似乎想到什么似的,抬起头来好奇的望向玛利亚。她记得没错的话,这个女孩最开始也和自己一样,在刚刚来到这里时是非常紧张和不安的,而现在,她整个人看起来确实无忧无虑,快乐的仿佛森林里的小鸟一样,难道说,她已经不再担心了吗？ „ Maria? Don't you have the issue? & R dquo ; “玛利亚？你已经没问题了吗？” „ Un? What is Sir Jenny saying? & R dquo ; “嗯？珍妮大人在说什么？” „ Is ......... that ......... about your belief ............... & R dquo ; “就是………那个………关于你的信仰……………” „, Is this issue. & R dquo ; “啊,是这个问题啊。” Hears the Jenny afraid to say a word speech, Maria curious blinking, this is suddenly enlighted the grinning opens the mouth said. 听到珍妮吞吞吐吐的说话,玛利亚好奇的眨了眨眼睛,这才恍然大悟般的笑嘻嘻的开口说道。 „ Un, thanks to Elder Sister Saintess, I have not been worried completely, Sir Jenny also does have the solution worried? Relax, I believe that Elder Sister Saintess will certainly direct that path that Sir Jenny looks for you to go. & R dquo ; “嗯,托圣女姐姐的福,我已经完全不担心了呢,珍妮大人还有没有解决的苦恼吗？放心吧,我相信圣女姐姐一定会指引珍妮大人寻找到你应该前往的那条道路呢。” Said here, Maria looked at one toward all around. 说道这里,玛利亚向着四周望了一眼。 „, I forgot also to have the work to do, then Elder Sister Jenny, we then continued to chat again! & R dquo ; “啊,我都忘了还有工作要做,那么珍妮姐姐,我们回头再继续聊咯！” Is saying, Maria beckons with the hand to Jenny, then racing racing jumps turns around to leave. But looks back that the girl is going far away, Jenny is silent, then she turns the head, looks to the present church. 一面说着,玛利亚一面冲珍妮摆了摆手,然后奔奔跳跳的转身离开。而望着女孩远去的背影,珍妮则是沉默不语,接着她转过头来,望向眼前的教堂。 A sound, reverberates in the brain of Jenny. 一个声音,在珍妮的脑中回荡。 12 : 00 pm ......... sacrament room ............ 今晚十二点………圣礼室…………
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