Jiang Yage looks at his back, the heart is still heavy. 江雅歌看着他的背影,心头依然沉甸甸的。 Her eye is gradually gloomy, she cannot find out any means. 她的眼睛渐渐暗淡下去,她想不出任何办法。 The cell phone made a sound at this time, lowers the head looked, message that above actually grandfather sends. 手机这时候响了起来,低头一看,上面却正是爷爷发过来的短信。 „We held a afternoon meeting in the afternoon, even also called to come conference room to ask little Cao, he indeed did not acknowledge oneself had done. Now also has no evidence, really does not have the means with him. Chen Guang with you, although is the friend, but lacks the foundation eventually, even if there are me and your Grandpa Jin helps him speak, he and little Xue and relations of Little Wu two young guards are still good, but this is insufficient.” “我们下午又开了一下午的会,甚至还将小曹叫来会议室里问过,他的确不承认自己曾经做过。如今也没有任何证据,实在拿他没有办法。陈光与你们虽然是朋友,但终究缺乏根基,即便有我和你靳爷爷帮他说话,他与小薛和小武两个少壮派的关系也不错,但这还不够。” „Old Lin little grandson, although also tendency he, but Lin boy the having no intention political arena, he could not control an uncle generation of matter. Therefore, in any event, tries to find a solution again, again a additional strength, making Chen Guang more law-abiding, he would giving you this face? This is also good for him, depended on you! Chen Guang, eventually is not our people on one's own side, oh.” “老林的小孙子虽然也心向他,但林家小子自身本就无意政坛,他更左右不了叔叔辈的事情。所以,无论如何,再想个办法,再加一把力,让陈光安分些,他总会给你这面子的吧？这也是为了他好,就靠你了啊！陈光,终究不是我们的自己人,唉。” Jiang Yage reads this message, in the heart particularly is uncomfortable. 江雅歌读完这短信,心中分外不是滋味。 This saying uttered fine words, but between the lines was not clearly saying, because in the final analysis Chen Guang is not a person on one's own side! 这话说得好听,但字里行间不分明就是在说,归根结底还是因为陈光不是自己人！ Person on one's own side these three characters, are seemingly simple, but the connotation is profound. 自己人这三个字,看似简单,但却内涵深刻。 Is a little strange, can this not seem like the tone that the grandfather spoke? 就是有点奇怪,这可不像是爷爷说话的语气啊？ Jiang Yage does not know at this time, in Yanjing several thousand kilometers away, Mr. Jiang quarrelled in the conference is heavily engaged, indignant flung the cell phone toward the ground in the conference room, turns the head to walk. 江雅歌此时并不知道,远在数千公里外的燕京,老江头在会议上和人吵得不可开交,气愤不过的在会议室里将手机往地上一甩,转头就走了。 Old Man Jin with urged him, had/left the conference room. 靳老头跟上去劝他,也是出了会议室。 Here Old Man forest makes people pick Mr. Jiang's cell phone, this supplies the quality of cell phone especially also is really not a lid, hit a pit not to go bad the wood floor unexpectedly forcefully. 这边林老头让人把老江头的手机捡起来,这特供手机的质量还真不是盖的,把木地板打了个坑居然硬生生没坏。 Old Man forest an eyeball revolution, has drawn Secretary Chu quietly, told that he illuminates this meaning to give a Jiang Yage round of news. 林老头眼珠一转,悄悄拉过褚秘书,吩咐他就照着这意思给江雅歌发消息。 The soldier secret printed part hair pain, this matter must make Old Man river know, does't he can go all out with? 褚秘书心头发苦,这种事要让江老头知道了,他不得和自己拼命？ But does not have the means that can't this being unjustly discredited petty action, let the old leadership back? 但没办法,这种黑锅小动作,总不能让老领导背吧？ Therefore he then hiding quietly gave in side the message sent, then numb slip erased here, so as to avoid made Old Man river see immediately. 于是他便悄悄的躲在旁边给把短信发了,然后麻溜的在这边删掉,免得让江老头马上看到。 This entire message all stems from the writing skill of Secretary Chu, the words and expressions are the pits, in brings toward the pit in Jiang Yage. 这整条短信全出自褚秘书的手笔,字字句句都是坑,都在把江雅歌往坑里带。 After Jiang Yage reads off, heart at the same time indignant difficult draw, on the other hand in the brain actually tosses about is the last word of message. 江雅歌读完之后,心头一方面气愤难平,另一方面脑子里却翻来覆去都是短信的最后一个词。 People on one's own side! 自己人！ Her tooth club bites more and more tightly. 她的牙棒子咬得越来越紧。 Are person on one's own side these three characters so important? 自己人这三个字就这么重要吗？ But she recalls quickly, from infancy to maturity, she indeed also because of „person on one's own side” this status, from making a debut to start then bon voyage with the current, in the public opinion not black material, the recording sang the party, met on the advertisement variety, was as for making the movie, indeed in the entire entertainment world, various quality resources that oneself occupied is not the common artist may compare. 但她很快回想起来,从小到大,自己的确也因为“自己人”这个身份,从出道开始便一路顺风顺水,舆论里从无黑料,无论是出唱片还是唱晚会,无论是接广告还是上综艺,乃至于拍电影,的确在整个娱乐圈中,自己占据的各项优质资源不是一般艺人可比的。 Oneself and Shiyue elder sister can at the 20-year-old age, become the giant star easily internally, makes a debut except for the child star, the art or techniques of singing and performing skill two have the talent extremely, as well as also enough beside, play the determining factor diligently truly, but also is the unequalled resources incline that „person on one's own side” these three characters bring. 自己与诗月姐能以20岁的年龄,轻而易举在国内成为巨星,除了童星就出道,唱功和演技两项均极有天分,以及自身也够努力之外,真正起到决定性因素的,还就是“自己人”这三个字带来的无与伦比的资源倾斜。 The national ten hundreds of millions people, the bright person far more than 20 million, some people can over, some people actually halfway give way before difficulties diligently early, some people get sucked into the mire, stops at nothing for the high-rank, hypes, supports and holds the thigh, to take off/escape becomes famous even takes off/escapes does not become famous. 全国十几亿人,努力又有才华的人何止千千万,有的人能早早出头,有的人却半途知难而退,也还有人深陷泥潭,为了上位无所不用其极,炒作、包养、抱大腿、一脱成名甚至一脱也不成名。 This way of the world is always unfair. 这个世道从来就是不公平的。 Beforehand Jiang Yage is never willing to consider these issues, was exposed until today finally suddenly, she is suddenly enlighted immediately, such as is enlightened. 以前的江雅歌从不愿去考虑这些问题,直到今日终于被突然点破,她顿时恍然大悟,如醍醐灌顶。 Right, person on one's own side these three characters, are so important! 没错,自己人这三个字,真就那么重要！ Such being the case, you mind isn't Chen Guang is not the person on one's own side? 既然如此,你们介意的不就是陈光不是自己人吗？ Does he have the status not to have the background? 他不是没有身份没有来头吗？ But I have! 但我有啊！ So the determination and thought are surging from her heart most deep place gradually, is getting more and more intense, sweeps across her entire mind rapidly, an extremely intense inexplicable impulsion, burns in her heart, is even more violent. 这般决心和意念在从她心底最深处渐渐涌起,然后越来越强烈,迅速席卷她整个脑海,一种极其强烈的莫名冲动,在她心中燃烧起来,愈加猛烈。 Actually, since sees Chen Guang for the first time , Jiang Yage has displayed anybody is more initiative. 其实,自从第一次见到陈光以后,江雅歌就一直表现得比任何人都更主动。 But because before the numerous accidents of sorts, always her haircut carrying pole heat, Chen Guang always displays beyond the score to resist, moreover is she, although has that idea, but actually cannot set firm resolve. 但以前因为重重机缘巧合,总是她自己剃头挑子一头热,陈光总表现得分外抗拒,另外便是她自己虽然有那想法,但却又总下不定决心。 But this time was different. 可这次不一样了。 She found the reason that particularly renounces to oneself. 她给自己找到个分外决绝的理由。 Good, I must give him a status of person on one's own side! 不错,我要给他一个自己人的身份！ The Shiyue elder sister, sorry, the reaching an agreement fair competition, I do not want, to be the circumstance compel like this, has no alternative. 诗月姐,对不起了,说好公平竞争,我本不想这样的,是情势所迫,是无可奈何。 Jiang Yage is convincing itself in the heart. 江雅歌在心中如此说服着自己。 She pulls out this thought quickly spatially. 她很快就把这念头掏空。 She pinches the fist, thought how I did act swiftly to get there first? 她一捏拳,心想,我就捷足先登了又怎样？ I am to make the cooked rice the raw rice, making him become my man! 我就是要把生米做成熟饭,让他成了我的男人！ Don't you shut out him not to have the status? 你们不是嫌弃他没有身份吗？ He became my man, wasn't the authentic red son-in-law? 那他成了我男人,不就是再正宗不过的红女婿了吗？ By that time, looked that who can also say he doesn't have the status? 到那时候,看谁还能说他没身份？ Looked that who can also say he isn't a person on one's own side? 看谁还能说他不是自己人？ Possibly a little does not do right by the Shiyue elder sister, but she can certainly understand my difficulties. 可能是有点对不住诗月姐,但她一定能理解我的苦衷。 took a deep breath, the Jiang Yage then setting out half step walks toward the bedroom, that side Chen Guang was also disinclined to take off the clothes, neat fell down face up on the bedding, turning over curled the quilt to rest on the preparation, he has not thought that must close. 深吸一口气,江雅歌便起身快步往卧室走去,那边陈光也懒得脱衣服了,干脆利落的仰面扑倒在被窝上,翻个身卷了被子就准备睡,他都没想到要关门。 This in any case is the guest room in villa, is not this bed that Jiang Yage rests, without so many art. 这反正是别墅里的客房,江雅歌睡的不是这床,没那么多讲究了。 Jiang Yage steps the step to walk two steps, actually lived. 江雅歌迈着步子走出去两步,却又顿住了。 She recalls, before had the thoughts in this aspect, when stopped up him in the bathroom in Hynaux office initially, has sprouted in that place the impulsion that he executed a captured offender on the spot, what a pity finally felt strange eventually, does not hope own first time on such confession in that slender small(this little one) environment, then Chen Guang also displayed the insufficient coordination, finally has not really had anything. 她回忆起来,以前自己不是没动过这方面的心思,甚至当初在伊诺会所的卫生间里将他堵住时,也萌生过就在那地方把他就地正法的冲动,可惜最后终究还是觉得不妥,不希望自己的第一次就那样交代在那么狭小的环境之中,当时的陈光也表现得不够配合,最终没有真发生什么。 Now was such for a long time in the past, he became compared recently was overbearing before, in the temper was not quite as if same. 如今又是这么久过去,他最近变得比以前更加霸道,性子上似乎不太一样了。 But does not know that he does have the change to oneself view, can get refused? 但也不知道他对自己的看法有没有改变,会不会又碰钉子呢？ That may be awkward! 那可多尴尬啊！ Can I coerce him to obey with the matter that he disguises as Chen moon/month forcefully? 我能不能用他假扮陈月的事情强行要挟他就范吧？ Otherwise I do first remove completely the clothes run-up overlord to brace the bow simply hardly? 再不然我干脆自己先脱光衣服跳上去霸王硬上弓？ He will not revolt? 他不会反抗的吧？ What to do if were trampled by him by me flew? 万一被我被他一脚踹飞了怎么办？ This fellow has the criminal record, has this possibility! 这家伙可是有前科的,不是没这可能啊！ Otherwise, I first try to put on the sex appeal, a probe his response quietly, then slowly transfers the atmosphere? 再不然,我先试着穿得性感点,悄悄的试探一下他的反应,然后慢慢的把气氛调动起来？ In the Jiang Yage brain does not know shortly transfers many thoughts, but she has not thought only, the person who on this matter actually most suffers a loss is she. 江雅歌脑子里顷刻间都不知道转过去多少念头,但她唯独就没想过,这种事情上面其实最吃亏的人是她自己。 In the world person 20 million, everyone , because the experience and innate gene, have the different characters. 世上人千千万,每个人因为生活经历与先天基因,都有不同的性格。 The Jiang Yage character is so, although she love, because of the status of oneself actor, actually has never realized the sentiments of too many acting boldly regardless of one's safety in the play. 江雅歌的性格便是如此,她虽然从未恋爱过,但因为自己演员的身份,却在戏里体会过太多奋不顾身的感情。 Simultaneously because of her special status background, making her not need to exercise to become Jianghu like the common artist star in entertainment world big dye vat. 同时又因为她特殊的身份背景,让她不需要像一般的艺人明星那样在娱乐圈这个大染缸里锻炼成老江湖。 She to sentiment understanding both complex and simple, she does not care about herself to suffer a loss or not, but pure is thinking, since oneself like this person, why that can't make what with him? 她对感情的认识既复杂又简单,她根本就不在乎自己吃亏与否,只是单纯的想着,既然自己喜欢这个人,那为什么又不可以和他做点什么呢？ As for some far future, she not only cares actually does not care. 至于到底有多远的未来,她既在乎却又不那么在乎。 Does not go imposingly strives, always fears the hand to fear dreading of foot, when finally perhaps old can only stay behind regretted. 不去轰轰烈烈的争取一下,总畏手畏脚的忌惮,最终或许等到老了就只能留下遗憾。 The people must experience imposing liking a moth to the flame for a lifetime time. 人一辈子总得体验一次轰轰烈烈的飞蛾扑火。 It looks like in the Jiang Yage eye, oneself are such likes him, even does not think for his food, if he proposed that wants to have anything, oneself absolutely do not have the courage of rejection. 在江雅歌眼中看来,自己是那样的喜欢他,甚至为他茶饭不思,如果他主动提出想发生点什么,自己根本就没有拒绝的勇气。 The present situation is, although he still does not raise, but I had found a firmest reason to myself! 现在的情况是,虽然他依然不提,但我已经给自己找到了一个最坚决的理由！ She again ruthlessly pinches the fist, therefore I only permit today successfully, cannot be defeated! 她再度狠狠的一捏拳,所以今天我只许成功,不许失败！ Static crawling on the warm bedding, the light master can be about to ascend the sky for own whole person comfortably. 静静的匍匐在温暖的被窝上,光老爷舒爽得以为自己整个人都快上天了。 He has not thought that originally sleeps unexpectedly is such a comfortable matter. 他从来没想到过,原来睡觉竟是一件这么舒服的事情。 Such simple lying down, blows off the head, anything does not go to think, the taste that anything does not care about, can be produced unexpectedly numb by own cerebral cortex as if flutters among the taste in clouds. 只是这样简简单单的躺下,把脑袋放空,什么都不去想,什么都不去在乎的滋味,居然能让自己大脑皮层产生酥酥麻麻仿佛飘在云间的滋味。 Too was really crisp. 真是太爽了。 The eyelid of Chen Guang sinks rapidly more and more, the eye gathers more and more gathers together, finally can sleep well. 陈光的眼皮迅速越来越沉,眼睛合得越来越拢,终于能好好的睡一觉了。 He wants such two to shut simply never open again. 他简直想就这样两眼一闭永远都不要再睁开。 In the meantime, a spooky summon as if transmits from the horizon distant place, the mind of heavy going off had pulled back him forcefully. 就在此时,一声幽幽的呼唤仿佛从天边远处传来,将他本已沉沉睡去的心神硬生生拉回来一些。 Chen Guang mused, I was difficult to be inadequate have a dream quickly? 陈光暗想,我难不成这么快就做梦了？ He draws in the lax spirit to listen slightly, that sound still in sound. 他又稍稍收拢涣散的精神去听,那声音依然在响。 Probably who is summoning his name, this voice sounds elusive distant, is extremely delightful, is clear looks like the oriole, seeming the specialized singer is singing to be the same. 好像是谁在呼唤他的名字,这嗓音听起来空灵悠远,极其悦耳,清脆得像黄鹂,好似专业歌手在唱歌一样。 „Chen Guang, have you fallen asleep?” “陈光,你已经睡着了吗？” „Chen Guang you awake.” “陈光你醒醒呗。” „I have the matter to look for you, how recently did not know, I always have a dream all day long.” “我有事找你呀,最近都不知道怎么了,我成天老做梦。” „Has the strange dream!” “做怪梦！” „Possibly was my hyperaesthesia?” “可能是我过于神经过敏了吧？” „I heard that my possibly has the depression sign. Recently person who in our artist circles contracted the depression many, I a little feared.” “听说,我这可能是有抑郁症的迹象。最近我们艺人圈子里患抑郁症的人好多,我有点怕。” „Chen Guang you and other rest again!” “陈光你等一下再睡啊！” „I heard that has the Qigong Grandmaster with the Qigong to help the person massage the affable pressure, you now are also the martial arts master, should be able?” “我听说有气功大师可以用气功帮人按摩舒缓压力,你现在也是武林高手,应该可以的吧？” „Chen Guang you get up!” “陈光你起来啊！” Pitiful master light/only, this forcefully by Jiang Yage with her „elusive” the voice the condition of soon going to sleep pulls back the reality. 可怜的光老爷,就这样硬生生的被江雅歌用她“空灵”的嗓音愣生生从快要入睡的状态拉回现实。 He extremely painful blurry opening eyes, raised the head slightly, is seeing only to wear Jiang Yage of tissue translucent pajamas to rise to blush, a face does not know that is the anticipation is the tense expression looks at itself. 他极度痛苦的迷迷糊糊睁眼,微微抬头,正看见只身穿薄纱半透明睡衣的江雅歌涨红着脸,一脸也不知道是期待还是紧张的表情看着自己。 What ghost is this? 这是什么鬼？ Am I having the nightmare? 我在做噩梦？ It is not right, should this be the spring dream? 不对,这应该是春梦？ Although already has looked at she bigger criterion in the cell phone picture or the video, even initially short distance with own eyes has looked, personally has traced, but sometimes puts on actually instead compares does not put on completely has to attract the strength. 虽然早已在手机照片或者视频里看过她更大的尺度,甚至当初更近距离亲眼的看过,亲手的摸过,但有时候穿着却反而比完全不穿更有魅惑力。 This time Jiang Yage, annotated this truth perfectly.( To be continued.) 此时的江雅歌,就完美的诠释了这道理。(未完待续。)